The Braxtons Season 1 Episode 1

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The Braxtons S01E01
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00:00Trina, hurry up! I'm coming right now!
00:07We've got Trina in makeup.
00:11Tony's here.
00:14Tawanda's on the way.
00:17You good? You ready for today?
00:19Um, I'm getting ready, emotionally. I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, uh, we'll see.
00:25Are you good?
00:26Yeah, I'm in a good space.
00:30Tamar's in a rout.
00:33Miss E's in the kitchen. She's gonna be cooking.
00:36We should be shooting in about 20 minutes.
00:39The Braxtons.
00:41The Braxtons are bad guys.
00:45Look at y'all.
00:47Alright, y'all, let's get last looks in so we can get this going. Let's get this party started.
00:51This is my first green screen. What's the black on it? What's the background gonna be?
00:56It's gonna be your house in the back.
00:58In the back?
01:00It's been a long time coming.
01:01We've dealt with a lot, and so we have a lot to share.
01:05Matter of fact, the Braxtons never should have gone away. How about that? Wouldn't you agree?
01:12I love you guys.
01:15Yeah, baby, now the time.
01:17I think that the Braxtons remind every family of themselves in some aspect.
01:25Whether it's the music aspect.
01:26Oh, Mary, don't you leave.
01:32Let's watch these pictures, honey. When you're ready for me, let me know.
01:36Oh, you try.
01:37I can't. I'm standing.
01:38Whether you're getting along, whether you're not getting along.
01:41Well, since you left the group, Tony, somebody had to take the call.
01:47The clicks that's within the family somehow reminds you of your own.
01:50Hey.
01:51So glad you're cooking.
01:52With our family, there's always an opportunity for things to go left.
01:57I'm just really excited that things are going right.
02:03You know, I'm glad that we're back.
02:05But the other part of it is I know that we have a missing piece that is never going to be the same without her.
02:10This week is the second anniversary of Tracy's passing.
02:15Tracy wanted everybody to know that she was a fighter.
02:17And that, you know, her illness was not going to break her spirit.
02:23She was going to always remain the Tracy that we all knew her to be.
02:32Tracy may not be here physically, but her spirit and her energy will always be here.
02:39It will be here forever.
02:40Give it up for Tracy!
02:43She called me.
02:44She said, Mommy, I have Kenji.
02:49I felt so helpless.
02:51Like, I couldn't do anything to save her.
02:53I feel like we need to have some type of support.
02:56Like grief management?
02:57Grief management or...
02:58Okay, that's a lot.
03:00I had the echo done.
03:01I had the EKG.
03:02I had blood work done.
03:03What's wrong with your heart?
03:06Supposedly, I got my boys.
03:07I'm having a death of a diesel.
03:10I am who I am.
03:11You accept me or you just don't accept me.
03:13It's just a part of who I am.
03:14I have alopecia and that's just it.
03:17We're just calling to check in on you, see how you're feeling, see how you're doing.
03:20I don't want him to go into a downward spiral.
03:23We need to go ahead and go on grief counseling.
03:28Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
03:31I don't think I'm ready.
03:32I have no idea what to expect.
03:34Any idea for what may need to happen tonight in order to make sure that it stays in a positive direction?
04:05Alright.
04:17Come on, Kayla.
04:20You two have a great day.
04:21What is that you're making?
04:23Beef chorizo.
04:24I am hungry.
04:25I haven't had any food today.
04:26Oh, shocker.
04:27Are you putting all that cheese in there?
04:29Uh, no.
04:30Not unless you want to stay in the bathroom for the next couple of days.
04:32Yeah, I'm good.
04:34When's that going to be done?
04:35In a few minutes.
04:36What are we going to eat with it?
04:37Chips.
04:38That's it?
04:39It's dip.
04:41Any broccoli?
04:45Vaughn and I have been married for almost five years now.
04:47And our blended family has blended together quite beautifully.
04:51And I'm still so much in love with Vaughn.
04:53It's like the first day that I married him.
04:57Pause.
04:58Walk all the way up and then let it go.
05:00Okay, yeah.
05:02Now spread out.
05:04I got you.
05:05I got you.
05:06I got you.
05:08I got you.
05:09She slipped.
05:10I did.
05:11I knew my pants was too long.
05:13I couldn't hold my pants up and hold Trina's dress up at the same time.
05:17It was either her or me.
05:20Watch your boot.
05:21Watch your boot.
05:22Watch your boot.
05:23How are you feeling about the show coming back?
05:26I'm a little leery.
05:28It's been three years now since we've last done the show.
05:31And since everything happened, even with Tracy,
05:33I would have thought that maybe, you know,
05:36it would have brought everybody to a different place where we're closer and things like that.
05:40But that's not what happened here.
05:42And I just wonder how that's going to be actually working together again.
05:46Because we haven't really done any kind of work together.
05:49Not collaboratively.
05:51And that worries me.
05:54I won't say that my sisters and I have become estranged since Tracy's passing.
05:58I feel like no one really wanted to address it and talk about it.
06:02So my feelings were enclosed.
06:04They were put in a box.
06:05And especially for me, that was unhealthy.
06:08I should have had my sisters to lean on to be those people for me to talk to.
06:12But it just didn't feel like that's what they wanted for themselves.
06:17You know we're supposed to be going to dinner with Tony and the girls tonight.
06:20Well, not you.
06:21Who is we?
06:22But me and Tawanda and Tamar and Mommy.
06:25Nice.
06:26Y'all need some time together.
06:27I'm really glad that Tony is in town for a couple of days.
06:30Because we never see each other, okay?
06:32Tonight will be a good check-in to see how everyone's doing.
06:35Especially as we get close to the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing.
06:39Mommy's been pushing for us to talk to a grief counselor together.
06:42But we haven't decided if we're ready to do that yet.
06:45We're going to talk about, you know, Tracy.
06:49We never really sat and talked about it as a family.
06:52Ever since, you know, we had her memorial service.
06:56How are you feeling?
06:57It's been difficult. It's been difficult.
06:59Grieving is a very real thing.
07:01You know what I mean?
07:02And that's why it's so important for us to stay in contact with baby Kevin.
07:06With little Kevin.
07:07Little Kevin is not just Tracy's son.
07:09He's our only child.
07:11They had the deepest bond in the whole entire world.
07:14Hey, Kevin!
07:16I think the loss of Tracy for little Kevin
07:20was one of the most detrimental things he's ever been through in his life.
07:24And we need to make sure he knows that just because he lost his mother,
07:27he isn't alone.
07:28He lost his mom very early in life.
07:30But he doesn't speak to his dad as much either.
07:32What?
07:35I didn't know that.
07:36Not as often as I would think.
07:40I won't speak negatively about his dad because his dad was grieving too.
07:44No matter my personal opinion toward him,
07:47he's still a grieving husband.
07:49But when your surviving parent is shut down
07:51and the parent that you lost is gone,
07:53who do you have?
07:55It's almost a loss of both parents.
07:58I think we should check with him and see how he's doing.
08:00I just don't know.
08:02The situation must talk for everybody.
08:03Yeah.
08:05It talks for everybody.
08:09But Tony said that she has something to say to us,
08:12but you just never know what it's going to be.
08:14Good or bad?
08:15I don't know.
08:16Tony, in true Tony fashion,
08:17asked the family to come to dinner
08:19and she had something to tell us.
08:21You know, but this time,
08:22when she told us that she wanted to talk,
08:24the setting of her tone was very melancholy
08:27and I'm really afraid
08:29because Tony has always been recluse when it comes to her feelings.
08:32She's never really been this person
08:34who just wants everybody to know what's going on with her.
08:36You know what?
08:37What?
08:38It don't matter what she wants to talk about.
08:40The fact of the matter is let all of y'all be together.
08:42Now, that I agree with.
08:48We've never truly grieved together
08:50since Tracy's passing
08:51because I don't think I'm ready.
08:53I haven't talked to anyone at all.
08:55You just try to live with a broken heart.
08:57This is really messed up.
08:58I'm scared like every day
09:00and I can't even handle that feeling.
09:21Hey, Mom.
09:22Hey.
09:23Everybody looks amazing.
09:24Nice.
09:25I would just like to say for the record,
09:27I'm not paying
09:28because y'all do this to me every time.
09:30Who's paying?
09:31Tawanda, she's late.
09:34This family dinner is the first time
09:37that everyone together filming again.
09:40It feels so good
09:43to have everyone in the same room.
09:46However, I'm missing Tracy.
09:49How's everybody been?
09:50I ain't seen everybody.
09:51I ain't seen or talked to you.
09:52Where you been?
09:53I've been working.
09:54Good.
09:55I'm excited.
09:56I haven't worked in 15 months.
09:57These days, I'm a bit bi-coastal
09:59between L.A. and Atlanta
10:00but I've been singing in L.A. more lately
10:02since I've been rehearsing
10:03for my new Las Vegas show
10:04with Cedric the Entertainer.
10:06It's called Love and Laughter
10:08and it's a variety show
10:10with singing and dancing
10:11and it's called Love and Laughter.
10:14And it's a variety show
10:15with singing and dancing and comedy
10:17which is kind of new for me
10:18but I'm getting more and more excited
10:20about the challenge of it all.
10:23You feel like you're ready?
10:24I'm a little nervous.
10:25Yesterday, I was like,
10:26I'm nervous.
10:27Cedric, I haven't performed this.
10:28I'm never nervous like this.
10:30So just anxiety.
10:31That's all.
10:32You got this.
10:33Yeah, you're fine.
10:34You got this.
10:35I actually had a Vegas show
10:36over 15 years ago in 2007
10:38and while I was doing that show,
10:40I had chest pains.
10:43That's when I was diagnosed
10:44with lupus.
10:45And I was told then
10:46that I may never be able
10:47to perform again.
10:49I was scared to tell anyone.
10:51The truth is that I have lupus.
10:54What do you mean?
10:56I've been battling it for a while
10:59and I don't want to tell anyone
11:00because everyone's like,
11:01oh, you can't tell anyone
11:02because you can't work
11:03and you don't want to tell anybody
11:04because it may defer people
11:05from wanting to work with you.
11:06Suddenly, now I'm tired
11:07of faking it.
11:09I'm a little scared
11:10because I haven't performed
11:11in so long.
11:12But the doctor said 15 months
11:14and it's exactly 15 months.
11:16Oh.
11:17Oh.
11:18I know I have to tell the girls
11:19about the health scare
11:20which makes me feel
11:21some kind of way
11:22because the last health scare
11:23we heard was Tracy.
11:25My family know that a few months ago
11:27I had to have a stent put in my heart
11:30which was extremely scary.
11:32But I haven't told them
11:33the nitty gritty,
11:34the details of it,
11:35what really happened.
11:37So I got to make sure,
11:39you know,
11:40I tell them without making them,
11:41I want them to feel at ease
11:42I should say.
11:43And it's not easy
11:44to talk about for myself
11:45but on the brink of Tracy's stuff
11:47I don't want to get them riled up.
11:49Oh, it's only okay.
11:50So I don't even want to tell them.
11:52Maybe I shouldn't.
11:53I don't know.
11:54You look really good.
11:55I do?
11:56I can tell you've been over
11:57in that California lifestyle.
11:58I'm over here
11:59in this Georgia lifestyle.
12:00Ugh, I hate living
12:01in Lemon Pepper Island.
12:03You know what?
12:04What's that?
12:05What's Lemon Pepper Island?
12:06That's where I live at.
12:07Everything is Lemon Pepper.
12:08They probably got
12:09Lemon Pepper pedicures.
12:10It's Lemon Pepper everything.
12:12Lemon Pepper and Hoka,
12:14Hoka, Lemon, Hoka,
12:16Lemon, Hoka.
12:17When we have guacamole,
12:18we eat avocado toast.
12:19I eat that.
12:20What?
12:21What about you?
12:22Is you single?
12:23What's the tea?
12:24Oh, that's a big tea.
12:25Uh, I feel like I'm single.
12:27I feel like I'm pretty much single.
12:31What's that mean?
12:32Pretty much?
12:34I was engaged.
12:35I'm not married.
12:36I'm not engaged anymore,
12:38and I'm not married.
12:39And that's all I'ma say.
12:40So you got a boyfriend?
12:42I'm focused on my two boys
12:44and my work.
12:45It's been a strange time
12:47since Tracy's passed,
12:49but I am happy
12:50in my life overall.
12:52Just not in a place
12:54for a relationship.
12:56Right now.
12:57Yeah.
12:59What are you checking?
13:00What are you doing?
13:01What are you checking?
13:02What are you doing?
13:03First love club?
13:04Under my eye.
13:05Oh, yeah.
13:07Ah!
13:09Wow.
13:10Oh, wow.
13:11Man.
13:12Y'all did this on purpose.
13:13Y'all went and no, we did not.
13:15Oh, my God.
13:16Why you copying off of me?
13:17Nothing wrong with it.
13:18They did it on purpose.
13:19No, we did not.
13:20I didn't see Trina all day.
13:22All I want to know is,
13:23what new pussycat?
13:25Y'all used to dress like this
13:26when y'all were young.
13:27I can't.
13:28I'm flabbergasted.
13:29Trina.
13:30Huh?
13:31Tracy is like 100%
13:32looking down, crack it up.
13:34I mean, I've been missing this.
13:36Whenever we get together,
13:37there's always this crazy
13:38and silly moments.
13:39And with Tracy,
13:40it was even crazier.
13:41She made everything fun.
13:42I have to pee right now.
13:43I can't wait.
13:44Don't pee, Tracy.
13:45This is an ocean.
13:46Don't pee.
13:47Tracy.
13:48I have to pee.
13:49Wait for a bathroom, Tracy.
13:50Hey!
13:51Hey!
13:52Hey!
13:53Hey!
13:54Where you get that big
13:55Bob Marley one?
13:57I just don't see where
13:58it's like a seat's missing.
13:59It is missing.
14:00Tracy's holding our purses.
14:02Yeah.
14:03No, it's not like...
14:04I'm not holding everybody's purse.
14:06Everybody take they own.
14:07Here's yours.
14:08Here's yours.
14:09And here's yours.
14:10I hear all the time from our fans
14:13how they miss watching our antics.
14:21Oh!
14:23Laughing with me
14:25Laughing with us
14:35That's our old Whitney class.
14:37Whitney gonna get you.
14:38Have a seat.
14:40And crying with us.
14:41I don't know what you're
14:42talking about, baby.
14:43It is the truth.
14:44Singing with us.
14:45The trumpet sounds
14:53And he must go away
14:56Let me go
15:01Let me go
15:09Let me go
15:12She got four kids
15:13And that's enough
15:15She don't want no more kids
15:17And that's just her
15:18We don't
15:20We don't
15:22We don't like all of y'all
15:25We don't
15:27Happy birthday to you
15:35Thank you, guys!
15:37And we were filming
15:38for your birthday in L.A.
15:40She was telling me and Trina,
15:42she was like,
15:43I can't respond.
15:44Oh, it's fine.
15:45Oh, my God, it's fine.
15:47Oh, it burns.
15:48Oh, it burns.
15:49Can I get a kettle of water?
15:52Yeah, she was sad.
15:53When she finally went
15:54to the doctor.
15:55When she went.
15:56I was in L.A.
15:57Yeah.
15:58And she called me.
15:59She said,
16:00Mommy, I have cancer.
16:04Help us.
16:07She said,
16:08but I'm gonna beat this.
16:09I said, I know you will.
16:13When Tracy got diagnosed,
16:14it didn't seem real at all.
16:15It still doesn't.
16:18For me, family is the most
16:19important thing in my life.
16:21I've spent my whole life
16:22caring for and protecting
16:23my sisters,
16:24but this was different
16:25because there was nothing
16:26I could do.
16:27I felt so helpless.
16:29I couldn't do anything
16:30to save her.
16:31That's really hard
16:32for me to digest
16:34because I was the sick one,
16:36not Tracy.
16:39Anyway, I'm sorry, guys.
16:40I just need a moment.
16:42Okay, here we go.
16:45I can't mess up my makeup.
16:50You know,
16:51I feel like we need to have
16:52some type of support.
16:54So I'm just saying,
16:55like a grief management
16:56or, because that's a lot.
16:57It's a lot too.
16:58You know what I'm saying?
16:59Yeah.
17:00Everybody is dealing with it
17:02in their own way,
17:04but I think Trina really
17:07needs to be there
17:08for her sister.
17:09I think Trina really
17:11and truly needs
17:13extensive counseling
17:16because she was there
17:18when Tracy took her last breath.
17:24Has anybody gone
17:25to grief counseling?
17:26I probably should have
17:27after Tracy.
17:28Yeah.
17:29I have before,
17:30but not after Tracy.
17:31Probably should have.
17:32Yeah.
17:33Every time I see
17:34your necklace.
17:36Oh, yeah.
17:37I don't have mine on today.
17:39Tracy wanted us to wear
17:40the sisters.
17:41She just,
17:42like I want my sisters
17:43to all wear.
17:44No, she said
17:45she wanted us to take her
17:47wherever we go.
17:49Tracy loved hummingbirds.
17:51There was a,
17:52just this whole
17:54mural on her back.
17:56It was five hummingbirds,
17:58so it represented every sister.
18:00Before she passed,
18:01she told us that she always
18:02wants us to take her with us
18:05so she can continue her journey.
18:07So wherever I go,
18:08whatever I'm doing,
18:09I take her with me.
18:11She's still here.
18:13She's still here.
18:15Now, the only time
18:17I ever take Tracy off
18:20is when I'm in a moment
18:21with my husband.
18:22I'm sure she doesn't
18:23want to be there.
18:24Sorry, Tracy,
18:25but I'm sure you didn't
18:26want to be there.
18:27How's little Kevin doing?
18:28He's going through
18:29some things, you know.
18:30He's going through
18:31a divorce, so.
18:33Wait, what happened?
18:34What happened?
18:35Did you tell everybody
18:36what happened?
18:37What happened?
18:40I am taking it back
18:42that little Kevin
18:43is going through a divorce
18:45because I see little Kevin
18:46all the time.
18:47We have dinner and catch up
18:49and things like that,
18:50but he's never told me
18:52about his situations
18:54with my niece.
18:56Tracy would be sad about that.
18:58Very sad.
18:59Has little Kevin
19:00done grief management?
19:01No.
19:02No.
19:03Loss of his mom,
19:04I miss a lot.
19:05His best friend.
19:08I heard that Kevin
19:10was getting a divorce.
19:13And I know,
19:14I think of Tracy,
19:16that would break her heart.
19:18Because it's breaking mine,
19:20for God's sakes.
19:21Is she about to cry?
19:22What's wrong?
19:23Yes, she is.
19:25You can't touch Trina
19:26when she's crying.
19:28As time go by.
19:29Is this cheese?
19:31Don't put your hand
19:32on my face like that.
19:35Let's change the subject.
19:36I'd like to hear Tony's news.
19:41I went to the doctor.
19:47Here's to Tracy.
19:48I'm not above you.
19:49Flank, flank, flank.
19:50I'm not below you.
19:51I'm right here with you.
19:52How are you guys feeling
19:53about being here tonight?
19:57What's going on?
19:58Y'all got so many secrets.
19:59So irritating.
20:00Trina's going tapping
20:01and it's like,
20:02but this is not the forum.
20:03This is not the forum.
20:09I'd like to hear Tony's news.
20:13I went to the doctor.
20:15My heart was aching.
20:16It was like,
20:17I had had every test done.
20:18I had the echo done.
20:19I had the EKG.
20:20I had blood work done.
20:21And I went to get the angio.
20:23And the doctor was like,
20:24that's your pre-op.
20:25So what do you mean my pre-op?
20:26No, you have surgery.
20:27You gotta look inside your heart.
20:30What's wrong with your heart?
20:31What's wrong with your heart?
20:32If the heart attack had happened,
20:33they caught it just before it happened.
20:34If I'd had a heart attack,
20:35I wouldn't survive.
20:36I wouldn't be here right now.
20:39But it was something called
20:40the Widowmaker.
20:42They told me,
20:43your sister was watching over you.
20:48Because you, by rights,
20:49should be dead today.
20:51You should not be alive today.
20:54I've always known, Tony,
20:56health was serious.
20:58I didn't take it lightly.
21:00As a mother, I were.
21:03And I think she feels that
21:06if Tracy can leave now,
21:09so soon,
21:11well, maybe me too.
21:15The thing that's really messed up,
21:18Dr. McGregor,
21:19I was told that
21:21even though I got the stent in,
21:23you will eventually need bypass surgery.
21:26Because if I have a heart attack,
21:27I won't survive.
21:30I had to have a stent put in my heart,
21:32which was extremely scary.
21:35It's a very scary procedure itself.
21:37But when my doctor told me
21:39I might not ever be able
21:40to do a tour again,
21:42OK, I heard it before.
21:44But this was different.
21:45They say you may never be able
21:46to do another tour
21:47because you could have a heart attack
21:48and it could kill you.
21:49It's like crazy anxiety.
21:50It's like,
21:51you gotta think about it all the time.
21:54I'm having a government diesel.
21:56Who am I taking care of now?
21:57Who am I taking care of now?
21:59It's just really messed up.
22:00I'm scared.
22:01Like every day,
22:02if I have a heart attack,
22:03I won't survive.
22:04And I can't even handle it.
22:06Just because they say it
22:07doesn't make it true.
22:11All I could think about
22:12were the boys.
22:14And I hate saying it out loud
22:15even now.
22:17It's real.
22:20It's real life.
22:22To be scared every day,
22:23every day,
22:24you can't even understand.
22:25Like,
22:26is that heartburn?
22:27Am I having a heart attack?
22:29The Bible says,
22:30speak things although they are what?
22:32And so they were.
22:34And so it is.
22:35That's it.
22:36That's how that works.
22:37That's it.
22:38As soon as you feel that
22:39that fear is coming in here,
22:41you demand it to leave
22:42and it will.
22:43That's just it.
22:44Did you point to my vagina?
22:45Yes.
22:46You demand it to leave
22:47and it will.
22:48No, if you don't use it.
22:49You don't use it,
22:50you lose it.
22:52Now that's a fact.
22:53Seeing my family rally around Tony
22:54with so much love and support
22:56reminded me of
22:57how many times
22:58we've hugged each other
22:59and loved on each other
23:00in the past.
23:01And it gives me hope
23:02that we can be as close
23:03as we used to be
23:04and it might take time
23:05but we always have Tracy with us
23:07making us stronger.
23:10I needed this more
23:11than I wanted to admit to myself
23:12and I honestly think we all did.
23:14Oh, you'll be fine, Tony.
23:16Yep.
23:17You're already okay.
23:18You're already good.
23:19You're already okay.
23:20For me,
23:21the main reason
23:22for wanting to do
23:23The Braxtons again
23:25is because of Tracy.
23:28She wanted us to do the show.
23:30She wanted us to talk about
23:32her cancer, her illness
23:34in hopes that it would help someone else
23:36maybe battling it.
23:39Whenever there's a loss,
23:40a death in a family,
23:41it can go either way.
23:42It can bring you closer
23:43or further apart
23:44and I think this was her way
23:46of making sure we stayed together.
23:54Listen, let me tell you something.
23:55You already live
23:56and you can't be afraid to live.
24:01I thought I was strong
24:02but I wasn't strong enough to see it.
24:05And if somebody says
24:06Trina drinks too much,
24:07well, I'm sorry.
24:09That's what Trina needs right now.
24:13You act like you guys are enemies.
24:19I can't take it.
24:20It's too much.
24:24Turn it up!
24:29Trini!
24:30Trini!
24:31You look adorable.
24:32So do you.
24:34I got you a drink
24:35and I got me a drink.
24:36Alright, but after today
24:37I'm on a hiatus.
24:38So, why?
24:39Because I need my stomach to be flat.
24:41It's got a speed bump on it.
24:44Umba and I have always been super close.
24:47You know, Tawanda and I live in Georgia.
24:49Toni and Tamar live in California.
24:51My brother Mikey and Tracy
24:52live together in Maryland.
24:53So, it just made more sense
24:55for Tawanda and I to gravitate
24:56towards each other.
24:57But especially after Tracy's passing,
24:59we've gotten even closer
25:01because you just never know.
25:03Yes, thank you so much.
25:04So, you know, Trina,
25:06a lot of people
25:07were sending me messages saying,
25:09Oh my God, is Tawanda sick?
25:11Is Tawanda sick?
25:13Oh my God, is she sick too?
25:15First of all, you remember
25:17that we all said that we were
25:19going to cut half our hair.
25:20Right?
25:21But you didn't cut your hair.
25:24I have a face that's round like mommy's.
25:28Y'all have slender faces,
25:29mine is round.
25:30That was my inheritance.
25:32I hadn't exactly told the world
25:35that I have alopecia.
25:36A lot of people assume
25:37a lot of different things.
25:39I took pride in how I looked.
25:40And I have to be honest,
25:42I didn't think about my body.
25:45It was what was going on
25:46in the inside.
25:47And that was, oh my gosh,
25:48people are going to know
25:49that I have alopecia.
25:50Oh my God, maybe people
25:52aren't going to like me anymore.
25:53How do you feel about it now?
25:55I am who I am.
25:56You accept me
25:57or you just don't accept me.
25:58It's just a part of who I am.
25:59I have alopecia and that's just it.
26:01I like it.
26:02Well, thank you.
26:04There's this video of Tracy.
26:06And she's got her long
26:08little skinny fingers.
26:10And she's just rubbing
26:11on Tawanda's head.
26:12And Tawanda has all these
26:14patches, you know,
26:17like missing hair.
26:19I used to always do my hair.
26:20Didn't you, Tracy?
26:22Remember that?
26:23Remember that?
26:25Only on Tracy,
26:26we just always just rub it,
26:27just rub Tawanda's hair.
26:30And Tawanda cut off
26:36all her hair.
26:37And Tracy said that
26:38she should do it.
26:39And I need a second
26:42because you're not going
26:43to get me.
26:44You're not going to get me
26:46Hmm.
26:48I don't know why,
26:49but Little Kevin's on my mind.
26:50Is he really?
26:51Yeah, yeah.
26:52You want me to call him?
26:53Yeah.
26:54Okay.
26:55Since Tracy passed,
26:56we have really been trying
26:57to be there for Little Kevin
26:58as much as possible.
26:59I know we can never
27:00fill that void
27:01of losing his mom
27:03and his best friend.
27:05But we are definitely
27:07doing the best that we can
27:08to be there for him.
27:10Hi!
27:12Hey!
27:13How are y'all?
27:14We're just calling
27:15to check in on you,
27:16see how you're feeling,
27:17see how you're doing.
27:20I love you.
27:21You look amazing.
27:22Look at your hair.
27:23Yeah, you're twisted.
27:26Wait, wait.
27:27What?
27:28What?
27:29Your wife braided your hair.
27:31When did she do that?
27:40But she did your hair.
27:42Right.
27:44Little Kevin is Tracy's
27:45only son,
27:46and I think that
27:47the death of Tracy
27:49has really affected
27:50his marriage.
27:52I'm sorry.
27:57Yeah, yeah.
28:01He's lost a mom
28:02and a best friend,
28:03and he's losing his wife,
28:04so I can only imagine
28:06what he's going through
28:07emotionally.
28:08We were all together
28:09last night,
28:10and what we understand
28:12is that
28:13we need to go ahead
28:14and go on grief counseling.
28:16Okay.
28:18After last night,
28:19we all agreed
28:20to have family grief therapy,
28:21and we're deciding
28:22that we're going to go
28:23to Tony's house.
28:24Mommy and Trina
28:25are cooking Tracy's
28:26favorite meals,
28:27like oxtail
28:28and turkey wings
28:29to celebrate her.
28:30And we're also
28:31going to meet
28:32with the grief therapist.
28:34This is a different
28:35journey for us,
28:36and I'm very hopeful
28:37that maybe
28:38whatever's going on
28:39with everybody
28:40in the family,
28:41maybe they can get it out.
28:42Because I think
28:43that's important.
28:44Would you want to be
28:45a part of that, too?
28:47Yeah.
28:50Yeah.
28:52Yeah.
28:55Of course.
28:56Of course.
28:58Yeah.
28:59I know you do.
29:00I don't want him
29:01to go into
29:02a downward spiral,
29:03you know,
29:04especially during holidays,
29:05especially during those
29:06commemorative moments.
29:07That's when a lot of people
29:08get so downtrodden,
29:09you know,
29:10they just don't want
29:11to have to deal with
29:12the stress.
29:13They don't want to have
29:14to deal with the hurt.
29:15They don't want to have
29:16to deal with their feelings.
29:17He's got to get it
29:18out of his body.
29:19But you know,
29:20we're going to get
29:21through this together.
29:22Yes.
29:23Okay.
29:24I love you!
29:25Just a little bit.
29:26Bye.
29:28Here's to Tracy.
29:29I'm not above you.
29:30Plank, plank, plank, plank.
29:31I'm not below you.
29:32I'm right here with you.
29:33Yes.
29:41Tell me,
29:42what do you feel like
29:43you need help with?
29:45When we go through
29:46therapy sessions,
29:47a lot of things
29:49are revealed.
29:51I just want y'all back.
29:52Are you okay?
29:53No.
29:54Okay.
29:55Go check on him to Wanda.
29:56He has a warrant.
29:58Wait a minute, what?
30:11No, ma'am, I need you
30:12to slice the, um...
30:13Onions?
30:14The onions and the garlic.
30:15No, I can't get that
30:16stuff in my clothes.
30:17Well, I hadn't changed yet,
30:18so...
30:19I have my chalet to do.
30:20Oh, my God.
30:21Yeah, girl.
30:22Prima donna.
30:23Everybody know that.
30:24It's my middle name.
30:25This week is the two-year
30:26anniversary of Tracy's passing,
30:27and we're getting ready
30:28for the wedding.
30:29I'm so excited.
30:30I'm so excited.
30:31I'm so excited.
30:32I'm so excited.
30:33I'm so excited.
30:34I'm so excited.
30:35I'm so excited.
30:36I'm so excited.
30:37I'm so excited.
30:38I'm so excited.
30:39And we're getting ready
30:40for our family grief therapy
30:41at Tony's house.
30:42I invited a therapist,
30:43and her name is Spirit,
30:44and she helped me so much
30:46in the past,
30:47and I'm hoping she can do
30:48the same for everyone else.
30:49Mommy and I came early
30:50to start cooking some
30:51of Tracy's favorite dishes,
30:52but Tony has to get
30:53camera ready,
30:54and Towanda and Tamar
30:55are on their way now.
30:57♪♪
31:02I'm back.
31:03Hey, Tom.
31:04You on your way here?
31:05Yeah.
31:06Okay.
31:07I'll be there in a few minutes.
31:08I'm just going to
31:09temperature check.
31:10You good?
31:11You ready for today?
31:12Um, I'm getting ready.
31:13Emotionally, I'm getting
31:14made up for it,
31:15but emotionally,
31:16uh, we'll see.
31:19I'm in a good space.
31:21You know, I'm eager to listen.
31:23I'm eager to learn.
31:25I'm eager to grow.
31:27Yeah.
31:28Yeah, I haven't,
31:29I haven't talked to anyone
31:30at all about Tracy's stuff.
31:32I've been dealing with it
31:33on my own,
31:34so I'm optimistic
31:35that this will help me.
31:37Yes!
31:40I'm optimistic that this
31:41grief management thing
31:42will work,
31:44but I just miss her.
31:50I just miss her every day.
31:53I try to make myself
31:54think of something positive,
31:55like the butterfly doesn't
31:56know it used to be
31:57a caterpillar,
31:58and the caterpillar
31:59doesn't know it's going
32:00to be a butterfly,
32:01so Tracy's a butterfly.
32:04You just try to live
32:05with a broken heart,
32:06and it's really difficult
32:07trying to make yourself
32:08live with a broken heart.
32:11Well, you know what?
32:12It's not that real corny.
32:13It's hard to try to live
32:14with a broken heart,
32:15so maybe she can help
32:16unbreak our hearts.
32:17I know that sounds
32:18real corny.
32:19Toni Braxton!
32:21You had to put your song
32:22in there,
32:23Unbreak My Heart?
32:24I wasn't even thinking about,
32:25I'm talking about
32:26Johnny Mathis' version.
32:27I'm singing Johnny Mathis'
32:28version of Unbreak My Heart.
32:29Oh, no, uh-uh, no, no, no.
32:30That is amazing.
32:31Well, at least we can
32:32smile and laugh, you know?
32:34Well, I'll see you
32:35in a minute.
32:36All right, see ya.
32:37Bye.
32:54Hey!
32:56I think grief counseling
32:57is very important.
32:59Whether you lose someone
33:00to death or lose someone
33:01in a relationship, you know,
33:03I just feel like it's
33:04something that you have to do.
33:06Why you got no
33:07surgical gloves?
33:08Oh, hey, good mother.
33:09Because I had
33:10clean eyelids.
33:13Tracy loves buttermilk biscuits,
33:15so I'm making her
33:16in her honor.
33:17Let's have some champagne.
33:19I got a quick question.
33:20So what's the objective of today?
33:23I think it depends
33:24on the individual.
33:25What do you want to accomplish?
33:26Oh, I'm here for moral support.
33:28I've been to counseling.
33:31I've been to every
33:32kind of counseling.
33:33I've been to a psychiatrist.
33:35I've been to a spiritual
33:36counselor.
33:37I've been to IFAs.
33:38I've been to everybody.
33:40Different things call
33:41for different kind of people
33:42to explain it to you properly.
33:44The way my help is set up,
33:45I don't care where it comes from
33:46as long as I get it.
33:47Grief counseling is a lot
33:48different than regular counseling.
33:49I've been to regular
33:50counseling before.
33:52Let me ask you a question.
33:53This is not...
33:54I'm not trying to be
33:55derogatory.
33:56Ask the questions
33:57that you want to ask.
33:58Where does spirit come from?
33:59Why is she calling
34:00her spirit?
34:01That's her name.
34:02Oh.
34:03Obviously, she ain't
34:04come from you.
34:05Who is she?
34:06Well, I've actually known
34:07her for a lot of years.
34:08What was the first
34:09experience with her?
34:12Honestly?
34:13Please.
34:14The first time that I
34:15had a conversation with her,
34:16and this was almost
34:17five years ago,
34:18and that's when
34:19Gabe passed away.
34:20Oh, no.
34:22It was very helpful.
34:24But I just wasn't ready.
34:25No, I feel you.
34:26I wasn't ready.
34:30I'm asking you
34:31to marry me.
34:32Before I was married
34:33to Vaughn,
34:34I was married to Gabe
34:35for 14 and a half years,
34:37and we were on and off
34:38for the last few years.
34:40Mom!
34:41What the f***
34:42is in your hair?
34:43You don't like it?
34:44No!
34:45He loved me.
34:46He loved my family.
34:48They loved him
34:49in their own way.
34:50Put on some pants.
34:52Mm-mm-mm.
34:53What?
34:54Nobody want to see
34:55Dick Van Dyke
34:56all over the place?
34:57What?
34:59After Gabe and I divorced,
35:00we stayed really good friends,
35:02and when he passed away
35:03from cancer,
35:04he was only 43 years old,
35:06and even though
35:07I was very happy
35:08with Vaughn at the time,
35:09and still am,
35:10the pain was unexpected
35:12because I lose someone
35:13who was a really big part
35:14of my family
35:15and the lives of my children,
35:17and that wasn't something
35:19I was ready for.
35:21So when you asked her to come,
35:22can you help my family,
35:23what did you ask her to help?
35:25I just knew,
35:26even from a short period of time,
35:27how she helped me.
35:28She asked questions
35:29that I didn't want to face
35:30at the time,
35:31but I knew that I had to.
35:32Okay.
35:33Well, can we get this show
35:34on the road?
35:35I'm ready.
35:36We're going to get this
35:37road on the show.
35:38I got to go upstairs
35:39and change my stuff.
35:40Why do you have to change?
35:41Because I brought an outfit
35:42that Tracy gave to me.
35:43Oh, okay.
35:44Oh, that's what
35:45you're doing today?
35:46That's what I'm doing today.
35:47Okay.
35:48Let me tell you what I need.
35:49Let's make some tea.
35:50Let Trina go get dressed.
35:51When you come back down,
35:52we're going to set up over here
35:53and get all comfortable,
35:54so whatever is happening,
35:55we be ready.
35:56We're all so ready.
35:57Okay.
35:58Where's your fancy stuff?
35:59Where's the Toni Braxton stuff?
36:00We got tea stuff.
36:01We got Toni Braxton stuff.
36:02Yeah, we'll get the
36:03Toni Braxton stuff.
36:04Okay.
36:05I do have a little bit
36:06of fancy Toni Braxton tea stuff.
36:07I'm a tea girl.
36:08I love tea parties.
36:09I like collecting tea sets.
36:10Tamar, she loves it.
36:11Where are your
36:12Toni Braxton trays?
36:13I haven't been here
36:14in Atlanta in a second.
36:15I've been in L.A.
36:16working on,
36:17you know, that show stuff.
36:18You cannot find,
36:19like, paper cups
36:20and bowls and spoons
36:21in her house
36:22unless I bring it there.
36:23It's Toni Braxton.
36:24You got to see it.
36:25It's Toni Braxton.
36:26You got to see
36:27my house.
36:28Like, what you think she got?
36:29You got a tea towel.
36:30I have everything.
36:31I just don't know
36:32where it is.
36:33Oh.
36:34Thank you, Mommy.
36:35Ooh, you look beautiful.
36:37Go, girl.
36:38You hear the doorbell?
36:39Trina, can you answer?
36:40Yes.
36:41Because I don't know her.
36:42I'm going to take off my robe.
36:43That would be nice.
36:44Come on.
36:45Let's go sit down.
36:46Hurry up.
36:47Hurry up.
36:48Let's sit down.
36:49Come on.
36:50Why are we running?
36:51Because we want to be seated
36:52when she gets here.
36:53We're not late for class.
36:54Knocking, knocking.
36:55It's me and Spirit.
36:56Okay, let's hold, Trina.
36:57Let's hold, Trina.
36:58And let's wait
36:59for our cameras over here.
37:00Hurry up.
37:01Let's sit down.
37:02Come on.
37:03I don't get a lot of space.
37:04You got space right there.
37:05No, there's mine over here.
37:06Go ahead.
37:07Hey, guys,
37:08can you just let me
37:09just do a final look?
37:10Okay.
37:11And Trina,
37:12you're walking with Spirit, okay?
37:13Yes, sir.
37:14Hey, guys,
37:15can you just let me
37:16just do a final look?
37:17Yes, sir.
37:18And Trina,
37:19you're walking with Spirit, okay?
37:20Yes, sir.
37:21Kevin Jr.
37:22is going to be on the Zoom.
37:23Okay.
37:24And Mr. Braxton
37:25is also going to be on the Zoom.
37:26Okay.
37:27He's still up?
37:28My daddy's up.
37:29Daddy's up.
37:30He took a nap.
37:31Everybody got slate?
37:32Camera's off beating.
37:33Camera's off beating.
37:34Camera's off beating.
37:35Okay.
37:36I'm going to be
37:37going to the bathroom.
37:38I'm going to the bathroom.
37:39I'm going to the bathroom.
37:40I'm going to the bathroom.
37:41I'm going to the bathroom.
37:42I'm going to the bathroom.
37:43Camera's off beating.
37:51Hey, everybody.
37:52Hi.
37:53That's Spirit.
37:54That's Mom.
37:55Hi, how are you?
37:56Hello.
37:57Nice to meet you.
37:58After the passing of Tracy,
37:59everybody's trying to
38:01deal with their pain.
38:03You okay?
38:04Is this my chair?
38:05Yes, that's your chair.
38:06I want them to have
38:08grief counseling
38:09because they need it,
38:11for God's sakes.
38:12I need extensive
38:13grief counseling also.
38:15Hey, Daddy.
38:17Hello.
38:18Hi, Dad.
38:19Y'all good?
38:21Daddy got his name tag.
38:23It's hilarious.
38:24He says Michael Jackson
38:25on his shirt.
38:28Hey, Mama.
38:29Hi, handsome.
38:31Hey, Dad.
38:33One of the things that I like
38:34to start off by saying is
38:36grief looks different
38:37for everybody,
38:38and sometimes we think
38:39that we're grieving one thing
38:41and we start to pull on that,
38:43and then we realize that
38:44there's a whole lot of things
38:46that are connected to that
38:47because grief is really
38:48just a feeling.
38:49But I'm wondering,
38:50since you're the person
38:51that called,
38:52tell me,
38:53what do you feel like
38:54you need help with?
38:58Can I not go first?
39:01Why don't you want to go first?
39:03Because I don't think I'm ready
39:05to say how I feel yet.
39:07Hmm, okay.
39:09We're clearly nervous
39:11about this family grief
39:12counseling session,
39:13and the truth is
39:15we're not great communicators, okay?
39:17We don't know how to communicate
39:18with each other.
39:19We don't.
39:20We just shut down,
39:21and the next time we see each other,
39:22hey, but we ain't never
39:23talked about it.
39:24We just pushed it under the rug.
39:26I miss you all terribly.
39:30I'm worried that holding
39:31our feelings in would be
39:32the worst thing for us
39:33in the long run,
39:34so I think this is really,
39:36this is really needed.
39:40Okay.
39:41Who else?
39:42What are you all feeling?
39:48We've always dabbled
39:49in a little bit of
39:50family group therapy,
39:51and I think in a lot of cases
39:52it has worked.
39:53I love you girls.
39:55When we, as a family,
39:56go through therapy sessions,
39:59a lot of things are revealed,
40:03like things that have been suppressed,
40:06conversations that have been suppressed
40:07that we didn't deal with,
40:09so I don't think that today
40:10is going to be any different.
40:14Sometimes everybody is ready,
40:15and sometimes nobody
40:16really wants to.
40:17How are you guys feeling
40:18about being here tonight?
40:26I have no idea how to feel yet.
40:28So are we just kind of
40:29disconnected from our feelings?
40:30No, not disconnected.
40:31Maybe a little,
40:32but I haven't done
40:33grief management before,
40:34so I have no idea what to expect.
40:37Okay.
40:38How do I help you?
40:39I wish I could
40:40give you some answers.
40:42I want this to be
40:43what I like to call
40:44a no-judgment zone.
40:47I do not believe in
40:48pinning individuals
40:49against each other.
40:50I do not believe
40:51in creating conflict,
40:53and I do not believe
40:54that any individual
40:55is ever a problem
40:57in a situation.
41:00I believe that the problems
41:01are the problem,
41:02and it is up to you,
41:03as a family,
41:04to be able to work
41:05through those problems.
41:07It's shifted.
41:08It's gone past
41:10how we feel
41:11in this whole
41:12bereavement situation.
41:14I can't help you
41:16if you guys aren't clear
41:17on what you actually
41:18want to talk about
41:19as real problems.