The Braxtons Episode 3 - Family Matters
The Braxtons Episode 3
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00:00I've been rehearsing for my new Las Vegas show called Love and Laughter.
00:15What's wrong with your heart?
00:16I was told that if I have a heart attack, I won't survive.
00:27The death of Tracy has really affected his marriage.
00:30I don't want him to go into a downward spiral.
00:33Yes, I have to call y'all back.
00:36He has a warrant.
00:37So you just went to jail?
00:38I wasn't strong enough to watch Tracy take her last breath.
00:43You're dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder, and you need treatment.
00:48A lot of things are revealed.
00:52Y'all got so many secrets, it's so irritating.
00:55We're not connected like we were.
00:57Everybody's mad about something.
00:59I should give you the carrot and move forward.
01:01Okay, this time we'll be okay, now forget it.
01:02What is happening?
01:04You act like you guys are enemies.
01:08I just lost a child!
01:12Don't you know how short life is?
01:16I think Tracy was the glue, and we never realized she was the double stick glue.
01:25Audio is good.
01:31Everybody ready to rock?
01:33Hi, guys.
01:35Hey, Trini-weenie.
01:37Hey, baby girl.
01:39Hey, Trini.
01:41How are you?
01:43Hey, I'm Smugums.
01:45How was your trip in, for God's sake?
01:47That's a whole trip.
01:49That's a ride, isn't it?
01:51Every time I go anywhere, it's like dropping bread crumbs like Hansel and Gretel.
01:54Well, yeah.
01:56I don't think a trail of bread crumbs would help her find her way to and from any place, because she's directionally challenged.
02:04But I'm glad Trina's able to make it to lunch today.
02:06After last night's grief counseling, we all could use a drink, and Trina is the bomb when it comes to picking out amazing drinks.
02:16Okay, it's a gin-based drink.
02:18Oh, this one right here?
02:20The blueberry?
02:22And it is good.
02:24Well, can I have a virgin one?
02:26They don't do virgin ones.
02:28Oh, I don't want a slut.
02:30I want a virgin.
02:32All you do is ask for a mocktail.
02:34A mocktail.
02:36Mock.
02:38Nothing wrong with a little whoredom every now and again?
02:40Excuse me.
02:42Absolutely.
02:44Hey, nephew.
02:46This is a prepaid call from Kevin, an inmate at the county correctional facility.
02:50All calls are subject to recording.
02:52To decline, please press 2.
02:54To accept, please press 5.
02:56Hey, nephew.
02:58How are you feeling?
03:00I'm with Aunt Trina, and my mom here.
03:02Can I put you on speaker? Is that okay?
03:04Okay, hold on.
03:06Did he find out why he's there?
03:08The charge is that it's a prepaid call.
03:10Oh, Antavious will get it off.
03:12We're about to call Antavious to let him know exactly what's happening.
03:14We don't need to get into details,
03:16but there has been some charges
03:19that's been related to this messy divorce situation
03:21that involves little Kevin.
03:23And everybody knows that I call him Scratchy.
03:25And whether or not
03:27it was a mistake
03:29with him failing to appear in court,
03:31the family attorney
03:33is already looking into it,
03:35and little Kevin is in Maryland,
03:37and he's so far away.
03:39So I'm pretty sure he's feeling a little alone right now.
03:41We are here for you, nephew.
03:43We got you. You know we do.
03:45Thank you so much.
03:47Thank you so much.
03:49Absolutely, baby.
03:51We got you. We love you.
03:53Okay, I love you so much.
03:55Okay, bye.
03:57Bye.
03:59It'll be okay.
04:01You know, it's very
04:03challenging because we don't
04:05know what's really
04:07going on with him.
04:09Pain is pain.
04:11And to lose
04:13your mother, and they were so,
04:15so close, and
04:17maybe that's why he
04:19and his wife are having problems.
04:21I don't know. We don't know.
04:23But all I know
04:25is the loss
04:27of his mother, I think
04:29that's the big issue.
04:31I really do.
04:33How do you think
04:35last night went?
04:37I don't know.
04:39It was honest, and that's the only way you can heal is if you're honest.
04:41Spirit has good energy.
04:43I think I need to see her a couple more times
04:45in individual settings.
04:47Yeah, I think you should.
04:49You might need to see her every week.
04:51Once a week. And I'm not being funny.
04:53I'm serious.
04:55Take it negatively, actually.
04:57I think that would be good for me.
04:59You've been through
05:01a lot.
05:03It took me a long time
05:07to be able to put it into words.
05:09Now, putting it into
05:11the words, I don't know how to compartmentalize
05:13the feeling
05:15in association with the words.
05:17And I think that's
05:19going to take some time.
05:21With therapy.
05:23With therapy, of course. Absolutely.
05:27I'll tell you what
05:29what really
05:31hurt me
05:35is Tracy
05:37asked you guys
05:39to get along.
05:41And to me,
05:43it's like
05:45no one really
05:47honored what she said.
05:49I see y'all wearing her little
05:51necklace and all of that.
05:53You wearing a part of her.
05:55Wherever you go, she goes.
05:57And then last night, it's like
05:59nobody listened
06:01to what she said.
06:03It was just devastating to me.
06:07Are we really not getting along?
06:09Or are we all processing the death of our sister?
06:11I mean, for me,
06:13moving forward is putting everything
06:15in the past.
06:17But still respecting everyone's boundaries.
06:19And right now, I think
06:21we need to celebrate that last night
06:23we started our healing journey as a family
06:25and we just can't
06:27push anyone to heal any faster.
06:29Well, Mom,
06:31ability and
06:33willingness are two different things.
06:35If you
06:37choose not to
06:39participate,
06:41no one else
06:43can do anything about it.
06:45That's right.
06:47Other than you,
06:49the rest are very
06:51protected
06:53of what they're
06:55feeling.
06:57I've seen the side of the girls
06:59that did not exist
07:01before all
07:03the cameras.
07:05You have a wall,
07:09Tony,
07:11and Tamar.
07:13If one was hurting,
07:15everybody was hurting.
07:17They were each other's best friend.
07:19But it seemed like
07:21when things began to happen
07:23that there was
07:25no time.
07:27Or they didn't want to take the time.
07:29They have to fix it
07:31for God's sakes.
07:33I know everybody said,
07:35but you're the mom.
07:37But they're their own individual.
07:39And I know sometimes it's hard.
07:41I know that.
07:43Tracy knew that.
07:47But against all odds,
07:49she knew
07:51in her mind and heart that y'all can do it.
07:55We have to.
07:57Well,
07:59children
08:01of mine,
08:03behind kids that's going to pay for the bill.
08:05Katrina.
08:07See, I can't pay the bill because Tony, I have a cow.
08:09Why?
08:11Mommy, you didn't pay for that bill.
08:13I know better than that.
08:15Didn't she be calling you guys,
08:17asking y'all why y'all let me?
08:19I'm going to tell it.
08:21Why would you be a tattletale?
08:23Because I want you.
08:25You little snitch.
08:27Snitches get stitches.
08:47Hey, kid.
08:49How are you?
08:51TV, my sister.
08:53Hey, love.
08:55I took the red eye to L.A.
08:57because I'm meeting with my manager, Kenneth,
08:59and my music supervisor, Walter,
09:01to go over the plans for the new show in Vegas
09:03with Cedric the Entertainer, which starts
09:05in less than a month.
09:07And even though I'm still processing all the emotions
09:09that came out from the grief counseling,
09:11I need to put my mind back into my work.
09:13How's it been working with Cedric
09:15and putting his stuff together?
09:17Ced has been, like, super amazing.
09:19He comes in.
09:21We go over his set,
09:23all of the changes that he's asking for.
09:25But what's been really amazing
09:27is to see the camaraderie
09:29between Tony and Cedric.
09:31Cedric and I doing this show together,
09:33it takes a lot of the pressure off me.
09:35I don't feel like I have to do it.
09:37It's like I have a co-star,
09:39which helps me as a performer.
09:41It helps me just charge my battery again
09:43because I haven't performed in over four years.
09:45With that in mind,
09:47how do we make this show?
09:49How do we make it as easy as possible?
09:51What do I do? What do you suggest?
09:53Because the scariest part for me
09:55is my health,
09:57even though I feel good.
09:59Just every day, I'm like,
10:01I just hope I don't get sick.
10:03Every day, it's like anxiety every single day.
10:05So now that we know this,
10:09what happens if I get fatigued?
10:11What do we do? Let's be prepared for it.
10:13It's not easy for us
10:15to navigate
10:17because of health issues
10:19because you just don't know when it's going to happen.
10:21Exactly.
10:23But it's the real.
10:25Because I want her to be on this earth longer.
10:27Exactly.
10:29And that's the most important thing.
10:31In just a few short weeks, I'll be back
10:33on the Vegas Strip, and I'm trying hard
10:35not to let my past health scare
10:37get into my head.
10:39But the truth is, my lupus could flare up at any time.
10:41And more complications
10:43to the major heart issues I'm facing
10:45right now.
10:47We have to be prepared. I've prepared the entire team.
10:49Say I'm tired.
10:51Give me a second. Can you run that a second time?
10:53Let me get out.
10:55That kind of stuff. That's what we're talking about.
10:57Musically, stuff like that.
10:59We have it prepared.
11:01Let's take a burst out of that really quick and just get through the night
11:03because I'm a little tired.
11:05Everything is outlined because I know that look
11:07she'll give me on the stage.
11:09And we're looking at each other
11:11and she's like,
11:13one of those nights.
11:15And it happens to everybody, whether you have an element or not.
11:17But at the end of the day,
11:19I'll stop the entire show
11:21with regards
11:23to her health.
11:27I feel like I'm constantly
11:29under construction. I think I'm one of those
11:31people who needs to always
11:33be in therapy.
11:35Take it from the top, guys. From the top of the show.
11:37The Vegas show premieres next week.
11:39And I'm so anxious because I'm not doing great.
11:41You've been dodging
11:43a conversation.
11:45You had a session.
11:47What happened during that?
11:51Let's repo for energy.
11:53Copy that.
11:55We're good.
11:57Wait, wait.
11:59Hold on a sec.
12:01Everyone hold.
12:03Cool.
12:11♪♪♪
12:29I like to say I'm a
12:31California girl by way of an Atlanta girl.
12:33Three, two,
12:35action.
12:37What's up, everybody? It's your girl Tamar Braxton.
12:39And it's Eve. We can't wait to share
12:41some of our favorite recipes.
12:43This is how the Braxtons brunch.
12:45It is so exciting
12:47to do this cooking show with Tamar.
12:49She's excited.
12:51She's very excited. But you know,
12:53she thinks she's a boss. Check out our
12:55brand new cooking show
12:57on Cleo Show.
12:59No, on Cleo TV. Okay, Cleo.
13:01But I let her think
13:03that. I'm like, it's okay.
13:05But do you know who's the best cook in the family?
13:09Do you know who the best cook in the family is?
13:11Baby, let me tell you something.
13:13I make a mean
13:15BLT at two o'clock
13:17in the morning.
13:19Mmm.
13:21Okay.
13:23It's a Braxton brunch
13:25on Cleo TV.
13:27Welcome to our kitchen.
13:29Man, this is such a dream
13:31come true. Allowing
13:33my mother to live
13:35out her dreams. I got you covered.
13:37I'm going to give you
13:39all of my great recipes.
13:41Get all of the flavors working together.
13:43Absolutely. It's a lot of healing
13:45and cooking. It's a lot of healing and
13:47sharing recipes
13:49and stories. I was
13:51maybe six or seven years old
13:53and we used to have this brown stove.
13:55Remember that brown stove, Loni?
13:57I remember my mother being
13:59in the kitchen. I guess you were making
14:01gravy and you were shaking like this.
14:03And she used to put on a show for us.
14:05And I'm like, why do you shake
14:07like that when you make gravy?
14:09And she was like, because that's what it takes.
14:11It's not
14:13just with Tamar.
14:15When the girls are in the kitchen,
14:17it's all of us.
14:19My favorite meal to cook with
14:21Tamar, I think
14:23is spaghetti. Mmm.
14:25I thought you liked Tony's
14:27better. I do love
14:29Tony's better, but that doesn't mean yours is not good.
14:31She doesn't even use ground beef.
14:33She's like Chuck.
14:35Just expressing each other
14:37and showing each other love.
14:39Food
14:41brings
14:43peace.
14:45It
14:47does.
14:49And I think because you don't have time to argue
14:51because your mouth is full.
14:53This way, you do a flat way towards
14:55the glass
14:57like this. But however you
14:59want to put it. I think it looks better like that.
15:01I think so too. Here come Trina.
15:03Trina showed up
15:05on our cooking show. It was
15:07so, so nice.
15:09After I do that. Do you put the strawberries
15:11on top of the cake or just put it around?
15:13No, not right now. Okay.
15:15Now we may have our conflicts, but when we're in the
15:17kitchen, it's magical.
15:19And there's nothing but good conversation
15:21and laughter and great food.
15:23So do you do anything to your cut up strawberries?
15:25Before Mommy and Tamar finished
15:27filming the last of their cooking show,
15:29you know I had to show up
15:31and lend my mixology skills. Okay.
15:33Plus, I'm not going to miss out on some dessert.
15:35Well,
15:37can't say you can't deny it's pretty.
15:39How about that?
15:41Well, you know
15:43they say beauty is in the eyes.
15:51You know what?
15:53You guys not going to call my date.
15:59It
16:01sort of started
16:03when my husband passed.
16:05When I did grieve for him,
16:07I was almost punished. Punished
16:09by who? By
16:11You've been dodging
16:13a conversation. What
16:15one is that? You had a
16:17session. What happened
16:19during that?
16:29Ain't nobody, ain't nobody
16:31loves me like me.
16:33I've walked
16:35in here before. I was here before.
16:37With who? A friend of mine.
16:39You took a walk with a girlfriend
16:41or a boyfriend? Guy friend.
16:43I know that's right.
16:45I like to say I am here in Atlanta
16:47on assignment. Because as
16:49Tracy's health started to decline
16:51more and more,
16:53did I notice that my mother was by herself.
16:55And I didn't like that.
16:57But, you know, I really do feel like
16:59I have been a thorn in my mother's side
17:01when it comes to her dating. I got girlfriends
17:03and I got boyfriends.
17:05Like what you mean you been to this park
17:07with a man?
17:09I ain't never even been to this park.
17:11My mother's a pimp, let me find out.
17:13My mother is me.
17:17So this is a big time for you, your cooking show.
17:19How long have you been waiting to be doing a cooking
17:21show? Jamar, I've been waiting for a long
17:23time. Look at God.
17:25I know. Long time since
17:27Logan was a baby. I know.
17:29Remember when Logan would help me cook?
17:31Yeah. At what, nine months old
17:33he making biscuits? Yeah.
17:35Stealing biscuits. Yeah, stealing biscuits.
17:37Yeah. This week we are shooting
17:39our last episodes for
17:41the cooking show with me and my mom.
17:43We are going to be teaching you how to cook some old,
17:45some new dishes.
17:47I'm going to show you how your grandmother
17:49used to do it. How about that?
17:51Yes, I'm going to show you the updated version.
17:53And although it's been
17:55amazing and so
17:57exhilarating and so rewarding,
17:59it's been a lot of hard work.
18:01But I don't know, it's been my
18:03favorite project thus far outside of
18:05writing my book. How's your book
18:07going? Oh, it's coming.
18:09Every time I think I'm finished, I'm not.
18:11You gotta add more. I'm adding more
18:13and more and more because things are
18:15happening in real time.
18:17So is it about you?
18:19Only about me. It's about my life's journey.
18:21And like healing,
18:23the help that I got to get over
18:25the obstacles.
18:27So it's more like a
18:29autobiography self-help book.
18:31You know, some people give
18:33the perspectives of their own
18:35opinions, but I'm giving a perspective
18:37of somebody who is
18:39in active therapy.
18:41You know what I mean?
18:43Because I can't figure it out by myself.
18:45Yeah.
18:47And you don't want to give the name.
18:49I don't have a name yet.
18:51I thought it would
18:53be under construction at first,
18:55but I don't know.
18:57And I feel like I'm constantly
18:59under construction.
19:01You know?
19:03But that's a beautiful, that's a nice
19:05name.
19:07Because you're constantly, you said it,
19:09under construction.
19:11Constantly working on yourself.
19:13Trying to better yourself.
19:15It does. It makes you a better person.
19:17So I think it's good.
19:19Yeah.
19:21I'm so glad that Tamar is writing
19:23this book. Because you need
19:25to just put it out
19:27there. You know?
19:29So you can function.
19:31It's good therapy. It's good therapy for her.
19:33I think I'm one of those people, I think I had to come to
19:35terms with being
19:37one of those people who needs to
19:39always be in therapy.
19:41And that doesn't mean I'm cuckoo for Coco Puffs.
19:43I just think that
19:45it's almost like being an alcoholic.
19:49No, you gotta go to your meetings.
19:51You know, to stay focused.
19:53And stay on track.
19:55And that's how I feel about therapy.
19:57I have to go to my meetings.
19:59Go to your meetings.
20:01Period.
20:03Absolutely.
20:15Good job.
20:37Can we just go to Mike's entrance?
20:39Tony with you for the new little groove part.
20:41We just push today.
20:43Boom.
20:45Boom.
20:47Boom.
20:49We freeze.
20:51Boom.
20:53Right here. Left.
20:55And left.
20:57Ladies, can we change that? Can we all match?
20:59That's really pretty. I love
21:01vroom and vroom.
21:03Yeah, that feels really good. Great.
21:05Just that one part.
21:07Good. Yeah.
21:09Should we do that again? Just one more?
21:11Cool. All right. You got it. Here we go.
21:13Let's do it. Yeah. Just for our brain. Good job.
21:15Yeah. Sorry.
21:17I get excited with the sparkly mic.
21:19I love my sparkly mic.
21:21Here we go.
21:23I'm so excited.
21:25It's just a month until the premiere of Money Residency
21:27in Las Vegas with Cedric the Entertainer.
21:29Cedric is gonna bring on the funny, of course,
21:31while I'm gonna bring on the music.
21:33Little dancing.
21:35We have to make sure it all works together seamlessly,
21:37which isn't as easy as you might think.
21:39There are millions of things to think about
21:41all at once.
21:51And we even have to
21:53come up with a few surprises
21:55for the audience, so that part's gonna be great.
22:03Let's go!
22:09Good job!
22:11And that's how it's done.
22:13Okay?
22:15Good job, Tony.
22:17How you feeling?
22:21It's like I'm on Soul Train.
22:23Right, right. Hey.
22:25Well, Don, it's great to be here.
22:29How was it creating the show?
22:31It was wonderful.
22:33You would think they would do a pause
22:35so I could breathe.
22:37Exactly that.
22:39Performing has always been physically demanding,
22:41but right now I know I need to pace myself.
22:43I need to stay strong
22:45all the way through the run of the show
22:47so I can deliver the true Toni Braxton experience
22:49for my fans and for me.
22:51Oh, Umba.
22:53Umba!
22:55Toni Braxton!
22:57What are you doing?
22:59Toni Braxton!
23:01What you doing?
23:03I was at a park and I was about to do
23:05a nice long walk, but it started raining.
23:07For real?
23:09For real.
23:11I'm in rehearsals. Of course you are.
23:13I'm like so hot.
23:15You have a hot flash?
23:17No, I'm not having a hot flash.
23:19I just finished dancing.
23:21You've been dancing like Debbie Allen dancing?
23:23I've been trying.
23:25A little more Britney Spears than Janet-ish.
23:27Girl, don't say that. Stop.
23:29But what's going on in Atlanta?
23:31Scratchy is out of jail.
23:33So he went to jail?
23:35Well, he was released yesterday on his own recognizance.
23:37Which is a good thing.
23:39But he didn't call me
23:41to let me know he was released.
23:43I mean, nothing.
23:45For real?
23:47I don't get it.
23:49When I just tried calling him, I wanted to check on him.
23:51I wanted to make sure he good.
23:53So something must have happened.
23:55The situation with Kevin Jr. seems to be getting worse and worse by the day.
23:57I'm just really glad Tawanda is going to check on him in person.
23:59I would love to go, but right now
24:01I'm restricting my travels because
24:03traveling isn't good with my lupus
24:05and having the heart condition and issues with my blood.
24:07And I just flew back from Atlanta
24:09a couple days ago, so I really can't fly again
24:11so soon.
24:13But I'm trying to stay calm
24:15and not go to a dark place
24:17because we don't want to panic
24:19and put the energy out there.
24:21But it's really getting serious now.
24:25I wanted to tell you something that's positive.
24:27Trina is going to continue
24:29grief therapy
24:31with Spirit.
24:33Okay.
24:35I'm thankful that she realizes that
24:37she really needs it.
24:39I think that
24:41Trina doesn't really want to go down
24:43a rabbit hole of grief.
24:45But to
24:47be able to release
24:49the fear of people judging her,
24:51watching her,
24:53this is something that I know that Trina's spirit really needs.
24:55I can't lose this weight
24:57because I just feel like I just got to eat
24:59all of my emotions.
25:01I'm up to 6 and 7 o'clock in the morning.
25:03I don't sleep. The sun comes up
25:05before I go to bed.
25:07Every night
25:09for two years.
25:13She has been suppressing
25:15all of that for so long.
25:17And I
25:19really want Trina to open up
25:21and be honest about her feelings because
25:23that's the only way that she's going to
25:25feel is if she's honest about her feelings.
25:27Well, when you go into grief counseling,
25:29girl, I probably need
25:31to get a sleeping bag, girl.
25:33You said a sleeping bag, girl?
25:35A lantern? A fireplace?
25:37I do need to go to grief counseling.
25:39That's what I'm saying.
25:41I felt some kind of way after our meeting because
25:43it was a little heavy for me after I left.
25:45When I got home, it was heavy. It was heavy.
25:47I will say that I applaud you
25:49for speaking how you felt.
25:51It was heavy.
25:53I'm glad you did. Are you kidding me?
25:55Oh, thanks. I'm even talking about it now.
25:57I don't even want to talk about it right now.
25:59I'm sorry.
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26:15Nope.
26:17Do you know she thinks she the boss?
26:19Where you bring it?
26:21He lost it. I didn't lose it.
26:23That's not what happened. Oh, so you lost it.
26:25Let's re-appropriate it.
26:27Copy that.
26:29Wait, wait. Everyone home.
26:31Everyone is home.
26:33Boom.
26:35All right.
26:37Cameras in final positions.
26:39This is tree-despective session.
26:41Lights up.
26:45Cameras ready outside.
26:47Speeding.
27:05Grief is connected to everything else.
27:07I don't know what to do
27:09with the noise.
27:11I wasn't strong enough to watch
27:13Tracy take her last breath.
27:15You're dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder.
27:17What do I do with it?
27:19And you need treatment.
27:21Hi.
27:23Hey, you made it.
27:25Yes.
27:27Oh, great.
27:29I'm so glad you came.
27:31You look good.
27:33Oh, these old things.
27:35They're comfy, though.
27:37That's what's most important.
27:39I think the grief counseling
27:41kind of reminded myself
27:43there was a lot that I needed to unpack.
27:45And I didn't realize how much healing
27:47I needed at the time until
27:49there was an outpouring of emotion
27:51and just allowing
27:53that bottle to
27:55open because I think I just shook it up
27:57so much when the top opens, it was like
27:59fizz going everywhere.
28:01And I had no cup to put it in.
28:03The other night,
28:05we talked about
28:07just the ball of emotions
28:09that you are experiencing.
28:11The depression, the anxiety.
28:13I told you about the post-traumatic stress disorder.
28:15How do you see
28:17yourself now?
28:21I still have some work to do.
28:23A lot of work to do.
28:25You talked about the nightmares
28:27when you were sick.
28:29Yes, I don't like to close my eyes.
28:31Is it always the same thing?
28:35It's not always the same thing.
28:37It's just different
28:39movies going
28:41on in my head.
28:43Replays going on in my head.
28:45Different things.
28:49I want to know specifically about
28:51the snapshots
28:53that you have taken and strung together
28:55to make a movie.
28:57I'm not ready for that one.
29:05If it hurts for you
29:07to touch it,
29:09it does.
29:11But then it lives
29:13in you until we touch it.
29:17And I can't help you fix it
29:19if you can't let it go.
29:28One of the things
29:30that is going to be important
29:32to your recovery is
29:34for you to be able to sleep.
29:36It's going to be important
29:38for you to be able to control your thoughts
29:40so they're not just running wild
29:42and free.
29:44I try to shut it off. I try to shift it.
29:46I watch a lot of television.
29:52But these are distractions,
29:54right? So when you're
29:56alone with your thoughts, you're not in control
29:58of what you think.
30:00Have you ever been?
30:02Yes.
30:04Did it change
30:06after her passing?
30:08No.
30:10When did it change?
30:12It sort of started
30:14when my husband
30:16passed.
30:20And when I
30:22did grieve for him, I was almost
30:24punished for it.
30:26Punished by who?
30:28My husband.
30:30So he was uncomfortable watching you
30:32go through the grieving.
30:34At first, he was like, I'm not going to sit around
30:36while you grieve another dude. I'm like, I'm not grieving
30:38another dude in that sense.
30:40I'm grieving the person who
30:42took care of my children.
30:44I'm grieving the person who was in my life for over 16
30:46years. And you don't just say,
30:48oh, okay, well, the person's going to move on with your life.
30:50That's not how it happens. It doesn't work like that.
30:52And then after he
30:54finally understood, saw, and realized
30:56that I loved him for real, and I loved him
30:58on purpose, and I chose him
31:00truly and in fact, then
31:02everything changed.
31:04It was an about face.
31:06What did you notice
31:08with your thoughts
31:10once he passed?
31:12He used to visit me
31:14in my sleep. Not like
31:16weird stuff.
31:18It's more of a visit like we have right now.
31:20We're sitting talking to people.
31:22And sometimes,
31:24sometimes,
31:26Tracy does in a positive way.
31:28Okay.
31:30Not all the time.
31:32Have you ever
31:34decided, I don't want anybody,
31:36including her, to visit me in my sleep
31:38so I can rest?
31:40Absolutely.
31:42Seeing Tracy sometimes
31:44adds to my grief,
31:46and sometimes it takes away from it too,
31:48and sometimes it's
31:50a replay of some of the things
31:52that we've done as sisters
31:54while we were growing up, and I never
31:56want to forget a lot of those times.
31:58But I do want to still be able
32:00to live my life in a more
32:02comprehensive way without
32:04having to
32:06lean on that grief
32:08to feel like I'm still holding on
32:10to that person.
32:12What do you see when you close
32:14your eyes?
32:16When I
32:18close my eyes,
32:22I see her
32:24being ill.
32:26When I close my eyes,
32:28I see
32:30the color leaving her body.
32:32What does it do to you?
32:36It,
32:38it makes me sad,
32:40it makes me emotional, it makes me
32:42fearful.
32:44Fearful of
32:46the fact that
32:48we did not,
32:50I'm talking about my sisters and I, that we did not
32:52really embrace each other
32:54the way we could have and should have
32:56in our lives, and it makes me think, okay,
32:58well, who's next, and what's gonna happen?
33:00It just makes me wonder, like,
33:02are we gonna fall further apart?
33:04Like, what's gonna happen?
33:06Because it's not like
33:08we came together.
33:10Because as a matter of fact,
33:12we never really had
33:14a real sit-down conversation
33:16like we did the night that you came
33:18to see us, and we hadn't done it
33:20in the two whole years that she's been gone.
33:26Our grief therapy session
33:28has really opened up a lot of wounds,
33:30and we still really didn't
33:32work through anything
33:34as a family, and I don't know
33:36if we'll get that opportunity again.
33:38That's what I worry about the most.
33:40What do we need
33:42to do about that
33:44in order to help you?
33:48I don't know.
33:56Who's that?
33:58Wait, wait, hold on a second.
34:00Everyone hold.
34:02Everyone stop.
34:06Come on!
34:10Are you all packed up?
34:12I've got it laid out.
34:14Okay. I'm probably overpacking.
34:16No, you're definitely overpacking.
34:18Well, it's because I'm nervous and happy
34:20at the same time.
34:22Okay.
34:24Because I'm excited to see Dad.
34:26Yeah.
34:28And Mikey.
34:30It's gonna be fun.
34:32And little Kevin.
34:34But when we just lay eyes on him,
34:36I'll feel better.
34:38So Tawanda, her boyfriend Sean,
34:40and Vaughn and I, we're headed to D.C.,
34:42and we're gonna just track him down
34:44and then report back to everyone else
34:46so they'll know how he's doing.
34:48You like these pants?
34:50Not particularly.
34:52They're your favorite color.
34:54They're my favorite color. I don't know.
34:56Waffle house la la.
34:58See, that's what you do all the time.
35:00You deflect.
35:02I'm excited to see where little Kevin is.
35:04Okay, well, see, you've been dodging
35:06What was that?
35:08You had a session,
35:10and when you came
35:12back from it,
35:14you were a little
35:16off to yourself.
35:18What happened during that?
35:20Well, I had to...
35:22I don't need details,
35:24but there's something that happened
35:26that made you...
35:28No, no, no, but I had to
35:30compartmentalize a lot of things
35:32because she said a lot.
35:34We talked about my grief
35:36with my sister, Tracy.
35:40It's a huge
35:42progress for me to start individual counseling,
35:44but that doesn't mean that I'm ready
35:46to talk about my grief outside of
35:48therapy sessions. Just not yet.
35:50You know what I mean? It's just too draining for me.
35:52But I've also been really
35:54quiet lately because my sister shared
35:56a lot last week, and it's
35:58been a lot to process, and I used to
36:00be able to pick up the phone and call my sisters
36:02about our stuff, but right now,
36:04there's still some sensitivities that we're just
36:06all dealing with. The thing is,
36:08last week, at our family dinner,
36:10Toni divulged how deeply
36:12her illness
36:14and how her body truly feels.
36:16It's like crazy anxieties.
36:20It's just really messed up, so I'm scared.
36:22If I have a heart attack, I won't survive.
36:24And I can't even handle that anymore.
36:28For the first time in my life, she was very vulnerable.
36:30She was afraid. She, like, broke down.
36:32Like, broke down.
36:36I have you for pillow talk.
36:38I can have that open dialogue with you.
36:40Toni is still single.
36:42She's unmarried.
36:44She's gotta feel by herself and alone
36:46because she's never
36:48expressed something
36:50like that, especially about her health,
36:52so out loud.
36:54So, if she's anything like you,
36:56if she gets to the point to where she does
36:58divulge, it's probably fairly serious
37:00then, right? Yes.
37:02And so, I think
37:04that she should talk to somebody, too.
37:06I agree.
37:08We'll have plenty of time to talk about this.
37:10Let's get you packed. Let's get me packed.
37:12Well, I will say this.
37:14Maybe
37:16we need to do something
37:18that's fun for,
37:20like, just us.
37:22Like, me and you and Twanda and Sean.
37:24That's cool. Alright.
37:26So, it's like...
37:28Don't close that because, invariably,
37:30if you're gonna come back, there'll be three things you want to put in there.
37:32So, just leave it here, and I'll close it before we leave.
37:34Can I at least close it and not zip it?
37:36Sure, if it makes you feel better.
37:38I mean, it's just more room on the floor, though.
37:40There you go.
37:42Alright, now come help me.
37:44That's not fair. Did you help me pack?
37:46No.
37:56Alright.
38:04Alright, Ms. Mahoney, you're all set.
38:06Thank you so much, as always.
38:08You're all set. Thank you.
38:10Thank you. I'll see you next week.
38:12Alright, no problem.
38:14Even though that my plate is completely full
38:16getting my doctorate in humanitarianism,
38:18Sean and I
38:20are just in an amazing space.
38:22I mean, we're living together.
38:24Living with Braxton and Brooke, you know,
38:26I'm just happily happy.
38:28Especially since I always
38:30make the time to pick up
38:32Braxton and Brooke almost every
38:34single day because I love being a mom
38:36and I love spending time with them
38:38and I love hugging and kissing on them.
38:40Even though they don't want me to hug and kiss on them
38:42anymore because they're teenagers,
38:44they have their own lives, and they
38:46just look at me as a provider, a person
38:48who's just supposed to feed them,
38:50house them, and make sure
38:52I give them money. And that's it.
38:56Phone ringing
38:58The person
39:00you have dialed is not able to receive calls
39:02at this time.
39:04Wow. Try it again.
39:08Calling Scratchy.
39:12The person you have dialed is not able to receive
39:14calls at this time.
39:16Phone ringing
39:20Tomorrow morning, Trina and I
39:22are off to D.C.
39:24and we're going there to track down little Kevin
39:26because his phone is
39:28going straight to voicemail and
39:30he's never taken
39:32more than two days to call
39:34me or Trina back, so
39:36knowing that he has serious health issues
39:38right now, seizures since his mom
39:40passed, so we need to hop
39:42on the plane, get to D.C.,
39:44and just figure out what's going on.
39:46Hi, guys.
39:48What's going on? How was school?
39:50It was good.
39:52Good school? Just all right, bro? Yeah, just all right.
39:54I'm going
39:56to go visit your cousin,
39:58Scratchy, little Kevin. Scratchy?
40:00What is that name? I've always called him Scratchy
40:02since birth because his
40:04voice was always Scratchy. Oh.
40:06Yeah. Me and Aunt Trina's gonna go
40:08check on Pop-Pop and Uncle Mikey.
40:10Yeah. And we can't go with?
40:12No, you have school.
40:14It's like a family thing. Like, it's
40:16personal. I wish you could.
40:18How about this?
40:20Let's see what's happening with your
40:22homework and
40:24you're about to have midterms.
40:26We already took it. You took midterms already?
40:28Okay, well...
40:32We'll see. Let me think about it.
40:34See?
40:36I just said I'm gonna think about it.
40:38No.
40:40No.
40:42What? I just said I'm gonna think. No.
40:44No, Mom. No, Mom. Let's talk about it later.
40:46Let's put it on the shelf.
40:48You know, my kids' hearts are in the right place
40:50to be there for their cousin.
40:54Let's go through the front. Okay.
40:56But without hearing from Kevin,
40:58I have no idea what kind of situation he's in.
41:00That's a wrap for the car.
41:02Awesome.
41:04Let's repo for interviews. Copy that.
41:06Who's that?
41:08Who's that?
41:10Wait.
41:12Wait. Hold on a sec.
41:14Everyone hold.
41:16Who?
41:18I just tried calling him.
41:20I'm putting on speaker with your auntie.
41:22I just tried calling you.
41:24Are you serious?
41:26They had my phone
41:28when I got locked up.
41:30And I know I had my phone because I gave it to them.
41:32What the heck? So you need a phone?
41:34I need a phone.
41:36You know, we figure everything out. You know how we do.
41:38But me and Aunt Trina are gonna come see you
41:40for sure. And maybe once we do that,
41:42we can figure it all out.
41:44Text me, baby. I love you.
41:46I love you, too. Okay, bye.
41:48Finally,
41:50I got to hear Scratchy's voice.
41:52And OG, who just happens to be the showrunner
41:54of our show, he tracked them down
41:56by going through Daddy because we've all
41:58been concerned about him. And it still
42:00kind of concerns me that
42:02he was radio silent for so long
42:04after getting out of jail. And we just
42:06need to let him know ASAP
42:08that we are here
42:10for him and he doesn't have to go through this
42:12alone. Just like family, that's
42:14what we do. We show up for one another. Especially
42:16since Tracy's not here anymore.
42:18Okay, gotta go find my
42:20luggage. That's a wrap.
42:32Next Friday on The Braxtons.
42:34I have to ask, because obviously the cameras
42:36are here, why the decision to return to the show?
42:38Oh.
42:40Your mother was absolutely lucid
42:42who she wanted to control her image,
42:44brand, and likeness. I think y'all maybe
42:46should talk to his dad. Are you willing
42:48to? Yeah.
42:50Production wanted Lil' Kevin to film
42:52with his dad.
42:54Don't push me.