The Braxtons Episode 1 - The Braxtons Are Back
The Braxtons Episode 1 - The Braxtons Are Back
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00:00You
00:15We've got Trina and makeup
00:20Tony's here
00:22So want this on the wing
00:25You good you ready for today? Oh, I'm getting ready emotionally. Yeah, I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, uh, we'll see
00:34Are you good? You know, I'm in a good space
00:38Tamar's in a route
00:41Miss ease in the kitchen. She's gonna be cooking. We should be shooting in about 20 minutes the Braxton's
00:49The Braxton's are bad guys
00:53Look at God
00:55All right, let's get last looks in so we can get this going. Let's get this party started. This is off my first green screen
01:01What's the black on it? What's the background gonna be?
01:06In the back
01:08It's been a long time coming
01:09We've dealt with a lot and so we have a lot to share
01:13Matter of fact the Braxton's never should have gone away. How about that? Wouldn't you agree?
01:23I
01:26Think that the Braxton's remind every family of themselves in some aspect
01:33But there's the music aspect
01:41Let's watch these let's watch these pictures honey when you got ready for me, let me know. Oh you try
01:45Okay, I'm standing whether you're getting along whether you're not getting along
01:52The
01:55Clicks that's within the families. It somehow reminds you of your own
02:00With their family, there's always an opportunity for things to go left. I am just really excited that things are going, right?
02:11You know, I'm glad that we're back but the other part of it is I know that we have a missing piece that is never
02:16Going to be the same without her
02:18this week is
02:20The second anniversary of Tracy's passing Tracy wouldn't everybody know that she was a fighter and that you know
02:27Her illness was not going to break her spirit
02:31She was going to always remain the Tracy that we all knew her to be
02:40Tracy may not be here physically, but her spirit and her energy will always be here. It'll be here for
02:51She called me she said mom, I have can't
02:57That felt so helpless like I couldn't do anything to save her I feel like we need to have some type of support
03:08At the echo done I had to eat cage you had blood work done what's wrong with their heart
03:13Suppose that I got my boys
03:17I
03:18Am who I am you accept me or you just don't accept me. It's just a part of who I am
03:23I have alopecia. That's just it
03:26We're just calling to check in on you. So you feel inside you doing?
03:28I don't want him to go into a downward spiral. We need to go ahead and go on grief counseling
03:36Tell me what do you feel like you need help with I don't think I'm ready. I have no idea what to expect
03:42Any idea for what may need to happen tonight in order to make sure that it stays in a positive direction
04:12All right
04:24Come on kill
04:28You two have a great day, what is that you're making beef chorizo? I am hungry. I'm not any food today. Oh shocker
04:35Are you putting all that cheese in there?
04:37No, not unless you want to stay in the bathroom for the next couple of days. Yeah, I'm good
04:42What's that gonna be done in a few minutes? What are we gonna eat with it chips? That's it. It's dip
04:49any broccoli
04:53Fine I have been married for almost five years now and our blended family has blended together
04:59Quite beautifully and I'm still so much in love with Vaughn. It's like the first day that I married him
05:05Pause walk all the way up and then let it go. Okay. Yeah
05:12I got you. I got you. I got you. I got you. She slipped. I did. I knew my pants was too long
05:21I couldn't hold my pants up and hold Trina dress up at the same time
05:25It was either her or me. Watch your boot. Watch your boot. Watch your boot.
05:31How are you feeling about the show coming back?
05:35I'm a little leery
05:36It's been three years now since we've last done the show and then ever since everything happened even with Tracy
05:41I I would have thought that maybe you know
05:44It would have brought everybody to a different place where we're closer and things like that
05:48But that's not what happened here
05:50And I just wonder how that's gonna be actually working together again because we haven't really done any kind of works together
05:57not collaboratively and
05:59That's it. That worries me. I
06:02Won't say that my sisters and I have become estranged since Tracy's passing
06:06I feel like no one really wanted to address it and talk about it
06:10So my feelings were enclosed they were put in a box and especially for me. That was unhealthy
06:16I should have had my sisters to lean on to be those people for me to talk to
06:20But it just didn't feel like that's what they wanted for themselves
06:25You know, we're supposed to be going to dinner with Tony and the girls tonight. Well, not you as we but me and
06:31Tawanda and Tamar and mommy nice. Y'all need some time to go
06:35I am really glad that Tony is in town for a couple of days because we never see each other
06:40Okay, tonight will be a good check-in to see how everyone's doing
06:43Especially as we get close to the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing
06:47Mommy's been pushing for us to talk to a grief counselor together, but we haven't decided if we're ready to do that yet
06:53We're gonna talk about you know
06:56Tracy and we never really sat and talked about it as a family
07:00ever since
07:01You know, we had her memorial service. Yeah, how are you feeling? It's been difficult. It's been difficult grieving is a very real thing
07:09You know, I mean and it's
07:11That's why it's so important for us to stay in contact with with baby Kevin a little Kevin little Kevin is not just Tracy's son
07:17He's our only child
07:19They had the deepest bond in the whole entire world. I
07:25Think the loss of
07:27Tracy for little Kevin was one of the most detrimental things he's ever been through in his life
07:32And we need to make sure he knows that just because he lost his mother
07:35He isn't alone dude lost his mom very early in life, but he doesn't speak to his dad as much either what I
07:43Didn't know that not not as often as I would I would think I
07:48Won't speak negatively about his dad because his dad was grieving too. No matter my personal opinion toward him
07:55He's still a grieving husband
07:57But when you're surviving parent is shut down and the parent that you lost is gone. Who do you who do you have?
08:03It's almost a loss of both parents, I
08:06Think we should check what I'm sad. He's doing. I just don't know
08:10Situation was tough for everybody. Yeah
08:17But
08:18Tony said that she has something to say to us, but you just never know what it's gonna bad. I don't know
08:23Tony in true Tony fashion asked the family to come to dinner and
08:28She had something to tell us, you know, but this time
08:31When she told us that she wanted to talk the setting of her tone was very melancholy
08:35And I'm really afraid because Tony has always been recluse when it comes to her feeling she's never really been
08:42This person who just wants everybody to know what's going on with her
08:45You know what? Oh, you don't matter
08:47No, she wants to talk about the fact of the matter is that all they all be together now that I agree with
08:52We've never truly grieved together since Tracy's passing cuz I don't think I'm ready. I haven't talked to anyone at all
08:59He's just trying to live with a broken heart
09:02This really messed up. I'm scared like every day
09:21I
09:37Everybody looks amazing. Nice. I would just like to say for the record
09:41I'm not paying because y'all do this to me every time who's paying to wander. She's late
09:46This
09:48Family dinner is the first time that everyone together
09:52Filming again, it feels so good to have everyone in the same room
10:00However, I'm missing Tracy. How's everybody been? I ain't seen everybody
10:07I've been working. I'm excited. I haven't worked in 15 months
10:12These days I'm a bit by coastal between LA and Atlanta
10:14But I've been saying in LA more lately since I've been rehearsing for my new Las Vegas show. It's Cedric the entertainer
10:20It's called love and laughter
10:23And it's a variety show with singing and dancing and comedy, which is kind of new for me
10:28But I'm getting more and more excited about the challenge of it all
10:32You feel like you ready? I'm a little nervous yesterday. I was like
10:35I'm nervous. How'd you guys perform this? I'm never nervous like this. So just anxiety. That's all
10:44I actually had a Vegas show over 15 years ago in 2007. And while I was doing that show I had chest pains
10:52That's when I was diagnosed with lupus and I was told then that I may never be able to perform again
10:58I was scared to tell anyone the truth is that I have lupus
11:04We may
11:05Have been battling it for a while
11:08And I don't want to tell anyone because everyone's like, oh you can't tell anyone good
11:11You can't work. You don't want to tell anybody this it may defer people from wanting to work with you
11:16So anyway, now I'm tired of faking it
11:20I'm a little scared because I haven't performed it. So but the doctor said 15 months and it's exactly 15 months. Oh,
11:28I know I have to tell the girls about a health scare
11:31Which makes me feel some kind of way because the last health scare we heard was Tracy
11:36My family know that a few months ago I had to have a stint put in my heart which was extremely scary
11:43But I haven't told them the nitty-gritty the details of it what really has happened
11:49So I got to make sure
11:51You know, I tell them without making them
11:53I want them to feel at ease I should say and it's not easy to talk about for myself
11:57But on the brink of Tracy's stuff, I don't want to get them riled up. Oh, it's only okay
12:01So I don't even want to tell them maybe I shouldn't I don't know
12:07I can tell you've been over there that California lifestyle. I'm over here in this Georgia life. So I hate I hate living in Lemon Pepper Island
12:17That's why I live it everything is lemon pepper, they probably got lemon pepper pedicures
12:21Lemon pepper everything
12:23Lemon pepper and hoca, hoca, lemon, hoca, lemon, hoca
12:27When we have guacamole we eat avocado toast
12:30I eat that
12:32What about you? Is you single? What's the tea?
12:34Oh, that's a big tea
12:36I feel like I'm single
12:38I feel like I'm single
12:40I'm pretty much single
12:42What's that mean? Pretty much?
12:44I was engaged
12:46I'm not married
12:48I'm not engaged anymore
12:50And I'm not married and that's all I'm gonna say
12:52So you got a boyfriend?
12:54I'm focused on my two boys and my work
12:56It's been a strange time since Tracy's past
13:00But I am happy in my life overall
13:03Just not in a place for a relationship
13:06Right now
13:08Yeah
13:10What are you checking?
13:12What are you doing first love club?
13:14Under my eye
13:16Oh yeah
13:18Oh wow
13:20Oh wow
13:22Y'all did this on purpose
13:24Oh my god
13:26Why you copying off of me? Nothing wrong with it
13:28They did it on purpose
13:30I didn't see Trina all day
13:32All I wanna know is
13:34What new pussycat?
13:36Y'all used to dress like this when y'all were younger
13:38I can't I'm flabbergasted
13:40Tracy is like 100% looking down cracking up
13:42I mean I've been missing this
13:44Whenever we get together
13:46There's always this crazy and silly moments
13:48And with Tracy it was even crazier
13:50She made everything fun
13:52I have to pee right now
13:54Don't pee Tracy
13:56I have to pee
13:58Wait for a bathroom Tracy
14:02Where you get that big Bob Marley one?
14:08I know it just don't seem right
14:10It's like a seat's missing
14:12Tracy's holding out purses
14:14I'm not holding everybody's purse
14:16Everybody take they own
14:18Here's yours
14:20And here's yours
14:22I hear all the time from our fans
14:24How they miss watching our antics
14:34Laughing with us
14:36Oh no
14:40Crank crank crank
14:42Yes
14:44That's our old Whitney class
14:46Whitney gonna get you, have a seat
14:48And crying with us
14:50I don't want to talk about that
14:52It is the truth
14:54Singing with us
14:56The trumpet sounds
15:02It must always
15:04Let me
15:06Go
15:08Let me go
15:10She don't
15:12Let me
15:14Go
15:16Let me
15:18Go
15:20She got four kids
15:22And that's enough
15:24She don't want no more kids
15:26And that's just tough
15:28We don't
15:30We don't
15:32Like all of y'all
15:34Dear Doll
15:36Happy birthday
15:38To
15:40You
15:44Thank you guys
15:46When we were filming
15:48For your birthday in LA
15:50She was telling me and Trina
15:52She was like I can't it burns
15:54Oh my god it burns
15:56Oh it burns
15:58Can I get a tattoo
16:00Yeah she was sad
16:02When she finally went to the doctor
16:04When she went
16:06I was in LA and she called me
16:08She said mommy
16:10I have cancer
16:12Help us
16:16She said but I'm gonna beat this
16:18I said I know you will
16:22When Tracy got diagnosed
16:24It didn't seem real at all
16:26It still doesn't
16:28For me family is the most important thing
16:30In my life
16:32I spent my whole life caring for and protecting my sisters
16:34But this was different
16:36There was nothing I could do
16:38I felt so helpless
16:40I couldn't do anything to save her
16:42That's really hard for me to digest
16:44Because I was the sick one
16:46Not Tracy
16:50Anyway I'm sorry guys I just need a moment
16:56Okay here we go
16:58I can't mess up my makeup
17:02You know
17:04I feel like we need to have some type of support
17:06So I'm just saying
17:08Like a grief management
17:10Because that's a lot
17:12You know what I'm saying
17:14Everybody is dealing with it
17:16In their own way
17:18But I think Trina
17:20Really and truly needs
17:22Extensive
17:24Counseling
17:26There when Tracy took
17:28Her last breath
17:32Has anybody gone to grief counseling?
17:34I probably should have after Tracy
17:36I have before but not after Tracy
17:38Probably should
17:40Yeah
17:42Every time I see your necklace
17:44Oh yeah
17:46I don't have mine on today
17:48Tracy wanted us to wear it
17:50I want my sisters to all wear
17:52No she said
17:54She wanted us to take her
17:56Wherever we go
17:58Tracy loved hummingbirds
18:00There's a
18:02Just this whole mural
18:04On her back
18:06It was five hummingbirds
18:08So it represented every sister
18:10Before she passed
18:12She told us that she always wants us
18:14To take her with us
18:16So she can continue her journey
18:18So wherever I go
18:20Whatever I'm doing
18:22She's still here
18:24Now the only time
18:26I ever take Tracy off
18:28Is when I'm in a moment with my husband
18:30I'm sure she doesn't want to be there
18:32Sorry Tracy but I'm sure you didn't want to be there
18:36How's little Kevin doing?
18:38He's going through some things
18:40He's going through a divorce
18:42Wait what happened?
18:44He told everybody what happened?
18:46What happened?
18:48I am
18:50Taking it back that little Kevin
18:52Is going through a divorce
18:54Because I see little Kevin all the time
18:56We have dinner and catch up and things like that
18:58But he's never
19:00Told me about his situations
19:02With my niece
19:04Tracy would be sad about that
19:06Very sad
19:08Has little Kevin done grief management?
19:10No
19:12Loss of his mom, that's a lot
19:14His best friend
19:16I heard that Kevin
19:18Was getting a divorce
19:20And I know
19:22I think of Tracy
19:24That would break her heart
19:26Because it's breaking
19:28Mine for God's sakes
19:30She about to cry, what's wrong?
19:32Yes she is
19:34You can't touch Trina when she's crying
19:36As time go by
19:38Is this cheese?
19:40Don't put your hand on my face like that
19:44Let's change the subject
19:46I'd like to hear Toni's news
19:50I went to the doctor
19:56Here's to Tracy
19:58I'm not above you, I'm not below you
20:00I'm right here with you
20:02How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
20:06What's going on?
20:08Trina's going tapping
20:10But this is not the forum
20:18I'd like to hear Toni's news
20:22I went to the doctor
20:24My heart was aching
20:26I had had every test done
20:28I had the echo done, I had the EKG, I had blood work done
20:30And I went to get the angio
20:32And the doctor was like
20:34That's your pre-op
20:36So you having surgery, you gotta look inside your heart
20:40What's wrong with your heart?
20:42It's the heart attack that happened, they caught it just before it happened
20:44If I'd had a heart attack, I wouldn't survive
20:46I wouldn't be here right now
20:50But it was something called the widow maker
20:52They told me
20:54Your sister was watching over you
20:58Because you by rights should be dead today
21:02You should not be alive today
21:04I've always known Toni
21:06Health was serious
21:08I didn't take it lightly
21:10As a mother, I were
21:12And I think
21:14She feels that
21:16If Tracy can leave
21:18Now, so soon
21:20Well maybe
21:22Me too
21:26Thing that's really messed up
21:28I was told that
21:30Even though I got the stent in
21:32You will eventually need bypass surgery
21:36Because if I have a heart attack, I won't survive
21:40I had to have a stent put in my heart
21:42Which was extremely scary
21:44A very scary procedure itself
21:46But when my doctor told me
21:48I might not ever be able to do a tour again
21:52Okay, I heard it before
21:54But this was different
21:56They say you may never be able to do another tour
21:58Because you could have a heart attack
22:00I had anxieties
22:02I just think about it all the time
22:04I'm having a death of a diesel
22:06Who will take care of them?
22:10It's just really messed up
22:12I'm scared, like everyday
22:14If I have a heart attack, I won't survive
22:16And I can't even handle it
22:22All I could think about were the boys
22:24And I hate saying it out loud
22:26Even now
22:28It's real
22:30It's real life
22:32To be scared everyday
22:34Everyday, you can't even understand
22:36Was that heartburn? Am I having a heart attack?
22:40The bible says, speak things although they are what
22:42So they were
22:44And so it is
22:46That's how that works
22:48As soon as you feel that fear is coming in here
22:50You demand it to leave
22:52And it will
22:54That's just it
22:56You demand it to leave
22:58And it will
23:00You don't use it, you lose it
23:02Now that's a fact
23:04Seeing my family rally around Tony with so much love and support
23:06Reminded me of
23:08How many times we've hugged each other
23:10And loved on each other in the past
23:12And it gives me hope that we can be as close as we used to be
23:14And it might take time
23:16But we always have Tracy with us
23:18Making us stronger
23:20I needed this more than I wanted to admit to myself
23:22And I honestly think we all did
23:24You're already okay
23:26You're already okay
23:28For me
23:30The main reason for wanting to do
23:32The Braxton's again
23:34Is because of Tracy
23:36She wanted us to do the show
23:38She wanted us to talk about
23:40Her cancer, her illness
23:42In hopes that it would help someone else
23:44Maybe battling it
23:46Whenever there's a loss
23:48A death in the family
23:50It can go either way
23:52It can bring you closer or further apart
23:54And I think this was her way
23:56Of making sure we stayed together
23:58And it is so
24:00Listen, let me say something
24:02You're already living
24:04You can't be afraid to live
24:06I thought I was strong
24:08But I wasn't strong enough to see it
24:10And if somebody said
24:12Trina drinks too much
24:14Well I'm sorry
24:16That's what Trina needs right now
24:18I'm sorry
24:20That's what Trina needs right now
24:22You act like
24:24You guys are enemies
24:28I can't take it
24:30It's too much
24:42You look adorable
24:44So do you
24:46He's gonna got me a drink
24:48Alright but after today I'm on a hiatus
24:50Why?
24:52Because I need my stomach to be flat
24:54So I speed bump on it
24:56Umba and I have always been super close
24:58You know Tawanda and I
25:00Live in Georgia
25:02Tony and Tamar live in California
25:04My brother Mikey and Tracy live together in Maryland
25:06So it just made more sense for Tawanda and I
25:08To gravitate towards each other
25:10But especially after Tracy's passing
25:12We've gotten even closer
25:14Never know
25:16Yes thank you so much
25:18So you know Trina a lot of people
25:20Was sending me messages saying
25:22Oh my god is Tawanda sick
25:24Is Tawanda sick oh my god
25:26Is she sick too
25:28First of all you remember
25:30That we all said that we were gonna cut
25:32Our hair right
25:34But you didn't cut your hair
25:36I have a face that's round like mommy's
25:40Y'all have slender faces
25:42That was my inheritance
25:44I hadn't exactly told the world
25:46That I have alopecia
25:48A lot of people assume
25:50A lot of different things
25:52I took pride in how I looked
25:54And I have to be honest
25:56I didn't think about my body
25:58It was what was going on in the inside
26:00And that was oh my gosh
26:02People are gonna know that I have alopecia
26:04Oh my god maybe people aren't gonna like me anymore
26:06How do you feel about it now
26:08I am who I am
26:10That's a part of who I am
26:12I have alopecia and that's just it
26:14I like it
26:16There's this video of Tracy
26:18And she got her long little skinny fingers
26:22And she's just rubbing on Tawanda's head
26:24And Tawanda has all these
26:26Patches
26:28You know like missing hair
26:30Tracy used to always do my hair
26:32Didn't you Tracy
26:34Remember that
26:36Only on Tracy we'd just always just rub it
26:38Just rub
26:40Tawanda's hair
26:42And
26:44Tawanda
26:46Cut off her hair
26:48And Tracy said that she should do it
26:50And
26:52I need a second cause you're not gonna get me
26:54You're not gonna get me today Ochi
26:58Hmm
27:00I don't know why but little Kevin's on my mind
27:02Is he really? Yeah yeah
27:04Since Tracy passed
27:06We have really been trying to be there
27:08For little Kevin as much as possible
27:10I know we can never fill that void
27:12Of losing his mom
27:14And his best friend
27:16But we are definitely
27:18Doing the best that we can
27:20To be there for him
27:22Hi
27:24How are y'all
27:26We're just calling to check in on you
27:28How you feeling, how you doing
27:30I love you
27:32You look amazing
27:34You're so cute
27:36Wait wait
27:38What
27:40Your wife braided your hair
27:42When did she do that
27:52But she did your hair
27:54Right
27:56Little Kevin is Tracy's only son
27:58And I think that the death of Tracy
28:00Has really affected his marriage
28:02I'm sorry
28:08Yeah
28:12He's lost a mom and a best friend
28:14And he's losing his wife
28:16So I can only imagine
28:18What he's going through emotionally
28:20We were all together last night
28:22And what we understand
28:24Is that we need to go ahead and go on grief counseling
28:26I agree
28:28Okay
28:30We all agreed to have family grief therapy
28:32And we're deciding
28:34That we're going to go to Tony's house
28:36Mommy and Trina are cooking Tracy's favorite meals
28:38Like oxtail and turkey wings
28:40To celebrate her
28:42And we're also going to meet with the grief therapist
28:46This is a different journey for us
28:48And I'm very hopeful that maybe
28:50Whatever's going on with everybody in the family
28:52Maybe they can get it out
28:54Because I think that's important
28:56Would you want to be a part of that too
28:58Yeah
29:02Yeah
29:06Of course
29:08Yeah
29:10I know you do
29:12I don't want him to go into a downward spiral
29:14You know especially during holidays
29:16Especially during those commemorative moments
29:18That's when a lot of people
29:20Get so downtrodden you know
29:22They just don't want to have to deal with the stress
29:24They don't want to have to deal with the hurt
29:26They don't want to have to deal with their feelings
29:28He's got to get it out of his body
29:30But you know we're going to get through this together
29:32Yes
29:34I love you
29:38Here's to Tracy
29:40I'm not above you
29:42I'm not below you
29:44I'm right here with you
29:46Yes
29:52Tell me
29:54What do you feel like you need help with
29:56When we go through
29:58Therapy sessions
30:00A lot of things are revealed
30:02I just want y'all back
30:04Are you okay
30:06No
30:08Go check on him
30:10He has a warrant
30:12Wait a minute what
30:24No ma'am
30:26I need you to slice the
30:28Onions
30:30The onions and the garlic
30:32Can you get that stuff in my clothes
30:34I haven't changed yet
30:36I'll have Michelle A to do it
30:38Oh my god
30:40Yeah girl
30:42Everybody knows that
30:44It's my middle name
30:46This week is the two year anniversary of Tracy's passing
30:48And we're getting ready for our family grief therapy
30:50At two o'clock
30:52We're getting ready for our family grief therapy
30:54At Tony's house
30:56I invited a therapist and her name is Spirit
30:58And she helped me so much in the past
31:00And I'm hoping she can do the same for everyone else
31:02Mommy and I came early to start cooking some of Tracy's favorite dishes
31:04But Tony
31:06Has to get camera ready
31:08And Tawanda and Tamar are on their way now
31:14I'm back
31:16Hey Tom
31:18You on your way here
31:20I'm just doing the temperature check
31:22You good you ready for today
31:24I'm getting ready
31:26I'm getting made up for it but emotionally
31:28We'll see
31:32I'm in a good space
31:34I'm eager to listen
31:36I'm eager to learn
31:38I'm eager to grow
31:40Yeah I haven't
31:42Talked to anyone at all
31:44About Tracy's stuff I've been dealing with it on my own
31:46I'm optimistic that this will
31:48Help me
31:50Yes
31:52I'm optimistic that this grief management thing
31:54Will work
31:56But
31:58I just miss her
32:02I just miss her everyday
32:06I try to make myself think of something positive
32:08Like the butterfly doesn't know it used to be a caterpillar
32:10And the caterpillar doesn't know it's going to be a butterfly
32:12So Tracy's a butterfly
32:14You just try to live with a broken heart
32:16And it's really difficult
32:18Trying to make yourself live with a broken heart
32:20Well you know what
32:22It does sound real corny
32:24It's hard to try to live with a broken heart
32:26So maybe she can help unbreak our hearts
32:28I know it sounds real corny
32:30Sony Braxton
32:32You had to put your song in there
32:34Unbreak my heart
32:36I wasn't even thinking about it
32:38I'm talking about Johnny Mathis version
32:40I'm singing Johnny Mathis version
32:42No no
32:44That is amazing
32:46At least we can smile and laugh
32:48I'll see you in a minute
32:50Alright see ya
33:08Hey
33:10I think it's very important
33:12Whether you lose someone to death
33:14Or lose someone in a relationship
33:16I just feel like it's something that you have to do
33:18Why you got on surgical gloves?
33:20Because I had to clean my lips
33:26Tracy loves buttermilk
33:28So I'm making her in her honor
33:30Let's have some champagne
33:32I got a quick question
33:34So what's the objective of today?
33:36I think it depends on the individual
33:38What do you want to accomplish?
33:40I'm here for moral support
33:42I've been to counseling
33:44I've been to every kind of counseling
33:46I've been to a psychiatrist
33:48I've been to a spiritual counselor
33:50I've been to everybody
33:52Different things call for different kind of people
33:54To explain it to you properly
33:56The way my help is set up
33:58I don't care where it comes from as long as I get it
34:00Grief counseling is a lot different than regular counseling
34:02I've been to regular counseling before
34:04Let me ask you a question
34:06I'm not trying to be derogatory
34:08Ask the questions that you want to ask
34:10Where's spirit come from?
34:12Why is she calling her spirit?
34:14That's her name
34:16Obviously she ain't come from you
34:18Well I've actually known her for a lot of years
34:20What was the first experience with her?
34:24Honestly
34:26The first time that I had a conversation with her
34:28And this was almost five years ago
34:30And that's when Gabe passed away
34:32Oh no
34:34It was very helpful
34:36But I just wasn't ready
34:38No I feel you
34:40I wasn't ready
34:42I'm asking you to marry me
34:44Before I was married to Vaughn
34:46I was married to Gabe for
34:48Fourteen and a half years
34:50And we were on and off for the last few years
34:52Mom!
34:54What the f*** did you do to your hair?
34:56You don't like it?
34:58No!
35:00My family, they loved him
35:02In their own way
35:04Put on some pants
35:06Nobody want to see
35:08Dick Van Dyke all over the place
35:12After Gabe and I divorced
35:14We stayed really good friends
35:16And when he passed away from cancer
35:18He was only 43 years old
35:20And even though I was very happy with Vaughn
35:22At the time, and still am
35:24The pain was unexpected
35:26Because I lose someone who was a really big part of my family
35:28And the lives of my children
35:30And that wasn't something I was ready for
35:32So when you asked her to come
35:34Can you help my family
35:36When did you ask her to help?
35:38I just knew, even from a short period of time
35:40How she helped me, she asked questions
35:42That I didn't want to face at the time
35:44But I knew that I had to
35:46Can we get this show on the road?
35:48We won't get this show on the road
35:50I gotta go upstairs and change
35:52Why do you have to change?
35:54I brought an outfit that Tracy gave to me
35:56That's what you're doing today
35:58That's what I'm doing today
36:00Let me tell you what I need
36:02When you come back down
36:04We're going to set up over here
36:06And get all comfortable
36:08Be ready
36:10Where's your fancy stuff?
36:12Where's the Toni Braxton stuff?
36:18I do have a little bit of fancy Toni Braxton tea stuff
36:20I'm a tea girl, I love tea parties
36:22I like collecting tea sets
36:24Tamar, she loves it
36:26Where are your Toni Braxton trays?
36:28I haven't been here in Atlanta in a second
36:30I've been in L.A. working on that show stuff
36:32You cannot find paper cups
36:34And bowls and spoons in her house
36:36Unless I bring it there
36:38If it's Toni Braxton, she's got to spend some money in the house
36:40Like what she thinks she got
36:42You got a tea towel
36:44I have everything, I just don't know where it is
36:46Thank you mommy
36:48You look beautiful
36:50Go girl
36:52Trina, can you answer?
36:54Because I don't know her
36:56I'm going to take off my robe
36:58Come on, let's go sit down
37:00Hurry up, let's sit down
37:02Why are we running?
37:04Because we want to be seated when she gets here
37:06We're not late for class
37:08Knocking, knocking, it's me and Spirit
37:10Let's hold Trina
37:16Hurry up, let's sit down
37:18I don't get a lot of space
37:20There's a lot of space right there
37:22There's mine over here
37:26Trina, you're walking with Spirit
37:28Yes sir
37:42Trina, you're walking with Spirit
37:44Yes sir
37:46Kevin Jr. is going to be on the Zoom
37:48Jackson is also going to be on the Zoom
37:50He's still up?
37:52My daddy's up
37:54He took a nap
38:04Hey everybody
38:06This is Spirit
38:08That's mom
38:10Hello
38:12After the passing of Tracy
38:14Everybody's trying to deal with their pain
38:16Okay, is this my chair?
38:18Yes, that's your chair
38:20I want them to have grief counseling
38:22Because they need it
38:24For God's sakes
38:26I need extensive grief counseling also
38:28Hey daddy
38:30Hello
38:32Hi dad
38:34You all good?
38:36Daddy got his name tag
38:38It's hilarious, he says Michael Jackson on his shirt
38:42Hey mama
38:44Hey mom
38:46How are you?
38:48One of the things that I like to start off by saying is
38:50Grief looks different for everybody
38:52And sometimes we think that we're grieving one thing
38:54And we start to pull on that
38:56And then we realize that there's a whole lot of things
38:58That are connected to that
39:00Because grief is really just a feeling
39:02But I'm wondering
39:04Since you're the person that called
39:06Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
39:08Can I not go first?
39:10Why don't you want to go first?
39:12Because I don't think I'm ready
39:14To say how I feel yet
39:16Okay
39:18We're clearly nervous
39:20About this family grief counseling session
39:22And the truth is
39:24We're not great communicators, okay
39:26We don't know how to communicate with each other
39:28We don't
39:30We just shut down
39:32And the next time we see each other
39:34Hey, but we ain't never talked about it
39:36We just pushed it under the rug
39:38I miss you all terribly
39:42I'm worried that holding our feelings in
39:44Would be the worst thing for us in the long run
39:46So I think this is
39:48Really, just really needed
39:52Okay
39:54Who else? What are you all feeling?
40:00We've always dabbled in a little bit of family group therapy
40:02And I think in a lot of cases
40:04It has worked
40:06I love you girls
40:08When we, as a family, go through
40:10Therapy sessions
40:12A lot of things
40:14Are revealed
40:16Like things that have been suppressed
40:18Conversations that have been suppressed
40:20That we didn't deal with
40:22So I don't think that today is going to be any different
40:26Sometimes everybody is ready
40:28And sometimes nobody really wants to
40:30How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
40:32Um
40:34I have no idea how to feel yet
40:36So are we just kind of disconnected from our feelings?
40:38No, not disconnected
40:40Maybe a little, but I haven't done grief management before
40:42So I have no idea what to expect
40:44Okay
40:46How do I help you?
40:48I wish I could give you some answers
40:50I want this to be
40:52What I like to call a no judgment zone
40:54I do not believe
40:56In pitying others
40:58I do not believe
41:00I do not believe
41:02In pitting individuals against each other
41:04I do not believe in creating conflict
41:06And I do not believe
41:08That any individual is ever a problem
41:10In a situation
41:14I believe that the problems are the problem
41:16And it is up to you as a family
41:18To be able to work through those problems
41:20It's shifted
41:22It's gone past
41:24How we feel in this whole
41:26Bereavement situation
41:28I can't help you
41:30If you guys aren't clear on what you actually
41:32Want to talk about as real problems