The Braxtons S01E01 (2024)
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00:00Trina, hurry up! I'm coming right now!
00:07We've got Trina in makeup.
00:11Tony's here.
00:14Towanda's on the way.
00:17You good? You ready for today?
00:19Um, I'm getting ready emotionally. I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, uh, we'll see.
00:25Are you good?
00:26Yeah, I'm in a good space.
00:30Tamar's in a rout.
00:33Miss E's in the kitchen. She's gonna be cooking.
00:36We should be shooting in about 20 minutes.
00:39The Braxtons.
00:41The Braxtons are back, guys.
00:45Look at y'all.
00:47Alright, y'all, let's get last looks in so we can get this going. Let's get this party started.
00:51This is my first green screen. What's the black on it? What's the background gonna be?
00:56It's gonna be your house in the back.
00:58In the back?
00:59Yup.
01:00It's been a long time coming.
01:01We've dealt with a lot, and so we have a lot to share.
01:05Matter of fact, the Braxtons never should have gone away.
01:09How about that? Wouldn't you agree?
01:12I love you guys. Kiss you.
01:15Yeah, baby, now the time.
01:17I think that the Braxtons remind every family of themselves in some aspect.
01:25Whether it's the music aspect.
01:26Oh, Mary, don't you leave.
01:32Let's watch these pictures, honey.
01:35When you're ready for me, let me know.
01:36Oh, you try.
01:37I can't. I'm standing.
01:38Whether you're getting along, whether you're not getting along.
01:41Well, since you left the group, Tony, somebody had to take it all.
01:47The clicks that's within the family somehow reminds you of your own.
01:50Hey, so glad you're cooking.
01:52With our family, there's always an opportunity for things to go left.
01:57I'm just really excited that things are going right.
02:03You know, I'm glad that we're back.
02:05But the other part of it is I know that we have a missing piece that is never going to be the same without her.
02:10This week is the second anniversary of Tracy's passing.
02:15Tracy wanted everybody to know that she was a fighter.
02:17And that, you know, her illness was not going to break her spirit.
02:23She was going to always remain the Tracy that we all knew her to be.
02:32Tracy may not be here physically, but her spirit and her energy will always be here.
02:39It will be here forever.
02:40Give it up for Tracy!
02:43She called me. She said, Mommy, I have cancer.
02:49I felt so helpless. Like, I couldn't do anything to save her.
02:53I feel like we need to have some type of support.
02:56Like grief management?
02:57Grief management or...
02:58Okay, that's a lot.
03:00I had the echo done. I had the EKG. I had blood work done.
03:03What's wrong with your heart?
03:05Supposedly, I got my boys.
03:07I'm having a death of a diesel.
03:10I am who I am. You accept me or you just don't accept me. It's just a part of who I am.
03:15I have alopecia and that's just it.
03:17We're just calling to check in on you, see how you're feeling, see how you're doing.
03:21I don't want him to go into a downward spiral.
03:24We need to go ahead and go on grief counseling.
03:28Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
03:31I don't think I'm ready.
03:33I have no idea what to expect.
03:34Any idea for what may need to happen tonight in order to make sure that it stays in a positive direction?
04:05Alright.
04:17Come on, Kayla.
04:20You two have a great day.
04:21What is that you're making?
04:23Beef chorizo.
04:25I am hungry. I haven't had any food today.
04:26Oh, shocker.
04:28Are you putting all that cheese in there?
04:30No, not unless you want to stay in the bathroom for the next couple of days.
04:32Yeah, I'm good.
04:34When's that going to be done?
04:35In a few minutes.
04:37What are we going to eat with it?
04:38Chips.
04:39That's it?
04:40It's dip.
04:41Any broccoli?
04:45Vaughn and I have been married for almost five years now.
04:48And our blended family has blended together quite beautifully.
04:52And I'm still so much in love with Vaughn.
04:54It's like the first day that I married him.
04:57Pause.
04:59Walk all the way up and then let it go.
05:01Yeah.
05:03Now spread out.
05:05I got you. I got you. I got you.
05:08I got you.
05:09She slipped.
05:10I did.
05:11I knew my pants was too long.
05:13I couldn't hold my pants up and hold Trina's dress up at the same time.
05:18It was either her or me.
05:20Ain't drink nothing.
05:21Watch your boot. Watch your boot.
05:22Watch your boot.
05:24How are you feeling about the show coming back?
05:27I'm a little leery.
05:28It's been three years now.
05:29Three years now.
05:30Since we've last done the show and since everything happened even with Tracy,
05:34I would have thought that maybe, you know,
05:37it would have brought everybody to a different place where we're closer and things like that.
05:41But that's not what happened here.
05:43And I just wonder how that's going to be actually working together again.
05:46Because we haven't really done any kind of work together.
05:49Not collaboratively.
05:51And that's, that worries me.
05:54I won't say that my sisters and I have become estranged since Tracy's passing.
05:59I feel like no one really wanted to address it and talk about it.
06:03So my feelings were enclosed.
06:05They were put in a box.
06:06And especially for me, that was unhealthy.
06:09I should have had my sisters to lean on to be those people for me to talk to.
06:13But it just didn't feel like that's what they wanted for themselves.
06:18You know we're supposed to be going to dinner with Tony and the girls tonight.
06:20Well, not you.
06:21Who is we?
06:22But me and Tawanda and Tamar and Mommy.
06:25Nice.
06:26Y'all need some time together.
06:27I am really glad that Tony is in town for a couple of days.
06:30Because we never see each other, okay?
06:33Tonight will be a good check-in to see how everyone's doing.
06:35Especially as we get close to the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing.
06:39Mommy's been pushing for us to talk to a grief counselor together.
06:42But we haven't decided if we're ready to do that yet.
06:45We're going to talk about, you know, Tracy.
06:49We never really sat and talked about it as a family.
06:52Ever since, you know, we had her memorial service.
06:55Yeah.
06:56How are you feeling?
06:57It's been difficult. It's been difficult.
06:59Grieving is a very real thing.
07:01You know what I mean?
07:03That's why it's so important for us to stay in contact with baby Kevin.
07:06With little Kevin.
07:07Little Kevin is not just Tracy's son. He's our only child.
07:11They had the deepest bond in the whole entire world.
07:16I think the loss of Tracy for little Kevin
07:20was one of the most detrimental things he's ever been through in his life.
07:23And we need to make sure he knows that just because he lost his mother, he isn't alone.
07:28He lost his mom very early in life.
07:30But he doesn't speak to his dad as much either.
07:32What?
07:35I didn't know that.
07:36Not as often as I would think.
07:40I won't speak negatively about his dad because his dad was grieving too.
07:44No matter my personal opinion toward him, he's still a grieving husband.
07:48But when you're surviving, parent is shut down.
07:51And the parent that you lost is gone.
07:53Who do you have?
07:55It's almost a loss of both parents.
07:58I think we should check with him and see how he's doing.
08:00I just don't know.
08:02The situation was tough for everybody.
08:03Yeah.
08:05It was tough for everybody.
08:09But Tony said that she has something to say to us.
08:12But you just never know what it's going to be.
08:14Good or bad?
08:15I don't know.
08:16Tony, in true Tony fashion, asked the family to come to dinner.
08:19And she had something to tell us.
08:21You know, but this time, when she told us that she wanted to talk,
08:25the setting of her tone was very melancholy.
08:27And I'm really afraid.
08:29Because Tony has always been recluse when it comes to her feelings.
08:32She's never really been this person who just wants everybody to know what's going on with her.
08:36You know what?
08:37What?
08:38It don't matter what she wants to talk about.
08:40The fact of the matter is that all of y'all be together.
08:42Now, that I agree with.
08:44We've never truly grieved together since Tracy's passing.
08:48Because I don't think I'm ready.
08:49I haven't talked to anyone at all.
08:51You just try to live with a broken heart.
08:53This is really messed up.
08:54So I'm scared, like, every day.
08:56And I can't even handle that feeling.
09:13Hey, Mom.
09:27Hey.
09:28Everybody looks amazing.
09:29Nice.
09:30I would just like to say, for the record, I'm not paying.
09:32Because y'all do this to me every time.
09:34Who's paying?
09:35Tawanda.
09:36She's late.
09:38This family dinner is the first time that everyone together filming again.
09:44It feels so good to have everyone in the same room.
09:50However, I'm missing Tracy.
09:53How's everybody been?
09:55I ain't seen everybody.
09:56I ain't seen or talked to you.
09:57Where you been?
09:58I've been working.
09:59Good.
10:00I'm excited.
10:01I haven't worked in 15 months.
10:02These days, I'm a bit bicoastal between L.A. and Atlanta.
10:05But I've been singing in L.A. more lately since I've been rehearsing for my new Las Vegas show with Cedric the Entertainer.
10:10It's called Love and Laughter.
10:12And it's a variety show with singing and dancing and comedy, which is kind of new for me.
10:18But I'm getting more and more excited about the challenge of it all.
10:21You feel like you're ready?
10:24I'm a little nervous.
10:25Yesterday, I was like, I'm nervous.
10:27Cedric, I haven't performed this.
10:28I'm never nervous like this.
10:29So just anxiety.
10:31That's all.
10:32You got this.
10:33Yeah, you're fine.
10:34You got this.
10:35I actually had a Vegas show over 15 years ago in 2007.
10:38And while I was doing that show, I had chest pains.
10:43That's when I was diagnosed with lupus.
10:45And I was told then that I may never be able to perform again.
10:49I was scared to tell anyone.
10:51The truth is that I have lupus.
10:54What do you mean?
10:56I've been battling it for a while.
10:59And I don't want to tell anyone because everyone's like, oh, you can't tell anyone because you can't work.
11:03I don't want to tell anybody because it may defer people from wanting to work with you.
11:07But now I'm tired of faking it.
11:12I'm a little scared because I haven't performed in so long.
11:15But the doctor said 15 months.
11:17And it's exactly 15 months.
11:20I know I have to tell the girls about the health scare, which makes me feel some kind of way.
11:23Because the last health scare we heard was Tracy.
11:27My family know that a few months ago, I had to have a stent put in my heart.
11:32It was extremely scary.
11:34But I haven't told them the nitty-gritty, the details of it, what really has happened.
11:39So I got to make sure, you know, I tell them without making them, I want them to feel at ease, I should say.
11:45And it's not easy to talk about for myself.
11:48But on the brink of Tracy stuff, I don't want to get them riled up.
11:51Oh, it's only okay.
11:53So I don't even want to tell them.
11:55Maybe I shouldn't.
11:56I don't know.
11:57You look really good.
11:58I do?
11:59I can tell you've been over in that California lifestyle.
12:02I hate living in Lemon Pepper Island.
12:05You know what?
12:06What's Lemon Pepper Island?
12:08That's where I live at.
12:09Everything is lemon pepper.
12:10They probably got lemon pepper pedicures.
12:12It's lemon pepper everything.
12:14Lemon pepper and hookah, hookah, lemon, hookah, lemon, hookah.
12:19But we have guacamole.
12:20We eat avocado toast.
12:21I eat that.
12:22What?
12:23What about you?
12:24Is you single?
12:25What's the deal?
12:26Oh, that's a big deal.
12:27I feel like I'm single.
12:31I feel like I'm pretty much single.
12:34What's that mean, pretty much?
12:36I was engaged.
12:38I'm not married.
12:39I'm not engaged anymore, and I'm not married.
12:42And that's all I'm going to say.
12:44So you got a boyfriend?
12:46I'm focused on my two boys and my work.
12:48It's been a strange time since Tracy's passed, but I am happy in my life overall.
12:55Just not in a place for a relationship.
12:59Right now.
13:01What are you checking?
13:02What are you doing?
13:03First love slip.
13:04Under my eye.
13:05Oh, yeah.
13:13Y'all did this on purpose.
13:14Oh, my God.
13:17Why are you copying off of me?
13:18Nothing wrong with it.
13:19They did it on purpose.
13:20No, you did not.
13:21I didn't see Trina all day.
13:22All I want to know is what new pussycat?
13:26Y'all used to dress like this when y'all were younger.
13:28I can't. I'm flabbergasted.
13:29Trina.
13:30Tracy is like 100% looking down, crack it up.
13:34I mean, I've been missing this.
13:36Whenever we get together, there's always this crazy and silly moments.
13:39And with Tracy, it was even crazier.
13:41She made everything fun.
13:42I have to pee right now.
13:44Don't pee, Tracy.
13:45It's in the ocean.
13:46Don't pee.
13:47I have to pee.
13:48Wait for a bathroom, Tracy.
13:53Where'd you get that big Bob Marley one?
14:00I just don't seem right.
14:01It's like a seat's missing.
14:02It is.
14:03Tracy's holding on purses.
14:05Yeah.
14:06I'm not holding everybody's purse.
14:08Everybody take they own.
14:10Here's yours.
14:11Here's yours.
14:12And here's yours.
14:13I hear all the time from our fans how they miss watching our antics.
14:25Laughing with us.
14:30Clank, clank, clank, clank, clank, clank, clank, clank, clank.
14:34Yes.
14:35That's our old Whitney clank.
14:37Whitney gonna get you.
14:38Have a seat.
14:40And crying with us.
14:41I don't want to talk about that, man.
14:43It is the truth.
14:44Singing with us.
14:45The trumpet sounds.
14:53He must go away.
14:56Let him go.
15:01He don't need to go.
15:08Let him go.
15:11She got four kids, and that's enough.
15:14She don't want no more kids, and that's just tough.
15:18Dear doll.
15:20Dear doll.
15:22We don't like all of y'all.
15:25Dear doll.
15:27Happy birthday to you.
15:35Thank you, guys.
15:36Yeah.
15:37We were filming for your birthday in L.A.
15:40She was telling me and Trina, she was like, I can't even speak Polish.
15:43Oh, it's fine.
15:44Oh, my God, it's fine.
15:46The last season, yeah.
15:47Oh, it burns.
15:48Oh, oh, it burns.
15:49Can I get a tattoo?
15:52Yeah, she was sad.
15:53When she finally went to the doctor, I was in L.A.
15:57Yeah.
15:58And she called me.
15:59She said, Mommy, I have cancer.
16:04Help us.
16:07She said, but I'm gonna beat this.
16:09I said, I know you will.
16:13When Tracy got diagnosed, it didn't seem real at all.
16:16It still doesn't.
16:19For me, family is the most important thing in my life.
16:22I spent my whole life caring for and protecting my sisters,
16:25but this was different because there was nothing I could do.
16:28I felt so helpless.
16:30Like I couldn't do anything to save her.
16:32That's really hard for me to digest because I was the sick one, not Tracy.
16:40Anyway, I'm sorry, guys.
16:41I just need a moment.
16:47Okay, here we go.
16:50You can't mess up my makeup.
16:54You know, I feel like we need to have some type of support.
16:58So I'm just saying like a grief management or because that's a lot.
17:02It's a lot.
17:03You know what I'm saying?
17:04Yeah.
17:05Everybody is dealing with it in their own way.
17:08But I think Trina really and truly needs extensive counseling
17:16because she was there when Tracy took her last breath.
17:24Has anybody gone to grief counseling?
17:26I probably should have after Tracy.
17:27Yeah.
17:28I have before, but not after Tracy.
17:31Probably should have.
17:32Yeah.
17:33Every time I see your necklace.
17:36Oh, yeah.
17:37I don't have mine on today.
17:38I think of Tracy.
17:39Tracy wanted us to wear the sisters.
17:41She just.
17:42I want my sisters to all wear.
17:43No, she said she wanted us to take her wherever we go.
17:49Tracy loved hummingbirds.
17:51There was this whole mural on her back.
17:56It was five hummingbirds.
17:58So it represented every sister.
18:00Before she passed, she told us that she always wants us to take her with us
18:05so she can continue her journey.
18:07So wherever I go, whatever I'm doing, I take her with me.
18:11She's still here.
18:13She's still here.
18:15Now, the only time I ever take Tracy off is when I'm in a moment with my husband.
18:21I'm sure she doesn't want to be there.
18:23Sorry, Tracy, but I'm sure you didn't want to be there.
18:27How's little Kevin doing?
18:28He's going through some things.
18:30He's going through a divorce, so.
18:33Wait, what happened?
18:34He told everybody what happened?
18:37What happened?
18:40I am taking it back that little Kevin is going through a divorce
18:45because I see little Kevin all the time.
18:47We have dinner and catch up and things like that,
18:50but he's never told me about his situations with my niece.
18:56Tracy would be sad about that, very sad.
18:59Has little Kevin done grief management?
19:01No.
19:02No.
19:03The loss of his mom, that's a lot.
19:05His best friend.
19:08I heard that Kevin was getting a divorce,
19:13and I know, I think of Tracy, that would break her heart
19:19because it's breaking mine, for God's sakes.
19:22She about to cry. What's wrong?
19:24Yes, she is.
19:25You can't touch Trina when she's crying.
19:29As time go by.
19:30Is this cheese?
19:31Don't put your hands on my plate like that.
19:35Let's change the subject.
19:36I'd like to hear Tony's news.
19:41I went to the doctor.
19:47Here's to Tracy.
19:48I'm not above you.
19:49Blank, blank, blank, blank.
19:50I'm not below you.
19:51I'm right here with you.
19:52How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
19:57What's going on?
19:58Y'all got so many secrets, so irritating.
20:00Trina's going tapping, and it's like,
20:01but this is not the form.
20:02This is not the form.
20:08I'd like to hear Tony's news.
20:13I went to the doctor.
20:15My heart was aching.
20:16It was like I had had every test done.
20:18I had the echo done.
20:19I had the EKG.
20:20I had blood work done.
20:21And I went to get the angio.
20:23And the doctor was like, that's your pre-op.
20:25I said, what do you mean my pre-op?
20:26No, you're having surgery.
20:27You got to look inside your heart.
20:30What's wrong with your heart?
20:32It's the hardest that could happen.
20:33They caught it just before it happened.
20:35If I had a heart attack, I wouldn't survive.
20:36I wouldn't be here right now.
20:39But it was something called a widow maker.
20:42They told me, your sister was watching over you.
20:48Because you, by rights, should be dead today.
20:51You should not be alive today.
20:54I've always known Tony's health was serious.
20:58I didn't take it lightly.
21:00As a mother, I worry.
21:03And I think she feels that if Tracy can leave now, so soon, well, maybe me too.
21:15The thing that's really messed up, I was told that even though I got the stent in,
21:23you will eventually need bypass surgery.
21:26Because if I have a heart attack, I won't survive.
21:30I had to have a stent put in my heart, which was extremely scary.
21:35That's a very scary procedure itself.
21:37But when my doctor told me I might not ever be able to do a tour again,
21:42OK, I heard it before.
21:44But this was different.
21:45They say you may never be able to do another tour because you could have a heart attack and it could kill you.
21:49It's like crazy anxieties.
21:52I just think about it all the time.
21:54Because I'm having a death of a diesel.
21:56Who do I take care of now?
21:59It's just really messed up.
22:00I'm scared.
22:01Like, every day, if I have a heart attack, I won't survive.
22:05And I can't even handle a diesel.
22:12All I could think about were the boys.
22:14And I hate saying it out loud, even now.
22:17Because it's real.
22:20It's real life.
22:22To be scared every day.
22:24Every day.
22:25You can't even understand.
22:26Like, oh, is that heartburn?
22:27Am I having a heart attack?
22:29The Bible says, speak things, although they are what?
22:32And so they were.
22:34And so it is.
22:35That's it.
22:36That's how that works.
22:37That's it.
22:38As soon as you feel that that fear is coming in here, you demand it to leave and it will.
22:43That's just it.
22:44Did you point to my vagina?
22:46Yes, you demand it to leave and it will.
22:48No, if you don't use it.
22:49You don't use it, you lose it.
22:52Now, that's a fact.
22:53Seeing my family rally around Tony with so much love and support
22:56reminded me of how many times we've hugged each other and loved on each other in the past.
23:01And it gives me hope that we can be as close as we used to be.
23:04And it might take time, but we always have Tracy with us, making us stronger.
23:10I needed this more than I wanted to admit to myself.
23:13And I honestly think we all did.
23:15Oh, you'll be fine, Tony.
23:16Yep.
23:17You're already okay.
23:18You're already good.
23:19You're already okay.
23:20For me, the main reason for wanting to do the Braxton's again is because of Tracy.
23:28She wanted us to do the show.
23:31She wanted us to talk about her cancer, her illness,
23:35in hopes that it would help someone else maybe battling it.
23:40Whenever there's a loss, a death in the family, it can go either way.
23:43It can bring you closer or further apart.
23:45And I think this was her way of making sure we stayed together.
23:54Listen, let me tell you something.
23:55You already live and you can't be afraid to live.
24:01I thought I was strong, but I wasn't strong enough to see it.
24:05And if somebody says Trina drinks too much, well, I'm sorry.
24:09That's what Trina needs right now.
24:12You act like you guys are enemies.
24:18I can't take it.
24:20It's too much.
24:31Adorable.
24:32So do you.
24:34I got you a drink and I got me a drink.
24:35All right.
24:36But after today, I'm on a hiatus.
24:38So why?
24:39Because I need my stomach to be full.
24:41So I speed bump on it.
24:44Umba and I have always been super close.
24:47You know, Tawanda and I live in Georgia.
24:49Tony and Tamar live in California.
24:51My brother Mikey and Tracy live together in Maryland.
24:53So it just made more sense for Tawanda and I to gravitate towards each other.
24:57But especially after Tracy's passing, we've gotten even closer
25:01because you just never know.
25:04Yes, thank you so much.
25:05So, you know, Trina, a lot of people were sending me messages saying,
25:09Oh my God, is Tawanda sick?
25:12Is Tawanda sick?
25:13Oh my God, is she sick too?
25:15First of all, you remember that we all said that we were going to cut half our hair, right?
25:21But you didn't cut your hair.
25:24I have a face that's round like mommy's.
25:28Y'all have splendid faces.
25:29Mine is round.
25:30That was my inheritance.
25:32I hadn't exactly told the world that I have alopecia.
25:36A lot of people assume a lot of different things.
25:39I took pride in how I looked.
25:41And I have to be honest, I didn't think about my body.
25:45It was what was going on in the inside.
25:47And that was, oh my gosh, people are going to know that I have alopecia.
25:51Oh my God, maybe people aren't going to like me anymore.
25:54How do you feel about it now?
25:55I am who I am.
25:56You accept me or you just don't accept me.
25:58It's just a part of who I am.
25:59I have alopecia and that's just it.
26:01I like it.
26:02Well, thank you.
26:03Well, thank you.
26:04There's this video of Tracy.
26:07She's got her long little skinny fingers.
26:11And she's just rubbing on Tawanda's head.
26:13And Tawanda has all these patches.
26:16You know, like missing hair.
26:18I used to always do my hair.
26:20Didn't you, Tracy?
26:22Remember that?
26:23Whenever it happened.
26:25Only I, Tracy, would just always just rub it.
26:27Just rub Tawanda's hair.
26:31And Tawanda cut off her hair and Tracy said that she should do it.
26:38And I need a second because you're not going to get me.
26:43You're not going to get me today, Ochi.
26:48I don't know why, but little Kevin's on my mind.
26:50Is he really?
26:51Yeah, yeah.
26:52You want me to call him?
26:53Yeah.
26:54Okay.
26:55Since Tracy passed, we have really been trying to be there for little Kevin as much as possible.
26:59I know we can never fill that void of losing his mom and his best friend.
27:05But we are definitely doing the best that we can to be there for him.
27:10Hi!
27:11Hey!
27:13How are y'all?
27:14We're just calling to check in on you.
27:15See how you're feeling.
27:16See how you're doing.
27:17Yes.
27:18I've been making it.
27:20I love you.
27:21You look amazing.
27:22Look at your hair.
27:23Yeah, you're twisted.
27:24Look at my hair, Olivia.
27:26Wait, wait, wait.
27:27What?
27:29Your wife braided your hair?
27:30When did she do that?
27:40But she did your hair.
27:41Right.
27:43Little Kevin is Tracy's only son, and I think that the death of Tracy has really affected his marriage.
27:51I'm sorry.
27:52I know.
27:53I know.
27:58Yeah.
28:01He's lost a mom and a best friend, and he's losing his wife, so I can only imagine what he's going through emotionally.
28:08We were all together last night, and what we understand is that we need to go ahead and go on grief counseling.
28:16I agree.
28:17Okay.
28:18After last night, we all agreed to have family grief therapy, and we're deciding that we're going to go to Tony's house.
28:24Mommy and Trina are cooking Tracy's favorite meals, like oxtail and turkey wings, to celebrate her.
28:30And we're also going to meet with the grief therapist.
28:34This is a different journey for us, and I'm very hopeful that maybe whatever's going on with everybody in the family, maybe they can get it out, because I think that's important.
28:44Would you want to be a part of that, too?
28:48Yeah.
28:50Yeah.
28:53Yeah.
28:55Of course.
28:56Of course.
28:58Yeah.
28:59I know you do.
29:00I don't want him to go into a downward spiral, you know, especially during holidays, especially during those commemorative moments.
29:07That's when a lot of people get so downtrodden, you know, they just don't want to have to deal with the stress.
29:12They don't want to have to deal with the hurt.
29:14They don't want to have to deal with their feelings.
29:17He's got to get it out of his body.
29:19But, you know, we're going to get through this together.
29:21Yes.
29:22Okay.
29:23I love you.
29:27Here's to Tracy.
29:28I'm not above you.
29:29Clank, clank, clank, clank.
29:30I'm not below you.
29:31I'm right here with you.
29:33Yes.
29:42Tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
29:45When we go through therapy sessions, a lot of things are revealed.
29:51I just want y'all back.
29:52Are you okay?
29:53No.
29:54Okay.
29:55Go check on him, Tawanda.
29:56He has a warrant.
29:58Wait a minute, what?
30:15No, ma'am.
30:16I need you to slice the, um...
30:17Onions?
30:18The onions and the garlic.
30:19No.
30:20Can you get that stuff in my clothes?
30:21Well, I haven't changed yet, so...
30:22I'll have Michelle A. to do it.
30:23Oh, my God.
30:24Yeah, girl.
30:25Prima Donna.
30:26Everybody know that.
30:27It's my middle name.
30:28This week is the two-year anniversary of Tracy's passing, and we're getting ready for our
30:33family grief therapy at Tony's house.
30:35I invited a therapist, and her name is Tawanda.
30:37She's going to be our therapist.
30:39And we're getting ready for our family grief therapy at Tony's house.
30:42I invited a therapist, and her name is Spirit, and she helped me so much in the past, and
30:47I'm hoping she can do the same for everyone else.
30:49Mommy and I came early to start cooking some of Tracy's favorite dishes, but Tony has to
30:54get camera ready, and Tawanda and Tamar are on their way now.
31:02I'm back.
31:03Hey, Tom.
31:04You on your way here?
31:05Yeah.
31:06Okay.
31:07I'll be there in a few minutes.
31:08Okay.
31:09I'm just going to temperature check.
31:10You good?
31:11You ready for today?
31:12I'm getting ready.
31:13Emotionally, I'm getting made up for it, but emotionally, we'll see.
31:18Good.
31:19I'm in a good space.
31:21You know, I'm eager to listen.
31:23I'm eager to learn.
31:25I'm eager to grow.
31:27Yeah.
31:28Yeah.
31:29I haven't talked to anyone at all about Tracy's stuff.
31:32I've been dealing with it on my own, so I'm optimistic that this will help me.
31:37Yes.
31:40I'm optimistic that this grief management thing will work, but I just miss her.
31:50I just miss her every day.
31:53I try to make myself think of something positive.
31:55Like the butterfly doesn't know it used to be a caterpillar, and the caterpillar doesn't
31:58know it's going to be a butterfly.
32:00So Tracy's a butterfly.
32:03You just try to live with a broken heart, and it's really difficult trying to make yourself
32:08live with a broken heart.
32:11Well, you know what?
32:12This sounds real corny.
32:13It's hard to try to live with a broken heart, so maybe she can help unbreak our hearts.
32:17I know this sounds real corny.
32:18Toni Braxton, you had to put your song in there, Unbreak My Heart?
32:23I wasn't even thinking about it.
32:24I'm talking about Johnny Mathis' version.
32:26I'm singing Johnny Mathis' version.
32:28Oh, no.
32:29No, no, no.
32:30That is amazing.
32:31Well, at least we can smile and laugh, you know?
32:34Well, I'll see you in a minute.
32:35All right, see you.
32:54Hey!
32:56I think grief counseling is very important.
32:58Whether you lose someone to death or lose someone in a relationship, you know, I just
33:02feel like it's something that you have to do.
33:05Why you got no surgical gloves?
33:07Okay, good mother.
33:08Because I had to clean myself.
33:12Tracy loves buttermilk this week, so I'm making her in her honor.
33:16Let's have some champagne.
33:18I got a quick question.
33:19So what's the objective of today?
33:22I think it depends on the individual.
33:24What do you want to accomplish?
33:26Oh, I'm here for moral support.
33:28I've been to counseling.
33:31I've been to every kind of counseling.
33:33I've been to a psychiatrist.
33:35I've been to a spiritual counselor.
33:37I've been to IFAS.
33:38I've been to everybody.
33:40Different things call for different kind of people to explain it to you properly.
33:44The way my help is set up, I don't care where it comes from as long as I get it.
33:47Grief counseling is a lot different than regular counseling.
33:49I've been to regular counseling before.
33:52Let me ask you a question.
33:53This is not, I'm not trying to be derogatory.
33:55Ask the questions that you want to ask.
33:57Where did Spirit come from?
33:59Why is she calling her Spirit?
34:01That's her name.
34:03Obviously, she didn't come from you.
34:06Well, I've actually known her for a lot of years.
34:09What was the first experience with her?
34:13Honestly, the first time that I had a conversation with her,
34:16and this was almost five years ago, and that's when Gabe passed away.
34:22It was very helpful.
34:24But I just wasn't ready.
34:25No, I feel you.
34:26I wasn't ready.
34:30I'm asking you to marry me.
34:32Before I was married to Vaughn, I was married to Gabe for 14 and a half years,
34:37and we were on and off for the last few years.
34:41What the f*** did you do to your hair?
34:43You don't like it?
34:44No!
34:46He loved me. He loved my family.
34:48They loved him in their own way.
34:50Put on some pants.
34:53What?
34:54Nobody want to see Dick Van Dyke all over the place?
34:59After Gabe and I divorced, we stayed really good friends,
35:02and when he passed away from cancer, he was only 43 years old.
35:06And even though I was very happy with Vaughn at the time, and still am,
35:10the pain was unexpected because I lose someone who was a really big part of my family
35:15and the lives of my children.
35:17And that wasn't something I was ready for.
35:21So when you asked her to come, can you help my family?
35:23What did you ask her to help?
35:25I just knew, even from a short period of time, how she helped me.
35:28She asked questions that I didn't want to face at the time, but I knew that I had to.
35:32Okay.
35:33Well, can we get this show on the road?
35:35We won't get this road on the show. I got to go upstairs and change.
35:37I brought my stuff upstairs.
35:38Why do you have to change?
35:39Because I brought an outfit that Tracy gave to me.
35:42Oh, okay.
35:43Oh, that's what you're doing today?
35:45That's what I'm doing today.
35:46Okay.
35:47Let me tell you what I need.
35:48Let's make some tea.
35:49Let's try to go get dressed.
35:50When you come back down, we're going to set up over here and get all comfortable,
35:52so whatever is happening, we be ready.
35:55That part.
35:56Be also ready.
35:57Okay.
35:58Where's your fancy stuff?
35:59Where's the Toni Braxton stuff?
36:02We got T-stuff.
36:03We got Toni Braxton stuff.
36:04Yeah, we'll get the Toni Braxton stuff.
36:05Okay, I do have a little bit of fancy Toni Braxton T-stuff.
36:08I'm a T-girl.
36:09I love T-parties.
36:10I like collecting T-sets.
36:12Tamar, she loves it.
36:13Where are your Toni Braxton trays?
36:14I haven't been here in Atlanta in a second.
36:17I've been in L.A. working on, you know, that show stuff.
36:20You cannot find, like, paper cups and bowls and spoons in her house unless I bring it there.
36:25It's Toni Braxton.
36:26She got to spend some money in the house.
36:27Like, what she think she got?
36:30You got a tea towel?
36:32I have everything.
36:33It's the only way it is.
36:34Oh, thank you, Mommy.
36:35Ooh, you look beautiful.
36:37Go, girl.
36:39You hear the doorbell?
36:40Trina, can you answer?
36:41Yes.
36:42Because I don't know her.
36:43I'm going to take off my robe.
36:44That would be nice.
36:45Come on.
36:46Let's go sit down.
36:47Hurry up.
36:48Hurry up.
36:49Let's sit down.
36:50Come on.
36:51She's coming.
36:52Why are we running?
36:53Because we want to be seated when she gets here.
36:54We're not late for class.
36:55Knocking, knocking.
36:56It's me in spirit.
36:57Okay, let's hold Trina.
36:58Let's hold Trina.
36:59And then let's get ready for our cameras over here.
37:00Hurry up.
37:01Let's sit down.
37:02Come on.
37:03I don't get a lot of space.
37:04You got space right there.
37:05No, there's mine over here.
37:06Go ahead.
37:07Hey, guys.
37:08Can you just let me just do the final look?
37:09Okay.
37:10And then, Trina, you're walking in.
37:11You're walking in.
37:12Can you just let me just do the final look?
37:13Okay.
37:14And then, Trina, you're walking in with spirit, okay?
37:15Yes, sir.
37:26Can you just let me just do the final look?
37:28Okay.
37:29And then, Trina, you're walking in with spirit, okay?
37:30Yes, sir.
37:31Kevin Jr. is going to be on the zoom.
37:33Okay.
37:34And Mr. Braxton is also going to be on the part of...
37:36Okay.
37:37He's still up?
37:38My daddy's up.
37:39Daddy is up.
37:40He took a nap.
37:41Everybody got a slate? Cameras off, PDs.
37:50Hey, everybody.
37:51Hi.
37:53That's Mom.
37:54Hi, how are you?
37:55Hello.
37:56Nice to meet you.
37:57After the passing of Tracy, everybody's trying to deal with their pain.
38:03Okay, is this my chair?
38:04Yes, that's your chair.
38:06I want them to have grief counseling because they need it, for God's sakes.
38:12I need extensive grief counseling also.
38:15Hey, Daddy.
38:17Hello.
38:18Hi, Dad.
38:19Y'all good?
38:21Daddy got his name tag.
38:23It's hilarious.
38:24He says Michael Braxton on his shirt.
38:28Hey, Mama.
38:29Hi, handsome.
38:32Hey, Dad.
38:33One of the things that I like to start off by saying is grief looks different for everybody,
38:38and sometimes we think that we're grieving one thing, and we start to pull on that,
38:43and then we realize that there's a whole lot of things that are connected to that
38:47because grief is really just a feeling.
38:49But I'm wondering, since you're the person that called, tell me, what do you feel like you need help with?
38:58Can I not go first?
39:01Why don't you want to go first?
39:03Because I don't think I'm ready to say how I feel yet.
39:07Okay.
39:09We're clearly nervous about this family grief counseling session, and the truth is we're not great communicators, okay?
39:17We don't know how to communicate with each other.
39:19We don't.
39:20We just shut down, and the next time we see each other, hey, but we ain't never talked about it.
39:24We just pushed it under the rug.
39:26I miss you all terribly.
39:30I'm worried that holding our feelings in would be the worst thing for us in the long run,
39:34so I think this is really needed.
39:40Okay.
39:41Who else?
39:42What are you all feeling?
39:48We've always dabbled in a little bit of family group therapy, and I think in a lot of cases it has worked.
39:53I love you girls.
39:55When we, as a family, go through therapy sessions, a lot of things are revealed,
40:03like things that have been suppressed, conversations that have been suppressed that we didn't deal with,
40:09so I don't think that today is going to be any different.
40:14Sometimes everybody is ready, and sometimes nobody really wants to.
40:18How are you guys feeling about being here tonight?
40:27I have no idea how to feel yet.
40:29So are we just kind of disconnected from our feelings?
40:31No, not disconnected.
40:32Maybe a little, but I haven't done grief management before, so I have no idea what to expect.
40:37Okay.
40:38How do I help you?
40:40I wish I could give you some answers.
40:42I want this to be what I like to call a no-judgment zone.
40:47I do not believe in pitting individuals against each other.
40:50I do not believe in creating conflict, and I do not believe that any individual is ever a problem in a situation.
41:00I believe that the problems are the problem, and it is up to you as a family to be able to work through those problems.
41:07It's shifted.
41:09It's gone past how we feel in this whole bereavement situation.
41:15I can't help you if you guys aren't clear on what you actually want to talk about as real problems.