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00:00Good morning! Bright and shiny!
00:05Previously on 90 Day The Last Resort.
00:08This is what it's like having kids.
00:10Yeah.
00:11I don't want kids anymore.
00:15So, I would like all you couples to pick one of your big issues.
00:20If your issue is trust, what's a bandage that we can do to work on trust?
00:24Stacey and Florian.
00:26You know, he's cheated in the past and now I have new information
00:29and I just feel like the bandage just got ripped off me again.
00:33Everything which I work is going down. This is not trust anymore.
00:39Josh and Natalie, something's going on here.
00:41It's been three years and I have never ever seen where he lives.
00:47What's keeping us from just saying, come on over and see my place?
00:51Yeah, well, we've only been getting along for two hours.
00:54Although we're taking steps forward, you know,
00:57I'm still thinking about how bad I was treated for the majority of being here.
01:03Gino, Jasmine, where are you guys with things?
01:06I'd like to know Jasmine's location.
01:08If she was to share location services,
01:11would it be more likely that you would be in this open relationship?
01:14It's something I'm considering right now.
01:18An open marriage could work for some people.
01:21They're not those people.
01:51¶¶
02:20If she was to share location services, would that affect you saying,
02:23okay, I can move forward with an open marriage if I know where you are?
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02:32Yeah, it would help. Certainly would help.
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02:38I'm sharing it now with him.
02:42I'm coming around to the idea of an open marriage
02:46because I feel like I was put in a corner
02:49and I needed to make a decision now fast
02:52because otherwise Jasmine, you know,
02:55could leave me and cheat on me with someone else.
02:58As terrible as an open marriage sounds,
03:01this might be the only way to keep Jasmine in my life.
03:05Gino! Gino, goddammit.
03:08Look at me.
03:10What's the point of the GPS
03:13if she can have sex with other people anyways?
03:16Because I didn't agree to that yet.
03:18Like, I'm still considering it.
03:20You're rolling down that hill right now.
03:22I want to know, first of all, is she with, you know,
03:25is it one person?
03:27Is it the person that she's going to have an open marriage with?
03:30Or is it more than that?
03:32For all things you have to discuss,
03:35you have to have agreements or it doesn't work.
03:38¶¶
03:40That is...
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03:47I don't know what kind of marriage is that.
03:51I just find it odd, the whole situation odd.
03:54You know, Gino wants to agree to an open marriage now.
03:57If Jasmine shares her location,
03:59like, it's just getting weirder and weirder by the moment.
04:02Usually you share the location to not cheat.
04:05He wants to know where she's getting it on.
04:08This is weird. I don't know.
04:11Thank you guys so much.
04:12This is proof that you're doing the work.
04:14All of you, yeah.
04:16We only have a couple more days, so let's hit the floor running.
04:19You did great. I hope you have a wonderful evening.
04:22We're so happy we had this time.
04:24We look forward to seeing you more in the next few days before we wrap up.
04:28Have a good night, everybody. We'll talk to you soon.
04:31Bye.
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04:44Hello, hello.
04:49Oh!
04:54What is going on?
04:56I think in all this time with this group, make us be a family,
05:01doesn't matter what happened between all of us,
05:04we're still a big family.
05:06Yeah, dysfunctional one.
05:08What does dysfunctional mean?
05:10It's...
05:12dysfunctional.
05:15I'm not saying dysfunctional, I said dysfunctional.
05:19I think some people here are definitely dysfunctional.
05:24Hey, Josh and Mary.
05:26Hey, what up, y'all?
05:28What up, y'all?
05:30I really look like Barbie.
05:32Oh!
05:34You told me you can't swim.
05:36I cannot swim, I only float.
05:38I don't want to get wet.
05:40But the floats do work.
05:42Oh, my God.
05:44Oh!
05:46That just popped up.
05:48Like a buoy.
05:50Like a buoy.
05:52I like it, baby! They're here!
05:54Yeah!
05:56Yeah!
05:58So excited to see all of you.
06:04You guys all had an amazing day,
06:06everybody's cheering and excited.
06:08How did it go?
06:10I know you guys had a second, right?
06:12Yeah.
06:14I feel like everybody have some big points today,
06:16everybody work out today,
06:18and I feel like everybody have progress today.
06:20I want to say, you know,
06:22I've had a hard time being anxious,
06:24talking in front of groups,
06:26and a lot of you guys have been,
06:28you know, on our side,
06:30helping us,
06:32and I want to say thank you to everyone,
06:34because you guys have been really positive,
06:36and supportive,
06:38and I love having you guys here.
06:40We love you.
06:42I couldn't imagine having a better group of people here
06:44to support us,
06:46and I really appreciate you guys.
06:48We believe in you guys.
06:50We believe in this.
06:54Thank you so much to everyone.
06:56I sat in front of the chair.
06:58Everyone, come on, come on.
07:00We got to have this moment.
07:12I love you.
07:14I love you.
07:26I love you.
07:38You know, I just got back from a workout.
07:40Trying not to waste the day.
07:42I feel you.
07:44What the **** is that?
07:46A big ****, baby.
07:52Golly.
07:54I don't think there's anything over here that warms.
07:56Okay.
07:58How you doing today?
08:00Man.
08:02Honestly, my head's, like, all over the place,
08:04to be honest.
08:06Yeah, it is.
08:08With the recommitment ceremony coming up,
08:10I've been thinking a lot about,
08:12you know, Natalie and I's relationship,
08:14and, you know, I feel like we're connected.
08:16I feel like we have a special bond,
08:18and we have good moments,
08:20but more bad moments,
08:22and I feel like I have to give this
08:24a lot of thought
08:26for the both of us.
08:28Honestly, dude,
08:30I'm terrified of commitment
08:32with Natalie.
08:34Like, I'm just going to be real with you.
08:36I'm worried.
08:38I've had really one good day here yesterday.
08:40Like, one.
08:42The entire time I've been here,
08:44I've emotionally exhausted at this point.
08:46I genuinely care for her and her well-being,
08:48and, like, if I walked away,
08:50I don't know what would happen to her.
08:54I think you really need to search internally
08:56and figure out if you're holding onto this
08:58for the right reasons.
09:00There's the side of you
09:02that loves her and cares about her
09:04in a genuine sense, but then I feel like
09:06there's a side of you that's only holding on
09:08because you don't think she can make it without you.
09:10Yeah.
09:12I think Josh has always been
09:14one foot in, one foot out.
09:16You know, there's that, like, part of him where
09:18he wants to take care of her,
09:20he feels like she's not going to be okay
09:22without him,
09:24and, you know,
09:26we got a saying for that where I'm from.
09:28You know, we call a guy like that, you know,
09:30Captain Sabaho.
09:32You've internalized feeling like
09:34you're her savior.
09:36He needs to let that s*** go. She'll be all right.
09:38She figured it out this far.
09:40We all got to be honest with ourselves
09:42on whether or not
09:44we should keep holding on.
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10:04Are you safe tonight?
10:06Getting ready to leave.
10:08Go to the airport. I got to pack.
10:10You need help? Yeah.
10:12Too many bags, as usual.
10:14Darcy's going home this morning,
10:16and our relationship isn't perfect.
10:18I'm going to miss having Darcy's support
10:20and miss having her around
10:22and, you know,
10:24spending time together.
10:26More glasses. Put the sunglasses in there.
10:28But at the end of the day,
10:30you know, I'm here to focus on
10:32my marriage and myself.
10:34I'm grateful that I got to come
10:36and, you know, thank you for inviting me
10:38because, you know, I feel a part of this
10:40and I'm grateful for the experience
10:42because we're here to learn.
10:44We're here to listen and learn.
10:46That's right.
10:48So, at the end of the day, like...
10:50I want to change my ways.
10:52Florian wants to change.
10:54I know, you know, we want to change both together
10:56and be one big happy family.
10:58Yeah. That's all that really matters in the end.
11:00Yeah.
11:02Get that twin power ready to activate.
11:04Yeah.
11:06Got it.
11:08You know, the recommitment ceremony
11:10is a really big deal.
11:12Be careful of yourself.
11:16And you'll be fine.
11:18You'll know what to do.
11:20Listen to your heart and your gut.
11:22You got this.
11:24That means a lot to me. Thank you.
11:26Yeah, I needed that.
11:28Me too.
11:34Stacey has to come to this
11:36decision on her own,
11:38whether she wants to recommit to Florian
11:40and there's a lot of
11:42questions still up in the air.
11:44So, even if they do the
11:46recommitment, is it really gonna
11:48make it better?
11:50Or is it just gonna give him a quick, fresh start
11:52and then things are gonna go back to the way they were
11:54when she leaves to go back to Miami?
11:56Do it big.
11:58Do it big, baby.
12:00Alright, love you. Love you.
12:02Have a safe trip home.
12:04That's right. Eyes on the prize.
12:06That's right.
12:10That's right.
12:14That's like the perfect day out, isn't it?
12:16It really is.
12:18Oh, here's the store.
12:20What is this? A boutique or something?
12:22Yes, it is.
12:24Oh my gosh, you will love this.
12:26Look.
12:28It's all bikini.
12:36What do you think about it, baby?
12:38Are you twerking?
12:40Yes.
12:42Or is that your sexy dance?
12:44I'm a robot.
12:46It's a lack of practice.
12:48The retreat is almost over
12:50and I've been thinking
12:52about whether I can
12:54agree to an open marriage
12:56or live my life
12:58without Jasmine.
13:00And the
13:02fact that I might
13:04not be with Jasmine
13:06and we might break up,
13:08that makes me sad
13:10and I sure hope that doesn't come to that.
13:12And these ones are very cute.
13:14Oh, look at this pink one.
13:16Maybe my boobs are
13:18too big for this.
13:20Of course.
13:22They're going to come out.
13:24I like those.
13:26I would like to
13:28let you know how much
13:30I appreciate and how much it means to me
13:32you are open to consider
13:34the ethical,
13:36non-monogamous marriage.
13:38Just the fact that you are
13:40open to consider it,
13:42it means a lot to me.
13:44And I would like to touch base on it
13:46because at the end of this retreat
13:48the idea is to
13:50compromise,
13:52you know,
13:54to change for better
13:56our relationship.
13:58Yeah, I did put some more thought into it.
14:00And I do...
14:02You know, I want to
14:04go forward with it.
14:06This open marriage idea.
14:10Is it a yes?
14:14Don't be so excited.
14:16No, no, no. I need to know, you know, because
14:18it means a lot.
14:20I really thought that we would
14:22never figure it out.
14:24I'm being serious.
14:26Yeah, I mean, I put a lot of thought into it last night
14:28and I decided that I'm
14:30going to
14:32go forward with it.
14:34You know,
14:36I love you very much
14:38and I don't want to lose you and I feel like
14:40I'm on the verge of losing you
14:42because you're always getting angry
14:44about, you know,
14:46not having intimacy,
14:48you're always mad at me about it.
14:50I feel like I need to take action.
14:52Like now.
14:54I appreciate that.
14:56Right.
14:58Yeah.
15:00Once Gino told me
15:02that he agrees to an open marriage,
15:04I am in shock. I cannot believe what I'm hearing.
15:06And I can finally
15:08feel that Gino is fighting
15:10for our marriage.
15:12This is honestly a miracle.
15:14So you said
15:16there's a guy named Matt that you...
15:18Yes.
15:20Already said this is going to be the person you want to have this
15:22relationship with.
15:24How do you know this is the person that
15:26you want to be intimate with?
15:28Okay, number one is because
15:30he has been a very
15:32like unconditional friend
15:34for the months that I have known him.
15:36You know, we have a lot of things in common.
15:38Has he ever... Is he single?
15:40Yes, he's single.
15:42Wife?
15:44I would say that he's single
15:46and not looking for anything serious
15:48just to have fun.
15:50One of the most important things is like
15:52if you end up
15:54getting too close to this person,
15:56we have to stop this.
15:58What do you mean too close?
16:00Like if you start having feelings for this person
16:02suddenly... Like falling in love?
16:04Yeah, you have to tell me.
16:06If you guys start getting feelings,
16:08we have to stop this.
16:10Okay.
16:12That is very important.
16:14And I don't want to hurt you, Gino.
16:16I know that this is... Listen, this is
16:18not traditional. This is very hard.
16:20But I really want
16:22this to help us
16:24and if I have to stop
16:26seeing this person, that's going to happen.
16:28Like we take this person out of our marriage
16:30because I want to protect our marriage.
16:32You're sure you're going to agree to that, right?
16:34I 100%. And I... And you too.
16:36I believe that you will feel
16:38better like if you talk to Matt
16:40and you know who this person is.
16:44I don't need to... I don't want to really talk
16:46to Matt, to be honest.
16:48That's very strange.
16:50Why is it strange?
16:52Why would I want to know
16:54who you're...
16:56It's not who I'm...
16:58Who's providing a need that you couldn't
17:00and that I wish it was you, not him.
17:02But what other option
17:04do I have?
17:06Well...
17:08Are you going to
17:10want to meet the person that
17:12I might end up in an open relationship
17:14with? Absolutely.
17:16Yes.
17:20I'm worried about Gino
17:22refusing to talk to Matt because
17:24I think that he is not
17:26serious about having an open
17:28marriage as he is making me believe
17:30that he is.
17:32My biggest fear is Gino and I
17:34not agreeing on the rules for an open
17:36marriage or he
17:38not wanting it to be Matt,
17:40the person I will have intimacy with.
17:42Because I know
17:44that if that happens,
17:46we will go back to scare one
17:48and we will be miserable
17:50again.
17:56If you guys could,
17:58each of you come up with one word to
18:00describe where you're at at this moment
18:02in your relationship and in your marriage.
18:04I think my word is confusion.
18:06It doesn't make me
18:08feel very good that Sophie's this confused
18:10at this point. I'm only
18:12confused about what the hell does she want.
18:18This is it, guys.
18:20This is it.
18:22I have two days.
18:24Hello, ladies
18:26and gentlemen.
18:28How are you doing? Good to see you guys.
18:30Good to see you guys.
18:32Hey, guys.
18:34Hi.
18:36Welcome, as always.
18:38That is a
18:40big welcome.
18:46Welcome, as always.
18:48Fabulous. Doesn't it feel like we're at the
18:50little fashion show?
18:52Yeah, we're loving it.
18:54You need to give us scores like
18:5610, 10, 10.
18:58Everybody gets 20.
19:00Yeah.
19:02Welcome back.
19:04This is our final
19:06group therapy session.
19:08So,
19:10we hope that everyone's
19:12going to take this session
19:14pretty serious.
19:16We're able to use this time to
19:18process what we've gained
19:20and we're going to talk about that, what we need
19:22to move forward tomorrow
19:24and make some decisions about
19:26what will happen at the recommitment ceremony.
19:28We'll just start and open up
19:30the floor starting with
19:32Sophie, Rob. Each of you come up with
19:34one word, one symbolic
19:36word that you just think of automatically
19:38to describe where you're at at this
19:40moment in your relationship and in your marriage.
19:42What would that be? Because that will be kind of a segue
19:44to take you into
19:46these next moments and tomorrow, the recommitment
19:48ceremony.
19:52I think my word would be steady.
19:54Steady. Okay.
19:56We're starting to
19:58actually be a little more steady,
20:00a little less chaotic.
20:02I think my word is
20:04confusion because all the
20:06things that I thought
20:08when I came here, I don't think anymore
20:10and there's only one day left.
20:12My first word is just confusion.
20:18I think it kind of really puts you where
20:20you guys really are at.
20:24I think sometimes when you
20:26forget about the past, it doesn't mean
20:28your problems went away, right? They're still there.
20:32It doesn't make me feel very good that Sophie's this
20:34confused at this point.
20:36I've been very clear about what I want
20:38which is to get my wife home,
20:40work on things, and have our
20:42life. I'm only confused
20:44about what the hell does she want.
20:46Thank you guys so
20:48much for your open and honesty.
20:50Brandon and Julia,
20:52so close your eyes.
20:54First word that comes up for you
20:56are where you are at in your relationship
20:58right now.
21:00Momentous.
21:02We have made
21:04big progress on the fact that we finally
21:06came together, I think,
21:08on the kids thing because
21:10I also realized it was coming from a
21:12place of fear, not just
21:14she didn't want it.
21:16What about you, Julia?
21:18The first word that comes to my brain is family.
21:20Family.
21:22Not about only
21:24talking about my family,
21:26your family, all family.
21:28Love it. Thank you, guys.
21:36I can see this therapy are working
21:38for us, but I still don't hear
21:40answer from Brandon about my parents
21:42bring to us. I did what I
21:44can. I agree with his
21:46bandage. Now it's his turn.
21:48But it makes me worry because
21:50I think the more time Brandon takes to make
21:52this decision, the less likely
21:54he will agree.
21:58Jasmine and Gino, I want you guys
22:00to close your eyes for a second.
22:02And I want you guys to think about
22:04one word that comes to mind
22:06when you think about where you are right now.
22:08I have it.
22:10Evolve.
22:12Evolve? I love it.
22:14I would say comeback.
22:16Very similar.
22:18Wow.
22:20So where are we at right now?
22:24We made a decision
22:26to
22:28move forward with
22:30an open marriage.
22:34It's like
22:36a new beginning for us.
22:38I'm pretty
22:40shocked, to be honest.
22:42A pretty f***ed up situation for Gino
22:44agreed somebody's going to f*** his wife.
22:46Let's be honest.
22:48Gino,
22:50no need to watch no more porn.
22:52Just watch Jasmine
22:54and Matt doing sex.
22:56Pretty simple.
22:58I never
23:00thought I would be in that situation.
23:02I was totally against it.
23:04Then I thought about it more.
23:06I mean, I know Jasmine
23:08has needs, right?
23:10And I felt like
23:12I needed to take action now.
23:14Well, one size doesn't fit all, right?
23:16You're saying this is our relationship,
23:18this is our marriage, and we have to decide
23:20what's going to work for us
23:22at the end of the day.
23:24So what's something you can do in the next day
23:26before our recommitment ceremony today
23:28to keep this going?
23:30I want to come up with a
23:32contract-like agreement
23:34in writing
23:36of guidelines
23:38and everything for this open marriage
23:40idea. That's a big thing.
23:42It's very, very
23:44important that before you make this recommitment
23:46that everybody
23:48who would be involved in this open marriage
23:50is on the same page.
23:52As you guys are doing, thinking about
23:54these boundaries and these guidelines, I think it's important
23:56to have a conversation with Matt.
23:58Because it's not just you guys, we're bringing
24:00someone else in here.
24:02I think if Gino and Jasmine
24:04are going to go down this path of
24:06an open relationship, in the interest
24:08of transparency, I think it's
24:10imperative for Gino to have that
24:12conversation with Matt, because it gives
24:14him an opportunity to really create
24:16boundaries if there need to be some.
24:18And I think when you don't know
24:20what's happening, our mind often
24:22projects. And so that might
24:24change his idea and his view
24:26of what an open marriage
24:28could look like for them both.
24:30I don't have any interest
24:32to see him or
24:34know much about him. You don't want to see
24:36him? I don't
24:38have any interest to see who he is
24:40or how rich he is.
24:42You might want to taste it at
24:44reality before you recommit.
24:46So are you open to
24:48meeting Matt?
24:56Could you please at least
24:58compromise to talk to Matt?
25:00I'm really in no hurry
25:02to talk to Matt, honestly.
25:04But are you in a hurry to make this agreement
25:06with your wife?
25:08Yeah, I mean,
25:10I want to get the agreement
25:12done, yeah.
25:14Are you in a hurry
25:16to make this agreement with your wife?
25:18Yeah, I mean,
25:20I want to get the agreement done,
25:22yeah.
25:24I
25:26don't have any interest to see him.
25:28Okay. But
25:30open to having a phone call with him.
25:32Okay. Would you be willing
25:34to do that before the recommitment ceremony?
25:36Uh...
25:42Uh, yeah. Like, a phone
25:44call? Yeah.
25:46She just wants
25:48Matt. She wants Matt. That's it.
25:50It's not an open relationship. It's none
25:52of that s***. She don't want a threesome because
25:54that means Gino's involved. She wants to
25:56have an open relationship so that she can be
25:58with Matt. It's definitely very clear that
26:00literally everyone can
26:02see that this open marriage will
26:04not work out for them.
26:06Except for them. Except for them.
26:08Probably can
26:10be best friends. You never know. Well, they don't have
26:12to be best friends, right? Like, you and Matt
26:14don't have to be besties. No, but
26:16he has to respect me. Exactly.
26:18And, you know, we have to have respect.
26:20Mutual respect. Exactly.
26:22I agreed
26:24to meet Matt because I
26:26want to make sure that he's okay with the rules,
26:28make sure that he's okay as a person
26:30to be having
26:32this open marriage with Jasmine.
26:34This is a new beginning
26:36for us. We're starting
26:38fresh new
26:40and love
26:42conquers all, I guess.
26:44I gotta
26:46say, I don't think either of you guys
26:48are being realistic.
26:50Bro, you really think
26:52that you're going to be okay with it?
26:54Because she's got a guy
26:56lined up, so as soon as y'all go home, boom.
26:58She's out that night.
27:00Like, I care about you guys.
27:02I think you're both going to be really unhappy
27:04at some point because of this.
27:06I appreciate
27:08that. I think that it's
27:10actually going to bring us together over time
27:12because she's going to be happier
27:14and I'm going to be happier
27:16and then we won't be fighting and
27:18all the time and she'll start
27:20listening to me and we're going to come together
27:22at some point.
27:24And you know what? Here's the thing. Rob, you're keeping it real
27:26and I think we need to do that, right?
27:28Because we're going to be hearing chatter
27:30and voices and judgment, but I bring it
27:32back to you guys, right?
27:34This is your relationship. This is your marriage
27:36and this is going to be hard.
27:38Stacey and
27:40Florian, if I was to ask
27:42you guys to close your eyes and think of a
27:44word, what is the first word that comes
27:46to your mind?
27:48He's doing better. It's like
27:50me and her doing better, basically. One word.
27:52One word. Just better?
27:54Better. Better.
27:56Okay. I like that. Okay.
27:58And then I have my own word?
28:02No rush. Think about it. No, I just
28:04know you're going to say you're being negative and
28:06you're not.
28:08But you're conflicted.
28:10What's your word? Conflicted.
28:14He tells me
28:16nothing happened when he walked that
28:18girl home
28:20back in Miami. I have to just
28:22believe and trust that nothing else
28:24happened, but that's hard to process
28:26because I feel like all those trust issues
28:28are still not quite
28:30resolved.
28:34I just don't want to go back home and then
28:36nothing changes.
28:38I just know
28:40that I can't live the rest of my life in a marriage
28:42that I'm not happy in
28:44and I know he's not happy
28:46because he wouldn't do the things that he does.
28:48He would honor
28:50our vows and he would
28:52respect me more
28:54and I would respect him more.
28:56I'm still unsure.
28:58I don't know.
29:02I need you to
29:04show me action.
29:06I need you to show me
29:08actions of love. I need to
29:10see and feel the love
29:12from you. Look at me in the eye
29:14when I talk to you.
29:16I don't want to hear shut up.
29:18I don't want to hear
29:20leave me alone.
29:22Make me feel like the queen that I am.
29:24I'm your wife.
29:26I want to feel loved
29:28and appreciated.
29:30Listen, Florian, this is what I think
29:32and the next day I want you to show
29:34and demonstrate, Stacy,
29:36how you're speaking from the heart.
29:38Amen. Hallelujah.
29:40Hallelujah. Amen.
29:46I would love to hear from Natalie and Josh.
29:50Well, have you ever played squash?
29:52Squash? When you're hitting a ball
29:54to the wall. Uh-huh.
29:56So there is no real person there, correct?
29:58But game going on.
30:00Okay.
30:12Is that him?
30:14Yes.
30:20Josh, where are you with things?
30:24Scared.
30:26Natalie needs somebody
30:28100% all the time.
30:32And, um,
30:34I'm scared
30:36to give that to her.
30:38I'm scared of commitment with her
30:40because I'm so unsure of
30:42what's gonna happen next.
30:46Maybe I'm the problem.
30:48Maybe I'm showing too many breadcrumbs
30:50or stringing her along or
30:52maybe she needs something
30:54more than I can give her.
30:58And maybe that's it.
31:06Josh, I feel like we're at
31:08a really sensitive,
31:10important time right now.
31:12I would love for you to look at her
31:14and just tell her directly where you are.
31:24I definitely feel like I'm put on the spot,
31:26but, like, I feel like,
31:28you know, this is the time
31:30for me to make a decision.
31:32It's now or never.
31:56Can I touch you?
31:58No.
32:00Okay.
32:02Um...
32:04I do love you,
32:06and I do care for you.
32:16But I do have to let you go.
32:27I don't want to string her along anymore.
32:30If I'm the problem,
32:32I'm sorry.
32:36I came from a place of, like,
32:38wanting to help,
32:40but I think I may have hurt her
32:42more by doing that.
32:48Natalie, you're smiling.
32:50What's going through your brain?
32:52Because I feel relieved.
32:54That is the most
32:56honest and clean moment
32:58with Josh during our three years
33:00and three months and some days
33:02of we know each other.
33:04All my things
33:06that triggered me was
33:08he was not honest.
33:10So...
33:12thank you.
33:14I value honesty, and I respect
33:16honesty, and today,
33:18maybe first time, I could say
33:20I do respect you.
33:22Because finally,
33:24I hear something honest coming out of
33:26your lips.
33:32I've decided to end things with Natalie now
33:34because I don't
33:36see a future with us.
33:38You know,
33:40it took this retreat for me to, like,
33:42really reflect
33:44and have conversations
33:46and open up to people.
33:48Really just opened my eyes
33:50and made me think that
33:52you can love somebody without
33:54being right for them.
33:56I want her to find
33:58somebody that can make her
34:00happy.
34:02And I need that for myself, too.
34:08So, Josh and Natalie,
34:10I want to ask a very clear question.
34:14Do you need the recommitment ceremony tomorrow?
34:16Are we ending this right now?
34:20I don't know.
34:32I don't believe that we're there
34:34for a recommitment or a commitment
34:36ceremony. I just...
34:38I don't want to drag this on any longer,
34:40and I want Natalie to
34:42heal from this if she needs
34:44to heal from it and find, you know,
34:46true happiness and a partner that
34:48will suit her.
34:52Do you agree, Natalie?
34:56Yes.
35:10You know, my relationship with Josh is over.
35:12I do feel pain a lot
35:14because I love him
35:16and
35:18it kind of hurt
35:20my dignity a lot
35:22because, like, I wasn't enough for him to
35:24commit to me, to be with me.
35:26Why? Why I'm not enough for him?
35:28Why he
35:30doesn't want to be with me if he loves me?
35:34But I'm not getting
35:36into the drama and scandal
35:38and showing ugliness
35:40of breakup to those people.
35:42I'm better than that.
35:44I'm higher than that.
35:50You know, guys, this is difficult work,
35:52and I appreciate, you know,
35:54the openness, the vulnerability
35:56with sharing this stuff.
35:58I think you guys are doing a great job with your communication
36:00right now. You should be proud. Yes. Absolutely.
36:02Tomorrow is the recommitment ceremony,
36:04everyone.
36:06Let the remaining time
36:08here be really intentional for you
36:10and really sit with what you've experienced here,
36:12what you've expressed here today,
36:14and let the next steps, whichever you're deciding to do,
36:16whether we commit or go your separate ways,
36:18let that be intentional on what you plan to say
36:20because this is really
36:22the beginning of the next chapter.
36:26Thank you so much.
36:28Thank you, guys.
36:30Thank you, guys.
36:32Bye, everyone.
36:34Wow.
36:40Sorry to hear that.
36:42You tried, right?
36:44I tried.
36:46Wow.
36:50I feel really, really emotional
36:52right now.
36:54I really feel bad for Natalie
36:56because I know she wants more.
36:58She wants to be in a loving, healthy, committed
37:00relationship.
37:04I just feel
37:06sad for her
37:08but she just
37:10wants love.
37:14She just wants love.
37:20I'm sorry.
37:24She deserves to be happy.
37:26I hope she finds her true love.
37:34Natalie.
37:42Natalie.
37:46Natalie.
37:50Natalie.
37:54You okay?
37:56No.
38:04Let's go to sit at the sun.
38:08You want to sit down?
38:10Do I have something to say?
38:12Well, yeah.
38:14I'd like to talk to you.
38:16I want to make sure you're okay.
38:22After I say what I needed to,
38:24I'm going to tell you
38:26what I needed to say.
38:28After I say
38:30what I needed to
38:32to Natalie and
38:34we end it,
38:36she laughs it off.
38:38But I know that
38:40this is her defense mechanism.
38:42Sometimes she does weird things
38:44at odd moments
38:46and I know she's hurt
38:48as well as
38:50am I.
38:52I just want you
38:54to know where I'm coming from
38:56and I've been just
38:58feeling anxious
39:00the past few days.
39:02I mean, at the beginning of this
39:04I felt open
39:06to try, but therapy
39:08was just really eye-opening
39:10and I just
39:12think it's unfair
39:14to keep it going
39:16if I know that
39:18my heart's not in it.
39:20And I just want you to know
39:22that I care for you,
39:24100%, that's true.
39:26You will always be
39:28someone very special to me
39:30and I just
39:32hope that you, you know,
39:34can understand that
39:36and I hope that you don't hate me.
39:44Josh, I don't hate you.
39:46I don't hate you.
39:48Josh, I don't hate you.
39:52I don't.
39:56I mean,
39:58I live by feelings
40:00and I don't
40:02feel like bringing you pain
40:04and I have some
40:06beautiful moments with you,
40:08but my heart
40:10doesn't belong to you.
40:12I probably miss you sometimes,
40:14but at the end of the day
40:16nothing matters unless you're happy
40:18and I honestly wish you happiness.
40:20I mean, this hurts
40:22to do this,
40:24um,
40:26but I think it is best for both of us.
40:32Well,
40:34I'm gonna give you some time and space
40:36here.
40:46Okay?
41:08Even though the relationship didn't work out,
41:10overall this has just been a really good
41:12eye-opening experience
41:14I miss Natalie, of course I'm sad,
41:16you know, I mean, Natalie's definitely
41:18completely different
41:20than anybody I've ever met.
41:22But I feel like
41:24I have to stay strong
41:26with the decision that I've made.
41:34He definitely meant a lot,
41:36but I don't regret anything.
41:38I can't
41:40make him feel what he feels.
41:42It's his choice and he's
41:44free.
41:46I really want to
41:48meet someone to love me, for real me,
41:50exactly who I am.
41:52I worry that
41:54having a child and
41:56meet someone who
41:58gonna love me for real, it might never
42:00happen.
42:02It's scary.
42:04It makes me shiver,
42:06it makes me worry,
42:08because I feel like
42:10unless
42:12I feel like if other women
42:14can achieve what they want,
42:16why can't I?
42:18I mean, it's sad.
42:41You know, baby,
42:43now seeing that
42:45everybody gone,
42:47and now Natalie and Josh
42:49gone too.
42:51I guess I'm a little surprised that Josh doesn't have
42:53enough time
42:55to give for Natalie,
42:57because he says he loves her,
42:59and if he loves her, why wouldn't he
43:01make the time?
43:03What I can get from all this, baby,
43:05is because at the end of the story,
43:07it's you and me, you know, as a couple,
43:09is that we need to take
43:11every step seriously,
43:13as the therapist said.
43:15And one of the main things
43:17is transparency,
43:19communication, respect,
43:21and part of it is you
43:23talking to Matt.
43:27I feel good
43:29and comfortable about the plans
43:31that we so far made
43:33about our open marriage.
43:35It's someone that we both have to agree.
43:37I want to reassure Gino
43:39that I love him,
43:41and this is just sex,
43:43nothing else.
43:47So, I'm going to call him.
43:51He's not going to see you.
43:53You're not going to see him.
43:55He's going to see me,
43:57I'm going to see him, and I'm going to see you.
43:59I'm going to be in the middle, okay?
44:01I'm very nervous,
44:03and I can only imagine
44:05what will be worse when it is my turn.
44:07I can't understand
44:09how you're going to feel.
44:11I just want you to know that I love you,
44:13and you are my person,
44:15nobody else's.
44:17Okay.
44:25Matt, can you hear me?
44:27Yeah, can you hear me?
44:35Okay.
44:41Let's drink it for a happy end.
44:43To a happy ending.
44:45Next time on 90 Day The Last Resort.
44:47To Natalie and Josh,
44:49wish they were here, but...
44:51Josh can be a hell in peace.
44:55You said you're okay with her finding sex
44:57from somewhere else.
44:59Okay, find another guy.
45:01Okay, let's put it this way.
45:03F*** it.
45:05I've been married to this guy nine months,
45:07he hasn't touched me.
45:09You have been here f***ing judgmental.
45:11If I can hold on to nine months
45:13without needing to f*** somebody else,
45:15I think you could too.
45:17F*** you. F*** everybody.
45:23What you doing?
45:25Writing the vows.
45:27Did you write vows?
45:29I have in my heart.
45:31We've had improvement, but we still have
45:33unresolved issues.
45:35I don't know, I just feel like, overwhelmed.
45:37I feel like I don't know if he gets it.
45:39I'm scared of what
45:41our future holds.
45:45I'm agreed to take a second
45:47opinion for baby.
45:49But I didn't hear you agree to
45:51compromise about my parents.
45:53When it's not in the best interest
45:55of our family, I have a hard time
45:57supporting something.
45:59If you decide to not gonna help me
46:01with my parents, don't come
46:03to this ceremony.
46:09All of the work that you guys have been doing
46:11leads up to this moment tonight.
46:13Our recommitment ceremony.
46:15This is really about a choice.
46:17Your decision
46:19to commit
46:21or not to commit.
46:23I want us both
46:25to be happy.
46:29Music.
46:31Music.
46:33Music.
46:35Music.