Dawson's Creek Season 3 Episode 13 Northern Lights
Dawson's Creek Season 3 Episode 13 Northern Lights
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00:00Like what?
00:02Like I'll come home from work early and we'll wallpaper each other.
00:09No, I'm sorry. We're done.
00:11We can't stop now. I don't know this stuff at all.
00:14Sorry, Master Thespian, but the whole next page consists solely of cooing, tickling, and lap-sitting.
00:19Three things definitely not in my range as an actress.
00:22Okay. Let me tell you, you're going to be sorry tomorrow night when I get up on that stage,
00:26panic, draw a complete blank, and then just start ad-libbing obscenities to the crowd.
00:31Actually, Pacey, I kind of thought I'd go on Saturday.
00:36Saturday?
00:38Yeah.
00:39No, you don't want to come on Saturday. You've got to come on Friday. It's opening night.
00:44Much better chance you'll get to witness some amusing disaster.
00:47You know, like scenery falling on my head,
00:49or perhaps my co-star hyperventilating from one of my intoxicating stage kisses.
00:54Yeah, you're known for those.
00:55So what do you say, front row center?
00:59I can't. I kind of have this thing I have to do on Friday night.
01:04What thing?
01:07It's just this thing with this guy.
01:10What guy?
01:14AJ.
01:16College guy?
01:19He's coming off to the Cape for a party, and he invited me to go with him.
01:23He's going to a frat party?
01:25He's not that kind of a college guy, Pacey.
01:28I mean, have you ever heard of the Aurora Borealis?
01:30The Northern Lights?
01:31Yes.
01:32Yeah.
01:33I mean, I may not be Ivy League material, but if you give me a road map and remote control,
01:38I can probably find my way to the Discovery Channel and back.
01:41Yeah, well, there are like ten nights out of the year when you can actually see the Northern Lights from this part of the world,
01:46and tomorrow may be one of them, and if you factor in the recent sunspot activity...
01:50My ass. This guy is obviously just trying to separate you from the Potter pantalones.
01:55Pacey, read a newspaper once in a while. You cannot fake geomagnetic activity.
02:00Oh, yeah, you can. Sure you can. You can fake anything.
02:02No!
02:03Especially if you're some Ivy League egghead and it's all part of some grand astronomical make-out scam.
02:09I'm talking as the voice of reason here, okay?
02:12I mean, come on. The chances of the Northern Lights appearing in the night sky above Cape Site
02:16are about as good as the chances of me acquitting myself for distinction on that stage tomorrow night.
02:20Yeah, well, call me crazy, but I'll take those odds any day.
02:26My heart is in my hands
02:30My head is in the clouds
02:34My feet have left the ground
02:37My life is turning around
02:43Every voice inside my head
02:47Is telling me to run like mad
02:51Oh, bows and arrows
02:54Stars and sunsets
02:56Hey, hey, hey, yeah
02:58Hey, hey, hey, yeah
03:00Every heartbeat
03:02Every kiss
03:04Just makes me wonder
03:07What all this is
03:09Loops of armor
03:11Hearts and arrows
03:13Hey, hey, hey, yeah
03:23So, what do you think?
03:25What do I think?
03:27Yeah.
03:28I think you're going to be pretty bored in the study hall, Rosso.
03:31It could be a very interesting opportunity to study some human behavior.
03:35At least until I figure out what my next move is going to be.
03:40Just don't go joining the yearbook, okay?
03:42I mean, it's bad enough that Pacey's doing this whole play thing.
03:45It's a nice opening night, isn't it?
03:47Yeah.
03:48You dropped film class? Are you insane?
03:53Um, I can tell you guys have a lot to discuss, so see you later.
04:01This doesn't have anything to do with the film festival, does it?
04:04No, it doesn't.
04:06I need to walk away for a little while, you know?
04:09Let me charge my batteries.
04:11Well, the least you could have done was given me a heads up.
04:16We're partners, Dawson.
04:18And in three days we're supposed to stand in front of our entire class and pitch a feature film.
04:24I'm sure Mr. Jordan would be more than happy to give you an extension and get you a new partner.
04:28I don't want another partner.
04:32I want you.
04:33Who are you kidding? You've probably got the entire assignment done already.
04:36Well, yeah, but who is going to ask for your ideas?
04:40If you did, you would have realized that I don't have any.
04:43You don't have any ideas.
04:45Dawson, you're the most creative person in the class.
04:49See, that's where you'd be wrong, because as of age 15, I'm not the most creative person in the class.
04:57How are we supposed to go out tonight if you keep forgetting your lines?
05:00I know the lines, okay? It's just that I got a bit of recall delay, that's all.
05:04Where's Mr. Broderick? Our play is falling apart at the seams.
05:08Pacey, just take it from the top.
05:10Sure thing, boss.
05:12Your entrance.
05:14Entrance, right.
05:18Not now, Jack. We're trying to do this line read-through, but Pacey has conveniently chosen to leave his memory at home.
05:25Yeah, well, about 30 minutes ago in English class, Mr. Broderick...
05:29What?
05:30Just come with me. Come on.
05:34The nurse thinks it's a kidney stone.
05:37My wife's picking me up in five minutes.
05:40No, no, no. The play is going up in less than eight hours.
05:44I'm sorry, Andy. I'm not going to make it there.
05:48You're going to have to take my place.
05:52You don't understand. See, I have tickets to sell and the after-party to set up.
05:57I can't do everything by myself.
05:59I can do the tickets and the after-party.
06:01There you go. Jack will help you.
06:03I have faith in you, Andy.
06:06I mean, who am I kidding?
06:08It's been your show all along. This is your night.
06:14Here.
06:18Your director's binder?
06:20It's yours now.
06:22And as the house lights fall over that magic place we call the theater,
06:28all I ask is that you give pause for a fleeting moment...
06:34and think of me.
06:46Henry!
06:50Henry!
06:55Wait, Parker! Parker, wait up!
07:16Hi, Henry.
07:17Hey, Jack.
07:19Okay, why are you avoiding me?
07:21Why are you canceling our dinner tonight?
07:24What makes you think that I'm canceling?
07:27Ever since you agreed to this little, dare I call it, date,
07:32you don't even make eye contact with me in the hallway.
07:35It's like you've got this giant blind spot in exactly my shape and size.
07:39Okay, don't you think that maybe you're just being a little bit paranoid?
07:42Are you or are you not canceling our date?
07:44I'm not canceling anything.
07:47You're not?
07:49No. No, I'm just postponing.
07:56Look, see, it's Pacey's opening night,
07:59and I just figured that maybe I should be there to support him.
08:02So that's all this is about at the play?
08:05Yeah. Yeah, that's all this is about.
08:08Great.
08:09What do you mean, great?
08:11I'll go with you to the play.
08:14What time's curtain?
08:17It's seven.
08:19Seven. All right, I'll be there.
08:23I mean, if that's all right with you.
08:26Yeah. Yeah, that's fine.
08:36Don't even think about coming near me with that medieval torture device.
08:42That can't be him.
08:43Just relax. I mean, let Bode get it.
08:46And finish telling me how I'm not supposed to worry about you going out with some much older guy.
08:52He's not that old, Bessie. He's like 19.
09:02Well, it's a boy, just not the one we expected.
09:08Okay. So I tanked. I did. I completely tanked.
09:13Calm down, Pacey. You're just nervous.
09:15No, no, no. This is way beyond nervous.
09:17You know that read-through I had today? I couldn't remember a single line.
09:20I don't know why you're psyching yourself out like this.
09:22You know the play, Pacey. We went through it two nights ago.
09:25No, I know the play when I'm running it with you.
09:27When I got to do it with actual human beings, nothing.
09:29Look, I know I suck for not being there. I'm sorry.
09:31You do suck for not being there, don't you?
09:33But listen, I'm going to give you the opportunity to get back in my good books, okay?
09:36There's still the after-party I told you about.
09:38And, you know, don't say no too quickly because you're definitely going to need a shoulder to cry on
09:42after this whole Northern Lights thing doesn't work out.
09:45Okay, I'll try. But don't count on it, alright?
09:49Current geomagnetic conditions are extremely favorable for auroral activity, actually.
09:53Where did all this scientific mumbo-jumbo come from?
09:56I thought this A.J. dude was a poetry geek.
09:58He's interested in more than just that. He's a renaissance man.
10:02Fantastic. He can bore you in seven languages.
10:05No, just three, actually. English, French, and Latin.
10:09Latin? Who speaks Latin? I mean, like, Spanish.
10:13Now, that's the foreign language of the people, but Latin, that's a dead language.
10:17He's here.
10:18Okay, thank you.
10:21It's not too late to bail, okay? Believe me.
10:24Why would I want to do that, P.C.?
10:26Because this guy's an operator, okay? I can tell.
10:29I mean, you know, the first thing he's going to do when he comes through that door
10:32is he's going to pay you some lame compliment about how incredible you look tonight.
10:38P.C.
10:39He's looking out for you.
10:41And then he'll try something cute.
10:43Like a negligible, but not entirely insignificant amount of physical contact, you know what I mean?
10:47Like helping you out with your coat.
10:49It's called being a gentleman, P.C. I'm surprised you've heard of it.
10:52And this party he's supposedly taking you to? I bet it doesn't even exist.
10:55And if it does exist, I lay money that our boy wanderer over there
10:58sees it as the first possible opportunity to get you alone.
11:00Stay.
11:02Hey.
11:08Hey.
11:12Hi.
11:16You look, uh, you look amazing.
11:20I should get my coat.
11:32I should get my coat.
12:02Hey.
12:11Hey.
12:16So, who are all these people?
12:20Well, the guy who owns the place is a mathematician.
12:23Once upon a time, he was my mentor.
12:26And everybody else?
12:29His grad students, mostly.
12:31Some astrophysicists.
12:34Left-leaning, impoverished academics.
12:37Can you tell?
12:38And how would I tell?
12:41Well, they had cheap haircuts.
12:43In a fortunate fashion sense.
12:49Tentious taste in beverages.
12:52It's a mead.
12:55A Beowulf drink before you sleep, Randall.
12:58You know, I wouldn't.
13:01Can I have some?
13:02No, no, no. It's alcoholic.
13:06I hope that's what college guys live for.
13:09What?
13:11Opportunities to get high school girls all liquored up.
13:16What?
13:17Only ones with very little imagination.
13:21Alcohol isn't exactly the most sophisticated way to seduce a girl.
13:25I mean, there are better ways to go about it.
13:30Not that I'm... I mean, I wasn't...
13:33I'm not planning on...
13:38Where's everyone going?
13:42Oh.
13:44Cloud cover.
13:46Viewing conditions aren't exactly clear.
13:50Does that mean no lights?
13:52Well, not necessarily.
13:53It could clear up before midnight.
13:55Midnight?
13:57Yeah, for some unknown reason,
13:59midnight, astronomical midnight to be exact,
14:01is the best time for viewing the world at this place.
14:04I guess that means we have quite a wait in store for us.
14:09You're not going to turn into a pumpkin if we keep you out of that area.
14:15No.
14:17Good.
14:19Yeah.
14:23But I might freeze to death, so...
14:27Maybe we should go inside and...
14:30mingle with those astrophysicists.
14:34Let's take a walk first.
14:36Wanna?
14:42Sure.
14:49Oh, Dawson, there you are.
14:51Where's Pacey?
14:52Uh, his director sent you for a better idea of that than I do.
14:56Oh.
14:57What's going on?
14:58Um, well, it's only 20 minutes till curtain call,
15:01and my lead is nowhere to be found.
15:03I swear I saw him come in earlier.
15:05Okay, so he's got to be around here somewhere, right?
15:08I'll go look for him.
15:09Okay, Dawson, don't look.
15:10Just find, please, and tell him not to worry.
15:13I'm not going to kill him.
15:14Don't look. Just find, please, and tell him not to worry.
15:17I'm not going to kill him.
15:18Till after the show.
15:38You finally have a misfortune knowing how your brain works.
15:45Yeah.
15:50You know, I seem to recall that the last time you and I were on a basketball court together,
15:55I ended up getting my nose broken, didn't I?
15:57Pacey, we don't have time for this. We've got a show to do.
15:59Oh, just a couple more, you know?
16:01It helps. It's part of the whole acting process.
16:05Why are you so nervous about it? It's not like you've never acted before.
16:08Yeah, how many times did it take me to actually get that sea creature thing right?
16:14Good point.
16:16And at that point, how many people were watching me?
16:21And for that matter, how many ex-girlfriends were there counting on me to do a good job?
16:29Let me ask you this. Acting. Do you like it? You having fun?
16:34I kind of got blackmailed into the whole thing, but...
16:38Yeah, I have to say, it's been fun.
16:40Actually, it's been a blast.
16:43So then go in on stage tonight and have a blast.
16:46It's all that matters, man. Find what you love to do and do it.
16:54This is coming from a guy who just gave up his life's passion to hang out with the underachievers in fourth period study hall, right?
17:01I didn't give it up. I just decided to spread it around a little bit.
17:06When did you become all zen? I thought you of all people would be freaking out big time right now.
17:12Why?
17:13Well, I don't know. Maybe because of Joey's big date with college guy.
17:22I really suck at this game.
17:24Alright. Come on, Olivier. Your public awaits.
17:28What if this guy is some big sex maniac?
17:31Joey's a big girl. I'm sure she can take care of herself.
17:34Take care of herself? That's all you got to say about this?
17:37You know we're talking about Josephine Potter, the girl whose destiny is intrinsically linked to your own?
17:43That'll happen eventually.
17:46Think about yourself.
17:48Let's go.
18:08Hey, Hendrik.
18:10I thought we were going to meet out front.
18:13Oh, I thought that whoever got here first was supposed to save seats, so I did.
18:22Henry, I'd like you to meet my gramps.
18:26Your grandmother?
18:28Yeah, uh, Grimms. This is Henry Parker.
18:32Oh, man. What a pleasant surprise. I've heard so much about you.
18:37Nice to meet you.
18:39Jennifer, why didn't you tell me Henry was coming?
18:42I would have gladly stayed at home so that you two could be alone.
18:49Do you know when it looks like the show's starting? We should take our seats.
19:03How long did you say you've been married?
19:05Six days.
19:07You won't notice the place is empty till June.
19:10Well, Grotto 58191, have a nice marriage.
19:18John, we've got to get you buttoned.
19:21Okay, you look great. Don't be nervous.
19:24Pacey, no! How could you do this to me? I sent your understudy in to make-up 15 minutes ago.
19:30That's good. Um, I think you should stay there because, Annie, I can't do this.
19:33What? You can't? Come here.
19:36You know what? I gave up on you knowing this word for word a long time ago,
19:40so you're just going to get the general gist of it, and you're going to be fine. Okay?
19:44Come on. Let's go. Let's go. You're up.
19:47I don't know.
19:49Wait. No, no, no. Pace. Okay. Go.
19:55Oh, Paul, darling.
19:56Oh, Paul, darling.
20:04Well? Say something.
20:16It's six flights. Did you know that it's six flights?
20:23It isn't. It's five.
20:24Five. That's the biggest thing I've ever said to you.
20:43You think you want to go to an Ivy League school?
20:49I don't know.
20:51I just know that if I don't try, you know, I'll always wonder.
20:58Wonder what?
21:00If I was good enough, smart enough to do something really important with my life.
21:14Sound pretty driven.
21:16Yeah. Driven by fear of failure.
21:21And I think maybe sometimes that happens to girls who lose their mothers when they're really young.
21:30They're really driven to succeed.
21:36Like Madama?
21:39Well, I was thinking more along the lines of the Bronte sisters, but...
21:45For a while, I thought I liked art.
21:51But now you don't anymore.
21:53No, it...
21:57I do. It's... I don't know.
22:02It's like there's this person that you want to be for other people, you know?
22:07To make them happy and to make them proud of you.
22:11And then there's yourself, and...
22:16Sometimes it's really hard to tell where one ends and the other begins.
22:24Does that make sense?
22:28Yeah.
22:30Completely.
22:32Completely.
22:40You know, in medieval Europe, they used to think the Northern Lights were spirits of dead warriors.
22:50And now?
22:52Well, now we know that they're just charged particles of the sun interacting with the Earth's upper atmosphere.
23:02Charged particles. Not too romantic.
23:08Think about it from the particles' point of view.
23:12Explicitly drawn to something.
23:17Unable to resist.
23:32What?
23:46Um...
23:48You know, I just remembered I'm supposed to meet someone somewhere.
23:53Now?
23:55Yeah.
23:57Can we go?
24:01Sure.
24:12I'll come down when you've said it again, loud and clear.
24:17What? Anything, Paul.
24:20Paul Bratter.
24:21Paul Bratter.
24:22Rising young attorney.
24:24Rising young attorney.
24:25Is a lousy, stinking drunk.
24:30Is a lousy, stinking drunk.
24:33And I love him.
24:35And I love you too, Corey.
24:37I mean, even when I didn't like you, I loved you.
24:39Then please come down, darling. Please.
24:55For you?
24:56Oh, you shouldn't have.
24:58You don't want to mess with this?
24:59No, it's not a mess.
25:02I cannot believe that you did this in one afternoon, Jack.
25:06I mean, it's... it's amazing.
25:08Come on, you're the amazing one, sis.
25:10And one word about how my people look so decorating?
25:13You're dead.
25:14Oh, okay.
25:16Hey, congratulations.
25:18Oh, thank you so much.
25:20What?
25:27You know, if you guys want to grab some punch or something, I'm...
25:30I'm just going to be right back.
25:43You know, you better watch out. I think Grams is moving in on your date.
25:48And I think that you better stick to comedy than scripted.
25:54Enough.
25:56Thanks for coming tonight.
25:57Wouldn't have missed it for the world.
26:00Opening night, packed house.
26:02And not a witter in attendance. What a surprise.
26:06But Dawson's here.
26:07Hey, how are you, son?
26:08Jack.
26:09Glad he is.
26:10And of course, you.
26:12Yes, I am.
26:13Yep.
26:16But you know who's not here.
26:21Uh, the critic from the Capeside Clarion?
26:25Joey.
26:29Yeah.
26:30It's good, mate. Big date.
26:34It's too bad.
26:36You missed a great show.
26:38And an incredible leading man.
26:40Well, thank you much, then.
26:44Of course, you hardly noticed.
26:47Hardly.
26:49Barely missed her.
26:51Missed him.
26:55Hey, buddy.
27:02I come bearing through the day.
27:14You know, Dawson.
27:16I think you're taking this whole
27:19precocious teenager thing a bit too far.
27:22I mean, people shouldn't get disillusioned
27:25and give up the biz until they're at least
27:28I don't know
27:2925.
27:31It's not that big a deal.
27:32All I'm doing is dropping a like, dude.
27:34Film.
27:36You dropped film.
27:39I thought that was who you are.
27:42It's part of who I am.
27:45At your house, when you were talking about
27:47how there's so many different things to be passionate about
27:49Sure.
27:51Well,
27:52when I got home that day, I
27:54took all the movie posters out my walls.
27:57Every last one.
27:59There's this image that I keep on coming back to.
28:02Ten years old, my parents had taken me to see Jurassic Park.
28:05Sitting there,
28:07fourth row center,
28:08popcorn in the lap, flanked by Mom and Dad.
28:11These two teenagers walk in.
28:13A guy and a girl, probably about our age.
28:16They sit in front of us and they proceed to make out
28:20about the entire movie.
28:22And I remember
28:24sitting there just being
28:26shocked.
28:27That anyone would rather kiss than watch this miraculous fantasy
28:32unfold on screen at a moment.
28:35When I actually
28:37tapped the guy on the shoulder and asked him if he wouldn't mind
28:39keeping it down.
28:41It looked to me like
28:44one day kid,
28:46you get it.
28:51And here I am.
28:53All these years later, and I'm still not the kid who goes to the movie theater just to make out.
28:57And I'm not the kid
28:59who's happy between his parents anymore.
29:01I'm this third person who's so busy analyzing everything
29:04that I can't enjoy anything.
29:07I mean, the other two guys, at least they were having fun.
29:09I'm
29:11just not anymore.
29:14And that's why I dropped the phone.
29:18So,
29:20uh,
29:22where are you gonna look for this
29:24joy you once had but have now lost?
29:28I have absolutely no idea.
29:32Any suggestions?
29:36Where were you when you had it last?
29:42I don't know.
29:50So you're a huge kid.
29:52I had told you everything over and over again.
29:55What are you doing here?
29:57Renaissance man bailing you?
30:00No.
30:01It was just that it was getting late and
30:04the clouds were moving in and once it's overcast
30:06there's really no chance of actually seeing the northern lights from this latitude.
30:09It was getting cold so we just decided that
30:11it would be better...
30:12He kissed you, didn't he?
30:15What makes you say that?
30:17You'd have to be a moron not to.
30:20And your lipstick is smeared all over your face.
30:25That's what I get for letting Nessie talk me into Very Berry, I guess.
30:32So what, are you gonna see this guy again?
30:37I don't know.
30:39I mean, what's the point?
30:41He's older than me.
30:42He's...
30:44He's smarter than me.
30:46Lives far away.
30:47Very not insignificant problems seeing as how I can't even drive yet.
30:52How could I ever feel about him the way that I...
30:55Feel about Tulsa?
31:00No, I was...
31:02I was actually going to see Phil.
31:09I wanna know something, Miss Josephine Potter.
31:13I think the world may have just surprised you yet.
31:17I mean, you fall in love and it doesn't work out
31:19and you think that it'll never happen again, but it does.
31:23Believe me, it does.
31:24In the strangest of places.
31:29What makes you such an expert, Pacey?
31:35Well, I'm an actor.
31:38You know, a poor player.
31:40Strutting and fretting and...
31:43All the rest of that Shakespearean stuff.
31:45And as such, it is my job to understand the sophisticated inner workings of the human heart.
31:52I think I liked you better when you were brooding in the fetus.
32:00What?
32:01Well, I think our date may not be over so soon after all.
32:07What?
32:15Go on, you know you want to.
32:20Okay.
32:24Thanks.
32:37Jen!
32:41What the hell?
33:00Jen!
33:08Hey, baby.
33:10Henry, get down.
33:11No.
33:14Look, I'm not kidding. Get down from there.
33:18I'll come down when you say it loud and clear.
33:21What? Say what?
33:23I, Jen Lindley...
33:27I, Jen Lindley...
33:29I'm embarrassed to be here on a date with Henry Parker.
33:33I'm embarrassed to be here on a date with Henry Parker. Now get down.
33:36I've ignored him.
33:38I've ignored him.
33:39Taken him for granted.
33:41Taken him for granted.
33:42And spent the last five months of my life making him miserable.
33:48All to disguise the horrifying fact that I like him.
33:55Get over it, man.
33:57Get over it, man.
34:01Henry, get down.
34:10Could someone get a ladder?
34:20Why did you come back?
34:24I never left.
34:27Since I dropped you off, I've been sitting in the parking lot.
34:32Thinking about how,
34:35when someone says something you don't understand,
34:38you're suddenly faced with this rather limited window of opportunity in which you can
34:43ask the person to explain what they meant or
34:46spend the rest of your life pretending you understood them.
34:50I just thought I'd reopen the window.
34:52Did I do something wrong?
34:57No, uh,
34:59AJ, I kind of panicked, and
35:02you know that thing called grace under pressure? Well,
35:07I don't really have it, not even a smidge.
35:11Joey, it was just a kiss. It wasn't the running of the bulls on Pamplona.
35:16When you kissed me, I suddenly realized that
35:19I was standing there with this person who,
35:22you know, has skipped about a zillion grades and
35:25knows everything about everything, and
35:30I knew that the minute that you stopped kissing me,
35:33you would realize that you had made a terrible mistake, because
35:36Because? Why?
35:40Because I was in love with you.
35:42Why?
35:46Most things that you talk about,
35:50I don't even know what they are.
35:57Things like literature and science and history just
36:02pour out of you like you're this
36:05goodwill-hunting impersonator.
36:13Is there anything that you're not an authority on?
36:18Girls.
36:22Beautiful girls.
36:24Their hopes, their dreams.
36:27What makes them tick.
36:32I wish I knew a little bit more about that.
36:39Me too.
36:41You might know more about that than you think you do.
36:51So I guess we never got to see the rhythm lights.
36:57No.
36:59Next time.
37:05I've seen them before.
37:11Will you tell me about them?
37:16It's like the sky you've known your whole life.
37:20The one you've looked up at every night as a kid.
37:24Well, you look up at it,
37:27and it's like it's on fire.
37:31Flooded with all these brilliant colors.
37:33Sounds kind of scary.
37:37It is.
37:41But beautiful.
37:48Not too glamorous, huh?
37:51Stuck with clean-up duty on your big night?
37:54I don't mind.
37:58I'm sorry Dad couldn't be here.
38:00Well, don't be sorry.
38:02I mean, it actually kind of made it better.
38:05You know, being around all these people
38:07who don't know me so well,
38:09who believe in the person I am today,
38:11that don't really know everything that I used to be.
38:15It was great.
38:17The whole night I felt like...
38:19Felt the ball?
38:21No.
38:23More like me.
38:25Like myself.
38:27Well, that is some of the best news I've ever heard.
38:30In a long time.
38:33I had this mantra in the hospital.
38:37You want to hear it?
38:39Yeah.
38:41Structure and purpose.
38:43I mean, I know it's just a stupid little school play,
38:47but that's what it was to me.
38:49Structure and purpose.
38:52I think when you have something like that in your life,
38:55you know, to hold on to,
38:56that's not another person,
38:59but it's more like a part of yourself.
39:02You know, like a goal or a dream.
39:05If the whole world falls apart around you,
39:08you'll be okay.
39:10And you are...
39:12okay?
39:14Yeah.
39:16I'm great.
39:21You sure you're that great?
39:27It's one way to find out.
39:42Hey.
39:44Hey.
39:46You weren't exactly the life of the party tonight.
39:51No, I guess I got a lot of stuff on my mind.
39:53Yeah, it's too bad your parents couldn't come.
39:56Well, as it turns out,
39:58there are a lot of people who couldn't make it tonight,
40:00so say love you.
40:02Yeah, but I mean,
40:04it's too bad they couldn't see you being a star and all tonight.
40:08I think that you and I both know
40:10who the real star of that production is.
40:12I mean, the actors,
40:14all we do is come on at the last moment
40:16and grab all the glory,
40:18whereas the people who work behind the scenes,
40:20you guys are the ones who make everything happen.
40:21I mean,
40:23nobody ever knows all the work that you guys do.
40:26They know.
40:31So,
40:33looks like you're going to get that guaranteed C in English.
40:36You're disappointed, aren't you?
40:39On my pathetic return to the depths of academic mediocrity.
40:44I'm not disappointed.
40:46Girls have these
40:48idiotic, mysterious,
40:49misguided notions about guys.
40:51I mean,
40:53you think we can spruce them up
40:55and turn them into something they're not.
40:57In your defense,
40:59I wasn't exactly what you'd call a luxury model.
41:01I did have fixer-upper written all over me.
41:04Yeah, you pretty much were a price to sell,
41:06weren't you?
41:08Yes, I was.
41:09Damaged goods.
41:15But,
41:17the thing is,
41:19Casey,
41:21I was wrong.
41:24There was never anything about you
41:26that needed fixing up.
41:29And there never was
41:31and there never will be.
41:34Because you're perfect as is.
41:40You, too, Andy.
41:50Well,
41:52I'm trying.
41:57So,
41:59what do you think my next project should be?
42:02It definitely won't be involving you.
42:04No, no, man.
42:06You may certainly not be calling your people.
42:08I don't know.
42:10I was thinking maybe an all-girl cast?
42:12Well, perhaps puppets.
42:14You know, puppets are really good.
42:16They're very direct, unlike myself.
42:18I can't remember when I felt this depressed.
42:24Oh, yeah.
42:26Ten minutes ago.
42:28You've got no sympathy from these quarters.
42:32I know.
42:35For a second there,
42:37I thought I saw you smiling.
42:41You are not like other boys.
42:43Has anybody told you that before?
42:44Yeah, you...
42:47It's just that you go out of style
42:49with these grand gestures,
42:51these larger-than-life public declarations.
42:56You're like the Christo of teenage crushes.
43:00Who's Christo?
43:03He's...
43:05He's kind of like a sculptor.
43:07He does these really large...
43:10Never mind.
43:12Never mind.
43:16It's just that you don't have to try so hard.
43:20It's just that...
43:23I want to know you.
43:25Generally, I want to be honest with you.
43:29Totally and completely honest.
43:31Nobody can ever be completely honest, Henry.
43:35No one over the age of six, that is.
43:39I can...
43:42You know what?
43:44You can, can't you?
43:49I don't know what it is
43:51or how you managed to keep it for so long,
43:54but you've definitely got that thing
43:56that children have.
43:58You have it, too.
44:01You're just...
44:03Forgotten about it.
44:06No.
44:08Henry, I don't think that I ever had it.
44:12Then I can teach you.
44:16Just say whatever's in your heart right now.
44:19Right at this instant.
44:29Is that honest enough?
44:33Almost.
44:36I'd say about 70%.
44:42Okay.
44:54Not so fast.
44:56A certain boy we both know
44:58is waiting to see you.
45:12Austin?
45:14Yeah, I'm sorry to show up like this
45:16and I just got back from a date.
45:19If that's what this is about...
45:21No, it's not.
45:23It's not.
45:25I swear.
45:31How did you know about my date, anyway?
45:35Paisley told me.
45:38I didn't know.
45:40And you don't have to explain.
45:42If anybody has to explain,
45:44it's me showing up like this.
45:49So why did you show up like this?
45:56I needed to see you.
46:00You know, I just...
46:03suddenly felt very lost.
46:10How did you think you were going to feel
46:12after you took down all your posters
46:14and suddenly decided to drop film class?
46:20Well, I didn't think. I just...
46:23did.
46:28And now you're thinking
46:30and you realize you don't know who you are anymore?
46:33Something like that, yeah.
46:40I think you lost your true north.
46:47That fixed point in the night sky
46:49that you guide yourself by.
47:03What about you? What's your true north?
47:12I don't think I have one.
47:24What is that?
47:26The Aurora Borealis.
47:30The Northern Lights?
47:32Aren't we a little far south
47:34of the North Cape sign?
47:36Apparently not.
47:39It's funny.
47:41I have been waiting all night for this
47:43and it happens now with you.
47:49Is that a bad thing?
47:51No.
47:52It's, uh...
47:54It's just typical.
48:08Why don't you be...
48:10be bluer than this?
48:13I don't know.
48:15I just...
48:17I just...
48:19I just...
48:20I don't know what to do with this.