Married at First Sight UK Season 9 Episode 18
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00:00Previously, I really want to make this work as some marriages flourished
00:14Others floundered see something in me just switched off. I'm not convinced. We'd have a future
00:22If Emma is just I'm gonna have a fabulous day every day. I find it false. Yes, I can be more vulnerable
00:28Well, that's not me. That means that no one's ever really gonna get close to you and Hannah's plea for forgiveness
00:33I'm so sorry fell on deaf ears. You don't believe
00:38So we're
00:40Leading the commitment ceremony to end with two drastic decisions. The best thing for me to do would be to leave
00:47I'm full of resentment. I put leave
00:53Tonight
00:56The couple's head off to a country retreat, this is nice
01:00We're claiming this room while it marks a fresh start for Emma and Casper
01:04I actually don't know how to accept showing my vulnerable side the fact you're questioning something again
01:09I need to change something about myself that sharing vulnerability. That is progress. Could it spell the end for Rochelle and Dawson?
01:16Fine for you to say you bore me. Is it fine for you to lie?
01:20You're a fraud and I've seen through you and group gossip about new bride Hannah
01:25After the commitment ceremony when Stephen was walking towards her
01:28She said to also hold my hand making jealous puts her firmly in the firing line with husband Stephen
01:35Behavior after has been terrible. So I can't even have fun to and try and make friends while I'm here. I'm out
01:40I'm getting so sick of people throwing me under the bus. Get me off the TV show
01:51I
01:53Feel brilliant to be back in the countryside for the next three nights. This is it
01:58I wonder what inside looks like or don't I'm excited the couples will all be staying together in a luxury rural retreat
02:09We're claiming this room you can't claim it you gotta win the game
02:21Love that, please be careful. Please be careful. Look at the beams. Oh my
02:31God I'm from home from you. Well, not quite
02:39This is nice, yeah
02:44I wonder what your one's like. I'm sure it'll be quite similar
02:50This is honeymoon suite size bed this
03:00Nice in here. I know. Oh
03:02We're gonna have a good time
03:04Do you think there's gonna be any dramas?
03:07While we're here there might be with them Hannah and Stephen if I
03:11I
03:15Do the other Stephen being a treat is somewhat tense. I obviously said leave at the commitment ceremony
03:27Who's the best cook me
03:29He's always got food on him. Yeah, I'm more teaser. I go to stop over with me
03:34Me Stephen haven't spoke since the commitment ceremony. He's having banter with everyone and he literally won't look me in the eye
03:40It's clearly very frosty between us, but I'm continuing to try should we check our rooms out?
03:46You're that way. We're this way. I am a little bit nervous to be sharing this cabin with Hannah and Stephen
03:52But I know there's friction between the two of them. So I feel like it's gonna be a little bit awkward
04:00But that has nothing to do with me I tend to avoid drama. I'm a bit like Switzerland. I'm like neutral all the time
04:10You
04:15Fresh week
04:17And you know for me it is it's make or break
04:22And I wasn't ready to break it and I think you write and leave
04:28Slapping a face that I needed
04:30I've got to show you that I can be a great wife
04:33Coming into the experiment Emma was aware of the barriers. She was placing on herself. I'm scared of vulnerability
04:41I don't let myself open up and I don't want to give someone my heart
04:46I'm holding myself back from finding love
04:49I've got to learn and grow because I think that's what I need
04:55All the emotions that I felt when I wrote leave and the sort of freedom I gave to my brain
04:59That is hard to forget
05:01But my head at the moment is I want to be positive this week to see how my week goes
05:07Casper writing leave was probably something I needed to show me that I need to fight. I want to fight for this
05:14I want to fight for this relationship. I want to fight for this marriage
05:17It's not going to be easy, but I'm hearing what the experts have said
05:21I'm taking on their advice to be able to let him see Emma
05:25Who is vulnerable and can be venerable and emotion if needs be
05:30Every emotion that I'm trying to feel I'm going to try and stay and pause in that moment
05:35Like Paul told me to and that's that's tough. That's a tough
05:39You're not used to it. No
05:41I've got a chance to show what I can do this week
05:45true
05:47This week is make or break if Emma
05:49Embracing some of the other emotions apart from positivity. I think that's a far more attractive version now
05:54and I think if she holds on to those qualities, then it could work and
05:59That's what I want. So let's see
06:04Do you know what I think is funny though is the fact that it's called the cow house
06:09The two biggest cows in the cow house
06:11I feel like we've got a good group here though. Yeah, like imagine if she was with Stephen and Hannah
06:16Like they're not even talking. That would have been awkward. I actually
06:21Give her a due and thought maybe they've come back off the honeymoon. She's having a hard time
06:24So she just got a frontal and then last night after the commitment ceremony
06:28She's gone up to Shannon and Ryan's room and she was rubbing Ryan's feet in front of Shannon going. Oh, my god
06:34Oh, my god. Oh, my god. Oh, my god. Oh, my god
06:37Oh, my god. Oh, my god. Oh, my god
06:39She was rubbing Ryan's feet in front of Shannon going. Oh, and you got nice blue eyes your feet are so soft
06:43Ain't it nice and warm in there?
06:46Like she's been super flirty with you
06:49Some of the comments have been a bit like
06:52You wasn't happy about it. Was she Shannon? No, I wouldn't do that to anybody else's guy
06:55Do you think you would pull off on it?
07:03We can't just be going around saying that stuff to people's men, you know, I mean, it's not how we work around here
07:08That to me is just very strange behavior as soon as she's seen him. She's like, oh you look nice
07:14Do you go legit?
07:16You ain't got nothing to worry. Why I have to save the menu when you can have the full meal
07:19I'm telling you you haven't got nothing to worry about
07:22I don't trust hannah as far as I could throw her to be honest
07:25Well, maybe she's trying to see who the weakest couple are see if she can wear my way in
07:30What's your plan b if it's not working out with your husband is trying to take someone else's but people have seen that though
07:35Because there has been things when we've been out
07:39After the commitment ceremony when stephen was walking towards her. She said to austin. I'll hold my hand because he's coming towards us
07:45Let's make him jealous
07:47Because she knew that austin's marriage wasn't going great either you wouldn't go out of your way to make someone
07:53Jealous if you've put stay yesterday and that you want to try and work on it when you're doing when you're doing that
07:59It can't really keep going on if she's going to keep flirting with people's men
08:04If that is how she is as a person then I don't want any part of it to be honest
08:22I think given the commitment ceremony yesterday
08:25I'll stay in a different room
08:27I did say on the sofa that I was going to try my best. However waking up this morning
08:31I've learned some more things that hannah said behind my back to other people
08:35She's trying it on with other blokes in an attempt to either get with them or make me jealous
08:40So i've decided i'll be staying on my own
08:46Okay, so why did you say you'll try
08:48Your behavior after has been terrible
08:50My behavior after has been terrible. Yeah, like what i'm trying to get austin to hold your hands try and make me jealous
08:57We were taking the piss it's a shit joke after i'd spoke like the honeymoon at the commitment ceremony
09:06You're making this whole experience so shit, it's not fair. Okay. Do you i've said leave?
09:10Do you honestly feel like you're treating me? All right, do you think it's kicking off?
09:14Yeah, I don't think it's gonna go well
09:17So I can't even have banter and try and make friends while i'm here. Yeah, but not about me
09:21It wasn't about you. It's never been about you, but you hold my hand to make steven jealous
09:26You're taking things so differently sweet i'm out told you
09:37I'm getting so sick of people fucking throwing me under the bus. Get me off this fucking tv show. It's like the god
09:56Oh
10:01Is he fucking serious, oh, okay what's happened
10:06Every single person who was just thrown under the bus. He's gone. He's just said to me you're being disrespectful because you're saying
10:14Um, are you and also we're taking the piss like pretending to hold hands every single person in this group
10:19They've all thrown me under the bus. No, I feel like don't just take face value from steven
10:23You need to speak to like everybody speak to everybody calm down. Think about it. We'll go
10:31Yeah, honestly don't just don't try and stay calm remember calm
10:38My personality is being bashed and i'm being thrown under the bus and i'm being blindsided with all these little stupid stories
10:43And there's clearly some shit stirring going on here and I want to get to the bottom of it
10:50Because I can't do this
10:54God
10:57I mean if he's giving nothing back to you or not, it's difficult to
11:04Why do I go why I gotta be the purpose you don't honestly you're not being bad you're not being a bad person
11:09Yeah, but why why I know it's my option now is to try and make friends with people and have some banter in the whole
11:14Group, she's turned against me like why?
11:19You're obviously gonna think that people are bitching about you but
11:22It's probably just been said in like a jokey way, why would you say it at all?
11:25Like I can't I just have banter with people and have a fucking life
11:27Like why do I have to be hannes and this hannes and that hannes and this and the fucking drama of this whole thing?
11:32And I didn't I don't need this shit. They were probably laughing about it
11:37Yeah, but under the circumstances of what we're doing and how me and steven are why would you make it make more drama?
11:43It doesn't need to be drama
11:45So
11:47I'm not being portrayed to look like a liar and i'm not being portrayed to look like i've been
11:51Disrespectful when all i'm trying to do is build some friendships have some banter with people. That is my kind of banter
12:00The whole story's been blown out of proportion
12:03I'm open to chatting to everyone and figuring it out
12:05But I don't want people to think i'm stepping on people's toes because i'm not
12:16I feel like this is like our second honeymoon now, you know what I mean? Yeah
12:20After last night the commitment ceremony as well went really well
12:24Definitely in a not that we were ever in a bad place, but we're in a better place
12:28Yeah, the best place we've been because it's just a nice little incline of things. I think it'll be good. I'm excited
12:33Obviously last night we spoke about the fact that I wanted
12:37A little bit more pda from you and obviously I know that you struggle with that
12:41How do you think you're going to find that when obviously we are?
12:44With everyone this week
12:46I will struggle with that
12:48And i've told you that it's not something that I can just do it's something that's going to get built up. So
12:53I just think it's hard for me because i've never been a pda person
12:57so in relationships
12:58I've never like held hands or i've never been like kissing in nightclubs and like just anywhere like i'm not
13:06I don't really like it. I always like it like
13:08Not behind closed doors, but discreet. You know what I mean?
13:11I
13:14Know it's not going to happen overnight. So that's just something i've got to own. Yeah
13:19And I suppose seeing as I can't give you all the pda. I might run you
13:22The the odd bath the odd bath. Yeah, i'd put some rose petals around it if I could find some
13:29It would be really nice for me if adam did give me something this week in front of the group
13:34I'm, not asking for a huge grand gesture, maybe a little kiss or an arm around the shoulder
13:39Yeah, just something would just be nice it just makes me feel a little bit more secure
13:55I don't know how to help. I don't know but you're trying. You're really bad
14:00Making me upset. That's literally all she needs is you around her. Would you want to give her some space or yeah
14:10I just feel really sorry for her to hate to be in that situation. Are you okay?
14:20It's not nice to see my wife get upset and react like that, you know tears coming down
14:27She's all right
14:30You know hannah's just a bride like amy was you know, she's excited about this match and now it seems to be falling apart
14:36so quickly
14:39The guy that married me was like the nicest guy i've ever met
14:42I genuinely like this boy. Like he made me feel so comfortable and so happy
14:47we had something in us maybe that we could try a bit more and we could move forward but now he
14:52It's they've all just ruined it. Everyone's just ruined it
14:55I'm trying so hard to keep it together, but you're doing really well
14:59You're doing really well and literally I can't even explain how proud I am of you
15:05I left the commitment ceremony
15:07Very much willing to try with stephen
15:10I meant everything I said on that couch. I cried and I meant it and I said that there were still feelings there
15:15I meant it
15:17However, the fact that he won't actually have a conversation with me
15:21It is it's going to be harder than I thought so
15:24The balls in his court
15:26So
15:35I could totally live here
15:37Now I know
15:39I'm, quite disappointed that my calls all hasn't gone yet. Like it is what it is
15:44Even though it is well frustrating. Yeah. No, it is frustrating. It's definitely frustrating
15:49Just let's try and keep positive
15:51especially for my brain at least
15:54It is my time of the month but
15:58Even though i'm not feeling a hundred percent myself
16:01I'm still going to enjoy the peace enjoy time with kieran and we're just hopefully gonna have the best time
16:09Christina first opened up about suffering with pmdd on the honeymoon. It's just like pms
16:16but mine is
16:18like just
16:19Frightened, you know if times do get hard i'll do my absolute best to make sure i'm there for you
16:26Because you deserve you deserve someone to do that for you for him to react how he's reacted
16:32Like I genuinely could not ask for any more
16:40I'm very i'm very grateful. I've got you me too
16:45And i'll have you as best as I can I know and I do really appreciate it
16:51I'm, just going to go off the back of whatever christina wants whatever christina wants christina i'll get it's actually quite comfy
16:57Yeah, it's all right. I know. Yeah
16:59Just need a little nap a little nappy nap little nap to recuperate
17:03just got to be as supportive as I can and
17:06And help christina as much as I can as a husband
17:09It's a shame. I couldn't bring my piano, but I have brought my uke
17:12Yeah, I still serenade you as long as I've got you i'll be all right, we'll be fine. Hey, we'll be fine
17:19very grateful
17:27I don't see any point with us staying together. Um while on this retreat
17:34After the commitment ceremony, it was obvious to me that i've caused you a lot of distress
17:37I
17:41There was a comment that you made rochelle last night you essentially said he wasn't masculine enough
17:47For me masculinity is leadership and I just don't feel that i'm getting that right now
17:53She said like austin. You don't really stimulate me mentally
17:58I took it fucking personal. I feel something in me that just maybe switched off a little bit
18:04I
18:06Didn't know that that I mean, this is the first i'm hearing that me saying that made him switch off
18:12You hadn't brought that up
18:19I did write stay
18:21And i'm quite frustrated with myself that I didn't do what I wanted to do
18:26Because I wanted to leave and he knew that
18:29I
18:31Still like
18:33Get it. Sometimes I really don't
18:36It shouldn't be that hard to get I told you how I felt
18:39If you told me how you feel
18:42like and i'm telling you like
18:45This is how I feel. I don't understand like why you tell me how you felt before the commitment ceremony
18:53If you're telling me no, can you just answer the question also you have a very good way of trying to just
18:58You know circumvent answering questions. Did you tell me anything that you said on the couch? Yes, you know what?
19:04You know, that's not true. You know how I feel. No, how would I know i'm not i'm not a mind reader
19:11You sat on the couch and you said that how when I said about not being mentally stimulated you said that caused you distress
19:17We had ample opportunities to talk about in private. You never mentioned that to me everything I said on the couch
19:23I had already told to you
19:25You also said you checked out
19:28Yeah, I checked out a discussion I checked out well then why when I said I wanted to leave did you say you wanted to stay
19:34You said you wanted to leave also now you say that we didn't have a conversation
19:38You said you want do you not remember the conversation we had when I said to you i'm ready to leave
19:42I'm ready to go back to work. And if I leave now, I can be home in time for my daughter's birthday
19:46Okay, and then what did we decide? No, but what did you say? I said let's do one more week, right? Okay
19:51I said that yes, but then what did we decide? Well, obviously I said stay because
19:56Because I can't tell you what no you definitely can't but I was being I was I was being I was trying to be thoughtful
20:03Because i'd already left once before and I thought let's be in agreement when we leave
20:09It's fine for you to say you bore me. It's fine for you to say
20:15But you could have addressed it you could have addressed it at the time to have arguments and then just walk out it's fine for you
20:21to say oh
20:23I'm, not sure if I like if I knew like I could I could say more things that you said to me. Awesome
20:29Look, is it? Can I just say something for you to lie?
20:33Let me just say as much as you have let me just say this what about your lies i'm not gonna actually sit here
20:39Let's talk about your lies. Also. I don't want to be didn't I ask you a certain question?
20:43You're just you're a little liar. You're just you're a fraud once you come after my integrity once you come after my livelihood
20:50Once you come after did I ask you if you if your business was registered on company's house
20:54I got time. You're not even registered on company's house, but you said you are you're a fraud and i've seen through you
20:59I've got I ain't got time for you. Like just stay in your space. That's exactly what i'm going to do
21:04That's exactly what i'm doing all respect for you. And once I lose that I lost respect for you
21:10I lost respect for you on the honeymoon
21:14Pretty certain, you know, he probably hopes he did write leave now
21:18But he wanted to drag this out another week and we're dragging it out another week
21:34All i've gotten from michelle is criticism
21:40Some of those things I just can't see past
21:45It's gone as far as
21:48Oh, you're a fraud you're a liar you've got no company
21:53I've made sure that michelle is looked after i've made sure that i'm a man to michelle. Oh
21:59Apparently i'm not man enough
22:02I'll check out like I I am done
22:18How many times do you think you've got on a bike in the last decade, yeah
22:22Three times. Oh, he hasn't fallen off yet. We're there. Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. There's always time
22:27Oh a little bit of a bump
22:30The suspension's good on them. Can you do a little wheelie? No
22:36Stop showing off
22:40It's actually so nice to just get the wind in your hair, oh, it's so nice
22:44It's a nice little date day exactly
22:52That was lovely actually
22:55Casper look when I prepared. Oh, this looks banging. Look at that
23:01proper cheese board
23:03some macaroons some fruit
23:06Oh, there we are
23:10So it's been a nice day
23:14Are you proud of me for what i've done so far? Honestly, you've been brilliant
23:18See it believe it
23:20Was was my thinking on the sofa with the expert
23:23In order to grow you've got to get outside your comfort zone you do and that's my job this week
23:28Vulnerability is definitely something that I struggle with and I actually don't know how to um, except for showing my vulnerable side
23:36I actually don't know too much on how to break the mentality that i've worked on for 10 years in my work
23:43In sales, it's quite hard to be super super resilient and vulnerable at the same time
23:50The fact you're questioning something again. I need to change something about myself. I don't know how to do it if I want to
23:54Yeah, that's showing vulnerability and that's that's a step in the right direction. Honestly that question in itself is progress
24:01Thank you, customer. I'm feeling um
24:05I'm feeling um thankful
24:08Saying that
24:09I've come into this new week with a fresh mind
24:12And that's what i'm trying to be trying to be more open trying to be more vulnerable. And then do you think there's hope?
24:17We carry on this trajectory
24:22Honestly, yeah
24:24I'm staying
24:25And i'm gonna be as positive and upbeat as I can through the next week and see where we end up
24:29But just have as much fun as possible
24:31That means there's a little bit of hope
24:34Little bit of pma
24:36We'll see it's going it's going well so far
24:41I definitely feel like we're making progress. Is that my toxic positivity?
24:47Oh, you know we might even get a snog this week
24:54Slowly but surely I think you know, I am seeing different sides of emma to a positive week then
25:00We've been really struggling and walking on eggshells
25:03and now we're not
25:07Slips down the gullet, doesn't it? Oh, yeah. Oh
25:09i'm intrigued because it's
25:12a far more lovable person
25:14Long may it continue
25:26Oh how nice who's popping it i'll do the honors
25:34I need anything
25:40My two favorite girls, hello. Hello. Hello my honey
25:50Can I get in now may I
25:54I'm trying to be as supportive as I can for christina. Is that warm? It's large
26:00Oh my god
26:03Because I know how how hard this is when she's suffering from her pmdd symptoms
26:07And she just needs someone to really be there for her right. You get the shampoos in
26:12Hi, the setting is so beautiful got bubbly on the side
26:19Got the candles everywhere the lights it is the perfect perfect romantic scene
26:26Cheers to our first bath together cheers to that. Yes. He's the best romantic, isn't it?
26:35That wasn't romantic
26:42How are you feeling about the retreat
26:44yeah, I was
26:45Obviously super super nervous because I didn't think i'd be
26:49I was worried. I was obviously going to be fed around which I did
26:52I obviously did this morning, but now being like in here with you like I feel really I feel so much better
27:00You know you've managed to like bring me out of a hard
27:03A hard place. I didn't do that. You've done that. No, but you help
27:08It's the little things that like mean the absolute well to me like maybe without even realizing, you know
27:14Just like a like a sensitive touch or like where I like I know when you mean it
27:20It's so brand new karen and like I think you're just handling it like an absolute champ, you know, I I appreciate you
27:28You know
27:29Struggling through it with me
27:32A problem shared is a problem. Yeah, that's really nice and half it for you. And that makes it over easy. I'll go
27:40I'm so grateful to just have somebody
27:43You know just understand how and why i'm sort of feeling it made me feel a hundred times better. Yeah, really grateful
27:51so
27:52Are you gonna play us a tune then or what?
27:57Go on
27:59Leaving and christina sitting in the bath. Nobody knows i've got me big toe up your ass
28:09Right, how have I married you?
28:14You'll do this one then
28:16Casper and em, they've had a right old giggle. They got their helmets on and they're taking a piddle on their bikes
28:28A piddle that's really good
28:31Oh
28:34And that is why i've made them this song they just need to
28:40Put the past behind closed doors
28:45And orson should get on all fours that could be number one
28:51our way man
28:58Let's talk to me then bro, what's going on?
29:00michelle and
29:02it's just gone to the point where like
29:05i'm like
29:07I don't even really want to
29:08Be around
29:10You two are good people. Don't remember sharing my sister. You're my brother like we're not even living together
29:16Yeah
29:18It's
29:20Is there not a friendship salvageable no no way no in a million years in two million years
29:29Yesterday you both could stay yeah
29:33What's changed since then everything
29:36I'm disrespectful bro. And why should I keep trying?
29:39I don't argue with my two and a half year old. I'm not coming here to argue with a 48 year old
29:43and managing moods
29:45But i'm not here to manage no 48 year old moods. I ain't doing it. I've done enough of that. I've compromised enough
29:50Yeah, yeah, it's time to think about I gotta think about me bro. Yeah. Yeah. It's time to think about awesome now and
29:57You're out here trying to make her happy. Yeah and forgetting about my happiness
30:02Holly did tell me something earlier. Okay
30:05Yesterday
30:06You was with hannah and hannah said, oh, let me hold your hand so I can make steven jealous
30:13Wagwan day bro. I need to know
30:24Okay, so like
30:27She was
30:29Flirting a little bit i'm not gonna lie. She was flirting a little bit. That's a mad team. Yeah, she
30:36But I don't think he was that deep
30:38If I sit here and say like it was deep i'ma stop you there real quick though, bro
30:42Okay, if you're not on good terms with your husband
30:46You should not be flirting with other men serious or unserious
30:50That's crazy and it's muggy on steven because he doesn't deserve it man
30:55She shouldn't be doing that. You're never gonna do anything
30:59The boys ain't like that
31:11Babe i've got some wine
31:13Yay, but like i've actually got a husband now
31:16Treating i'll step in
31:18Thanks honey. Oh posh
31:21Sasha's on her way around amazing. I feel like hannah needs to open up to another girl other than me. She's gorgeous eye contact
31:29We entered the experiment at the same time, but she feels like everybody's against her
31:35How are you feeling i'm exhausted?
31:37But I do i'm glad that sasha's coming
31:39It'll be nice to just kind of like maybe try and help me like integrate into the group a little bit
31:44You need to open up
31:53Hannah and steven, uh, not in a good place
31:56They're not sharing a cottage together and i've just come in to say
31:59We'll make sure you feel welcome. We just want you to enjoy the retreat
32:03What was you saying about me? Said my ears was burning
32:06We were just we were just talking about like all that
32:09There's all these bloody rumors about me and awesome like flirting with each other. Have you heard this?
32:13um
32:14Tell the truth. I may have heard very recently that you put your hand in his orc awesomeness. Was that awesome?
32:21Oh
32:25Oh my god, this is getting so playground
32:28That was ryan. I touched his shoe and said your shoes are nice
32:31What the fuck I thought that was awesome
32:34Right, so that hang on there's an issue now that I told someone I like their shoe and I wanted to see if
32:38It's an issue, but there is because that's how you've just said it
32:42Oh
32:44I've landed myself in it and now i'm as upset
32:46It's all going to tits off
32:48I think that it was just there was maybe saying it was just like flirting or by asking someone if their shoe was fluffy
32:55And saying that they've got really big eyes and nice eyelashes or something
33:04I don't want to be the bearer of bad news and stuff. Oh god
33:08She's grabbed brian's foot
33:10And she's giving him a foot massage and she looked at him and said oh my god, your eyes are so beautiful
33:15Oh
33:17And the other day she went and knocked on my door and asked for my hair straighteners were you there no
33:23Okay
33:24Alex was like well holly's not here. Alex has gone shut there and she's gone alex
33:28And he's leant round
33:30And she's gone
33:31Just to let you know you're my favorite boy
33:34Oh, man
33:37Hearing these new things that holly told me tonight
33:39I'm, genuinely sad because I have separated from my children to come into this process
33:43I've come here to give my everything. I don't really know how we've got here, but we're here
33:49So my go-to thing is to be really nice to people
33:52Yeah
33:52and the fact that that's been twisted into being flirting is just so frustrating to
33:56It just feels so like mountain out of a molehill. She thought that the the gossip about her and also like
34:03flirting came from
34:06Somebody in the group and they were like staring shit
34:09I'm usually pretty good at merging into a group. So there's something going wrong here and
34:14I don't really know why no one's actually just took the time to hear my side of the story
34:20Just feels like it's all gone to shit because
34:22We started off so well, like our wedding was amazing. Our honeymoon was amazing if i'm honest
34:29I've not told anyone this
34:32But like we slept together on the honeymoon
34:34I don't sleep with people just easily. Yeah, and and that's why it's harder for me to like just let it go. Yeah
34:40Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah sex for women is more emotional. Don't really sleep with someone
34:44Well, it's rare that women sleep with someone that I don't feel anything for at all
34:50Yeah, I think that's why I feel more hurt about the whole thing. Yeah
34:54Coming in late is hard enough coming in later with no support system. It's been really really tough like really tough. That's shit
35:00I don't want anyone to feel like that. I can definitely talk to the girls. I appreciate that
35:08She's come into this
35:10The complete wrong way and it has not sat well with anybody. I said leave. I don't want this. Yeah
35:19But you're the one that said you wanted to work and work on it, but you're off working on other guys
35:23Exactly. She's she has a lot of experience
35:26You can't sit on the sofa and say I really want to work at this marriage and that's why i'm gonna stay
35:30I'm gonna make it right and all this but then working on everyone else's man other than yourself
35:36I'm, sorry, but she's a bag
35:39She's hungry
35:42This is not a carvery babe. You can't go along picking bits of what you want
35:46You've got someone here
35:47And if you don't agree with them, you're not going to be able to work with them
35:51You can't go along picking bits of what you want
35:54You've got someone here
35:55And if you don't appreciate a good guy, someone's fucking gonna
36:11I don't know whether she's seen orton and rachel aren't great. So she wants an opportunity to try diving somewhere else
36:18So
36:20It's awful hearing all this stuff i've been married before
36:23I've got four children and it's my last ditch effort to actually find my person because i've my heart broken last time and i'm just
36:30Refusing to go through it again
36:31And it's just fucking sad that you put all the effort and time in somebody
36:35And then this just I feel like you cannot say that. This is your last chance when you've been lumped with hannah
36:40You are not the problem. No, no, everyone can see through it. Everyone. Yeah, it's not boding. Well with anybody
36:48I just know that we've got your back. Thank you
37:01Come up it's open
37:05Hello
37:06What's happening?
37:07I'm, definitely not ready to give up steven
37:09So I do feel like I want to have a chat with orson and just get to the bottom of it
37:14so there's rumors about me and you so
37:17Oh god
37:19It just feels like it's all been blown massively out of proportion
37:24so after the commitment ceremony
37:26I
37:27Feel like you were going out of your way to kind of make me laugh and we were having a bit of banter and we were
37:30Like should we pretend to hold hands and like lol?
37:33Now that everybody's turned against me
37:36You can't say everybody because I haven't
37:39So
37:42There was no malicious intent, yeah, but it's fine for you to say
37:45But that's how it's been made to look from the others from everybody else in this group
37:50Everybody's coming out and saying you've done this you've done that you've done this
37:52I've now been told that it was inappropriate because I told someone they had really nice eyes
37:57I can't win
37:58question
38:00Have you realized what's happening here? I'm the villain. No, no, no just a lot of shitster
38:05Rumors I get that and I understand that however
38:09Can you see how I now feel like I can't trust anybody in this group because everybody's throwing me under the bus
38:13Left right and center and it's not fair. I feel like i'm being made to look like a shitty human and i'm not a shitty human
38:22I don't think you're shit human. I understand fully exactly where you're coming from 100
38:29100%
38:33What can I do
38:35To just eradicate a lot of this to fucking have my back man
38:40I've had your back in every conversation i've had
38:43You could go and speak to anyone in this group
38:46anyone in this group
38:50Appreciate that
38:53I got you
38:55Austin's a good guy. I think he's a good guy. I think the fact that he's a little bit older
38:59I think he's not playing a game here. And I think steven maybe has took the stories differently
39:04Twisted it a little bit. Um, he's obviously stewed on it for the night and then thrown it at me
39:09I think you're overthinking things. Yeah
39:12All right
39:20Do you know how amazing you are
39:22All the newbies walked in and the first thing I said to adam after i've kind of like done my people watching I goes
39:28I like her
39:32Because she's fiery she's feisty and she looks like she don't give a shit
39:37And that's that's what gravitates me to you
39:45It's nice to hear someone especially a man actually big me up a little bit
39:53So i've obviously got to walk into dinner party on my own no, you know, you got me we could walk in hand in hand
39:58We can't yes
39:59I don't give a shit like let them talk
40:02We're in this fucking mess in the first place. I just wanted to feel someone's hand in mine. It's been a while. Oh
40:13I appreciate you. I do appreciate you. Yeah, man. I got you, man
40:17I
40:20Mean i'm not in a great place, you know with rachel steve is not in a great place with hannah
40:26All right, put the kettle on. Okay
40:28You guys could get out now
40:32Not 100 sure if hannah fancies me or not if she does like
40:40Hey
40:42Squeaky bum time
40:47Next time here's to lads day
40:51As the group split I am walking into a lion's den for the girls animosity bruise
40:57This is your chance to explain yourself
40:59Well, it's not because you've all made your minds up. The last thing you want to do is get brave speaking to me like shit
41:03She's going about things like a dickhead for the boys. She's done certain things. I think to get you jealous an admission
41:10I've had a conversation with hannah last night in flames tension. She's trying it on with all the other guys
41:15I think that's a bit unfit. It is fucking done, but it's revealing questions stick with your current partner or twist
41:23spicy
41:25Twist that deals a devastating blow the fact that you've gone i'll switch to steven
41:29His moggy is four i'm getting better every week and i'm you're still not fucking happy
41:36Just shit
41:39I don't want to lose him
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