Dawson's Creek Season 2 Episode 14 To Be Or Not To Be
Dawson's Creek Season 2 Episode 14 To Be Or Not To Be
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00:00And warning.
00:01Hey C, uh, you gotta...
00:05Hang on there, Andy.
00:07I'm falling hopelessly in love with you, Andy.
00:10You and Jack, you moved on and you let go.
00:14So now I, in turn, am letting you go.
00:17Dawson is clearly over me, I promise.
00:19It's as long as you're over him, nothing else matters.
00:31I can't believe you made this whole thing by yourself.
00:34Congratulations, Jack.
00:35Nice.
00:36I'm not completely done, though.
00:38I mean, I still have this whole back section to paint.
00:41Listen, I'm truly impressed.
00:43I mean, I'm grateful.
00:46I'm still a little unclear, though, as to why you wanted this.
00:49Not gonna, like, blow it up or anything, are you?
00:51No.
00:52No, there's no asteroid in my movie.
00:54It's for aerial shots, establishing.
00:56Just get the right lens and the right light,
00:58and you'll get the perfect, quaint, creekside village.
01:01Maybe one little camera trickery can do.
01:04Well, if you guys will excuse me, I have a ton of homework to do.
01:07Including Peterson's assignment, which I haven't even started yet.
01:10Yeah, yeah, I haven't either.
01:12Percy Witter is leaving early to do homework.
01:16It's slightly less believable than an inquiry in life.
01:19Oh, yeah, it's a disgusting habit.
01:23All right, well, thanks, kid. I'll see you later.
01:26I can stay, but I'm just gonna do a test shot.
01:28No, it's okay. No, I'd like to see you. It's all right.
01:31Okay. Cool.
01:39Well, that's all, gents.
01:42Don't stay up too late, you know? Here's a school night.
01:47Speaking as his closest friend, your sister's had quite a profound influence on him.
01:53Yeah, well, relationships will do that.
02:01Sorry.
02:03I didn't mean that the way that that came out.
02:12This hasn't exactly been the easiest of situations for either of us,
02:16but your help on this film has been so significant.
02:19I just...
02:21So we're cool?
02:23Yeah.
02:25So what's this Peterson assignment about?
02:27Uh, poem.
02:29He wants us to write about something that's critical to our being, whatever.
02:32It's just another assignment I'm gonna screw up.
02:35It's a poem. It can't be that hard.
02:38You know, I read your script.
02:40You're the expert writer here.
02:42Any advice as to how to get to the good stuff?
02:45Um...
02:47Listen to yourself.
02:50Writing's about opening up, you know?
02:52It's a chance to offer the world a peek at that very private part of yourself
02:55that you'll otherwise just stifle.
02:58So just listen to myself.
03:00Yeah, I mean...
03:02You never know what you'll hear.
03:05Could you do me a favor and hit the lights?
03:07Oh, yeah.
03:17And there it is.
03:20Our perfect creekside village.
03:51Every voice inside my head
03:55Is telling me to run like mad
03:59Oh, bowls and barrels, stars and sunsets
04:04Hey, hey, hey, yeah
04:06Hey, hey, hey, yeah
04:08Every heartbeat, every kiss
04:12Just makes me wonder what all this is
04:17Soups of armor, hearts and barrels
04:21Hey, hey, hey, yeah
04:30Casey!
04:32Mr. Milo!
04:33Now, before you say anything, I want you to know I have the situation under complete control.
04:37And what situation is that?
04:40Well, whichever of my academic improprieties you were about to make me aware of.
04:44Well, impropriety's such a wrong word.
04:47Try kudos.
04:49I just received the midterm reports for all of the students on academic watch.
04:55And after removing my jaw from the floor, I came to see you.
05:01You posted three B's, two A's.
05:05That's possible, but one would think so.
05:10You know, I don't think I've ever seen you smile before, Mr. Milo.
05:14I'm liking this. The smiling thing, I definitely like.
05:17Well, you just keep up the good work, Mr. Winner.
05:21What was that for?
05:39Just cause.
05:41I don't even...
05:43What, we can have a just cause?
05:45Sure, in private.
05:47Massive suck-face embraces are better left for bedrooms and private sunsets.
05:52No offense. None taken.
05:56Hey guys, Jack, I was just wondering, when do you think you can get started on the set for the pageant scene?
06:02This weekend, if you want.
06:04Great, I'll schedule the shoot for the weekend after.
06:10Well, I hate to be the stickler, but we are late for an hour of town.
06:14Yeah, you got your poem, stickler?
06:16Of course. I'll see how you do those guys. Bye.
06:19Bye.
06:25So, that was nice.
06:29That was nice.
06:30You and Jack actually conversing. It wasn't a surprise.
06:35Some people are capable of living together a pretty long time, not always too hard, right?
06:41Yeah, right. If Jack wasn't doing your movie douse, then he'd still be the enemy.
06:47Not true.
06:49You are so Hollywood.
06:51No.
06:56Cross the crowded green, he spots her.
06:59Stealthily, the lion crosses and settles in beside his prey, the helpless mom.
07:06Hey, Ty.
07:09Well, as far as I know, there have been three phone messages to you in this last week.
07:14Adorable phone messages with my number included.
07:18So, I was just wondering why you haven't returned any of them.
07:22You're on my to-call list, Ty. Just working my way around.
07:28You know, not to toot my own horn, but I could swear you were into me that night that we went out.
07:33Not to toot your own horn or anything.
07:38It was a hell of a party, wasn't it?
07:41All that Bible speak, it freaked you out.
07:45Honestly, yeah. That's it.
07:49Jen, that's not all that I am.
07:53For your information, I'm not some Bible-banging Dorcas McForkus here.
07:59Okay, I'm sure that you're not, Ty. It's just...
08:05Obviously, your religion is something that's very important to you.
08:09I just see it as an inevitable obstacle in our relationship.
08:13Don't you think that we should go out on our first date before you map out our entire future?
08:17Ty, you're sweet. And you're funny.
08:22But you go to these Bible meetings three times a week, and that's probably how many times I've been to church in the past ten years.
08:29Hopefully you can understand why that would present a problem with us being anything more than just friends, alright?
08:36See, that just goes to show how little you know me.
08:42I'm not funny at all.
08:46Look, I'm not giving up.
08:48No, that's a shame.
08:50You know, I thought most women admired persistence.
08:53See, that just goes to show how little you know about me.
08:56I'm not most women.
09:14Mr. Witter.
09:16Empty-handed, I presume?
09:18No, it was in here. I mean, I had it at the locker.
09:21Left it right here in my binder.
09:27Ode to the sports car.
09:31Yeah, trust me, they're more exciting than Grecian urns.
09:34Experimenting with a cursive for the first time, Mr. Witter?
09:38I worked hard on that.
09:40I'm sure. However, you neglected penmanship, and the presentation is half the grade.
09:48So, as I see it, you have two choices.
09:52You can bring the poem in tomorrow, written legibly, and lose points for handing it in late.
09:59Or you can hand it in as it is, and the highest grade you'll see will be your old friend the letter D.
10:09It's not fair.
10:11Fairness is overrated.
10:15Is it just me, or does that man get meaner every day?
10:19It's not just you.
10:21Excuse me, Mr. McPhee?
10:24Um, nothing.
10:27I trust that your poetry assignment went well, Mr. McPhee.
10:32We're all aware of how critical it is to your deficient grade in this class.
10:38Sure, yeah, it, um, went fine.
10:42Good.
10:44Then perhaps you would like to read your poem for the class.
10:48Um, you said that these poems were just for you.
10:52I changed my mind.
10:54These things happen.
10:56Please, read us your poem.
10:59I'd really rather not.
11:03Mr. McPhee, what you would rather do is of no importance to me.
11:10If it's okay with you, can I just hand it in?
11:13Read the poem.
11:15Please, I don't...
11:17We're waiting.
11:35Um...
11:41Today.
11:46Today was a day when the world got smaller.
11:51Darker.
11:57I'm more afraid.
12:02Not of what I am, but of what I...
12:11Continue.
12:21I'm more afraid.
12:25Not of what I am, but of what I...
12:28What I could be.
12:31I loosen my collar to take a breath.
12:34My eyes fade.
12:37And I see...
12:42I see him.
12:46The image of perfection.
12:52His frame strong.
12:54His lips smooth.
12:58I keep thinking, what am I so scared of?
13:01I wish I could escape the pain, but these thoughts, they invade my head.
13:06Bound to my memory.
13:10Like shackles of guilt.
13:18God, please set me free.
13:21God, please set me free.
13:30What are you doing?
13:32We'll see if he's alright.
13:33We'll do nothing of the kind.
13:34Sit down.
13:35Wait, he was crying.
13:36I said, sit down.
13:39I'm sorry.
13:47Everyone, open your books, please.
13:50To page 57, stanza 2.
13:55What are you doing?
13:57Nothing.
13:59What?
14:00I'm trying to get a peek at your secret online handle.
14:05What is it?
14:06Juicy Joe?
14:07Perky Potter?
14:08Let's see where Spielberg's stud...
14:10No, let's try.
14:11No way.
14:12No, I have to.
14:13I have to.
14:14I have to.
14:15I have to.
14:16I have to.
14:17I have to.
14:18I have to.
14:19I have to.
14:20I have to.
14:21I have to.
14:22I have to.
14:23I heard from, like, half the class he's reading this poem and he is just crying.
14:33Jack McPhee, the new kid.
14:35Peterson makes him read his poem in class,
14:38and he starts crying.
14:42Here's the best part.
14:44The poem is about a guy,
14:47McPhee's a total homo.
14:50No doubt about it.
15:05Enjoy.
15:09Hi Dawson.
15:10Hey.
15:11Joey.
15:12Hey, you got a second?
15:14Sure.
15:18Have you talked to Jack yet?
15:20Oh, we haven't really talked about it yet.
15:23He's still pretty upset about it.
15:25I can imagine the boomer mills working overtime on this one.
15:30I've heard about the instinctory swarm.
15:32You've heard about it.
15:33I've heard everything from Jack is seen regularly wearing dresses down Main Street
15:37to he's checked into a monastery to deal with his sexual ambivalence.
15:41You're being pretty flip about this.
15:44Why not, Dawson?
15:45I mean, it's all a big joke.
15:48Is it?
15:51What are you insinuating?
15:53I'm not insinuating anything.
15:55I'm just concerned about you.
15:58What are you trying to do, Dawson?
16:00Give validity to some ridiculous rumor that Jack's gay?
16:04No, Joey, I never said that.
16:05You pretty much did.
16:07Joey, all I'm trying to do is find out what's going on, okay?
16:09And I would hope that you know me well enough to know that my concern is genuine, okay?
16:13There's no need to be so defensive about this.
16:15I'm not being defensive, Dawson.
16:17Why don't we just say what this conversation is really about?
16:20Your passive-aggressive way of highlighting some flaw in Jack that would get us to break up?
16:25It's queer with a line.
16:27No, it's not.
16:28From where I'm standing, I think it's perfectly in balance.
16:37So in 1936, the Stalin Constitution was adopted.
16:41Communists everywhere boasted that the Soviet Union was now the most democratic country in the world.
16:46I'm gonna go down to the Ice House and help them close up.
16:49I'll see you later.
16:52Later, Doc.
16:58You were a bit frosty.
17:02Pardon?
17:04It's Jack. The guy's had a hard day, and you've hardly said two words to him all afternoon.
17:11Well, I don't understand why he had to write that poem to begin with.
17:14I mean, he hadn't written something that could have been so easily misinterpreted that—
17:18What, did he censor it himself?
17:21Don't twist my words.
17:23Okay, look, I know Jack better than you do, Pacey.
17:26And ever since we were kids, he's had this whole different drummer thing going on.
17:31And not everybody gets it.
17:33And he should have known better than to expose himself to someone as venomous as Peterson, that's all.
17:38Andy, I may be wrong here, but I don't think guest-starring his own public humiliation was Jack's intention.
17:43There's something deeper going on there.
17:46Like?
17:48Like, maybe you should talk to him.
17:52About what?
17:55Well, for starters, about the poem.
17:57Maybe it wasn't misinterpreted.
18:01I'm—no.
18:03No. Jack is not gay.
18:05He's talked about girls his entire life.
18:08He's crazy about Joey.
18:10He hates Madonna. He's not gay.
18:12Have you ever asked him?
18:14No.
18:16And I don't need to.
18:20Okay, well, hypothetically speaking, if Jack were gay,
18:25how would that make you feel?
18:30I guess I'd be disappointed.
18:33Disappointed?
18:35Jeez, Andy.
18:38You asked me how I'd feel.
18:43I don't need this, okay?
18:44I don't need to be attacked over some hypothetical feeling about a hypothetical situation
18:50that is completely and totally unfathomable.
18:54Well, for his sake, I hope you're right.
19:03Hello?
19:05What if I didn't ask you out on a date, per se?
19:08Then you wouldn't have to worry about our inevitable breakup due to ideological difficulties,
19:13and you could still go out with me.
19:15Non-Bible related, though, I promise.
19:18Sorry, Ty.
19:20Aw, Jen, have a little faith in me.
19:22Maybe underneath this Sunday School veneer lies a partying maniac.
19:26I doubt it. I'm hanging up.
19:38I told you I was persistent.
19:40You know, persistent isn't exactly the word that comes to mind right now.
19:44Come on, Jen, I'll pick you up at 9.
19:46No!
19:55945. Going once, going twice.
19:58You really are persistent.
20:01Come on, Jen, just a couple hours.
20:05Be here at 10.
20:10Hey, Joe!
20:11Did you get the cleaning supplies for the kitchen?
20:13In my ear.
20:14Great.
20:15Uh, here, I can take that back.
20:21He has been quiet as a church mouse all night.
20:24What happened?
20:25You don't even want to know.
20:27Poor guy, he looks like he lost his best friend.
20:29Go talk to him.
20:30Yeah, but he doesn't want to.
20:32I mean, how do you talk to somebody about something
20:34that they've made perfectly clear they don't want to talk about?
20:37Well, I always start with, long day, huh?
20:41That opens a conversation up.
20:43Well, I'm all through here.
20:45If you could lock up, that'd be great.
20:47See ya.
20:48Okay.
21:03Long day, huh?
21:06You want to ask me something, I suggest you just ask it.
21:10Look, I'm sorry, but this is...
21:13You know, people are already saying things.
21:17Since when do you care what people are saying?
21:20It's not like you.
21:26Maybe it's because you still haven't offered me
21:28any kind of explanation for what you wrote.
21:33I don't have to.
21:37You're right, you don't.
21:40It's just that, you know, being the one that you are dating,
21:45it'd be nice to know if there was a particular reason
21:48why you did write a poem about a guy.
21:51I mean, a poem that obviously has some degree of importance
21:55in your life, considering it did make you cry
21:58in front of a room full of people.
22:03All right, look, um...
22:06I sat down last night before I went to bed,
22:10and for half an hour, I remember what I was feeling.
22:13And one of the images that came into my head, it was masculine.
22:16Nothing sexual about it.
22:18Okay, it could have been me,
22:20it could have been the image of my brother.
22:23I don't know, Joey, but I do know
22:26that there was nothing gay about that poem.
22:35And as for the crying...
22:39I don't know, it hit a weird nerve when I started reading it.
22:44It just unleashed some of the stuff
22:46that I'd been dealing with with my family,
22:49my brother's death.
22:51It's the only explanation that I have,
22:53and if it's not good enough for you,
22:55then you can just believe what everybody else is saying.
23:00Look, Jack...
23:05I don't believe them.
23:09I hope not.
23:14I adore you, Joey.
23:17And I assure you, if I was to ever write a poem about you,
23:20it would be about you...
23:23and nobody else.
23:34I think you're really going to like this place.
23:36If I'd known I was going to go to a pub,
23:38I wouldn't have brought my fake ID.
23:40Jerry, good evening.
23:42So are you singing tonight?
23:44Yeah, I'm up next in your class.
23:46Yeah, um...
23:48Yeah, um...
23:50Something romantic.
23:52And two martinis?
23:54You got it, Ty.
23:55Thanks.
23:56See you.
23:59Hey, Dino, baby.
24:01Isn't this a little bit against the rules?
24:04Whose rules?
24:07Drinking, the whole swinger lifestyle...
24:11I mean, it's not exactly Sunday school, but...
24:14Sure.
24:16Right now, we're not in Sunday school.
24:46When you met me
24:51It was just one of those things
25:01But don't ever bet me...
25:03I knew that idea.
25:05Tonight, on a very special episode of Capeside High...
25:08Jack, can you believe this? It's ridiculous.
25:11Why? Why would they do this?
25:14Mr. McPhee?
25:16Yes?
25:18Would you care to continue reading your now very public work of poetry?
25:26You can't be serious.
25:28I am.
25:30You left us high and dry.
25:33If you want to complete a grade,
25:36then you have to complete reading the poem.
25:40It's that simple.
25:44Why are you doing this to me?
25:46Because he can.
25:50Mr. Whitter, I recommend you sit down.
25:54No.
25:55I said, sit down!
25:57You want somebody to read the poem, I'll read it.
26:00Today.
26:02Today was a day.
26:04The world got smaller, darker. I grew more afraid.
26:08Not of what I am, but of what I could be.
26:10I said, stop!
26:13You will listen to me when I talk to you, young man.
26:17Why should I?
26:18Now that's it.
26:20I am writing you a pass.
26:24You can report immediately to Principal Markham's office.
26:28What part of you is it that gets off on torturing your students?
26:31Everybody else in this classroom may be afraid of you, but I'm not.
26:34I see your miserable scare tactics for exactly what they are.
26:38The misguided lashings of a bitter, lonely old man
26:42who only feels good when somebody else in the class feels worse.
26:45Thank you for the analysis, Mr. Whitter.
26:47I'll send a check along with the F you'll get on your report card.
26:51You can't fail me.
26:52I've gotten a B or better on every test in this class.
26:55Well, I can't. I've been waiting to fail you all quarter.
26:59You disgust me.
27:01And you, Mr. Whitter, are a failure.
27:04Destined to always be a failure.
27:07Trying to teach people like you
27:10is like spitting in the face of the entire educational system.
27:14No, sir.
27:15That is spitting in the face of the entire educational system.
27:34I want to apologize.
27:49Yes, you will, Pacey.
27:52No, I won't.
27:54What did I tell you? The trial is an insubordinate little waste.
27:58Hey, you're hardly innocent here.
28:00How much does that mean?
28:01You made a student cry.
28:04Another student had an excessive reaction.
28:06You call a student spitting in a teacher's face excessive?
28:11That's the understatement of the year.
28:13I suggest we reconvene tomorrow, Mr. Whitter.
28:18Hopefully by that time you will have been capable of conjuring up an apology.
28:23If not, I will have no choice but to put you on suspension.
28:34Hey, Jack.
28:37Listen, man, you didn't have to come down here.
28:39I mean, I appreciate it, but...
28:41I didn't.
28:42Myla wants to talk to me.
28:44You know, imagine what about.
28:46Yeah, they wanted me to apologize in there.
28:49Told them to go screw themselves.
28:52That was stupid.
28:54Who sent you on here, anyway?
28:56My own.
28:57All right, I can handle my own battles.
28:59You know, I didn't need you to make a spectacle of this.
29:01Whoa, stop right there, Jack.
29:03I thought I was helping you out.
29:04Yeah, well, you weren't.
29:05I didn't need a hero.
29:07I recognize it's an addiction of yours,
29:09but this is one instance where you should have just kept your nose out of it.
29:18Well, we weren't selling roses.
29:20Cupcake?
29:24So, full report.
29:26Tell me, was I not fun last night?
29:29What's so funny?
29:31You, this.
29:33What?
29:34Alternate identities.
29:36Ah, you mean student by day, rat packer by night.
29:40Some people would call it the height of hypocrisy.
29:43Well, that's not hypocritical at all.
29:46To me, it's, uh...
29:48It's something to go to church about on Sunday.
29:52Listen, my religion doesn't assume
29:56Listen, my religion doesn't assume
29:59that I'm a perfect individual, Jim.
30:01In fact, it expects that I'm not.
30:04I see, so it's a party now, confess later sort of thing.
30:12You want to do it again?
30:16Come on, your Grams likes me.
30:18My Grams likes what she knows about you.
30:21Which apparently isn't all that much.
30:24And you plan on keeping it that way?
30:29Keep on.
30:36So, what are you going to do?
30:38What do you mean?
30:40Well, about Peterson, you're going to apologize, right?
30:43No, I'm going to take the suspension.
30:45What? Why would you do that?
30:47Because after what that man did,
30:49I'm not going to apologize to him, he doesn't deserve it.
30:52No, it doesn't matter what he did, A.C.
30:55You spit in his face.
30:57I was there, thank you.
30:59Austin.
31:03You too, huh?
31:05A.C., this is serious.
31:07You think I don't know that?
31:09All we're saying is make sure you're aware of the consequences.
31:12I am aware of the consequences, all right?
31:14These are pamphlets Milo coincidentally happened to have on his desk.
31:17You ever feel like you're trapped in one of those Lifetime movies?
31:20Am I being okay with your sexuality?
31:22Am I geek?
31:24Sounds like one bad game show.
31:26What about your great point?
31:28You still care about that, don't you?
31:30It's not going to survive a suspension, A.C.
31:33It'll destroy all the hard work you've done,
31:35and you'll be right back at square one.
31:37An academic loser.
31:39That's not what I said.
31:41But it's what you felt.
31:43Andy, everything that I've worked for,
31:45who you have helped me to become,
31:47is somebody who believes in himself and in his instincts.
31:49And every single one of my instincts tells me
31:52that what that man did in that classroom is wrong.
31:55It's just wrong.
32:02Oh, my God.
32:08I'm going to need your help with this, Julie.
32:10I mean, I have a feeling it's going to get a lot worse before it gets better.
32:15Here.
32:17Thanks.
32:44Oh, my God.
33:15Oh, my God.
33:21It's all right.
33:23It's just...
33:45I love you.
33:54God.
33:56Thanks for cleaning up.
34:00Dialogue.
34:02That would mean you talking to me again, correct?
34:06Oh, I've been really unfair the past few days.
34:10Yeah, well, it's okay.
34:12I need to come around.
34:15Do you have to be so immensely forgiving?
34:18I mean, don't you have an ounce of meanness anywhere in your body?
34:21At the very least, it would make for our siblings' baubles more interesting.
34:26Well, I don't need them to be more interesting.
34:28I want them as they are.
34:35It's just, um...
34:37It's been really hard.
34:40For both of us.
34:43Yeah, but you're better suited for this sort of thing.
34:47No one's suited for public ridicule, Annie.
34:49You just deal with it.
34:52I don't.
34:55When I first heard what happened to you in class,
34:59my, um, initial reaction...
35:05was resentment.
35:08Of all the possibilities, you know, I didn't even feel sorry for you.
35:12I just... I thought, oh, great, thanks, you know?
35:16Just when things seemed to be slowing down in my life,
35:19and now I have to deal with this.
35:23And as much as I love you, Jack, it's just...
35:26everything that has happened to us in our lives just made me so afraid.
35:31And I just didn't think that anybody could understand that,
35:34especially you. I mean, you're so strong and independent.
35:37And then... and then...
35:40I read this.
35:43It's, um, your poem.
35:46I kept one of the ones that I tore down.
35:51It's a really beautiful poem, Jack.
35:57And I don't know if it means that you're gay or not,
36:00and you know what? I really don't care.
36:04But I'll tell you what I do know.
36:08The person who wrote this poem...
36:12he's just as scared as I am.
36:19Jack, you're terrified, and I'm your sister, and I had no idea.
36:24And I just want you to know that...
36:28I'm here for you.
36:31And that I love you.
36:33I love you.
36:48I love you.
37:04All I have to give
37:08I give it to you freely
37:12I...
37:14I don't care if you're sleepless
37:19When I get there, I will lay beside you
37:26I will lay beside you
37:30Yeah?
37:31Sorry, I didn't mean to surprise you.
37:33It's just been a highly irregular few days,
37:35and climbing this ladder is the surest form of normalcy that I know.
37:40And I also, um, I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday.
37:45It's okay. I understand.
37:48Wow. This is amazing. This is the whole town.
37:52It's incredible, isn't it, Jack? Built it just for the film.
37:57Okay, um...
38:02Listen, I need your advice, and I know because of the situation
38:05it may be hard for you to dispense it, but...
38:09I really need it.
38:11Anything.
38:13Talk to me.
38:17Okay, well, um...
38:20I'm thinking that maybe...
38:23Maybe you were right about, um...
38:28Jack and the poem.
38:31That he meant to write it.
38:33Well, he says he didn't, and...
38:35You know, he has a thousand reasonable excuses that all make sense.
38:39It's just...
38:42They don't make sense.
38:46I just keep wishing that I had done what you had told me,
38:49if I just would have asked him if...
38:53He was gay. Um...
38:56Then why don't you?
38:58If I do that, then he'll know that I've considered it.
39:01And if he knows that I've considered it,
39:03then it'll always be there that I've considered it, and...
39:08It's the elephant in the room syndrome.
39:11The obvious but unspoken topic.
39:13The thing that's always lurking but never brought up.
39:19Of course, in your case, it's a gay elephant.
39:23You know, this isn't funny.
39:25I'm sorry. I had to say that.
39:29We have to ask him.
39:33Yeah, I mean...
39:38If there's one thing I've learned about relationships in the past year,
39:41it's that they begin and end with honesty.
39:43And if you want to save what you have with Jack,
39:45and I believe that it's worth saving,
39:49you've got to be honest.
39:53You know?
39:58So...
40:01So go.
40:04I want an elephant.
40:10All right.
40:13Thanks.
40:29Sure.
40:51Can I help you?
40:54All right.
40:59Look at that guy.
41:01Tell me that it's not somebody who has an elephant.
41:04If he didn't before, he sure does now.
41:10You know, maybe I should just do it.
41:13Just apologize.
41:17You don't think what I did is right, do you?
41:21I can't judge. I wasn't there.
41:23But would you have done it yourself?
41:29No.
41:36And if I go in there and I can't apologize?
41:42Would you be ashamed of me?
41:45In my lifetime, Basie, I will never be ashamed of you.
41:52Basie.
41:54We're ready for you.
42:15Mr. Whitter, I trust you have had ample time
42:19to put into proper perspective the events of yesterday morning?
42:24I have, yeah.
42:26Well, then the ball's in your court.
42:28We're all ears.
42:30I should start by saying that I'm more ashamed
42:33of what I did in that classroom yesterday
42:36than of anything I've ever done in my entire life.
42:39It was flat wrong, and I have no case here.
42:42I'm sorry for the event.
42:45I am not now, nor will I ever be apologetic for its intention.
42:51Every day, we, the students of Capeside,
42:54come to a place where you guys are in charge.
42:56You tell us when to arrive and when to leave
42:58and when to move rooms and when to eat.
43:00You tell us when we're doing well and when we need to be doing better,
43:03and we never, ever question it, because we're afraid to.
43:06Because to question it is to go against the belief
43:09that the entire system is built upon,
43:11so that you guys know what's right.
43:14And I am not afraid to tell you
43:16that what happened in that classroom yesterday was not right.
43:19To make a student cry, to embarrass him,
43:22to strip him of his dignity in front of his classmates is not right.
43:25And while I respect this system,
43:27I do not respect men like you, Mr. Peterson. I don't.
43:30I can't, and I never will.
43:32Not after what you did.
43:34You have a good afternoon.
44:04I see a sign of life
44:09Shine
44:13How'd it go?
44:15Shine
44:19As well as could be imagined.
44:25They're suspending me for a week.
44:28Why'd you bother coming down here?
44:32Because I care about you.
44:36Do you?
44:37What kind of question is that?
44:40It's a reasonable one, Andy.
44:44Hey, do you have any idea what I went through today?
44:47How much I needed your support?
44:52You see, I can't support everything you do. I never will.
44:56I don't want you to agree with every decision I ever make.
44:58The world would be a boring place if you did.
45:00But what I am asking for is to know that someway, somehow, you're there for me.
45:08How dare you?
45:11I challenge one action of yours, and you throw it in my face like it's some sort of weakness?
45:16It's not just me. You weren't there for your brother Jack, either.
45:19Oh, yes, I was.
45:21I apologized to him, and I came to apologize to you, too.
45:24But for some reason, I was struggling with it all the way down here.
45:29That reason has suddenly become crystal clear.
45:32Jack is innocent, Pacey.
45:35What's happening to him right now, he has no control over.
45:38But you, you knew what you were doing in that classroom.
45:42What would you have me do? Just stand there and let Peterson do that to him when I knew the whole time...
45:46There are other ways of handling that situation.
45:48...that it was my fault, Andy. It was my fault.
45:53Peterson knew that he couldn't get the best of me, so he went after your brother.
45:59If I hadn't instigated him that day, none of this would have ever happened.
46:09That's why I had to stop it. However I could, I had to stop it.
46:15Why didn't you tell me that you felt responsible?
46:21Because, Andy, you didn't want to hear about it.
46:29You just wanted me to clean up the mess.
46:34And there are some messes you just have to live with.
46:42I'm gonna go home now.
46:52Do you want me to come with you?
46:59Talk to me.
47:19Hey, Jack.
47:21Hey, where have you been? I've been covering both shifts.
47:25Are you gay?
47:28Excuse me?
47:32Are you gay?
47:34I mean, you don't have to answer right away. I just had to ask right away because it's been building up in me.
47:39And there's just no easy way for a girl to ask her boyfriend if he's gay than to just ask him.
47:43And I know that you already told me that the poem wasn't about a guy, but I just...
47:46I feel like when we discussed it, we never really discussed it.
47:49And I never really asked the one important question that you can feel free to answer at any minute.
47:53No. No.
47:56I'm not gay.
48:02Okay.
48:05I don't know what a relief that is.
48:08I mean, not that I care. I would have dealt with it by then, I promise.
48:12It's just, you know, who wants to deal with all the obvious and not-so-obvious issues of a girl who's dating a guy who turns out to be gay?
48:19And it's just so hard.
48:21Hey.
48:23Hey.
48:48So, what happened now?
48:51You don't even know.
49:02Would you do me a favor?
49:04And what?
49:09Any more poems?
49:13Just for a little while.
49:16You got to.
49:21No more poems.
49:23I'm lonely on the inside.
49:29Didn't mean to take away your dreams.
49:37I'm lonely, lonely on the inside.
49:43When you close your eyes.
49:47If your deepest thoughts can't see me.
49:52Good.
49:55Yeah.
50:04I see you.
50:06Yes.
50:22I see you.
50:52I see you.