Forbidden Love S01E07 (2024)
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00:00Previously on Forbidden Love...
00:02Look.
00:03Ha-ha.
00:04Ha-ha.
00:05In Islam, we eat with our hands.
00:07Right hand for school, left hand for the Pope.
00:10I'm very afraid, Rose, you're going to be like one of your family.
00:14I feel like you're being kind of dumb right now.
00:16The way you speak to me is respectful.
00:19Obey, respect, trust.
00:21That's why I knew you to be a Muslim.
00:23The more that Muhammad tells me to obey and respect him,
00:26the less I feel like converting.
00:28So you think I can't be a good wife unless I am a Muslim?
00:31Yes.
00:34So when does this all happen as far as Laurie converting?
00:38We're just waiting for Rabbi to schedule the last test.
00:42My family has expressed their reservations about me converting to Orthodox Judaism.
00:48So you're totally cool with this whole thing?
00:50I'm not saying I agree with it.
00:52There's a lot of rules.
00:54Some of them are pretty drastic.
00:58I want you to be Muslim.
01:01Amen.
01:04My father, he was a Pentecostal pastor for 45 years.
01:07Somebody help me say Lord!
01:09Lord!
01:10So converting over to Islam could hurt my family and potentially push them away.
01:15Let's pump the brakes a little bit.
01:18My biggest fear is I'm going to be stuck raising this kid all alone.
01:23How do you know that I'm not going to be there for her kids?
01:25Because you can't take care of yourself.
01:27He is forgetting everything about manners and hygiene and just picking up after himself.
01:33If he's not ready to do this, then how are we going to bring this baby into the world?
01:37I need a man to raise a baby with.
01:40I'm done.
01:41Me too.
01:58Hello.
01:59Good morning.
02:00I'm looking for kosher for Passover stuff.
02:05We have everything for Passover.
02:10If you need help, I will help you.
02:15Today, I'm shopping at a kosher market because me and Eli are getting ready to go to the market.
02:22Today, I'm shopping at a kosher market because me and Eli are getting ready to host our first Seder,
02:29which is a traditional meal on the first two nights of Passover.
02:35Is this kosher for Passover?
02:36Oh no, I'm getting out of the wrong area.
02:40On Passover, you can't eat just regular kosher stuff.
02:44It has to be kosher for Pesach.
02:47So you can't eat yeast or any leavening agents.
02:51And things like barley, wheat, barley.
02:54I said that.
02:55Barley, wheat.
02:58Barley and wheat.
02:59You can't have any of that.
03:03Morning.
03:07Everything good?
03:08I've been here.
03:09How's your brother?
03:10Brother, is everybody good?
03:11Everybody's doing fine.
03:12Oh, you know Simon?
03:13Me and him are good friends now.
03:14Oh yeah?
03:15Thank you for helping her out.
03:16I told her she could have some date and walnut for the haroset.
03:20Yeah, yeah, yeah.
03:21My mom has a good recipe.
03:24Traditional Jewish food is great,
03:26but there's a lot of non-kosher food that I miss,
03:30like lobster, fried clams, shrimp.
03:37I'm from New England, so you grow up literally eating from the sea.
03:43We'll never agree on this,
03:44because I didn't grow up eating bottom feeders from the ocean.
03:51182.63.
03:56How are you?
03:57Who's that?
03:58Oh!
03:59Rabbi Bloch.
04:00All right, answer, answer, answer.
04:03Rabbi, how are you?
04:07It's been about six months that I've been taking conversion classes,
04:11and I've been eagerly waiting for Rabbi Bloch to let me know if I can take the conversion test.
04:17I have no idea why Rabbi Bloch is calling me.
04:20He could be calling me to take the test next week,
04:23but also he can say, I'm not ready, and you're never going to make it as a Jew.
04:28Just, like, give up.
04:29So, I don't know what's going to happen.
04:34I was wondering, like, the test soon, or what?
04:41She'll phone Rabbi Bloch.
04:43Oh.
04:44Yeah.
04:46Yeah.
04:48All right.
04:49Bye-bye.
04:52What's going on?
04:53Um...
04:54What'd he say?
04:57We're going to have the test soon.
04:59He said it's happening.
05:00Mazel tov!
05:01Mazel tov!
05:02It's happening!
05:03Mazel tov! Mazel tov!
05:04Shema tov! Shema tov!
05:06Mazel tov! Mazel tov!
05:09Lari's test is happening soon for a conversion,
05:12and it's very exciting for us.
05:15I think she's going to do great.
05:17She's really been putting in an effort.
05:22As Jews, we sing a song any time there's a birth of a child,
05:26or someone gets married, or anything good happens,
05:29you sing the Mazel Tov song.
05:39All right!
05:40Mazel tov.
05:41I'm so happy for you.
05:42Thank you, thank you.
05:43I'm very happy for you.
05:44I'm excited.
05:45This is amazing,
05:47but just because he scheduled the test doesn't mean s***.
05:50OK?
05:51It doesn't feel real until I pass it.
05:53And I haven't looked at my cue cards in I don't know how long.
05:56You know?
05:57So I need to study and study now.
06:01Because if I don't pass, I don't convert.
06:05If I don't convert, then that means that we can't get married,
06:09and me and Eli are going to be forced to break up.
06:12So I'm freaking out now.
06:14Freaking out.
06:17Bye, be good.
06:18Bye.
06:30Oh, here's Chris.
06:32Yay!
06:36What's up?
06:37How you doing?
06:38Pretty good.
06:39I'm about to be heading out.
06:43All right.
06:44I'm about to move to Michigan to be with Linza,
06:47and I gotta say goodbye to my parents,
06:50but also I have to tell my parents something they don't want to hear.
06:58We hate to see you leave.
07:01We hate to see you leave.
07:05After that conversation with Linza about converting,
07:09I've thought long and hard about what I'm going to do.
07:14And honestly, this is the woman that I want to marry.
07:20So I'm thinking about converting over to Islam.
07:25I was going to talk to y'all about something.
07:31Okay.
07:32Okay.
07:36I think that, you know, I'm thinking about converting, you know, to Islam.
07:47Oh.
07:49Oh.
07:56Thought of a hard pill to swallow.
08:05That's hurt.
08:07It really do.
08:16It's hurt.
08:19It don't make me feel good.
08:25It's just like a slap in the face,
08:28because we taught you about the Bible and about Jesus.
08:34It's hurt.
08:36I just think that, you know, everybody's going to have their beliefs,
08:40and you can't condemn or criticize someone for what they believe in.
08:45No, I'm not criticizing you.
08:46You just can't do that.
08:47But I'm talking about something you don't let nobody change about you.
08:54Linza did not change you.
08:56You were brought up in holiness, true holiness.
09:00Going to church on Sunday all day, on Tuesday, on Wednesday, and Friday.
09:06You should be so strong in this that can't nothing move you.
09:11You can't tell me now I'm going to change to a Muslim.
09:15I'm a Muslim, not God.
09:21It makes me kind of sad because he's changing his life,
09:25and his religion is disappointing because, you know, we know how we raised him.
09:33When a dad thinks about his son leaving a really good foundation,
09:38that bothers him.
09:40It bothers me.
09:42It...
09:44I'm sorry.
09:51It hurt.
09:53It hurt.
09:57It's like your way is the right way and everyone is wrong,
10:00and I grew up, you know, thinking that until, you know, I opened my eyes
10:04and got to really do my own research and come to my own feelings.
10:07Let me tell you something.
10:09God is not going to go against Jesus Christ.
10:11He's not going to go against Jesus Christ.
10:13That is not going to happen.
10:16Jesus is one of the most respected prophets in Islam, but he's not God.
10:20He's Christ.
10:21No, he's not God.
10:22He's God's son.
10:24But if you don't accept his son, you don't accept God.
10:28But since Jesus died for our sins, you know, there is no way we can go to hell.
10:33So...
10:34Christ.
10:35Then why would hell exist?
10:36You know why?
10:37Because you got a lot of people just like you.
10:41Nobody's going to go into God's kingdom until they come through Jesus Christ.
10:48Wow.
10:49That hurts to hear that.
10:50Like, this is your son you're talking to.
10:54And I understand that, you know, my father's hurt,
10:57but the decision to convert is not an indictment on him or his preachings,
11:04because I admire the man that he is.
11:07Honestly, this is more about falling in love with somebody
11:10who's opened my heart to a new religion and a new way of life.
11:16I understand y'all position with this is and how y'all feel about it,
11:21but I think that, you know, Linda is a special woman,
11:24and this is just something I'm going to do,
11:27because anything in life that's worth achieving is going to take some amount of risk.
11:34Have you spoke to her parents since y'all been dating?
11:37No.
11:38I mean, not one time.
11:39No.
11:40And y'all been dating, what, for how long?
11:43Nine months now.
11:46Jesus.
11:48Don't you think that's a little out of order?
11:57The culture that she comes from, there isn't such a thing as a boyfriend.
12:02So, when the time is right, of course, I mean, she wants me to meet her parents.
12:07You know, she wants me to be a part of her family.
12:09No, you don't.
12:10But it has to be the right way.
12:11No, you don't.
12:12If she didn't want me to be a part of her family, she wouldn't be with me.
12:14No, you don't.
12:15The handwriting on the wall, out of nine months of dating,
12:19and have not told your parents, something wrong with that picture.
12:25You feeling like when they do find out about me, they're going to reject it?
12:28Yeah.
12:30This is something you're going to have to prove me wrong on.
12:41It'll be okay.
12:42If things was a little bit different, he'd have met her parents,
12:45the parents would have accepted him as their son-in-law or something.
12:50That haven't happened.
12:52And I feel that Atlanta has to choose between her parents and Chris.
12:57Chris, she's going to choose her parents.
13:06This is a hadith.
13:10Wife must obey her husband.
13:13Muhammad wants me to just like jump in and commit and convert.
13:16But for me, I still have a lot of concerns.
13:19You are not translating it right.
13:21He's not your servant.
13:27Hey.
13:28Hey.
13:29Welcome.
13:30This day has finally come, and it's supposed to be joyful.
13:35Unfortunately, I'm an emotional wreck.
13:39So, I finally talked to my parents, and my father was like,
13:44that's not happening.
13:45After everything that I put into this relationship,
13:49the thought that all of this could be for nothing,
13:52I'm just feeling numb.
13:58āŖāŖāŖ
14:07āŖāŖāŖ
14:17Oh my gosh, my scarf is falling off.
14:21So, things have been a little bit tense between Muhammad and I at home
14:24since our fight in the park.
14:26The main issue that we're having is about my commitment to becoming Muslim.
14:30Muhammad wants me to just like jump in and commit and convert.
14:33But for me, I still have a lot of questions and concerns,
14:36like do I have to wear hijab every time I go outside?
14:39Or, as a Muslim wife, do I always have to obey my husband?
14:44So, today we're at the mosque to meet with a Muslim couple
14:47who are community leaders, and hopefully I can get some clarity.
14:52āŖāŖāŖ
14:55Before you enter the mosque,
14:57you got to do things to get ready to pray, which is wudu.
15:01You wash your hands, you wash your mouth, your nose, your face,
15:05your arms, and your head and your legs.
15:07It's basically like, you know, to be clean and ready like to pray.
15:12That's why we make wudu.
15:16Are you going to make wudu?
15:18Normally, this would be the time I make wudu,
15:20but a woman can't make wudu and pray on her cycle.
15:23So, today I'm not.
15:25Islam has a lot of rules in regards to prayers.
15:29And it's forbidden for women to pray when they're on their period
15:33because the menstrual cycle is viewed as being impure.
15:37And there's a really big importance in Islam
15:39placed on being clean and being pure.
15:43So, how's life?
15:51I came from a different culture.
15:52She came from a different culture.
15:53Religion is different.
15:55Mindset is different.
15:56Yeah.
15:57He grew up in a very conservative culture, so...
16:00We fight about that.
16:01Sometimes she's, like, stubborn.
16:03That is not true.
16:07But I do sometimes I feel struggle with, like, modesty and hijab
16:10because I, you know, I didn't grow up with that.
16:13Like, is this, for example, the expectation
16:16no matter what you're doing?
16:18Exactly.
16:20So, objective is not to show your body, not to entice.
16:27Your beauty is for your husband.
16:30These are not from him.
16:32These are from Allah.
16:34You have to listen to your husband.
16:38That is sometimes where we really struggle.
16:41He loves to throw around the word obey.
16:46Obey means, like, you listen to your husband.
16:50If I told you, like...
16:51Yeah, he says that I don't obey him.
16:55Yes, you don't.
17:00One more example, if I told her,
17:03do not go outside at night.
17:05Let's say at night time.
17:07Or do not go out in general.
17:10There's a reason for that?
17:13The reason is, like, I want to stay in the house.
17:15The reason is hadith.
17:18It says, like,
17:21meaning wife must obey her husband.
17:28Well, you are not translating it right.
17:34In English, obey is for servant or slave.
17:41Oh, English.
17:42So, it's not exact translation.
17:44She's not your servant.
17:49Okay?
17:50Not slave, not servant.
17:52She's your like partner.
17:55In every language, you know,
17:57it's a different meanings of the words.
17:59In this country, obey is like
18:01you're telling your dog to obey you, you know?
18:04You cannot say that to your wife.
18:07Listen is the right word to use.
18:09She just need to listen to him.
18:12It's just a misunderstanding they both had.
18:16Allah says, you are in charge.
18:19You should listen to me
18:22because I'm responsible for you.
18:25Does that make sense?
18:26Yeah.
18:27I feel like it's more of like guiding
18:30instead of demanding.
18:32Yeah.
18:35Sheikh Noman, he's with me, 100%.
18:37But he don't want to hurt her feeling.
18:39He's not with you or with me.
18:41He's with me by the sense like obey and the Quran.
18:44I just think that this lesson went right over your head.
18:47I don't think you learned anything.
18:48Well, listen.
18:49We use the word obey for like a slave or a dog.
18:52I don't think there should ever be a situation
18:54where you're like, listen to me.
18:56Do what I say.
18:57You never listen to me.
18:59After all that obey, listen,
19:02you actually never listen to me.
19:05You put the efforts in this relationship.
19:08You solve your problems.
19:10I mean, that's what Islam says.
19:13I'm really glad that we did come here today.
19:15I definitely learned a lot
19:17and I do feel like some of my concerns were addressed.
19:19But converting to Islam is still a huge decision for me.
19:23I don't want to just half commit.
19:25I need to know that I'm fully ready
19:27and I just don't know if I'm there yet.
19:29But I also know that if I don't convert,
19:31my marriage won't last much longer.
19:33If you want to stay in the marriage, you love him.
19:37You will say, this is my choice.
19:39I made this choice and I'm going to stick with it.
19:49This is a new chapter.
19:51Like, we're going to start a new chapter.
19:53I'm not going to cry.
19:54It's our gender reveal party tonight
19:56and things can be a little touch and go with Elmer.
19:59We're going to find out if it's heels or heels.
20:03Hopefully he can stay consistent and on the right track
20:07because our marriage depends on it.
20:095, 4, 3, 2, 1.
20:28Higher.
20:29Who would have thought I'd be so picky about a trash can?
20:31Everything will be all right.
20:34Everything will be all right.
20:39Who's here now?
20:41Hello, Daddy.
20:43New Daddy.
20:44How you doing, Caitlin?
20:45I'm good. How are you?
20:46Haven't seen you in a while.
20:47Yeah.
20:49So we're getting ready for our gender reveal party tonight
20:52and the theme is wheels or heels.
20:54So wheels if it's a boy and heels if it's a girl
20:57and we're just excited.
20:58I can't wait to find out what we're having.
21:00All right, come on in.
21:02Things have been going a little bit better with Elmer and I
21:05since I confronted him.
21:06He's been picking up after himself, thank God.
21:09He's been brushing his own teeth without me having to remind him.
21:12I think the porn blockers are helping him
21:14and he's even helping me set up the gender reveal party.
21:17So is it perfect yet? No.
21:19But it's a work in progress
21:22and I'm glad to see that it's improving a little bit
21:26because our marriage depends on it.
21:29What do you have a hospital bag for?
21:31Some Amish dolls that Wilma made.
21:34Oh my gosh.
21:35Are they faceless?
21:37Yep.
21:38It's kind of creepy looking, not going to lie.
21:39Oh, yeah?
21:40Like, look at that.
21:43These dolls are scary.
21:46Like, I'm going to have nightmares.
21:48It's what I grew up with, come on.
21:50I don't know, if Wilma didn't give them to me,
21:52I would have thrown them outside and burnt them.
21:54Get them far away.
21:56I'm going to put lashes on it, you know, make it look a little bit...
21:59You know why they don't have faces?
22:01It's vain.
22:02You know, you're basically representing a person.
22:04They think it's vanity, it's the devil.
22:07That is so weird.
22:09It's not like it's one of those slutty dolls
22:10that have all, like, the hooker clothes and makeup on.
22:16Did they have gender reveals in the Amish?
22:18No.
22:19You didn't know what it was until it came crawling out.
22:22Crawling out?
22:23Crawling out?
22:24Dude, something comes crawling out of me.
22:26Gender reveal parties are weird.
22:28Where I come from, once that thing comes out of the vagina,
22:30you know, it's like when a horse gives birth.
22:33You pick up the tail and see what it is.
22:35It's a boy or a girl.
22:55I'm more nervous for this than our wedding.
22:57At least I could do a couple of shots before that.
22:59Yeah, I'm not nervous.
23:00So we rented out a brewery to do our gender reveal party.
23:03I am wearing pink because I know it's a girl.
23:06Somebody to go shopping with,
23:08and I can just teach her all the tomboyish, girly things that I like to do.
23:12A little mini-me.
23:17Hey!
23:21I made it!
23:24Hey girl, you look so cute.
23:25You look so beautiful.
23:26I'm freezing.
23:28I'm going to go around and give everybody a hug,
23:30whether they like it or not.
23:36I'm wearing blue because I hope it's going to be a boy.
23:39Hey, Elmer.
23:41I want to teach him how to ride bulls and hunt and fish.
23:45Be a country boy.
23:47Tougher than a box of nails, bro.
23:49Amish boy.
23:51Hey, party people!
23:53Hey!
23:55Sit over here real quick.
23:57I like your shades, Grandma.
23:59You should a rock star.
24:01Are you a teen boy?
24:02No, it's something where I personally don't think it's going to be a boy
24:05because my whole family, like, there's a lot more boys than girls.
24:10Well, you're a part of this family now.
24:11There's more girls than boys, so.
24:13Yeah.
24:16Seeing Elmer not have family, I felt bad for him.
24:20I really did.
24:21We've talked about his family situation,
24:24and I don't want time talking to him.
24:25He got very emotional about it.
24:27He does miss his family, and it's hard on him,
24:30but I love Elmer like a son.
24:32He is definitely our family.
24:34We're his family.
24:36We love him.
24:38We'll cherish these years because they grow up fast.
24:41I know.
24:42So if you need advice or help, I'm there for both of you.
24:46Of course, I'm always there for Lindsey,
24:48but I want you to know I'm there for you, too.
24:51See, I appreciate that.
24:52That means a lot.
24:53Sure.
24:54We're here for you.
24:55We're all here for you.
24:57We got you.
24:59We got you.
25:01I'm grateful to have, you know, Lindsey's family and friends
25:04taking me under their wings.
25:06At least my cousin Wilma showed up.
25:08It means a lot.
25:09But it sucks that my family's not here.
25:17That made me cry.
25:19All right, everybody, can I have your attention?
25:22Lindsey and Elmer want to say a few words,
25:24and then we're going to find out if it's heels or wheels.
25:29It means a lot to us, like, the world that you all came,
25:32and, like, it's exciting.
25:34This is a new chapter.
25:35Like, we're going to start a new chapter.
25:37I'm not going to cry.
25:39But you can take it.
25:41Before I start bawling.
25:43But...
25:45We all love you guys.
25:46Aw, we love you.
25:52It just means a lot that you guys all came out here.
25:56Growing up in the Amish there, you know,
25:59we never celebrated nothing.
26:02Like, I never had a birthday cake until she made me one.
26:06I bought it.
26:07I didn't make it.
26:09I lied.
26:10But it was a struggle.
26:12I was really alone.
26:13I was really alone.
26:14And then I met her, and she made me a better person.
26:19So I appreciate that.
26:21And I really appreciate you guys coming out here tonight.
26:24Yes.
26:25It means a lot.
26:26You guys have no idea.
26:27Hopefully it's a boy.
26:28So...
26:29All right.
26:30Let's see who's right all along.
26:35All righty.
26:37Oh, my...
26:39All right, we counting.
26:40Five...
26:41Four...
26:42Three...
26:43Two...
26:44One...
26:52I knew it!
26:54I told you.
26:56You know, I was hoping for a boy.
26:58But you know what?
26:59It's a girl, and she'll have me wrapped around that thing right there.
27:02Lord help me when she's a teenager.
27:05Be two of them when they're on their period at the same time.
27:10I'll be sleeping in the dog house.
27:17I knew it!
27:19I knew it!
27:25Elmer's left his whole family and culture for us.
27:28And I know that's hard.
27:29And at times it seems like things can be a little touch and go.
27:33But I love Elmer, and hopefully he can stay consistent and on the right track.
27:38And he can be the father and husband that I need him to be.
27:43If he can do that, when our little girl comes, I think we can make it.
27:55Oh...
27:57The wig fairy?
27:58As I've been getting more dedicated to Orthodox Judaism,
28:03I figured I'm going to have to really be getting used to wearing a shea doll.
28:08Just don't tell mom about it.
28:10She's having a hard time.
28:12She even said to me, she's like, I feel like I'm losing a daughter.
28:25We have an egg. You have a hard-boiled egg.
28:27Hard-boiled egg?
28:28Hard-boiled egg.
28:30God damn it, dude.
28:32Oh, hi live.
28:38Could you start on the harosha, please?
28:41I'll take care of this and the brisket.
28:45First night of Passover, we're having everybody over for a seder at our apartment.
28:49A seder is a ritual meal that we have in commemoration of the Jews leaving Egypt.
28:57All right, everyone's coming at 6.30.
28:59We have time. We have plenty of time.
29:01Passover is eight days long.
29:03And out of all the holidays, it's probably my least favorite
29:06because you can't eat geese or anything like that.
29:09And I'm a bread guy.
29:14The briskets.
29:16It's almost done, I guess.
29:18My anxiety is through the roof right now,
29:21not because I'm just like hosting the seder,
29:23but also because Rabbi Block has finally scheduled this test
29:28and I need to like hit the books.
29:31Hi.
29:33Oh, is it Angela?
29:34Wow, so fancy.
29:36Come in.
29:37How are you?
29:39Today, I invited my sister Angie over.
29:43She's been a little apprehensive about all the changes
29:46that are going on throughout my conversion.
29:48So I'm not sure how she's going to react,
29:50but I have a little bit of a surprise to show her.
29:54Does this look right? Does it look stupid?
29:56It looks good. I'm a little thrown from the paper plates.
29:59We didn't have kosher for Pesach stuff, so.
30:01Regular plate, that's a regular kosher plate.
30:03You can't use it on Passover.
30:04You have to get different plates for Passover,
30:06but no cleanup. Just throw it out.
30:08There you go.
30:09I want to show you something real quick.
30:11OK.
30:12Come, come, come, come, come.
30:15What are you showing me?
30:17Your room?
30:18Yeah, this is my room.
30:19Yeah, I've been in here.
30:22Don't look in my closet.
30:25Oh.
30:28The wig fairy?
30:30As I had been getting really serious
30:32and more dedicated to Orthodox Judaism,
30:36I figured I'm going to have to really be getting used to
30:39wearing a shea doll.
30:41Initially, I was unsure,
30:43but now I'm kind of opening up to it.
30:46Plus, I found a wig that looks pretty much like my real hair,
30:50so it makes me a lot more comfortable to wear it.
30:53Huh!
30:58OK, well, this is not really how it looks on.
31:02I mean, I need to figure it out a little bit better.
31:06But if the wig looks just like your natural hair,
31:09what are you really hiding?
31:11Your hair. Your regular hair.
31:13Yeah, but this is still hair.
31:15It's somebody's hair.
31:17Yeah, but it's not your hair.
31:19It just doesn't make any sense to me.
31:22OK, so in some cultures,
31:25your hair is very sacred to you and to your husband,
31:30and it's kind of like a thing that you do.
31:33The wig is a little confusing.
31:35She's not supposed to show her hair
31:38to anybody that isn't her husband.
31:40I mean, I've seen her hair,
31:42and I hope I see her hair after she's married,
31:45because even though I'm not her husband, I mean, I'm her sister.
31:49Why is your hair sacred, though,
31:51as opposed to, like, anything else, like your face?
31:54Well, technically, in other cultures,
31:56they cover their entire face and they just show their eyes.
31:59Yeah, that's true.
32:01But you're halfway there.
32:04I'm definitely a little worried because as time goes by,
32:08it's revealing itself to be, like,
32:10a very strict kind of atmosphere, and I don't know.
32:15It makes me question it a little bit more than I did before.
32:20Just don't tell Mom about it if she's having a hard time,
32:24because I know she wants to be cool with all of it,
32:27but it's still really different for her.
32:29She even said to me, she's like,
32:31I feel like I'm losing a daughter a little bit.
32:34She didn't say that.
32:36She did.
32:37You're lying.
32:38She just said that she just feels like you're just
32:41kind of, like, going into, like, a whole different world
32:44that's separate from our lives,
32:46and she's like, when she has kids,
32:49am I going to be able to, like, see them?
32:53Like, are they going to come here for holidays
32:56and things like that,
32:57or is she going to be living her totally separate life?
33:01You know?
33:02And I just feel like she needs to hear from you
33:05that that's not what's going to happen.
33:08Yeah.
33:10It's really hard to hear that my mom is worried
33:14about my conversion affecting us.
33:18And it hurts my feelings,
33:19and it makes me really sad that she thinks that way,
33:22because she would never lose me, you know?
33:24And I can't believe she thinks that.
33:28She just, like, feels so disconnected.
33:33I want to have my family's full support,
33:36because then I feel like what I'm doing is right.
33:39And if I don't have their support, I feel like,
33:42but why?
33:43Am I doing something wrong?
33:52I am moving from Cincinnati to Michigan,
33:55and I'm going to do everything in my power
33:57to make this work.
34:03He in the corner on his phone
34:05writing messages to women.
34:08This is not a man who's ready to settle down.
34:10This is not a man.
34:11Get out of my mother----ing face!
34:13F----- you.
34:26It's been a real sensi.
34:28I'm about to go get my baby.
34:31Ah.
34:42Hello?
34:43How are you?
34:44I'm doing pretty good.
34:45How you feeling?
34:46Good.
34:47When's your ETA?
34:49About five hours.
34:51Can't wait to see you.
34:52You miss me?
34:53Miss you.
34:54I miss you, too.
34:55I love you.
34:56I love you, too.
34:57Okay.
34:58All right.
34:59Today is a big day.
35:01I am moving from Cincinnati to Michigan.
35:04It was a tough decision to make,
35:06because I'm leaving behind a family.
35:08But I really love Linza,
35:10and I'm going to do everything in my power
35:13to make this work.
35:18I want to get engaged.
35:20I want to get married.
35:21And Linza wants me to convert to Islam.
35:26I've been reading up a lot on the religion.
35:29That's like a big sacrifice.
35:31But I think that she's worth it,
35:33because I want to spend the rest of my life with her.
35:39Hey.
35:41Hey.
35:42Welcome.
35:43Hey.
35:46Just nine months ago,
35:48he was joking about doing these things,
35:50and now he's moving to Michigan
35:52and possibly converting to Islam.
35:55This day has finally come,
35:58and it's supposed to be joyful,
36:00but unfortunately, I'm an emotional wreck.
36:09So I finally talked to my parents
36:13about, you know, our relationship.
36:16Oh, OK.
36:18I was just like, you know, hey, Baba, hey, Uma.
36:22I have a boyfriend.
36:24We've been dating for a while now,
36:28and he's moving up here,
36:30and he would love to meet you guys.
36:33OK.
36:35You know, my mom was in the kitchen,
36:37and she was cooking, and she just, like,
36:39threw the knives down and was like, what?
36:42And then my father stepped in,
36:44and he was like, that's not happening.
36:48We're not doing this.
36:50We don't know this guy.
36:51You don't know this guy.
36:54Then they started bringing up my past.
36:56I got frustrated with them, you know,
36:58because I don't want to be with the men
37:01that they continue to select for me, you know?
37:04And then at that point, I was just like, you know what?
37:06I don't want to do this anymore.
37:07I don't want to talk about this anymore.
37:09But I am shaking in my boots.
37:11I'm not even going to lie,
37:13because I've never put my foot down with them ever in life.
37:20I finally talked to my parents about Chris
37:22because he moved here,
37:24and he's willing to convert to Islam.
37:26But they didn't want to hear what I have to say.
37:29They didn't want to hear about my feelings about the matter.
37:32They didn't want to hear about Chris.
37:34I don't want to decide who I'm in a relationship with
37:36because that's their culture, and that's how they do things.
37:40Muslim women deal with this all the time.
37:43There's a hierarchy, and, you know,
37:45you have God, and then it's your parents.
37:47And they will cut you off.
37:50Like, they will cut you off emotionally, financially.
37:53There will be no support.
37:56Do you think it would help if I, like, went to go talk to him?
38:00Like, if I introduced myself?
38:02Not right now.
38:04Okay.
38:06To be honest, I'm a little worried
38:09because I keep hearing my father's voice
38:12stating that her parents will never accept me.
38:16And it just makes me, you know, question
38:19what the future's going to hold with us.
38:22Well, I got to get this stuff out the truck
38:24because it's getting late.
38:26Yeah.
38:28It's too much.
38:30I've sacrificed everything that I've put into this relationship,
38:34and with me moving,
38:36the thought that all of this could be for nothing
38:38is a slap in the face.
38:41I mean, at this point, I'm just feeling numb.
38:52Because what?
38:54Because what?
39:01Why the f*** am I dealing with this?
39:03Look, look, I blocked her.
39:05Why the f*** am I talking to her in the f***ing first place?
39:08Why the f***?
39:10If a mother f***er write me and I block her,
39:12what the f*** am I supposed to do?
39:13You stupid ass f***er.
39:14Why are you even writing her in the first goddamn place?
39:16Okay.
39:17Chill out.
39:18Man.
39:19Chill out.
39:20F*** you.
39:21What the f*** is wrong with you?
39:22Bye.
39:23Bye, you f***er.
39:24I'm not f***ing writing you.
39:25I am leaving and I'm f***ing my shit.
39:27Shut the f*** up, f***er.
39:28Stupid ass.
39:30I was leaving out the apartment
39:32and then I doubled back
39:34and I think he thought I left, but I didn't
39:37and I creeped up behind him
39:39and he in the corner on his phone
39:41writing messages to women.
39:45This is not a man who's ready to settle down.
39:47This is not a man.
39:48This is a child that still wants to play
39:51in a man's body.
39:55I'm not even about to feel some type of way about that
39:58because I'm telling my f***er I'm in a relationship.
40:00Come on, man.
40:01Why the f*** are you even talking to the bitch?
40:03Stupid mother f***er.
40:04Man, f*** you.
40:06What you done did?
40:07Delete all your mother f***er messages?
40:09No.
40:10Man, f*** you.
40:11What is happening?
40:12Let me show you what she mad about.
40:13Man, shut your bitch ass up.
40:14Read this.
40:15She upset because some girl keep writing me.
40:18I told her I had a girlfriend.
40:21I blocked her.
40:22You know, just because I even wrote something,
40:25I'm wrong.
40:26You disrespectful.
40:27You a hoe.
40:28You a thot.
40:29That's what the f*** you are.
40:30If your ass was smart, you would have came up there
40:33and deleted all that s*** when you got here.
40:35Get out of my f***ing face.
40:36F*** you.
40:37Get out of my motherf***ing face.
40:38F*** you.
40:45Next time on Forbidden Love.
40:47From the very beginning,
40:48I struggled with the decision to convert.
40:51Every aspect of my life is going to change
40:53with this decision.
40:54The way that I eat.
40:55The way that I dress.
40:56The way that I pray.
40:57And that's very scary.
41:02This is feeling realer than ever.
41:06Today is my conversion test.
41:08This is months of just studying and non-stop classes.
41:15F***.
41:16Realistically, if she doesn't pass,
41:18she can't become Jewish.
41:20And then there's the conversion test.
41:23And then there's no us.
41:26You're a hungry girl.
41:27We were totally happy, proud new parents.
41:30Elmer was the best.
41:32But then he had a job and met this girl.
41:36Did I push him to do this?
41:38No.
41:39Honey, don't let him crush you.
41:42What does the word echad mean?
41:44I don't even know.
41:46Well, you should.
41:47I'm completely overwhelmed.
41:49I definitely can't f*** the test up.
41:52No, I can't f*** it up.
41:54No, you're not ready yet.
41:55You believe in this, right?
41:57Ashley's been promising me for three years
41:59to convert to Islam.
42:00I just need a moment.
42:02You for real?
42:03That's not a game.
42:05I have been very patient.
42:06But if she's not doing this today,
42:08I'm nervous she will never will.
42:10Come here.
42:11F*** you.
42:12I don't know who the f*** you are.
42:13Why are there even DMs in your motherf*** phone
42:15in the first damn place?
42:17This is not how someone behaves
42:18when they want to get married.
42:20I will not never talk to you again.
42:22You've made my life so miserable
42:24for the last six months.
42:25Oh yeah, so miserable.
42:26While you're all Snapchatting that horse girl.
42:27I'm seeing Elmer's true colors.
42:29He's sexist.
42:30He's a hypocrite.
42:31He's nothing like what I fell in love with.
42:34You would take some fault upon yourself.
42:35You cheated.