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Gypsy Rose: Life After Lock Up Season 2 Episode 1
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00:00Murdered her mother.
00:02Now let's see what I do with my life.
00:04Oh, it feels so weird being in a car.
00:07Made it.
00:08Gypsy's home.
00:09I have my freedom now.
00:11It's new to me.
00:12We consummated our marriage.
00:14A lot of people felt I should've waited in getting married.
00:17Do you want kids right away?
00:19I am kind of rushing into things
00:21and wanting to do everything all at once.
00:23What would you change about your nose?
00:25Captain Gypsy Rose!
00:26I'm terrified!
00:28Gypsy!
00:29The attention on social media.
00:31Oh my God!
00:32I'm not used to it at all.
00:34I was engaged once before to Ken.
00:36Ken checked in.
00:37What?
00:38I loved him so much.
00:40I have to stay loyal to my marriage.
00:44Who are you texting?
00:45I have two men in my heart.
00:47If something happens with Gypsy and Ken, it's gonna be your fault.
00:50I know that Ken is interested in blondes.
00:52Nah, you're changing all of them. You ain't gonna be my wife no more.
00:55You gonna marry me?
00:56Can we not do this on camera?
00:58Sometimes I just think that I would be happier somewhere else.
01:02I don't wanna split up, but it's not up to me.
01:05It's never been up to me.
01:06Well, don't call Ken.
01:08The heart wants what it wants.
01:10It's a complicated organ.
01:11Ken came to visit.
01:13I wake up till the next day I see them getting matching tattoos.
01:15I'm sorry, baby girl.
01:17I want a divorce.
01:19I'm gonna be with Ken.
01:21She wants a baby.
01:22What?
01:23Just wait.
01:24I am late on my period.
01:27Gypsy texts me and says she was pregnant.
01:30Well, who's the father?
01:31My hope is that Ken and I will have that fairytale dream life that we always wanted to have with each other.
01:39How much more rough could it get?
01:40Rough.
01:41We'll figure it out.
01:42I'm happy again.
01:43And I don't wanna do anything to mess it up.
01:46Is she that happy?
01:48She's always come back to me.
01:50I feel like I need more, like, cute pajamas.
02:06You said that yesterday.
02:08This is not sexy.
02:11Never in a million years would I ever thought I would live in the state of Louisiana, but life happens and here I am now.
02:19All right.
02:20So, ultrasound.
02:21Two o'clock.
02:22Yes.
02:23We gotta leave at 1?
02:25I'd leave probably about 12.45.
02:28I'm gonna get my bed.
02:29Okay.
02:30You nervous?
02:31No.
02:32I'm not nervous.
02:33And this is the first time that they're gonna actually be able to see something?
02:37Yeah.
02:38It's gonna be a transvaginal ultrasound.
02:42They probed me.
02:45Not looking forward to that.
02:47Better you than me.
02:48I heard that.
02:51God.
02:52Okay.
02:53It's all getting so real.
02:55Where are you with your peace with Ryan?
03:01Every time that we have talked or texted since the divorce was filed, it's me trying to apologize for breaking his heart.
03:12And as much as I'm trying to live my life and be happy, of course, from time to time, that guilt is going to weigh on my conscience.
03:20The most important thing that you need to be doing right now is eat more protein.
03:26I've never been in this situation before, you know, meaning gypsy, like a girl being pregnant.
03:31But when I found out that gypsy was, it was a very shocking experience.
03:37But I wish that she had gotten through this divorce process before this happened because this isn't, you know, it's not a good look for me.
03:46It's not a good look for her.
03:47It's not a good look, you know.
03:49But it happened.
03:50And so I'm going to be a big girl and I'm going to put on my big girl pants and I'm going to freaking do this.
03:56Same answer for me.
03:59Except boy pants.
04:04I have no idea what we're going to do for marriage or anything like that.
04:09Like, this was not...
04:14Stay tuned for that.
04:16What has our life ever been but the opposite of routine, right?
04:19I think for me, like, I'm labeled a loose woman, a hoe.
04:29My reputation has gone down the drain.
04:34Like, I've already seen comments online of people saying that it should have been a condition of my parole to get my tubes tied.
04:41Because they don't feel like I'm going to be a good mother because of what my mom put me through.
04:47Well, at some point the cycle has to end and I can break that.
04:51Oh, this is a lovely comment.
05:05I'm notoriously evil.
05:07Don't read it.
05:09Just delete it.
05:10Move on.
05:11Mr. Stay up all night.
05:13Looking at comments.
05:16You know, okay, alright.
05:18I'm guilty of it too.
05:19Uh-huh.
05:20If I didn't trust you so much, I wouldn't say that behavior is shady.
05:32It looks shady.
05:33It's healthy.
05:34Healthy.
05:35There's a heartbeat.
05:36Officially seven weeks, five days.
05:37We're going to be parents.
05:38Realizing that I've created life is an unusual but exciting feeling.
05:56I think he's still kind of in shock.
05:59There's a little person down there.
06:01I will rise again.
06:06Gypsy Rose Blanchard thought that getting pregnant and having a baby was going to water down her public image and make her more likable and it's done the exact opposite.
06:19Our sweet Jip Jip decided it was a good idea to trap the man with a baby.
06:26Because didn't your mother trap your daddy with you?
06:28And your daddy said, bye-bye Jip Jip.
06:32You can see the manipulation playing out.
06:36I wonder if she truly knows how to be authentic and honest.
06:43Yeah, it's her life and she can do whatever she wants with it.
06:46But my personal opinion is that this was way too fast.
07:10You know, I knew Gypsy wanted to be pregnant.
07:12I could tell.
07:13I would have hoped both of them would have taken my advice.
07:16They didn't, though.
07:17So I wasn't extremely surprised.
07:20Disappointed, of course.
07:22I hoped she would have had more time to just live a little bit.
07:26It's not just a piece of paper like a marriage.
07:29This is a life growing in her and she's got to stick with it.
07:35Golly, babe.
07:36This is a whole...
07:37I have other stuff in there.
07:38Two days.
07:40This is a two-day bag.
07:42This is life.
07:43Okay.
07:45I'm a woman.
07:46It's going to be here in the blink of an eye.
07:48Next thing you know, there's going to be the crib.
07:51Next thing you know, you know, the baby's going to be here and I'll be here to help.
07:58I don't have a problem rocking that baby all the time.
08:01The baby's going to get arm-itis.
08:03Always been getting my arms.
08:04How many weeks of Gypsy?
08:18She's 16 weeks in like three days.
08:20In three days.
08:21In three days.
08:22In three days.
08:23This is tall.
08:24Is it going to fit inside?
08:26Gypsy FaceTimed me to tell me that she was pregnant.
08:29I was trying so hard not to cry on the phone.
08:31And I don't know why, I was just super emotional, disappointed, happy, but like worried.
08:38All at once, but I'm happy with whatever she wants to do.
08:42All right, watch out for the ceiling fan blade.
08:44Oh, yep.
08:45Oh, okay.
08:46Oh, yep.
08:47Yep, saved.
08:48I was telling my best friend, he called me this morning.
08:49I said, man, I made Kim's dad yesterday, man.
08:51I mean, I said, we hit it off, bro.
08:52Yeah, like that.
08:53In the beginning, I didn't know nothing about that relationship.
08:57I didn't know nothing about that he wrote her letters.
09:01They spoke three, four, five hours at a time.
09:06They got that kind of connection that they complete each other.
09:10Seeing that, knowing that, that makes me feel good as a father.
09:13So once I found out that Gypsy was pregnant, I said it's only appropriate that the families meet.
09:19Thank you so much.
09:21You guys made us feel home.
09:22Good.
09:23Ideally, what I want was let her go through the divorce, divorce, then stay together for a while, date,
09:33then get married, and then have the baby.
09:36We can't control the wind, but we have to adjust our sails.
09:41What do you think?
09:42You want to say or no?
09:44I feel it's a girl.
09:45Okay.
09:46Okay.
09:47All right.
09:48In my heart.
09:49Okay.
09:50We need a girl.
09:51We'll see.
09:52Whatever one you have now, we can have the other one later.
09:54Yeah.
09:55I don't think her ain't kin already to have a child right now.
09:58I wanted her to be safe.
09:59I wanted her to be smart.
10:00I hope she was on birth control, but I think some things just go in one ear and out the other,
10:06and this is where we are.
10:09What do y'all think?
10:10How do you think that this looks?
10:11Good.
10:12In this corner?
10:13Should we put it somewhere else?
10:14This is the best part right here.
10:16So we'll just pop this one.
10:17Play dinner in a show.
10:18Beautiful.
10:19That look good.
10:20I hope, I hope, I hope that they do not rush a marriage.
10:35One monumental thing at a time, please.
10:46I'm not giving my blessing.
10:47I'm not doing that again.
10:48Dad went that route already with Dee Dee, and we're not doing that no more.
10:51Just because you're pregnant doesn't mean you need to get married.
11:01Gypsy Rose Blanchard has had her gender reveal part.
11:04This was one month after she announced that she was pregnant with her ex-fiance.
11:09I'm your mom.
11:10I'm your dad.
11:11And you are a girl.
11:13I was concerned about this whole pregnancy thing.
11:15I'm even more concerned now that it's a girl.
11:20She's having a daughter.
11:21Oh, I really hope she learns how to break the cycle.
11:25It's called the rebirth.
11:26I spoke to the woman, Ashley.
11:27I gave her kind of the rundown that, you know, we're newly reconnected.
11:30Unexpectedly expecting.
11:31Unexpectedly expecting.
11:32Unexpectedly expecting.
11:33I love that.
11:34I just didn't think we needed couples therapy.
11:35Oh, I mean, I, I, I support therapy in general.
11:36I know we don't have any issues, but it's nice to kind of see where we can improve on that.
11:38I mean, I, I, I, I support therapy in general.
11:40I know we don't have any issues, but it's nice to kind of see where we can improve on that.
11:41Okay.
11:42I got it.
11:43I got it.
11:44Yeah.
11:45All right.
11:46And also I think that therapy is also helpful because we are in a stressful situation.
11:48I think it's really important.
11:49Yeah.
11:50Yeah.
11:51Yeah.
11:52Yeah.
11:53Yeah.
11:54Yeah.
11:55Yeah.
11:56Yeah.
11:57Yeah.
11:58Yeah.
11:59Yeah.
12:00Yeah.
12:01Yeah.
12:02Yeah.
12:03Yeah.
12:04Yeah.
12:05Yeah.
12:06Yeah.
12:07Yeah.
12:08Yeah.
12:09So I think that therapy is also helpful because we are in a stressful situation, you know,
12:13with us being in the public eye.
12:14Right.
12:15Us being new parents.
12:16Uh huh.
12:17And also not living together full time.
12:20Right.
12:21You know.
12:22We definitely have a unique situation.
12:36Um, this is my first pregnancy.
12:39Um, this is his first child as well.
12:41Okay.
12:42So, um, I just don't know what to expect throughout everything.
12:45Um, you were telling me that this is sort of a reconnection.
12:49Can you explain what the relationship was like back then maybe?
12:53I just saw her documentary and it was just like, uh, really just like heart shattering.
12:58It was really sad to see what she had gone through.
13:00Um, I had never written a letter to anyone in my life but I just felt compelled to write
13:04her like a letter for compassion.
13:06We wrote back and forth for months and then, um, we just realized how much chemistry we have.
13:12And when I met her for the first time, um, it just started to go in that direction.
13:16Um, how did that relationship dissolve at that time?
13:22When he broke up with me, I didn't know the reason.
13:26I was left for five years without any sort of closure.
13:30Okay.
13:31So I didn't know that his reasons were for, to help me grow as an individual.
13:36I just thought he didn't love me anymore and he left me.
13:39He done me.
13:40Okay.
13:41So the point in us meeting and working together potentially is to what?
13:48Navigating how to properly communicate with each other's stress.
13:53Mm-hmm.
13:54Because I just don't want to corrupt your positivity if I'm having a bad day and don't see things
14:01in the most positive way.
14:03Okay.
14:04I don't like that.
14:06I'd rather you just be honest with me and just tell me what's going on.
14:09I know, always be honest, but if I bring up a topic that maybe he's not interested in
14:14talking about at the time, he shuts down.
14:16Can you give me an example of a hot button topic that might cause him to shut down?
14:22Just, you know, stressors.
14:25Social media has been a big stressor for us and he has a harder time with it.
14:30Okay.
14:31I've been in it longer.
14:32Mm-hmm.
14:33I think...
14:34I totally disagree with what you just said.
14:37You think that I have a harder time with it?
14:39I think that you have a harder time with it.
14:40Oh, I know.
14:41Your nose is always in your phone scrolling through comments, comments, comments.
14:44I don't even do that anymore.
14:46But at the same time, it's also a very new concept for me.
14:48Like, six months ago, this was not my life at all.
14:50So I'm very new to this.
14:52And learning how to navigate this has been a process of my own that I'm trying to figure out.
14:57Okay, let's go back to communication.
15:00So when you try and communicate something that's stressful to him, you feel like he shuts down.
15:05Mm-hmm.
15:06Thoughts on that?
15:11I don't feel like I do.
15:13So when you say, okay, I don't want to talk about this anymore.
15:16Okay, I think I know what you're talking about.
15:18Yeah, we were talking about social media.
15:20We were talking about how, like, you're, you know, always upset that I'm, like, on my phone, I guess, looking at stuff.
15:28Oh, yeah, when you're distracted and I want us to have more real-life time together.
15:33And then my response was, like, every answer that I gave you would rebuttal it.
15:37Like, I'd be like, okay, well, then I'll stop doing it.
15:38Well, you've said that before.
15:40Okay, well, then I'll try and be more adamant about it this time.
15:43Well, I don't know if that's going to be true or not.
15:45And I was just like, well, I don't know what he want me to say.
15:47I'm out of answers.
15:48I've tried everything.
15:49And then I don't want to talk about this anymore.
15:51And then her immediate reaction is click.
15:54And then silent for, like, an hour or two.
15:57Okay.
15:58Let's leave this topic where it is because I don't want to dive too deep into any one thing in our first session.
16:08Any other goals besides communication?
16:11When he broke up with me and we separated, the belief that I had was that he left because the pressure of being with me as a public figure was too much.
16:24Okay.
16:25Okay.
16:26So I am trying to protect him in a way that it doesn't become overwhelming and make him want to leave.
16:35That's always in the back of your mind and sort of, like, informing every decision you make.
16:40If I hold on, if I cling too much, maybe he'll leave.
16:44Or if I, yes, if I bring all my stress to exactly, maybe he'll leave.
16:49Okay.
16:50There are times that I feel really guilty.
16:59Okay.
17:03Just because, like, I know there's been a lot of change for him.
17:07Mm-hmm.
17:08Um, and I feel like I haven't been sensitive to that.
17:13Okay.
17:15So, you know, I feel like I, I don't want to put him in any sort of, like, a negative headspace.
17:26Mm-hmm.
17:27And I don't want him to have resentment towards me, um, for, like, how fast everything moved.
17:34Um, like I told him, I don't want him to stay because of the baby.
17:39I want him to want this relationship to work.
17:43Mm-hmm.
17:44Hey, everybody.
17:49I just want to say thank y'all for the support and the, and, uh, nice messages I've been getting from people.
17:58It's been great.
17:59I'm just living my life, guys.
18:01Uh, if you support me, follow me.
18:04I will post more stuff eventually.
18:06Uh, I'm just, just hanging in.
18:09I just want to say thank y'all to everybody and, you know, God bless.
18:14Good Lord.
18:15I hate this cabinet.
18:19It does nothing fit.
18:20Sounds rough over there.
18:21This kitchen is so overly cluttered because there's no cabinet space.
18:34I just have crap everywhere.
18:35I know.
18:36If I can go back and redo my whole move all over again, I would have changed a lot.
18:49I would have come here and, like, maybe toured a few places and seen what I liked before I signed the lease and moved in.
18:55But the pregnancy kind of fast-forwarded things, and she kind of wanted me down here ASAP.
19:00So I just said, okay, I took all my savings and just moved down here.
19:04Okay, so this is, this is the one in Metairie.
19:08Um, it's three bedroom, two baths, a lot of square feet, a lot of room.
19:16Moving into a new house is a very big priority of mine right now just because we want to get everything ready for when the baby arrives so that we have the adequate amount of space for the family.
19:28I would definitely put a carpet in the nursery.
19:33It's going to be a lot of vacuuming.
19:35Ew.
19:36A lot.
19:37Through the duration of my parole, I'm supposed to home plan to one residence.
19:42So I made that my parents' house after I left Ryan.
19:46I can't live with Ken unless, A, we're married and I would switch my home plan to him.
19:54Or, you know, B, I can come visit him for two days a week.
19:58Um, but that's as much as I'm allowed.
20:01It's like 2,000 square feet.
20:05You need to be able to keep up all that?
20:15Oh, the shed.
20:18For all the tools I don't own.
20:22There is a lot of space.
20:23Yes, it's nice and spacious.
20:25I haven't ever looked at a house, so this is like my first time kind of like looking at, you know, house shopping and browsing,
20:34seeing what I like, what I don't.
20:37This is it.
20:40How's the dishwasher?
20:41The backyard is big and it's fenced.
20:43It's beautiful.
20:44After living eight and a half years in prison, all I ever was surrounded around was steel, concrete.
20:53So, like, I definitely want to bring a sense of life to wherever my baby's going to grow up.
20:59Where would the crib go?
21:02Keep looking.
21:03Keep looking.
21:11I think I've already put like six or 7,000 miles on my Jeep, I feel like, since I moved here with all the back and forth to cut off.
21:19Once, twice, three times a week sometimes.
21:21Yeah?
21:22Yeah, I mean, I go down there and like hang out sometimes.
21:25Every now and then I'll spend the night, you know, but typically it's to pick her up or drop her off.
21:30He doesn't like my bed.
21:31Yeah, her bed is terrible.
21:32He says my bed is too small.
21:34It's a full.
21:35And I sleep in a king.
21:36It's just like, I need space.
21:38Space.
21:39Kind of like, okay, cuddle, cuddle, cuddle.
21:40All right.
21:41Gotta turn around now.
21:42Go on to bed.
21:43Yeah.
21:44As long as we touch butts, I'm fine with that.
21:45I don't like that either.
21:46You got into the butt touching?
21:49.
21:50You reveal too much.
21:54I just like isolation when I sleep, you know?
22:00I don't like, I don't know.
22:02I don't like body heat.
22:05And I'm a snuggler.
22:06I need it.
22:07This time that we have, it is a nice, gradual getting to know each other's habits.
22:13I'm dipping my toes in, but I'm not jumping in.
22:16And I think, you know, that's a mistake that I made with Ryan is I jumped in.
22:21I'm ready to go.
22:22Okay.
22:23You got all your stuff out of the bathroom?
22:24Yes.
22:30Come on.
22:37Good morning.
22:38You all ready for the storm?
22:39Yeah, pretty much, I guess.
22:40I mean, I don't really know what to expect.
22:42I mean, I've rode out a tube before with my mom.
22:43We just slept all day.
22:44Christy's totally passed out on the couch.
22:45She does not feel good and she'll be asleep all day.
22:47They say we have a, we're under a mandatory evacuation.
22:48So you're under a mandatory evacuation?
22:49Yeah.
22:50Okay.
22:51So where are you going?
22:52Nowhere.
22:53I'm staying here.
22:54That's pretty good.
22:55Yeah.
22:56I'm staying here.
22:57That's good.
22:58I'm staying here.
22:59Okay.
23:00I'm staying here.
23:01I'm staying here.
23:02I'm staying there.
23:03I'm staying here.
23:04I'm staying there.
23:05Okay.
23:06I'm staying here.
23:07You all ready for the storm?
23:08Yeah, pretty much, I guess.
23:09I mean, I don't really know what to expect.
23:11I mean, I've rode out a tube before with my mom.
23:14We just slept all day.
23:15Christy's totally passed out on the couch.
23:17She does not feel good and she'll be asleep all day.
23:20They say we have a, we're under a mandatory evacuation.
23:23That's not evacuating.
23:25I know, I know.
23:26All right, well, if you die, I told you so.
23:29Okay, so if you're dead, I won't know.
23:31Keep updating me on how the weather gets for you down there.
23:34All right, I will.
23:36Okay, well, I love you.
23:37I love you, too.
23:39Bye.
23:39Bye.
23:40I'm having to go through this here, and he's not with me.
23:46I don't like it.
23:47It's just more of that, like, disconnection that I don't like that we're in two different areas.
23:53A lot of those coastal carriages that already have evacuation orders in place.
24:04Again, the key message is to get out today, conditions are going to deteriorate very rapidly
24:09in the early morning hours on Wednesday, so you're only going to be in your safe place
24:12to ride up.
24:13Oh, it sucks to see.
24:15Well, I've got to take the furniture and stack them or something, I don't know, because
24:26that'll fly away.
24:29Do you have, like, a man friend to come do all this, like, a neighbor or something?
24:33No, I can, girl, I can do it.
24:37I'm going to get up in a second and go put my reindeer on.
24:45Hopefully I'm not nauseated anymore when I sit up.
24:49I haven't been in a hurricane since Katrina.
24:53I do remember evacuating with my mom.
24:56We were living in Section 8 housing, and the entire complex was just destroyed.
25:02You know, this is right before we got to Missouri, so my mother told the doctors that all of our,
25:08all of my medical records were washed away in the hurricane.
25:11My mother always wanted to get away from Louisiana.
25:16She kept wanting to move further from her family, further from Dad and Christy.
25:21So I think this was, like, her golden opportunity to start all over again and then get to take
25:27the abuse from here and take it to a whole other level because now I could be, she could
25:32make me any age she wanted to be.
25:36She got to get off the hook of her own medication because she was on psych meds.
25:41And then when we moved to Missouri, she did not follow up with that.
25:45Dan did say that if we needed to go to his apartment, we could.
25:50I'm not going.
25:52I'll be safer here.
25:54It's the wind that's going to kick our ass because of how it's coming in.
26:11Gypsy's been living here, it made six months, two days ago.
26:22At first, she would stay in her room a lot.
26:25She'd go to bed early.
26:26But not so much now.
26:30She is really happy.
26:32I was able to get this bear, and if you squeeze the tummy, you can hear her heartbeat.
26:37I'm still settling in here.
26:47You know, I haven't even really moved in technically because I'm about to move again.
26:51There's times I still may have to put her in check.
26:54Sometimes she'll still put me in check, but I'm not going to enable her.
26:58Of course, it can be a little bit, you know, depressing sometimes because I don't have anywhere
27:03to go or you want to see or anything to do, you know, organize all that stuff.
27:08Okay, so where is the diaper changing table?
27:15I don't think about that.
27:16I didn't think about that.
27:17I don't know.
27:20Hey, guys, it's me, Ryan.
27:22I just wanted to say a couple of things.
27:24Guys, to be honest, I'm probably not going to bash Gypsy.
27:29You know, that was my wife.
27:31There's been a couple of mean comments.
27:35You know, I'm just not going to do it.
27:37I will tell my side, but as far as just being disrespectful to her, I just can't do it, guys.
27:42But I love the hashtag Team Ryan.
27:45That's just unbelievable to me.
27:47So I just want to tell you guys thanks again.
27:58Good boy.
28:00You taking my spot?
28:02You taking my spot?
28:08What's the plan?
28:10So we got approved for the house.
28:13Okay.
28:14And we can move in October 1st.
28:15You can move it.
28:17I can move in October 1st.
28:19Parker will have a yard?
28:21Yes.
28:21He's so cooped up in this tiny little one bedroom.
28:24So, um, I reached out to my attorney, um, a few days ago.
28:31And she texted me back and she said, let me get the text.
28:36I'll have the paperwork for you to sign this week.
28:38I said, meaning the divorce will be final soon?
28:41She said, yes, ma'am.
28:43So.
28:43Okay.
28:47Very soon then.
28:48I think Ryan has a glimmer of hope that he feels like, okay, it's not, it's not finalized
28:53yet.
28:53So maybe we might get back together or something.
28:56So I'm hoping that once the divorce is final, that's kind of like, that is what needs to
29:03sink in.
29:03And that's what I have been trying to convey for, you know, ever since I filed.
29:09I'm like, I care about you.
29:12I wish you the best.
29:13I wish you would move on and find happiness.
29:16That's what I want for you.
29:17Um, he has not conveyed that to me.
29:20You know, it's, it's hard whenever you have one foot in the past and one foot in the future.
29:25And it's kind of like, you just want to close that chapter and move on, you know?
29:30And I feel like in me moving on and with the divorce finalizing, it will also give him
29:35that closure he needs, too.
29:37Sure.
29:47Come on, baby, get excited.
29:49It's date night.
29:50Woo!
29:56Seven years ago, today.
29:57We met for the first time.
30:02Seven years.
30:04Feels like a lifetime.
30:07Ken came to visit me for the first time in Chillicothe.
30:09And we had been riding for about four months.
30:12We weren't riding in a romantic way.
30:14We were just friends.
30:15And all of a sudden, like, he looked at me and then, like, he kneels over and just kisses
30:19me.
30:19And we were banned for six months.
30:23Hold on.
30:25What's going on I'm doing here?
30:26The beast of the streets.
30:32That's me.
30:34I thought you were going to say the beast of the sheets.
30:44Happy anniversary.
30:45One of many.
30:46Any questions?
30:48Yes.
30:49What's your favorite appetizer?
30:51Right now it's going to be that octopus.
30:53Okay, we'll do one of those.
30:56And then we're going to split a blue crab salad.
31:01Bellies.
31:04You ordered octopus?
31:06Are you going to eat some?
31:08So, octopus is the one creature that I, besides spiders, am, like, freaked out by.
31:14Okay, well, you're going to eat it tonight.
31:16I'm not going to hear anything from you.
31:17I'm not going to hear about your fears.
31:19You're just going to try it.
31:21Because.
31:22Try the octopus.
31:23Part of you transitioning is trying things you've never tried before.
31:28I've done a lot of that already.
31:30But I want you to try the octopus.
31:32Okay?
31:32Because you don't know until you know.
31:34Have you ever had octopus before?
31:36No.
31:36Okay, so let's not judge it until we try it.
31:38We're going to try it tonight.
31:40And if you hate it, you hate it.
31:41It's a little chewy.
31:42Mmm.
31:50Did you ever think that seven years ago we'd be sitting here today?
31:54Nope.
31:57Me neither.
31:58I mean, like, where we were seven years ago in our lives, I don't think that we would have lasted the full six years, seven years of my sentence until I got out.
32:11Just because you lived in the real world, you had a lot going on in your real life, time stopped for me.
32:20Like, I was pretty much watching everybody else's life continue on, and mine stayed the same.
32:29While, of course, there were things that I'm sure both of us wish we could change, I'm happy where we are now.
32:35I'm happy where we are now.
32:38I've got my hand.
32:40I will place octopus with a risotto.
32:46All right.
32:47Please enjoy.
32:52So I'm going to cut you a piece.
33:02Okay, sorry.
33:04Calm down.
33:07That's scary.
33:14Don't think about it.
33:15Just eat it.
33:17It's really good.
33:18It's really good.
33:28No?
33:30Mm-mm.
33:32Just swallow it.
33:34Just swallow it.
33:35Don't be ridiculous.
33:37Okay.
33:37No.
33:38Oh, God.
33:39Don't think.
33:40Really?
33:41Is that bad?
33:41I think it's amazing.
33:46So happy for you.
33:50Those suction cups?
33:51Look at that.
33:54Oh, yeah.
33:59Very good.
34:00She doesn't love it.
34:02It's her first time trying.
34:03I'm good.
34:04I'm good.
34:04I'm good.
34:04I'm good.
34:05What's getting to you about an octopus?
34:06Oh, I have a fear of octopuses, so he's just like, eat it.
34:11Well, she tried.
34:12I did.
34:13I did.
34:13I did.
34:13To each his own.
34:23Beautiful.
34:25Enjoy it.
34:26All right.
34:27So that is not what I expected, but it's gorgeous.
34:32You want some?
34:33Mm-mm.
34:34You want to try a little bit?
34:37Nope.
34:37Yes, you will.
34:38You'll try a little bit.
34:39Is that tomato?
34:41I won't put any tomato in there.
34:42All right.
34:44Watermelon?
34:47It's just too much.
34:51Thanks.
34:54What is it?
34:55It's tomato, crab, and watermelon salad.
34:58Oh.
34:58Oh.
35:07I don't think you're going to like it.
35:09I probably won't.
35:16It's turning into that dinner that we had at the peanut butter bowl.
35:21Not even a bite?
35:22Oh, good.
35:29You are so disappointing.
35:32Yes, I can't.
35:37I just want to shame her a little bit.
36:06That's all.
36:07I'm just kidding.
36:08Public shaming, randomly, person.
36:09Ah, apparently.
36:19Where's the bathroom?
36:21All the way down to the right.
36:23So, are you excited about the house?
36:49Yes, are you?
36:52I am.
36:53Do you love it?
36:54Mm-hmm.
36:55Do you think we're going to be able to make that house a home?
36:58Yeah.
36:58For the family?
36:59Yeah.
37:00I think it's going to be a good place for you and the baby.
37:04What about you?
37:06You know I can't live there yet.
37:07You can't live there, but you can still make that house your home.
37:10No.
37:13Okay.
37:18Let's go figure that out together.
37:20Yep.
37:22Okay.
37:23Okay.
37:23I took the sign down and realized it's still there.
37:49Like, her name's still there.
37:51It left a burn mark in my wall.
37:54I mean, it's kind of like, it's kind of symbolic of, like, how she left.
38:00I've thought about painting over it.
38:05I probably should.
38:07But.
38:12Her pictures are still in those frames and just, boom, down.
38:16It's just, I don't know.
38:18I just hadn't got rid of them yet.
38:19I don't know.
38:21When she was in prison, we'd fight, and I'd turn my picture down, and then eventually I'd
38:25pull it back over.
38:26So, it's like, if I throw that picture, if I put it away, then it's like, I'm accepting.
38:32I don't know.
38:32It's weird.
38:37That's a girl.
38:40Got a bath.
38:44Don't you growl at me.
38:45She left a scar that I'm still healing from.
38:59I can't sit and wallow and be depressed forever.
39:04I can't.
39:05You know, so, like, I have to find things to keep my mind occupied.
39:08But do I, some days, do I wish my phone would ring?
39:12Yeah.
39:14The way I look at it is, like, I'm in love with a gypsy that is no longer there, I guess.
39:21I mean, but she's still the same girl, though.
39:24That's the problem.
39:25She's still the same girl, but she's not my girl.
39:28I mean, it was like, boom, here one day, gone the next, and all I have is remnants.
39:38It's been a crazy year.
39:40So much has happened.
39:41There's so much more to come.
39:43Beautiful.
39:44Baby's wiping the gumbo off of the mouth.
39:46I do kind of worry about his level of responsibility, being a parent.
39:54Move into the house, then we can focus on the nursery.
39:56We don't have nothing!
39:58What do you like about being in the spotlight?
40:00I don't.
40:00I do feel like a circus animal.
40:06The better I do in life, the more hate that I get.
40:10Sheriff's office.
40:11There's a lot of haters out there who falsely report things to my parole officer.
40:17I'm terrified that my baby will be born in prison.
40:20I got death threats.
40:21A funerary wreath delivered the deceased's name as Gypsy Blanchard.
40:26Ryan texted me,
40:28Would you be open to having a sit-down face-to-face with me?
40:31Ryan has a glimmer of hope.