Amberlynn decides to go live on YouNow and shares with us that she’s thinking about joining a gym, but she’s not sure if Becky is ready yet. She goes on for a while about her diet preferences. She says mukbangs give her negative vibes and doesn’t want to film anymore of them. We look back at the time Amberlynn went swimming in the pool at the gym with Krystle when she says going to the gym gave her a reason to leave the house and she loves to swim. Aunt Tammy makes an appearance to let us know Amberlynn has always liked to swim. Amberlynn says they don’t have proof that someone called into Becky’s workplace resulting in Becky being called into the office. She says the fitbit merely tracks her progress and doesn’t encourage her to exercise. Amberlynn posts on Snapchat to announce the trolls are winning and she doesn’t want to share her fitness journey, which she says is going fabulously. She records a voice note saying she is sick again so didn’t get to go to the gym and might be reconsidering her choice to join. She says the thought of speaking to a professional therapist seems odd to her and not something she thinks could be beneficial. When she returns for another YouNow live stream, she films a live weigh in with Becky’s help. We take a look at the broccoli she ate for lunch. She and Becky are still in competition when it comes to weight loss, but they’ve abandoned the idea of the money in the jar per pound lost. We take a look back at the time OEA triggered Amberlynn in a negative way. Amberlynn mentions how she wants Becky to take her to a casino in another state so they can gamble with $50-100. We are reminded of the time Amberlynn put shells in her sink as decor in Kentucky then her trips to the beach while living in Florida. We see Amberlynn make a thumbnail for her video in real time before she ends the live stream.
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00:00Hi, why do I do the duck lips cuz I personally want bigger lips. My lips are so small. I don't know. I just really want
00:09Like I would do anything
00:11For some bigger lips. I really want to do like a hundred days of vlogs
00:15But I have to wait until I'm ready for that big of a commitment. I'm so happy you're back on here
00:19I just figured I should probably start coming back on here because
00:23for a while there I was going on here like daily in December and then I kind of just like
00:30Stopped and so I want to come back on the Fitbit. Isn't what's making me move more. It definitely was helping
00:37But whether I'm wearing it or not, I'm still moving
00:41Becky and I are actually
00:43Really? It was my idea. I don't know how Becky feels about it like entirely
00:47But I'm thinking about joining a gym because that always made me want to
00:53Work out more. I really enjoyed just like leaving the house and like having a reason to
00:59Leave the house really because I hate not leaving the house. I love her I
01:08Like just going places, okay, and so
01:12Instead of always working at home
01:14like I want to be able to go to a gym and use their elliptical and their treadmill and
01:20Their bikes and just whatever else, you know
01:23So, yeah, I'm really really really wanting to do that and we were gonna go today actually
01:27But it was storming really bad and I get like anxious in the car as you guys know
01:31That's like one of the reasons why I don't drive I get very anxious and I was like, I don't really feel like
01:35You know going out in the storm. So I think we're gonna do that tomorrow and
01:41Check the gym out because I looked and I saw
01:45I was like looking up like gyms around here and there's none around here
01:49So the closest one is kind of far but it's kind of worth it, you know
01:54So I'm gonna look at it. See if it makes me feel comfortable and
01:58I'm gonna you know, look at pricings and see how much it cost to be VIP versus just like a normal
02:06so
02:08Jim will waste your money. I don't think so. I think gyms are amazing. So
02:14Yeah
02:17Yeah
02:21What have you ate today, I actually vlogged it I made a veggie patty on a
02:27What are they called? Oh my god sandwich thin with a side of a little tiny salad
02:33It was just spinach and I cooked some mushrooms and bell peppers. So tons of veggies and
02:40Yeah, it was super good. I did vlog it though. So you guys will see that
02:43I know in your old vlogs your highest weight was lower than how much you weigh now
02:46You said you couldn't wear a seatbelt. Is this a case now depend on the car. I'm gonna be honest
02:51It depends on the car. So you take classes at the YMCA. Is that something you would be interested? Not right now
02:57I'm not really interested in classes. I think I'm just more focused on like seeing where I'm at physically, which is not anything great
03:05I can tell you that
03:07I just wanna take a slow gonna start something. Treadmilling. I don't know if that's a word. Probably not. Um
03:13Just you know go on the elliptical. I remember I really the elliptical really gets my heart rate going, you know
03:18I enjoy that it makes me feel good those endorphins though, and I really like going on the bikes and stuff
03:24I think once I lose more weight
03:27classes will definitely be something that I'd be interested in because I
03:30Really enjoy that aspect of the gym. So
03:33Have you found yourself having more energy? Yes
03:37Physically and mentally if that makes sense
03:39It's it's weird like once you start eating healthier and you take out certain foods. You stop feeling so like
03:46petite and
03:48like
03:49It's weird. It's it's just crazy how life is. I think he could be an awesome motivator long walks with him
03:55Um Twinkie's a girl. But yeah, I love walking outside with Twinkie. It's great. It's just it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's
04:03Great. It's just the weather has been so cool. And then that one day where I've logged off sitting outside reading I
04:08Wanted to walk but as you guys saw in my video, I was just I wasn't doing good
04:13Like I was really just down and depressed. I'm actually having a really just kind of poopy day today
04:20I don't really know what it is, but I just feel really
04:24really down
04:25I've done a lot of currying today
04:28but Becky was there to talk to me and it just feels good to be able to talk to someone and get my feelings out and
04:36That's just kind of what I needed. So cuddled some other animals. So I'm a lot of
04:41animal fur on me, which I don't mind because
04:44They make me feel so much better. They're just
04:48Super therapeutic and mixtured with talking. It's just it helped. But yeah, I've done some crying
04:53I just I don't feel the greatest. I just feel really
04:57Down
04:59Really down and it's it just feels like a I don't know like a burden to myself
05:06I can't really explain it exactly but I'm here to vlog because
05:11Hi, I like talking to you guys walking. You would have had to carry me out with the damn
05:17Tractor, I don't even know like it was not gonna happen
05:21Sad because it's like
05:23The first day that actually felt really good outside. I could have totally went for a walk. I personally love walking outside
05:31I much prefer that over any of like the workout DVDs that I have but you know around here
05:37It gets pretty cold. Like I'm not walking in
05:4120 degree weather like or even 30 40
05:48The Becky cheat on you
05:51No, that's weird I still walk her and it's negative 10 where I live. Yeah, I know it's so weird like how
06:00Depending on where you live like your your body gets weight
06:06Your body gets like so used to
06:09That like temperature because like people in California, which I am from California
06:14So I can kind of say this like if they're in 60 degree weather, they're like, oh my god, it's freezing
06:19and for me, I'm like 60 degree weather feels amazing like for me, that's not cold, so
06:26It's just really weird. I like depending on where you live like
06:34But someone just said like in the summer, it's too hot to walk
06:38I say it's too hot to walk and then in the winter, it's too cold
06:41So true, like I do say that because it's 100% true, but times that I don't walk
06:46Outside I am doing my workout DVDs, which when I do my workout DVDs I burn more calories I get
06:54Heart rate goes higher
06:56Walking is really great for you. But my workout DVDs make me like really like whoa, so
07:05Why did you make
07:06Why did you make what her job than lie and say people are calling her job? It was calling it was you calling whoa
07:14No, that is not true
07:18Yeah, the rumors are insane you just don't want to exercise you'd be losing way more than six pounds a week, um
07:26No, I don't want to exercise. I personally don't like exercising. Um
07:31I'm really lazy when it comes to exercising. I don't like it
07:35But I push myself to do it and I think that's
07:38For me I like that because it's like if I liked exercising and I was doing it like cool like I don't care
07:45But the fact that I hate exercising and I still do it
07:49I'm like, wow, I'm actually proud of myself. I'm doing something. I hate to better myself. So you're right
07:56I don't want to exercise but I do it anyway
07:59You should try yoga I have actually thought about that
08:03Have you considered or have you considered or looked up more into the keto diet or way of eating I have
08:10I've done a lot of research on it and it was something I was gonna do
08:14but I just I
08:17Know that once you bring carbs back into your diet you start gaining weight again
08:22And I just feel like I want to eat carbs and still lose weight
08:27I
08:31Still like eating multigrain breads and things like that and I know there's alternatives to everything but you know
08:39I'm kind of just enjoying what I am what I'm doing right now
08:43You know, I still enjoy a diet. Oh my god, but I mean like if it works for you
08:48Which I know like lowering your carbs works for so many people and it would work for me, too
08:52But it would just put me on such a restrictive
08:55Like way of life, I just I don't know how I would react to it
09:01That was my first day back to the gym after getting over 100 pounds. Good job. The gym is gonna be your motivator, honey
09:07You're gonna love it
09:09Carbs are amazing. Really? I've lost over 20
09:12They're calling me disappear. But yes carbs are amazing. You just seem happier and healthier. I do notice that I notice that I feel
09:20Happier like I do have my down days and I used to have a lot more of those though when I was eating like absolute
09:28garbage constantly like I was eating out every single day and
09:36It was two times a day a lot of the time gonna be honest and I know she doesn't mind me talking about this because
09:42we've talked about it before but
09:45Becky's has some insecurities with herself such as her chin and people are so angry to her about it
09:51And I'm just like you're beautiful like just the way you are. Like, what do you mean?
09:55But I myself have noticed, you know, her face is slimming down right here
10:00And for me, I don't care because I think she's beautiful no matter what but for her
10:06Me is telling her that and I think Eric told her that at one point. I think it's really making her feel better about herself and
10:14I'm just super proud of her. I'm honestly so proud of her. Um, are you scared of the extra skin? No, not at all
10:22Um, I used to be terrified of extra skin if you guys have been watching me for the years. I've been on here
10:29Girl, when I first started YouTube, I was terrified of extra skin. It was almost like I
10:37Self-sabotaged myself because I didn't want it
10:39Honestly, I could care less if I have more extra skin than anyone in this world
10:44because there are
10:46quite a few Instagrammers who have lost like over 300 pounds and they post pictures of their extra skin and
10:55they
10:56the way they talk about themselves, I'm just like I want that to be me because
11:02They're so proud of themselves and their extra skin to me is beautiful because it shows
11:08The strength that they had to lose all that weight and I know if I saved money
11:16It would take a while, but I know if I saved money I can literally get the extra skin removed, you know
11:23You know what? I'm saying? You know what? I mean?
11:26So sorry, I've been saying that a lot. It's just nevermind. It's a joke. Oh, but um
11:31So it's like no
11:32I'm more afraid of being morbidly obese and I can finally say that and feel like happy about that
11:38I feel like I'm gonna start crying
11:42Because it's like extra skin to me I
11:46Can't wait until I have it because that just means that I'm healthier and I'm doing something right? So no
11:53and to anyone who
11:57Wants to say bad things about someone with extra skin
12:00It's ridiculous because that's just gonna prove that I finally did it. I
12:04Finally did it and that is what I'm the most excited about
12:08Honestly, how's your weight loss going? You have done awesome girl. I thought you know, I'm better
12:13I feel like I'm always gonna be there no matter how good I'm doing
12:17I could always I'm constantly just gonna be like I could have done better
12:22I could have chose that over that or I could have had less that of that or I could you know
12:26I feel like that's always that's always gonna be me. I feel like no matter how good I'm doing
12:32so
12:33The situation I feel like I need to stop doing because I just need to be proud of what I am doing and
12:40Because obviously it's working. I mean
12:44You should do a healthy mukbang with foodie beauty
12:48She is on a weight loss journey, too
12:50And I think you both be positive forces and I talk a lot on Facebook messenger
12:55I love her so much and her and I relate
12:59Crazy amounts our food struggles are so similar. It's insane. I love her so much, but
13:07Don't think I'm doing mukbangs anymore. Um
13:11Mukbangs for me are
13:14Such a negative like it just it gives me negative vibes now
13:19And last one I did was very unhealthy. It was talk about one. I might be eating off it. How you feeling?
13:25I mean, I'm getting to that point where it's recommended to stop eating where that feeling where it's like right before you're about to be
13:31fool, but I
13:33Thought I could get fuller quicker because I do eat so slow. Yeah. Yeah, you're on your third
13:37I'm on my fourth and like I think the reason I eat so slow like I said, I'm trying to savor it
13:42Sure, I don't know. I'm just like, you know, I like to sit there and try to enjoy it
13:45I don't like to cram it all in my mouth and regret it. Wish I had more plus you get fuller, you know
13:50When you eat slower, yeah, but then if you eat faster you get more
13:53I think that's why every time which is why I probably am so fat
13:56I think that's why every time like whenever we go to a buffet or whatever
13:58I can only eat one plate and then I feel like shit
14:01I just paid for a frickin buffet and I ate one plate
14:04But I firmly believe that the reason why people get so full so quickly at buffets because I do too is because MSG
14:10Chinese buffets they're
14:12But I mean, I don't know my friend Sharla told me about that. We used to joke about it
14:16I
14:21Was a bunch of cheese and lettuce all over the table because I'm a messy bit
14:26true, but so many people hated it like so many people and I'm just like I
14:30don't want to upload things anymore that people hate and that's why I've made my videos longer because
14:36people were constantly saying they wanted them to be longer and I'm just trying to
14:42create content that people like and I've noticed that
14:46It's a lot of
14:50Like just negativity when I film a mukbang whether it's healthy or whether it's unhealthy
14:56people even if I'm eating something super healthy people will find a way to make it unhealthy and
15:02I just think it's stupid
15:04So I'm just not going to I think people suggest you do things just to turn around and use it against you later
15:10Me too. Huh? That's exactly what I think and
15:14It's just I know
15:17I'm not in the mood for all that
15:19Not in the mood for all that. I really just I'm trying to spread more positivity and
15:25I know there's gonna be
15:27Negativity always it just always happens and I'm not a perfect person. I'm always gonna struggle with this or that
15:33but I just think it's important that I
15:36feel safe enough and
15:38Okay enough to share that with you guys because in my way and like I said, I will be crying there is some crying and
15:47that's because I'm just I'm opening up to you guys and
15:51No matter what I do I have so many people who
15:55Hate me for past mistakes or for rumors that are not true. I
16:02Could say that now and I feel like no matter what I do. It's never just it's never gonna be good
16:08No matter what I share. It's never gonna be real to them
16:14So, it's whatever
16:16But I just for the people who are also
16:19On a weight loss journey and experience the things that I experienced. I want to be able to let them know
16:26like
16:28You're not alone. Like I experience these things too and I'm here to share them with you just so you feel not alone, you know
16:39You have a very big issue over caring whether people think you should really get a therapist
16:44I don't think you need a therapist for
16:46for that, but okay, um
16:50And everyone in their own way. They want you
16:53They don't want to be judged like I like I'm judged. They don't want that like no one wants that like you could be the biggest
17:01Most amazing youtuber like Shane Dawson and Trisha Paytas. They don't want to be judged like come on now
17:08Maybe a life on the internet is hard. Everyone judges based off assumptions. They make about what they see in your videos. Yeah
17:14It's it's a lot of assuming. Yeah, do you get tired of people always talking about your weight?
17:21It depends I don't really know do you believe in ghosts I don't therapy doesn't work on everyone
17:27Yes, maybe she should go and try but it might help. Yeah, I've seen an
17:32Abundance amount of therapists in my life and it never worked for me
17:37I'm not saying it wouldn't work now, but I'm just saying from
17:42Experience it never worked
17:45Therapy is not magic. No, it's not. I wish it was if therapy was magic. I would have already been been and on
17:53I'm lost your description. There's an animal named Jax. Yeah, that's that's my little baby. I don't have him with me right now. Um
18:02My ex-girlfriend took him so
18:05But he's still my baby and I still see him
18:07Do you see all the comments where people are saying you were not over destiny? Trust me. I saw those I did. Yes
18:13Get an elliptical. I'm actually gonna be
18:16Hopefully getting a gym membership
18:19Hope it works out good. Someone said get a treadmill elliptical and work out at home working out at home
18:24It doesn't give me a reason
18:26That's the best way I can put it. I mean a gym membership gives me a reason because I'm
18:33Paying for something and usually usually I'm not saying everywhere gym memberships are a contract
18:39So it's like if I'm paying for something I'm gonna want to
18:43Be making the best of it, you know
18:45but if I buy myself an elliptical and a treadmill it's just gonna I feel like it's just gonna sit there and I'm gonna be
18:52like
18:53Nah, I'll do it tomorrow, but having a gym membership
18:57It'll give me a reason to get up every day and to go somewhere
19:02And stuff like that. So do you like swimming? I love swimming. It's so fun. I
19:08Wish I had my own personal pool so I could just like being in all the time doing little water aerobics
19:15Swimming is great exercise. Oh my gosh, I know
19:18It definitely is. Hello. You said you hate swimming in the vlog prove it Shannon because I oh my god
19:25I've loved swimming since I was a little girl when I lived in Virginia there was oh my god
19:29It was a great swimming pool and I even vlogged it
19:33You don't go swimming
19:35There's water. It's making me want to swim but you don't swim in real life. So here it is
19:42the gym and there's stairs
19:45that's really pretty gym, but
19:50They have a
19:52slide I
19:54Keep begging crystal to go on it, but she won't and then that's like the kids side and then
20:00The pool another pool over there and a hot tub that people are sitting in
20:05so my girlfriend and I are kind of like
20:08Yeah, I'm not sure about swimming, but we'll see. So we're very shy about swimming in front of people. I think I already said that so
20:15I don't know what we're gonna do
20:24Those people the one of the ladies out there she's like kind of old ish
20:31I think she might be old. So old people are good. So I think we're right. I'm gonna put on my little
20:40Shabamble
20:42So I told you guys I'd show you this is how it looks scary, okay
20:48crystal
20:49You ready to tell them what so this is what went down we got ready to go out there and there's a lot of people
20:56Out there now, so crystals just shy in general like she's gorgeous. She's not even fat
21:01So she shouldn't be shy but she's just shy in general
21:04So I understood why she didn't want to go out there. But this is like the story of my life
21:09I literally just wasted a trip here. I felt completely embarrassed
21:13I kept going out there to see if people have left and I know they see me spying on them
21:18So that makes it even more embarrassing
21:20I mean my whole our whole nights ruined all because I am too shy
21:26To swim in front of people because I know they're gonna make fun of me
21:30I know they're gonna laugh at me. And even if they don't do it out loud, they're still doing it like in there
21:34In their head and in their minds and people's faces that they make I can read through people
21:40So I just didn't want to deal with that. So now we're waiting for crystals mom
21:44We're just gonna sit here and wait because her mom's working out. Oh, I just saw her walk by
21:49So I'm gonna go see what that's about. Okay, so I just recorded a bunch of shit and it wasn't even recording
21:53So after we changed and came out here, we look back in there and there's like nobody in there now
21:58There's some people about to go down the slide and I'm gonna record it. Oh, look you just saw
22:02Like shot out like I don't even know what oh
22:06That's funny. Oh gosh
22:08I swear our plans changed more than I changed my underwear. Okay, that was awkward. Not really
22:13I'm walking up and down the stairs. So that's why I'm out of breath, but I'm running down
22:18Go girl, okay, so we're gonna swim now. It's empty
22:27I don't know if you could tell but
22:29It's empty. I'm not sure for how long I'm kind of scared actually
22:32But um, so we're gonna swim cuz I'm like so back and forth on it, but sorry
22:37Sorry people
22:39Oh
22:41Look at my makeup
22:46Okay, so I tried to fix the scariness of my makeup but
22:53So as you can tell we really did get to swim it was a very was a crazy experience here, huh
22:59Can I show you just a little bit?
23:02Your bangs are already dry. Oh, you didn't get them wet
23:06Oh boy, oh yeah, so we did swim and it was fun. Why do my lips look like this?
23:15You look scary
23:17No, you look beautiful
23:19Okay, my lips look purple. Oh
23:22No, I just got out of the hot tub first. I was in the pool. Oh, I almost showed you. Okay, hold on
23:29Okay, first I was up in there
23:32Sorry, Crystal doesn't want me to share her
23:35And then I just got over there and they say the temperature doesn't go any higher than a hundred and three
23:41But why don't I believe that?
23:44It was so hot in there. I
23:47Started feeling kind of like dizzy and shit
23:51But anyways now I'm just sitting here legit like oh I feel really hot now we're gonna go change and yeah, so so
24:01So, yeah, I think I'm gonna end my vlog here what do you think
24:04I'm gonna end it here up in my swimsuit
24:16So anyways, I'll see you guys tomorrow and if you're on smiling smile, bye
24:21They had a swimming pool. They had a lap. Oh, they're a little kiddie pool and they have like slides. Obviously, I can't go inside
24:27Um, I literally joined the gym just to swim because they have the most awesome pool like I've always loved swimming
24:34Yeah, I really enjoy swimming. I just get very very self-conscious
24:39Obviously, so how do you get overseeing your ex getting a new girlfriend because it doesn't bother me. I'm not into testing like that
24:47Amber has always loved to swim always was she self-conscious when she used to go to the pool? Yes
24:53Yeah, that's my aunt if you guys are wondering so yeah, I've always loved to swim it's just fun great stuff
24:59Do you have proof that someone called Becky's job?
25:01No, we don't have proof. They literally just called her in and talked to her and that was it. Where's Becky?
25:08She was in here, but I don't know where she went
25:12Really in here. I have no idea. Do you have a food skill?
25:15I do which I use every single day the Fitbit isn't like the Fitbit doesn't control my body to exercise
25:22Whether I am wearing the Fitbit or not. I am exercising
25:26Exercise every day whether it's just me walking or I do
25:31DVD or things like that
25:34Every day best way to shop for groceries on a budget. I
25:39Wish I could answer that question. I spend a lot of money on groceries because it's I spend a lot less than eating out
25:48Um
25:49Because I get a lot of fresh food and stuff. So do you think staying up late and
25:55Waking up late makes it hard to be healthy. No. Well, I'm gonna get off of here though, because I have to edit my
26:02I just wanted to come on here and say hi. Yeah, I just feel kind of anxious all of a sudden
26:09Let's be honest. I just feel kind of like an like anxiety feeling overwhelmed
26:15Sometimes that happens a lot when I get on here
26:17I try to ignore it and I feel like you can tell when it happens because I like whole demeanor changes
26:23And I don't know why it happens. I do struggle with anxiety. So I do apologize. I do want to start
26:31More often someone said real questions make you feel attacked. I've answered everything
26:37I haven't seen anything
26:40That was like
26:41Real anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed this. I hope you guys have been enjoying my wonderful videos
27:01To give everyone a little update remember when I told you guys that I got really sick on New Year's Eve
27:07I have that same sickness again, but he's sick
27:10I was going to edit a vlog
27:12Honestly, don't think I even have the energy to do that everyone that I know here in Kentucky
27:17But strangely enough besides Eric and Ricky they've all gotten this flu
27:21What sucks the most is like I was so pumped to go to the gym today and see you know
27:27If I liked it, I really wanted to do a membership Becky doesn't really want to I think she just kind of wants to work
27:34And I read a lot of comments of people saying I think you know
27:38The gym is a waste of money and stuff and I'm definitely taking that into consideration
27:42Because I don't want to sit there and waste money
27:44It is kind of pricey the gym that I'm thinking about going to there are ways to exercise at home
27:49That is just as good as the gym
27:51So I'm just trying to figure things out because I don't want to like drag Becky
27:56Doing something she doesn't really want to do and we have workout DVDs. We can walk the neighborhood which I enjoy the most
28:02I recently got a Zumba DVD because I used to dance all the time when I was younger and I've been missing it lately
28:08Becky's currently in the shower. I don't know how she's doing it
28:11I have no energy and neither does she but we have like this little seat thing in the shower. That's really weird
28:17I don't even know. This is our bathroom
28:19There's like a closet in here. I don't even know
28:22He has two sinks
28:25to me
28:26this
28:28This is like
28:30And then this is her shower
28:33And there's like a place you can sit in there isn't that cool that's what we keep our like shampoo and conditioner on and our like
28:41What is it called?
28:42Like soap and such she says she's gonna move that and kind of just like take a shower sitting
28:47So I think I might end up doing that as well. It's hard for me to even do anything. I have the body aches
28:54So bad
28:55Everything on me hurts. Oh, I'm sorry. There will be no video tomorrow. I hope you guys enjoyed the video that went up today
29:02I'm getting a tremendous amount of hate on it
29:05Which really hurts Becky and I really wanted to share our struggles and I feel like people are
29:10Twisting what I said mainly and making it into something that it's not my goal for this
29:17Lifestyle change was to open up to you guys and share with you guys
29:21Add parts of my weight loss and also the positive parts and I think what hurts the most is like so many comments were like
29:29You're just making excuses. I don't know where there was an excuse
29:33I lost 3.2 pounds and I've lost over 20 in total. I did weigh in today and I'm down more weight
29:39So I'm very happy about that and I just don't see where I'm making excuses
29:42I'm I'm literally just telling you exactly what I'm experiencing in this journey
29:46Something I've noticed is when I take away the food that comforts me and makes me feel happy and better when I'm feeling
29:54Depressed or angry things like that when I take that away
29:57I have to face my demons head-on instead of numbing them with food
30:02I know a lot of people don't understand eating disorders
30:06I know a lot of people look at me and just think oh, you're just fat like you don't have an eating disorder
30:11You know, sometimes I do wish that was true that I literally was just that and it's it's not that
30:18It just sucks so bad. And I know a lot of people do understand as well because I get so many messages you guys are
30:26unbelievable of people just
30:28Saying, you know
30:29I have the same food problems and when I hear you talk about binge eating and food addiction
30:33Like I feel like you're saying those words for me
30:37I feel like you're in my head saying those words that I feel and I'm just too scared to say out loud
30:42So I like to be someone that can inspire others to kind of face their demons head-on as well
30:48I know some people might disagree with me not seeing the therapist, etc, etc
30:53But the thing is I have seen so many therapists and none of them ever clicked for me. It never worked
30:59I wouldn't say that it wouldn't work now, but I just feel nervous
31:03I feel scared to go to a place
31:07Sit down in front of a stranger who doesn't know me
31:11They know nothing about me and tell them everything just pour my heart out. I it's just it's a strange concept and
31:18Therapy is not a cure-all. Neither is weight loss surgery
31:21Everyone has a different way of handling eating disorders or depression and things like that. I'm not saying I'll never see a therapist
31:28I just think shoving it down my throat that I'm not
31:32Currently seeing one it's kind of pointless to do because ultimately it's my choice
31:37Something that I learned growing up with drug addict parents is you can't help someone unless they want to be helped
31:44You can't make someone go to rehab. You can't make someone see a therapist or anything like that
31:49They have to want it bad enough, and I'm not saying I don't I just in this moment
31:54I feel like it's not gonna work for me sitting in front of a stranger
31:58Just it seems odd to sit there and pour my heart out to them
32:02I mean funny thing is I'm currently doing that right now. I don't I don't see all y'all's faces
32:07I don't know what you guys do for occupations
32:10I don't know how many kids you have or what you hobbies have or what your hobbies are so in a way you guys are
32:14Strangers to me too, but I'm just grateful that I have formed this bond with you guys
32:19Even if I do, but hey, I formed a bond to be able to express myself to y'all
32:23I just I really don't want you guys to use my
32:28Struggles against me, and I feel like that's what's happened
32:31I can't even tell you how many messages a day I get people saying film a binge
32:35So we can understand what you're going through film a binge upload it to YouTube. You know and it's like why?
32:41Why would you want me to do that? That's I'll be completely attacked if I did something like that
32:46That's not what I want. That's not positive
32:50That's not it's just it's not positive, and I want to spread positivity
32:54And I know there's gonna be struggles, but I want to talk about that
32:57I don't really want to show them because people will use it against me and a perfect example is when I was talking about
33:04Eating and how I kind of got upset with Becky when she was saying no
33:08No to me people were using that story and those feelings against me instead of saying wow amber Lynch
33:16I'm proud of you for being honest because that's not normally something
33:19I would share and I thought a lot about it if I did want to share that
33:24It just sucks that I feel like everything I do is wrong, and I don't want to feel this way
33:29I'm down over 20 pounds you guys and I have slip-ups. Oh my god
33:33I have slip-ups, and you know weight loss is not linear
33:36I'm bad at pronouncing certain words, but I know what I'm trying to say so sorry
33:40But weight loss isn't gonna be a constant loss loss loss loss loss loss loss loss
33:45It's not gonna be a constant choose healthy choose healthy choose healthy choose healthy
33:48It's not gonna be a constant perfection perfection perfection
33:50I love perfection. It's just it's not going to happen for anybody. I feel like I am
33:57Completely rambling. I just know that every weight loss journey that has been successful
34:03We've had their downs, and they've had their ups
34:05No one is perfect
34:07And I think that's what people expect me to be and even if I did eat nothing
34:12But whole foods, and you know I exercise every day there always be something wrong. There's always something wrong
34:18It's a struggle because I'm just trying to inspire and motivate people which I am doing I get an unbelievable
34:24Amount of messages from you guys, and you guys know what keeps me going keeps me from uploading you can't wait sorry
34:31I was working that long you guys are what keeps me wait
34:34Okay, this is literally my high temperature like taking my brain and like smooshing it because whenever I have a high temperature
34:40I feel like my brain doesn't work
34:42Okay, what I'm trying to say is the people who support me and truly love me and like me for me
34:49You guys are the reasons why I keep uploading
34:51You guys are the reasons why I want to share my journey, and I feel like not only will it help me
34:55But it'll help other people and that's what I want
34:57I I want everyone to be like wow if Amberlynn can do it
35:01I can do it too, and it's just weird beginning of the year when you know I was sharing my weight loss people were like
35:07Yes, Amberlynn you got this like this is amazing good job
35:11And now I feel like almost a month later. I'm still doing
35:14Absolutely incredible and people are like no that's not good enough. That's not good enough, so I'm gonna give you a dislike
35:20I'm gonna leave you a hate comment
35:21I'm not saying all of them are hate comments, but like when people sit there and tell me like I deserve to die
35:27When you start knocking the way, I look physically in a mocking tone. That's hate
35:32I understand a lot of people want to give advice
35:34And I think what's strange while you do this like people get offended when you don't take their advice
35:38And it's hard because I'll read ten comments in a row and they'll all be different
35:44Someone will be like drink only warm water the next person will say no cold water is good for you
35:49The next person will say allow yourself a cheat meal the next person will say no no no don't allow yourself a cheat meal
35:55Next person will say be a vegan next person will say no eat chicken because it's good for you next person will say
36:01Don't weigh yourself daily next person will say actually yes, do weigh yourself daily
36:06It's just like I can't take everyone's advice
36:08I think I just need to figure out what works best for me and obviously what I'm doing now
36:12Currently is what is working for me because I'm losing weight, and I'm facing my demons like I said before okay
36:19I think I'm gonna stop rambling. I literally feel extremely nauseous
36:23I'm gonna take a sip of water and just rest a little bit more
36:26I don't know it kind of feels good to talk to someone because
36:30Becky and I have been on and off sleeping all day long
36:32Just feeling absolutely horrible, and I just want to say hi to y'all and express myself
36:37I don't even know sorry for literally overpowering your snapchat like story
36:43I'm sure some of you are like oh my god shut up already, so I'm gonna shut up
36:46Love you guys
36:47We're gonna see that, but I think that you know because the scale that I have now is the part where you see the weight
36:55I'm looking at it right now like part where you see the weight is like it's on this long like cord
37:01So I think we're gonna move it a little bit farther away from the actual scale so when I do weigh myself naked
37:05I could just always do a video
37:07I always get super nervous that like
37:10It's not gonna go as planned like you're accidentally gonna see like my legs or something
37:14I'm very very self-conscious when it comes to like my body, so I did not want that to happen
37:20So and I know there were like a few people saying how come I was a pitcher
37:25I feel like you're lying about when you actually would just
37:28I'm still on here. I can go into my photos and show you guys. I did take that photo on Monday
37:33I'm not here alive
37:36But what that are just way it was clothes on me and Becky actually didn't experiment
37:39And I was wearing like my normal day-to-day clothes
37:42I actually weighed four pounds more when I was wearing my clothes versus doing it naked
37:47I was like I'm good like I don't need to be weighing my clothes like my clothes are not trying to lose weight
37:52It's trying to lose weight so
37:54Just from now on like I'm literally weighing myself because it makes no sense
37:59To weigh with my clothes on like it literally makes no sense
38:02So what I'm gonna do is just start doing the video since you guys trust that more
38:07I guess I don't really know. I don't know the difference between video versus
38:10But you're like it's gonna say the same thing either way so
38:14Or pounds more because you have clothes on yeah
38:16And I think Becky was like two point six pounds more and I was like how do our clothes away so much?
38:22So then when we got naked we put our clothes literally just on the scale, and yeah our clothes weighed much
38:27I thought it was so funny. I was like what the fuck clothes cannot wait for flipping pounds. Yes, they can
38:34Most of the time for me if I'm wearing a maxi
38:37It's not like this because right now I'm wearing a maxi, but if I'm wearing a shirt
38:40I always wear my bra I work to black undershirts
38:44Including my actual shirt, and you guys always know I wear a cardigan so always
38:48Just up top besides like my pants I'm wearing three shirts a cardigan and a bra
38:54So and when you're as big as me it takes more cloth to make clothing so
39:00Sorry to break it to you. Do you ever stop lying? Oh my god
39:03I wish Becky was in here because I was literally shooketh
39:07When I realized that my clothes I was wearing was four pounds cardigans can be one to two pounds
39:11Yeah, and you guys know that I'm a bigger girl, so my cloth weighs
39:16Damn people don't give you a break jeez I know it's like
39:19I'm literally being so raw with everybody and like so honest and like straightforward
39:24Transparent and like I'm not making excuses. I'm not making lies like I'm literally sharing my journey during exactly how I feel up here
39:30Like I'm not sugarcoating anything. I'm not lying about anything. I'm showing the struggles. I'm showing the positives, and it's like
39:37People still have bullshit to say my jeans have weighed four pounds by themselves are way too big for so she's not lying
39:44No way to weigh 234 if that ever happens. Oh my god. I'm sorry. Well. Yeah clothes can weigh a lot
39:48I like if you guys have a scale I dare you guys right now step on it with clothes on
39:52Take your clothes off step on it again, and you'll be like shocked
39:56It's really weird prove the haters wrong and way now I
40:01Already ate I'm sure it'll be okay. Um okay hold on
40:06I'm literally wearing no bra right now. I'm actually dressed like I look
40:11Okay, I'm gonna try to position you guys
40:17This is ridiculous, I'm not doing it naked so you guys will see it be everything
40:24You guys see that
40:30Okay, can you just hear me I'm gonna have Becky like hold this
40:34I
40:38Already ate and drink tons of water
40:47Or 71.6 or 71.6 that means and
40:53What two days I've lost
40:57Yeah, that's for being sick, but let's hope so I just want to say today
41:03I'm just not what did I eat today? I'm broccoli. I literally just had broccoli like I'm blogging today
41:14All of these veggies I want to use the ones I haven't
41:21So I think I'm just gonna cook them in a pan a little bit of moustache seasoning and some water
41:28Like I said, I don't use oil
41:31Um looks like they need to be cut up a little bit because some chunks are pretty large
41:50God it wasn't worth how I felt my god my goals
41:55Was nice Becky, it's bad. It's like the worst 24 hours ever
42:07Yes, it's gruesome so
42:11Cut up some I don't want to do it all it's just a lot. It's both for Becky and I so
42:17So I'm probably gonna use the rest of this and broccoli
42:20for dinner
42:25But this is how hopefully looks so far
42:31I put
42:32stash seasoning
42:34some minced garlic I
42:37Don't know
42:38Broccoli is not really like my
42:40Forte, I don't care for it too much. But like when I get it at restaurants
42:45I like it because you can tell like they just they just cook it so much better
42:51For some reason when you cook at home like it never tastes as good. I want to some broccoli. I'm sorry
42:56I keep talking about this. It's just I have never made broccoli before and the one time I did make it
43:01It was just really bad. So I never did since then and I want to say how long ago is this?
43:07Probably good like five years ago
43:11So that was great follow my recipe your life will never be the same
43:17You guys I still get out of breath
43:22Every time I get up and off my bed because it is on the floor and I am a fat girl. So
43:27Whoo, we got this. Okay. What's your heart rate? That's a good question. It went up to 96 doing that
43:36Rest my resting heart rate has been around like 69
43:39But it's weird though because like January 1st when I started wearing this it was 79 and every day
43:45It got lower and lower and lower and I think that's really awesome. Do you think the vomiting caused your weight loss?
43:49Oh, I'm sure that helped
43:51It definitely helped. I mean, of course, like would you vomit like your nose? Wait, like, um
43:57But I think that just proves like I'm not lying to you guys. I'm not here to lie
44:04Are you gonna come up here you want to make an appearance? This is Trixie
44:09Why is your shirt like off?
44:13What what is happening?
44:15I love how like now everyone like all the haters want to like talk about rarity now
44:19like it's like if one thing is proven then like the
44:23They have to move on to something else. I don't like it
44:28Dead about it. Um, you actually get business emails
44:31Yes
44:32And I I want I wanted to share this with you guys because I thought it was so funny
44:35Like I have the proof is in the cards, but I don't know if you can actually tear things like this
44:39Um, don't look at me, baby
44:41um
44:42Where was I going with this again? Oh, yeah. Do you guys know the app best fiends?
44:46Do you remember how all the youtubers used to like?
44:50Show it in their videos like they were getting paid for it
44:52I got contacted by best fiends and I was just like so shocked. I was like
44:56boy, so
44:59It was like the craziest thing ever and I get
45:01Contacted by clothes companies all the time like people who have plus-size clothing like they contact me all the time
45:06but it's like I don't have a PO box so I can't sit there and like
45:09Have them send it to me like my real address because I don't want them to know my real address
45:14It's just so I'd be myself a PO box because I really would love to
45:18Get some clothes and try them on for companies. I think that would be awesome. Y'all still doing the money thing
45:23We're not putting money in a jar
45:25I think we kind of forgot about that part because we were so focused on the weight loss, but I mean
45:31If she wins if I win like we'll treat herself to something but we definitely forgot about that
45:36Is it so weight-loss competition? Yeah, what's Becky up to? I
45:41Don't really know. She's just out in the living room
45:43I think in some fresh air because we spent the whole day in here yesterday. We're both really sick
45:48I think we're gonna throw away the sheets. I'm like actually over it. We're gonna put a new sheet down and
45:53We're gonna wash all our pillowcases
45:56Have you ever considered over you as anonymous? I actually went before and it like triggered me really bad, which is
46:03Crazy I know but
46:05Crystal and I just went to one of our favorite like a buff that we went to a buffet
46:11Chinese buffets there. What?
46:15What is the thing baby? I know
46:18Fit, okay, buddy was places called hibachi
46:21You
46:27It's Chinese food sushi things like that
46:31Normally, I go there and easily eat three to four plates of just pure piled on food fried rice
46:37Fried like everything whether it be crap or in good fried chicken, not a single vegetable
46:46For dessert I get a whole plate. I love their ice cream
46:49They have these medium-sized vanilla ice cream cups that I'm obsessed with and I usually have like four of those
46:54I
46:54Wanted to show you guys my choice that I made for today
46:58I did take a picture of it so I can log it on my fitness pal later
47:03I'm honestly
47:05So beyond proud of myself dessert consisted of cantaloupe. I got one of the ice creams
47:10I like and I only took three bites of it like
47:13What?
47:16I love being on track. It feels freaking incredible doing my weekly grocery shopping and I saw pickled asparagus
47:24Probably something I will never try in my life
47:27I'm currently on my way to the OA meeting
47:31I've been texting one of the people that actually attend the OA meeting and she seems really really nice and she's super excited for me
47:37To go there. She's pushing me to go there. It's like we've known each other forever super super nervous. My stomach hurts. Here we go
47:45By the way, some of you are asking why crystals coming with me and if she's an overeater if you're overweight
47:51Then you're overeater because obviously you're overeating to become that big or that overweight or that obese. Yes
47:57She's an overeater obviously since I'm bigger than her and I have binge eating disorder
48:02I am a little worse off than she is
48:04She needs to attend this meeting too and see if it suits her like it's gonna suit me
48:08I don't even know maybe it won't suit me, but I'll let you guys know. There's the building this one right here
48:14I'm pretty sure I just got out of the meeting. I got my little chip for attending
48:18I also had a bunch of pamphlets. It was crystal night and three others
48:23I wasn't expecting to read or anything, but I decided to read felt comfortable there
48:28But not comfortable enough in my own skin to share anything as you guys can tell my cheeks
48:33Are so rather like purple looking so embarrassing. Well, the meeting was an hour
48:38I cried literally ten times plus whenever someone would share their story or they're reading something that struck home. I
48:46Cried and I couldn't help it. They were like silent tears, but there were a lot of them
48:50I really plan on going to this meeting whenever I'm not busy on Friday. I'm really really happy
48:55I went I was taught a lot. I really am not alone
48:59It's insane that these people feel exactly how I do on a day-to-day basis
49:03We just ate at the Cheesecake Factory see the bags back there. I
49:08Always go into the Cheesecake Factory either with two different minds. Oh, I'm on track. Oh, I'm gonna follow
49:16My plan I'm gonna count my calories
49:18I'm gonna get a low-calorie dish and go in there and do the complete opposite and totally binge out or B
49:24I go in there with the mindset of oh, yeah
49:27I'm about to eat the whole world and I don't care who tells me not to I went in there
49:32Debating back and forth. What should I do?
49:35I knew for a fact I wanted to
49:37Get something healthy and this like thing in the back of my head when I kept seeing like the breads and like oh my god
49:43I just want my main dish and my main dish is around 1400 calories
49:46It's the orange chicken full-size super delicious. That's what I wanted. Honestly deep down in my heart. I was like, no
49:52I got a 570 calorie Asian salad, which literally was gigantic
49:58I didn't even finish at all. So I had less than 570 calories
50:03I normally would get a cheesecake. That's around
50:081100 calories, I would leave the place stick because I'd also get appetizers. I'd eat the bread this time
50:13I got a cheesecake that was 600 calories. It was a low-carb of strawberries and I only ate half
50:18I'm walking out of there not full. I'm
50:22Satisfied proud I'm happy and accomplished. I just can't even believe I did this. I honestly
50:30It's crazy like
50:32I don't know. I'm just really proud of myself and I wanted to share that with you guys
50:35Do you think you should go on a road trip? I'm trying to talk her into
50:39I'm going to Indiana
50:41To go to a casino and I know a lot of people are like don't do it in my land waste of money
50:45I'm gonna set like an amount obviously
50:48An amount like, you know $50 each or whatever like even less or more give or take I don't really care
50:54I want to go there and like stay in a hotel and like go to Indiana and like go to the casino cuz I've never
50:58Been to one before and I'm 27
51:0127
51:02You know, and I just think it'd be fun experience. I don't know. I just think it was really fun
51:05so I'm trying to talk her into that like doing it around Valentine's Day or something, but
51:09He also has car anxiety, but like in a different way. She doesn't care about driving like oh, yeah driving's fine
51:14But her whole thing is like, oh my god, what if we break down or wonder if like the oil isn't changed, you know
51:20She's just so silly when it comes to stuff like that. My boob almost popped out
51:25Um, I don't know. I just think it would be so much fun
51:30So I'm trying to talk her into it. I think it'd be so fun. You're gonna waste money on a stupid casino
51:36$50 each is not that much
51:39What you doing?
51:41What are you doing?
51:45Thought it over eaters anonymous trigger you because we talked a lot about feelings. I cried the whole time
51:51I went home and I binged
51:54Because I was feeling all types of emotions and I just wanted to numb them
51:58I really am not alone is insane that these people feel exactly how I do on a day-to-day basis
52:04I'm gonna end my vlog for tonight you guys I have to go to sleep early or at least try to probably not gonna happen
52:11Crystal and I have to wake up super early tomorrow before it's even daytime. She has to go try on bridesmaid dresses tomorrow
52:18So that is the plan. I have a feeling we're gonna get three hours of sleep. Well, that's cool
52:22It's actually really fun to see her so try it on dresses because she doesn't wear dresses we all get a kick out of it
52:28I'll see you guys in the next video. Bye
52:30Hello, everybody. I got three hours of sleep. That's alright being a protein shake with the
52:37Ultimate muscle protein powder and cookies and cream. I already made it for crystal not to make mine. I measure everything out
52:44the serving of the mango mambo a serving of fat-free milk
52:48Stevia and the raw packet and it comes out really really good
52:57That's a hundred and forty grams of fruit this is gonna be 32 grams of protein powder
53:12Eight ounces of fat-free milk
53:18And my studio
53:42Yeah
53:44People's thousands of dollars. Oh god, I wouldn't
53:48I'd probably just do like
53:50Like use like the penny machines
53:52But that's what her sister her sister actually just recently went and she has penny machines and she won $160
53:59I was like, oh wow, that's cool. How are your kitties? They're doing so great. They love it here
54:03and they're so comfortable here and they play here and it just makes me so happy and I
54:08Was nervous at first because they were very
54:10Trixie
54:12Because they see what's very scared I think like when cats move like around they get like
54:18Which I understand that but they love it go in a mini vacay
54:22You all deserve to get away for a bit and vlog it have some drinks and go to
54:26Yeah, that sounds fun. I love the beach. Does anyone remember a rocks in her sink? I do remember that
54:32Why did you put rocks in your sink? So for my bathroom, I'm going for like a mermaid
54:37Beachy feel destiny's doing Star Wars and hers
54:42So cute I want to show you guys what I did to my sink I haven't done much in here
54:45I have bought tons of stuff, but I haven't had time to like decorate though
54:49I noticed some people this might be really weird. But when people go to wash their hands, they're washing their hands over this
54:56I think it's really peaceful
54:57I don't know
54:58So I listen to you guys a lot of you said to have this in the sink is a bad idea
55:02Like bacteria and such you guys are definitely right
55:06It does sound kind of gross to have people wash their hands in here and then have it run on this
55:10Thankfully, no one has really used this bathroom yet
55:15Thank or
55:18Did I go
55:27From Australia do it
55:33And the bathroom was right next to the kitchen so I was like, okay we won't wash our hands in here we'll wash
55:43What did you think when a Berlin filled your bathroom sink with shells as decoration
55:47Um, I think she had done it. It seemed I think my stepmom she didn't do shells
55:51But she put one of the like flat marbles like the fishbowl marbles
55:55Yeah
55:56She put those in her sink and I thought it was cute and the shells were a good idea that she ended up not
56:01Doing it. Now. This is Florida like, holy shit
56:10Just taking my sweet time
56:20Flopping in there I start to shark. It's probably just a turtle or jellyfish
56:24I
56:30Don't feel
56:52Yes
56:54Oh
57:07Pretty Bay is gonna be holding our shoes. Oh my god you guys
57:15Beautiful
57:25You chicken shit, we gotta rinse our feet off now
57:32It's so beautiful here
57:39You guys excited
57:47Destiny you on it. You want to tell the story of what happened at the restaurant? No
57:51What why don't you ask him you want to tell us are you shy
57:57We were at a restaurant
58:00So embarrassed vlogging in front of you some random dude walks up to us and he's like, hey
58:04Can I sit with you guys?
58:05So he like sat with us and we've been talking to him for how long has it been like four hours?
58:09It's been about four hours, right? Somehow we ended up at the beach at night. I
58:13Can't really see you. But are you gonna sing Libby? Yeah. Okay. I'm gonna get close to
58:20Oh
58:33No wrong way
58:42Would you ever hear snake bites again? Yes, I like how Becky Becky looks in this thumbnail, so I'm gonna choose this thumbnail
58:48So I choose a thumbnail I screen grab it and then I go to this little collage thingy majigger I
58:56Put the photo in there. I'm trying to upload this for you guys tonight since you guys asked for it
59:03um, and
59:05Then I like to type something in it. I don't know what to type
59:09So then I always change my thumbnail will set my thumbnail from my phone because it's easier like you look so cute in this
59:16Oh my god
59:19Okay, so what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna answer like five more questions and then I have to go put my description below of
59:25My video and then I'm gonna let it go live. So
59:29Let's do five more questions. And then you guys can go watch my video
59:33It's a vlog
59:35Kind of, you know mediocre. It's not even that great. Let's be real but it's a vlog
59:39So would you ever go back to college probably not college is not for me
59:42You know collab with any youtuber who to be you'd probably be Trisha Paytas
59:46So, thank you guys for watching I'm gonna go finish up my video real quick and then I'm gonna make it live
59:54I'll see you guys later
59:56Bye