First Over Eaters Annon Chip & Working At Walmart?: Reacting With Positive PR:April 24-29, 2015
The last time we saw Amberlynn she was in the emergency room because of a her gallbladder. Now she and Krystle are on their way to IHOP for a celebratory late night dinner since no surgery is needed. The next day they attend their first Over Eaters Annon meeting. They are put to the test when they decide on the Cheesecake Factory for lunch. Amberlynn has been having trouble with the scale reading her weight but finally gets a brief reading. On one of the days she takes us to the gym with her. We end the video with a breakup Q&A where Amberlynn explains the dynamic of her relationship with Krystle.
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00:01:44Hi everyone, welcome back to another live stream. Hope you're having a good day
00:01:49All right, so I thought today we would do
00:01:53The 2015 timeline now we've working on
00:02:00Destiny's part of 2015
00:02:02Where Evelyn meets destiny in July, so we just finished July, but I thought I'd go back and
00:02:10Continue where we were
00:02:12In the kind of crystal era before she meets Becky or Becky before she meets destiny
00:02:20Um
00:02:21So they had broken up at the first of the month. So now
00:02:27Amberlynn's gonna talk more. Well around the end of the video. She's gonna talk more about
00:02:33Her breakup with crystal
00:02:36and
00:02:37What I find fascinating about that is that she kind of says that she already has plans to move
00:02:43so I'm wondering if she like
00:02:45At this point because she had she had been talking to destiny
00:02:49Um, I think she said around the 10th is when they started talking and at this point at the end of this month here
00:02:57She's already talking about moving with destiny and said that only crystal and crystals on it because like she's friends with her
00:03:04Know about it. So I was I just find it fascinating that she was already planning that
00:03:11Within like, you know 20
00:03:14Yeah, cuz it's 29th when she announces it basically or says it in the video
00:03:22but it was like, you know, like
00:03:2620 days, it's pretty fast
00:03:31So the last time we left off on this one she was at the emergency room and
00:03:37She was getting her
00:03:40Gallstones checked out because she was having issues with that again
00:03:44After the breakup with crystal she was kind of going through that
00:03:48rapid weight loss
00:03:54Moment I guess what she does after a breakup she kind of gets back on track a little bit
00:03:59but but kind of extremely where she loses a lot of weight and then her gallstones start to come back up again, so
00:04:07Gallstones act up and then she it falls off the
00:04:11the healthy eating
00:04:12habits again
00:04:19So we're going to join her now and she's going to be going
00:04:26Out to celebrate at IHOP
00:04:31Late night after leaving the hospital
00:04:34But yeah, so a couple of the things that she does in this one is other than like
00:04:39You know the grocery hauls and stuff that they do
00:04:43she's
00:04:44Gonna go to either
00:04:47Overeaters anonymous and
00:04:50it's kind of funny not really but she like kind of insinuates that crystal also needs to go and
00:04:56I feel like out of all the girlfriends. She's had like, I don't know crystals not really that much
00:05:03of a
00:05:04in need to go to the overeaters anonymous, but
00:05:08Anyway, it's just it's just funny. You'll see how in Berlin kind of puts it
00:05:12and then
00:05:15She decides that she's gonna apply
00:05:17For jobs and the one that she applies for and kind of talks about is Walmart
00:05:24She yeah, she went and applied at Walmart
00:05:30and
00:05:32I'm wondering that's probably before she decides to move with destiny, but
00:05:38I'm not sure exactly because it's like at this point
00:05:45It's like in the like the twat the 20s of the
00:05:50Month like through the the 20th to the 29th, basically
00:05:56She applies for the job, but then I think she also has the plans to move with destiny
00:06:01so I'm not quite sure exactly where those plans change, but
00:06:06it's uh
00:06:08Yeah, it's cool. She decided to apply at Walmart because you know, she loves Walmart
00:06:16All right, so I
00:06:23Started up my memberships again because I wanted to have the emojis in there. I love the emojis. They're so much fun
00:06:31so
00:06:33If you're into getting memberships on channels you could check mine out
00:06:39I'm gonna be going live like all the time. So you'll have lots of other opportunities to use the emojis
00:06:46Plus there's other perks, too
00:06:50But yeah, okay, so I think I'm gonna get on to this video now blessed hi good to see you I'm glad you can make it
00:07:01All right, so yeah, we're just leaving the emergency room here
00:07:07I just got out of the hospital
00:07:09I'm actually leaving grateful happy relieved and I have a lot more knowledge on my gallbladder and my gallstones
00:07:17I did not get surgery and I'm not getting surgery which I'm actually kind of happy about they said they'd only do surgery on me
00:07:24If my gallbladder was infected and they said it was not infected at all. I'm really really happy
00:07:30It's not infected because I was nervous that it was the fact that it isn't just makes me feel really really relieved
00:07:35He told me a lot of ways that I can handle gallstones. They prescribed me some medicine
00:07:42They said that Prilosec actually helps with gallbladder attacks, which is really shocking to me, but kind of awesome
00:07:48That was definitely a rollercoaster
00:07:55It's
00:07:58Blessed welcome to memberships. You're officially my first member
00:08:03awesome, I forgot to mention too that I have the
00:08:08the membership link pinned up in where I usually well, I always
00:08:13pin the
00:08:16Length of the video that we're watching
00:08:211 a.m. Right now we got there at 5 p.m. And we're leaving at 1 a.m
00:08:25I haven't even eaten half of my calories for today because I barely ate anything all day long
00:08:30I don't feel like cooking at 1 a.m
00:08:32Especially because crystals parents are sleeping and they have to wake up for work super early. They actually have to wake up at 3 a.m
00:08:37I don't want to be making a bunch of racket downstairs. They like climbing that tree
00:08:40That's why it looks like a racket house, especially rarity gray
00:08:44We're gonna have to get a new one because I love the tree. Love it
00:08:47We're gonna go to IHOP and I'm gonna choose a meal that fits into my calories because I'm not going over
00:08:52I promised you guys I wouldn't and I'm still succeeding in that promise. I'm
00:08:56Starving I haven't eaten since 4. I just got home. I'm about to go to sleep. I know this video wasn't much
00:09:03I hope you guys had a great day today, and I will see you in my next vlog. Bye
00:09:23Yeah, so, okay there's the
00:09:28The end of the hospital journey
00:09:31And then we're on to the next day and it's all the 24th because it was like late after midnight
00:09:40When they left the hospital
00:09:43Hello everybody you hear a whining cat at the door he wants to come in this room
00:09:48We don't allow him in this room Crystal has a bunch of cords behind her TV, which is right in front of me
00:09:52He likes to chew on them. We don't want him to like shock himself or ruin a cord
00:09:56So we just don't allow him in here not functioned for a cat. Today's the day where I try to go to another
00:10:03Oh, yeah, I think in the previous vlog too. She was saying how or she showed a cord that the cats
00:10:11what
00:10:12Not the cats one of the cats smoky and
00:10:16the black one
00:10:18Had chewed her cord. So I think that's who she's talking to her talking about
00:10:25Oh a meeting Friday has finally come and gone and came back
00:10:31Yeah, so last Friday, I guess she tried going to the meeting
00:10:34But I don't know if there was no meeting or she couldn't find it
00:10:38She wasn't she wasn't sure what happened, but they weren't able to go like they didn't find the meeting or there wasn't a meeting
00:10:46But either way they didn't make it to the meeting. They went there
00:10:50She showed herself go in there and stuff and then they said it was like raining out and they're running around the rain
00:10:56so
00:10:57Yeah, they're gonna attempt to go this week
00:11:01I'm really nervous
00:11:02I keep trying to call the number that's on the OA meeting details board
00:11:07The person never answers I even tried texting and I got no response
00:11:11I tried last Friday as well and no response and no answer. I'm not even sure if this meeting still happens
00:11:18There's only two meetings in the place that I live
00:11:21One of them is more like Bible study on the website
00:11:25It shows what kind of meeting it is the one that I'm choosing to go to says that it's topic slash berries
00:11:30That's the type of meeting that I want. I'm just hoping everything goes as planned today perfume
00:11:35I'm gonna use today 747 club tonight's diva night, New York this really really cute bottle
00:11:42I love this one Selena Gomez Viva more crystal got me this for Christmas and it smells so good outfit of the daytime
00:11:49Harrison a bun mint flower necklace
00:11:51I got from Walmart heart diamond ring that I got from Avenue square diamond earrings that I got from Charlotte Rose
00:11:56I'm just wearing a black shirt with this lace netting on the side
00:12:00I'm pretty sure I got this shirt from Walmart about two years ago. Of course my adorable new purse. Yes for the win. Oh
00:12:09My gosh, it's so bright out
00:12:11I just like literally can't even open my eyeballs or other socks on the ground crystal and I just went to one of our favorite
00:12:17Like a buffet we went to a buffet
00:12:21Chinese buffets there, but what?
00:12:24What is buffet, baby? I know
00:12:28Buffet, okay
00:12:31Mm-hmm
00:12:34It's like the entry
00:12:39Entry entry
00:12:42You know, I had to go look it up cuz I thought
00:12:47She knows she knows it's an entree with in her newest video she ordered salmon and she says
00:12:54I'll get the entry salmon. So I was like, well, maybe
00:12:58Maybe this menu does say entry. I don't know maybe
00:13:06It doesn't it said Andre I had to go look it up
00:13:08I was like, I'll give her the benefit of the doubt maybe but now she knew what she was doing
00:13:13She was playing with us like she does the buffet
00:13:17Places called hibachi
00:13:20You
00:13:24It's Chinese food sushi things like that
00:13:28Normally, I go there and easily eat three to four plates of just pure piled on food fried rice
00:13:34Fried like everything whether it be crab or in good fried chicken, not a single vegetable
00:13:43For dessert I get a whole plate. I love their ice cream
00:13:46They have these medium-sized vanilla ice cream cups that I'm obsessed with and I usually have like four of those
00:13:51I
00:13:52Wanted to show you guys my choice that I made for today
00:13:55I did take a picture of it so I can log it on my fitness pal later
00:14:00I'm honestly
00:14:02So beyond proud of myself dessert consisted of cantaloupe. I got one of the ice creams that I like and I only took three bites
00:14:09of it like
00:14:11What like who am I now like who am I I love being on track it feels
00:14:16Freaking incredible doing my weekly grocery shopping and I saw pickled asparagus
00:14:21Probably something I will never try in my life
00:14:24I'm currently on my way to the
00:14:30Okay, so they went to eat and then they went to get groceries and now they're going to a meeting
00:14:35Hopefully they didn't get anything that's gonna like spoil while it's sitting in the in the vehicle
00:14:41During their meeting
00:14:44Oh a meeting
00:14:45I've been texting one of the people that actually attend the OA meeting and she seems really really nice and she's super excited for me
00:14:52To go there. She's pushing me to go there
00:14:54It's like we've known each other forever super super nervous. My stomach hurts. Here we go
00:14:59Oh, and by the way, some of you are asking why crystals coming with me?
00:15:04and if she's an overeater if you're overweight then you're overeater because obviously you're overeating to become that big or
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00:15:13Kitty Connecticut, hi, welcome
00:15:18Okay, so here yeah here she kind of
00:15:25The crystals right there beside her too and she's saying this I
00:15:31Think she's doing it to make herself feel better. Just like how destiny drives the shopping carts the
00:15:38Scooters in Walmart just so Amberlynn doesn't feel bad. But just the way she kind of like
00:15:45Rose crystal under the bus a little bit about this. Yeah. All right
00:15:52Or that overweight or that obese yes, she's an overeater obviously since I'm bigger than her and I have binge eating disorder
00:15:58I am a little worse off than she is
00:16:01She needs to attend this meeting too and see if it suits her like it's gonna suit me
00:16:05I don't even know. Maybe it won't suit me, but I'll let you guys know. There's the building this one right here
00:16:10I'm pretty sure I just got out of the meeting. I got my little chip for attending
00:16:15I also had a bunch of pamphlets. It was crystal night and three others
00:16:20I wasn't expecting to read or anything, but I decided to read felt comfortable there
00:16:24But not comfortable enough in my own skin to share anything as you guys can tell my cheeks are
00:16:30So rather like purple looking so embarrassing the meeting was an hour
00:16:34I cried literally ten times plus whenever someone would share their story or they're reading something that struck home. I
00:16:43Cried and I couldn't help it. They were like silent tears, but there were a lot of them
00:16:47I really plan on going to this meeting whenever I'm not busy on Friday. I'm really really happy
00:16:52I went I was taught a lot. I really am NOT alone this
00:16:56I wonder if we'll see her go next Friday. We'll have to wait until me
00:17:08It's insane that these people feel exactly how I do on a day-to-day basis
00:17:12I'm gonna end my vlog for tonight you guys I have to go to sleep early or at least try to probably not gonna happen
00:17:18Crystal and I have to wake up super early tomorrow before it's even daytime
00:17:22She has to go try on bridesmaid dresses tomorrow, so that is the plan
00:17:26I have a feeling we're gonna get three hours of sleep, but that's cool
00:17:31It's actually really fun to see her so try it on dresses because she doesn't wear dresses
00:17:34We all get a kick out of it. I'll see you guys in my next video. Bye
00:17:38Hello everybody
00:17:41Sonia hi good to see you
00:17:46I got three hours of sleep. That's alright
00:17:48We have to drive about an hour away crystal has to try on bridesmaid dresses
00:17:53Here's an outfit of the day hair in a bun
00:17:56diamond pearl earrings that say meow cat ears
00:18:00I got these from Claire's a silver diamond spiked necklace. I got from Charlotte ruse
00:18:07Heart diamond ring that I got from Avenue
00:18:12It's supposed to be like 50 degrees today, so I'm wearing a scarf I
00:18:17Forget where I got this from but I think the mall ain't cardigan
00:18:21from Walmart in this black
00:18:24tank top with the silver beads
00:18:28that I got from
00:18:30I'm pretty sure Walmart Walmart's awesome being a protein shake with the ultimate muscle protein
00:18:42She's already buttering them up
00:18:46Trying to get Walmart sponsored
00:18:50Powder and cookies and cream
00:18:52Already made it for crystal not to make mine. I measure everything out
00:18:56It's a serving of the mango mambo a serving of fat-free milk
00:19:00Stevia and the raw packet and it comes out really really good
00:19:09Hi the corset
00:19:13Oh, I hope you're having a good day other than the back muscle
00:19:17Relax, just hang out
00:19:24That's a hundred and forty grams of fruit this is gonna be 32 grams of protein powder
00:19:38Eight ounces of fat-free milk
00:19:43And my stevia
00:20:05We're just now arriving to the place where crystal is gonna try on the dress
00:20:10I'm gonna keep all that private though, because obviously it's like a private matter
00:20:14So I won't be vlogging that and then get something to eat somewhere. I'm a little confused on what's happening tonight
00:20:19We're supposed to go bowling. I'm not sure yet. The dress train on is officially over with
00:20:25I'm super excited to announce that all bridesmaids have their dresses and they're very very cute. I
00:20:32Don't know there was no stop sign. I think they have to stop and we just get to keep going. Yeah
00:20:37We're on our way to the Cheesecake Factory right now with a lot of pressure from everybody
00:20:42They really wanted me to get this. It's a jumper and I got it. I don't really wear
00:20:48Jumpers, I don't wear dresses. I don't wear skirts
00:20:52I'm gonna get it and I'm like nervous for some reason. It's like very outside of my comfort zone
00:20:57I just really appreciate crystal
00:20:59I appreciate her family and just everything that they do for me how they encourage me
00:21:03Okay, so she was trying on stuff while crystal was trying on stuff that's what it sounds like
00:21:10Crystal's sisters getting married in October, I believe of this year 2015 and
00:21:19So they were doing like a third tried on the bridesmaid dresses. So it's just interesting that Amberlynn
00:21:26Tried on the bridesmaid dresses. So it's just interesting that she's trying on the bridesmaid dresses
00:21:31Interesting that Amberlynn tried some stuff on too
00:21:37Usually, you know if you're not in the party, you usually just kind of you know watch or whatever
00:21:47She found something she liked to
00:21:51We just ate at the Cheesecake Factory see the bags back there I always go into the Cheesecake Factory
00:22:00All right, so I find this interesting she's gonna tell us what she usually gets at the Cheesecake Factory and
00:22:07It's a little different than what she gets
00:22:11In the vlogs that we see basically when she goes to the Cheesecake Factory with
00:22:16with destiny or Becky
00:22:21Factory either with two different minds. Oh, I'm on track. Oh, I'm gonna follow
00:22:27My plan I'm gonna count my calories
00:22:29I'm gonna get a low calorie dish and go in there and do the complete opposite and totally binge out or B
00:22:35I go in there with the mindset of oh, yeah
00:22:38I'm about to eat the whole world and I don't care who tells me not to I went in there debating back and forth
00:22:45What should I do?
00:22:46I knew for a fact I wanted to
00:22:48Get something healthy and this like thing in the back of my head when I kept seeing like the breads and like oh my god
00:22:54I just want my main dish and my main dish is around 1,400 calories. It's the orange chicken full-size super delicious
00:23:00And that's what I wanted. Honestly deep down in my heart. I was like, no I got a
00:23:05570 calorie Asian salad, which literally was gigantic. I didn't even finish at all. So I had less than 570 calories
00:23:15I normally would get a cheesecake. That's around
00:23:191100 calories, I would leave the place stick because I'd also get appetizers. I'd eat the bread this time
00:23:24I got a cheesecake that was 600 calories. It was a look
00:23:29Okay, so she says usually she gets bread appetizer
00:23:34the orange chicken and
00:23:37cheesecake and
00:23:39usually what we see or get is
00:23:42bread orange chicken and
00:23:45sometimes ice cream
00:23:47So it kind of changes up eventually
00:23:50Low carb of strawberries and I only eat
00:23:57Little Craig look little Craig. Hi welcome
00:24:03Half I'm walking out of there not full. I'm satisfied
00:24:08Proud I'm happy and accomplished. I just can't even believe I did this. I honestly
00:24:14It's crazy like I don't know I'm just really proud of myself and I wanted to share that with you guys
00:24:26I bought this gum. I was super excited for the seasonal edition confetti cake pop
00:24:31So I've heard a lot of good things about it. I tried it today crystal really really liked it and I literally
00:24:38Didn't it literally tasted like science
00:24:41Like I could taste plastic
00:24:50That's an awesome description of gum it tasted like science
00:24:57That's funny
00:25:00No, I just didn't care for it too much. I don't know I might give it to her or her dad and
00:25:05Try to find me another gum cuz I like gum to have when I'm feeling hungry at night and I have no more calories
00:25:09I like to chew on a piece of gum
00:25:12Crystal and I we're gonna go to
00:25:15Bowling with some people but that didn't turn out to be happening because it's actually really bad weather right now
00:25:21We've been really really wanting to see the movie unfriended. So we're gonna go see that today. I'm super super super excited
00:25:28This theater is really the biggest theater of everything in my life
00:25:32The shots pretty dark I tried lighting it up a bit, but it's still pretty dark
00:25:40I'm gonna see it and the screen is IMAX. So this is gonna be scary
00:25:46Remember I told you guys I don't like that one gum
00:25:49We end up going to Target
00:25:52Because we wanted to get ourselves a little snack. So we're not going over calories. You know I'm saying
00:25:56And I'm getting more gum I love this one it's mint chocolate chip sugar-free, baby
00:26:05Also got a sweet watermelon and a mixed berry
00:26:18And here's some music in the background so I just want to pause it for a second, but
00:26:22I'm gonna keep these all in my purse because I'm starting to carry my big purse
00:26:25I used to carry big purses all the time, but I completely stopped for some odd reason
00:26:28Anyways, we're still the only people in here
00:26:33You know what that means
00:26:37Just got home today has been a crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy long day
00:26:42I'm so excited to be back in the theater. I'm so excited to be back in the theater
00:26:46I'm so excited to be back in the theater. I'm so excited to be back in the theater
00:26:49I'm so excited to be back in the theater. I'm so excited to be back in the theater
00:26:56Cheesecake factory no wedding dress try on cheesecake factory in the movie so
00:27:03It's a busy day
00:27:09Crystal and I just got back from Walmart. I wanted to show you the couple of things
00:27:12I got I got some food necessity items. I wasn't able to get the other day already put those all away
00:27:17We got a fan because we've been needing one for our bedroom because it gets really really hot in here
00:27:23So I'm super excited to set this up tomorrow
00:27:25Crystal got a hand sanitizer
00:27:28for her purse
00:27:30She got this really cute tank top
00:27:33Chevron silver and black I got a body fantasies Twilight Mist body fantasies pink manila kiss
00:27:41body fantasies
00:27:43Japanese cherry blossom One Direction called our moment and
00:27:48Oh my goodness, she has so many scents already and she gets so many more
00:27:54She's got to add to that horde. It's not even a collection at this point
00:28:00There's so many of them
00:28:02like body sprays and perfumes
00:28:06And body sprays these perfume bottles are so cute look at that
00:28:11There's kisses on this one cherry blossoms on this one
00:28:16And like a little twilight forest on this one
00:28:20Super super cute. I gotta admit today was a struggle for me when it comes to me wanting to binge at the movie theater
00:28:27I wanted an icy didn't get one before the movie theater. I wanted
00:28:32And to buy a whole bag of Milk Dove
00:28:38Didn't do it after the movie theater I wanted a slurpee didn't do it
00:28:45She's got a list of things here
00:28:51Oh the the package of the gum, I think there's like four packs of gum in that one package
00:28:57I think that's how it worked. That's why they look so big
00:29:02Well at Walmart I wanted a pint of Ben and Jerry
00:29:06Didn't do it among all that. I had so many triggers just earlier regarding the Cheesecake Factory after I had no more calories
00:29:13I literally just wanted everything. I really really wanted to binge really really bad
00:29:19Crystal knew this she helped me
00:29:21I am so so grateful for her when I told her I feel like I just want to stuff my feelings and her exact words
00:29:28Were you would feel so much better if you didn't I know it's just like a common typical sentence
00:29:33But I really really felt it and it hit home and she was right. I'm glad I didn't binge
00:29:39I'm very very very very happy with myself. I just edited this full
00:29:47Yes, so you can see how she actually gets support from crystal
00:29:51It's nice to see because she well
00:29:53I can't say she doesn't get that support from destiny because destiny has said before how like
00:29:58she has suggested like maybe you shouldn't get that or maybe you shouldn't eat that but Amberlynn kind of like
00:30:05does it anyway, but I
00:30:08I sometimes she says here how crystal like convinces her. There's been a couple times
00:30:15There was one time I think she went downstairs to get something and she asked her
00:30:21Crystal went downstairs to get something and really asked her to get something for her and she's like, are you sure?
00:30:27You're gonna go over your calories and then she said, all right
00:30:30No, I won't get it. And then she came on and goes I didn't go over my calories
00:30:35So like crystal was helping her out
00:30:41Vlogged I realized I didn't do an outro. It's getting really really late
00:30:44I'm just gonna say good night to you guys, and I hope you guys had a great day. Bye
00:30:50Hello everybody the night before I literally got zero sleep. I think about two hours
00:30:55I ended up falling asleep super late last night. I was so
00:30:59So tired we always set our alarm no matter what no matter if we have to go somewhere or not
00:31:04I just decided let's not set an alarm just to catch up on some sleep and we slept
00:31:11I
00:31:11Like how she says I decided that we don't set an alarm instead of we decided she's like crystal
00:31:18We're not setting an alarm
00:31:24For a long time we slept until 130
00:31:28I wanted to talk about a couple things real quick one
00:31:31I am really behind on uploading vlogs. I
00:31:36Kitty Connecticut, yeah, I totally agree
00:31:42Destiny seemed more level-headed than
00:31:47Then kind of what was shown in the vlogs or how she was acting and stuff but like you could tell that
00:31:53Like destiny has this maturity about her even though she has the immature side of her as well
00:32:02You
00:32:03But yeah, she was just like
00:32:06she would you know when she corrects Amberlynn or something with her grammar or
00:32:13Just help her with different information or something. She would just
00:32:18You know dismiss destiny and be insulted by it so as destiny had said in
00:32:25in the
00:32:282023
00:32:29She did a live stream and she says that she just didn't want to start crap with Amberlynn. So she just didn't bother
00:32:39Like correcting her grammar or helping her with her food at that point because I think within the cup first couple months
00:32:48She tried and it just didn't work
00:32:51When yeah, what destiny has said that she tried to help her like with not going out she told them she's
00:32:57Amberlynn was complaining one time saying oh we go out all the time like the red Denny's
00:33:02and she's like we go out all the time and it costs like $40 to eat and
00:33:10Destiny's like well, or she said something about like how there's like
00:33:15Not nothing open but the how they just don't want to go home and cook after work because they work until like 11 o'clock
00:33:21at night
00:33:22so she said that
00:33:25She suggested that they could eat at home destiny
00:33:29But Amberlynn says I'm 25 years old if I want to eat out I'm I live on my own
00:33:35I want to do if I want to go out and eat I can
00:33:39What she said I can
00:33:45I'm trying to think of how destiny said she's like, I'm 25 years old and I can finally do whatever I want
00:33:50So
00:33:53Then yeah, they go out to eat because Amberlynn wants to
00:34:00She didn't want to deal with the binge monster, I guess
00:34:06Have all my vlogs
00:34:08Edited somewhere. I kind of fell behind on uploading because I got busy certain days
00:34:13There was actually a couple days where our internet was actually really slow and my computer is so annoying
00:34:18I'm about six days behind almost a week. That's okay. I'm still gonna upload all the videos
00:34:24Don't fret to if you guys want to follow me on Instagram
00:34:28Here is my handle or username as they call it now
00:34:31I post a picture a day of my body just because I want to go back and see progress
00:34:36So you guys should definitely follow me on there. I also post inspirational quotes meals
00:34:41I'm eating three the last two days have been exceptionally cold for spring and around this time
00:34:47It confuses my like body and I get really chapped lips, which could possibly cause
00:34:54Little Craig shots fired shots fired
00:35:02Cause a cold sore here
00:35:04I feel really bad pain if I end up getting a cold sore videos will have to stop until the cold sore is gone
00:35:11It's something I've dealt with my whole life
00:35:13Last thing I want to talk about is I do plan on weighing myself here in a minute last time
00:35:17I weighed myself the scale wouldn't read me. I really really really hope the scale just reads me
00:35:23That was my goal for this week
00:35:25I just weighed myself and had a little bit of brunch skill that we have doesn't weigh up to about
00:35:32420 pounds
00:35:35Okay, so I think when I was reviewing
00:35:39July of 2015, which I did that like a couple days ago. I
00:35:44Remember Amberlynn saying that the scale at crystals wouldn't read her and I thought it was up to 350
00:35:49But now she's saying it's 420
00:35:52so
00:35:56Yeah, I think by January of
00:36:002016 she's up to four. I want to say 80
00:36:0580
00:36:07because she finally gets a scale and and weighs in and that's like
00:36:14From meeting that's just for meeting destiny from this point to meeting destiny. And then yeah, so the end of
00:36:22Of
00:36:232015
00:36:28I didn't like it was so sad because she seemed like she was just like really happy with destiny
00:36:33but then she was just kind of like not in control of her eating habits almost because she was just so
00:36:41excited almost and happy to be out and doing something different and everything was so exciting with destiny and
00:36:49So, yes, that's quite a bit
00:36:52Just from from this point on
00:36:55420 pounds was naturally my highest weight when I was 16 years old. I probably weighed that much for
00:37:02Years to be honest probably until I was like 20 21
00:37:06I'm currently 24. If you guys don't know the fact that the scale wasn't
00:37:10Yeah, so when she met crystal that's when she lost all all the 89 pounds she talks about
00:37:19Every time I say that 89 pounds just say 90
00:37:22She lost 90 pounds 89
00:37:26That's why it's so funny
00:37:32Reading me because I reached 420 again
00:37:38Yeah, that's when she lost all the weight is when she first met crystal and then
00:37:45Well, she'll explain during the
00:37:49During the it's like a breakup Q&A, I guess she'll kind of explain
00:37:54their
00:37:56Relationship dynamic over the last couple of years and how that might have affected her weight loss journey
00:38:05And or around there really
00:38:11It absolutely hurts
00:38:13Really
00:38:17It absolutely hurts I
00:38:19Don't want to cry. It's crazy to me that through everything I
00:38:24Reach that weight again. I just can't believe it. I'm glad I know now happy to announce that the scale finally read me again
00:38:31I'm really really happy I could finally
00:38:35Yeah, so at this point she would be under
00:38:40420
00:38:43Let's just have 420 so
00:38:45To 480. So that's like 60 pounds in like six months
00:38:50basically, oh my
00:38:55He makes small goals and be like, oh I want to lose two pounds
00:38:58I'm tired of huge goals because they make me feel overwhelmed. I sabotage myself. I weighed in today at
00:39:05405 point two
00:39:08Okay, well it's like nine months but 405 so it's not 420
00:39:16Wow
00:39:20Like when you really think about it because there was that noticeable like weight gain when she first got with destiny but like well
00:39:29I'd say that's
00:39:32Emotional eating even if it's not like a sad emotion she was, uh, you know happy I guess you could say
00:39:44It's bittersweet I wish I was at my lowest weight still can't keep holding on to that
00:39:49This is a new journey in this journey. I lost a lot of weight this week. I'm actually really happy tomorrow's like my official weigh-in day
00:40:01I
00:40:17Got this book eat what you love love what you eat how to break your eat repent repeat cycle
00:40:23Pretty thick book. It comes with that. Am I hungry mindful eating program? It's a workbook and journal
00:40:29It teaches you just how to eat mindfully
00:40:34You go through a lot of questions and steps to kind of understand
00:40:41Kitty yeah
00:40:43She said before that she actually doesn't know what her highest weight was because she said at this at this point
00:40:50Anyway, because she said
00:40:52The last time she weighed herself
00:40:55Was she was at 420 and then she stopped weighing herself
00:41:01But I'm thinking if she started a weight loss journey with crystal that she probably would have weighed in at that point
00:41:07but she didn't really say because
00:41:10well, she said that she now I'm thinking about it too she could have weighed more and
00:41:16maybe lost a few pounds and then
00:41:20Started the weight loss journey, so she could have been higher than 420
00:41:24But when she started this 89 LB journey, it was 420 was her highest known weight, maybe
00:41:33You know what you're going through and why you eat the way you do
00:41:38Crystal's parents are all about the essential oils. They literally have over a hundred
00:41:42I'll have to show you her mom made this thieves one for cold sores
00:41:46So I put all my lips and it's sort of like burning. I have to go ask them if that's even normal
00:41:58I've tried that stuff on my lips. We'll see you burning because I'm burning bad
00:42:10It's almost like numb
00:42:13You
00:42:14So Chris ash, oh my goodness. Did you I don't know if you've seen it. I
00:42:19Don't know but there was a video that
00:42:23Nick Akado just recently put out and it just came up on my feed and he's always trolling Amberlynn and
00:42:29He says some he just goes on like a rant for about 45 minutes. It feels like about how he tried
00:42:37He's trying to lose weight
00:42:39he's on his weight loss journey because he just keeps gaining and losing the same like a few pounds and that's kind of like what
00:42:46Amberlynn's been doing for the last couple years. She's been around I
00:42:51think it's like
00:42:52Let's say 480 to
00:42:55520 that seems to be where she's been for the last few years
00:43:00But anyway, I think he was just trolling her and he just with his recent video
00:43:05That's just kind of what it reminded me of
00:43:08Where you say like she'd feel better if she actually stuck with it like yeah, totally
00:43:13But she's always like bouncing around with the same
00:43:18Like it she just can't keep with you know, she was she stuck with it she might feel better right but
00:43:25she's uh, yeah, she's
00:43:27She's uh, yeah, she's
00:43:29She's got a lot of like life stuff going on, too
00:43:32So I probably didn't help with like the whole wifey breakup
00:43:35But at the same time she's been like playing with this since before wifey
00:43:40But I find like after
00:43:44Becky she's been taking it a little bit more seriously, maybe
00:43:47You don't want to think about it like I didn't really watch much of her journey with Becky after they moved out from
00:43:54Erica Ricky's so I'm not quite sure exactly what her weight was like around that time like after her surgery and stuff
00:44:01But it seemed to be kind of I guess
00:44:04Same as where it's at now where she's like playing with that
00:44:09Anyway, it just be nice. Yeah, it would be nice to see her stick to it
00:44:12And it'd be great for her, of course
00:44:16Yeah
00:44:21She's like trying to get assurance here from crystals parents that she doesn't need to go to the emergency room because she's got this
00:44:29She's used their herbal mix here
00:44:33So she's like trying to get her assurance here from Crystal's parents that she doesn't need to go to the emergency room
00:44:38Because she's got this
00:44:40Their herbal mix here for her lips
00:44:46What if I did eat a lot what would happen
00:44:49Well, some oils you're not supposed to enjoy
00:44:55How my tongue's numb
00:44:57I swear to god i'm not joking
00:45:00If teeth could be numb, they'd be numb too. I feel like
00:45:03Okay, so everything that said this one's fine could be in my mouth
00:45:07Okay
00:45:10Okay
00:45:13Kitty I agree. I thought that the oklahoma move would be better for her, too. Um
00:45:21Hmm it just
00:45:26It
00:45:27I don't think it would have the only reason I don't think it would have have been uh,
00:45:31Great right at the first well
00:45:33I like I didn't really expect it to be great at the first when she first moved there is because
00:45:37of her losing wifey
00:45:39She actually is going through like there's the breakup but now there's the actual separation from wifey. So she had to deal with that and
00:45:49um
00:45:50well, she did a little better than she did the breakout the breakup she was eating a lot of the
00:45:56Of the trader joe's and then she decided she was going to go on
00:46:00um
00:46:02A quick weight loss journey of only eating one meal a day
00:46:05And then the gallstones came back again because she wasn't being consistent she was just kind of not eating
00:46:15So it just kind of derailed
00:46:18the the hopes that she would actually like change when she got there because I just
00:46:25Yeah, she has that separation anxiety she had to deal with but then like now we're watching in the like, um
00:46:33Which month was it october november november 2023, uh, you know, she's starting to um
00:46:42Hang out with her mom more and her mom seems to be wanting to be more healthy
00:46:47which totally helps with amberlynn's health journey probably because then she uh,
00:46:52she has someone there that's actually supporting her through it rather than
00:46:57what like becky would say to and and destiny were like
00:47:01They would suggest food
00:47:04becky had said it actually too, but like
00:47:07Or more than destiny, I guess
00:47:10um
00:47:12She'd be on a diet and
00:47:15destiny or becky would be over here eating, uh pizza and amberlynn would be trying to eat her like
00:47:23veggies and it just wasn't working for them. So now when you see
00:47:28Them eating out together or making meals together, uh amberlynn or mom it's it's kind of nice because it's a little more healthier
00:47:36um
00:47:36Now there are a couple times where they go out to eat and like her mom looks like she's eating healthier than amberlynn
00:47:42But like you're just hoping maybe eventually that'll rub off on her and she'll start
00:47:46Eat a little healthier
00:47:49I
00:47:53Guess we'll just have to wait and see but uh, yeah, she's just seems to be um staying around the same
00:48:02The same weight and same mentality I guess
00:48:06That she has been when she was with wifey too where it's just like sometimes she's on sometimes she's off
00:48:14But we do want to see her get on track
00:48:19Whatever that looks like
00:48:23Let's do a little taste test i've never had this extra sweet watermelon gum before so let's give it a go
00:48:31I notice if I pull this little flap right here
00:48:34It opens better
00:48:38Bam
00:48:42Smells so bomb
00:48:45I eat gum when I have no more calories left
00:48:48And i'm feeling kind of hungry or I want to binge or I just want something in my mouth. It honestly really helps
00:48:58Yeah, the chrisette I agree it is it's hard like
00:49:03just
00:49:03it's uh easier to tell her just to lose weight than it is to actually go throw it because you're not there with her every
00:49:10moment and like
00:49:12The night times are probably super hard for her. She said
00:49:15um and
00:49:17Uh
00:49:20I'm gonna say it
00:49:22I guess we just kind of harp more on her weight loss is because it's her weight is so extreme that it's dangerous
00:49:29whereas like
00:49:32If you're not in that like danger zone
00:49:36It's not as like
00:49:39bad to be
00:49:40Playing with those few pounds, you know
00:49:42Like but like with aberlynn we're like we've been watching her for a while
00:49:46like it's dangerous and we just like kind of hope the best for her, but
00:49:51Can't really tell her what to do
00:49:54She's not gonna listen to anyone anyway, she's gonna have to figure it out on her own
00:50:00The only person she seems to listen to is crystal
00:50:05Smells so good
00:50:12You know, this is a keeper
00:50:20Oh kitty connecticut, I like that. Um amberlynn's new girlfriend. Okay, so I gotta read your comment here
00:50:28I convinced she bought the moon picture for herself just because of the way she said it looks so shiny in person
00:50:35She slipped she saw it online and ordered it
00:50:39Oh, I like that I like that that's funny it could be
00:50:44It could be um
00:50:47Now I wonder if maybe this person sent her a picture of it already
00:50:53Oh my gosh, that'd be crazy. Uh, actually something I found really interesting about this new girlfriend, um is
00:51:00or
00:51:03I guess speculation regarding the new girlfriend that I found interesting was on uh,
00:51:09on a
00:51:10karina kaboom's video she's talking about how this
00:51:15Person that amberlynn's seeing is obviously into fortnight because it's got amberlynn and fortnight
00:51:20Into fortnight and she wouldn't have done it
00:51:22Otherwise and like everyone's been gaming for a while. I think with her mario parody and stuff
00:51:27So she's probably has some friends maybe that play it because she probably meets people online rather than in person
00:51:35so
00:51:36Maybe she's uh met a few people that got her into that or something or one
00:51:42But uh, yeah, so she answers in her newest video. She says no
00:51:47Her girlfriend is not in into fortnight. So I wasn't even if like I wasn't sure but like
00:51:55uh
00:51:56when she's
00:51:57The way karina was saying it. It sounded like she was so sure that amberlynn totally
00:52:04Had this girlfriend that was into fortnight and that's why amberlynn's now a gamer because amberlynn takes all the personalities of her
00:52:10of her girlfriends, but
00:52:12I was like because she was just so sure of it. And so when amberlynn said that no, she doesn't play fortnight. I was like
00:52:19Man, she was wrong, I guess
00:52:25Because when I was listening to it I was like what if this girlfriend's not into it and you're just like, you know
00:52:31So convinced of it, but I mean we're all we're all speculating so
00:52:37It's interesting to see everyone's opinions
00:52:40uh, like kitty's here saying that uh
00:52:43It's so shiny in person. I like that. I like that. Uh that you caught that
00:52:54Five calories zero sugar zero fat. Yes, so so so so so so so so good
00:53:01It tastes just like sweet watermelon. Hence the name
00:53:05Don't mind the clicking crystals got that rock band life
00:53:09She's playing with some friends online. So this is my big purse that i'm gonna start using. Isn't it adorable?
00:53:15I've had it for years
00:53:17And the inside I mean this thing opens up a square mile. I swear to god
00:53:23I'm editing this vlog right now and I figured I should just end it
00:53:28You know those people who chew gum like this
00:53:31Um, i'm kind of one of them people
00:53:33As much as I keep putting on like chapstick and things like that
00:53:36My cold sore is still coming in. I might have to be low-key with the videos time. I'm all caught up with
00:53:43Actually uploading the videos. Maybe this will be gone by then today is
00:53:48Sunday the 26th. So I hope you guys had a great day today and I will see you in my next vlog. Bye
00:53:55Hello everybody
00:53:56I decided today i'm gonna film a weight loss diaries video. I did weigh in today
00:54:01I was expecting to be down weight from yesterday. I stepped on the scale and for some reason it said air
00:54:07There's no way I gained weight. I am on track. I'm eating my calories. I'm eating healthier
00:54:13Except
00:54:18Okay, so she would literally have to gain 15 pounds in one day so I don't know what the heck is going on with that scale
00:54:27Etc. It really really just dampers my mood completely the scale really knows how to
00:54:33Get to me. I hate how the scale just decides the type of mood i'm going to be in today
00:54:38It's very unhealthy I just think for my journey right now i'm going to a
00:54:44Lower my calories. I find that I have such a high calorie limit that at night
00:54:50Sometimes I struggle to find what to eat and i'll eat the wrong things because I have extra calories
00:54:58Now that sounds like uh
00:55:01The same thing she does when she's on weight watchers
00:55:04Where she tries she wants to use up all of her points for the night
00:55:08And it's like she says she'll choose the unhealthy stuff. That's more calories
00:55:12to
00:55:13Get right to that limit where instead of like just eating
00:55:19Until she's uh
00:55:22Satisfied I guess with lower calorie foods. I don't know
00:55:28She uh
00:55:31I guess it's maybe her her choices. Um
00:55:34That don't help her at the end the night time with her little snacks and stuff because she said that they have like
00:55:39uh, the 100 calorie snacks sometimes and
00:55:45Uh, I think she shows us here eventually that she has like cereal
00:55:49Well, I don't want to spoil it, but she has cereal and then binges
00:55:54I just spoiled it
00:55:57So i'm wondering what else what other kinds of snacks she's eating at night time
00:56:01That uh are going over her calorie limit
00:56:07I'm gonna try drinking some more water right now. I probably drink about two or three
00:56:13Waters that are this size. I just feel very very very sad. I wanted today to be a good day. It's monday
00:56:21A new week. I was already gonna lower my calories just a tad bit now
00:56:24I feel like i'm gonna lower them quite a bit. I'm not
00:56:28Yeah, that's another thing too that she kind of like sabotages herself with when she lowers the calories
00:56:33a lot because she then it's the same as
00:56:37You know, she's not eating enough
00:56:39food
00:56:40Um, and then the gallstones start up because she's not eating properly
00:56:48I'm not gonna be weighing myself for a while. I just don't want to see air. I don't
00:56:55I really honestly just feel like crying right now
00:56:58My emotions are so all over the place like half of me wants to just binge and be like fuck it
00:57:03The other half of me wants to just like never eat again
00:57:06The struggle to lose weight is so undeniably hard for me. I had a really really good week. I wish today I could
00:57:14start this week
00:57:16Great, but i'm not I don't know if i'm too scale obsessed. I probably
00:57:24Girl we know you're scale obsessed
00:57:28I really am and I really need to try to take that away from my personality days like this when I weigh in and I'll
00:57:34see something that I like I really really am just
00:57:37Tormented by it all day long and for the next couple of days and I
00:57:42Yep, super not good and like she knows this stuff, but she keeps going back to it
00:57:48But I guess that's part of the cycle right that she's trying to get out of
00:57:54I don't like that. I really don't know what else to say you guys
00:57:58I'm, sorry. Some of my videos are really short. It's just purely because I have nothing to say normally my videos like
00:58:07Yes the chrisette I believe uh, I I agree too I think
00:58:11I think that uh, maybe finding some friends would help. Well just because okay, so
00:58:20Yeah, so when she's with crystal and crystal's family she's doing all right
00:58:24But when she's with destiny
00:58:26You know, there's no one
00:58:28she always says that destiny doesn't need to lose weight destiny is not
00:58:32trying to be on a weight loss journey like the whole time, but it's
00:58:38It's weird because like crystal maybe would have been more considered not needing to be on a weight loss journey more than destiny
00:58:44Just because destiny is like super short too
00:58:48So like she was just totally in denial about that and then wasn't getting much help from destiny in that way of like
00:58:55the influence of eating healthy although
00:58:57Destiny would get like fruits and vegetables sometimes
00:59:01um
00:59:02but then there was uh, becky who and rafe and hannah and then but then
00:59:09At the same time there's eric and ricky and they went on a weight loss journey and it just didn't really
00:59:14Rub off on amberlynn the right way kind of went the opposite way where she
00:59:18Like and when she first moved in with eric and ricky she asked eric to like help her
00:59:23By like when you see me eating things point it out
00:59:27Yeah, right
00:59:31She's not gonna want to start crap with her
00:59:34Uh, eric's not gonna want to start want to start crap with amberlynn over uh
00:59:39Telling her what to eat and what not to eat
00:59:41That would be like you wouldn't
00:59:44It just I guess it's not eric's place to do that either
00:59:47So it would be like uncomfortable to put eric in that position to be the one to tell her that
00:59:54Um
00:59:56Now, yeah, so then wifey wifey was also kind of healthy eater and it seemed like anyway, uh
01:00:05That didn't really work out
01:00:07so
01:00:09Um
01:00:11I'm, I don't know. I'm just kind of hoping maybe this will work out with uh with her mom
01:00:17Kind of being on a journey as well
01:00:30Hi nikki good to see you. I was just reading your comment. That's a lot of calories a day
01:00:36Well, like even if she binged like, you know a few times a week I wonder
01:00:43Yeah, that would be that would be adding up the calories, but I don't know if she'd eat 10 000 in one day
01:00:48That's a lot. Um when she showed us one of her off track days
01:00:53She was eating. I think she ate 3 000 calories in food
01:00:57And then 3 000 calories on a binge
01:01:02Which
01:01:05Which uh was like the ramens the pringles the ice cream
01:01:12uh cheetos chocolate, I think that was all like
01:01:17300 calories
01:01:19300 3 000 calories. Sorry. Um, but yeah, she could be more than that
01:01:29It's a lot
01:01:32And uh destiny being a feeder, uh, maybe because she she definitely um
01:01:40I think see I think destiny tries to be helpful
01:01:44more than
01:01:45likes to see her eat, but
01:01:47We were watching the 2015
01:01:50Uh july 2015 and she comes up to amberlynn. They're at uh, I think they're at um
01:01:56Golden corral and she comes over and right after what she had destiny had um
01:02:03a big thing of cotton candy
01:02:05so they were eating the cotton candy together and then
01:02:09Destiny walks up amber's filming her and she has like
01:02:13Three cones of ice cream worth in one cone like it was huge
01:02:18And it was like one of those soft serve ones. So she basically got it as high as she could without it falling over
01:02:25And gave it to amberlynn like it was so
01:02:28much food
01:02:29so like i'm not sure if maybe she just doesn't really uh, no serving sizes at that point or what but
01:02:37I guess you could say she wasn't really helping with the weight loss journey
01:02:43Yes, eric and ricky did do really good with their weight loss while they're in uh
01:02:482018 I think and and 19
01:02:51They were going to the gym lots and eric was filming lots of videos of like healthy foods and he was uh
01:02:57finding recipes online too and um
01:03:00And trying to do those. So those are neat. I still have some of their cooking videos
01:03:06that I haven't
01:03:08Edited yet. So they're all
01:03:11um
01:03:12unedited videos
01:03:14Of them cooking. There's also like part of the vlog in there, too
01:03:21I'm so mad that eric deleted all his videos
01:03:25They're all hidden
01:03:26And he hid like a bunch of them I guess before he hid all of them
01:03:31So there was a bunch of them missing before he even like got rid of all of his videos
01:03:36anyway
01:03:38Eric put your videos back up. We want to see more
01:03:42It's been a while. We need a refresher
01:03:44now, um all the videos that I have though that uh, I put
01:03:49That I had of eric and ricky and stuff I put those on my daily motion pages
01:03:55So if you go to positive pr goes live
01:04:00Yeah on daily motion that's where that's where you'll find the eric and ricky playlist and so it has all their like
01:04:06All the videos that I edited anyway
01:04:11During uh 2018 I think there was so much there was so much there
01:04:19That we all took it for granted that it would be there forever. Oh well
01:04:26Like this are probably around 10 minutes and I shorten them very drastically
01:04:30There's no reason for me to repeat myself a thousand different times
01:04:33I hope you guys had a good weigh-in if you had a weigh-in or if you guys are just having a good day in
01:04:38General try not to let the scale get to you like it gets to me because it really really really can ruin someone's mood
01:04:44my mood
01:04:46I'll see you guys in my next video. Bye
01:04:48Hello everybody
01:04:50Don't mind this little
01:04:51Fly away right here. It's just having the time of its life do an outfit of the day
01:04:56Wearing my hair in a really extremely messy
01:05:00Something or other looks like a bird's nest or something. Sometimes I just do not care about my hair whatsoever as you can tell
01:05:08Oh, yeah now that's magic this silver statement necklace
01:05:11I got from charlotte ruse these silver owl earrings that I think I got from charlotte ruse or walmart
01:05:18This big silver elephant ring that I got from shop miss a.com. I'm wearing a purple
01:05:23Tank top. I think I got this from old navy a long time ago years ago a aztec cardigan
01:05:30With fringe on the bottom that I got from charlotte ruse and that's it
01:05:36You wanna go outside
01:05:40Go on enjoy the sun while it's here
01:05:45Crystal's mom showed me how to use this crock pot. She said at 12 o'clock three minutes late. Whoops to put this
01:05:54In it
01:05:57Stay still don't move
01:06:02Oh my god, this is heavy
01:06:05So what's in the what's in here? We have cabbage. Oh shit
01:06:10Oh shit, sorry, sorry, sorry, we have cabbage in here peppery chili bell peppery
01:06:19Orange sauce that because she sees the nutritionists to make healthier meals. She gives her a bunch of seasonings
01:06:26All these are organic seasonings
01:06:29I know there's the veggies. I know there's already cooked ground
01:06:32Turkey, it really is hard for me to find a place for y'all to sit. My phone is so thin
01:06:38I
01:06:40Plop it in there
01:06:43She said hook this
01:06:46Part
01:06:49I've never actually used this before so she showed me how yesterday I put it in my vlog
01:06:56Hooked I think she said press manual. Oh, I have to plug it in first
01:07:02duh
01:07:03Get with the program girl
01:07:05Whoops what is in here? I've never even seen this before
01:07:10Garlic, okay. Sorry
01:07:13Had a moment sidetracked press manual
01:07:16No power
01:07:18Manual and then she wants on low
01:07:22I think
01:07:23Yes
01:07:25I guess that's it
01:07:27Bam, and then this cooks for five hours
01:07:30And then dinner is served
01:07:32Crystal and I have some errands to run. We're gonna get something to eat out. I haven't eaten yet today
01:07:41There's no holding that in god bless you
01:07:45Crystal and I just ate at a mexican restaurant. It is literally so good
01:07:50It's one of our favorites to go to I filled out some applications to try to get a job
01:07:54I called around trying to see if they even got the application
01:07:58I called walmart and i'm not even in their system and i'm like what?
01:08:01They want me to
01:08:03Go to walmart to fill out the application. I guess we're on our way to go do that
01:08:08walmart hiring center
01:08:10Just sit in this little stool
01:08:15Okay
01:08:17Ready set go
01:08:18It is so hot in here. How is it possible that the car feels this hot like a sauna?
01:08:25But it's cold outside
01:08:27I just did my application and you guys will never ever guess how long it took me. I was so precise
01:08:33I thought it was just like an application here comes this quiz
01:08:37slash test
01:08:39slash assessment
01:08:41full of
01:08:4265 in-depth like questions. I should have been studying for this. I was really really nervous
01:08:48It said that it will tell me if I pass or fail
01:08:51If I failed I won't be able to do another application for walmart for two full years
01:08:57So I did the 65 questions and I passed I was so so flipping happy. You don't even know the whole
01:09:04Situation took me over three hours. They said they'll
01:09:11Crystal had to sit there with her for three hours
01:09:13I
01:09:18Contacted me via email
01:09:19There was a girl in there who said that she didn't get called back for a whole year
01:09:24I have done a few other applications for other places
01:09:27But they were so short and just mediocre if it was my choice walmart would definitely be the place
01:09:32Just sit straight you loser of a phone
01:09:35Crystal and I just got back from walmart while I was doing my application. I picked up a few things
01:09:40I got a gallon of water and i'm gonna drink drink drink drink
01:09:44but
01:09:47Water so good for you water so good for you. I also got something else
01:09:55Among some fat-free milk that isn't even important. I got this a minute made light
01:10:0015 calories super super cute pink lemonade
01:10:04Crystal and I were so thirsty in walmart. We got this we got another big thing of water
01:10:10We got some straws totally not important, but these are for our protein shake so i'll have to get
01:10:15Protein shake all up on my top lip
01:10:38He looks like he didn't even budge
01:10:40Yeah, I wanted her to
01:10:44Yeah, you could have dropped that that would have been awesome
01:10:46All right
01:10:48I'm getting some cereal
01:10:49Ain't nobody said you can't have cereal at night. Okay?
01:10:54Uh-oh, that's what I was talking about earlier. There's a binge coming
01:11:01I'm gonna have
01:11:02special k vanilla almonds with some fat-free milk
01:11:07As you guys know i'm struggling with a cold blister coming in
01:11:10I'm, trying my hardest to use carmax the essential oils
01:11:15thieves
01:11:16and randomly
01:11:17The essential oils just chapstick that crystal's parents made so far. It's not getting too big tomorrow
01:11:25I'm gonna start going to the gym again. Tomorrow is tuesday. I was gonna go today, but I was just feeling so unmotivated
01:11:31Screw it not doing anything productive
01:11:34I notice a lot of the time i'm filming like this instead of like filming like a normal person
01:11:39I think the gym is gonna be back in my life. I'm really hoping my lip doesn't prevent that from happening
01:11:46So one thing that she did too with crystal that she didn't really do with her other girlfriends is going to the gym
01:11:52That was really good. Uh
01:11:55That probably helped a lot
01:11:58With trying to keep on track maybe well, it's just it's nice to see her get out of the house and do something
01:12:06More than shop and eat
01:12:09If this gets bigger by tomorrow, I will not be attending the gym you guys are seeing me in my bed
01:12:18I'm getting ready to go to sleep and I forgot to end my vlog
01:12:21sad news is
01:12:23I had kind of a rough day emotionally with just a lot of different things
01:12:28That I don't really feel like talking about right now. I ended up
01:12:31Binging tonight. I ate
01:12:34Way way way too much. It's really upsetting. I know with this eating disorder. I can't
01:12:40Heal overnight, you know, there's only so much I can do i'm trying to control it. I try not to give in
01:12:46It's just really hard
01:12:47As long as I don't give in more than I do give in
01:12:50And I feel like eventually I will heal from this. I hope you guys enjoyed this vlog and i'll see you in my next video. Bye
01:12:57Hello everybody
01:12:59right now i'm just making my own healthy version of
01:13:04Teriyaki veggies with rice i'm using brown rice
01:13:09And here I have two small chicken breasts
01:13:13carrots
01:13:15organic celery
01:13:17mushroom
01:13:18Orange bell pepper
01:13:20And i'm using a little bit of this organic adobo seasoning less sodium teriyaki sauce
01:13:30I find beauty in the most random things. I was cutting the celery and it looks like a rose. I mean, it's so pretty
01:13:37i'm gonna do the strive circle
01:13:39which is
01:13:41a bunch of cardio and strength
01:13:45Things
01:13:46In a circle
01:13:51I got my water ready. I'm gonna go on this little handy dandy thing
01:14:00It's so funny how she brings the whole jug of water with her she wants to make sure she drinks it
01:14:17So
01:14:23So I just did the strive circle now i'm on this
01:14:28Getting that workout in
01:14:30Making a protein shake. I use stevia in the raw. I'm going to use this tropical blend
01:14:35There's peach mango pineapple and banana in it
01:14:38cooking cream ump powder and fat-free milk
01:14:41I have a magic bullet and it's literally it is magical. Yes
01:14:46All you do is pulsate it
01:14:52Bam chazam
01:14:56All you do is pulsate it and she holds it down
01:14:59I'm pulsating when you like press it down. Let it up. Press it down. Let it up
01:15:05She's blending it
01:15:09It's hard to suck though
01:15:11Oh, I like it like this better sometimes I make it with blueberries, I think I like it better with this
01:15:21Putting a fruit into
01:15:23My protein shakes has been one of the best decisions i've ever made. I'm not a fruit type of gal
01:15:28I do not like fruit. I by far prefer vegetables hard for me to get down fruit a serving of fruit a day for me
01:15:35Is decent
01:15:37What are you doing back there?
01:15:40She's behind the curtain in front of the window, what are you doing?
01:15:50Got myself some 15 calorie lemonade pink lemonade
01:15:56This is good, huh? Oh my gosh, how's that only 15 calories?
01:16:01Lemonade for life yo
01:16:03If you're a pretty little liars fan, you know that pretty little liars
01:16:08Season six will be starting again in june literally the best thing that's ever happened to me
01:16:13I'm trying to have crystal catch up on pretty little liars right now. She's on season three episode 15
01:16:20We're watching it right now girl
01:16:23You gotta catch up so we can watch it together so we can experience this together
01:16:28Because things get cray if you guys like pretty little liars, you should let me know in the comments below
01:16:33Also, you should let me know. What is your favorite show? It is the next
01:16:37day
01:16:41So I think uh by the time that comes back on she's uh
01:16:45On her way to live with destiny so she doesn't get to watch it with crystal
01:16:49I wonder if crystal kept watching it with her when the new stuff came on
01:16:53Amberlynn really likes this show
01:16:57Next day
01:16:59I just woke up and I totally forgot to end my vlog last night. I literally hate when I do that. I
01:17:05Was laying in bed I was three seconds away from falling asleep shoot
01:17:09I forgot to end my vlog. I kind of just accepted it and said i'll worry about that tomorrow
01:17:15I hope you guys enjoyed this video and i'll see you in the next one. Bye
01:17:20All right, so we're on to the q a and this is like 15 minutes
01:17:29So she's gonna explain more uh about the breakup
01:17:33And about the dynamic of her and crystal's relationship over the last few years
01:17:42And a little bit of her future plans
01:17:46Hello everybody
01:17:47So as you guys know, i'm currently going through a breakup. I am getting an undeniably amount of questions people are saying that I
01:17:55Didn't explain very well. I compiled a bunch of questions and I wrote them down
01:18:00I'm just here to be open
01:18:02Honest and finally kind of explain everything that's going on in short form. Are you two getting back together? No, we're not
01:18:09Do you still live with her currently? I do still live with her. Do you guys still cuddle or hug when we first broke up?
01:18:16We did hug we didn't cuddle. We were at a very confused state. We do not do any of that anymore
01:18:23We are completely
01:18:25just over it's way too hard to
01:18:28Be broken up with somebody and still try to do things as if you were in a relationship. It's just not healthy
01:18:35so this question actually
01:18:37Upsets me. Are you lying about the breakup just to get attention?
01:18:41That's really really insulting to me because I would never
01:18:45In a million years lie about something like this when crystal first broke up with me. It was literally
01:18:51The most horrible feeling I have ever felt in my whole entire life. My whole world crashed down
01:18:56I was shocked and confused when you
01:18:59Think that someone is going to be in your life forever loving you and you loving her
01:19:04And then your whole world crashes down
01:19:06in just an instant
01:19:08it's hard to
01:19:10Accept those feelings and really absorb them
01:19:16So she's kind of said that before or not well she said that
01:19:21With destiny and becky
01:19:24Where she kind of thought she would spend forever with them
01:19:29And that her whole world comes crashing down
01:19:34Which is probably true
01:19:42It was just traumatizing to say the least do you still share a bed is it hard
01:19:48Is it hard
01:19:51She seemed to get over becky the fastest and becky seemed to be the like most serious relationship she had
01:19:59We do share a bed, I don't see any reason why crystal needs to buy a new bed
01:20:10But then okay, so I think i'm gonna let it keep going just wait
01:20:16because
01:20:17If I do and when I do plan on moving
01:20:21They'd have an extra bed. There's no reason for it. I don't want them to waste the money friends sleep together all the time
01:20:31Why would they buy a new bed
01:20:33Literally like bought a new bed a couple months ago
01:20:37at this point
01:20:39it could have been march when they
01:20:41Yeah, it could have been march 2015. They bought a new bed and uh
01:20:46The box spring was broken on it when they first got it
01:20:50It was right where you like you basically sit on the side of the bed
01:20:56My theory is aberlin sat on it too fast
01:21:00And uh, then it was like, um
01:21:04It was indented or like it
01:21:07It broke a little bit and she said it was like lopsided on crystal's side
01:21:11Which that is crystal's side of the bed, I guess but it's just funny how she's like
01:21:14Oh, there's no reason for them to get a new bed
01:21:16If i'm going to be moving out then they just have an extra bed like
01:21:22She's uh, and then when the mattress gets ruined after they just got a king-sized mattress, um with destiny
01:21:29and the room floods she's just like, uh
01:21:33If we have to we'll just get a new bed and throw this one out
01:21:36It's just like do you even know how much beds cost?
01:21:38I don't think that she did at that point, but eventually when she buys her own bed she does but
01:21:44Because they're uh
01:21:46They're pretty expensive items to just be thrown out or buy an extra so that she doesn't have to share a bed with crystal
01:21:55We aren't close in the bed we kind of just sleep if she wanted you back
01:21:59Would you take her back a while ago? I would have said yes in a split second
01:22:04I've had time to think and we've talked a lot. I wouldn't
01:22:08Neither would she we just realized that
01:22:11Relationship wise we are not meant to be it's just something that we have to accept and move on
01:22:17How did you realize you two were meant to be just friends? I think this question is going to tie a lot into
01:22:23Why did you break up?
01:22:25I didn't give you guys an answer. I'm here to give you guys an answer now
01:22:29This is hard for me, but I wanted to be honest with you guys crystal and I were together for
01:22:35Three and a half years
01:22:37The first two years were amazing. The first year was even more amazing. I literally was on top of the world
01:22:43She accepted me for who I was
01:22:46I'm getting emotional
01:22:48I was her first relationship her first love her first everything I have been in love before but crystal was so different
01:22:56She's special. She is one of the nicest people i've ever known in my life
01:23:00She has a kind heart and a kind soul and I will never ever
01:23:04Downgrade her or say anything bad about her to anybody because she really is just an amazing person as
01:23:11The second year was coming to a close. I felt
01:23:15Unloved and unwanted and I kind of just played it off as i'm an insecure person
01:23:21I I always feel like people are mad at me or they dislike me for whatever reason
01:23:26And I tried to use that as an excuse there were plenty of times where i'd ask crystal. Do you still love me?
01:23:32Do you still think i'm beautiful do you still like me as a girlfriend do you see yourself with me for a long time?
01:23:37the reason why I would ask her those things is because
01:23:41She stopped telling me I was beautiful
01:23:44She stopped
01:23:49Sorry, she stopped looking at me
01:23:54With the eyes that she looked at me when I first came here
01:23:59She didn't kiss me the same she didn't hug me the same we were drifting apart and nobody knew it I
01:24:05Tried to blame it on we were one of those couples who were just used to each other
01:24:09I was trying to say i'm just insecure
01:24:12We're used to each other. That's amazing. That means we're comfortable around each other. We don't always have to be kissing
01:24:16It was just so many lies. I kept saying to myself there came a time where
01:24:22We wouldn't kiss each other for months
01:24:24we'd go on dates and
01:24:27See now all of this kind of sounds the same as what happened with becky
01:24:33That's kind of what I was going to say earlier how it just
01:24:36Is probably easier for her to move on from becky to wifey because they were just like friends
01:24:42Kind of you know, they were just living together
01:24:45Living their own
01:24:47Separate lives together as abrilyn had said before
01:24:50But yeah, so she she moves on pretty quickly from crystal to um, destiny, but it's probably because of this how it was, uh,
01:25:00They weren't like, you know
01:25:02Romantic partners basically at that point. Um
01:25:08But then with destiny moving on from destiny to becky
01:25:12I think it was like
01:25:14Six weeks maybe a month
01:25:17I think it was like six weeks maybe a month
01:25:21It was the end of february and I was probably like a month a month and a week maybe because uh,
01:25:27They broke up on january 13th. And then she started talking to becky on february
01:25:3324th
01:25:34so it was uh, it was
01:25:36pretty quick
01:25:37It could have been after the 24th. I don't know
01:25:40Um, that's just when she released the video that becky saw so it was definitely after after that that she started talking to becky
01:25:46but
01:25:46um, she it
01:25:49Uh, she wasn't uh quite over destiny when she started dating becky
01:25:55For fun, right
01:25:57but
01:25:58something was missing it completely just
01:26:01Everything changed
01:26:03And I didn't want to believe it
01:26:07We hid it from everybody
01:26:11Even when we told crystal's parents that we broke up
01:26:14They were shocked
01:26:16Her dad said but you guys seemed fine
01:26:19Crystal, um told me one day. She didn't feel the same for me anymore
01:26:22She was not in love with me at all. She just was not in love with me anymore. I
01:26:28Literally died my just whole world fell apart
01:26:32I wasn't expecting it because I kept lying to myself over and over
01:26:37I wanted this fairy tale with her
01:26:39God, I wasn't supposed to cry. What is this?
01:26:42I wanted this fairy tale with crystal
01:26:46And it just wasn't happening and I tried my hardest for months to fix things and just
01:26:53nothing worked
01:26:56She told me she wanted to see other people
01:26:58She wasn't sure if she'd ever be in love with me again because she didn't feel the same
01:27:03Some people are just not meant to be
01:27:07As much as I wanted it to be
01:27:10So
01:27:12This ties into the next question
01:27:17Well, I guess she left the clip of her wiping away her tears in there
01:27:22How did I realize we were just meant to be friends, um
01:27:25after the shock wore off and
01:27:29I processed in my head that
01:27:31I did not feel like somebody's girlfriend for a lot of that relationship because we did drift apart completely
01:27:36I realized that I didn't want to be with someone like that. I didn't want to
01:27:41So it's kind of interesting that basically the whole time that amberlynn's been on youtube and when she was recording or like
01:27:48uh
01:27:49Documenting her relationship with crystal that it was kind of it was that like friendship. So that's all we saw
01:27:56we didn't really see the um
01:27:59Loving part of the first the relationship where they were really happy. We just see like the
01:28:05Kind of it like it makes more sense why crystal was kind of being so distant probably didn't want to be in videos
01:28:11but still was kind of like feeling like
01:28:13that way towards amberlynn that
01:28:16She wasn't exactly like wanting to be
01:28:19More engaged with her I guess
01:28:22engaging in
01:28:24Amberlynn's interests kind of like well
01:28:28I was gonna say destiny and becky both did right at first until they got like the backlash of it
01:28:34But yeah crystal wasn't really uh
01:28:37Yeah, the whole time that they're that she's been filming
01:28:40They've just been kind of like well, it seems that way anyway that they're just kind of like roommates
01:28:45um
01:28:48Or that she's just like they're friends living, uh at crystal's parents house
01:28:55Hey chris, good to see you. Oh, i'm glad you could make it
01:28:58Okay
01:29:02Yeah, we have about like 10 minutes left of the video
01:29:08But that's all right because i'm gonna be back soon for another video
01:29:13Like in five hours
01:29:20Forced someone to love me. I didn't want to trap somebody because I was lying to myself so much
01:29:26I realized that i'm not in love with her either. I love crystal so much as a person. She changed my life
01:29:36She made me realize that there are
01:29:38angels out there people with big hearts
01:29:45You know, it was really like
01:29:48It was really nice for crystal and her family to take amberlynn in and they seemed to really care. Um
01:29:54And they seem like, you know
01:29:57a normal
01:30:00Like
01:30:01Well, like, you know healthy and healthy environment that's calming and like you don't really see much chaos going on or anything. So
01:30:10Um, I think this is the most stability amberlynn had in her life is living with crystal
01:30:16so it was probably hard to lose that plus
01:30:19the relationship
01:30:24And
01:30:26I felt horrible for her because she told me that
01:30:30for a whole year
01:30:33she wasn't in love with me and she was trying to protect my feelings and
01:30:37When she told me that I knew right there
01:30:39I cannot let her be with me
01:30:43I do not want to trap her. I'm not that type of person at all
01:30:47So you guys see me as this girl who just got broken up with like two months ago
01:30:52But really this has been happening for over a year
01:30:55just me feeling like
01:30:57I was a friend and
01:30:59It's hard. It's really hard and I just everything is all just jumbled in my head
01:31:05I don't even know how to begin to explain how i'm feeling just besides hurt and confused and
01:31:10I feel free. I feel relieved
01:31:13I'm, so grateful that this is this has happened at first
01:31:16I thought it was the end of the world, but this is meant to be and I know it's meant to be as hard as it is
01:31:22This is the right thing to do. We are not in love with each other
01:31:26I just feel like
01:31:28We're meant to be friends because we do get along as friends. Are you still hurting? Obviously? Yes. I'm still hurting
01:31:34It doesn't hurt me as much. I think what more so hurts is that one day I will be moving
01:31:40I can't be here forever. I feel like it's very unhealthy for me to stay here. These people are my family. They've become
01:31:46Very much like my family
01:31:48But I feel like if I stay here i'm putting my whole life on hold and I feel like i'm really not gonna get anywhere
01:31:54With my life and that's the truth
01:31:57As much as it sucks and it hurts
01:31:59I know I need to move on and crystal's accepting it as well
01:32:05How are you feeling just being
01:32:11So it's interesting here though, she says that uh, she
01:32:14She
01:32:16She doesn't think she wants to stay around stuff but applied
01:32:19For the job there
01:32:21So I was wondering if maybe in the last couple days, that's when she decided that she was gonna move on
01:32:27Go somewhere else
01:32:29Friends with her I feel free. I feel better
01:32:33We can finally have time time to ourself. We were together 24 7
01:32:37For over three years. There wasn't a time. We weren't together besides if we had to go to the bathroom
01:32:43We were together all the time and now I find time to just be by myself and
01:32:48You take those little things for granted. Honestly, you do because you get so attached to someone else that's you become them almost
01:32:56It's like crystal and amberlynn crystal. No, I am amberlynn. That is crystal. We are two different people and we have
01:33:06Okay, so she says crystal and amberlynn here so she puts crystal first that's great
01:33:11You know because usually she puts herself first it just reminds me of like when they sign destiny's dad's birthday card
01:33:17It said from amberlynn and destiny instead of destiny and amberlynn
01:33:23So
01:33:25It's kind of nice seeing herself her put crystal's name there first
01:33:31Two different tracks in life
01:33:34We see things a lot alike, but we also just
01:33:38See things so differently are you planning on staying in virginia? No, I I do not plan on staying in virginia
01:33:43The only reason why I moved here was to be with my girlfriend the girl that I love to death
01:33:49I don't see any point in me being here. I will always always always always always
01:33:54Be in communication with crystal because we are friends
01:33:58She is my best friend and she doesn't want to lose me and I don't want to lose her. There's just no
01:34:03Way
01:34:04That we are ever going to move on with our lives
01:34:08If I am still in this house if I am still in virginia, I don't like virginia as a whole
01:34:13I don't like the weather. I don't like the people. I don't like the environment. I just don't like it at all
01:34:19So I feel like it's right for me
01:34:22to leave
01:34:23when i'm leaving
01:34:24That's a whole other story
01:34:27Crystal's actually the only person that knows and her aunt because me and her aunt are super close
01:34:33Those are the only two people that know
01:34:36That I will be leaving virginia one day
01:34:40So she started talking to destiny on the 10th of this month
01:34:43and then
01:34:45By the end of the month. She's decided where she's already moving because she's moving to florida with destiny
01:34:51um, and so she moves there, uh
01:34:54The first of july so she's still with crystal here for two more months
01:35:03And I want to say it's in the near future, but i'm not
01:35:06100 sure right now. What if one of you start dating other people?
01:35:10We are both actually talking to people right now. She's talking to a couple people. I'm talking to just one person that I
01:35:18Crystal's already talking to multiple people
01:35:21I think she says
01:35:22It could be here where crystal was already talking to other people before she even broke up with amberlynn or something
01:35:28Or she would are like she had moved on pretty fast, too
01:35:32I have formed a really deep connection with which was unexpected completely
01:35:38I
01:35:39I don't even know how it's happened
01:35:41Of course, it's hard for the both of us, especially because crystal
01:35:44Started liking other people way before I even started talking to other people and it's gonna be hard
01:35:50I'm living with my ex-girlfriend
01:35:52The woman that I thought i'd spend the rest of my life with
01:35:58Yeah, so they broke up on the third and amberlynn's talking to um
01:36:03destiny on the
01:36:05on the 10th
01:36:06And crystal was already talking to people before amberlynn. So there's like, you know a few days there
01:36:11They're moving on pretty pretty fast
01:36:15So, yes, it's gonna be hard but we have to accept it and adapt to it while i'm currently here because
01:36:23We are both in our 20s
01:36:25We need to venture out. We can't be just in this house
01:36:31With each other as friends and not moving on with life
01:36:35With each other as friends and not moving on with life
01:36:38We both know we need to move on and it's extremely important to do so. I would never want
01:36:44her to feel like she can't date other people while i'm here because
01:36:49That is insane. I don't even feel like i'd be jealous because i'm so
01:36:53Secure with what I have
01:36:55And with what i'm feeling
01:36:59She's already so in love with destiny
01:37:04How do you get over a breakup honestly, it depends on the person my story is kind of out of whack not many people live with
01:37:11their exes
01:37:12It's going to be different for everyone, but I feel like my main word of advice
01:37:17After she breaks up with destiny, they still live together for a little bit until destiny moves out like a month
01:37:23Two months later, maybe a month and a half. Let's say
01:37:26uh destiny moves out to live with dana and then um, yeah amberlynn becky live together until
01:37:33Wifey moves in and then becky's moving out
01:37:38So that's something she does is live with her exes
01:37:42Advice would be surround yourself with people who make you happy who make you laugh
01:37:46Who are kind to you and who are understanding and who can let you vent?
01:37:50Surround yourself with hobbies and just activities that you love
01:37:54Like love and do not forget to cry because if you hold it all in
01:37:59You'll blow do it and let it out because it's really important to let those feelings out and the and those emotions out
01:38:07Trust me because when I hold them in
01:38:11It ain't pretty. How are you feeling overall?
01:38:15I am feeling overwhelmed you guys i'm sure a lot of people don't understand this
01:38:19But this is my life and my story my breakup
01:38:22I guess the only person that can really understand what i'm going through is myself
01:38:27Everyone is different and that's just how it is. So I hope I answered enough questions
01:38:34I'm, really nervous for the future. I'm scared for the future because my future was crystal
01:38:39But things have changed drastically in the last year. That's really all I have to say
01:38:43Thank you guys so much for watching if you guys have any more questions leave them in the comments below
01:38:47I guess I can either answer them there make another video. I don't know but trust me
01:38:51There will be several updates in this crazy freaking life of mine because I have no idea what's happening
01:38:57I'll see you guys in my next video. Bye
01:39:04All right, so that's it for the video today
01:39:07That was interesting, uh, see the dynamic here of how their relationship was. Um
01:39:15She seems to be pretty honest about it too saying like, uh saying how they're not
01:39:21They weren't really
01:39:23They didn't feel like they were in a relationship and like, you know, we could kind of see that
01:39:28From the vlogs
01:39:30um
01:39:33Uh, yeah
01:39:34So I gotta wonder why she applied to walmart if she was deciding that she's gonna move in with destiny unless she applied to walmart
01:39:40Like the day before she decided she was gonna move with destiny eventually here
01:39:46Well, maybe she just wanted like, you know to get the job and then she'd have a little bit of extra cash to move
01:39:53who knows but
01:39:56I don't think the walmart thing works out for her
01:40:05Yeah, so, um, I haven't watched may of 2015 so may and june or june so that's going to be kind of interesting
01:40:13we're like, uh
01:40:18Watching um up until she's my gosh
01:40:26Watching her, uh kind of talk to destiny from afar and have their um
01:40:33Their online relationship before actually meeting and
01:40:37it's gonna be interesting, um to see that
01:40:40how that unfolds but that's
01:40:42That's gonna be another video for another time
01:40:45um now
01:40:47Tomorrow tonight. I want to do like in five hours from now. I'm gonna do uh,
01:40:53A 2023 video we're gonna watch november and it's gonna be like two hours
01:40:59So i'm gonna be here for a few hours tonight if you're around
01:41:07Um, and then
01:41:11I have another video scheduled for tomorrow. We're gonna watch june of 2016
01:41:18which is when she just moves in to uh,
01:41:23Move she moves from florida to kentucky
01:41:27um
01:41:29And then we're gonna see how life is
01:41:31how she adjusts to life living with destiny's, um mom and
01:41:37stepdad
01:41:40They kind of are a little isolated and amberlyn kind of goes into a deeper depression and um
01:41:46It's the time where she doesn't shower
01:41:49And uh destiny helps take care of her by like washing her hair and stuff
01:41:54so there's a lot of stuff coming up here that
01:41:57Uh moments that destiny talks about in 2023 that we'll see take place
01:42:10Uh, okay, so then I also last night
01:42:14uh took me a couple days, but
01:42:17I went through three hours of a you now live stream that amberlyn did with rafe. Um in
01:42:25Uh the end of august 2017
01:42:29And it's right when she moves in with becky as well so, uh
01:42:37Yeah, that took that took a while to get through but I got most of the interesting parts out of it, um
01:42:43Um
01:42:45One thing I found kind of I don't know if it was interesting or disturbing but
01:42:51She has rarity there
01:42:53um staying with rafe because she can't have the cats at the house, but she decides that she
01:42:59Wants to have wasabi there at first and I think wasabi eventually actually ends up at rafe's too because they can't have cats in
01:43:06the house or something
01:43:07um
01:43:09But she decided that she was going to move in with becky
01:43:14So rafe, uh fosters she says, um
01:43:19Rarity for a little bit and while she's there
01:43:22She brings rarity into the room, uh rafe and rafe pays more attention to rarity than amberlyn does
01:43:28amberlyn holds rarity for like two seconds and then
01:43:31Rarity's just like in the room
01:43:33Um off camera and stuff and I guess like the cats stay in a different part of the house
01:43:38so rafe just took her in to show the live stream, but then like
01:43:43She just has this like
01:43:45Disconnect with rarity almost so it's nice now that like
01:43:50Or even like in the future videos. Um, especially when she's living in her own apartment in kentucky before
01:43:57She moved to oklahoma that one that apartment. I mean, um
01:44:01She was she's she has a stronger connection with rarity, but at that point it was like she was trying to
01:44:09Disconnect herself from rarity. Like it was it was just really sad because she like talks about how much she loves wasabi
01:44:15and um and twinkie
01:44:18but
01:44:20then kind of like
01:44:22Almost forgets that she even has rarity. Like it's just it's sad and rarity's not fixed at that point and um, uh
01:44:29Uh
01:44:31There's a whole drama there eventually of how rafe actually goes to take
01:44:38Uh rare rarity to get fixed or spade
01:44:43um
01:44:44And then amberlynn like freaks out and goes and gets her or something
01:44:49Takes her back to their house and rarity's going to live in the basement
01:44:53um
01:44:54but in this live stream where
01:44:57They actually discussed that um
01:45:01That rafe has another no a dog that she was going to go take in to get
01:45:06Um spade or neutered i'm not quite sure. I can't remember what she said
01:45:11But anyway, they're going in for surgery and that rarity they want to take rarity in at the same time and amberlynn said
01:45:16Yep, and she said again that she would be paying for it herself that rafe or no that amberlynn would pay for it
01:45:23So it's just it's weird how everything went down like it seemed like
01:45:28Things were normal, but then I don't know we'll have to see what happens there and why it became such a big drama
01:45:34I guess when there seems to be an agreement here that
01:45:38Rafe was going to take rarity to get fixed
01:45:41spade, oh my gosh, well
01:45:45Anyway, so we have that whole
01:45:48Era to go through
01:45:50Um, but yeah, it's like their first do you now session back to get well, uh
01:45:55back together, I guess
01:45:56um, so there's a lot of like addressing
01:45:59uh, what rafe said during those live streams where they were fighting and
01:46:04it just seems like
01:46:05Amberlynn wants rafe to feel like crap about what she did and at one point
01:46:11Someone asks amberlynn who her best friend is and she says crystal
01:46:16and um
01:46:18Not becky apparently, uh, and then rafe says that amberlynn is her best friend and amberlynn's like what
01:46:29She's like hannah's not your best friend she's like well, yeah hannah, but then like you're my best friend
01:46:33so it was just it was really sad that
01:46:36um rafe just
01:46:38Seemed to think a lot of amberlynn
01:46:41Um, but then think not much of her when she went and vented to eric
01:46:46But then now she's like love bombing her again
01:46:49So, I don't know their their relationship is weird, but I think it's because they're so much alike
01:46:55but yeah
01:46:55Amberlynn seems to
01:46:57Want to have the upper hand because it seemed like rafe had the upper hand when they first met when they had that
01:47:03their first initial friendship
01:47:06So it's like a power struggle between the two
01:47:10But yeah, i'm gonna set that video up and maybe we'll watch that on wednesday
01:47:14Um, but yeah, we're gonna so tonight yeah, we're gonna watch the 2023
01:47:22Timeline of november. So it's like when she just moved to
01:47:28She just moved to oklahoma in october. So we're gonna see
01:47:33That uh the next month or second month of living in oklahoma
01:47:40That's gonna be two hours gonna be a while, um
01:47:43so if uh
01:47:47Yeah, and I I got memberships on my channel I mentioned at the first the video but I thought i'd
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01:48:08I'm gonna um, definitely like reply to all your comments in the comment section
01:48:13and
01:48:15hearted, of course
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01:48:40Um
01:48:43Capone hi good to see you
01:48:47All right, so I think i'm going to end it now and then uh, yeah i'll be back in a few hours for another one
01:48:58Thanks so much everyone for being here really appreciate it and I hope you enjoy the rest of your day
01:49:04And uh, yeah, i'll see you later