Emmerdale 20th May 2024
Emmerdale 20th May 2024
Transcript
00:00 *Music*
00:05 It's not even yours!
00:19 I was playing with it first!
00:21 Who's put an empty milk bottle back in fridge?
00:24 Why is posh butter so much harder to spread?
00:27 Oi, you two, you're gonna be late for school.
00:30 Well, did you hear? Come and get your coats on now.
00:32 I don't even know where it is!
00:34 Well, find it!
00:35 I'm already late visiting your mum. I don't need you two playing up.
00:38 Panic over!
00:39 It's okay. I've...I've got it.
00:41 Just trying to help.
00:42 Yeah, well, I don't need your help.
00:44 I think someone might have got out the wrong side of the bed.
00:47 You get off the hospital, mate. I'll get the kids to school.
00:50 Rupus? What are you crying for?
00:53 When's mum gonna come home?
00:55 *Kiss*
00:55 Oh!
00:57 *Mobile phone rings*
01:09 Dr Robertson's going to come and see you very soon.
01:12 Oh, is this the results of the cytogenetic testing?
01:15 And talk through next steps.
01:17 What treatment pathway needs to be taken.
01:20 Okay.
01:21 So, either continuous chemo,
01:24 or continuous chemo and a bone marrow transplant.
01:27 I know how exhausting this must be.
01:30 Doesn't matter about me.
01:32 Look, his feeding tube, has he pulled it out again?
01:34 It's absolutely normal. So if you see him without it in, please, don't worry.
01:39 I'm always worried.
01:43 I feel like there's this thing hanging over me, waiting to fall.
01:48 Is Billy coming in today?
01:51 On his way. Apparently.
01:55 You okay?
02:15 I sleep overrated.
02:17 You might not want to talk about this right now, but...
02:20 Huh.
02:23 Looks like we need a loaf. I'll pick one up after work.
02:25 Do we need anything else?
02:27 What you promised yesterday.
02:29 It's all good.
02:30 I don't understand.
02:33 Maybe I'll get some at the cafe instead.
02:35 I've been looking online and there's loads of stuff.
02:37 Resources, contacts, how to get help, counselling, cognitive behavioural therapy.
02:43 That's my form.
02:46 What would I do without you, eh?
02:48 Tom.
02:49 No, I'm serious. I meant it. Of course I did.
02:52 Okay.
02:54 Well, maybe you could start by just talking to someone at surgery, then.
02:57 It's confidential. They could point you in the right direction.
03:02 You're not the only one with this problem, but admitting it...
03:05 I know. It's the first step.
03:09 Good?
03:11 Oh, a lot better than good.
03:13 The breakfast is pretty impressive, too.
03:15 Oh. The one time I go vindaloo over Madras.
03:21 Oh. I feel like me bowels have melted.
03:26 I don't think we need to know about your bowels.
03:28 It's fine. I better get ready for work, anyway.
03:30 Well, if you're planning on using the bathroom, it still looks like a war zone.
03:35 Thanks for the heads up.
03:37 Okay.
03:39 Well, someone's made an effort. It was good while it lasted.
03:45 Now, would you like to hear some words of wisdom?
03:48 Oh, you know someone?
03:50 The deeper you go into the hole, the harder it is to climb out again.
03:54 Thank you for the invaluable insight, but I don't plan on falling down any holes soon.
03:59 Oh, come off it. You've dived in so fast, you've pretty much hit your head on the bottom.
04:03 And she's practically moved in, anyway.
04:05 She's stayed over once or twice.
04:07 Well, if she's planning on stopping over this evening, I suggest that you ask her if she likes wrestling.
04:12 Ring Kings is on tonight.
04:14 Five hours of camel clutches, choke slams and pile drivers.
04:20 Paddy's getting popcorny.
04:22 Yeah, I think we might have made alternative plans.
04:28 You've got to be kidding me.
04:39 Come on!
04:45 Oh my, what's the point?
04:50 Got a help?
04:52 Yeah, it's not taking my coins, they're just dropping straight through.
04:54 Yeah, sorry, we've been having a few problems recently.
04:58 Then why haven't you got a sign up, then?
05:00 Okay, calm down.
05:01 Calm down? Calm down? I am calm.
05:05 An engineer's been called.
05:06 So what am I supposed to do, then? Because I can't wait for an engineer to get here.
05:10 I'm here to see my baby son.
05:12 You can always download the app.
05:14 The only other way.
05:23 Oh, that's the face of a man who's spent far too much time making scarecrows.
05:27 Oh yeah, Sarah thought it would be a good idea to model one out of bear wolf.
05:32 So we've called it bear crow.
05:35 That's genius.
05:37 Where is she now, then, Sarah?
05:38 Oh, she's still up at the farm.
05:40 She's on a bit of a roll. She wants to model one out of cane, too.
05:43 Oh, wow.
05:44 Yeah, that's going to scare off more than birds.
05:47 That's like coming with its own house, Beau.
05:49 No, but it does come with its own leather jacket.
05:54 So, Sarah's out?
05:56 Yeah, everybody's out.
06:03 I'd better get to work, then.
06:06 Yep, yep, yep.
06:08 You don't want to be late.
06:15 Right, so how am I supposed to download the stupid app if I can't get a signal?
06:19 Yeah, bit of a black spot, to be honest.
06:22 But if you walk round that side of the hospital, you can usually get 5G up the steps.
06:27 Are you winding me up?
06:29 Is there no Wi-Fi or anything here?
06:31 There is.
06:32 But none with a password.
06:34 Mine connects automatically, so...
06:40 I can ring someone who will know it.
06:42 Yeah, please.
06:48 Macca, alright?
06:50 Yeah, yeah, not bad.
06:53 Seriously, mate, what was I thinking?
06:57 Two months out, do you reckon?
06:59 They've done the hamstring.
07:02 Yeah, I know. That's what I said.
07:04 You don't warm up properly.
07:06 But I need to see my son, so get me the password, now!
07:21 So, what seems to be the problem?
07:25 So this doesn't go any further?
07:27 Goes without saying.
07:29 I can only help you if you tell me what's wrong.
07:32 I don't really know what's wrong.
07:38 This isn't easy for me.
07:40 Take time.
07:41 I know I'm supposed to be more understanding,
07:45 and I should be able to handle things better, but...
07:50 sometimes it's so hard.
07:54 I wish there was a switch that I could flick, but there isn't.
07:59 I wish there was a miracle cure, but there isn't.
08:05 And it just comes out of nowhere.
08:09 Everything's fine, and then...
08:12 all of a sudden, all hell breaks loose, and I've got no idea how to stop it.
08:17 Stop what, exactly?
08:19 Everything. The mood swings, the... the anger, the paranoia.
08:26 And I'll probably sound like a complete idiot, but I need help.
08:32 And you are going to get it, Tom.
08:35 Wait. No, no, no. Sorry.
08:39 I don't think you understand.
08:42 I'm not the one that needs help, Doctor.
08:47 It's Belle.
08:51 (Belle)
08:53 You know, I understand how difficult it must be.
09:06 Living with anyone who struggles with their mental health
09:09 always presents certain challenges.
09:12 Sorry. I know I'm making it sound like it's all about me, but it's not.
09:18 It's Belle. I just worry about her.
09:23 And sometimes it's hard not to,
09:26 especially when it's somebody we care so deeply about.
09:30 But she just keeps saying, "Everything's fine."
09:34 The community mental health team, I want to get them involved.
09:42 But she just shuts me down.
09:45 You know, being open with each other,
09:49 communication in these types of situations is hugely important.
09:54 Well, thank you.
09:56 But like I said before, all I really care about is Belle.
10:01 I just want her to get the help that she needs.
10:06 Argh!
10:10 - How are you good at fixing tills? - Good at drinking beer.
10:14 Well, only the till that needs fixing.
10:18 Cain, when you look at me, what do you see?
10:21 - Don't want me to answer that, do you? - OK, fine.
10:24 Right, let's say a car comes into your workshop, yeah?
10:28 Paintwork's a bit ropey, it's done more than a few miles on the clock,
10:32 - seen better days. - Get a new car.
10:34 - What? - And then take the wreck to the scrapyard. Job done.
10:37 No, no, no, it's not a wreck.
10:39 But if you love the car, you'd still want to drive it, right?
10:42 You'd still want to take it for really long, nice drives.
10:45 Well, Cain, this car has not been driven in a very long time.
10:49 It really needs to be driven.
10:51 Not so long ago, McKenzie couldn't wait to get behind the wheel.
10:56 - No, no, I... - And yet now, Cain, now,
10:59 he doesn't even want to put the key in the ignition.
11:03 You are really making me want to go home and look after a lamb.
11:09 I'm serious, Cain.
11:12 Do you think maybe it's all just caught up with me?
11:15 Have I been knocked down too many times?
11:18 Right, there's one of two things you can do here.
11:22 One, feel sorry for yourself. Two, do what you always do.
11:26 - Which is what? - Win.
11:30 You know I'm here if there's anything further you need to discuss.
11:35 I know it's a lot to take in at this stage,
11:37 but if there's any good news, this is it.
11:40 But he's still going to need to be here, in and out,
11:43 for two to three years, right?
11:45 Where he'll receive the best care. His prognosis is good, Dawn.
11:49 Thank you.
11:51 I'm so sorry. You won't believe what happened.
11:54 I had the HGV parking machine.
11:56 After Dawn explains everything, if you've any questions,
11:58 then just speak to Jenny. I'm sure she'll be able to answer them for you.
12:01 We'll speak soon.
12:04 - Where were you? - That's what I was saying.
12:06 The parking machine wasn't taking coins,
12:08 and then suddenly this attendant turns up, pretty much useless,
12:10 and I'm having to download this stupid app.
12:12 Have you got any idea what I've just had to listen to on my own?
12:15 No, no, but I'm here now, so it's all right.
12:18 OK.
12:24 The test results were back,
12:26 and he doesn't need a bone marrow transplant.
12:30 That's great news. That's what we were hoping for, isn't it?
12:33 But he will still need chemotherapy for two to three years.
12:37 We knew that already. We accepted that.
12:41 I guess...
12:43 I was just clinging on to this ridiculous hope
12:48 of a miracle, that everything would be OK.
12:51 But it's not OK.
12:54 Our son is never going to have a normal childhood.
12:57 Our son is never going to have a normal childhood.
13:00 So, you're thinking of becoming a wrestler?
13:06 No, no, no, I don't think so.
13:08 Good, cos you haven't got the body for it.
13:10 But if you're not becoming a wrestler,
13:12 why are you asking me for some of me old wrestling gear?
13:15 Well, me and a couple of others are building some scarecrows
13:18 for the village Fett, and we thought we could maybe...
13:21 Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
13:23 You're thinking of turning me into a scarecrow?
13:25 No, no, no, we're thinking of turning a scarecrow into you.
13:29 Like a... Like a bearcrow.
13:32 Oh, well, I do have a wrestling convention
13:36 coming up in a few days' time,
13:38 but I do have some old shabby gear you could have.
13:41 Mind you, it does smell of wrestling sweat and meat pies.
13:46 Ah, yeah, the good old days. Lovely.
13:49 Well, thank you very much, Bear. You're literally a legend.
13:52 I'm already on me second cup.
13:58 Sorry, I'm pointing over, Anne.
14:00 If you're on your second, you probably don't want another.
14:03 I'm not sure the doctor would approve.
14:05 And anyway, I'm more interested in what is cooking up for me tonight.
14:08 I've had a thought about that. Rather than cook something up at mine,
14:11 I thought, why don't we do something at yours?
14:13 - At mine? - Yeah, I just thought it'd be nice to do something different.
14:16 - Where's this coming from? - Nothing.
14:19 It's only nice to have a change of scenery.
14:21 You have to make an early start in the morning anyway, so...
14:23 How about dinner? Tomorrow?
14:25 Sure. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, sounds like a plan.
14:28 Hiya, love. Just checking in, making sure you're all right.
14:33 See if you need anything.
14:35 Give me a call back if you want, and I'll speak to you later. Bye-bye.
14:39 Oh, I know I should stop calling, but I just feel so helpless.
14:45 Hey, we're all in the same boat.
14:48 I was thinking we could order food in tonight.
14:51 How about pizza? Are you still hot and spicy?
14:55 What the hell do you think you're doing?
14:59 I wasn't doing anything.
15:01 You have to eat, don't we?
15:03 Oh, sorry. Have I said the wrong thing again?
15:06 Everything you say and do is the wrong thing.
15:09 Oh. Should have sleep with one eye open.
15:12 You can sleep with both eyes open.
15:15 Still won't see me coming.
15:17 I'll leave you to her.
15:20 You're not fooling me for that, are you?
15:28 What? Not wanting to buy it back?
15:30 I see her, Will. I know what she is.
15:33 But it worries me that you don't see it too.
15:35 But she was right, wasn't she?
15:37 The only thing that's important right now is Billy, Dawn and the kids.
15:42 Thought we were all in the same boat.
15:45 I can't do this on my own, Billy.
15:49 What, you think you're doing this by yourself?
15:51 There's always an excuse.
15:52 Yeah, and it's called life.
15:54 Alright, you're here non-stop all the time,
15:56 but at home, what, do you think everything's just stopped because it hasn't?
16:00 You know what? It's exhausting.
16:01 Alright, it must be really exhausting making breakfast.
16:04 Lucas was crying this morning.
16:06 Clemmy didn't want to go to school, and they're both wondering when you're coming home.
16:10 Why are you trying to make me feel even worse?
16:12 I'm here because I have to be.
16:14 Yeah, and I'm there because I have to be.
16:16 It's not a competition.
16:18 I just feel like I'm doing this all by myself.
16:22 Yeah, well, that's unfair.
16:23 Look, I offered to stay here with Evan.
16:26 I slept out in the corridor. We are in this together.
16:29 Me and you.
16:30 None of it is fair, Billy, because everything that normal children have,
16:34 he's not gonna have.
16:35 Look, we both knew how difficult this was gonna be,
16:38 and this is not a life sentence, Dawn.
16:40 Yeah, but every day for the next two to three years will be about keeping that child alive,
16:44 and I just don't think that that has sunk in with you yet.
16:46 Oh, yeah, 'cause I'd rather put my head in my hands and pretend that none of this is happening.
16:49 I'm not saying that.
16:50 But this isn't about first words and first steps.
16:53 This is about first time not wired up to a machine.
16:57 That's his life.
16:59 The life we created.
17:01 Me and you.
17:05 [birds chirping]
17:08 [birds chirping]
17:12 [birds chirping]
17:16 [birds chirping]
17:19 [knocking]
17:44 [door opens]
17:46 I was gonna pretend I baked it myself.
17:51 And then you, uh, realized that I started to think there was something seriously wrong with you.
17:55 Mm.
17:56 Like I'm bearing gifts.
17:58 Mm, triple chocolate.
18:00 My favorite kind of gift.
18:02 Moira's cooked up a feast, though, so I don't even know if we'll get dessert.
18:05 Usually we've got a lot to learn about kids.
18:07 They're keeping you busy, then?
18:08 He's not sheep, he's always a kid.
18:10 [chuckles]
18:11 [footsteps]
18:13 Got your text?
18:19 Went well with Liam, then?
18:21 I think so.
18:25 What did you talk about?
18:29 Obviously you don't have to give me details if you don't want.
18:32 It's just, um...
18:35 I felt weird being in there, opening up about yourself.
18:39 It's not weird, Tom, it's brave.
18:41 We spoke about a lot of things, mainly therapy-based.
18:45 Coping mechanisms.
18:48 There's no quick fix.
18:51 I know you don't want to go, but...
18:54 this is a good thing.
18:56 I just want to be better.
18:59 For you.
19:02 We need to stop doing this. We need to stop picking each other apart.
19:08 We haven't left this place in weeks.
19:10 You keep saying, "So go on, go now, I'm here."
19:13 Do you think I can just walk away from him? I can't.
19:15 What, and I can? Because I clearly don't care as much as you do, do I?
19:18 Did I say that?
19:19 Well, you're having a go at me.
19:21 Because you need something, you need someone to go at, something to hit.
19:23 Don't tell me what's going on in my head when you have absolutely no idea.
19:27 And you have no idea what's going on in mine either.
19:29 Because I'm not allowed to show it.
19:31 So I'll hold it in.
19:33 Because all this is about is you. All anyone talks about is you.
19:37 Oh, well, Billy, if I'd have known that you weren't having enough attention...
19:40 Yeah, because that's what it's about, isn't it? That's exactly what I was saying.
19:43 If you were actually listening, you would have heard me saying that we're on the same side.
19:46 So you're not blaming me?
19:52 You are.
19:53 It always catches up with you in the end.
19:57 That's what you're thinking, isn't it?
20:02 What are you talking about?
20:05 All the messed up things I've done in my life.
20:07 This is payback.
20:10 Why don't you just say it?
20:12 No. No.
20:14 A smackhead.
20:15 On the game.
20:18 Stop it.
20:19 God knows what she put in her body.
20:22 She got lucky with Lucas, but she didn't get lucky with my baby.
20:25 Why don't you just say it?
20:26 Just say it to me if you're thinking it, Billy.
20:29 Why don't you just say it?
20:30 Just say it, Billy!
20:32 Is everything okay?
20:35 Yeah.
20:36 Yeah, sorry.
20:38 I don't know what else you want from me.
20:41 I am trying my best. I really am.
20:44 But that's not good enough.
20:47 No, Billy, I...
20:50 No, Billy, I...
20:51 [sighs]
20:52 [sighs]
20:55 [sighs]
20:58 [sighs]
21:02 [dramatic music]
21:15 (dramatic music)