The Only Way Is Essex S33E07
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00:00Previously...
00:01I want you to come to Essex full-time and live with me.
00:04Wait, what's happening?
00:06To move Bear in, I need to have a bond with him, do you know what I mean?
00:09Yeah. And it's... That will take a little bit of time.
00:11And that's, like, so important to me as well. Yeah.
00:14I need James to step up a little bit more. Yeah.
00:16I think he will. Yeah, he keeps saying he's going to,
00:18but it's just, like, actually doing it.
00:20Like, why is it taking so long?
00:22I've got an idea. Oh, have you? Yeah.
00:24So what, like, relax, just time for me and you?
00:27Like a little night away.
00:29Oh, it's so cute!
00:31Like it? I love it.
00:33In my life, I've got everything I've always wanted,
00:36and the missing piece of the puzzle is love.
00:39And I can't help but feel like you are that missing piece in my life that I love.
00:43So what now for you and Arrow?
00:46I do love him, but I don't think love's always enough.
00:49Harry, he doesn't need to be like this.
00:51No, I thought you were going to come here and try and make a go of things.
00:54Harry, I'm... I can't do it any more.
00:56I can't. You're hurting me too much, babe. You're hurting me.
00:59It's always my fault.
01:05The only way is love, baby
01:10So you love me now
01:15I need you tonight
01:17I need you to know
01:19I'm calling the light under your halo
01:22Cos you are the one
01:24You already know
01:2624K hot though
01:29I need you tonight
01:31I need you to know
01:33I'm calling the light under your halo
01:39There we go. Lovely and romantic, that's all.
01:45I need you tonight
01:47I need you to know
01:49I'm calling the light under your halo
01:53Junaid, Junaid, Junaid.
01:55What is going on?
01:57You just told your best mate that you love his boyfriend.
02:00No, not love.
02:02You didn't say love, did you?
02:04No, I didn't say love in Cyprus.
02:06In Cyprus?
02:07In Essex he did.
02:08No, there's just a lot that's been going on.
02:10Can I just ask?
02:12You only caught these feelings in Cyprus.
02:14You never fancied Joe before?
02:15No.
02:16Never?
02:17Me and Joe have always, always had fanta.
02:19I never looked at him in that way.
02:21I never, ever did.
02:22In Cyprus, where we spent a lot of time together,
02:25every single day, yeah, feelings started to develop.
02:28I thought it was just like a holiday little crush.
02:30And then since I've come back, like, I've realised it's not.
02:34Yeah.
02:35Have you spoke to Joe?
02:36Yeah.
02:37Have you seen Joe?
02:39Mm-hm.
02:40Seen him?
02:41Seen Joe?
02:42Mm-hm.
02:43Where did you see him?
02:46Just say it.
02:47Like his, like his mum's.
02:48Oh, my God.
02:49You went round there with Junaid?
02:51Yeah.
02:52I mean, I only made it to the salon,
02:54I didn't get invited to the house.
02:56It's strange, he's inviting Junaid round,
02:58but isn't he even inviting Harry round?
03:00No, he didn't know I was coming round.
03:01I was in the area and I thought,
03:02I hadn't spoken to him since we'd been back from Cyprus.
03:04OK.
03:05So I thought I'd just pop round to see him,
03:07cos obviously I wanted to check in on him, make sure he's OK.
03:09You are not going to be there for Harry?
03:11Well, you know what, if you're going to be cracking on with Joe,
03:13cos you're not going to be there going on.
03:15I'm not cracking on.
03:16No-one's cracking on.
03:17If you do end and you remain good friends with Joe
03:19and whatever happens, happens,
03:21obviously you do know that you are going to lose Harry.
03:24You must be aware of that.
03:25Yeah, I know, and that is...
03:27And you do understand that I'm in such a terrible situation.
03:30I love you.
03:32I love Harry.
03:33I've been friends with Harry's family for 15 years.
03:37Amy has been blowing up my phone last night.
03:39She is annoyed.
03:40No, and I get that 100%.
03:42Obviously, it's, you know, like...
03:43And I know you're not doing this maliciously,
03:45that's why I ain't turning my back on you.
03:47I don't want Harry to feel shit, but of course he is,
03:50but I can't help how I feel.
03:52But you really need to decide, basically,
03:55as me telling you this as a friend,
03:57you need to decide if the feelings that you have for Joe
03:59are worth losing a friend over.
04:01And Danny said that to you.
04:02And if that is, then that's fine, that's right,
04:04you're going to have to walk away from Harry,
04:06because you need to just decide if it's worth it, basically.
04:16MUSIC CONTINUES
04:27Champagne?
04:29Yeah.
04:31We're going to have, like, a phone-free evening tomorrow.
04:33I think we should, yeah.
04:34Yeah, should we just turn them off?
04:36Fred needs to get hold of you.
04:37He's all right.
04:41You look nice.
04:42So do you.
04:43Cheers.
04:46So, I've ordered food.
04:49Oh, lovely, what did you get?
04:51Some oysters.
04:52Oh, yeah.
04:53Yeah.
04:54So you're just ticking all the boxes, isn't you, innit?
04:56I've got your oysters here for you, bud.
04:58Oh, lovely.
05:01You're welcome, enjoy.
05:02Cheers.
05:03Here we go.
05:04And they're tiny oysters as well, which is good,
05:06because I don't like the ones that are really big.
05:08It's a lot to swallow.
05:09A bit of lemon.
05:13A bit of lemon.
05:14Squirt your lemon in there, boy.
05:17All right, ready?
05:19Cheers.
05:20Cheers.
05:25Yummy.
05:27Mm, very good.
05:29Do you know what an oyster is?
05:31What?
05:32Laphrodisiac.
05:34They are, yeah?
05:35Yeah.
05:36Another one?
05:37Yeah.
05:38When I was younger, I've never eaten this, ever.
05:41What, did you have, like, really bad taste buds?
05:43I was very fussy.
05:44Was you?
05:45Yeah, like...
05:46Yeah, that's hard to believe now.
05:47Like, I used to go round my dad's house for a roast,
05:49and my step-mum, she'd be, like, cook me a roast,
05:53and I'd be like, them carrots are the wrong shape.
05:55What, and not eat them?
05:56It would cause murders.
05:57You were fussy your whole life.
05:58Like, my dad left all of me a pizza or something.
06:00No!
06:01Yeah.
06:02Cheers.
06:03Cheers, big ears.
06:08Thank you for today, though.
06:09It's all right.
06:10Obviously, I missed your birthday,
06:11so we need to do the same, just me and you.
06:14Yeah, don't just stop here.
06:16We need to do more things like this.
06:18We can do more things.
06:19It's not one way straight.
06:21I'm not selfish.
06:22No, I don't think you are selfish.
06:24I'd make sure I treat you exactly the same as what you treat me.
06:28All right.
06:29And also, it's nice to get away from the other lot.
06:32Mm.
06:33Picking your dog up tomorrow?
06:34I'm picking my dog up tomorrow.
06:36Are you excited?
06:37I'm really excited.
06:38He's been ages.
06:39I miss him a lot.
06:41Probably don't know where he's gone one week to the next.
06:43No, that's the problem, yeah.
06:44That's what I feel bad about.
06:46Cos then when she comes back, she just wants her dog back.
06:49It doesn't really work like that.
06:51I know, I know.
06:54Listen, you're going to do whatever you want to do,
06:56but if things between me and you do end up getting more serious
06:59than what it is,
07:00then I'm not going to be co-parenting with her and the dog.
07:05I'm in a shit situation with it.
07:07So we'll worry about that later down the line.
07:09No.
07:10No?
07:12Shall we cheers to a really nice night?
07:14I think we should, yeah.
07:16You had a nice night?
07:17Yeah.
07:18And for you spoiling me, got him.
07:22MUSIC PLAYS
07:38You went to Joe's. Just tell us that.
07:40Clear our heads here.
07:42I basically went to his, and obviously...
07:45..he didn't know I was coming round.
07:47His mum was there,
07:48and we just had a very open, honest conversation in the garden.
07:51I told him, honestly, where my head is at
07:53and where my feelings are,
07:54and I'm going to be so honest with you both.
07:56I do want something with him, I'm not going to lie.
07:58You want it with him? Yeah, I do.
08:00Right, and what does Joe want?
08:02He was pretty much like...
08:04..right now, he's got to deal with, obviously,
08:07with the Harry situation, but...
08:11..he's not closed off to the idea of it.
08:13He just said, right now, he needs me as a friend,
08:16but he's like, he doesn't want to lose me, he wants me there.
08:19He loves me a lot, there's a connection there.
08:21He knows there's a connection there,
08:23I've said that there's a connection there.
08:25So he sees, literally...
08:27He's basically saying, not right now,
08:29he's just got to deal with the Harry stuff.
08:31He's basically saying, not right now,
08:33he's just got to deal with the Harry stuff, but he's open to it.
08:36Once he's basically ended it with Harry,
08:38he will see where it goes for you, which is wrong.
08:40He hasn't even ended things with Harry yet.
08:42Yeah, but it wasn't like that. And I'm not saying it's you, Jan.
08:45Joe has said to me that there is a connection and he misses you.
08:48So there's a way of going around it.
08:50He's going to listen to the conversation.
08:52If you actually do explore things,
08:54that's part of your friendship with Harry, you are aware of that.
08:57Listen, I don't want to lose anyone from my life,
08:59I've not done this in a malicious way whatsoever.
09:01But you know naturally you will lose people.
09:03You do know that, don't you? Yeah, of course.
09:05How can I regret losing Harry?
09:07Because I don't think Joe's genuine.
09:09Listen, you've said it. So I do think it's not great.
09:12You've said it, you've spoke your feelings.
09:15But I didn't realise you actually wanted to run into the sunset within.
09:19And now you're talking to me about relationships.
09:21All I want is my happily ever after.
09:23This is wrong to Harry, that I'm even listening to this.
09:26I hope this blows over. I love you and I'm not falling out with you,
09:28but at the minute, I can't listen to this now, actually.
09:31No, no.
09:32I would have told him how I felt.
09:34Listen, I just think, right, it's all becoming really real now, though, Junaid.
09:38It's becoming real.
09:39We didn't realise that Joe was going to potentially have the same feelings back for you.
09:44So hearing this... So what?
09:46Everyone wanted me to be a fucking idiot
09:48and say how I'm feeling for him to be like, I'm not interested.
09:50Is that what everyone wanted? Not at all.
09:52For me to fall flat on my fucking face once again?
09:54Not at all. Do you know what I mean?
09:56Jan, Jan, you're not looking at the bigger picture.
09:58Like, I know you're, like, obviously, it's poor you,
10:01but it's also poor Harry, old Jan.
10:03You're his best mate.
10:05Yeah, I didn't want this fucking thing, man.
10:07And that's the boy that he's absolutely besotted by and he's in love with him.
10:10And you're turning around saying, you two have got a connection.
10:12People are going to not like it.
10:14You've got to be prepared for that.
10:16Stuff like that with Saffron, that's what's going to happen.
10:19It's a mess. Let's be honest, it's a mess.
10:26You've got me dancing, I'm dancing to the beat of your heart
10:30You've got me dancing, I'm dancing to the beat of your heart
10:36That was nice.
10:37Nice, didn't I? Yeah.
10:39Yeah.
10:40Good night. Great night.
10:42These are comfortable, aren't they? Mmm, lovely.
10:44Shall we take them home? Yeah, I think we should.
10:46What, nick them? Yeah.
10:48They're lovely. No, they are.
10:50They feel lovely on your skin.
10:52I don't think we ever wear dressing gowns. It's social.
10:54Is it?
10:55Oh, actually, one more thing.
10:57What do you mean?
10:59This ain't little.
11:01That ain't little?
11:02It don't look little, but it is something little.
11:05Let me open it then. Open it, go on.
11:08Don't get too excited, it's not like a big gift or anything.
11:11I like thoughtful things.
11:13Alright.
11:14Oh, this is cute.
11:19So you kept it for all that time?
11:21I kept it, yeah.
11:23When did I give you that?
11:25You gave me that at the party where he was having murders with Harry
11:29and it was all going downhill.
11:32That was ages ago and you kept that ever since.
11:34Well, I put it in my pocket and I took it home
11:36and then I see it the other day and I was like,
11:38oh, you still got it?
11:41That would be nice to put in the box.
11:43I think it's lovely, Jester.
11:45Thank you. It's all right.
11:46Go on, open it. I actually love it.
11:49We carry on having a laugh.
11:51Anything fun we do, stick it in the box.
11:54Stick it in the box.
11:56And then maybe, when we're old and wrinkly,
11:59we can look back at it.
12:01Just whip that little thing out.
12:04If we go that far, we might need a bigger box, but...
12:08Listen, we fill it up, it means we're having a good time.
12:11That's all that matters, no?
12:13It's true.
12:16LAUGHTER
12:18I love it.
12:20Shall I kiss it?
12:22Kiss the top of it.
12:24That's a good decoration, yeah.
12:26That's great, isn't it? That's cool, yeah.
12:28That is really good. Yeah.
12:30Sick. Thank you.
12:32All right.
12:34Got lipstick all over you. Mm-hm.
12:41I've had a good night.
12:43I know, but, yeah... It's only just started.
12:59I see the old down here. Next right, guys.
13:01Have you actually seen him take up?
13:03He's absolutely terrible. I can't play.
13:05LAUGHTER
13:13MUSIC CONTINUES
13:21Lovely.
13:23Yeah, you're putting a lot of effort into this.
13:25Don't get any ideas.
13:27Ah, forget it!
13:29No, I'm single, I'm not your type.
13:37What have we got for Bear in here?
13:39Little fruit shoots.
13:41Fruit shoot Bear? Yeah.
13:43Yeah? Yes, please.
13:45I can't believe I'm seeing you in mum mode.
13:47I know, it's weird, isn't it?
13:49First in, little drink break.
13:53He definitely looks the part.
13:55He does, yeah.
13:57I just don't know if he's going to pull it off.
13:59It's three shots, I reckon.
14:01Oh!
14:05It's white again.
14:07You can't get your heart in it.
14:17It's a little like that.
14:19Oh!
14:21Oh!
14:23We'll just call it there, lads.
14:25We'll just call it there, all right?
14:27Great game. Great game, great game.
14:29Good game, lads. Good game.
14:31Good game, that was. It's a lovely game of golf.
14:33How's things for you? How's you and Ella?
14:35Do you know what? We had a good week last week.
14:37I took her out for her birthday. Finally.
14:39Done something nice for her, because obviously
14:41on her actual birthday, we was in Germany.
14:43She was really happy with it all.
14:45It was a good night.
14:47How is you and Jo? Has she moved down yet?
14:49No, not yet. Do you know what it is, yeah?
14:51I feel like my plan now is with this.
14:53She's down now, yeah? She's brought Bear down.
14:55So I'm going to spend more time with Bear.
14:57I've planned something for us to do tomorrow.
14:59We're going to go out and do it. Start developing that bond.
15:01Do you know what I mean? Because it needs to start happening.
15:03So when we do get a place, it's going to be comfortable.
15:05Do you know what I mean?
15:07You can spend more time with Bear. Yeah, exactly.
15:09You're not my dad at the end of the day, either way.
15:11Yeah, and I know he's only three years old.
15:13Do you know what I mean?
15:15It's still like, I don't want to be that person.
15:17No, because the last thing you want is
15:19it comes down to you two moving in together
15:21and that bond's not quite there. It'll make it even harder.
15:23It has to be as easy as possible for when that time comes.
15:25It takes time, do you know what I mean?
15:27For me, obviously, I was living that single life.
15:29Yeah.
15:31No kids, and then to be around Amy with two kids,
15:33it was tough.
15:35Do you know what I mean?
15:37And trying to, like you say, develop that bond with them.
15:39Do you think you've got that?
15:41You've obviously got that now.
15:43Yeah, I love them to bits, and I love being around them.
15:45It's just like, I'm a big kid at home.
15:47Do you know what I mean?
15:49It was quite easy for me to develop that bond.
15:51But for them,
15:53I suppose it was a little bit standoffish
15:55because they don't really know me.
15:57I'm a stranger coming into their life.
15:59That's what I worry about.
16:01Because I know, even when I was younger, when I was a kid,
16:03it happened to me.
16:05I remember being 10, 11,
16:07and being standoffish to people coming in my house.
16:09I was like, I don't want to get to know you.
16:11I want it to be comfortable
16:13and to feel really comfortable
16:15and happy with me.
16:17It's like I'm just imposing myself
16:19and I'm there. I just don't want that feeling.
16:21No.
16:23It's good that you've planned something,
16:25but then you need to make that a frequent thing.
16:27You need to build that bond
16:29and make sure that every time you're around him,
16:31you make loads of effort with him.
16:33That bond will come.
16:35I want her to move in more than anything.
16:37Like you say, don't rush it.
16:39When it feels right, it'll be right.
16:41You can take him out and play golf
16:43when he gets a bit older.
16:45That's so true.
16:47Come on, Bear.
16:57Do you want the pens?
16:59Yeah.
17:01I actually can't get over the cuteness.
17:03I like your dungarees.
17:05Does he like Essex? Does he love coming down here?
17:07This is the first time he's been down here.
17:09It's the first time he's ever been down here?
17:11Yeah. No way.
17:13We literally drove down today
17:15and then met you guys.
17:17We're going to the farm tomorrow.
17:19Oh, cute.
17:21You're going to see loads of animals tomorrow.
17:23Do you want me to open it for you?
17:25In a minute.
17:27That's what you want.
17:29She's so cute.
17:31Does that make you want to have a vape with Dan?
17:33How are you with Dan?
17:35Are you okay?
17:37Oh my God, we had such a good time.
17:39How was it?
17:41You know.
17:43He picked me up in a pink cab
17:45and we went for dinner.
17:47We had oysters and champagne.
17:49He did good, didn't he?
17:51He did so good.
17:53That is like boyfriend vibes.
17:55He's not my boyfriend yet, though.
17:57No, but that is just so cute.
17:59I just feel like he's thinking about the future of you
18:01if he's doing little things like that.
18:03Did you love it?
18:05Yeah, I did love it.
18:07I can tell.
18:09What about you, Jodie, though?
18:11Are you happy to have Bear here
18:13and you can spend more time with Diags now?
18:15I feel like this next couple of days are really important.
18:17How it goes is just going to...
18:19Do you know what I mean?
18:21I'm a bit worried.
18:23James, I know he loves me,
18:25but does he love everything that I come with?
18:27Do you know what I mean?
18:29It's really hard.
18:31It's been me and James for a very long time.
18:33I'm worried that now...
18:35I don't know.
18:37Now you're worried that
18:39because Baby will be more involved
18:41he'll take a step back?
18:43I don't think so.
18:45I think it will do the opposite.
18:47Seeing you in mum mode,
18:49I think even you seeing Diags around him
18:51will make you...
18:53It melts my heart every single time.
18:55I absolutely love it.
18:57It's going to make us have babies!
18:59We'll see, we'll see.
19:01I've found what you're looking for.
19:09I've found what you're looking for.
19:15Hi.
19:17Hello, darling.
19:19You OK?
19:21Yeah.
19:23Oh, yeah.
19:25It's just mad, innit?
19:27Yeah, it is crazy.
19:29I feel like I'm grieving a little bit.
19:31It's weird, innit, how you can go from
19:33being with someone every day
19:35to then not, but...
19:37It's just hurting.
19:39I just wanted it to work.
19:41We wanted it to work.
19:43You're great together.
19:45But sometimes things just don't work out.
19:47But you'll be all right.
19:49I feel like not only do I lose him,
19:51but I lose you, because you've been so lovely to me for a year.
19:53I've packed up everything,
19:55because everything's good to go.
19:57I don't want anything.
19:59But I also...
20:01This is the bit that kills me.
20:05This is important.
20:07I've just written a few words in there.
20:09Just respect for one another.
20:11OK.
20:13Shall we have a hug?
20:15Shall we?
20:17I'm going to miss you as well.
20:19I'm going to miss you too.
20:27MUSIC PLAYS
20:29I just do 45 minutes cardio every day.
20:31What's cardio?
20:33Treadmill.
20:35Stunning.
20:37Incline 15, speed 4.5.
20:39Oh, really? Fast paced?
20:41Not really, slow.
20:43Oh, is that how you like it?
20:45It's an uphill walk.
20:47Oh, lovely.
20:49So how was the night out?
20:51What did I miss, any girls?
20:53I mean, to be fair, I was so looking forward to it.
20:55I was by the bar having a chat with Chloe Meadows,
20:57Danny and Saf.
20:59Danny was giving me tough love,
21:01as she does.
21:03It was a bit much, to be fair.
21:05I was just telling them how I was feeling,
21:07what's happened between me and Joe,
21:09and obviously I went round to see him.
21:11But then Saffron walked away.
21:13Well, completely.
21:15Yeah, I just felt like I was opening up.
21:17They weren't really having it.
21:19And I get it. Listen, Jan.
21:21Being gay men is hard work.
21:23It is hard work.
21:25Being gay has always been something that
21:27I've found difficult.
21:29As much as I've been able to
21:31express who I am,
21:33and be a girly girl, and just be who I am.
21:35And I love that side of me, but
21:37it is so difficult.
21:39Finding love is the hardest thing in the world.
21:41Gays are together for two days.
21:43In gay world, that's two months.
21:45Everything is times by ten.
21:47With us, connections are actually
21:49extremely rare to find.
21:51So when we do find one,
21:53it is hard to ignore it,
21:55or say no.
21:57You can't choose who you have a connection with.
21:59Honestly, I've never been in love.
22:01I've never had a connection with anyone.
22:03I've never felt this way towards anyone.
22:05So when I found a connection with someone new,
22:07you think I'm going to let go?
22:09Everyone wants to feel loved.
22:11So why should you stop your happiness?
22:13Because it's going to hurt someone else.
22:15Everyone wants their fairy tale.
22:17You've just got to bear in mind that
22:19when you're getting your fairy tale,
22:21you are pissing on someone else's cornflakes.
22:23I didn't try to see if there was a connection there with Jo.
22:25It was just there.
22:27I've got to go with my heart.
22:29And as much as that will upset people
22:31and hurt people's feelings,
22:33it will hurt my feelings
22:35if I never tried and never gave it a go.
22:43Let me tell you a few home truths about Jo.
22:45You don't know how lucky I was to have you.
22:47I don't care what you say.
22:49You deserve so, so much better than him.
22:51I just think so differently of Jo now.
22:53I've completely lost respect for him.
22:55I really have.
23:03Ready one more time. Up!
23:05Yeah!
23:07Oh, bless her.
23:09Up!
23:11Good girl.
23:13Going to come and have your tea?
23:15Lovely. Come on, Mum. Let's go have some tea.
23:19So you've got everything put away?
23:21All sorted out?
23:23Pretty much.
23:25It's been stressful getting all that back together.
23:27Who wants to come back and live with their mum again
23:29at nearly 26 years old?
23:31Who wants their son back that age?
23:33I know you don't want me here.
23:35She's like, hurry up and move out.
23:37No, don't be daft. We love having you here.
23:39I haven't really seen many people,
23:41but I've obviously spoken to Janaye
23:43like every day, all day long.
23:45Oh, have you?
23:47Yeah, he's massively been there for me.
23:49We're really enjoying each other's company.
23:51It sounds like you've got a nice friendship with Janaye.
23:53It's basically said that he's got feelings for me.
23:55Right. What, more than friendship feelings?
23:57Well, yeah.
23:59You're vulnerable at the minute.
24:01You've just come out of a relationship.
24:03Yeah, and the last thing I want to do
24:05is get into another one.
24:07Don't jump into anything.
24:09As I've always said, any kind of relationship
24:11I haven't even broken up with Harry for that long.
24:13Take things slow. Enjoy it being you.
24:15You know, find you again.
24:17But I must admit,
24:19seeing Harry was just so surreal.
24:21I can imagine. It was heartbreaking.
24:23He heard an envelope
24:25and he said that it was a letter to you.
24:27Maybe we could read it together.
24:29It's up to you.
24:31I do and I don't.
24:33Well, you need to see what he's got to say.
24:35Shall I go and get it?
24:37Come on, Moo.
24:39I feel nervous about reading it.
24:41No, you'll be fine.
24:43She could read it.
24:45All right.
24:47Here we go.
24:49It's sad, isn't it?
24:51Jo, I don't even know where to start.
24:53Even though I'm hurting
24:55and crushed inside,
24:57for us both to move on, we need to be happy
24:59and respect each other and always think
25:01of our happy times together.
25:03I've never loved, like...
25:05Right.
25:07Jo.
25:11I've never loved,
25:13like I have the love for you.
25:15I loved every hair on your body.
25:17I would have done anything for you.
25:19But I respect your decision to not
25:21want to be with me.
25:23Deep down, I know you did all you could
25:25to make this relationship work.
25:27I just think that maybe
25:29it wasn't for you.
25:31Always wanted to make you happy
25:33and I feel like I was never enough.
25:37You're an amazing dad
25:39and I'll always be proud of you for that.
25:41This is so special and I hope...
25:47I'll always be
25:49Harry Chops.
25:51We've had so many amazing memories in a short
25:53year and I'm gutted
25:55that it's come to an end.
25:57It's like...
25:59It's like someone's, like, died.
26:01Come here.
26:03Come here.
26:07We're falling
26:09to pieces now.
26:15The only way
26:17is love.
26:19If you miss it,
26:21it's the magic
26:23that I'm feeling.
26:29Again!
26:31Again!
26:33Oh!
26:35Say hello, donkey!
26:37Again!
26:39Chase him!
26:41Do you want to chase a donkey?
26:43I'm chasing!
26:47Oh, my God!
26:49The little piglets.
26:51Crazy pigs.
26:53He's knocked out.
26:55Oh, my God, he's biting my hair!
26:59Do you reckon this was a bad colour choice to wear?
27:01Yeah, well, I don't know why you always think
27:03that you can wear white. You're so messy.
27:05I look stylish, don't I?
27:09How does the horse go, bear?
27:11Neigh.
27:13Neigh. Neigh.
27:15Bye!
27:17Bye!
27:21What's that? Don't pick up poo, mind.
27:23Is that poo? Is that poo?
27:25Hold on, is that poo?
27:32Do you want some of that one?
27:34I want both.
27:36You should have had that one.
27:38It would have been a lot less messy for you.
27:40Are you looking forward to spending more time with me?
27:42Yeah. Oh, that's good.
27:47Don't do that.
27:49That's not very nice.
27:53It's naughty.
27:55You're naughty? I didn't get you, did I?
27:57No.
27:59Who's naughty, me or you?
28:01Er, Mummy. Oh.
28:03I agree. Are you ganging up on me already?
28:05Yeah.
28:07You're so mean.
28:09So true. She's mean to me all the time
28:11and I don't even do anything wrong, bear.
28:13Why? I don't know.
28:15I don't know why.
28:17I'm just as upset as you.
28:19He gets it. He understands.
28:21It's been a nice day.
28:23It has been a nice day.
28:25It's not been that bad.
28:27It's like two kids running around together.
28:29Yeah, cos I am a big kid.
28:31Yeah, you are.
28:33So it's not actually really that hard.
28:35It's just like having another one of me running around with.
28:37It's nice to spend some time us three.
28:39Yeah.
28:41I said it needed to happen
28:43and when the situation comes to us moving in with each other,
28:45I have to have that bond there already.
28:47That's why I've not been rushing.
28:49And that's, like, so important to me
28:51because, obviously, he is, like, my life.
28:53But I just think, like you said, we shouldn't rush it
28:55because it is right.
28:57Yeah.
28:59And it is 100% what you want.
29:01Because I get really scared.
29:03I feel like, I don't know, I know you love me
29:05but I just get scared that, like,
29:07it's, like, going to be a lot for you.
29:09Listen, it's never going to be the easiest situation in the world.
29:11It's just not.
29:13If that's what it takes for us to be together,
29:15it's what it takes for us to be together.
29:17And I know that.
29:19It isn't for everybody.
29:21And it is a lot to ask and I do get that.
29:23And I don't want it to just be, like, dibbling in and out.
29:25Like, if we're going to do it, it needs to be, like, consistent.
29:27Do you know what I mean? He's only three
29:29and it is going to be a bit confusing for him.
29:31Yeah. It's going to be consistent from now on.
29:33Yeah.
29:35You can't just be dipping in and out, like you said,
29:37because it doesn't work.
29:39I had that when I was younger.
29:41It's hard to develop a connection with a step-parent
29:43or with someone who's coming into someone's life
29:45without being around them a lot.
29:47And I do want to do that.
29:49I know you do.
29:51I know you do as well, so I wanted to do that for all of us.
29:53No, but I really appreciate it.
29:55It's really lovely.
30:01You're the best.
30:05It's hard work, though, isn't it?
30:09You're telling me. It is so hard.
30:21Steam remover. Yes.
30:23I don't know which one, Jon, you can do it.
30:25Could you eat, like, a four-year-old?
30:27I actually washed one of your white tops the other day.
30:29It looked like Amy's twins had been eating with it.
30:31Astonish. Done.
30:33Get that in.
30:35Because there's so much to bloody choose from.
30:39Right, we're done in this aisle.
30:41Yes, I think we're finally done. We've got to move on.
30:43You've spent enough down here.
30:45Wow, you look gorgeous.
30:47It's like a supermarket sweeper. Who can buy more?
30:49Yours is very pink. What have you got in there?
30:51Yeah, sort of piling things in.
30:53You've got your beach bag. You're going back on holiday, are you?
30:55Yeah. What else have you got?
30:57You've just got bits and pieces.
30:59I like this. He's being nosy. Pink, always.
31:01That's always another blanket.
31:03You having a party? You want to tell us about it?
31:05No, that's for Kazza Brooke.
31:07We need a few of them.
31:09Who's been over to Kazza Brooke? Where's the invite again?
31:11I'm not lost in the post again, Jon.
31:13We haven't had parties.
31:15We've had Harry over.
31:17We've had him over quite a bit, yeah.
31:19He rang me, Harry, and he was in a right state, I'm not going to lie.
31:21I said, listen, just get round here.
31:23Elma rang me and was like, have you spoke to him?
31:25I suggested she went and picked him up and brought him to mine.
31:27He was just in bits, Saf.
31:29I've not seen Harry.
31:31I've had a lot going on myself. Of course.
31:33But that aside,
31:35Junaid had opened up to me in Cyprus.
31:37Me and Danny went for lunch.
31:39He was crying about how he felt,
31:41saying he can't control his feelings.
31:43Danny told Jo, and it was all shut down.
31:45I'd gone to hairdressers to see him
31:47and he weren't shutting it down to me.
31:49What, Jo wasn't?
31:51I've heard a bit of this. I don't agree with any of it, Saf,
31:53if I'm honest. I think, personally,
31:55I think Junaid's a liberty.
31:57Even Roman's saying Junaid can't help his feelings. You do.
31:59I said to Junaid at the club, I said the other night,
32:01look, you need to control your feelings.
32:03And he got a bit defensive.
32:05And to be honest, I had to remove myself
32:07from that conversation. Because you stand for what's right.
32:09Morally, we all know what's right.
32:11All day long.
32:13So, he got close with Harry and then decided to say
32:15he got feelings for his geezer there and then.
32:17Junaid and Harry were like that, yeah?
32:19And I know Harry's hurt by it.
32:21Automatically, when you meet your friend's partner,
32:23you have a block.
32:25You just don't even look at them in that way, you have a block.
32:27Me and Danny have said to him, stop.
32:29He's actually spent time with Jo
32:31before Harry and Jo finished.
32:33He's been round Jo's house.
32:35Have they done anything? No, no, no.
32:37He's gone round there, he's met Jo's mum.
32:39What?
32:41It's all gone a bit mad.
32:43Junaid said to me, they've been on the phone
32:45two hours a day.
32:47But Jo admitted to me, he's been flirting.
32:49He admitted it was flirting, he admitted there was a connection.
32:51Yeah.
32:53And he's admitted that he's curious.
32:55How can Jo love Junaid already?
32:57After just spitting up with Harry?
32:59He doesn't love him, but he hasn't shut down exploring it.
33:01Not like me and you, Jordan.
33:03Which says it all, really.
33:05I can't believe it.
33:07At least give it a bit of time, even if you do like Junaid.
33:09Don't start frowning in his face yet.
33:11You owe him, that's the least you can do.
33:13It's not even been a couple of days.
33:15I don't think he knows that it's gone this far.
33:17And he needs to know.
33:19If he bumps into them together, and he knows you know,
33:21you've got to tell him.
33:23You can enjoy these.
33:25I'm loving the house.
33:27You should be a waiter, you.
33:29How are you carrying the Prosecco?
33:31Because the main important thing for me is the drink.
33:33I've been slaving away all day.
33:35Right, you need to try these fajitas.
33:37Tell me what you think.
33:39Yeah, I actually can't wait.
33:41Right, you ready?
33:43Go on.
33:45I'm excited.
33:47Do it.
33:49Do it.
33:51Go on.
33:53Try it.
33:55Season that well, you know.
33:57Is it good?
33:59I swear it's good.
34:01Is it nice?
34:03Best fajitas you've had?
34:05Really?
34:07I think so.
34:09How are you feeling though?
34:11I've been up and down.
34:13I think it really hit me the other day when
34:15obviously my mum went to see Harry.
34:17Well, it was more to get my stuff.
34:19What did he say to your mum?
34:21I think he's sad that obviously it's gone this way.
34:23Of course.
34:25Harry wrote me a letter.
34:27Oh God.
34:29And I couldn't even get through it.
34:31I read the first.
34:33It was just emotional.
34:35It was literally his heart on paper.
34:37Do you think you've made the right decision?
34:39Yeah. I don't think, I know.
34:41I have made the right decision.
34:43As horrible as what it is,
34:45I don't want to see Harry upset.
34:47But at the end of the day,
34:49the reality of the situation is
34:51we weren't working.
34:53I get obviously your situation isn't the greatest.
34:55I 100% get that.
34:57And obviously me being honest and open with you
34:59and telling you how I feel.
35:01I had to just do what's right for me.
35:03Yeah.
35:05And I'm glad I've done it.
35:07And obviously there is a connection there.
35:09Yeah.
35:11I can't throw you away from my life
35:13not knowing what could potentially happen.
35:15Do you know what I mean?
35:17So I am going to spend time with you.
35:19I enjoy spending time with you.
35:21There's no pressure in it.
35:23Do you know what I mean?
35:25Yeah, of course.
35:27I'm so comfortable.
35:29Yeah, you look it.
35:31Yeah, you know me.
35:33I ain't going to make myself feel uncomfortable.
35:35You look really comfortable right now.
35:37Yeah, maybe this is my spot.
35:39You love it.
35:41You love it.
35:43Are you filming?
35:45Yeah.
35:47I do like cuddle on sofa.
35:49Cuddle on sofa, watching TV, chill vibes.
35:51What else?
35:53Stop.
35:55I've had a lovely night though.
35:57So have I.
35:59It's been good.
36:01But this is what I needed.
36:03There's plenty more where this comes from.
36:05I don't doubt that.
36:07I really don't.
36:13The only way is love.
36:23Oh, lovely.
36:25It's just a nice view, isn't it?
36:27Sit on the outer edge just in case.
36:29I need to get out quick.
36:31Hello, guys.
36:33You never told me about this place.
36:35What I want to know is, you've been looking really good lately.
36:37Is this off your own back or have you been getting dressed by someone?
36:39Shut up.
36:41Yeah, yeah.
36:43Shut up.
37:05Surprise.
37:07You look lovely.
37:09Hey.
37:11I was over the moon to hear from you.
37:13You know me too well, don't you?
37:21Anyway, how was the farm?
37:23Do you know what?
37:25It was cool.
37:27Was your neck hurt?
37:29Yeah.
37:31You look older today.
37:33I wouldn't be surprised.
37:35Do you know what?
37:37It did go well.
37:39We bonded.
37:41It was a start.
37:43So I was just going to keep this going.
37:45Yeah, you need to keep it going.
37:47It was rewarding.
37:49It felt good after I woke up from a nap.
37:51You're making an effort with it.
37:53You're making a start.
37:55I would love to have seen it,
37:57but it sounds like you've done all right for your first date.
37:59I've done good.
38:01I've done good.
38:03You did good.
38:05It's so cute.
38:07I feel like you're definitely the right person to do it.
38:09It takes a special someone
38:11to take on the role of a stepdad.
38:13Yeah, good.
38:15Because I love you.
38:17I love you too.
38:19Don't make me cry.
38:21It's a feeling.
38:23It's a feeling.
38:33How are you?
38:35It's been difficult, H,
38:37because when we left Cyprus,
38:39you and Jo were on the...
38:41Well, I didn't know where yous were, to be honest.
38:43You were somewhere, but you weren't great.
38:45Now it's all settled.
38:47Obviously, you know what Junaid said to you about feelings for Jo.
38:49I'm still like...
38:51Now I've sat on that, I'm like,
38:53how many more times can I have an argument with Junaid?
38:55This is it now.
38:57What have you heard, then?
38:59Apart from saying he had feelings...
39:01The last thing I heard was
39:03obviously what he said in Cyprus.
39:05To be honest with you, I've been trying to keep my distance from him.
39:07Listen, I've spoke to Junaid.
39:09Do I think it's wrong? Morally, I think it's wrong.
39:11Yeah, it's so wrong.
39:13Can you control someone's feelings? No.
39:15No.
39:17I've spoken to you, and...
39:19He done my hair, I met Terry's mum.
39:21This was prior to the break-up,
39:23and I didn't know he was going to call it off.
39:25He was like, I'm not sure, I need to see him face-to-face.
39:27But he did say to me that he missed Junaid a lot.
39:31And I did say to him,
39:33would you rather be around Harry or Junaid then?
39:35I said, cos I can't understand this.
39:37And he was like, I would rather have been with Junaid.
39:43How hurtful.
39:45It wasn't great, but I need to tell you everything,
39:47and that's why I've come here.
39:49I thought I'd do this before Amber's birthday.
39:51We've all got a night out.
39:53Anyway, so I went to the club the other night.
39:55I asked Junaid what was going on, like me and Danny were talking.
39:57I said, you keep saying you've got feelings for Joe,
39:59this, that and the other.
40:01I said, what is going on?
40:03And he was like, oh, I've gone round there,
40:05I've seen Joe, before Joe finished it with you.
40:07The day before.
40:09And he was like, I've met the mum, she's lovely.
40:11Yeah.
40:13Yeah.
40:15So I snapped at Junaid and said, look...
40:17It's so wrong.
40:19How can people do that to me?
40:21My fucking, well, then boyfriend.
40:23And my best mate.
40:25I know.
40:27H, I know, I'm very aware of it.
40:29He said that it was flirty,
40:31there was a connection.
40:33He said all this, Joe, openly to me.
40:35So Joe's got feelings for Junaid?
40:37Or is Joe leaving Junaid on?
40:39I think he's open to exploring.
40:41What that means, H, I don't know,
40:43but listen, don't think any of us lot,
40:45everyone is saying,
40:47this ain't going to go down well, morally it's wrong.
40:49It's wrong.
40:51It's wrong.
40:53I rang Junaid last night,
40:55and he was like, all right, Saf?
40:57Giggly and all that.
40:59And I said to him, what you been up to?
41:01And he was like, turned the phone,
41:03and he was like, surprise!
41:05And he was sitting there with Joe in his flat.
41:07I know obviously people are going to shut it down,
41:09so I took a screenshot.
41:11I don't know,
41:13do you want to see this,
41:15just so you know?
41:25How can they both sit there laughing?
41:27I don't know.
41:33I don't know.
41:35Come.
41:37Come.
41:41This is the most hurtful thing
41:43I've ever had to go through.
41:51You don't deserve this, Emma.
41:53You do not deserve this.
41:59I'm starving here.
42:01Can't wait to eat.
42:03No.
42:05Are you joking me?
42:07Is that Freddy?
42:09I want a masala.
42:11I want a...
42:13Are you telling me he was here?
42:15No, I didn't say nothing.
42:17He's got nothing to do with me.
42:19He's everywhere I go.
42:21What is he, a member of the golf club?
42:23You don't play golf, mate.
42:25Oh, hello.
42:27Guys, this is Nanny Edge, my nan.
42:29Get nice and comfortable, guys.
42:31Why not?
42:33Jodie and Diags are together.
42:35Oh, right.
42:37Ella and Dan are together, aren't they?
42:39Oh, right. Look at you two.
42:41I know.
42:43You've won the lottery, you two.
42:45Nan, I need you to have a word,
42:47because they keep going out without me.
42:49I don't know if we ever have been out without you.
42:51It's good to see you again, Fred.
42:53It's lovely having you here.
42:55It's been a while, hasn't it?
42:57I haven't seen you since Elise this morning.
42:59I know.
43:01They're in a bit of a fropple.
43:03So there's two, but there's also Fred.
43:05Nothing wrong with that.
43:07Which is lovely. I love Fred.
43:09I'm happy my mates get on with him anyway.
43:11Yeah.
43:13You ain't got to worry about me turning up now.
43:15Can I bring my boyfriend next time?
43:17Yeah.
43:19Boyfriend? What boyfriend?
43:21Oh, I've got a couple.
43:23A couple on the go.
43:25What's the main news at the minute?
43:27Joe and Janaye, isn't it?
43:29So obviously, Harry and Joe
43:31were together, weren't they?
43:33I went to the gym the other day. I'm a gym boy now, aren't I?
43:35Yeah, yeah, 12 times a week.
43:37Always working out. I went with Jan.
43:39Obviously, him and Joe, I think, are progressing.
43:43It gets worse.
43:45What do you mean?
43:47I knew that Joe went round to Janaye's
43:49last night, so I thought I would
43:51just check in and see how it went.
43:53And a video called
43:55Janaye's
43:57As he's
43:59answered the call,
44:05they're both snogging.
44:11I felt like I was witnessing
44:13an affair.
44:15Janaye's obviously
44:17meant for you to see that
44:19with your own eyes, so then we're not all thinking
44:21Janaye's just running with something
44:23that's not even there.
44:27Something's
44:29happening.
44:31Joe and
44:33Janaye are going to end up being together.
44:43Next time...
44:45Ah!
44:47You're joking!
44:51OK, give the
44:53neighbours an heart attack. There's a lot going on
44:55at home. You know, like Soph
44:57is feeling lonely. She went up to Newcastle
44:59because we weren't getting on particularly that well.
45:01I'm struggling a bit at the minute, really.
45:03I mean, listen, you know everyone's talking.
45:05We don't owe anyone anything.
45:07But they're both not worth it, you do realise that.
45:09I know they're both not worth it.
45:11I'll never ever talk to Jane ever again.
45:13We did have a drunken kiss.
45:15Janade?
45:17Are you fucking joking?
45:19You clearly don't care. Of course I care about you.
45:21We were good friends.
45:23You were my best friend.
45:25That was the truth of it.
45:27You knew how fucking much I loved him.
45:53Woo!
45:55Woo!
45:57Woo!