When Jack’s parents die, he and his sister Julie are worried that their young siblings will be taken into care. As the pressures of keeping the family together grow, Jack finds the sexual frustrations of teenage life and his growing attraction for his sister impinging on their complicated lives.
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00:03:10I really think you should… you should send us men back, dear.
00:03:14I mean, the sun won't arrive till tomorrow…
00:03:16Don't they teach you any manners at school?
00:03:19When your mother goes to the trouble of cooking you a decent meal,
00:03:22the least you can do is eat it.
00:03:24I don't like beef.
00:03:26I'm sure if you telephone them and said you'd change your mind.
00:03:29It's pork, isn't it?
00:03:32Then I don't like pork.
00:03:34I'll have it.
00:03:35Jack, just eat it up properly.
00:03:37Not if Jack doesn't want to. It's soup.
00:03:40Julie, do you want some?
00:03:42No, thanks.
00:03:43As long as it doesn't go to waste, that's the main thing.
00:03:46Why don't you ring them in the morning?
00:03:48Tell them you've changed your mind.
00:03:50Out of the question.
00:03:53But you put so much work into that garden.
00:03:56It's a mess. It's full of weeds.
00:03:58It's out of control.
00:04:02So I'll be needing your assistance tomorrow.
00:04:05You come straight home from school.
00:04:07Right.
00:04:08And tell them to sit up properly.
00:04:10Let your mother eat her food in peace.
00:04:14I really think you should sleep on it, dear.
00:04:17It'll be much tidier from now on.
00:04:20It'll be much tidier from now on.
00:04:22And there's an end to it.
00:04:43Come on, Julie. We've got to get going.
00:04:47See you later, sir.
00:04:50See you later.
00:05:20See you later.
00:05:50See you later.
00:06:20Where have you been?
00:06:23Oh, extra maths.
00:06:26Came as quick as I could.
00:06:29Better put something on.
00:06:31It's a messy job we've got ahead of us.
00:06:40I'm sorry.
00:06:42I'm sorry.
00:06:44I'm sorry.
00:06:46I'm sorry.
00:06:48I'm sorry.
00:07:18I'm sorry.
00:07:28I'm afraid I'm two inches above the knee.
00:07:31I'm afraid I'm two inches above the knee.
00:07:35I still think it should be on the floor.
00:07:38I still think it should be on the floor.
00:07:48I still think it should be on the floor.
00:08:09Jack!
00:08:18Jack!
00:08:48Jack!
00:09:18Jack!
00:09:48Jack!
00:10:18Jack!
00:10:48No, it's you that's run down, Jack. It's not your clock.
00:10:54No, you just lie there for a moment.
00:10:56I think it's high time you and I had a little chat.
00:11:01I'm going to be late.
00:11:03Yeah, well, you're late enough as it is.
00:11:05Another few minutes won't make any difference.
00:11:07No, don't hide behind your hair.
00:11:10I want to look in your eyes.
00:11:12Your pupils are very large.
00:11:14Did you know that?
00:11:16Your pupils are very large. Did you know that?
00:11:18And there are bags under your eyes,
00:11:20even though you've just woken up.
00:11:22Do you know where that is?
00:11:24You know what I'm talking about, don't you?
00:11:26I can see that you do.
00:11:32Look, you're...
00:11:34You're growing into a young man, Jack,
00:11:36and I'm... I'm very proud of you.
00:11:38I am.
00:11:40And I know that growing up's difficult.
00:11:42But there are things you can do
00:11:44that you cannot do to make it that much easier for yourself.
00:11:46And if you go on the way you're going,
00:11:48you're going to do yourself an awful lot of damage.
00:11:52Damage?
00:11:54I mean damage to your body.
00:11:56I mean, just look at yourself.
00:11:58You can't get up in the morning.
00:12:00You're tired all day. You're moody.
00:12:02And your room's a pigsty.
00:12:04And don't urge me.
00:12:06You don't even wash properly.
00:12:08And you're rude to your sisters and to me.
00:12:10And we both know why that is, don't we?
00:12:14I don't want to alarm you,
00:12:16but every time
00:12:18that you do it,
00:12:20it takes
00:12:22two full pints of blood to replace it.
00:12:28You don't want me saying this to you, do you?
00:12:30It's only what your dad would have said
00:12:32if he was alive.
00:12:34And who knows, maybe someday he'll turn around
00:12:36and thank me for telling you these things.
00:12:44And up you get.
00:12:46Now clean clothes on your chair.
00:12:48I have to go to the hospital this afternoon,
00:12:50so you'll have to bring Tom home and take care of him.
00:12:52Why can't Julie?
00:12:56Because I'm asking you, Jack.
00:12:58Julie has enough to do as it is,
00:13:00and all her homework.
00:13:02And it's Susan at ball practice.
00:13:04So it'll just have to be you for a change.
00:13:06He's your brother, you know.
00:13:08Hurry up. Breakfast's ready downstairs.
00:13:14I'll wait here.
00:13:20I'll be up at the top of the aisle.
00:13:22Yeah, yeah.
00:13:24Do you want some salt, please?
00:13:26Salt? Where's the salt?
00:13:28Yeah, I'll get you some salt.
00:13:30Do you want some more butter and onions?
00:13:32Yes, please.
00:13:38Come on, Julie.
00:13:40You're going to be late.
00:13:42Well, time for breakfast, Jack.
00:13:46Well, coming or not?
00:13:48You go on ahead.
00:13:50I'm not bothered.
00:13:52It's you who's going to be late.
00:13:58How about you, Sue?
00:14:00I'm not going yet.
00:14:02Tom?
00:14:04Eh?
00:14:06I'm going with Sue.
00:14:08Jack,
00:14:10do eat your breakfast, please.
00:14:12I'm sick of that gloopy porridge.
00:14:38How you sat on this?
00:14:40On a race, on a fight?
00:14:44What's wrong?
00:14:46Nothing.
00:14:48Are you pissed off?
00:14:50With me, aren't you?
00:14:52Me, me, me.
00:14:54That's all you think about.
00:14:56You never think about Mum.
00:14:58No, just me, me, me.
00:15:02Go back and say sorry, if you like.
00:15:04To yourself.
00:15:06Come on, Tom.
00:15:36How much cats have you got?
00:15:38Nine.
00:15:42What are they called?
00:15:44Um...
00:15:46Where's Mum?
00:15:48She's not feeling well,
00:15:50so she told me to pick you up.
00:15:52I don't want you. I want Mum.
00:15:54Yeah, I don't want you either,
00:15:56but I ain't got much choice.
00:15:58What happens if someone beat you up?
00:16:00But I just don't want you.
00:16:02I want my Mum.
00:16:04Dusty.
00:16:06Anyway, who are you?
00:16:08I'm just a friend.
00:16:10Hello, friend.
00:16:30I'm just going to get something to drink.
00:16:32I'm just going to get something to drink.
00:16:42Shit.
00:16:44Piss.
00:16:46Arse.
00:16:56So, I'll be along, yes?
00:16:58I hope you will too.
00:17:00Take a listen to this.
00:17:12I've come to get you.
00:17:16You dare? You just dare?
00:17:20Yes, dear sister.
00:17:22Your time has come.
00:17:24Mum!
00:17:26Mum!
00:17:28The house is empty.
00:17:30There's no one left to protect you.
00:17:32They're coming for you.
00:17:34No one knows
00:17:36where they'll strike you.
00:17:56Mum.
00:18:26Julie.
00:18:34Julie.
00:18:36I'm sorry.
00:18:42Get up.
00:18:44Really, I am.
00:18:48It was just a game.
00:18:50Get up.
00:18:52What happened, Julie?
00:18:54Nothing.
00:18:56You're not to go in.
00:19:14That's enough.
00:19:16Here.
00:19:22Here, happy birthday.
00:19:28Tom, take your elbows off the table.
00:19:30What is it?
00:19:32A book.
00:19:34I can see that.
00:19:36What's it about?
00:19:38Why not read it and find out?
00:19:40Jack read a book.
00:19:42Thanks.
00:19:44How old are you today?
00:19:46Sixteen.
00:19:48Hey, you're only one.
00:19:50What?
00:19:52Mum made a cake
00:19:54and it's only got one candle on it.
00:19:56That means you're only one.
00:19:58Your turn.
00:20:00What?
00:20:02It's my birthday.
00:20:04So what?
00:20:06It's all right, I'll take it.
00:20:08No, you won't.
00:20:10It's Jack's turn.
00:20:12All right, I'll take it.
00:20:16I said I'd fucking take it.
00:20:18Hey.
00:20:40Sorry it's late.
00:20:42It's all right, love.
00:20:44Bit of an accident downstairs.
00:20:46Do you want a cracker?
00:21:16That's better.
00:21:18I find I can hardly speak
00:21:20these mornings until I've had a cup of tea.
00:21:26Happy birthday, son.
00:21:46I wanted to buy you something
00:21:48but I couldn't get out to the shops.
00:21:54Thanks, Mum.
00:22:00Your father would have been
00:22:02very proud of you.
00:22:06I think in his heart he loved you best.
00:22:08You know he found it very hard
00:22:10to show his feelings.
00:22:12Then that's where you take after him, isn't it?
00:22:30It had been a long day.
00:22:3218 dawns, 17 sunsets
00:22:34and yet Commander Hunt
00:22:36had still not had his breakfast.
00:22:38Hunt knew the Major
00:22:40did not approve of his maverick ways.
00:22:42People should just take me as I am,
00:22:44mused Hunt
00:22:46as he strode along a space station corridor,
00:22:48his faithful dog Cosmo
00:22:50close at his heels.
00:22:52Sit down, said the Major.
00:22:54Cosmo curled up at his master's feet
00:22:56as the Major proceeded to brief Hunt
00:22:58on his mission.
00:23:00It appeared that minute, life-bearing spores
00:23:02drifting in clouds across a distant galaxy
00:23:04had been touched by unknown rays
00:23:06from a dying sun
00:23:08and had hatched into a colossal monster
00:23:10who fed off X-rays.
00:23:14What?
00:23:16I said that as Mum's not getting up
00:23:18we're going to have your party in her room.
00:23:22So why don't you do her a favour and clean yourself up?
00:23:26If people really liked me,
00:23:28they'd take me as I am.
00:23:34If...
00:23:36The monster was now terrorising regular space traffic
00:23:38within the solar system,
00:23:40your task is not only to track down
00:23:42and destroy this beast,
00:23:44but also to dispose of its gigantic corpse.
00:23:46To allow it to drift on forever through space
00:23:48would create not only a collision hazard,
00:23:50but who knows what other monstrous
00:23:52mutation might emerge
00:23:54from its putrefying carcass.
00:23:56Happy birthday
00:23:58to you.
00:24:00Happy birthday
00:24:02to you.
00:24:04Happy birthday dear Jack.
00:24:06Happy birthday
00:24:08to you.
00:24:10You do look
00:24:12nice, son. Come sit here.
00:24:16Oh, I forgot to give you this.
00:24:18Really?
00:24:20Orange juice?
00:24:22No, thanks. Oh, come on.
00:24:24I made it myself. It took ages.
00:24:26I used real oranges.
00:24:28All right, then.
00:24:30All oranges are real, aren't they, Mum?
00:24:32Yeah.
00:24:36What I meant was, it's not orange squash.
00:24:38But you said
00:24:40real oranges, and I thought all oranges were real.
00:24:42Yes, yes, yes. We all heard you.
00:24:44Wasn't that funny?
00:24:46Well, you could have at least laughed.
00:24:50I thought you were incredibly funny.
00:24:52See?
00:24:54Why didn't you blow out the candle, Jack?
00:24:58Don't forget to make a wish.
00:25:00Mm.
00:25:04Are you sure you've got enough energy left to blow it out?
00:25:12You could have this here.
00:25:14You could have this here.
00:25:18What shall we do now?
00:25:20Well, now,
00:25:22let's see.
00:25:24Mum made the cake,
00:25:26and I made the tea,
00:25:28and I made the juice.
00:25:30Tom made us laugh.
00:25:32So I'd say it was about time Jack did something.
00:25:34Why don't you sing us a song?
00:25:36A song?
00:25:38I don't know any songs.
00:25:40Yes, you do.
00:25:42Of course he does.
00:25:44What about Greensleeves?
00:25:46What about it?
00:25:48You won a school prize for that.
00:25:50Well, it's ten.
00:25:52Come on, sing us Greensleeves.
00:25:54I wish you'd stop telling people what to do.
00:25:56Besides,
00:25:58how about you do something?
00:26:00I don't know.
00:26:24Alas, my love,
00:26:26you do me wrong
00:26:28to cast me off
00:26:30discourteously.
00:26:32For I have
00:26:34loved you
00:26:36so long,
00:26:38delighting in
00:26:40your company.
00:26:42Greensleeves
00:26:44was all
00:26:46my joy.
00:26:48Greensleeves
00:26:50was my delight.
00:26:52Greensleeves
00:26:54was my heart of gold.
00:26:56Who but
00:26:58my lady,
00:27:00Greensleeves.
00:27:18So,
00:27:20how's your night been, Jack?
00:27:22Not bad. Quite nice, really.
00:27:24Once you know the ropes.
00:27:26Why do you want to know?
00:27:28I'm tired of being a boy.
00:27:32It's your turn
00:27:34to walk Tom to school,
00:27:36so you'd better get a move on.
00:27:38I think I'll become a girl.
00:27:40You can't be a girl if you're a boy.
00:27:42Yes, I can.
00:27:44Can, if I want to.
00:27:46Why do you want to?
00:27:48How come there are no bowls?
00:27:50Plenty in the sea.
00:27:52They do sometimes, you know.
00:27:58Games are dumb.
00:28:00You know, hits boys.
00:28:08Where's all the cornflakes gone?
00:28:12I said, where's all the cornflakes gone?
00:28:14We heard what you said.
00:28:16Well, who's eaten them all then?
00:28:18We all have.
00:28:20You included.
00:28:22If you want some more, you can buy them off the school.
00:28:26While you're at it,
00:28:28you can do the rest of your shopping as well.
00:28:34It's all down there.
00:28:36Make sure you bring back Mom's change.
00:28:38I'm not fucking going.
00:28:40You fucking are.
00:28:42Or you'll fucking starve.
00:28:44No, I think if Tom wants to be a girl,
00:28:46we should let him be one.
00:28:48Hunt had always been a loner,
00:28:50and his thoughts and dreams
00:28:52were not those of other men.
00:28:54But now, he was truly alone,
00:28:56with only his faithful dog Cosmo
00:28:58to share in his terror.
00:29:00Anyhow, what's wrong with being a girl?
00:29:04Then they'd really beat you up at school.
00:29:06Ginger doesn't.
00:29:08He only beats up boys.
00:29:10Who's Ginger?
00:29:12Oh, he's a mean kid.
00:29:14He said he was going to beat me up one of these days.
00:29:16Why?
00:29:18I don't know.
00:29:20He just looked like he'd bash my head in one of these days.
00:29:22Oh, yeah?
00:29:24Mm, so-so.
00:29:26You lay one finger on my brother,
00:29:28and I'll rip your fucking legs off.
00:29:30Got it?
00:29:32I'm sorry.
00:29:34I'm sorry.
00:29:36I'm sorry.
00:29:38I'm sorry.
00:29:40I'm sorry.
00:29:42I'm sorry.
00:29:44I'm sorry.
00:29:46I'm sorry.
00:29:48I'm sorry.
00:29:50I'm sorry.
00:29:52I'm sorry.
00:29:54I'm sorry.
00:30:02He won't bully you again.
00:30:08Hunt's pride was short-lived.
00:30:10For now,
00:30:12a new horror presented itself.
00:30:14Six huge tendrils moved toward him,
00:30:16weaving their bloated heads
00:30:18through the silent cabin
00:30:20like a giant octopus.
00:30:22He backed up against the airlock door,
00:30:24his hand groping for the lever.
00:30:26The closest tendril was now only a few feet
00:30:28from his face, and it could surely
00:30:30stretch no further.
00:30:32Suddenly, the tip began to expand,
00:30:34disclosing a slimy finger
00:30:36that wormed its way toward him.
00:30:38His own fingers locked around
00:30:40the lever of the airtight door.
00:30:42One heave, one superhuman thrust,
00:30:44and the next moment he was free,
00:30:46swimming weightless
00:30:48in the dark sanctuary
00:30:50of space.
00:31:10Remember those jokes you used to pull on Dad?
00:31:12What jokes?
00:31:16You remember.
00:31:18Like that time I said
00:31:20I'd seen something strange out in the garden.
00:31:22And you said,
00:31:24what was that?
00:31:26I said a flower.
00:31:28Remember how you nearly choked laughing?
00:31:34I can't think why.
00:31:40Well, it was pretty funny at the time.
00:31:44Not now, though.
00:31:46I don't know that he's dead.
00:31:52A joke doesn't stop being funny
00:31:54just because someone's dead.
00:31:56It's either funny or it isn't.
00:32:00Besides, it's not my fault he died.
00:32:02Did I say it was?
00:32:08Well, did I?
00:32:12It sounded like it.
00:32:14You were the one who was with him.
00:32:16Not me.
00:32:20No, I wasn't.
00:32:22I was in the bathroom.
00:32:24Doing what?
00:32:26Having a bloody shit.
00:32:28No crime in that, is there?
00:32:40Be quiet!
00:32:42Stop it!
00:32:44Keep still!
00:32:46Stand still, Tom.
00:32:48I want my mum!
00:32:50Look, we'll just get you cleaned up first.
00:32:52You wouldn't want her to see you all messed up like this, would you?
00:32:54Yes, I would. She wouldn't believe me if I'm all clean.
00:32:56We can tell her then.
00:32:58It's all your fault.
00:33:00For God's sake, Tom.
00:33:02How come everything's always my fault?
00:33:04Did you hear me?
00:33:06Just wait till I get my hands on that ginger kid.
00:33:08I didn't ginger him, did I?
00:33:10Ugly ginger sisters!
00:33:16Tom, move!
00:33:18Do something!
00:33:24What's the matter with Tom?
00:33:26Nothing. He's just giving him a bath.
00:33:28Little arguments at school.
00:33:30But he's fine, really, Mum.
00:33:32What sort of argument?
00:33:34I'm not sure.
00:33:36Something with a couple of girls.
00:33:41Can I sleep in your bed tonight, Mum?
00:33:44Of course you can, darling.
00:33:46Will you do the Sandman, please?
00:33:50Sandman, come.
00:33:52Sandman, come.
00:33:54And bring Tom,
00:33:56and Sue, and Jack,
00:33:58and Julie.
00:34:00Don't forget Crocky.
00:34:02And Crocky.
00:34:04Lots and lots of lovely dreams.
00:34:06And no red ones.
00:34:10And no horrid ones for anyone else
00:34:12in the whole universe.
00:34:14Except bad people.
00:34:16Thank you and please.
00:34:40Thank you.
00:34:42No.
00:35:08Not to do that.
00:35:12Why not?
00:35:14Mum said so.
00:35:36Oi, Julie.
00:35:38When did Mum say for me not to?
00:35:42Julie.
00:35:44Look, are you listening to me?
00:35:46I mean,
00:35:48she couldn't have done.
00:35:50You were out here when I got back from school
00:35:52and you've been out here ever since.
00:35:54What right have you got to stop me banging the shelves?
00:35:56Can I put this on my back?
00:36:02Careful.
00:36:04I think this is where I really need it.
00:36:06On my shoulders.
00:36:16A bit higher.
00:36:18Top of my arm.
00:36:24Lovely.
00:36:26Lovely.
00:36:30Lovely.
00:36:34Lovely.
00:36:42Lovely.
00:36:44Lovely.
00:36:46Lovely.
00:36:48Just lovely.
00:37:04Lovely.
00:37:22What can you see?
00:37:24Nothing much.
00:37:28Is that my Tom?
00:37:30Yeah.
00:37:32Him and that friend of his.
00:37:38You fed up?
00:37:44Come here.
00:37:54When does school finish?
00:37:56Thursday.
00:37:59Maybe you should think of getting yourself a job
00:38:01for the holidays.
00:38:03You know, just to earn a bit of extra money.
00:38:07After all, eight weeks is a long time to fill.
00:38:09And you won't have me to take care of.
00:38:13Why not?
00:38:15Didn't Julie tell you?
00:38:19She never tells me anything these days.
00:38:21Except what to do.
00:38:25It's just that
00:38:27I need to go into hospital.
00:38:29Just to give them a chance
00:38:31to get to the bottom of whatever it is I've got.
00:38:35How long for?
00:38:39I suppose however long it takes.
00:38:41Could be just a few weeks.
00:38:43Or it could be longer.
00:38:45But it means that
00:38:47you and Julie
00:38:49will have to be in charge once I'm gone.
00:38:51You mean Julie will?
00:38:53No, Jack.
00:38:55It's not fair to leave it all up to her.
00:38:59Yeah.
00:39:01I don't mind helping.
00:39:03But as long as I'm in charge too.
00:39:05So you can tell her that.
00:39:09Then I'm in charge too.
00:39:15Now,
00:39:17I've opened an account at the bank for Julie
00:39:19and they're paying money from my account every week.
00:39:21So all that's taken care of.
00:39:23So all you have to do
00:39:25is just keep the house
00:39:27nice and tidy
00:39:29until I get back.
00:39:31If you don't,
00:39:33they'll come
00:39:35and take Tom and Sue into care.
00:39:37And perhaps you too.
00:39:43The house will stand empty.
00:39:45People will break in.
00:39:47Nothing left.
00:39:49Poor Tom.
00:39:51He's really going to miss me.
00:39:55So you and Julie
00:39:57will just have to be like a mum and dad to him
00:39:59until I get back.
00:40:07I'm going to miss you too.
00:40:11Bless you, son.
00:40:19We'll all go away
00:40:21somewhere nice
00:40:23when I get back.
00:40:27I'm really tired
00:40:29of just lying here all day.
00:40:33It'd be good to have a different view.
00:40:49I love you.
00:41:19I love you.
00:41:49I love you.
00:42:19I love you.
00:42:49I love you.
00:43:19Why are you all laughing?
00:43:33Why are you all laughing?
00:43:37Mum's asleep. You can't see her right now.
00:43:39I want to see her.
00:43:41I just told you she's asleep.
00:43:43Look, she's asleep.
00:43:45Then why are you all laughing?
00:43:47Anyway, she's not asleep, are you, Mum?
00:43:49Mum?
00:43:51She's very much asleep.
00:43:55Look, you can't see her right now.
00:43:57Let go of me!
00:43:59Mum!
00:44:07Tom.
00:44:17Tom.
00:44:47Your turn.
00:44:57Try not to think about her.
00:44:59I can't help it.
00:45:03She's at peace now.
00:45:09Do you think she'll come back?
00:45:11I don't know.
00:45:13Do you think it hurt?
00:45:17She died in her sleep.
00:45:21Just sort of drifted off.
00:45:25Like in a dream.
00:45:29Mum.
00:45:31I'm cold.
00:45:35Do you think we should get her a blanket
00:45:37from upstairs?
00:45:39Yeah.
00:45:41From upstairs?
00:45:43Yeah.
00:45:45Jack.
00:45:47Why don't you get Tom a blanket
00:45:49from upstairs?
00:45:59Julie.
00:46:01When did Mum first tell you?
00:46:05Your birthday.
00:46:07When you lot were downstairs.
00:46:11After you did your handstand.
00:46:13Handstand?
00:46:15Yeah.
00:46:17In Mum's bedroom.
00:46:19You did a handstand.
00:46:21You don't remember?
00:46:23That's right.
00:46:25And you sang Greensleeves?
00:46:27Yeah.
00:46:31What did I do?
00:46:35Don't know.
00:46:38I think Tom is la.
00:46:45What did I do?
00:46:47I know I did something.
00:46:49What was it?
00:46:51Can't remember.
00:46:53Don't you think we should tell someone?
00:46:55Tell what?
00:46:57I said, we shouldn't tell anyone.
00:46:59Like who?
00:47:01I don't know.
00:47:03You know, whoever you're going to tell
00:47:05when people die.
00:47:07If we tell them.
00:47:09You know.
00:47:11Then they'll die.
00:47:13They'll die.
00:47:15They'll die.
00:47:17They'll die.
00:47:19They'll die.
00:47:21If we tell them.
00:47:23You know, so there can be a funeral.
00:47:25Like Dad's.
00:47:27What was that, Jack?
00:47:31If we tell them.
00:47:33Then they'll come and put Tom into care.
00:47:37To an orphanage or something.
00:47:39They can't do that.
00:47:41You too, maybe.
00:47:47Our house will stand empty.
00:47:49Break in.
00:47:51There'll be nothing left.
00:47:53You're lying.
00:47:55Isn't he?
00:47:57Isn't he, Julie?
00:47:59Julie?
00:48:01No aunts or uncles or things.
00:48:05It's just us.
00:48:19It's just us.
00:48:49It's just us.
00:49:19It's just us.
00:49:31Jack, I'll go.
00:49:49I'll go.
00:50:01Want some water?
00:50:03You'll wake them up.
00:50:11You know, rainwater's supposed to be the cleanest water there is.
00:50:15That's a good one coming from you.
00:50:19It's true.
00:50:21Cesar and his books he gave me.
00:50:29Commander Hunt says it's the one thing he misses when he goes out in space.
00:50:41I didn't know you smoked.
00:50:49So you actually read it?
00:50:53Yeah.
00:50:55Reading it a second time round.
00:50:59Must be fascinating.
00:51:05I think you should read it too.
00:51:13Yeah, you should read it too.
00:51:15There's some good things in it.
00:51:19There's one that reminds me of that game we used to play with Sue.
00:51:27You know, she was from outer space and we were scientists examining her.
00:51:33And what do you make of this, Herr Doktor?
00:51:41It doesn't really sound like my sort of book.
00:51:49How do you know if you haven't even read it?
00:51:53I know the cover's not much cult, but there's some really good things in it.
00:51:57All right, I'll read it if you really want me to.
00:51:59No, don't just read it to please me.
00:52:07See it yourself.
00:52:09You've got the key.
00:52:19Thank you.
00:52:49Thank you.
00:53:19It's never...
00:53:21I'll never do it.
00:53:23It's no good.
00:53:25Well, what will happen, actually?
00:53:27It won't be so bad.
00:53:29We'll do it quickly and it won't be so bad.
00:53:35I'm sorry.
00:53:37I'm sorry.
00:53:39I'm sorry.
00:53:41I'm sorry.
00:53:43I'm sorry.
00:53:45I'm sorry.
00:53:47I'm sorry.
00:53:57I'm sorry.
00:54:01That's typical.
00:54:03Leave it all to me as usual.
00:54:05It was your big idea, wasn't it?
00:54:07So why don't you do something for a change?
00:54:09Like what?
00:54:11Like roll her up in that sheet.
00:54:17I'll bloody do it then.
00:54:47I'm sorry.
00:55:17I'm sorry.
00:55:47I'm sorry.
00:56:17I'm sorry.
00:56:47Takes a long time, doesn't it?
00:56:53Time to go away.
00:56:59Here comes another one who's tired of being a grumpy boy.
00:57:05What are you doing to him?
00:57:07What does it look like?
00:57:09Time to go away.
00:57:11It won't do anything.
00:57:13It looks ridiculous.
00:57:15You're just jealous, that's all.
00:57:17I'm not jealous.
00:57:19There we are.
00:57:21All finished.
00:57:23Go and take a look at yourself.
00:57:27Yes, Jack.
00:57:29You're jealous.
00:57:31All boys secretly learn to dress up like girls.
00:57:33But only a few like Tom have got the guts to admit it.
00:57:37Do I look ridiculous when I dress as a boy?
00:57:41That's ridiculous.
00:57:43That's...
00:57:45different.
00:57:47Because you think that being a girl is degrading.
00:57:55For a boy, it is.
00:57:57So why not the other way around?
00:58:01I don't know.
00:58:05I'll tell you why.
00:58:09Girls can wear jeans and cut their hair short
00:58:11or shirts and boots
00:58:13because it's okay to be a boy.
00:58:17But for a boy to look like a girl is degrading
00:58:21because you think that being a girl is degrading.
00:58:27But secretly, you'd love to know what it's like,
00:58:29wouldn't you?
00:58:33What it feels like for a girl.
00:58:41There. That's better.
00:58:49It suits you.
00:58:51It does, doesn't it?
00:59:01Stop it.
00:59:11Thanks.
00:59:13Where'd you get these?
00:59:15From a shop.
00:59:17How much?
00:59:19Not much.
00:59:21Judy, you told me they cost £85.
00:59:25£85?
00:59:27You spent £85 on a couple of boots?
00:59:29No.
00:59:31You've got a bloody nerve.
00:59:33Oi!
00:59:35You give Sue and me a five-reach, she lasts the whole week.
00:59:37And then you go out and blow £85
00:59:39and a pair of poncy boots.
00:59:41Wrong.
00:59:45You mean you nicked them?
00:59:47Wrong.
00:59:49So how did you get them?
00:59:51Never heard of a present.
00:59:57Who gave them to you?
00:59:59Oh.
01:00:01There would be ten of them.
01:00:05Bloke, I suppose.
01:00:07Of course it's a bloke.
01:00:21There.
01:00:37I want my own squash.
01:00:39We haven't got any.
01:00:41I keep telling you.
01:00:43We'll get some more tomorrow.
01:00:45I want it now.
01:00:47Well, you can't, cos it's Sunday.
01:00:49Then I want my mum.
01:00:51Can't have her either. Now shut up.
01:00:53God!
01:01:07What are you always writing in there?
01:01:09None of your business.
01:01:13Where's Julie?
01:01:15Gone out.
01:01:19Where to?
01:01:21I don't know.
01:01:23Of course you know.
01:01:25She said to tell you,
01:01:27next time you wet the bed,
01:01:29don't stick the things on the boiler.
01:01:31They're all scorched and ruined.
01:01:33Dear Mum,
01:01:35you've been dead for 16 days,
01:01:37and today we had ten of them.
01:02:03Do you think they'll think
01:02:05we burnt this place down?
01:02:07Yeah.
01:02:09The police have probably found who did.
01:02:11No, probably don't take any notice.
01:02:13Probably let a couple of children play in it.
01:02:17What do you want?
01:02:19Nothing.
01:02:21Why are you wearing that skirt?
01:02:23I'm not wearing a skirt.
01:02:25I'm not wearing a skirt.
01:02:27I'm not wearing a skirt.
01:02:29I'm not wearing a skirt.
01:02:31Why are you wearing that skirt?
01:02:37Come on, William.
01:02:57William.
01:02:59Why's Tom wearing a skirt?
01:03:01He's been Julie.
01:03:05And who are you?
01:03:09Well?
01:03:11She's been you.
01:03:17Do you have fights in your game?
01:03:19No.
01:03:21So what do you do?
01:03:23Nothing much.
01:03:25Your friend's in your game.
01:03:27Yes.
01:03:31Is that why you're holding hands?
01:03:33Will you just please go away?
01:03:35We're trying to carry on with our game.
01:03:55I want a boiled egg.
01:03:57We're having scrambled eggs and that's that.
01:03:59I want a boiled egg.
01:04:03Right, you've had it.
01:04:05Yes, it was. I saw that.
01:04:07What are you going to do to him?
01:04:09Let go of me.
01:04:11Let go of me.
01:04:13You're hurting me.
01:04:15Stop trying to pull away.
01:04:17My father's going to get angry.
01:04:21Is that all you want?
01:04:23Do you want to be a baby?
01:04:25Yes, yes, I want to be a baby.
01:04:27Okay.
01:04:29Time for your bath then.
01:04:31Come on, William.
01:04:33Go and get a bottle.
01:04:53Okay.
01:05:24It's been there since Friday.
01:05:26What?
01:05:28I said, that crack's been there since Friday.
01:05:31And it's getting bigger.
01:05:36What are you doing down here?
01:05:38Just writing.
01:05:40In your diary?
01:05:42Yeah.
01:05:49You know,
01:05:51I wish you'd let me see those bits about Mum.
01:05:54Just those bits.
01:05:57You could always read them to me if you'd rather.
01:06:00Tuesday, August the 25th.
01:06:02Dear Mum,
01:06:04You've been dead for 21 days.
01:06:06No one mentioned you today.
01:06:08I'm sorry.
01:06:10I'm sorry.
01:06:12I'm sorry.
01:06:14I'm sorry.
01:06:16I'm sorry.
01:06:18I'm sorry.
01:06:20I'm sorry.
01:06:22I'm sorry.
01:06:24I'm sorry.
01:06:26I'm sorry.
01:06:28What happened to Jack today?
01:06:32Jack was in a horrible mood, as usual.
01:06:37At lunch, we mixed together two cans of soup and Julie talked about Derek.
01:06:43Jack has not changed his clothes since you died,
01:06:46except for his jeans when he wet the bed.
01:06:49He never washes at all.
01:06:53He's beginning to smell.
01:06:58Satisfied?
01:07:19San Marco, San Marco
01:07:22And bring Thomas, Sue, Jack, Tony, Julie
01:07:28Crocky
01:07:30Lots and lots of lovely dreams
01:07:33No horrid ones
01:07:35No horrid ones for anyone in the whole universe
01:07:38Except for bad people
01:07:41Thank you, please
01:07:58He just wanted someone to tell him what to do
01:08:01That's all he wanted
01:08:03And that's what you're good at doing
01:08:06Watch it, or you'll be next
01:08:57God, it's hot
01:09:26God, it's hot
01:09:28The man in the supermarket says he heard it's the hottest summer since 1900
01:09:38So, have you met him yet?
01:09:40Who?
01:09:42Derek
01:09:44No
01:09:46Derek who?
01:09:48Julie's bloke
01:09:50He's come to lunch
01:09:53We're having it in the dining room
01:09:56Did you see his car?
01:09:59No
01:10:00You should, it looks amazing
01:10:06What's this for?
01:10:08Bet you can't guess what he does
01:10:11Who?
01:10:12Derek
01:10:15Fucks Julie, I suppose
01:10:19He's a businessman
01:10:21He's rich
01:10:23Big deal
01:10:25Bet you can't guess how old he is
01:10:28Bet I can't
01:10:30He's 33
01:10:33So?
01:10:35It's the perfect age for a man
01:10:38Bollocks
01:10:40What do you know about men anyway?
01:10:42Not a lot
01:10:44Shut the fuck up then
01:10:47It wasn't me who said so
01:10:49It was Julie
01:10:56We really love your car
01:10:59We do?
01:11:01Yeah, I'm very fond of it too
01:11:04We?
01:11:06You don't like it Jack?
01:11:08Not much
01:11:11Why's that?
01:11:13It's too flashy
01:11:17I see
01:11:20I think it's quite nice
01:11:23I mean the colour
01:11:26I don't like red
01:11:29I know exactly what you mean Jack
01:11:31I love red
01:11:33Especially on cars
01:11:38Makes them look like toys
01:11:40Yeah you're right, you're absolutely right Jack
01:11:43But then, that's what all cars are really
01:11:47Just expensive toys
01:11:50Where I can see you like red Tom
01:11:52Yeah it's my favourite
01:11:54Cars aren't toys
01:11:56They're getting around in
01:12:00That too
01:12:07Don't you find it rather lonely here Susan?
01:12:09No
01:12:11Only sometimes
01:12:13When is sometimes?
01:12:17When I'm on my own
01:12:19What do you do when you're on your own?
01:12:21I read
01:12:23The food is terrific, I love it
01:12:25What do you read?
01:12:27Well, if cars are toys, everything you buy is a toy
01:12:32I have to think about that one Jack
01:12:35You do that?
01:12:38Some salt please will you?
01:12:42Careful Jack
01:12:43Why not throw it over your shoulder and then you can make a wish?
01:12:47Yeah
01:12:49Aren't you going to make a wish?
01:12:51We've all made one
01:13:02What's that smell?
01:13:05Probably Jack
01:13:07It's what I've had for the last few months
01:13:14Would you like some coffee?
01:13:15Yeah I'd love one
01:13:17White one sugar
01:13:35What's that smell?
01:13:37What's that smell?
01:13:39What's that smell?
01:13:41What's that smell?
01:13:43What's that smell?
01:13:45What's that smell?
01:13:47What's that smell?
01:13:49What's that smell?
01:13:51What's that smell?
01:13:53What's that smell?
01:13:55What's that smell?
01:13:57What's that smell?
01:13:59What's that smell?
01:14:01What's that smell?
01:14:03There is nothing ugly
01:14:05I never saw an ugly thing in my life
01:14:08For let the form of an object be what it may
01:14:11Light, shade and perspective
01:14:15Will always make it beautiful
01:15:15Hello Jack
01:15:43You look well
01:15:53I haven't seen much of you around lately
01:15:59What a girl, haven't we?
01:16:02Not that I know
01:16:05Well, Tom thinks you have
01:16:08We think that explains the new clean Jack
01:16:12He's an odd little fellow, isn't he?
01:16:14What's odd about him?
01:16:17Wearing that wig, dressing up like a girl
01:16:22There's nothing wrong with that
01:16:25There's nothing wrong with it
01:16:27It's not exactly normal, is it?
01:16:31So what if it's not?
01:16:36I don't know
01:16:38Might affect him in later life
01:16:41I don't see why
01:16:46I wonder what your mother would have thought
01:16:53Not a lot
01:16:55All kids like dressing up
01:16:57She been dead long?
01:16:59Years
01:17:01Really?
01:17:03As Julie told me it was quite recently
01:17:07Depends on what you call recently
01:17:09You tell me
01:17:12What's it got to do with you anyway?
01:17:14You know, that is really funny
01:17:16Because you sounded just like Julie then
01:17:19Because when I asked her if I could look down that set of reviews
01:17:22She said, what's it got to do with you?
01:17:26Just like you did just then
01:17:28And all I could see were just a few toys
01:17:31Sledgehammer
01:17:33Apart from the little metal look of course
01:17:36Mr Prescott, sir
01:17:38What?
01:17:39I'm talking to a friend
01:17:43Jack
01:17:46I do wish you'd trust me a little more, hm?
01:17:52No
01:19:39It always smells in here
01:19:41That's why we keep the door locked
01:19:43It didn't smell like this the last time I came down
01:19:45It's the drain, definitely
01:19:47And it's not the drain
01:19:48It is the drain
01:19:49I assure you it's not the drain
01:19:50How do you know it's not the drain?
01:19:52Because this is the smell of something very dead and very rotten
01:19:56And it's coming from here
01:19:59Julie, are you sure it is not the body?
01:20:06Are you sure it is not the body?
01:20:09You can tell me
01:20:11As a matter of fact, it is
01:20:15See, Jack, trust me
01:20:17Why won't you?
01:20:19Don't worry, I'm not going to tell anyone
01:20:21Tell who you like
01:20:23It's only a dog
01:20:25What dog?
01:20:26My dog
01:20:27What's it doing in there?
01:20:30Not a lot really
01:20:32I put her there when she died
01:20:33What sort of dog was it?
01:20:34Fill it up
01:20:35What sort of dog was it?
01:20:36Me?
01:20:37Yeah
01:20:38Labrador, mostly
01:20:42Can I look?
01:20:43Yeah, go ahead
01:21:00You're really corset today
01:21:03I fell asleep on the wasteland
01:21:06You should do it more often
01:21:08It really suits you
01:21:10You think so?
01:21:12Yeah
01:21:14Don't you think so?
01:21:19I didn't make a very good job of the mix, mate
01:21:22What was her name?
01:21:23Who?
01:21:25The dog
01:21:26Cosmo?
01:21:27Cosmo?
01:21:29How come it's all about laughing every time I say his name?
01:21:34Jack, his name?
01:21:36Cosmo, the dog
01:21:37Yeah, the dog, his
01:21:39Jack, you said it was a she just now
01:21:44Some days it's a he, some days a she
01:21:49You know, a bit like Tom
01:21:51Hello, Tom
01:21:56Did you like Cosmo, Tom?
01:21:58Who?
01:21:59You remember
01:22:01Cosmo, our dog
01:22:05Were you sad when she died?
01:22:10You sat on my lap and cried
01:22:12Don't you remember?
01:22:14You don't remember?
01:22:15You cried
01:22:17Oh, yeah, now I remember
01:22:19I cried, didn't I?
01:22:21And we all slept in the living room
01:22:24Remember?
01:22:26When Cosmo died, you buried her in that block over there
01:22:29Remember?
01:22:31Um, come on, Tom, time for bed
01:22:33But it's not my bedtime
01:22:34Don't argue
01:22:37Hot dog
01:22:52A dog?
01:23:03Well, judging from the looks of her, I'd say Cosmo called for a reburial
01:23:11We'd never get her out
01:23:15A few girls with that would soon break it open
01:23:19Out of the question, understand?
01:23:22She stays where he is
01:23:30There's an end to it
01:24:30Your father would have been very proud of you
01:24:43I think in his heart he loved you best
01:24:45You know, he found it very hard to show his feelings
01:24:50And that's when you take after him, isn't it?
01:25:19Julie
01:25:22Julie
01:25:46Watch out
01:25:53What's the matter?
01:25:54Again, again, again
01:25:56What's the matter, what's the matter?
01:25:58I haven't got any clothes on
01:26:01More than you
01:26:02I'm hot
01:26:05So am I
01:26:09Is that why you were crying?
01:26:11I wanted Julie
01:26:15Why?
01:26:16I just wanted her
01:26:20You mean you wanted Mum?
01:26:22Of course not, silly, Mum's dead
01:26:27And I've been into her room
01:26:29I know where Julie keeps all Mum's things
01:26:35What do you want with Mum's things?
01:26:37Me and William dress up in them
01:26:43I was with Mum and Dad
01:26:46Now I'm with Julie and Derek
01:26:49But mostly with you and Julie
01:26:55What do you do when you're with Julie?
01:26:58Nothing much
01:27:00Yeah, but what?
01:27:04Play
01:27:07Play
01:27:09What with?
01:27:12Mum's clothes, of course
01:27:16Do you feel sexy when you dress up?
01:27:20Well, do you?
01:27:22What do you mean?
01:27:23Well, when you put on your wig and that skirt
01:27:29Look in the mirror and see a little girl
01:27:32Do you get a funny feeling in your dingy?
01:27:34Does it get bigger?
01:27:36Shut up
01:27:46I wonder if they're watching us now
01:27:49Who?
01:27:50Mum and Dad
01:27:53Isn't there in heaven?
01:27:55Dunno about Dad, but Mum's in the cellar
01:28:01What do you mean?
01:28:03She's in the cellar under that big metal case
01:28:06And all that hard stuff
01:28:11Who told you that?
01:28:13Derek
01:28:14He said you put her in there
01:28:19And you drew the sign then
01:28:26Now I remember
01:28:30I remember when I used to sleep in this cot
01:28:34A long time ago, before you had it
01:28:42Mum used to read stories to me at night
01:28:49I used to think she made up my dreams for me too
01:29:02In the morning, she used to ask me what I dreamt about
01:29:09I used to think it was as if I was telling the truth
01:29:17Did you want me to do the Sandman?
01:29:19Yes please
01:29:24Sandman come, Sandman come
01:29:30Bring Tom, Sue, Jack and Julie
01:29:36Lots and lots of lovely dreams
01:29:41No horrid ones
01:29:45No horrid ones for anyone, only you
01:30:15Look at you
01:30:27Just look at you
01:30:32My two bear babies
01:30:37What do you make of this, Herr Doctor?
01:30:41Please don't
01:30:43I just want to talk to you, that's all
01:30:47What about?
01:30:50I haven't been to bed with him
01:30:53If that's what you think
01:31:04Is that what you think?
01:31:16He knows about Mum, he told Tom
01:31:20He was bound to find out sooner or later
01:31:24Is it very sore?
01:31:31What upsets him is that we won't let him in on the secret
01:31:36He wants to be one of the family, one of us
01:31:42I suppose we might as well tell him that
01:31:47But not one of us
01:31:49Of course not, just you and me, Sue and Tom
01:31:55That's all the family we need
01:32:05He lives with his mum in this big house
01:32:08He took me there
01:32:10She calls him Doodle
01:32:12Makes him wash his hands before tea
01:32:33You used to look like this
01:32:37Now you look like this
01:32:51Doodle's mum told me she hands him 15 shirts a week
01:32:57That's a lot of shirts
01:33:21It's funny but I've lost all sense of time
01:33:27Feels like it's always been like this
01:33:32I can't remember how it used to be when Mum was alive
01:33:36I can't really imagine anything changing
01:33:40Can you?
01:33:44Everything seems fixed and still
01:33:50I'm not really frightened of anything anymore
01:33:57Feel as if I've been asleep for as long as I can remember
01:34:05I've never really been bored
01:34:09I'm sort of weightless
01:34:13Like I'm floating in space
01:34:28What do you think will happen?
01:34:33It's bound to end I suppose
01:34:40I'll pull us down just like the others
01:34:44Someday someone will come rooting around
01:34:49And they'll find us a few broken bricks in the long grass
01:35:03Go on
01:35:06Now I've seen it all
01:35:11Have you?
01:35:13Oh dear
01:35:17How long has this been going on?
01:35:19Ages, ages
01:35:21Julie, Julie, he's your brother
01:35:24Shh, you'll wake Tom
01:35:31All those times and
01:35:35All those times and you never even let me come near you
01:35:40For fuck's sake, Julie, why didn't you tell me?
01:35:43You could have told me
01:35:48God
01:35:50You're sick
01:35:51The pair of you are so sick
01:35:53I can't believe you
01:35:55You're so sick
01:36:25Do you think it'll spurt?
01:36:45All the time
01:36:52Do you think what we did was right?
01:37:00Seems natural to me
01:37:03Me too
01:37:32Me too
01:38:01Me too
01:38:30Me too
01:38:59Me too
01:39:28Me too
01:39:57Me too
01:40:26Me too
01:40:55Me too