My Mother, My Story: Jillian Ward, a PROUD reflection of her loving mother! - Full Episode 3 (July 21, 2024)
Aired (July 21, 2024): Tunghayan ang istorya ni Jillian Ward bilang isang aktres na nagsimula bilang child star at ngayo'y kinikilala na bilang Teen Queen, at alamin kung paano naging isang malaking suporta ang kanyang ina na si Jennifer Ward sa pagpapatuloy ng kanyang career.
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00:00This house is beautiful, and the trees, there's a lot of them.
00:09What is this? I mean, just a house? They rent this out?
00:13Or is this a restaurant? Is this a house?
00:15This is a house.
00:18Hi, Jill!
00:19Hi, Uncle Boy!
00:23Thank you so much!
00:24I want to have black and white for today.
00:26I love the style.
00:27I love your slippers!
00:29Thank you so much!
00:31Jill, what do you remember about this house?
00:35So, this is where I did my taping for Truth is Real.
00:40How long ago was that?
00:4214 years ago.
00:43Wow!
00:44But I still have a few things I remember.
00:47Okay, let's talk about that.
00:48Are we going up?
00:50I'm getting nervous.
00:51This is just a story.
00:53Rolling, 3, 2...
00:59I'm Jillian Ward, and my mother is Jennifer Ward, and this is my story.
01:09How are you?
01:29I'm okay, and I'm getting nervous.
01:32I think the last time we met was one year ago.
01:36Time flies.
01:37Yes, it does.
01:38Where's your mother?
01:39Why isn't she with you?
01:41Okay, so Uncle Boy left the house today.
01:45I couldn't force him to come here because he's too shy.
01:49So, all the people with thick faces went to me.
01:52I became the artist.
01:54Yes.
01:55So, you're just friends, right?
01:56Yes, we're super close.
01:59Yes.
02:00Maybe also because of the age difference.
02:05Yes, that's true.
02:06Right?
02:07Yes.
02:08I mean, we're super open because my mother, I don't know, as time goes by, she matures more,
02:15especially me.
02:16We really grow together.
02:19I wanted to hear that.
02:20You mature together.
02:21Yes.
02:22Right?
02:23She was very young when she had you, and it's funny.
02:27That's why I asked, the last time I saw you together, if you didn't know each other,
02:31you were just friends.
02:33Yes, we're like sisters, right?
02:35Yes.
02:36And we look alike, and she really looks like my sister.
02:41She's beautiful.
02:42Super.
02:43As far as you know, she didn't dream of becoming an artist, or no one encouraged her to become
02:48an artist?
02:49No one?
02:50No, really.
02:51There were people who offered her before, that's what I know, but she really didn't
02:55want to become an artist.
02:56What she wanted was to become a doctor.
02:57Okay.
02:58That's what I know.
02:59Your mom, when she was young, as far as you know, did you court her?
03:04Did you get close to her?
03:05Oh yes, super.
03:06Actually, if you can see her younger photos, she's more beautiful than me.
03:11As in, she has a super artist look, like a model, but she didn't encourage me.
03:17But do you know, based on her stories, how many years did she have her first boyfriend?
03:25She didn't tell me about her first boyfriend, but my mom had a boyfriend quite early.
03:32But I don't know the exact age.
03:35But did you ever have a serious talk with her?
03:41Did she ever ask you to hug her?
03:44You know, I started early.
03:46Sana, Jill, anak.
03:48Did she ever do that?
03:50Actually, yes.
03:52What exactly did she say?
03:55Because my mom, when she had me, she's my age now.
04:00Nineteen, right?
04:01Yes, nineteen.
04:02So, what she said to me, it's not that she regrets it, because she's happy that we're here,
04:08that we're siblings, especially us, the older siblings.
04:14But of course, she said, I should work on myself first.
04:21That's what she wished for herself.
04:24She doesn't regret that we're here.
04:27No, I understand that.
04:28But she always said that we should learn from her.
04:32Beautiful.
04:33Yes.
04:35She's not regretting it.
04:38She's very happy that she has you and your other sibling, who was born a couple of years earlier.
04:47Yes.
05:05I should always work hard.
05:09In the narrative of your mother, she said at nineteen, she was confused when she gave birth to you.
05:18Yes.
05:19It was a low point in her life because of many things.
05:25There were many reasons.
05:26She was afraid of your grandmother.
05:28Super.
05:29She always thought that you wouldn't continue.
05:32Yes.
05:33And I know this is not the first time you're hearing this.
05:36But when you hear that your mother won't continue, what's your reaction?
05:44Of course, I'm more grateful that I'm alive now.
05:47And that's why I want to prove to my mother that her decision wasn't wrong.
05:53Well, of course, she was younger then, so she was afraid.
05:58But I want to prove to her that it was before.
06:02That was the past.
06:03Now, I will do my best to make her proud.
06:07That's my reaction.
06:08Actually, I think others expect me to be mad at my mother or disappointed.
06:13But I understand that she was very young then.
06:17So, of course, there's fear.
06:20But now that she's older, we're here.
06:24I want to show her that you made the right choice and there's nothing to fear anymore because we're here.
06:30It took a lot of courage for your mother to actually include that in her narrative.
06:35But it didn't end there.
06:37She doubted.
06:38She agreed with her thoughts.
06:40She prayed.
06:42She went to the church.
06:44And she made a decision.
06:46For me, that's the story of humanity.
06:50One year?
06:52That's a long time.
06:56Join us.
06:57You won't be able to sleep while waiting.
07:00And we'll be happy, Jillian.
07:02Until you realize that the day has passed and you'll be surprised that it's already been a year.
07:09At 19, your mother had you.
07:11She said in her words, she was a rebel daughter.
07:15Yes.
07:16Now, you're 19.
07:18If you were to describe yourself, what would you do?
07:22I'm very driven for my future.
07:28I want to...
07:30Okay, I'll plug the show.
07:32I want to achieve my dreams.
07:34Because it's not just for me.
07:36I want to continue.
07:39I want to continue my mother's life that she didn't experience.
07:46For example, she wants to be a doctor.
07:49My role is to be a doctor.
07:51At this point in your life, at 19, you just want to continue working.
07:56Because you want to be able to provide for your family, especially your mom.
08:01Yes, and not just provide financially.
08:04I want to make her proud.
08:06My daughter is the reflection of her parents.
08:09So I want to be a good reflection of my mother.
08:13I want to show people that I was raised by my mom.
08:17I'm driven in my life.
08:18This is what I achieved in my career.
08:20And because it's my connection to my mother.
08:23That's because of her.
08:24But now, at 19, Michelle, what do you know about love?
08:31Have you experienced first love?
08:36What do you remember about this?
08:38Well, I remember that I didn't know how to read back then.
08:43So there was an area in the living room where I was being read by Ms. Van Vila Balan.
08:48So she was saying my lines.
08:51Then I memorized it.
08:53I was just listening to her.
08:55This is the living room you're talking about?
08:56Yes, at the end.
08:58That's where Jillian, who's 4 years old, is sitting and reading a script.
09:05Yes, she's reading a script.
09:07What else do you remember while you were doing True This Lit?
09:11Well, I remember that I was really naughty.
09:14To the point that they would say,
09:16We'll expose you, Sir Goso.
09:18I don't want to be an artist anymore.
09:20So they believed us.
09:21This is where your career started.
09:22This is where the story of your life in the show business started as an actor.
09:27Yes.
09:28This house is a blessing.
09:32Now, at 19, what do you know about love?
09:35And I'm talking about romantic love.
09:37Yes.
09:38I think it's not a joke.
09:40I think it's not something that's taken lightly.
09:45So, as much as possible, I try to avoid falling in love.
09:49Because I feel like,
09:51If you're not ready for love,
09:54If you don't have your own life,
09:56You can be dependent on your partner.
10:01And I think that's not fair to you personally,
10:05And to your partner.
10:06So, I believe that for me,
10:09I need to have my own life first before I become a wife.
10:12I respect that.
10:13But don't you feel that you're being too hard on the 19-year-old Jillian?
10:18The fun, the experience, the joy, the crushes, the little pain.
10:24Don't you feel that you're being too hard on the 19-year-old Jillian?
10:27And that you're not giving yourself a chance?
10:31Because your mom has a line that says,
10:33I'm letting them be, Jill. Go out.
10:35She's the one pushing you, right?
10:38Actually, I admit that I'm depriving myself.
10:42Because I don't want to lose my focus on my family and work.
10:48I think mostly because,
10:51She has a deeper meaning.
10:54I think because my mother had children early,
10:58So she didn't experience the life that she really wanted.
11:03And she took care of us early.
11:07She couldn't go out at the time.
11:10So now, I want to be the one to work first.
11:14I want to give a lot of time to my family.
11:17And let my mother do what she wants to do.
11:20She went out like that.
11:21And enjoy.
11:22I want her to enjoy first.
11:24And I'll work first for my future.
11:29Then I'll give myself the love, the affection.
11:33When I've given everything to my family, to my mother especially.
11:36To a certain point, in that context,
11:39You're the mother of your mother.
11:41And that's quite interesting.
11:43She doesn't regret having you as her children.
11:48But she doesn't want you to lose what it is to be 15, 16, 17, 19.
11:59That's what I understand.
12:02She doesn't want to go through,
12:06We can't call it a mistake.
12:09It's not a mistake.
12:11It was just, you know, it was her life story.
12:14It was what it was.
12:16But as far as possible,
12:18That's what I think she avoided.
12:20Yes, that's right.
12:22I don't know if I'm clear with what I'm saying.
12:26It's just that, I feel like when I have a love life,
12:29Because I'm serious when it comes to my relationships in life,
12:33My family, even my friends.
12:35My friends, we've been together for a few years.
12:38I have friends who I've been friends with for 14 years.
12:42So, I feel like when I have a partner,
12:46I might be able to divide my time with him,
12:49Then with my family, then with work.
12:51So now, I want to focus on family, work, and myself first.
12:55Watermelon!
12:58That's your favorite, right?
13:00Yes.
13:02How did you know?
13:08I don't know.
13:18What do you do when someone wants to court you?
13:24Honestly, I let myself be flirted with.
13:28But I don't want a deep, serious relationship.
13:35How deep?
13:37I don't know.
13:38Have you held hands with a boy?
13:40Yes, I have.
13:44But...
13:45Yes, because you're 19, right?
13:47Yes.
13:48Does your mom know?
13:49I'm open to her, to everyone.
13:51Really?
13:52She's like, Mom, I'm holding hands.
13:54Because when I was younger, when I was 14,
13:58That's when I was really scared of my mom and dad.
14:01Because they were strict back then.
14:03Because I was still a juvenile, still immature.
14:06But now, I know what I want.
14:09Somehow, in my life, in my career,
14:12And I'm the one who's strict with myself.
14:14They're like, go enjoy it.
14:16Is there someone talking to you?
14:18Tell me.
14:19That's how my mom is.
14:21Have you experienced first love?
14:27I'm the one who's smiling.
14:30Yes, me.
14:31Honestly.
14:32Yeah.
14:33But until...
14:34Tell me more.
14:35I mean, tell me what you got.
14:40Actually,
14:41I was really young when I first fell in love.
14:45Because we were really close.
14:47But we parted ways because...
14:52We grew apart.
14:55Okay.
14:56But up until then, yes.
14:58But that's a good memory, right?
14:59I mean, it's so refreshing to know that
15:01At 19,
15:02The Julia that I adored,
15:04The one I idolized,
15:06She also experienced first love.
15:08Yeah, I mean...
15:09She's smiling, right?
15:10Yes, because the smile,
15:11The love and attraction to other people,
15:14It's not easy to control.
15:16So I admit, of course,
15:18I'm also smiling.
15:19I also like it.
15:21But I don't want it to be more than that.
15:24Okay.
15:25For now.
15:26Jeff Moses,
15:27Did he court you?
15:29I...
15:30I can't...
15:31I can't say.
15:32You can't say?
15:34But why did it come to this?
15:35He's the one who...
15:36Okay, I should be...
15:37But it's like this.
15:39We're both super focused on work.
15:41I understand.
15:42So, I...
15:43I understand that.
15:44But you can feel it.
15:46But for you to have talked about
15:49Let's focus on work first.
15:52Does he have a feeling that he likes you?
15:55I don't know if it's a feeling.
15:57But Jeff is a very gentle person.
16:00Before, he used to cook for me.
16:03But I don't...
16:04I don't know if that's friendly or...
16:07A type of courting?
16:09Because I don't want to assume.
16:11Right.
16:12So, I take it as it is.
16:14So, that's it.
16:15I don't know.
16:17Does your mom like Jeff?
16:21Yes.
16:22Yes, actually.
16:23They're both Ilonggo.
16:25Ah, okay.
16:26So, they're super close.
16:28Will, actually.
16:30Did you have an affair?
16:32I like the way you look at me.
16:35Because I don't want to look at the camera.
16:38So, you're the only one who can see my reaction.
16:44He's the only one you should ask.
16:46Okay.
16:47As long as...
16:50I think he said this when we were younger.
16:54We had the same feelings.
16:57Because we grew up together.
17:00We've been together for years.
17:03We've been together since we were kids.
17:06We've been together in shows.
17:09So...
17:11Did you have an affair?
17:13I think so.
17:15As long as...
17:17That's it.
17:19I understand.
17:20We're just flirting.
17:21I'm just flirting.
17:23Have you had your first kiss?
17:26A little bit.
17:29It's like...
17:30I promise I won't ask any follow-up questions.
17:34Really?
17:35Here.
17:36I'm sweating.
17:41This is the standby area.
17:43Who's with you in this room?
17:45I remember that I have a coworker.
17:49I'm the same age as her.
17:51We're here.
17:52I remember that we're here.
17:54Mom and dad.
17:55This is it.
17:56Yes, this is it.
17:57Jillian, when you were a kid,
18:00how did you feel?
18:01Were you just playing?
18:03Yes.
18:04Really? You didn't know it was work?
18:06Yes.
18:07Until I was in the awkward stage.
18:10That's when you found out?
18:11That's when I found out.
18:12You started at 2.
18:13You're 19 today.
18:16Have you ever thought that
18:20your childhood was stolen
18:23by your career and fame?
18:27Mom?
18:28What now?
18:29Good luck.
18:31And take care.
18:33You started at 2.
18:34You're 19 today.
18:36Have you ever thought that
18:39your childhood was stolen
18:41by your career and fame?
18:46No.
18:47Actually, that's why I'm grateful
18:49for my awkward stage.
18:51That's when I didn't have much work.
18:53I experienced playing on the streets.
18:57We were in Pampanga.
18:59In the province.
19:00I was with my friends there.
19:02So, God really knows.
19:05Like in my awkward stage,
19:07I was praying.
19:08I said,
19:09I don't have work.
19:10I was always depressed.
19:15I was like,
19:16why is that?
19:17But then,
19:18it had a bigger purpose.
19:21It allowed me to enjoy my childhood.
19:24I think it was your mom
19:28who told this story.
19:30Because you were used to being a kid.
19:32Title role.
19:33Lead role.
19:34Then suddenly, support.
19:36Right?
19:37It was hard for the young girl to understand.
19:39Yes.
19:40You had a line.
19:42Was I too much?
19:44Actually,
19:45I didn't say that to myself.
19:47Someone told me that.
19:51Then, of course,
19:53I had thoughts.
19:54Because I really,
19:55I didn't mind.
19:57I didn't mind if it was leading,
19:59supporting or supporting.
20:01I just wanted to be an artist.
20:03I did a lot of roles.
20:05A lot of taping.
20:06So when someone told me that,
20:09that's when I realized that
20:11if it's like that,
20:13it means that the work will be reduced.
20:15That's what I thought.
20:16It was work.
20:17It's not about the fame or power.
20:20I wanted to do taping.
20:23I was doing something.
20:24I was doing my passion.
20:25I was acting.
20:30Let's go to your awkward stage
20:33that you talked about.
20:35You were about what?
20:36Between 11 to 13 years old.
20:40But I want to go to an incident
20:43when you were praying to God.
20:45Yes.
20:46These were tough times.
20:48And your prayer said,
20:49Lord,
20:51give me a lot of work.
20:54Even if I get sick
20:56and I'm very tired,
20:57it's okay.
20:58I want to ask you,
21:00how did that prayer come about?
21:03Maybe because I started very early.
21:06And I really wanted to be an artist.
21:09I was only 2 years old.
21:11So I had an awkward stage,
21:14which is the time that I had a hard time
21:17with my management.
21:19If my role is a kid or a girl.
21:21Although I was given a GMA,
21:23so every year I still have a show.
21:26But it's not like before
21:28that I always have work,
21:29always busy.
21:32I don't know.
21:33Because I really want to be proud of my parents.
21:35And I still have a future.
21:37So that's where the prayer comes from.
21:38Yes.
21:39And actually,
21:40she answered that.
21:42The Lord answered that.
21:44Because when I was young,
21:46I really wanted to be an artist.
21:48I said,
21:49as long as I'm not in this world,
21:51until the day that I die,
21:54I want to be an artist.
21:58That was my goal.
22:00And maybe because I'm an uncle,
22:02I really want to do a lot of roles.
22:05I still have a lot of things that I want to experience,
22:08to achieve.
22:09So that's really my drive in life,
22:12in my career.
22:13You're right.
22:15The Lord answered that prayer.
22:17Because if I remember correctly,
22:20a couple of months ago,
22:22you know,
22:23you were burnt out.
22:25Yes.
22:26You were burnt out because
22:28you had so much work.
22:30You were trying to look for,
22:32in your words,
22:33work-life balance.
22:35You prayed.
22:37God gave it to you.
22:38But what was it like
22:40when you were in that state of
22:43daily
22:45taping.
22:46You didn't know when it was night,
22:48when it was day.
22:50Yes.
22:51Right?
22:52There,
22:53there was a time when I was burnt out.
22:55Because there was a time
22:57when I cried every day in the scenes.
23:00So,
23:03it was about 11 hours.
23:04I cried and cried in the scenes.
23:06Because that's what they were filming.
23:08And our bodies,
23:10they don't know what's fiction
23:12and what's real.
23:14So, my body was so exhausted.
23:16So tired.
23:18Then, I was burnt out.
23:20Then, I thought of my family.
23:21I didn't have time for my family.
23:23When I got home from work,
23:25they were asleep.
23:26I couldn't see them.
23:27When I woke up, they were still asleep.
23:29It was like
23:30it was all work.
23:32I was a bit drained then.
23:33But now,
23:34I'm balanced again.
23:36I realized
23:38that I'm still so grateful.
23:40We all go through that.
23:42And,
23:43it's not,
23:44for me,
23:45in my opinion,
23:46yeah, we contradict ourselves
23:48once in a while.
23:49Yes.
23:50And I think it's part of being human.
23:52You were trying to understand certain things.
23:54That's why you're asking.
23:55Out of exhaustion,
23:57it's like,
23:58what?
23:59But after a while,
24:00you got over it.
24:02You're the reason
24:03why I'm trying so hard.
24:05That's why you should be with me
24:07in my journey.
24:08Okay, fine.
24:09You're my mom.
24:11I'll take care of everything.
24:13Your mom,
24:14in another conversation,
24:16talked about,
24:17talking about your relationship.
24:19She said,
24:20when you're down,
24:21she's the rock
24:23of your life.
24:24And in those moments,
24:25especially your awkward stage,
24:27even, you know,
24:28some months ago,
24:29when,
24:31you're low,
24:32you're low,
24:33she always said,
24:35Son,
24:37you're good.
24:39You're good.
24:40You're a good singer.
24:41You're a good actor.
24:46You're a good partner.
24:49You'll be famous.
24:51Your mom always says that.
24:53Yes.
24:54How important
24:55are those words
24:57for you, Jillian?
25:00How important are those words
25:02of your mom?
25:03Super.
25:04Because,
25:05especially during my awkward stage,
25:07I couldn't believe
25:08myself all the time.
25:11Actually, until now,
25:12I still have doubts.
25:14Like,
25:15do I deserve everything?
25:18But because
25:19of my mom,
25:20I always saw my purpose.
25:24Because of her.
25:26So,
25:27if my mom wasn't there,
25:30I don't have the courage
25:33to be an artist.
25:35I couldn't believe myself.
25:37But with her guidance
25:38and her love,
25:40that everyday
25:41she always told me,
25:42you're the best.
25:43You're the best.
25:44You're the best.
25:45You're the best.
25:46You're the best.
25:47You're the best.
25:48Every day,
25:49she reminded me
25:50that everyday,
25:51out of nowhere,
25:52she would message me
25:53that she's proud of me,
25:55that I can do it.
25:56Sometimes,
25:57I would message her
25:58when I'm really anxious
25:59about work.
26:00I would say,
26:01I don't know if I can do this.
26:02Then,
26:03I couldn't believe myself.
26:05Then,
26:06she would just message me.
26:07She would just call me.
26:08Then,
26:09nothing.
26:10It's like there's magic.
26:11It's like I have
26:13an alter ego
26:14that,
26:15no,
26:16I'm at work.
26:17I'm an artist.
26:18I can do this.
26:19I can do my work.
26:20And that's because of my mom.
26:23It's powerful.
26:24Because you're good.
26:25You're good at being with people.
26:27You really like people.
26:28You're good at dancing.
26:30You're good at acting.
26:32You're good at singing.
26:33Coming from a mother,
26:34coming from your mother,
26:35and constantly,
26:37constantly
26:38hearing that,
26:39right?
26:40Yes.
26:41And,
26:42I know that
26:43she always prays for me.
26:45Even my grandmother.
26:46I know that
26:49when I was young,
26:50they were praying for me
26:51when I was still in Chan.
26:52So,
26:53my mother was a huge influence
26:55on me.
26:56And my grandmother too.
26:57You also have that
26:58with your grandmother.
26:59Yes.
27:00You also have a story that,
27:01for example,
27:02there was, I think, a script
27:03and
27:04there was a reference
27:05to a hospital.
27:06Yes.
27:07That shows that
27:08your grandmother
27:09is still taking care of you.
27:10Yes.
27:11What's that story?
27:12My grandmother,
27:13she died
27:14in 2021.
27:16And,
27:17there was,
27:19in the show,
27:20there was a patient,
27:21for example,
27:22and I would say,
27:23this patient
27:24came from this hospital,
27:25and so on.
27:26And,
27:27that hospital
27:28is where
27:29my grandmother
27:30passed away.
27:32So,
27:33it's amazing.
27:34Out of all names,
27:35that's the one.
27:36I can't remember
27:37the name,
27:38but,
27:39as in,
27:40same name.
27:41It's weird.
27:42It's like she's following you.
27:43Yes.
27:44And,
27:45take note,
27:46that hospital
27:47is in Pampanga.
27:48That's it.
27:49It's just weird.
27:50Jill,
27:51if your grandmother,
27:53I mean,
27:54I'm sure she's just there,
27:55watching over you
27:56and mama,
27:57and your other siblings.
27:59If you want to say
28:00something now,
28:02that
28:03you're there,
28:04almost,
28:05at the peak of your career.
28:06Because,
28:07I can't say peak,
28:08because it's still far
28:09when you'll get there.
28:10It's still far, far, far.
28:11What do you want to say
28:12to your grandmother?
28:15Um,
28:17Here I am again,
28:18crying again.
28:19Go take care.
28:20Um,
28:25Actually,
28:26I have a lot
28:27that I haven't told her.
28:29Because,
28:31it was so sudden
28:32when she passed away.
28:34So,
28:40Um,
28:42I want to tell her that
28:44I love her so much.
28:47And,
28:49Actually,
28:50our dream
28:51is dedicated to her.
28:53So,
28:55I'm just so grateful
28:57that she became my grandmother.
29:00And,
29:01that's it.
29:02I just wish that
29:03there's still
29:06a little time
29:08for us to be together.
29:11But I know
29:12she's still watching.
29:13And,
29:14I want to tell her that
29:15I'm the one
29:16who will take care of your father.
29:19And I love her so,
29:20so much.
29:22I'm so O.A.
29:23Sorry.
29:24I'm sorry.
29:25Thank you.
29:26Yes,
29:27super,
29:28super,
29:29super grateful
29:30to her.
29:31Because,
29:32I'm only two years old.
29:34They really believe in me.
29:36Like,
29:37I don't look old.
29:38It's like,
29:39they really feel that
29:41this is my purpose in life.
29:43My grandmother,
29:44she's so proud of me.
29:46Actually,
29:47even though she doesn't say it,
29:49when she was still alive,
29:50when she was still in her room,
29:52I could hear her
29:53watching my shows
29:55all day.
29:56So,
29:58That's why,
30:01I'm working so hard
30:03because
30:05I saw the support
30:06of my grandmother.
30:08She watches me every day,
30:09even though we're always together
30:11in the house.
30:13Sorry.
30:15No.
30:16We understand.
30:18Yes.
30:19Sorry, I just miss her so much.
30:30Come to me.
30:32Hey, yo.
30:34You know,
30:35I want to have an interview
30:36with Tito Boy every year.
30:38Until I become Gloria Romero,
30:40I want to sing.
30:45Tito Boy is immortal.
30:46What about you?
30:47You never know,
30:48next year,
30:49I might have a chance
30:50in my love life.
30:52I might have a chance,
30:53but I don't have one yet.
30:56Let's talk about Mama first.
30:57Because,
30:58Mama is more important.
30:59Right?
31:00Yes.
31:05At this point in your life,
31:07how ambitious are you still?
31:11Actually,
31:12after my burnout,
31:14I became more ambitious.
31:16But now,
31:17I'm taking time
31:19to rest.
31:21But I have more goals
31:23in my life.
31:25And I really want to beâŠ
31:27Actually,
31:28my life goal,
31:29Tito Boy,
31:30more than the achievements,
31:32is to be a light
31:34in other people's lives.
31:36When we become friends,
31:39somehow,
31:40I'll be a light in their lives.
31:42When they have problems,
31:44I'll be like,
31:45I'm just here,
31:46and I share good energy
31:49with them.
31:50That's my goal,
31:51to spread good energy
31:54and light.
31:55In an interview,
31:56I think you were asked
31:57how competitive you are.
32:01And you started to talk about
32:03you are competing more with yourself
32:07than competing with others.
32:09Yes.
32:10But this is my question.
32:13You realize, Jillian,
32:14that you're driven.
32:18You work so hard.
32:21But,
32:22do you know when to stop?
32:24Do you listen to your body?
32:27Do you listen to that whisper,
32:30that,
32:31Jill,
32:33rest,
32:35for a while.
32:36I learned it the hard way.
32:38Because,
32:39there was a time in taping,
32:41that,
32:42in so much work,
32:43I forgot to eat.
32:46As in,
32:47what I do is,
32:49if there's no take,
32:50I'll just sleep.
32:51I'll forget to eat.
32:53And,
32:54I'm so tired,
32:55my body is drained,
32:56I cry.
32:57There was a time in the hospital,
32:58we were taping,
33:00and after the taping,
33:01I went straight to the ER,
33:03that hospital.
33:04So,
33:05that's where I learned that,
33:07all the work I do,
33:09all the achievements,
33:10it's not there
33:11if it's not,
33:12healthy.
33:13Yes.
33:14So,
33:15I realized that sometimes,
33:16I need to slow down.
33:17God rested.
33:19On the 7th day.
33:20Yes, on the 7th day.
33:21So,
33:22I really need to rest,
33:23so that,
33:25we can boost our creativity.
33:27Because,
33:28when we rest,
33:29that's when we realize,
33:31with more energy,
33:32more drive,
33:33that,
33:34when I get better,
33:35or when I go back to work,
33:37I'm more driven.
33:38That's how I learned.
33:40You'll get better.
33:41I'll get better.
33:42You'll get better.
33:43As an actor,
33:44what are your dreams?
33:46What are your material dreams?
33:48What are your dreams to be on stage?
33:51A lot.
33:52Top of mind?
33:54Ms. Nora Honor,
33:55and Ms. Vilma Santos.
33:57Ms. Nora Honor,
33:58I met her,
33:59last year,
34:00when I was debuting,
34:01actually.
34:02And Ms. Vilma,
34:03because she's the original,
34:04Trudy Sliit.
34:06And,
34:08John Lloyd Cruz.
34:09I want them to work,
34:11because I feel like,
34:12I'll learn a lot.
34:14I want John Cruz to do everything,
34:16in acting.
34:17Your mom said,
34:18she doesn't want a spotlight.
34:20By virtue of being an actor,
34:21you are in the spotlight.
34:23Yes.
34:24But Jillian, you realize,
34:25that you have a mother,
34:26who will fight,
34:28so that my daughter,
34:29won't get hurt,
34:30while she is,
34:31inside that spotlight.
34:33Yes.
34:34You realize that?
34:35Yes.
34:36Your thoughts?
34:37That's why,
34:38I'm so grateful to my mom,
34:39because,
34:40there were times,
34:41that I was like,
34:42well actually,
34:43until now,
34:44I'm ashamed to say,
34:45when I'm tired,
34:47or when I can't do one thing,
34:49I'm ashamed to say,
34:50sometimes,
34:51my mom is the one,
34:53who will fight,
34:54when I'm tired,
34:55she'll say,
34:56I'll say,
34:57I'll just say to her,
34:58actually,
34:59my mom is the kind of mother,
35:01who doesn't force me,
35:03to be an actress.
35:04She doesn't force you?
35:05If I don't want to,
35:06she says,
35:07I won't do it.
35:08My mom is like that.
35:13You said,
35:14you just felt,
35:16that it's already a work,
35:17of the awkward stage.
35:19But also,
35:20now,
35:21when you're a bit burned out,
35:23everybody goes through that.
35:24I mean,
35:25we're all tired.
35:26How do you relax?
35:29So usually,
35:30I just stay at home.
35:32With your family?
35:33With my family.
35:34And what I do,
35:36because sometimes,
35:37it's not possible,
35:38to stay at home,
35:39after taping,
35:40I'll go to my mom,
35:41if she's there.
35:42So,
35:43if she's eating at a restaurant,
35:45I'll go there,
35:46before I go home.
35:47How do you take care of your fans?
35:48Like last time,
35:49my admins,
35:52we did KTV,
35:54and if there's a mall show,
35:57when I'm performing,
35:58sometimes,
35:59I'll stop performing,
36:00to talk to them.
36:01Actually,
36:02last time,
36:03I collected,
36:04around 30 bracelets,
36:05in one mall show.
36:07Because they're wearing them,
36:08while I'm performing,
36:09or on stage.
36:10Because you know,
36:11what people have to realize,
36:13especially our friends in the industry,
36:14is that,
36:15you have to take care,
36:16you have to take good care,
36:17of your followers,
36:18of your fans.
36:19When you talk about,
36:20being responsible,
36:22you're not just an idol,
36:23you're a role model.
36:25But you also,
36:26do firing.
36:28Yes.
36:29How?
36:32These are just toy guns.
36:34Yes.
36:35We have here,
36:36Jillian,
36:37who does firing.
36:38Why firing?
36:39Who introduced you to firing?
36:40Okay,
36:41my coworker,
36:42John Pic de Guzman,
36:44introduced us,
36:45he introduced us,
36:46me and Clea,
36:47we tried,
36:48to join the Air Force,
36:50he introduced us.
36:51Okay,
36:52so he's the one who,
36:53me and Jeff,
36:54we joined the Air Force.
36:55Okay.
36:56Who's better at firing,
36:57Jeff or me?
36:58Honestly,
36:59me.
37:00That's what I like about you.
37:01When,
37:02during PCC,
37:03I don't know,
37:04I'm a sharp shooter.
37:05But,
37:06what effect does it have on you?
37:07It's very relaxing, right?
37:08Yes.
37:09Yes, it's very relaxing.
37:10When there's a problem,
37:11don't do this,
37:13you cannot just fire anywhere else.
37:14Yes.
37:15There's a right place
37:16where you can fire.
37:17You should do an action movie.
37:19You'll know how to hold it.
37:20Actually,
37:21last time,
37:22the first time I tried Jiu-Jitsu,
37:24I really explored everything.
37:26Next year,
37:27there's going to be
37:28White Rider.
37:29White Rider.
37:32I'm going to ride a horse.
37:35This is a little controversial,
37:37but you mentioned this earlier.
37:39I'll only go back to my debut,
37:42and there were so many speculations,
37:45there were aspersions,
37:47that other people paid for your debut.
37:51Not just your debut,
37:52even your properties,
37:54your cars.
37:56I know you're public.
37:57I know you're used to controversies,
37:59you've been exposed.
38:01But when those controversies happened,
38:05the words that other people said,
38:08what was your reaction?
38:10Were you angry?
38:13You've worked so hard.
38:15You've worked for so many years,
38:17almost all your life,
38:19you've been working.
38:21You're the one holding your money.
38:23All of my money goes to my bank,
38:26but what I ask of my mom,
38:29she'll still give me an allowance
38:31until I'm 21.
38:33That's big.
38:34I mean,
38:35That's big.
38:37I mean,
38:38it's enough if I need to buy clothes
38:41for taping.
38:43But that's what I ask of her,
38:46because I feel like
38:47I need to mature in that aspect.
38:49Because if I see something cute,
38:51I'll buy it.
38:53I won't notice that the bag is full.
38:56So I want to learn that
38:58I have an allowance,
38:59I'm strict with myself.
39:01But Jill,
39:02do you know how much money you have in the bank?
39:05Actually, I don't want to look at it yet.
39:08Why?
39:09Because I want to save it first.
39:13Then,
39:14I don't want my focus to go there.
39:17Like,
39:18I need this.
39:19A lot of people go to the bank.
39:22I'm thinking about
39:23going in for taping,
39:24I'll work,
39:25I'll do taping,
39:26I'll be an actress.
39:27That's what's important to me now.
39:30To be very frank about it,
39:31I'm listening to your story.
39:33I know that
39:34you have a job,
39:36you have a business,
39:37you have a mom,
39:38you have a business,
39:39you have a dad.
39:40But how proud are you
39:42that you're the one
39:44who's saving it
39:45and giving life to your family?
39:47Well, not really
39:48that I'm the one giving life to them.
39:49I know,
39:50but to a certain extent,
39:51right?
39:52Yes, I'm wrong.
39:53Because we also have our own.
39:57It's just that
39:58I can give to them.
40:02Actually,
40:03that's what my mom told me,
40:04that I don't want to be an actress.
40:06I don't need to.
40:07Because...
40:08Everyone has their own life.
40:09Everyone has their own life.
40:10So, to me,
40:12it's really my passion.
40:14And my giving,
40:16that's by choice.
40:18It's not by need.
40:19So, let me clarify that.
40:21You're not working
40:22because you're
40:24giving your family a hard time.
40:26It's not just that.
40:27It's a misconception.
40:29To be fair.
40:31Because, of course,
40:32honestly,
40:33I also want to save a lot
40:35so that I can give my parents
40:38what they deserve.
40:39That's exactly what I'm trying to say.
40:40That you're really working
40:42to give them what they deserve.
40:44Yeah, to give them
40:45what they deserve.
40:46For my family.
40:47Because I want to be the one
40:48treating them.
40:50For example,
40:51when they travel,
40:52when my mom wants something,
40:53I want to give her everything.
40:55She doesn't need me,
40:57but I want to give her
40:58everything she gave me.
41:00It's not required,
41:01but you want to.
41:02I want to.
41:03Yes.
41:04And that's the difference.
41:05Yes, that's the difference
41:06between generosity, right?
41:08Because it's not required.
41:09I want to.
41:10I want to give her everything.
41:11I get you.
41:12I understand you.
41:19This is a little controversial,
41:20but you mentioned this earlier.
41:22I'll just go back to your debut.
41:25And there were so many
41:27speculations,
41:28aspersions,
41:29that someone paid for your debut.
41:33Not just your debut,
41:34even your properties,
41:36your cars.
41:38I know you're public.
41:39I know you're used to controversies.
41:41You've been exposed.
41:43But when those controversies happened,
41:47when other people
41:48started talking about you,
41:50what was your reaction?
41:52Were you angry?
41:54Well, actually,
41:55they've been like that
41:56ever since I was underage.
41:59They have so many
42:00misconceptions about me.
42:02I think it's unfair
42:04because I hope they can see
42:06that I'm only wearing a diaper
42:08when I'm working.
42:09So I was able to save
42:11all that I have now.
42:13And like with my debut,
42:15actually, even GMA
42:16shared my debut.
42:18They shared my endorsements.
42:20So all that I have
42:22came from my hard work.
42:25In a clean way.
42:27So I find it a bit unfair
42:29that there's no...
42:30Because honestly,
42:31if you're going to read something,
42:32they're saying
42:33that there's no basis.
42:35Was that unfair
42:36or was that cruel?
42:38I think it's cruel
42:40because I'm underage
42:42and they're saying
42:44scandalous things
42:47that have no basis.
42:49It's so fake news.
42:51And I was only 16 years old.
42:54It's so...
42:55And you worked all your life?
42:57You were an actress,
42:58you saved money?
42:59Actually, I haven't read it yet.
43:01I'm already working.
43:03And like with my cars,
43:06it came from my endorsements,
43:08from my tapings.
43:09I've been taping for a few years.
43:11I'll be 15 years old next year
43:14on my 20th birthday.
43:16So that's it.
43:17It's like...
43:19Actually, I'm a bit sad
43:20because they can't see
43:22the hard work.
43:24But you also realize
43:25that's ancillary to the business.
43:29It's part of our job.
43:31Fake news.
43:32My mom got mad.
43:33Of course, she got mad.
43:35But she said,
43:37if it's not true,
43:38I don't need to prove anything.
43:40I don't need to say anything.
43:41Actually, this is my first time
43:43to open up about it.
43:46It's also my first time
43:47to interview about it.
43:48Say it.
43:49Make it clear.
43:51Well, that's it.
43:52I just hope that they can see
43:54that I'm only 2 years old.
43:57I'm wearing a diaper
43:58and I'm already working.
43:59So I think, somehow,
44:01everything I have
44:03is what I deserve
44:04through my hard work.
44:06That's it.
44:07I just hope that
44:10they won't believe
44:11the fake news too much.
44:13But a large part of that also
44:15depends on us,
44:17the public figures,
44:18what you're going to put
44:19into your life,
44:20what you're going to put
44:21into your consciousness.
44:23Because we have no control
44:25of what we're going to say.
44:28There's a lot.
44:29There's really a lot.
44:30That's why I said,
44:32if they have a purpose,
44:33let them come out.
44:34Okay.
44:35But there's none.
44:36But that's it.
44:37You even have to go to that point.
44:40Right?
44:41Because it's part of being public.
44:44What's the fight?
44:45Right?
44:46But,
44:47your mom said,
44:49truth is on your side.
44:51Yes.
44:52That's the only thing you can hold on to.
44:53Yes.
44:54If it's not true,
44:55what they're questioning,
44:57you don't need to speak about it.
44:59But sometimes,
45:00it's necessary.
45:01It's necessary.
45:02But most of the time,
45:03just let it be.
45:04Because by speaking about it,
45:07we can hear you,
45:09by speaking too often about it,
45:11you're allowing negativity
45:13to enter your space.
45:15Yes, that's true.
45:16That's the problem.
45:17Yes, that's it.
45:18Right?
45:19I learned that
45:20I should just ignore it completely.
45:23But how do you ignore it
45:24when your mom forbids you
45:25to wear a bikini?
45:28Well,
45:30maybe my mom will allow it
45:32when I'm in my 20s.
45:35She said she's 27.
45:37That's too much, mom.
45:39That's on the beach.
45:40I'm wearing a beach t-shirt.
45:42But you understand
45:43your mom, right?
45:44Yes, of course.
45:45Because I understand her
45:46with this conversation.
45:47I understand her.
45:48You know,
45:49when I was young,
45:50I know what she's been through.
45:52That's why you listen to me.
45:53Yes.
45:54It's not imposing on you
45:56her life.
45:58But it's sharing with you
46:00my experience.
46:02Yes.
46:03And it's also nice
46:04that she's giving you a chance.
46:06Yes, that's true.
46:07Go, experience it.
46:08That's true.
46:09I have freedom.
46:10I have freedom.
46:11Right.
46:12With guidance.
46:14Yes.
46:17How much of
46:18Abot Kamay na Pangarap
46:20is your story?
46:22We have a lot of similarities
46:23with Annalyn.
46:24Like her love for her mother.
46:26That's why she really wanted
46:27to be a doctor.
46:28You know the story
46:29of Abot Kamay.
46:30Nanay Lynette
46:32had a brain tumor.
46:34That's why she wanted
46:35to be Annalyn's doctor
46:36when she was young.
46:37So it's like that.
46:38Because of my family,
46:39because of my mom,
46:40that's why I became an artist.
46:42That's why I fell in love.
46:44And Annalyn
46:45helped a lot of people.
46:47Back then,
46:48I was inspired by a lot of people.
46:50It's like that.
46:51And her being driven
46:52to work.
46:53Her being loving
46:54to her family.
46:56It's like that.
46:57Do you imagine
46:58life after Abot Kamay?
47:01Honestly,
47:02I'm nervous.
47:04Because we've been
47:05taping for two years.
47:08And I'm so used to it.
47:09That's my life
47:10almost every day
47:11for the last two years.
47:13I'm thinking,
47:14what am I going to do after?
47:16Because I'm so workaholic.
47:18I don't want to be lazy.
47:20So now, I'm nervous.
47:22What if Abot Kamay ends?
47:24What's my next project?
47:25Or when?
47:26That's how it is.
47:28But again, to use your word,
47:29that becomes your fuel.
47:31Yes.
47:32To move forward.
47:33I'm super motivated.
47:35I hope so.
47:36Jillian,
47:37one day you're going
47:38to be a mother.
47:40What will you do
47:42and what will you not do
47:44to your mother?
47:46I don't know
47:47what I won't do.
47:48More on,
47:49there are things I will do.
47:51Like,
47:52she gives us freedom
47:53but with guidance.
47:55So,
47:56she lets us do it.
47:58Like you said,
47:59she lets us do it.
48:01Okay, you're a mother.
48:02I'm here
48:03if you need my hand.
48:04But you can do it
48:05on your own.
48:06And
48:07my mother's
48:08nurturing.
48:10And
48:11her mindset is
48:13do it if you want to
48:14but you don't have to.
48:15It's up to you.
48:16That's how it is.
48:17And,
48:20you can't think of anything
48:21you won't do?
48:22Maybe,
48:24I want to be with my family
48:26when I'm
48:27in my 30s.
48:29That's all.
48:30But,
48:31other than that,
48:32there's nothing else.
48:33I want to do more
48:34to my mother.
48:35Jillian Ward,
48:37who are you
48:38because of your mother?
48:40I am
48:41a very loving
48:42and giving person
48:43because of my mom.
48:46I believe that
48:47I'm a strong person
48:49because of my mother.
48:51I am driven
48:52because of my mother.
48:53And,
48:55I am blessed
48:56because of my mom
48:57because I know
48:58she always prays for me.
49:00Basically,
49:02this is me
49:03because of my mother.
49:05I'm Jillian because of my mother.
49:06Everything that I am
49:07is because of my mother.
49:10Jill,
49:11thank you so much.
49:13Thank you so much.
49:16Thank you,
49:17thank you very much.
49:20Thank you very much.
49:21Thank you.
49:39You're welcome.
49:40Thank you.