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00:00:00 (eerie music)
00:00:02 - I am a haunted house,
00:00:17 and she is the ghost in the attic.
00:00:19 Turning on lights, stomping on the floor,
00:00:24 and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29 She's there, she's always there,
00:00:32 to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:36 To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:39 I am there with her, up those stairs,
00:00:43 sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:46 A future we will never have.
00:00:50 A future I will never deserve.
00:00:56 I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:00 (coughing)
00:01:11 - If there was one thing you could change about your life,
00:01:20 what would it be?
00:01:21 - One thing?
00:01:24 One thing's all I get?
00:01:26 One thing's all I get, I don't wanna play this game.
00:01:30 I wanna be President of the United States.
00:01:37 That's right.
00:01:40 That way I can declare a state of anarchy.
00:01:42 I wanna be a movie star.
00:01:46 A big fucking movie star.
00:01:49 Live in a big fucking house.
00:01:53 Big fucking movies.
00:01:54 I wanna be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
00:02:01 I don't wanna sit up all night
00:02:08 in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:10 I wanna be God, for the sole purpose of saying,
00:02:15 "I brought you into this world,
00:02:16 "don't think for one minute I will take you out."
00:02:19 (dramatic music)
00:02:21 I want the original promise.
00:02:25 I want justice for all.
00:02:29 I want love, hate, ups and downs,
00:02:36 and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:41 I want the world in my palm.
00:02:47 No cooler than 60 degrees, no warmer than 75,
00:02:52 and never a cloud in the sky.
00:02:56 I want the perfect kiss, the perfect imperfection,
00:03:03 the perfect life.
00:03:06 But more than anything,
00:03:11 I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:16 I want her to walk through that door right over there,
00:03:19 and order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:22 - Hi.
00:03:30 - Hi. - Hi.
00:03:31 - I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:33 (laughing)
00:03:35 Oh, it's okay, I already know what I want.
00:03:38 - Okay.
00:03:40 - I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:42 - Same.
00:03:43 - Okay, two biscuits and gravy, anything to drink?
00:03:45 - Coffee's fine. - All right.
00:03:47 - Thanks.
00:03:48 - I'm Brian.
00:03:50 - Bella.
00:03:51 - Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:54 She blew into my life like a storm,
00:03:56 uprooting everything I knew to be true,
00:03:59 and filling it with so much more.
00:04:01 She became everything I never knew I wanted,
00:04:05 in a single glance, in a moment,
00:04:08 in a straight conversation,
00:04:10 and that slight smile that started
00:04:13 with the curling of her toes,
00:04:15 and then ended at the corner of her lips,
00:04:17 just before she burst into laughter,
00:04:20 she became it.
00:04:24 She became perfection.
00:04:27 - Woo.
00:04:33 - So.
00:04:34 - So.
00:04:35 - Morrissey or the Cure?
00:04:37 - Uh, the Cure, yeah.
00:04:39 - Beatles or Stones?
00:04:40 - The Stones.
00:04:41 - King of Pop or King of Rock?
00:04:42 - King of Rock.
00:04:45 - Definitely.
00:04:46 Well, Elvis is always fascinating.
00:04:48 - How so?
00:04:50 - Well, here's this normal guy
00:04:51 that accidentally got famous.
00:04:53 I mean, he wrote a song that was for his dad,
00:04:56 or his uncle, or something like that, for their birthday,
00:04:59 and the next thing you know, he's a teen idol.
00:05:01 I just, watching his life is like watching a tree grow.
00:05:05 It gets bigger and bigger,
00:05:08 and then he ends up swollen and yellow.
00:05:14 And it's like he's on a satellite somewhere in outer space,
00:05:17 and watching himself, and that's what it did to him.
00:05:21 - Are you saying that Elvis was an alien?
00:05:25 - Hello, darling.
00:05:27 This is Elvis from the planet Graceland,
00:05:29 and I just wanna thank you for coming out
00:05:30 on a date with me this evening.
00:05:32 (laughing)
00:05:34 - You know what I like about you?
00:05:36 - What's that?
00:05:37 - You're full of shit.
00:05:38 I think I just got a little on my shirt.
00:05:42 - Oh, I apologize.
00:05:43 - Thank you.
00:05:44 - You better be.
00:05:45 To Elvis.
00:05:49 - To Elvis.
00:05:50 Elvis, yellow and swollen.
00:05:54 How could I have known even then,
00:05:57 in a moment of such happiness,
00:05:59 the longitude and latitude of my fall from Graceland?
00:06:03 Hours went by, day turns to night, night to day.
00:06:11 Small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations.
00:06:15 First date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted.
00:06:19 I hang on every word she says,
00:06:26 and those hours that became days become weeks.
00:06:29 And we were married on a Saturday,
00:06:31 and those weeks became months,
00:06:36 and Cole, our first daughter, was born, as sweet as sugar.
00:06:41 Those months became a year,
00:06:43 and that year became four years.
00:06:45 And Sarah, our second daughter, was born.
00:06:48 Born sick, and that sickness drove Bella into darkness,
00:06:54 and she began to wither and die.
00:06:56 And me, I became Elvis, yellow and swollen,
00:07:04 watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:07:09 Counting the rings of my tree,
00:07:11 and forever wondering how this perfect life came to be.
00:07:17 (gentle music)
00:07:20 (gentle music)
00:07:23 - Daddy, are you ready to leave me?
00:07:42 - Yeah, I'll be right there, honey.
00:07:44 (gentle music)
00:07:46 the world.
00:07:47 (gentle music)
00:07:50 the world.
00:07:51 (gentle music)
00:07:53 the world.
00:07:54 (gentle music)
00:07:57 the world.
00:08:02 (gentle music)
00:08:05 (gentle music)
00:08:07 (children laughing)
00:08:10 - Whoa.
00:08:18 (gentle music)
00:08:21 Yay!
00:08:24 (gentle music)
00:08:25 Well, I think you got dog poo in your hair.
00:08:28 Yeah!
00:08:30 (gentle music)
00:08:31 Doc, where did you get the dog poo in your hair?
00:08:33 (gentle music)
00:08:36 Here, I think we need to wash it out.
00:08:38 - Okay, then let's wash it out.
00:08:41 (gentle music)
00:08:43 - All right, here we go.
00:08:44 Here, turn over.
00:08:45 (gentle music)
00:08:47 Lean back, lean back.
00:08:49 There we go.
00:08:49 - There we go.
00:08:50 - No, you wanna lean back.
00:08:51 No, the other way.
00:08:53 'Cause if you lean back, then I won't be able to rest.
00:08:54 - Hold my hands.
00:08:55 - Hold my hands.
00:08:55 - Hold her hands.
00:08:56 - Lean back.
00:08:57 - There we go.
00:08:58 - Oh, that feels good, right?
00:08:59 - There we go.
00:09:00 (gentle music)
00:09:01 - Yay, good girl.
00:09:02 (gentle music)
00:09:04 (laughs)
00:09:06 - There it is.
00:09:07 - Oh, yes.
00:09:08 Now we can see it.
00:09:10 - Standing on the shoulders of children,
00:09:12 innocent eyes that gaze upon the world
00:09:15 with wondrous excitement.
00:09:16 You will probably never know me.
00:09:19 You will probably not remember me.
00:09:23 But someday, when you're older,
00:09:26 your mother will show you a photograph
00:09:28 and tell you my story.
00:09:30 A story filled with self-abandon and regret.
00:09:33 Regret that I will not be there for your report cards,
00:09:37 for proms, for graduations,
00:09:42 to give you both away at your weddings.
00:09:45 I always wanted to be the one to teach you to drive,
00:09:50 to navigate life with that same beautiful innocence
00:09:53 that fills your youthful spirit today.
00:09:57 To hope,
00:09:58 to strive,
00:10:00 to dream.
00:10:02 But you're only three feet tall
00:10:06 and already bigger than me.
00:10:08 (gentle music)
00:10:26 - Good morning.
00:10:27 Time to get up.
00:10:28 My water broke, Brian.
00:10:31 - Huh?
00:10:33 - Brian.
00:10:34 - I just thought I was having a wet dream.
00:10:35 - Oh, funny.
00:10:37 Come on, get up.
00:10:39 - Who?
00:10:39 - Hello.
00:10:40 - Oh, really?
00:10:41 - I can't reach you.
00:10:42 Come on.
00:10:43 I'll get out of bed.
00:10:45 Feel this thing, it's coming out.
00:10:46 It's coming out, please.
00:10:47 - Okay, all right.
00:10:48 I'm just trying to keep you from panicking.
00:10:50 - Right, let me get you.
00:10:52 - All right.
00:10:54 - Yeah, take your time.
00:10:55 - Oh, I'm trying, look, I can't go to the hospital naked.
00:10:58 - Why not?
00:10:58 - That would be a little awkward.
00:11:01 Okay.
00:11:03 All right, speaking of, which hospital are we going to?
00:11:04 - You don't know which hospital we're going to?
00:11:07 - Yes, I know which hospital.
00:11:09 - Which hospital are you going to?
00:11:10 - I don't know, let's go, I got it.
00:11:12 Okay.
00:11:15 - Okay, okay, calm down.
00:11:18 - Okay.
00:11:18 - Calm down.
00:11:19 (thudding)
00:11:22 - All right.
00:11:24 - Ooh.
00:11:25 - Watch the hose.
00:11:25 - Got it.
00:11:27 - Something with more water than you.
00:11:28 - Oh, come on.
00:11:28 - Reese's, you stay right there.
00:11:31 (thudding)
00:11:33 Okay.
00:11:34 - Thank you.
00:11:37 Oh.
00:11:39 - All right.
00:11:40 - Why is it a dance floor?
00:11:41 - Oh, God, we're gonna have to detail the car after this.
00:11:44 Okay.
00:11:45 - What did you do to my--
00:11:47 (thudding)
00:11:48 - Okay.
00:11:49 You ready?
00:11:50 - Ooh, baby, I'm ready.
00:11:52 Are you ready?
00:11:53 - You seem a little frazzled.
00:11:55 - Yes, I'm frazzled, yes.
00:11:57 - Just breathe.
00:11:58 - Okay.
00:11:59 - Maybe Cole should drive.
00:12:03 (thudding)
00:12:05 - Cole!
00:12:06 (baby crying)
00:12:10 Ooh.
00:12:13 (baby crying)
00:12:15 (baby crying)
00:12:18 It's okay, it's okay.
00:12:41 - I'm gonna go for a walk.
00:12:44 (baby crying)
00:12:47 - Hello?
00:13:13 Are you busy?
00:13:14 - Brian, are you okay?
00:13:16 - I just needed to talk to someone.
00:13:19 - I'll wait up.
00:13:21 - Thank you.
00:13:23 Time, it moves so slowly
00:13:33 when you have nothing to do but think.
00:13:35 To remember the beginning, to dwell on the end,
00:13:41 to be haunted by everything in between,
00:13:43 to be haunted by that word,
00:13:46 that undefinable word,
00:13:50 as undefinable as God,
00:13:54 yet a word I thought I knew intimately,
00:13:55 perfection,
00:13:58 the perfect wife, the perfect children,
00:14:03 the house, the dog, the job,
00:14:05 the two-car garage, the diapers, the joint bank account,
00:14:10 piano recitals, tap shoes,
00:14:13 the American dream, an idea that became an ideal.
00:14:18 It's Friday.
00:14:22 Is it recycling or yard waste today?
00:14:25 (knocking)
00:14:29 (ominous music)
00:14:32 (ominous music)
00:14:34 (ominous music)
00:14:37 (ominous music)
00:14:40 (ominous music)
00:14:42 (ominous music)
00:14:45 (ominous music)
00:14:48 (ominous music)
00:14:50 Have you ever stood naked, alone?
00:15:18 And out of reach?
00:15:19 The way Sarah cries, I can't help her.
00:15:36 And the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me to help her.
00:15:41 I just want...
00:15:46 - I know.
00:15:47 - Well, I don't.
00:15:50 Once upon a time, maybe, but not anymore.
00:15:55 - You want too much.
00:15:58 - No, I don't.
00:16:00 I just want...
00:16:01 - Your list is too long and I'm too tired.
00:16:05 - I only want it to be perfect.
00:16:09 - Well, it's not.
00:16:10 You never would have started fucking me.
00:16:12 (ominous music)
00:16:15 Do you have any idea what it's like
00:16:25 to want something that you can't have?
00:16:28 - What do you want?
00:16:30 - I want you.
00:16:32 And you want her.
00:16:35 But you don't want her.
00:16:38 You want the idea of her
00:16:40 and what you don't understand.
00:16:42 What you don't understand, Brian,
00:16:44 is that you've idealized your life away.
00:16:46 - But I want you.
00:16:49 - I don't know what you want, but you don't want me.
00:16:54 I'm just another part of the ideal and I'm not perfect.
00:16:58 - But you're perfect to me.
00:17:01 - Don't want kids.
00:17:06 I'm a cat person.
00:17:08 I need time alone more than that.
00:17:10 I need time with people.
00:17:12 - But I already know all of this.
00:17:15 And I love you for you.
00:17:17 - How can you love me when she gives you everything?
00:17:21 - Everything I want, but nothing I need.
00:17:26 This, right here, right now, this is what I need.
00:17:31 (gentle music)
00:17:33 I need her to hold me like she used to.
00:17:43 To hold me so close like we're the same person.
00:17:48 Like this.
00:17:51 Like what we have.
00:17:53 (gentle music)
00:17:55 We have a dance and a photograph.
00:18:05 - Kim was right.
00:18:13 She had become the band-aid for a wound that would not heal.
00:18:17 And no matter how much of her I stripped away,
00:18:22 she would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:18:24 - I'll fight being more alone with you.
00:18:27 Without you.
00:18:30 - She was right about a lot of things.
00:18:48 One day you wake up and you realize
00:18:51 that everything you ever wanted
00:18:53 turned out to be nothing you ever wanted at all.
00:18:56 And even the big things become as trivial as watermelon.
00:19:01 (Kim moaning)
00:19:07 - Sarah, can we fall asleep?
00:19:15 I swear this colic is gonna kill me.
00:19:19 (Kim moaning)
00:19:21 You smell like cigarettes and watermelon.
00:19:29 (alarm beeping)
00:19:44 (Kim sighing)
00:19:46 - Morning, sunshine.
00:19:56 - Hey, beautiful.
00:19:58 - Hi.
00:19:59 - Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:20:07 - No.
00:20:08 Did you wanna do something?
00:20:10 - I was thinking about a shopping bag.
00:20:13 - I'd like that.
00:20:14 - What time did you come in last night?
00:20:34 - What's that, honey?
00:20:38 - What time did you come in last night?
00:20:41 - I don't know, I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:44 - I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:46 - Really?
00:20:47 Well, I gave you a kiss goodnight,
00:20:51 you rolled over, I thought I woke you up.
00:20:53 - No. (laughing)
00:20:57 - You know, one of these days
00:21:00 I'm gonna get a call from Canada,
00:21:02 you're gonna be missing a sock,
00:21:04 you're gonna have a new tattoo of a heart
00:21:06 and some sailor's name on your ass,
00:21:08 and you're gonna say,
00:21:10 I don't know where I was,
00:21:11 but I woke up in a car that wasn't mine
00:21:14 with some large man and a unitard
00:21:16 offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:21:17 - Here's your other sock, sailor.
00:21:23 You're so sexy when you have your drafty face on.
00:21:37 - Hey, beautiful.
00:21:40 Wanna go get some lunch or something?
00:21:41 - Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront,
00:21:44 but first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:46 - Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:49 Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:51 - What would that be?
00:21:53 - Do I have to ask?
00:21:54 - Hi. - Hi.
00:22:05 You look good.
00:22:08 - Oh, thanks. - How are you?
00:22:10 - I'm good, I just stopped by for lunch.
00:22:12 I think we're gonna go to the waterfront.
00:22:14 Did you wanna come?
00:22:15 - I can't, thanks though, I've already got plans.
00:22:18 - That's too bad, we don't hang out enough.
00:22:20 - I know, we should see each other more often.
00:22:23 - Oh, that's pretty, what is it?
00:22:25 - Thanks, I think it's called posh,
00:22:27 but it tastes like watermelon.
00:22:29 - I like it.
00:22:33 - So how have you been?
00:22:36 - Good, you know, kids and stuff.
00:22:39 - Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:44 Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:45 I've gotta get back to work.
00:22:48 - Yeah, good to see you too.
00:22:49 - Oh.
00:22:55 (soft music)
00:22:57 - You haven't touched your food.
00:23:19 (soft music)
00:23:21 - I'm not as hungry as I thought I was.
00:23:33 (soft music)
00:23:36 - I think she got the stick.
00:23:42 - Uh-huh.
00:23:43 - Yes, she does.
00:23:44 - Uh-huh.
00:23:44 - Look, she does.
00:23:46 She does have a stick on her.
00:23:48 - Oh, she does, doesn't she?
00:23:50 - Yeah, thanks.
00:23:51 - Yeah.
00:23:51 (soft music)
00:23:56 - Bella, Bella, are you okay?
00:24:00 - Yeah.
00:24:01 - Bella.
00:24:02 If you wanna talk.
00:24:04 - Mom, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.
00:24:07 It's okay, I just.
00:24:08 - Right out here if you need anything.
00:24:10 - I'm fine.
00:24:10 (soft music)
00:24:13 the fuck?
00:24:14 (soft music)
00:24:16, shut up. (soft music)
00:24:21 (soft music)
00:24:23 Shut up.
00:24:40 It's gonna be okay.
00:24:48 Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:50 It's gonna be okay.
00:24:52 (baby crying)
00:24:56 - Hey, little angels.
00:25:08 How are you doing?
00:25:10 What you doing?
00:25:10 Putting on a show?
00:25:12 Hi.
00:25:14 Is mommy cooking?
00:25:17 Something smells good.
00:25:20 - What are you cooking, baby?
00:25:22 (soft music)
00:25:25 - Something smells good.
00:25:28 - I'm gonna cook.
00:25:29 (soft music)
00:25:32 How was work?
00:25:35 - Well, my new clients are total prick,
00:25:36 but I thought it was good.
00:25:38 It's nice to see you today for lunch.
00:25:40 Should we do that more often?
00:25:41 - Yeah.
00:25:42 - I'll let you go.
00:25:44 Come on.
00:25:46 (soft music)
00:25:49 (soft music)
00:25:51 - She knew.
00:26:10 Nothing more need be said.
00:26:13 She knew.
00:26:15 And the thought came to her as quickly as a bullet.
00:26:19 A bullet expelled from a gun that I had cleaned,
00:26:22 oiled, aimed, and fired.
00:26:24 Dearest Bella, I miss you.
00:26:30 (soft music)
00:26:34 (soft music)
00:26:37 (soft music)
00:26:39 (soft music)
00:26:41 (soft music)
00:26:44 (soft music)
00:26:46 (dramatic music)
00:27:00 - Oh my God.
00:27:11 Bella.
00:27:12 Bella.
00:27:13 No, what the fuck?
00:27:15 Oh my God.
00:27:16 Bella.
00:27:17 Jesus Christ.
00:27:18 Fuck.
00:27:21 Oh my God.
00:27:24 Oh my God.
00:27:26 Oh my God.
00:27:28 Oh God.
00:27:29 - 911, what's your emergency?
00:27:32 - My wife just cut her wrist.
00:27:33 I need an ambulance at 612 Forest Street.
00:27:37 - Sir, I need you to calm down.
00:27:39 Can you do that for me?
00:27:40 - Yeah.
00:27:41 - The ambulance is on its way.
00:27:43 I need to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:47 - Yeah.
00:27:49 - I need you to stop the bleeding.
00:27:53 What is your name, sir? - Oh my God.
00:27:54 Brian.
00:27:55 - Brian, I need you to apply pressure
00:27:58 above the laceration and lift her arm
00:28:00 above the level of her heart.
00:28:02 Can you do that for me?
00:28:03 - Yeah, but I have to put the phone down.
00:28:05 - That's okay, Brian.
00:28:06 Put the phone down. - Oh God.
00:28:08 - Don't hang up.
00:28:09 Don't hang up. - Oh God.
00:28:10 Oh God.
00:28:12 Oh God.
00:28:13 Oh my God.
00:28:28 Oh my God.
00:28:32 (somber music)
00:28:34 (somber music)
00:28:37 (somber music)
00:28:40 (somber music)
00:28:42 (somber music)
00:28:45 (somber music)
00:28:47 (somber music)
00:28:50 - Thank you for calling Jennings Architecture.
00:29:17 It is currently after hours,
00:29:18 but if you have an emergency,
00:29:20 you may contact a representative at 555-4868
00:29:23 or stay on the line and leave a message.
00:29:28 - Hey, John.
00:29:33 This is Brian.
00:29:34 I'm having a family emergency,
00:29:38 so I'm just calling to let you know
00:29:39 that I won't be to work for a couple days,
00:29:42 so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:44 Bye.
00:29:47 (phone clicks)
00:29:50 (static crackles)
00:29:56 (somber music)
00:29:59 (static crackles)
00:30:11 (somber music)
00:30:14 - Bella died for 48 seconds.
00:30:19 I have been dying ever since.
00:30:23 As her heart slowed and stopped,
00:30:27 I realized at that very moment
00:30:28 something I should have always known.
00:30:30 She loved me more than she loved herself.
00:30:36 (somber music)
00:30:40 (static crackles)
00:30:42 (somber music)
00:30:45 (static crackles)
00:30:48 (somber music)
00:30:58 (static crackles)
00:31:01 (somber music)
00:31:12 (dramatic music)
00:31:18 (door slams)
00:31:21 (somber music)
00:31:24 (somber music)
00:31:26 I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:35 She was beautiful.
00:31:38 It's not that she's not beautiful, she's gorgeous.
00:31:43 It's just, I'm used to her.
00:31:52 I don't even know why I did it, it was stupid.
00:31:54 It's not commitment that I have a problem with.
00:32:01 It's contentment.
00:32:04 It's like no matter how good I have it,
00:32:10 it's never good enough.
00:32:12 It's no one's fault.
00:32:16 (somber music)
00:32:19 It's fucked up.
00:32:26 (phone rings)
00:32:44 (phone rings)
00:32:47 - [Brianna] Harborview Medical Center.
00:32:51 - Yeah, this is Brian Sanders.
00:32:54 I'm calling to see how my wife's doing.
00:32:55 - [Brianna] What is your name, please?
00:32:57 - Bella Sanders.
00:32:58 (somber music)
00:33:14 - Your wife is in stable condition.
00:33:15 She should be released sometime this evening
00:33:17 or tomorrow morning.
00:33:18 - Okay, thank you.
00:33:22 (phone clacks)
00:33:27 (phone rings)
00:33:31 (somber music)
00:33:37 (phone clacks)
00:33:40 - She's sleeping, Brian.
00:33:52 - Okay, thank you.
00:33:53 (phone rings)
00:34:04 (somber music)
00:34:06 - She doesn't wanna talk yet, Brian.
00:34:16 - I just wanna make sure she's okay.
00:34:19 - I think it's gonna be a long time before she's okay.
00:34:22 (phone rings)
00:34:28 (somber music)
00:34:31 - Hello?
00:34:49 - Hi, Gary, is Bella--
00:34:52 - Then we'll call you when she's ready.
00:34:55 (phone clacks)
00:34:57 (somber music)
00:35:00 (phone rings)
00:35:27 - Brian, she's just not ready yet.
00:35:30 - Can I please see the girls?
00:35:32 - Hold on.
00:35:33 What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:35:41 - Whenever you want.
00:35:42 - Meet me at Owens Beach around one.
00:35:45 - Thank you.
00:35:48 Thank you so much.
00:35:50 - I'll see you tomorrow.
00:35:51 - You wanna see Cole tomorrow?
00:35:57 - Yeah.
00:35:58 - Oh.
00:36:14 - Here you go, hey.
00:36:16 Did you have a good time?
00:36:20 Here you go.
00:36:21 Here you go, there's Teddy.
00:36:25 - There she is, hi.
00:36:26 - Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:36:28 Oh, I know.
00:36:29 Here, come on.
00:36:30 Here, he's excited.
00:36:32 Okay, get this up.
00:36:35 You're like a magician.
00:36:39 Okay, you ready?
00:36:40 I'll trade you.
00:36:41 - Okay.
00:36:42 - There she is.
00:36:45 Come on, come on.
00:36:49 - Hold on here.
00:36:54 - It's good to see you guys.
00:36:56 - Yeah.
00:36:57 - How you been, huh?
00:37:03 - Oh, she's good.
00:37:04 - How has she been?
00:37:05 - Oh.
00:37:06 Always doing interesting things.
00:37:10 - Oh yeah.
00:37:11 Character.
00:37:13 Come on.
00:37:14 (laughing)
00:37:16 - Yeah.
00:37:17 - Oh.
00:37:22 - What?
00:37:23 - Oh.
00:37:24 Ready?
00:37:28 There she is.
00:37:39 Come on.
00:37:41 Let's get out and see the day, huh?
00:37:43 There you go.
00:37:45 Hi.
00:37:46 There you are, gorgeous.
00:37:49 (laughing)
00:37:51 - Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:38:03 - It's just the right thing to do.
00:38:05 So how are you doing?
00:38:09 - I just want to know if she's okay.
00:38:12 - She's really hurt, Brian,
00:38:13 and I don't think she's gonna forgive you.
00:38:16 - I can't even forgive myself.
00:38:19 - I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:38:21 You just made a mistake.
00:38:23 She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:38:27 She only knows she's hurting because of you.
00:38:31 This is either gonna drive you farther apart
00:38:37 or bring you closer together, but it's not your choice.
00:38:40 It's her choice now.
00:38:43 - I know.
00:38:44 - You just have to give her time to decide.
00:38:49 It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:38:52 Thanks for coming out today.
00:39:04 - It's the right thing to do.
00:39:08 (water running)
00:39:11 - My mother has a gift of Catholic guilt,
00:39:31 and my dad's gonna kick your ass if you keep calling.
00:39:34 - So how are you doing?
00:39:37 - If I see a therapist three times a week,
00:39:39 the state won't take the kids.
00:39:40 How are you?
00:39:42 - Well, it's over.
00:39:43 I told her we're done.
00:39:45 - It's too late for that.
00:39:46 - I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:39:50 But I'm sorry.
00:39:53 I'm so sorry.
00:39:55 - How could you do this to me?
00:39:58 How?
00:40:00 When I love you so much?
00:40:02 - I don't know.
00:40:05 - I love you so much, Brian.
00:40:07 - I love you.
00:40:16 - I want a divorce.
00:40:26 - Ella.
00:40:27 - I don't wanna talk about it.
00:40:28 I want a divorce, and I want the kids,
00:40:32 and the house and car.
00:40:35 And you can give me the dog, okay?
00:40:37 - Take whatever you want.
00:40:39 - Could you be out by Friday?
00:40:43 If we don't come home soon,
00:40:45 Cole's gonna know something's wrong.
00:40:47 - Well, what are you gonna tell her
00:40:48 when you come home and I'm not here?
00:40:50 - I'm gonna tell her the truth.
00:40:52 - Okay, she should know.
00:40:56 (Ella sighs)
00:41:03 - I have to go.
00:41:04 Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:41:07 - Yeah.
00:41:08 I love you.
00:41:10 Okay, guess this is it for a while.
00:41:21 (somber music)
00:41:24 (box thuds)
00:41:26 (box clatters)
00:41:29 (glass clinks)
00:41:31 (somber music)
00:41:35 (box clatters)
00:41:37 (somber music)
00:41:40 (water drips)
00:41:43 (somber music)
00:41:45 (footsteps thud)
00:41:48 (phone rings)
00:42:13 - Hello. - Hi.
00:42:15 - Where's Kim?
00:42:16 - I've only been here for a week.
00:42:17 I don't think I've met her yet.
00:42:20 - Okay, thanks.
00:42:21 - Oh, Mr. Jenny's wanted you to stop
00:42:22 by his office and find him.
00:42:24 - All right, thank you.
00:42:26 I've known you for a long time
00:42:32 and I've never seen you like this.
00:42:34 - I'm sorry, John, I'm just having problems at home.
00:42:38 - You've missed 43 days in the past three months.
00:42:45 You've been up, you smell like alcohol.
00:42:46 - My wife and I are, I don't even know what we are.
00:42:53 - Which is why it hurts me to do this,
00:42:56 but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:42:58 - I understand.
00:43:00 - I wish you the best, I really do.
00:43:04 - Thanks.
00:43:07 (dramatic music)
00:43:14 (phone rings)
00:43:17 - What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:43:27 I threw it all away.
00:43:29 As easily as one throws away the wrapping
00:43:32 on a birthday present.
00:43:33 I've always been too selfish to understand
00:43:37 that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:43:40 You're fired, he said, in so many words.
00:43:44 You're fired from life, for you have failed everyone
00:43:47 who has ever loved you.
00:43:48 You've failed yourself.
00:43:51 And no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:43:55 No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:43:58 I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:44:01 And in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:44:07 (coughing)
00:44:13 (dramatic music)
00:44:15 - Security.
00:44:38 (knocking)
00:44:41 Excuse me, sir.
00:44:49 We've had a few noise complaints.
00:44:53 I had you top it off, your credit card's been declined.
00:44:57 So we need to get your stuff out right now.
00:45:00 Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:45:03 Is this your jacket?
00:45:04 Just the one?
00:45:07 Yeah?
00:45:08 - Yes.
00:45:08 - Why don't you put that on?
00:45:10 All right, we gotta grab your stuff.
00:45:12 What do you want to bring with you?
00:45:14 (sighing)
00:45:16 There.
00:45:19 Hold on to that.
00:45:21 Hold on.
00:45:23 Just, I don't know.
00:45:26 Is that all you need?
00:45:28 All right, we're gonna go.
00:45:30 (dramatic music)
00:45:32 (whispering)
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00:46:38 (whispering)
00:46:42 (dramatic music)
00:46:52 (sighing)
00:46:52 - Party just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:46:54 - I don't know.
00:46:57 (dramatic music)
00:46:59 - You know what?
00:47:08 I love you, Reese.
00:47:11 You know what else?
00:47:14 You're too good for this.
00:47:16 You wanna go home?
00:47:19 Come on.
00:47:22 Off like a herd of turtles.
00:47:23 Come on.
00:47:26 Can't believe I let you talk me into this.
00:47:36 Well,
00:47:39 I know you've heard this story a million times,
00:47:44 but, (laughing)
00:47:47 if I don't keep talking,
00:47:50 I can't keep walking.
00:47:51 So,
00:47:53 a million and one.
00:47:55 What do you have to say about that, huh?
00:47:58 Huh?
00:48:01 That's what I thought.
00:48:03 Anyway,
00:48:07 we drove all day to get to where you were born.
00:48:11 Have you ever seen your mother drive?
00:48:14 Huh?
00:48:14 She's beautiful, but she's so serious.
00:48:18 (footsteps)
00:48:21 I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh.
00:48:25 I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody.
00:48:30 She made me feel that way all the time.
00:48:34 Huh.
00:48:36 And when she smiled,
00:48:38 I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:48:41 But don't get any ideas.
00:48:47 You're too young to start dating there, mister.
00:48:50 You're too young for that.
00:48:51 Anyway,
00:48:56 we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:48:58 And I swear the place was odd.
00:49:04 It was like a circus.
00:49:06 There was kids on unicycles,
00:49:11 goats with eight horns.
00:49:16 I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:49:18 Woo hoo hoo.
00:49:21 Bet you liked to play with that,
00:49:24 chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:49:26 Oh,
00:49:31 and your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:49:35 So she wore dresses from the 50s
00:49:39 and little things in her hair.
00:49:44 (sighs)
00:49:46 She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before,
00:49:52 well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:49:54 Huh.
00:49:55 I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress.
00:50:04 It didn't matter where we went or what we did.
00:50:12 I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:50:14 She glowed even when she slept.
00:50:20 Have you ever seen "The Lion King"?
00:50:26 Yeah, I have about 75 times.
00:50:30 I have kids.
00:50:31 Remember?
00:50:34 Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:50:39 Well,
00:50:40 that's how it was when I met you.
00:50:44 Only,
00:50:47 you weren't Simba.
00:50:50 You,
00:50:54 you were like a peanut butter cup.
00:51:05 A fat, chunky, little peanut butter cup.
00:51:10 That's how you got your name.
00:51:16 (gentle music)
00:51:28 (birds chirping)
00:51:31 Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, okay?
00:51:48 One more.
00:51:49 (gentle music)
00:51:52 (leaves rustling)
00:51:55 (gentle music)
00:51:58 (wind whistling)
00:52:02 (gentle music)
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00:52:57 (gentle music)
00:53:19 (wind whistling)
00:53:22 (laughing)
00:53:36 (laughing)
00:53:41 - Oh, I missed you.
00:53:43 (laughing)
00:53:47 (gentle music)
00:53:50 (wind whistling)
00:53:53 (gentle music)
00:54:06 (wind whistling)
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00:55:08 (gentle music)
00:55:11 (wind whistling)
00:55:40 (gentle music)
00:55:44 - Fucking kids.
00:55:45 Hey, fuck off.
00:55:47 - Hey.
00:55:47 Hey, what's your problem?
00:55:50 - I don't have a problem.
00:55:54 - You walk through here every day, where do you go?
00:55:56 - I don't know.
00:55:57 I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:59 - Quit being a pathetic fuck
00:56:00 and say hi every once in a while, huh?
00:56:02 What, are you gonna sit down in any fucking church?
00:56:06 - Piece of shit, Paul.
00:56:10 I'm Terry.
00:56:11 This is my friend, Vodka.
00:56:13 Who the fuck are you?
00:56:14 - Brian.
00:56:16 - Hey, hey waitress, can I get a napkin for my friend here?
00:56:21 - Go sleep it off.
00:56:23 - My child, Raj, and your stagnant cunt.
00:56:26 - I gotta go.
00:56:30 - Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:56:32 You got a job interview or something?
00:56:35 Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:56:38 Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
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00:59:18 (laughing)
00:59:21 - Well, are you gonna sit down or what?
00:59:23 What is your deal anyway?
00:59:29 You ain't supposed to be here.
00:59:31 - Well, I used to have a wife, kids, a dog, a house.
00:59:37 - Jesus Christ, you are a dental assistant.
00:59:40 - Well, I was an architect.
00:59:43 - An architect?
00:59:46 If you were an architect, you'd know how many floors there were between you and the ground.
00:59:50 Let me tell you something, you piece of shit.
00:59:55 I used to be a dental hygienist.
00:59:58 Being a dental hygienist is a lot like being a shrink.
01:00:04 Only most of my clients were numb, kind of like you.
01:00:08 - Talk to me about being numb.
01:00:11 - You ever smoke crack?
01:00:15 - Smoking crack is kind of like waking up Frankenstein's monster.
01:00:19 There's a big jolt of electricity, and then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely.
01:00:24 So the town folk, they all get together and, you know, get their pitchforks and,
01:00:29 I don't know, they run him out of town or kill him or, fuck, I forget.
01:00:34 - Killed it.
01:00:36 - Killed it, thank you very much.
01:00:39 Anyway, my point is this.
01:00:41 You walk around here like fucking Frankenstein's monster.
01:00:44 And I see.
01:00:45 I can tell you ain't supposed to be here.
01:00:47 You're a fucking accident.
01:00:48 So I look for my pitchfork.
01:00:51 But then I realize I'm not a fucking farmer, what do I need a pitchfork for?
01:00:56 But by the time I realize that, you're fucking gone.
01:01:00 Just do yourself a favor.
01:01:05 Go be an architect.
01:01:07 Build yourself some big building that you don't want to jump off of.
01:01:12 Or at least be a good drunk, you fucking piece of shit.
01:01:16 - Thank you.
01:01:23 - Yeah.
01:01:27 Go fuck yourself, Frankie the Park Fly.
01:01:30 Jesus, Paul, you're a fucking embarrassment.
01:01:37 Paul, you're a fucking embarrassment.
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01:02:15 Do you mind if I sit and watch you paint?
01:02:26 No, not at all.
01:02:28 This has always reminded me of something from a different life.
01:02:34 A couple of months ago, it was wrapped in plastic.
01:02:39 Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:02:42 So are you in school?
01:02:46 Third quarter freshman.
01:02:48 Well, it's very beautiful.
01:02:49 Thank you.
01:02:51 Do you paint?
01:02:53 I always wanted to.
01:02:55 I always told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:02:58 You're married?
01:03:00 No, I'm divorced.
01:03:02 I'm sorry.
01:03:04 It's okay, it's been a while now.
01:03:06 How long?
01:03:09 Going on three years.
01:03:11 This is too bad.
01:03:13 It's all right.
01:03:16 Where are you from?
01:03:17 I must have tourists written all over me.
01:03:21 Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the Space Needle or not.
01:03:26 I'm from Portland.
01:03:29 Really?
01:03:30 Yeah.
01:03:31 From Salem?
01:03:32 Right on.
01:03:35 Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:03:38 That's okay. You don't have to.
01:03:40 Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:03:44 But good luck to you.
01:03:46 You too.
01:03:47 You too.
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01:04:49 (footsteps)
01:04:59 - Hi.
01:05:03 - Hi, how are you?
01:05:05 - Just trying to get money to get other person food.
01:05:08 Do you have any spare change?
01:05:10 - Oh, I'm sorry, I don't.
01:05:12 - It's okay, thanks anyway.
01:05:14 - Have a good night.
01:05:16 - You too.
01:05:17 (gentle music)
01:05:19 (birds chirping)
01:05:25 (car engine roaring)
01:05:28 (footsteps)
01:05:31 - So I don't give the homeless money,
01:05:34 but I will help you help yourself.
01:05:36 - You don't have to do this.
01:05:38 - No, it's okay, I want to.
01:05:41 See, you can paint pictures,
01:05:43 and that way you don't have to beg.
01:05:44 - Can I hug you?
01:05:46 (laughing)
01:05:49 Oh, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met.
01:05:51 I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:05:56 That you know what you have when you have it.
01:05:59 - Thank you.
01:06:02 - Thank you.
01:06:03 (gentle music)
01:06:05 - Hey, hey!
01:06:11 I'm gonna break you, you architect.
01:06:18 Fuck.
01:06:18 You gonna come over and join me or what?
01:06:30 (birds chirping)
01:06:33 (gentle music)
01:06:35 What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:06:41 - Life goes on.
01:06:44 It doesn't matter how much you push it,
01:06:48 pull it, remember, or forget.
01:06:51 It's indifferent.
01:06:53 It just goes on.
01:06:54 And I think back to the little things,
01:06:58 the things that matter most.
01:07:00 The laughter.
01:07:01 The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:07:06 Her lip lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:07:10 Philosophy over coffee.
01:07:14 Explaining why the sky is blue
01:07:18 to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:07:21 So wide-eyed and full of possibilities.
01:07:24 Endless possibilities.
01:07:28 When the world was made of magic.
01:07:30 Of course unicorns are real.
01:07:34 As real as princesses.
01:07:37 As real as Bigfoot.
01:07:40 As real as you and me.
01:07:43 Once when I was your age, I rode one.
01:07:47 I rode one, but the horn is very sharp.
01:07:51 That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:07:56 (chuckles)
01:07:58 Fly.
01:08:01 Fly.
01:08:04 Fly as I sink.
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01:08:47 (eerie music)
01:08:49 ♪ Take a walk with me ♪
01:09:15 ♪ Let's go find belief ♪
01:09:19 ♪ I wanna see the stars again ♪
01:09:23 ♪ With the wonder that I had ♪
01:09:26 ♪ At the age of 10 ♪
01:09:29 ♪ So now I'm alone ♪
01:09:33 ♪ Once again ♪
01:09:36 ♪ I'm on my own ♪
01:09:38 ♪ She lost the magic ♪
01:09:41 ♪ She had for me ♪
01:09:43 ♪ And I can't rise ♪
01:09:47 ♪ We no longer share the same skies ♪
01:09:52 ♪ No, we don't ♪
01:09:57 ♪ Not at all ♪
01:10:01 ♪ Not at all ♪
01:10:06 ♪ So now I walk alone ♪
01:10:12 ♪ Once again ♪
01:10:14 ♪ I'm on my own ♪
01:10:17 ♪ She lost the magic ♪
01:10:20 ♪ She had for me ♪
01:10:24 ♪ Lost the magic ♪
01:10:26 ♪ 'Cause I'm not complete ♪
01:10:31 ♪ In each one of us ♪
01:10:33 ♪ Peter Pan ♪
01:10:36 ♪ Elvis Presley ♪
01:10:38 ♪ Superman ♪
01:10:41 ♪ In each one of us ♪
01:10:43 ♪ Jacques Cousteau ♪
01:10:46 ♪ To marvel at the earth ♪
01:10:49 ♪ And the sea below ♪
01:10:52 ♪ In each one of us ♪
01:11:05 ♪ Peter Pan ♪
01:11:08 ♪ Elvis Presley ♪
01:11:11 ♪ Superman ♪
01:11:14 ♪ In each one of us ♪
01:11:16 ♪ Jacques Cousteau ♪
01:11:19 ♪ To marvel at the earth ♪
01:11:22 ♪ And the sea below ♪
01:11:37 ♪ Take a walk with me ♪
01:11:41 Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:46 ♪ Let's go find belief ♪
01:11:55 ♪ Believe ♪
01:11:59 ♪ Believe ♪
01:12:05 ♪ I wanna see the stars again ♪
01:12:10 ♪ Oh, the stars again ♪
01:12:18 ♪ With the wonder that I had ♪
01:12:22 ♪ At the age of ten ♪
01:12:26 ♪ Oh, oh ♪
01:12:31 ♪ The age of ten ♪
01:12:33 I remember lying on your chest and talking for hours.
01:12:37 ♪ The age of ten ♪
01:12:41 And then we remembered we were lying on the bathroom floor
01:12:47 so we had to shower again.
01:13:02 ♪ So I walk alone ♪
01:13:05 ♪ Once again ♪
01:13:11 ♪ I'm on my own ♪
01:13:14 ♪ She lost the magic ♪
01:13:18 ♪ She had for me ♪
01:13:21 ♪ Oh, oh ♪
01:13:25 ♪ In her eyes ♪
01:13:30 ♪ We no longer ♪
01:13:32 ♪ Share the sky ♪
01:13:36 ♪ Oh, no ♪
01:13:39 ♪ Oh, no ♪
01:13:43 ♪ Not at all ♪
01:13:45 ♪ Not at all ♪
01:13:52 Sometimes I can't help but wonder
01:13:57 maybe we forget each other every time you look away.
01:14:00 I see you, beautiful.
01:14:10 ♪ And each one of us ♪
01:14:15 ♪ Peter Pan ♪
01:14:18 ♪ Elvis Presley ♪
01:14:21 ♪ Superman ♪
01:14:27 ♪ And each one of us ♪
01:14:29 ♪ Jacques Cousteau ♪
01:14:32 ♪ To marvel at the Earth ♪
01:14:36 ♪ And the sea below where we're lying ♪
01:14:40 ♪ I just need someone ♪
01:14:43 ♪ Who understands ♪
01:14:46 ♪ The little boy ♪
01:14:50 ♪ Inside the man ♪
01:14:55 ♪ I just need someone ♪
01:14:57 ♪ Who understands ♪
01:15:00 ♪ Part of me lives ♪
01:15:04 ♪ In a dreamland ♪
01:15:23 I remember.
01:15:25 I remember, she thought.
01:15:28 But I can't forget.
01:15:31 Once you asked me if I had ever stood naked in front of anyone.
01:15:36 Alone and out of reach.
01:15:39 I took off my clothes and backed away from you.
01:15:43 You simply asked me my middle name and told me to put my clothes back on.
01:15:50 I am standing naked and raw for you now, Bella.
01:15:54 Not to beg forgiveness.
01:15:56 But to beg that you find happiness.
01:15:59 The kind of happiness I could never give you.
01:16:03 And if you should see the unrecognizable me on the street.
01:16:08 Don't look down.
01:16:10 Don't look back.
01:16:13 And I will grant you the same respect.
01:16:19 Ain't you guys got a home to go to?
01:16:21 Yeah.
01:16:23 I was thinking about maybe getting a wife.
01:16:25 Shitting on some kids.
01:16:27 Being an architect.
01:16:30 Will you marry me?
01:16:32 Shut up, you fucking drunk.
01:16:34 Do you ever leave the bench?
01:16:37 What, do they decorate you guys at Christmas time?
01:16:42 Yes?
01:16:46 No?
01:16:49 Okay, well, I'm gonna go get a cup of coffee if you want to join me.
01:16:52 Come on, sweetheart.
01:17:00 Daddy wants some breakfast.
01:17:02 Lupe!
01:17:06 [wind howling]
01:17:09 [leaves rustling]
01:17:11 [clattering]
01:17:21 [chatter]
01:17:37 [chatter]
01:17:40 [chatter]
01:18:07 [coughing]
01:18:09 If there was one thing you could change about your life,
01:18:17 what would it be?
01:18:19 One thing is all I get?
01:18:21 If one is all I get, I don't want to play this game.
01:18:25 Pussy.
01:18:27 I want to be President of the United States.
01:18:30 That's right.
01:18:32 That way I can declare a state of anarchy.
01:18:37 I want to be a movie star.
01:18:38 A big fucking movie star.
01:18:41 Live in a big fucking house.
01:18:44 Make big fucking movies.
01:18:47 I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
01:18:52 I want to sit up all night in an all-night diner
01:19:00 and order nothing.
01:19:04 I want to be God, and the sole purpose of saying,
01:19:07 "I brought you into this world. Don't think for one minute I won't take you out."
01:19:11 I want the original promise.
01:19:15 I want justice for all.
01:19:18 I want love, hate, ups and downs,
01:19:23 and everything in between,
01:19:25 for nothing in return.
01:19:28 I want the world in my palm,
01:19:33 no cooler than 60 degrees,
01:19:35 no warmer than 75,
01:19:38 and never a cloud in the sky.
01:19:41 I want the perfect kiss,
01:19:45 the perfect imperfection,
01:19:48 the perfect life.
01:19:51 But more than anything,
01:19:55 I want someone who wants what I want,
01:19:57 and I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:20:02 And order biscuits and gravy.
01:20:04 You're a pathetic fuck.
01:20:09 Thanks.
01:20:12 Not you, him.
01:20:14 Jesus, that was beautiful.
01:20:19 [slurping]
01:20:22 [glasses clink]
01:20:23 [kissing]
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