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00:00No ifs. No buts. Fail this test. And you have to kill yourself, old pal.
00:22Enough gloom and doom. It's Christmas after all. So right let's start. In Night of the Living Dead, what substance did they use to make fake blood? Come on, you know this one.
00:41In Smokey and Abundant. Cheers, I was just coming to find my name. What is this, eh? What is this? Some sort of sick joke.
00:52It's just a precaution. No, it ain't a precaution, it's you. You planning to kill yourself.
00:58I was just sat there watching cartoons on a tablet. Won't talk about it. Because she's watching cartoons.
01:10Are you worried? A man she hardly knows is just trying to drag her off down the street. She could be, you know, emotionally damaged.
01:16She is emotionally damaged. Her dad died. What happened with Nigel and small potatoes in comparison?
01:22Fine. If you think it's nothing, then I guess it's nothing. No, I'm not saying it's nothing, Harvey. But what happened isn't his fault.
01:29And I'm not going to demonise him and I don't want the kids in the house to do that either.
01:33He's sick. And he needs compassion and support. You should know that.
01:41Look, I know this must be a shock for you, but what you saw, the video, don't mean I'm actually planning to do something.
02:03You're going to have to kill yourself, old pal. That, that is what you said.
02:10Only if I fail the test, but maybe I won't. Maybe your cooking will do for me first.
02:16I'm scared, Phil. Scared of losing myself. Of becoming different.
02:37And more than that, I'm scared that I won't even notice. This makes me feel less scared.
02:47It means that every, every now and then I can, I can do this cognitive test, you know, when I feel worse or have a bad day, like today.
02:59And check that I'm okay.
03:03And what if you ain't? What if you ain't? You're talking about killing yourself because you can't answer one poxy question.
03:09It's almost like you want to do it.
03:11No, no, of course I don't. But these are facts that I know off the top of my head, or should do if I'm of sound mind.
03:23I'm not saying I'd, I'd, I'd do it straight away, but I, I would start making preparations.
03:30Yeah, to kill yourself. To kill yourself. We'll call it what it is, yeah?
03:35I know how hard this must be for you. What you went through in the arches and before with your mum.
03:46No, I don't. I don't. Just don't talk about her. Now, you said this, this video was made at Christmas.
03:55It was all that stuff you said in the arches that night. Telling me to keep going.
04:00Cos life, life was worth living, that I should keep fighting. You didn't, you didn't believe a word of it, did you?
04:04I meant every single word. How could you, when you was already planned it?
04:07Our situations aren't the same! There's no getting better for me!
04:12Well, in that case, why don't you just top yourself, eh? Why don't you just stop yourself and get it over and done with? You!
04:20You are a hypocrite, do you know that? You're a hypocrite! And I'll wash me hands here!
04:43Got an interview?
04:45I've just had a phone call from the mayor's office. They want a photo-op at Paradise Park. Me and the mayor, breaking ground.
04:54Look, Nick, I know you've had some reservations about the job. Cos of Dartford and Harry. But that is all behind us. And this, this is gonna be massive for us.
05:06Yeah, of course. Let's just hope it goes ahead, eh? Cos these things, they have a tendency of falling through.
05:14Well, we'll start work later this week.
05:17This week?
05:18Yeah. Why wait? Junior's got the groundworks team in place, the plants are on site.
05:23And Ross, well, he's as keen as mustard. He's already started hiring fellas. Everything's ready to go.
05:29You okay?
05:30Oh, yeah, yeah. I've just got an headache, that's all.
05:33Look, er, like I said, I know you've had your doubts about the whole thing, but, well, your support means everything to me.
05:42I'll tell you what, why don't you go and get your Gladbags on and come with me? It'll be a much better photo with you, innit?
05:47Nah, like I said, I've got an headache.
05:49Alright, no worries. I'll send you a pic. Me and the mayor. Spades in the ground.
05:55Mwah! See ya, bye.
05:57See ya, bye.
06:09I'm just about to lip out with the Vic. See how they're getting on.
06:13You're about to come in and see how your room is?
06:15I don't want to go back to live out the Vic.
06:18Well, come on, mate. You know we couldn't stay here forever.
06:23It's gonna be fun at the Vic. You know, there's fresh paint, squishy carpets.
06:28I don't care about squishy carpets. I like the carpets here. It's too noisy in the Vic. I want to stay here.
06:36You can't. I mean, this isn't our home. People and Lauren are gonna be moving in with their new baby, so...
06:42Suck a live on my own?
06:45No. I mean, you're family, so you belong with us.
06:51But I'll take into consideration everything you said and try and make sure it's an environment that's comfortable for you.
06:59Alright? Promise.
07:02I told you. He won't listen.
07:12Well, maybe you'll listen to me.
07:14I know it's last minute, but I was thinking we could hire a singer. Like a tribute act thing.
07:21I've seen this shirt one on Insta. Mum loves a bit of shirt, doesn't she?
07:25She's North London-based, but I reckon she'd come in to put up her a few extra quid.
07:32You're thinking about her, aren't you?
07:34Who? Mum?
07:36Avani.
07:37Dare to tell me you two were hanging out.
07:39Her old man's a nutter, but she seems alright. You should get in there.
07:43Get in there?
07:44Yeah, ask her out. What have you got to lose?
07:48My pride and our friendship.
07:51Friendship. I'm not being funny, Barn, but that's just what blokes call it when they ain't getting any.
07:57God, you are so...unevolved.
08:01She is my friend. Like, today she said that I made her feel normal for the first time in ages. That's friendship.
08:09No. That's tragic, is what that is. Seriously, Barn, if you like her, and I know you like her, why do you want to just make her feel normal?
08:19It was a compliment. She's been through a lot.
08:22Yeah, and you've been there for her, and you've been a good friend, and yada, yada, yada.
08:26But come on, Barn. Why are you just settling for being her mate? You fancy her. So ask her out.
08:39Now, that's something I haven't heard in a while.
08:49What are you doing here?
08:51Avoiding home, ignoring my messages. How else am I meant to check my little girl's okay?
08:56Then I'm fine, Dad.
08:58Look at you. Smiling and everything.
09:02Because I've just seen Barney. It made me feel a bit more like myself, I guess, so...
09:09Come here.
09:12You know I'm proud of you. Right?
09:19Dad?
09:20No.
09:21Is this, like, a moment?
09:26Is this something that I'm going to look back on years from now when you're dead, and you're gone?
09:36It's a moment, but it ain't all that.
09:41Now you're feeling more like yourself, why don't we celebrate? We could go on a trip, get you away from here.
09:51What, like, a foreign holiday?
09:56Yeah, we could, um, yeah, we can go on a short holiday.
09:59Yeah? A holiday?
10:01A short break.
10:02Okay. I'm excited.
10:04I have a thing.
10:05No, you're going to have to buy me new dresses. I'm going to need skirts, a bikini, I...
10:10Do you know what? Yeah, you're right. Let me have a think.
10:17I was just passing and thought I'd pop in and see how you are.
10:24I'm fine.
10:26So how's Hope?
10:27Oh, she's fine. Water off a duck's back.
10:30If you want me to go, just tell me to hop here.
10:35Oh, nope, sorry. Easter puns on the brains for kids.
10:39Yeah, it's an egg-citing day for them.
10:42Yeah, we've had that one a few times as well.
10:45Yeah.
10:47So, um, I actually came round to give you this, because you said you loved horror films.
10:52Oh, Night of the Living Dead is one of my faves.
10:55Oh, well, there you go then.
10:57I was thinking about it just today. There's a scene in it where the, um, the zombies are eating bodies in the back of a burnt-out truck, but actually they use roast ham smothered in chocolate sauce.
11:10I like ham. And chocolate.
11:14Well, we could put it on there if you like.
11:17Do you know, um, that would be lovely.
11:21If Kojo feels that he's ready to live alone, then we owe it to him to explore that, don't we?
11:28Even if he was ready. Renting is expensive, and we haven't made any income for months.
11:35I will find a job.
11:37Yeah, exactly. And it doesn't have to be a big place. He just, he wants to be in control of his environment.
11:44I want my own front door.
11:46Yeah.
11:47Having your own front door isn't everything, you know. Being safe is really important.
11:52And the promise I made Cobb and I, I take very seriously. It's my job. To make sure you're okay.
12:01You think I'm a child? I'm not a child. I'm a man. And that will prove it.
12:07Oh, Jo? Everything alright?
12:13My own front door. Like this front door.
12:18Yeah, I'm sorry about that. But I really should go after him.
12:21I mean, have a night if you like.
12:23Oh, no, sir. Linda, I want to see you. You got a minute?
12:26Yeah, of course. Stick the kettle on, shall I?
12:34Are you even listening to me?
12:36Yeah.
12:37So, there's this girl that I follow, right, and she went to this hotel resort type thing in Marbella.
12:41Mm-hmm.
12:42Beautiful pool, lovely food, and you could do all of these trips.
12:45Like, you could swim with dolphins, you could even go on a sunset cruise.
12:48Yeah.
12:49And do you know what else you...
12:50Ivani, yeah, that all sounds great, but when I was thinking about a short trip, I wasn't actually thinking about, you know, jumping on a plane.
12:57Oh. So then what was you thinking?
13:00I don't know, maybe a trip to Bournemouth or something.
13:04Bournemouth?
13:05Bournemouth.
13:08Dad.
13:09Where have you been?
13:10Now, I've left you about half a dozen messages.
13:13What?
13:14I don't care what you've been up to. If I leave you a message, you call me back.
13:18I respond. One hour.
13:21Dad, you told me to think about a holiday.
13:23No, I said a short break.
13:25Yeah, of my heart.
13:27Ivani.
13:29Ivani, I just don't have the money for that kind of thing right now.
13:35I don't really know why I'm here.
13:47Here in this kitchen or here on this planet? Just so I know what kind of chat we're in for.
13:52I think you know you can tell me anything after what we've been through together.
14:02Is this about Nigel?
14:03I heard what happened out there.
14:06It's about him, yeah. It's about my mum. It's about me. It's about what happened to me.
14:12He's been a big support to you, hasn't he?
14:20And after today, you're starting to see what?
14:24That he's declining?
14:26Starting to imagine him not being there?
14:29How this might end?
14:30I know. I know it's going to end.
14:32He told me.
14:37He's making plans to kill himself.
14:42We'll be all right here.
14:47We'll be all right here until someone comes to rescue us.
14:50But we'll have to work together. You'll have to help me.
14:52Now, I want you to go in and get some wood so I can void the place up.
14:55Do you understand? Okay?
14:58Oh, you don't have to watch it if you don't want to.
15:01No, no, no. It was nice having a distraction.
15:04And nothing distracts like a zombie child eating her dad.
15:12Um, thank you for coming here.
15:16Sitting with me, I appreciate it.
15:21I wasn't sure what I was going to do with myself, if I'm honest.
15:26I'll stay with you till Phil comes back.
15:28Do you know where he's gone?
15:34Hmm.
15:36Have you and Phil had a row?
15:40Oh, I hope he wasn't cross with you about what happened.
15:43He should know that it wasn't your fault.
15:45It's difficult sometimes, you know, Phil.
15:47Dealing with something like this for everyone, it's not his fault.
15:51No, but I would expect him to be supporting you.
15:55You know, like I said before, if you ever need anyone to talk to...
16:00Because I do know what it feels like to, you know, feel that you're a burden to your friends and family.
16:05I mean, there are times when I felt my illness was crushing the people closest to me, so I do understand.
16:14And you'll never be a burden to me.
16:16I never wanted to be a burden to anyone.
16:18As soon as I was diagnosed, that was my primary thought.
16:25That's why I walked away from...
16:30From...
16:34I didn't want to drag anyone down.
16:38I don't want to drag anyone down.
16:42Do you feel like you're dragging Phil down?
16:44Because, believe you me, many people have tried, but Phil Mitchell is tough as old boots.
17:01Are you okay?
17:07Yeah, I'm fine.
17:08Um...
17:11It's just...
17:13Today...
17:18I'm tired.
17:20Of course. Yes.
17:22I'll make myself scarce.
17:24And then you can...
17:26Rest.
17:28Jean...
17:32For everything.
17:38You told him to get on with it?
17:39I'm not proud of it, all right?
17:40How could you even think to say something like that?
17:41Yes, I wasn't thinking straight. I wasn't thinking at all, all right? I just...
17:43It...
17:45I suppose it hit a nerve. It hit a couple of nerves, if I'm honest.
18:00It's...
18:02But...
18:04I think about her.
18:05That night, Addie Arches.
18:07Probably think about it more than I should.
18:08But I think about what you said, and I...
18:10I think about what he said to me.
18:12You know, that he needed me to be alive.
18:15To help him get through this.
18:17And he does.
18:19But he's not even gonna try, which...
18:21Which makes a mockery of what he said before, because I...
18:24I took him seriously.
18:26But later on, late morning...
18:29In the mental health unit...
18:32I told myself that I would be there for him, to help him get through it.
18:35You know, he gave me something to hold on to, and I...
18:38I made him a promise.
18:41You know, in my head.
18:43A vow.
18:47And you feel let down.
18:50He's not trying to hurt you. He's just scared.
18:53Think about the people...
18:57Left behind.
19:00That's what you said to me.
19:02That night, Addie Arches.
19:04Think about my family.
19:07And I'm...
19:08I'm all the family he's got.
19:10And I don't...
19:11I don't want him gone, just like...
19:13Just like I didn't want my mum gone.
19:15Nothing back to me, that's why I...
19:18That's why he hit me like a dip, because...
19:21You know...
19:23What he told me, there I was.
19:25In the same house, in the same chair that I was nine years earlier.
19:28Watching some boxy film.
19:29One all the time.
19:30My mum's upstairs.
19:32Alone.
19:34And dead.
19:35In her bed.
19:37I let her...
19:41I let her down.
19:43I let her down because I let her die alone.
19:48And part of me blamed myself, and part of me...
19:52Part of me blamed her...
19:54For leaving me alone.
19:55And there he is.
19:57In that same house.
19:59Why did you come here today, Phil?
20:01I don't know.
20:02I just...
20:04Try and...
20:05Try and understand this.
20:06I don't know.
20:07Just...
20:08To talk.
20:10And I...
20:11I'm glad you did.
20:13But you know...
20:15There's someone else...
20:17You really need to be talking to.
20:18I mean why would anyone tell someone...
20:19To think about something that they really want.
20:20Just to tell them that they can't have it.
20:21Which makes no sense.
20:22Hey look.
20:23Fair enough, maybe a week in Marbs is a bit easier.
20:25I don't know.
20:26But...
20:27I don't know.
20:28I don't know.
20:29I can't understand this.
20:30Or...
20:31I don't know.
20:32Just...
20:33To talk.
20:35And I'm glad you did.
20:37But you know...
20:38There's someone else...
20:39You really need to be talking to.
20:40I mean why would anyone tell someone to think about something that they really want.
20:41Just to tell them that they can't have it.
20:43It really just makes no sense.
20:45Hey, look, fair enough. Maybe a week in Marbs was a bit too much, but I don't know.
20:50I just feel like I'm getting my mojo back, and I fancy going somewhere fun.
20:55I mean, you could come to my mum's party tomorrow, if you like.
20:59But I don't really know how much fun that would be, just me and my family and stuff.
21:05So it would be me and you watching a load of old people get drunk and dance terribly?
21:12Yeah. Yeah, that's pretty much it.
21:15Well, I could do with a laugh. I'm in.
21:20Yeah?
21:21Yeah. I'll see you later.
21:22Yeah. All right, I'll see you later.
21:29You took your time.
21:31I'll take a beer, gorgeous.
21:33Slap round the head if you don't change your tongue.
21:36So, why am I here?
21:39Do you remember telling me that Paradise Park wouldn't be dug up?
21:43They sold it for housing.
21:46They start digging later this week.
21:48Oh, I'm glad you're smiling.
21:53I need to move the body.
21:55You killed her.
22:00Not me.
22:02This ain't my problem.
22:03Oh, I think you'll find it is your problem.
22:07You buried her.
22:09You're up to your eyeballs, mate.
22:10If they find her, they'll come for you.
22:15No, I don't think so.
22:18Do you remember that diamond bracelet you lost way back?
22:24You didn't lose it.
22:26I needed some insurance just in case you've tried to pin everything on me.
22:29It's buried with the body, and if they find her, they find it, and then they find you.
22:42Right.
22:45Either you help me, or I'll take you down with me.
22:49I will tell them everything.
22:51Yeah, knock yourself out.
22:53No sign that I was ever there, is there?
22:56No motive.
22:57Nothing.
22:59So.
23:03Dollar.
23:04Fane.
23:05Cowgirl.
23:06What three words?
23:08That's where she is.
23:10I'd crack on if I were you.
23:11Poxy thing.
23:33How long have you been stood there?
23:35I don't know.
23:37I wasn't timing myself.
23:39Alright, what can I do for you?
23:40I want you to give me a job.
23:43Alright.
23:44What, so you just walk in here and ask for a job?
23:46How can I get a job if I didn't ask?
23:50Yeah, fair point.
23:52Do you know anything about cars?
23:53I know everything about cars.
23:55Back in Ghana, I used to pay a car for my uncle's car business.
24:01Now I need a job, so I can make money to pay for a flat, and she'll call me that I'm independent.
24:07Well, that's good motivation right there.
24:08If we need anyone, I'll be in touch.
24:12How will you be in touch?
24:14I don't know.
24:15I'll come round your house and knock.
24:17Right.
24:18Well, I'll wait for your knock.
24:21Good luck fixing that alternator, mate.
24:23No, mate, it's the start of my lap.
24:25Where you try and turn it over, multiple clicks, alternator.
24:33Now, why didn't I think of that?
24:35Maybe it's because you're not as good with cars as I am.
24:39Do you know what?
24:42I'm going to be run off my feet tomorrow.
24:44You fancy helping me out?
24:45Time for a quick chat.
25:07Really?
25:08Why?
25:10Couldn't help hearing what you said before, outside with your daughter.
25:15Hey, look, there's no need to be embarrassed, you know.
25:17It's tough times for everyone right now.
25:19I might know why you can make a little extra cash if you want.
25:24I thought you got out of a drug game.
25:25I did.
25:27Don't touch drugs no more.
25:30This is just a little job that I can't do on my own.
25:34Big, strong man like you.
25:37Well, you wouldn't break a sweat.
25:44Suit yourself.
25:46You know where I am if you change your mind.
25:55Noage.
26:17Noage.
26:22Noage.
26:55Nigel?
27:21Homeless loser, innit?
27:25No.
27:26Not what?
27:27Homeless or a loser?
27:28What's in the back?
27:29Perfect.
27:30Let go!
27:31Let go!
27:32Let go!
27:33Come on!
27:38It's a great storm.
27:40Let go!
27:41Let go!
27:42Let go!