Knock me up!

I feel like a complete slut, I take photos and videos of myself and all types of ways for random people I don't know at all I'm so naive and stupid it makes me want to kill myself like literally I really want to commit suicide I've been thinking on what's the point of life to be honest

Just for some reason I don't understand but I trust them I see them as a friend someone trustworthy sometimes when I talk to them

There's this one guy I made a furry version of him
For some reason I see him so much as a friend when he's a pedophile I know he's a pedophile I sent him bad things of myself but for some reason I trust him I like him and I don't understand why and I feel so fucking stupid

And I just want to show people myself to show myself off sometimes but those are most of the times I'm going fucking crazy because of all the bad shit I've done
But I just love showing myself off I like doing sexual stuff with people that are okay with it
Just they oftenly give me uncomfortable
They will always remind me they're pedophiles and most of them only care about me to jerk off

That's the part that hurts


That's what's about them that keeps me still self aware of what the hell I'm doing for them


For nothing in return
Nothing positive