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“It goes straight down to the memory lane.” When Bhuvan Bam opened up about dealing with the emotional upheaval of losing his parents.
Transcript
00:00For his passing, he got a brain stroke two years ago.
00:03And I knew that he's gone.
00:04S**t, I can't live like this.
00:06I don't think about it, ma'am.
00:07It's no use.
00:30Especially when it's a group of friends, people around you are smoking, drinking, you don't
00:37do both.
00:38And I'm just…
00:39Why?
00:40Did you make a decision in your youth that you won't do this?
00:46Baba used to smoke, right?
00:48Baba used to smoke his Royal Stag.
00:50So that's what he did.
00:52I saw him smoking his Royal Stag for the rest of my life.
00:56And I was…
00:57I think…
00:58I wasn't even in 10th grade.
00:59I was in 8th or 9th grade.
01:00And then I had a pattern at home that I have to open the bottle after 6 o'clock.
01:09Because with age, it started getting worse.
01:13Then BB ke Vines happened.
01:16And it went worse.
01:18Then it became like, if you don't drink in joy, when will you drink?
01:22I thought, this is wrong.
01:24I thought it would stop after a while.
01:27But it didn't stop until he had a brain stroke.
01:30Oh God!
01:31Before his passing, he had a brain stroke 2 years ago.
01:35He didn't get up only.
01:37And I knew that he's gone.
01:39After the surgery, the doctor said…
01:41No, we said…
01:42We said that alcohol…
01:45We think alcohol is the reason.
01:48Because I assumed that he must have fallen somewhere.
01:53So, they did a surgery.
01:54And for good…
01:56I mean, till the time he lived then,
01:58One side of his skull was removed.
02:02So, he had this bump here.
02:05There's a photo that I put on Instagram.
02:07There's a bump there.
02:08My house was exposed to everyone.
02:11Okay.
02:12Everyone.
02:13There was always a queue outside my house.
02:16And I had…
02:17After BB ke Vines picked up, I had stopped going in my balcony.
02:21Because there would always be 60-70 people there.
02:25Be it 2 am at night, 3 am at night.
02:27In the meantime, there were clashes inside the house.
02:30Begging him not to scream.
02:33I mean…
02:35It was a chaos inside the house.
02:37So, that cycle never stopped.
02:39Then I decided,
02:40I can't live like this.
02:42I have to shift houses.
02:43Everyone knows you.
02:45Of course, during the pandemic, we all know you've gone through a lot of grief.
02:50With your parents passing away.
02:52Have you been able to process it?
02:54Have you been able to process it?
02:57Never.
03:00That's why I don't even talk much about it.
03:02Because the lane that I don't want to go,
03:04Because that lane is straight down.
03:06It's a spiral.
03:08That spiral comes once in two weeks.
03:12Or sometimes it comes.
03:13First of all, it comes on the best days.
03:16What should I say?
03:18It's right.
03:21It's done.
03:25Good.
03:26I don't think about it.
03:28There's no point.
03:30Then?
03:31Look, I'm asking because I feel like
03:34it's important that you process.
03:36I'll look for it sometime.
03:38I don't know.
03:39Not now.
03:40It might take some more time.