Summer Solstice (2023)
Summer Solstice (2023)
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00:00:00The surgery. What can I say about it? Other than that, it changed everything. All it took
00:00:18was my whole life. All that pain. All that struggle. And 8 hours under anesthesia. I
00:00:35went from a caterpillar to a butterfly. And now, I'm me. Can't you see? I'm finally me.
00:00:53Can't you see me for who I truly am? What more do I have to do? Okay, thanks. That's
00:01:01enough. Uh, sorry. No, that was great. Thanks for that. Thank you. As you know, the casting
00:01:09call is for a transgender male or transgender female. Just for our records, which one are you?
00:01:15Oh, uh, um, trans man. Trans male. Trans man. Great, thanks. We'll be in contact.
00:01:26Hey, I just got out of the audition, which was a little... Yeah, on that front, bad news. Wait,
00:01:48they already passed? I was just up there 30 seconds ago. Yeah, sorry, Leo. They said they're
00:01:57going in a different direction. Different direction. Well, at least they're efficient.
00:02:02Onwards and upwards. Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're confirmed. The call
00:02:09back? Yep, the call back. It's Monday, 2 p.m. at the production offices. They want you to read
00:02:14the same scene, so I'll send you the size. I already have it memorized. Wonderful. You're
00:02:19gonna kill it. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zip. Got it. Are you okay?
00:02:48Yeah, I'm just... Remember, Leo, you are a worm. You're not pretending to be a worm, okay? Loosen up.
00:03:18So, I'm auditioning for this teen movie. Really? That's awesome. You're gonna be like a vampire?
00:03:30I mean, I'm gonna be a human. Oh, okay. But I might turn into a vampire, like, later on.
00:03:48Hi. Sorry I'm late.
00:04:18I feel like I came this close to booking. My agent said they pinned me. That's fantastic.
00:04:41Be fantastic to book, but... Yeah, how was your audition? They passed, but I do have this call
00:04:52back for... The serious regular thing? Yeah. Leo, that's great. Yeah, I feel really... Do you see my
00:04:58shirt? Oh, um... Oh, there you go. Would you want to, um, go to this reading my friend's doing this
00:05:10weekend? Sure. But not, like, as a date, right? Totally. Because I don't want to ruin our dynamic.
00:05:22I think we work really well together as scene partners. I definitely wouldn't want to mess up
00:05:28our classroom chemistry. Good. I'm glad we're on the same page. What are you doing tonight? I've
00:05:44got a date. Cool. What are you up to? Uh, going to a friend's party, I think. Fun. Yeah.
00:05:55Hello? Surprise! Surprise. Squirrel! Squirrel. You gorgeous creature.
00:06:22Ah! You look so different! A year in vitamin T will do that. Vitamin T? Testosterone. Oh my god,
00:06:32right. Of course, of course. Come on in. Okay. Yeah. You really don't have to roll out the red
00:06:43carpet. I'm only staying a night. That's fine. Well, thank you. So, what are you doing in New
00:06:52York? Just passing through. You know, living my usual nomad life during the summer. And when I
00:06:58realized that I'd be driving through the city to go upstate, I couldn't resist. And I think you
00:07:06should come with me. I couldn't. I'm not taking no for an answer. No, really. No, really. I really
00:07:19can't. I really can't. What? Eleanor. I am not going. I'm taking it right away. What?
00:07:49Oh, hey. You want me to clear up? Nah. We used to change in front of each other all the time,
00:08:08right? Great. Coffee? Oh, yes, please. So I hear nothing for three weeks. And then out of nowhere,
00:08:25out of the blue, I get a call from a new number. And he said, Oh, sorry, I dropped my flip phone.
00:08:31Flip phone? In a bucket of paint at an art gathering. What the fuck is an art gathering?
00:08:38And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram. And he was like, yeah, I did it for my
00:08:42iPad. So? So I kept fucking him until he disappeared again. You really know how to pick
00:08:51him. I'm nothing if not consistent. Are you? At least I'm consistent in my inconsistency.
00:08:59But you and Will are good? Oh, yeah. I'm glad we got back together. He's
00:09:06less awful than the other guys I've been with. A glowing compliment. You know what I mean?
00:09:12What's he up to? He was on part of the road trip. We actually did a project together,
00:09:17combining his drawings, my photographs. It was very romantic. What's the project?
00:09:23People and signage, speed limits, stop signs, public spaces, private life, all these little
00:09:33commandments everywhere. Still not fully formed yet. But yeah, how's life as a Broadway hoofer?
00:09:40Oh, you know. No, I don't. Give me all the juicy details.
00:09:44I do have this callback for a serious thing.
00:09:48Leo, that's huge. I hope so. I mean, it would feel really good to book something.
00:09:55And then I could say my oldest friend is the Leo Mark. Eleanor, stop. Don't forget about me
00:10:00when you're famous, OK? Right. I mean it. I won't. Good.
00:11:01Wow. It's lovely. Friends of friends in high places.
00:11:21And they're just letting us stay here? Yeah, I met her at an arts residency and
00:11:27Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.
00:11:40Dips.
00:12:27Sit with me.
00:12:38You should put on a bathing suit. Sun feels so good on my skin.
00:12:42I'm good as I am. Suit yourself.
00:12:57So. Hey, this is well, you know what to do.
00:13:15I think we should go shopping. I've got the urge to splurge. Sure.
00:13:36Oh, dear.
00:13:46Do you want to try anything on? I mean, it's a woman's store.
00:13:50Ah, right. Right. Sorry. Sorry.
00:13:58Oh, she's cute. Yeah.
00:14:05I remember when we used to go to Savers, we'd get, what, ten pounds of clothes for ten dollars.
00:14:18I still have some of that stuff. Some really good shit. OK.
00:14:24Oh, what do you think? It's nice. Nice.
00:14:30Oh, I'm not an expert on women's fashion. It is cute. Flattering?
00:14:37Sure. Sure. Well, I like it. Will you check the tag and see how much it is?
00:14:51Sixty five. Woof.
00:14:55We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto? No, we're not.
00:14:59Should we steal it? What?
00:15:04We can put it in my bag. Eleanor.
00:15:09I'm kidding. Right. Right.
00:15:12I'm going to wear it out, though.
00:15:21Eleanor?
00:15:30Were you actually joking? Of course.
00:15:33We're not in college anymore. I can afford it. Right.
00:15:51I mean it. You have family in me.
00:15:56Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:15:59You don't have to be blood to be family. Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:16:05Whether you like it or not, we're both pretty connected.
00:16:08Yikes. Sorry.
00:16:12Was that for your callback? Yep.
00:16:15Dialogue's a little much, huh? I guess. I don't know.
00:16:19I think it's kind of nice. Totally.
00:16:26It's just nice to have a character that's not just, you know,
00:16:31talking about transitioning the whole time. Right.
00:16:35Well, whenever you want to practice, I am ready.
00:16:38I'm going to draw upon my long and storied career as a chorus member
00:16:42from my sixth grade production of Oklahoma.
00:16:45Awkward. I forgot. An acting legend stands before me.
00:16:49Don't be shocked when I act in circles around you.
00:16:58Wine.
00:17:03I think I should move. Again?
00:17:06Again, again, again. But I thought you liked Durham.
00:17:10I do, but I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?
00:17:18What about Will? Well, Will is transportable.
00:17:23Oh, sorry.
00:17:34So, moving?
00:17:37It's always a thought. You know me.
00:17:40Do the thing. What thing?
00:17:45You know. Squirrel! Squirrel!
00:17:49Oh, you're a learner.
00:17:53I never told you this in college, but you'd be holding court at some party
00:17:59and I would be hanging on the edge,
00:18:02wondering when you were going to figure out how much cooler than me you were.
00:18:06I would fantasize about doing something, I don't know,
00:18:12cool enough to keep your attention.
00:18:14Like what?
00:18:16Something impulsive.
00:18:17Like? I don't know.
00:18:20Steal a car, go for a joyride, you know, throw caution to the wind.
00:18:25We never quite did that.
00:18:27No, I didn't.
00:18:28I do remember seeing you, though, at parties,
00:18:31at your most painfully socially awkward looking at me.
00:18:36I always wondered what you were thinking.
00:18:38Well, now you know.
00:18:41Yeah, but it makes sense.
00:18:43You're an actor, you're shy in real life, but on stage you're...
00:18:49Whereas with me, well, everywhere you go it's theater.
00:18:56Yeah.
00:19:01I think we should go out.
00:19:03Oh, really?
00:19:04Yeah, it's happy hour.
00:19:05We should hit the town, have a few drinks, have a few laughs.
00:19:10I haven't heard that one since college.
00:19:12Well, it's still true.
00:19:13The afternoon is young.
00:19:16Or old, but the night is still barely nascent.
00:19:20Yes, but I am very old now.
00:19:22Let's go, please.
00:19:25Please, please, please, please.
00:19:27Sure.
00:19:27Yes.
00:19:34Come on, listen up.
00:19:58I am loose.
00:20:00I'm loose.
00:20:04I'm loose.
00:20:24We've been hooking up for a year.
00:20:27A year?
00:20:29Yeah, but we're just friends.
00:20:32Oh, really?
00:20:35Yes, really.
00:20:36I mean, if she wanted more, I...
00:20:42But I respect her boundary.
00:20:45She wants to keep it professional.
00:20:48Except when you're having sex.
00:20:51I just want someone to love me like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.
00:20:55What?
00:20:57They famously love each other.
00:20:59A lot.
00:21:00I read a listicle about it.
00:21:02Well, you deserve an epic look like that.
00:21:08I'd just be happy with something a little more stable.
00:21:18But, um, yeah, I'm totally fine with the no strings thing.
00:21:26Totally.
00:21:31Totally.
00:21:32My own arts practice is really informed by being on the road.
00:21:36Not to get too Kerouac, but the freedom of the open road really frees me.
00:21:43I love Kerouac.
00:21:45Me too.
00:21:48Go to the bathroom.
00:21:49Oh, cool.
00:21:52So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go?
00:21:5615 hours.
00:21:59Wow.
00:22:31Wow.
00:22:48So, how do they compare to your boyfriends?
00:22:52I'm not gonna, you know, size-wise put you in competition.
00:22:56Mm-hmm.
00:22:58You both have beautiful, artistic hands.
00:23:02Um, sorry, I think I'm gonna head out.
00:23:08Um, sorry, he's my ride.
00:23:11I've gotta go.
00:23:14Good to meet you.
00:23:17Bye.
00:23:27Bye.
00:23:32You know, you could have stayed if you wanted to.
00:23:34I know.
00:23:35I just hate Kerouac.
00:23:39And I'd never cheat on Will.
00:23:40It's just nice to flirt a little.
00:23:56Bye.
00:24:13You want dinner?
00:24:15No, I'm good.
00:24:16I think I'm gonna just hang out here for a minute.
00:24:20Okay.
00:24:21Night, sweetie.
00:24:26Bye.
00:25:26Bye.
00:25:28Whenever you're ready.
00:25:32If I hadn't come, what would you have done?
00:25:34Something desperate.
00:25:36No, seriously, what would you have done?
00:25:37Paid my respects and left quietly.
00:25:40These assholes are the only ones who want to turn it into a whole thing.
00:25:43You can't expect to just show up here and know nothing.
00:25:46I mean, you look like Holly Golightly for Christ's sake.
00:25:50Are you slut-shaming me?
00:25:52Maria.
00:25:53I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit, could I?
00:25:59I know that was a lot.
00:26:01What they did wasn't cool.
00:26:03Oh, threatening to have me arrested for trespassing wasn't cool?
00:26:06You know what I mean.
00:26:07You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:26:09That's not—
00:26:10Showing up here didn't fix anything for me.
00:26:13I just wanted to make sure you were okay.
00:26:17Why do you care so much?
00:26:20Because—
00:26:21Because you're my family, Maria.
00:26:24Right.
00:26:27Family.
00:26:32I don't have any family.
00:26:37I mean it.
00:26:40You have family in me.
00:26:42Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:26:45True.
00:26:46You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:26:49Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:26:54Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:26:57Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
00:27:02I messed up a line.
00:27:04No, you read them fine.
00:27:08I just thought maybe you're being a little gentle.
00:27:12Like—
00:27:13Like, where's the energy?
00:27:14The—
00:27:16Passion.
00:27:18I—
00:27:19Why don't you try the monologue again, but this time maybe like—
00:27:24Angry.
00:27:26Why would I be angry?
00:27:28Well, Maria's kind of a bitch, right?
00:27:31Kind of.
00:27:32Right. She like, doesn't listen.
00:27:34So you have to really get through to her.
00:27:36Like, really shake her.
00:27:38I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he, you know, was a gentle person.
00:27:44When he's making a point, he wouldn't be like, in her face.
00:27:47Yeah, but I feel like at this point, it'd be a really big breaking point for him.
00:27:52I think you want to wow the director, so you should just try something different, right?
00:27:59Yeah, maybe I can try it angrier.
00:28:02Yeah! Just the monologue.
00:28:04Just like, come on, like really give it to her.
00:28:06Come on!
00:28:07Yeah, I'll give you the line leading in.
00:28:17I don't have any family.
00:28:22I mean it.
00:28:24You have family in me.
00:28:25Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:28:29Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:28:33Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
00:28:38You're not perfect.
00:28:41Neither am I.
00:28:42But we're perfect in our imperfection.
00:28:46Two warped puzzle pieces that manage to fit just right.
00:28:53You fit me.
00:28:54And I fit you.
00:28:58So yeah, Rhea, you have family.
00:29:00It may not be those people in the church, but you got family standing right in front of you.
00:29:07Yeah.
00:29:09How was that?
00:29:13I think it's getting there.
00:29:15It's so weird.
00:29:17We can keep working on it.
00:29:20Fuck, I really don't want to fuck this up.
00:29:22You won't.
00:29:24We'll get there.
00:29:28And then I say, we fit, I guess, in our own misshapen way.
00:29:34And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm and we interlace fingers.
00:29:38Right.
00:29:56Might not be those people in that church, but you have family standing right in front of you.
00:30:03So?
00:30:04Um.
00:30:06Um.
00:30:07Honestly?
00:30:08Yes, honestly.
00:30:10Why are you yelling?
00:30:11I have literally no idea.
00:30:13My friend gave me all these directions and now I'm totally lost.
00:30:17You were fine before.
00:30:19Look, just get out of your head and don't run lines with her again.
00:30:27I kind of wish it was just you and me up here.
00:30:31Oh yeah?
00:30:32Yeah.
00:30:35That's sweet.
00:30:37Is everything okay?
00:30:40I'm happy to run lines and stuff, but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.
00:30:48Oh yeah.
00:30:50That's, I mean, I'm cool with that.
00:30:54Neither of us wanted anything, right?
00:30:56Yeah.
00:30:57But I guess now I want something with this guy.
00:31:01So.
00:31:03I hope that's okay?
00:31:05Okay.
00:31:06Of course.
00:31:07Thanks for being so chill.
00:31:09And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend.
00:31:13Bye.
00:31:26Leo?
00:31:29Coming.
00:31:35Are you okay?
00:31:41You look like someone died.
00:31:44No, I'm good.
00:31:48Farm store?
00:32:05Oh, these are gorge.
00:32:14It's a potted plant, so.
00:32:17Put it in your hair.
00:32:22Hi.
00:32:25How are vegetables so expensive?
00:32:28Inflation.
00:32:31Fuck.
00:32:32What?
00:32:33Just this person from acting classes here.
00:32:36Don't look, Eleanor.
00:32:38Why can't you say hi?
00:32:39Because he's on a really big show right now.
00:32:41So?
00:32:42And he's really good on it.
00:32:44Leo?
00:32:46Leo!
00:32:48Oliver!
00:32:49Hi, it's so good to see you.
00:32:51It's been a minute.
00:32:53So what are you doing here?
00:32:56I'm just up here for the weekend.
00:32:58Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here, so we're here like all the time.
00:33:02This is my friend, Joe.
00:33:04Nice to meet you.
00:33:05Hi.
00:33:06You too.
00:33:10And I'm Eleanor.
00:33:11Sorry.
00:33:12Sorry, this is my friend, Eleanor.
00:33:17Hi, Eleanor.
00:33:18So, how are you?
00:33:21I'm good.
00:33:22I just, I should say, congratulations on Sanford House.
00:33:25I've been watching the show and you're so wonderful in it.
00:33:29You don't have to say that, though.
00:33:31Leo was just saying how good you are in it.
00:33:34It's just a great show.
00:33:35Wait, wait, I'm having like a brain blast moment.
00:33:38Oh, yeah?
00:33:39Okay, no pressure at all.
00:33:41But you two should totally come over to my place for like snacks.
00:33:44I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers.
00:33:46It'd be so lovely to share.
00:33:47I think we have afternoon plans.
00:33:49They're easily changeable.
00:33:50Okay, so change them.
00:33:52Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer, buy a few things,
00:33:56and then we'll meet you outside.
00:33:58Hell yeah.
00:33:58All right, cool.
00:34:00Amazing.
00:34:00Okay, see you.
00:34:04What's your problem?
00:34:06I guess I, he just was like the only other trans guy in our acting class
00:34:11and we weren't that close and it kind of felt, I don't know, like there was some competition.
00:34:16Well, you're not in class now.
00:34:18No need to be competitive.
00:34:20Yeah.
00:34:21Are you annoyed with me?
00:34:22Because I seized the moment.
00:34:24If you don't want to go, we could back out.
00:34:25No, no, no.
00:34:27Actually, thank you.
00:34:29Let's do the socializing thing.
00:34:32See?
00:34:33Serendipity.
00:34:34Adventure.
00:34:58Hello.
00:35:00Are we in right?
00:35:02Yeah, it's over by the pond.
00:35:04Wow.
00:35:06No.
00:35:08What?
00:35:10Oh my god.
00:35:12Thank you, Joe.
00:35:14That looks beautiful.
00:35:18I mean, I think a lot about, you know, art's ability to create.
00:35:25I think a lot about, you know, art's ability to create meaningful change, right?
00:35:30I'm an actor because I believe movies are powerful engines for empathy,
00:35:34but sometimes I wonder what actually meaningfully changes.
00:35:38Like, I don't know.
00:35:40Can you think of a movie that has changed the course of history, really?
00:35:44Uh, Crew Jane, you know, responsible for a huge homophobic backlash against queer men.
00:35:52Oh no, Joe.
00:35:54But I love that movie.
00:35:56I mean, Al Pacino doing poppers in those tank tops.
00:36:02I don't know that one.
00:36:05But I'm sure it's better than what you've been auditioning for, am I right?
00:36:10I guess.
00:36:11You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:36:14Come on, Leo.
00:36:15That's not what I...
00:36:16Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:19I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:36:23You know the lines?
00:36:24Yeah, uh, I auditioned.
00:36:28Wow, that is...
00:36:30Yeah, it's just so crazy.
00:36:31We went in for the same part.
00:36:33Oh, they already passed on me.
00:36:37Yeah.
00:36:38So sorry.
00:36:40It's fine.
00:36:40I'm actually really glad that you're up for it.
00:36:44When Leo first read it, he was so quiet, but I'm trying to work with him and, you know,
00:36:48try to get him to be a little angry, you know?
00:36:50I kind of thought of AJ as a sort of gentle guy.
00:36:55Huh.
00:37:00Joe, remind me the name of this cheese?
00:37:02Uh, Camembert.
00:37:04Do you eat this?
00:37:06Yeah.
00:37:06Yeah, you can.
00:37:11Why didn't we talk about this kind of stuff when we were in class together?
00:37:14I don't know.
00:37:15I mean, we should have just been doing this the whole time.
00:37:19Yeah, right?
00:37:19Leo said you guys were a little competitive with each other.
00:37:22Eleanor.
00:37:23No, it's true.
00:37:25We were.
00:37:25I mean, we were competing for, like, the scraps of roles they were throwing our way, but
00:37:31it all feels really stupid now.
00:37:34It does.
00:37:36Well, we're talking now.
00:37:39Cheers.
00:37:40Cheers.
00:37:40Oh my god, this pool is everything.
00:37:43It was, it was, it was, uh, actually a little traumatizing.
00:37:46Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.
00:37:50Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.
00:37:52What about you?
00:37:52What do you do?
00:37:53I'm a photographer.
00:37:55I teach during the year and I travel every summer.
00:37:58Okay, that's enviable.
00:38:01It's nice to be free in that way.
00:38:03So what college do you teach at?
00:38:06Oh, Eleanor teaches, like, at this really amazing high school.
00:38:09Oh, that's so cool.
00:38:11I mean, it must be really interesting to work with people that age.
00:38:14Yep.
00:38:14Eleanor has been living in Durham for, like, two years now,
00:38:18has this really cool boyfriend who's also an artist,
00:38:20and they went on this road trip together.
00:38:22Yep. Okay, how was that?
00:38:25Really romantic.
00:38:26He painted and I photographed.
00:38:30But I thought he was drawing.
00:38:31Oh, drawing.
00:38:33Yeah, he usually is a painter, but because we were on the road,
00:38:36he was drawing because of the supplies and stuff.
00:38:39I was just texting him yesterday and he said
00:38:41he was really happy to be back home with his materials.
00:38:43Yeah, drawing.
00:38:44Yes.
00:38:47Uh, would anyone like some wine?
00:38:49Oliver, do you want to come with me?
00:38:51I can help.
00:38:51No, no, no, you're good.
00:38:53Got it.
00:38:58You're being weird.
00:39:01How?
00:39:02I just feel like you're not being yourself.
00:39:05And what is me being myself, Eleanor?
00:39:07It just seems like you're performing.
00:39:10Maybe I'm just having a good time and feeling loose with them.
00:39:14Then why aren't you like that with me?
00:39:18I...
00:39:19I have to pee.
00:39:20I am.
00:39:41Hey, this is Will, if you know him.
00:39:42Motherfucker.
00:39:45You're right, I was being weird.
00:39:54Good thing you know my love language.
00:39:57Let's just have fun.
00:40:10Come on, Leo.
00:40:15Are you serious right now?
00:40:17What?
00:40:18Okay, what's with the t-shirts?
00:40:21What do you mean?
00:40:23I feel like you're gonna drown with all those clothes on.
00:40:28Eleanor.
00:40:30What?
00:40:32I'm wearing a shirt because I'm binding.
00:40:36Oh my god, I'm so sorry.
00:40:38Um, it's fine.
00:40:42Why didn't you tell me?
00:40:45I'm sorry.
00:40:50More wine?
00:40:52Uh-huh, sure.
00:41:15Stop laughing, my stomach is hurting.
00:41:28No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.
00:41:31Is there more wine?
00:41:33Do you sure you want more?
00:41:36Yes.
00:41:38I guess I'm driving.
00:41:40That would be great.
00:41:42Does anyone else want more?
00:41:44What is that?
00:41:45Okay, bigger laugh.
00:42:07I told the entire auditorium I was bisexual
00:42:12during my campaign for student body president.
00:42:16And of course I lost.
00:42:20Yeah, thank you.
00:42:21I don't know why I thought the revelation would help my chances
00:42:24of being student body president in 2008 in Chatham, New York.
00:42:30Wow.
00:42:33I thought you were gay.
00:42:36No, bisexual, queer, both.
00:42:41Oliver, what are you?
00:42:42Oh, uh, I'm, I'm queer.
00:42:44Everyone's queer, except for Leo.
00:42:49Um, I'm not straight.
00:42:52You're not?
00:42:53I'm queer.
00:42:56Didn't know that.
00:42:59Well, I'm just grateful to be able to live a genuine queer life.
00:43:05That part.
00:43:07Sometimes I wish I was queer.
00:43:08Oh, really?
00:43:10But do you think, like, maybe I'm queering heterosexuality, maybe?
00:43:20Well, maybe I am queer.
00:43:22Maybe you are.
00:43:25You would be the one to know.
00:43:26Well, remember when we hooked up, squirrel?
00:43:29Eleanor.
00:43:30Well, do you?
00:43:35Making out for less than a minute.
00:43:38Before you passed out drunk.
00:43:40So what, it doesn't count?
00:43:44I guess it counts.
00:43:47I mean, I guess you're queer.
00:43:48See, I'm queer.
00:43:49I'm queer, too.
00:43:50Like, why the fuck not?
00:43:52I just want to be, like, in the club.
00:43:55I want to get naked.
00:44:00Is she gonna be okay?
00:44:02Yeah, she's gonna be fine.
00:44:04Just a little too much day drinking.
00:44:08Yeah.
00:44:09Well, we should head out.
00:44:11Thanks again.
00:44:12Bye.
00:44:24Did you have fun?
00:44:27I did, actually.
00:44:32Oliver's...
00:44:34Oliver's kind of a blowhard.
00:44:38I thought he was nice.
00:44:39I thought him and Joe were smart.
00:44:42Yeah, they talk about ideas.
00:44:48I have an idea.
00:44:50What is it?
00:44:55I forgot.
00:44:58Okay.
00:45:08What?
00:45:15Eleanor?
00:45:16You may enter.
00:45:24Are you all right?
00:45:26Never better.
00:45:29Anything I can do to help?
00:45:32Sit.
00:45:38Do you still like me?
00:45:40Of course I do.
00:45:42Because I was a terrible brute tonight, wasn't I?
00:45:46I still like you.
00:45:49Okay.
00:45:52That's good.
00:46:04I think I left my phone at their house.
00:46:07Oof.
00:46:09I'll pick it up in the morning.
00:47:07Okay.
00:47:20Morning.
00:47:21Morning.
00:47:23I have her phone.
00:47:24Thank God.
00:47:26Uh, do you want some coffee?
00:47:28Oh.
00:47:30Sure.
00:47:31Okay.
00:47:38I'm not much of a hiking guy.
00:47:40No, you should definitely.
00:47:41I mean, the path is pretty clear on the property.
00:47:45You just have to, like, look out for the trail markers.
00:47:48And you should be good.
00:47:49Are you sure?
00:47:50Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today.
00:47:52But I know Joe would be happy if you swung by for just a little hike.
00:47:56Maybe we will.
00:47:58I have to think of something to do with her.
00:48:01Oh, I'm sorry about yesterday.
00:48:03She's a lot.
00:48:07It's all good, really.
00:48:09I mean, she's maybe a little territorial.
00:48:13Territorial?
00:48:15Over you.
00:48:18Protective, too.
00:48:20Huh.
00:48:21I think in kind of a sweet way.
00:48:24If a little.
00:48:26A little.
00:48:26A little.
00:48:27Yeah.
00:48:29I just, yeah.
00:48:30I still am sorry for all the unhinged stuff she said.
00:48:33You know, I don't really mind her chaos.
00:48:36Oh, really?
00:48:37Well, then maybe you and I should switch places for the weekend because
00:48:42oh, she's exhausting.
00:48:44Maybe that's why she's your friend.
00:48:47What?
00:48:49Maybe you like a little bit of dysfunction.
00:48:53Okay, um, former classmate and now my psychoanalyst.
00:48:57Um, for the record, I like simple.
00:49:01I, I like boring.
00:49:04That's, that's good.
00:49:09Is it?
00:49:10Yeah, because I'm boring.
00:49:16You absolutely are not.
00:49:19I don't want to.
00:49:24I'm usually a lot smoother than this.
00:49:28But, um, can I, can I kiss you?
00:49:32Me?
00:49:33Yeah, you.
00:49:36Are you and Joe?
00:49:38Oh, no, we're just friends.
00:49:49I've been wanting to do that since that terrible, terrible class.
00:49:55Really?
00:49:56Yeah.
00:49:57Yeah, and I'm glad to know that you like boring because I'd
00:50:04very much like to do something boring with you sometime.
00:50:19Can I call you this week?
00:50:22I would really like that.
00:50:24Yeah.
00:50:26Cool, me too.
00:50:29So you should stick around, enjoy the pool, hang out.
00:50:34I'm gonna head back up.
00:50:35We gotta head out soon.
00:50:38Yeah.
00:50:39Yeah?
00:50:39Yeah.
00:50:41Have fun.
00:50:45Thanks for the coffee.
00:50:46Thanks for the kiss.
00:50:55You were gone for a while.
00:51:08I was getting your phone, remember?
00:51:11Ah, thank you, my hero.
00:51:17I got you a nice coffee from that place down the road.
00:51:19It's a little melted, though.
00:51:21I just had a coffee.
00:51:22But it's my peace offering.
00:51:34I'm sorry about last night.
00:51:37Apology accepted.
00:51:41But maybe, don't you think those guys are just like a tiny bit pretentious?
00:51:46Eleanor, seriously, you know you sound like Colton Colfield.
00:51:49Fine, fine.
00:51:51I am sorry for getting so drunk last night.
00:51:53I honestly don't remember much, but I'm sorry for whatever happened.
00:51:57Okay, thanks.
00:51:59Cheers.
00:52:11You have family in me.
00:52:14You have family in me.
00:52:16Family in me.
00:52:19Ready?
00:52:21Yep.
00:52:24What time is it?
00:52:25Time for our big hike.
00:52:28Okay.
00:52:35Are you okay?
00:52:37You seem weird.
00:52:38Just tired.
00:52:42Do you want to run lines when I get back?
00:52:44Oh, no.
00:52:45Uh, I mean...
00:52:47No, thank you.
00:52:49Just...
00:52:50Appreciate it, though.
00:53:18I thought of a movie that changed history.
00:53:29Oh, yeah?
00:53:30The Thin Blue Line.
00:53:32Errol Morris literally solved a crime that exonerated an innocent man.
00:53:38Huh, okay.
00:53:39What happened afterwards?
00:53:42He made a lot of money doing computer and beer commercials.
00:53:45The death row guy?
00:53:46Errol Morris.
00:53:48Right.
00:53:50Which way?
00:53:53This way.
00:53:55I don't see any trail markers.
00:53:57Trust me.
00:54:00Can we just stick to the trail?
00:54:06This is the trail, silly.
00:54:18Can we take a little break?
00:54:32Yeah.
00:54:35We're having fun, right?
00:54:38I never go on hikes.
00:54:40That's your whole problem.
00:54:42What?
00:54:43You have such a rigid view of yourself.
00:54:45You say you never go on hikes, but here you are going on a hike.
00:54:49And you just don't try anything new unless someone pushes you to do it.
00:55:06Okay.
00:55:11You know, maybe what you think of as me being a coward.
00:55:20I never said you were a coward.
00:55:22Is actually me just having a little structure in my life because my whole life is a risk.
00:55:29And I don't need to, you know, act out like some theater kid just to prove a point.
00:55:36Oh, so everywhere I go is theater, right?
00:55:39Yep, just without stage.
00:55:41I'm a photographer.
00:55:43Oh, right.
00:55:44And, uh, where's the camera?
00:55:47Why are you being such an asshole?
00:55:48If you don't want to keep hiking, then go back to the house.
00:55:50Why am I being an asshole?
00:55:53Go back to the house.
00:55:54Where the hell are we?
00:55:57I think we're lost.
00:55:58Yeah, no shit.
00:56:01No, we're like lost, metaphorically lost.
00:56:06And actually lost.
00:56:08Mm.
00:56:10What are you doing?
00:56:12I'm gonna navigate us out of here.
00:56:14Not just metaphorically.
00:56:18I don't have service, Steve.
00:56:20Don't worry about it.
00:56:22Can you check if you have service?
00:56:26Eleanor!
00:56:28What?
00:56:38I only have three percent battery.
00:56:49I think we're close.
00:56:51Oh, yeah, Eleanor, where are we?
00:56:54See? We're on the trail.
00:56:55Yeah, but do we even know if we're going in the right direction?
00:56:58It's a loop.
00:57:00Okay, my phone just died.
00:57:08Are you texting right now?
00:57:09No.
00:57:10If you are texting Will with our source of life—
00:57:13I'm not texting Will.
00:57:13I haven't texted Will all weekend because I'm trying to be present with you.
00:57:18You haven't texted Will all weekend?
00:57:19Let's just try to get out of here, huh?
00:57:22So you haven't texted him at all?
00:57:24No.
00:57:25No.
00:57:26No.
00:57:28Is that like normal for you guys?
00:57:30And weren't you just saying that you were texting him yesterday?
00:57:33Okay, busybody, we broke up, okay?
00:57:36What the fuck, Eleanor?
00:57:38So you've just been lying to me all weekend?
00:57:40Well, you hide shit from me.
00:57:42You didn't want to take your shirt off and get in the water.
00:57:44Why? Because you didn't want me to know that you had neck top surgery, am I right?
00:57:48That is completely different, Eleanor.
00:57:49Oh, is it?
00:57:50You're so fucking clueless.
00:57:53I'm not clueless.
00:57:54You just don't clue me in.
00:57:57This isn't about me.
00:57:59This is about you lying to me all weekend.
00:58:01What do you want me to say?
00:58:03Tell me why you're not telling me shit.
00:58:06Okay.
00:58:11We were on the road trip for two days and I picked some stupid fight about directions
00:58:14and he just fucking left, okay?
00:58:17He hitchhiked back home.
00:58:19I mean, why should I admit to you that I'm 29 fucking years old
00:58:23and I can't seem to keep a relationship for longer than three months?
00:58:27And you have your head so far up your own ass
00:58:30with your shitty little callback for your shitty little TV show
00:58:33and all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes that you don't even like.
00:58:36Wow.
00:58:37Eleanor, just because you don't like something doesn't mean it's shitty.
00:58:41What?
00:58:42It's not like we're in college anymore.
00:58:45I don't need to follow you around and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinion.
00:58:49Okay, that's not...
00:58:51I know I'm probably not supposed to say this because it's problematic or whatever
00:58:54because I'm not allowed to have any feelings about your transition,
00:58:57but I miss how things were.
00:59:00When you...
00:59:03Who you were before.
00:59:08You really aren't allowed to have feelings about that, like...
00:59:16At all.
00:59:18So fucked, Eleanor!
00:59:24I miss you.
00:59:27I just feel so distant.
00:59:29From you now.
00:59:31It's not because I'm trans.
00:59:34It's really not.
00:59:38I don't know.
00:59:39I don't know what...
00:59:41I shouldn't be here.
00:59:42I shouldn't be in the fucking Tick-infested Blair Witch Woods fighting with you.
00:59:50Thank god.
00:59:51The house.
00:59:53Are you sure?
00:59:54Yes, I'm sure.
00:59:55Just tell me you didn't lose the car keys.
00:59:58I didn't.
01:00:04Leo.
01:00:06Leo!
01:00:08I love you.
01:00:11No, you don't, Eleanor.
01:00:15Kind of ironic, I guess.
01:00:17Seeing as it was me keeping secrets all those years being in love with you.
01:00:23And you pretending you didn't know.
01:00:25Although, I mean...
01:00:28You knew.
01:00:29You must have known.
01:00:31I didn't...
01:00:33know.
01:00:36I mean, I didn't know...
01:00:37know.
01:00:40You liked having me around as your little lapdog and...
01:00:47I'm done.
01:00:49I am done.
01:00:52That's so unfair.
01:00:55Is it?
01:00:57Yeah.
01:01:01Can you...
01:01:28I mean it.
01:01:36You have family in me.
01:01:40Fuck.
01:01:56Are you okay?
01:01:57Yeah, just clumsy.
01:02:05Let me help.
01:02:15It's our last night.
01:02:19It is.
01:02:24You shouldn't be drinking alone.
01:02:28I'm not.
01:02:36I heard you.
01:02:39Hmm?
01:02:40Like, I heard you.
01:02:41I was fucked up.
01:02:45But can I say something?
01:02:48Maybe less fucked up?
01:02:52Sure.
01:02:53I miss us.
01:02:56You miss us?
01:02:58You're the best friend I've ever had.
01:03:01Like, my best, best friend.
01:03:05And I feel like...
01:03:09you haven't been acting that way...
01:03:12or something.
01:03:15Or like, you were my best friend...
01:03:17and now you're just...
01:03:20someone else?
01:03:23I don't know.
01:03:27I'm still me, Eleanor.
01:03:31Definitely still me.
01:03:34That's good.
01:03:36Maybe it's just...
01:03:40I wish I weren't still me.
01:03:44Maybe if you just...
01:03:47accepted you a little more it would help.
01:03:49I mean...
01:03:52I always liked you as you are.
01:03:55Just...
01:03:57It's like...
01:03:58when you're not happy being you,
01:04:00that you become a little bit...
01:04:02too much of you or something.
01:04:05Yeah.
01:04:07I liked following you around in college.
01:04:12You led me out of the hole I was in.
01:04:15And you still do.
01:04:24You're welcome.
01:04:33Eleanor.
01:04:34I think you're confused.
01:04:41I am confused.
01:04:44By you.
01:04:49Okay.
01:04:50You are...
01:04:52something.
01:04:54Okay.
01:05:24Ah.
01:05:54So...
01:05:55So...
01:06:24Okay.
01:06:25So...
01:06:56Are you...
01:06:58No, yeah.
01:06:59Okay.
01:07:08Could you maybe, um, a little...
01:07:11to the left?
01:07:13Sure.
01:07:15Yeah.
01:07:26Okay.
01:07:28My hand's cramping.
01:07:30Oh, um, that should be...
01:07:32Maybe if, um...
01:07:35Yeah.
01:07:55Oh.
01:07:57Oh.
01:07:59Oh.
01:08:14Did you just fake it?
01:08:18No.
01:08:23Yes.
01:08:25Okay.
01:08:35I guess I should probably...
01:08:39go.
01:08:40Yeah.
01:08:50Eleanor.
01:08:55Oh my god, Leo. I'm so sorry.
01:09:04That was so horrifying.
01:09:07Have you ever had worse sex?
01:09:10No, even the first time wasn't this bad.
01:09:18At least it was brief.
01:09:23And now we know.
01:09:24We really know.
01:09:25And it will never happen again.
01:09:27Unless we're stuck in a cave or on a deserted island.
01:09:30Or on a long cruise ship trip.
01:09:33Or if they make another Avengers movie that's three hours long and we're stuck in the last row.
01:09:37We run out of popcorn.
01:09:46So...
01:09:48I didn't...
01:09:50ruin everything.
01:09:53No.
01:09:57I just...
01:10:01I did the thing where I sabotaged a good thing.
01:10:09And I've just been driving around for the past couple weeks,
01:10:12aiming my camera aimlessly at shit and not pressing the shutter.
01:10:17And you have a whole life that I know nothing about.
01:10:20And I know it's not your fault.
01:10:25I am a little clueless.
01:10:28But I'm learning, right?
01:10:31We're all learning.
01:10:41You want to know something weird?
01:10:45Another secret?
01:10:47Kind of.
01:10:51You know how much of a loser I feel like I am?
01:10:53You're not a loser.
01:10:55No, don't try to make me feel better.
01:10:57But here's the thing.
01:11:02I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:07Like, I'm bizarrely good at it.
01:11:10And my whole life plan was like, no, I'm an artist.
01:11:15And I was somehow embarrassed that I became a high school teacher.
01:11:17But I admit it.
01:11:22I fucking love my job.
01:11:33That's awesome.
01:11:35Pays shit.
01:11:36Yeah.
01:11:37It's exhausting.
01:11:39The principal's a scumbag.
01:11:42That sucks.
01:11:43Did I mention the pay?
01:11:44Yeah.
01:11:44I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.
01:11:48I'm sorry, too.
01:11:54Why do you care so much?
01:12:00Because...
01:12:03Because you're my family.
01:12:06I'm sorry.
01:12:09I'm sorry.
01:12:12I'm sorry.
01:12:14We're family, Rhea.
01:12:16Right.
01:12:18Family.
01:12:23I don't have any family.
01:12:26I mean it.
01:12:30You have family in me.
01:12:32Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
01:12:39You don't have to be blood to be family.
01:12:42Our bond is deeper than biology.
01:12:51Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
01:12:55Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
01:13:01You're not perfect.
01:13:04Neither am I.
01:13:06But we're perfect in our imperfection.
01:13:12Two warped puzzle pieces that managed to fit just right.
01:13:21You fit me.
01:13:25And I fit you.
01:13:27So...
01:13:29Yeah, Rhea.
01:13:32You have family.
01:13:35May not be those people in that church, but...
01:13:38You have family standing right in front of you.
01:13:44I was wrong.
01:13:46That's how you should do it.
01:13:49Gentle.
01:13:53You're really good, Leo.
01:14:38So...
01:15:08So...
01:15:38So...
01:16:08So...
01:16:38I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:44There's not much I could say
01:16:49A lot of things have changed
01:16:53It isn't quite the same
01:16:58I thought about you every night and day
01:17:02I thought about you every night and day
01:17:04Now talking's pretty strange
01:17:06We're on a different page
01:17:08It's healthier this way
01:17:10But when I look at you, I see an old friend
01:17:12I see an old friend passing through
01:17:14And when I think of you, I wanna be friends
01:17:16I wanna be your friend
01:17:18I wanna be your friend
01:17:20I wanna be your friend
01:17:22I wanna be your friend
01:17:24I wanna be your friend
01:17:26I wanna be your friend
01:17:28I wanna be your friend
01:17:31I wanna be your friend
01:17:33With you
01:17:37With you
01:17:53Can I get a mark?
01:18:01Music
01:18:03In years past
01:18:05and I pick up the phone
01:18:07To see
01:18:09see where this could go
01:18:11How could we ever know
01:18:13How could we ever know
01:18:15So lets just take it slow
01:18:17So lets just take it slow
01:18:19Tears fall
01:18:21It seems to leave out
01:18:23growth
01:18:25But captors
01:18:27aren't selfish
01:18:29What kept us on our own
01:18:34It's really come to show
01:18:38There's nowhere we can go
01:18:43But when I look at you I see an old friend
01:18:47I see an old friend passing through
01:18:51And when I think of you I wanna be friends
01:18:56I wanna be friends with you
01:19:00But when I look at you I see an old friend
01:19:04I see an old friend passing through
01:19:08And when I think of you I wanna be friends
01:19:13I wanna be friends
01:19:17I wanna be friends
01:19:47I wanna be friends
01:19:57I wanna be friends
01:20:07I wanna be friends