Art Of Love ( Romance, Thriller ) - Full Movie
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00:00:00I want to write whatever happens, even if I'm condemned to a file marked non-existence.
00:00:30You start from a void, from the euphoria of a man who has lost hope, yet persisted.
00:00:52I write with no dream of success. I'm incomprehensible to my fellow man.
00:01:01I have to put up with my neighborhood, my family, and myself without succumbing to a nervous breakdown.
00:01:12Actually, I've done little more. To survive, I write.
00:01:26I feel at peace here. I transcend my soulless life with ease.
00:01:56The Enlightenment started when the people realized they were no longer living in the Middle Ages.
00:02:07Cheers.
00:02:23Okay, so I have presented for you the seven ecstasies, the seven themes that we're going to really focus on.
00:02:31The ecstasy of the social, the ecstasy of the body, the ecstasy of information, ecstasy of time, ecstasy of the real, the ecstasy of sex, and the ecstasy of violence.
00:02:45History is a luxury of the West. Nine-tenths of humanity live on the margin of history.
00:02:52The naive illusion is that the media is controlled by those in power. Ironically, it may just be the opposite.
00:03:00We experience time and history as if in a deep coma. Predictions and foresight are the memory of the future.
00:03:12He's talking Chinese.
00:03:15You're too young to understand. It's about clandestine revolution.
00:03:20Okay, I want in two weeks a paper based on one of these themes on my desk, okay?
00:03:26Okay.
00:03:27Okay, or I'm going to jump off the tower.
00:03:30Okay.
00:03:31I want to hear it!
00:03:33Okay!
00:03:34Okay. Thank you.
00:03:39You had a hard-on.
00:03:41What?
00:03:42You had a hard-on in class.
00:03:45That's crazy.
00:03:50Okay.
00:04:14Oh, who's watching me?
00:04:21Why? Why does it seem impossible for me to have a relationship with a normal human being?
00:04:31Just as impossible it is for me to leave the island, so...
00:04:38Today everything hurts, and yet I feel at peace.
00:04:43The habit of pain.
00:04:45I don't feel its constant buzzing or burning.
00:04:50I don't feel it.
00:04:56Hola. This is your ex-girlfriend, Julia.
00:05:01Haven't seen you in some time.
00:05:03Javier misses you.
00:05:05I thought maybe we could play family.
00:05:09Next Saturday?
00:05:20How can we leave this city, this time of night, and forgetfulness?
00:05:50I write on pavement, on paper, and on toilet paper.
00:06:12I came to search for you, but did not want to find you.
00:06:18Read me. Decipher me.
00:06:21I will be back on Wednesday at 12.
00:06:24I hope to see you without talking.
00:06:27I prefer to read you, and you read me.
00:06:47I love you.
00:07:17That was the exit.
00:07:40You just missed the exit.
00:07:42You should have turned right.
00:07:45Now it's too late.
00:07:58Told you, it was the car of Kukawas.
00:08:01You wasted half a morning in this.
00:08:03Yes, I did it on purpose.
00:08:05I told you, we needed to leave early.
00:08:08So why don't you go inside with him, and I'll park the car and meet you there.
00:08:13Okay, let's go.
00:08:44Hello.
00:08:56We look at rings we will never buy, and make travel plans for places we will never visit.
00:09:08Mommy, those are for you.
00:09:14Oh.
00:09:22So, this crazy is following you, without measuring her words.
00:09:28Some kind of intellectual seductive manipulation.
00:09:32I didn't say that. I don't even know if it's a man or a woman.
00:09:36I thought you said it was a woman.
00:09:38I never said it was a woman.
00:09:40So, why are you even telling me this?
00:09:43I don't know.
00:09:45Obviously, I had to tell someone.
00:09:47So I'm just someone.
00:09:52Stop.
00:09:53We're never going to be more than just a handful of needs in search of a resolution we're both incapable of fulfilling.
00:09:59It's just...
00:10:00Here you go again with that mumbo-jumbo word justification for us not being together.
00:10:04Mommy, stop.
00:10:05Julia.
00:10:06Sorry, Julia, I can't listen to your pain.
00:10:09It doesn't belong to me.
00:10:14This was... This was just a big mistake.
00:10:21You know what? Stop the car.
00:10:23No, please. Come on. Come on.
00:10:26Stop the car.
00:10:27I'm not going to leave you here.
00:10:28Please stop the car.
00:10:33Stop the car.
00:10:34Alright, just calm down. Calm down.
00:10:37Okay. Okay. Wait. Wait.
00:10:39Mommy.
00:10:40Hang on. Hang on.
00:10:42Mommy.
00:10:43Wait.
00:10:44Stop.
00:10:45Hold on. Hold on. Wait.
00:10:57Mommy. Mommy. He's really, really mad.
00:11:00He'll be okay out here. Don't worry. He'll be home soon.
00:11:05Passing stop.
00:11:30Don't forget the glasses.
00:11:34Okay.
00:11:42Here. Here.
00:11:43Yeah.
00:11:52Come on.
00:12:04Too bad he isn't yours.
00:12:35Mommy.
00:12:53Mommy.
00:13:00Mommy.
00:13:01Mommy.
00:13:31Hey.
00:13:34Wake up.
00:13:37Wake up.
00:13:39Come on.
00:13:42I can't let Javier see you in my bed.
00:13:44Come on.
00:13:48I'll lose my alimony.
00:13:51Here.
00:14:01Come on.
00:14:32I shouldn't kid myself that the sender of the message is a woman.
00:14:37A woman I could fall in love with.
00:14:40I've been dying a bit every day.
00:14:42I've been dying slowly every day of my life.
00:15:01Paying attention to another human is the purest and rarest form of love.
00:15:07Master.
00:15:17Excuse me. Did you see anybody writing on the pavement there?
00:15:21Right there on the pavement. Did you see anybody writing?
00:15:31No.
00:15:32Let me take a look.
00:16:00I don't like simpletons.
00:16:02would have disappeared from the face of the earth.
00:16:05I hate that great part of humanity called normal,
00:16:10which each day destroys my world.
00:16:13I hate the people they call good-natured,
00:16:15because, given the opportunity,
00:16:18they have the potential of doing extraordinary evil.
00:16:22♪♪
00:16:25Wait a minute.
00:16:27I know this.
00:16:29♪♪
00:16:38No, no, no, no, no.
00:16:39I know this.
00:16:40I know this.
00:16:41What is this?
00:16:42Wait a minute.
00:16:44♪♪
00:16:56Ha, ha, ha, ha!
00:16:58And we carry it on.
00:17:02That's right.
00:17:04♪♪
00:17:08Hello?
00:17:10Are you there?
00:17:11Could it be Julia sending me messages?
00:17:14She knows my taste,
00:17:17my place of work.
00:17:20Are you there?
00:17:24Are you listening to me?
00:17:27Hello?
00:17:30Can I bring Javier by tomorrow?
00:17:33Better not be Julia.
00:17:35Are you there?
00:17:36Yes.
00:17:37Can I bring Javier by tomorrow for a couple of hours?
00:17:40I...
00:17:41No, no, no, no, not here.
00:17:43Not here.
00:17:44I, uh...
00:17:45You're all right?
00:17:46Yes, yes.
00:17:47I, uh...
00:17:48Why don't you bring Javier to my friend Diego's place tomorrow?
00:17:52Because I'm checking in on some renovations
00:17:54I'm doing in his house.
00:17:55You're sure you're all right?
00:17:57Yeah, yeah, sure.
00:17:58Listen, I'll take care of him.
00:17:59Don't worry.
00:18:00Okay?
00:18:01Okay.
00:18:07I have only two things to say.
00:18:09One, I'm really sick and tired
00:18:13of using the term humanity
00:18:16to refer to old people.
00:18:18Manity.
00:18:19Why not just use men and women?
00:18:22Truly the words and half of the human race
00:18:25would be grateful.
00:18:28And I will finish with a thought
00:18:31from the French philosopher Derrida.
00:18:33Derrida?
00:18:34What is she saying, Derrida?
00:18:36Forget logic.
00:18:38It is caught in the conflict
00:18:40between truth and lies.
00:18:50Thank you, Professor Carmen Lindo.
00:18:57Our past is a proud reminder
00:19:00of our solid commitment
00:19:02to the development of educated citizens.
00:19:05Since 1903, we have graduated highly skilled students
00:19:09prepared to compete successfully
00:19:12in a complex world.
00:19:14The future is full of great opportunities
00:19:18to continue our dedication,
00:19:20to carry on our mission of excellence,
00:19:24to celebrate our accomplishments
00:19:27as part of our life.
00:19:33Of dreams.
00:19:37Who is stalking me?
00:19:39How do they know where I live, work,
00:19:42even the contents of my dreams?
00:19:49Nora, your application is missing page 10.
00:20:01I knew that only an exact copy
00:20:03could guarantee the truth.
00:20:06I knew that only an exact copy
00:20:08could guarantee the truth.
00:20:09It must be Kafka.
00:20:13Excuse me, did you see somebody
00:20:15come into my office?
00:20:17No.
00:20:25Forget about him.
00:20:26No chance with that man.
00:20:27We've tried.
00:20:35How could someone fire a random shot
00:20:38and hit the target?
00:20:40Who could know how my brain works?
00:20:44How could a message express my inner feelings?
00:20:53I've kept people at a distance all my life.
00:20:57Now I yearn for someone I've never met.
00:21:00Xavier.
00:21:01Xavier, where are you?
00:21:05Hide and seek, you hide, I seek.
00:21:16I used to play this game with my friend Diego
00:21:19when we were kids.
00:21:21I used to play this game with my friend Diego
00:21:24when we were kids.
00:21:26I used to play this game with my friend Diego
00:21:29when we were kids.
00:21:30He's in Argentina.
00:21:32Where are you, Javier?
00:21:34Who's that?
00:21:36Who hit my butt?
00:21:38Who's the little butt monster?
00:21:40Where is he?
00:21:53The irony doesn't escape me.
00:21:56A dialogue that begins with another writer's words.
00:22:26Game on.
00:22:56Game on.
00:23:11No.
00:23:17You have not understood anything.
00:23:20Tomorrow on...
00:23:27Search for me until you find me.
00:23:32S.W.
00:23:34S.W.
00:23:38S.W.
00:23:49Xavier William.
00:23:52Simon...
00:23:54What?
00:23:55No, Simon.
00:23:57Simon William.
00:23:59Simon William.
00:24:01Simon William.
00:24:03Simon William.
00:24:11I want to know.
00:24:17How is he searching for me?
00:24:27How is he searching for me?
00:24:58You are going to have to come in to see for yourself.
00:25:01I don't keep a file on my books.
00:25:04Yes, it is in as good an alphabetical order as I can manage.
00:25:09Good day. Adios.
00:25:11And fuck you.
00:25:13We are closed.
00:25:18What do you mean, closed?
00:25:20You deaf?
00:25:22No, I'm not sore.
00:25:26The door was open.
00:25:28We are closed for inventory.
00:25:30Well, how am I supposed to know that?
00:25:37A ghost or the wind?
00:25:39Okay, listen, I am... I need your help.
00:25:42It's very important.
00:25:44Important to you, huh?
00:25:46Obviously.
00:25:50Listen, did someone leave something for me here?
00:25:53A message from a young girl.
00:25:55Glasses, short hair, 1920...
00:25:58No one leaves messages.
00:26:00Are you sure?
00:26:02Of course, my heart.
00:26:04They said it was here somewhere.
00:26:06Please.
00:26:08Go ahead. Help yourself.
00:26:11The other room.
00:26:23Okay.
00:26:37See my mail?
00:26:54$2.00.
00:26:57A gift?
00:27:01Anything else?
00:27:03Who sold you this book?
00:27:05I don't understand.
00:27:07Who sold you this book?
00:27:09I don't know. Someone...
00:27:15Let me see.
00:27:17Let me see it.
00:27:19Let me see.
00:27:21Let me see it.
00:27:27A woman.
00:27:29A femme.
00:27:31When... When did she come?
00:27:34Several times. She buys other things.
00:27:37When was she here exactly?
00:27:39What is she like?
00:27:41When did she give you this book?
00:27:43That don't count.
00:27:45Maybe...
00:27:47A week ago.
00:27:49More than a month.
00:27:51More than a month?
00:27:55You know, you are crazy.
00:27:58Am I right or what do you expect?
00:28:02Please.
00:28:04Please, do you know her?
00:28:06Your name?
00:28:08Do you have a receipt?
00:28:13I'm sorry. It is crucial.
00:28:18Life watchers.
00:28:22Let's see.
00:28:35See?
00:28:36There it is. Simone Weil.
00:28:38No, no. That's the title of the book.
00:28:40No, that is her name.
00:28:42No, that's the title. Look.
00:28:44No, that is her name.
00:28:50All that matters to me is numbers, not names.
00:28:53It's three books.
00:28:55Trois livres.
00:28:57She bought two other French books.
00:28:59Deux et plus.
00:29:06You see? That is her signature.
00:29:09I pay five dollars.
00:29:11She signed.
00:29:13And see how it is in black and white?
00:29:15Why would she not write her real name?
00:29:18Why?
00:29:37He's reading the book.
00:29:39Yeah. I need to bring him something.
00:29:41I'll get it.
00:30:01You like Simone Weil?
00:30:05What?
00:30:08You like Simone Weil?
00:30:11Oh.
00:30:14I...
00:30:16Here.
00:30:41Yum, yum, yum.
00:30:47The oldest question I've been asked in my life.
00:30:52Is she messenger or sender?
00:31:12Page 46.
00:31:27Simone Weil was not aware of the carnal nature of everyday life,
00:31:31nor was she aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:31:36Nor was she aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:06She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:11She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:16She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:21She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:26She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:31She was not aware of the conventions and rituals of social behavior.
00:32:36How could I not dream of love with a body made of words?
00:32:53Hi, I'm Simone. About time I present myself.
00:32:57Please forgive me if I had created a great inconvenience.
00:33:01I can't see you till Thursday, which is my day off.
00:33:04Let's meet at the bookstore in Rio Piedas by your three-in-one.
00:33:08I said hola to you, but you didn't recognize me.
00:33:125 p.m. You don't have to...
00:33:17Hi, I'm Simone. About time I present myself.
00:33:21Please forgive me if I had created a great inconvenience.
00:33:25I can't see you till Thursday, which is my day off.
00:33:28Let's meet at the bookstore in Rio Piedas by your three-in-one.
00:33:32I said hola to you, but you didn't recognize me.
00:33:365 p.m.
00:33:37I may never be the same again.
00:33:41My fortress has been breached. I've never felt more a prisoner of the unforeseen.
00:33:47That's it! That's it!
00:33:52Although I counted the days and the hours, I did not want today to happen.
00:33:57I had fallen in love with the tactics of approach that seemed to work hard.
00:34:03Do you know my collection of three-in-one?
00:34:06They sold the last one.
00:34:08Who bought it?
00:34:09Sorry, I was on a break-out.
00:34:15They haven't received a purchase, but not a name.
00:34:19Sorry.
00:34:24I'm sorry.
00:34:25I'm sorry.
00:34:26I'm sorry.
00:34:27I'm sorry.
00:34:28I'm sorry.
00:34:29I'm sorry.
00:34:30I'm sorry.
00:34:31I'm sorry.
00:34:44You know how to arrive.
00:34:47Hey.
00:34:50Well, you know how to hide.
00:34:55Please forgive my entanglements.
00:35:01Using the phone again doesn't fly.
00:35:05If I had done that, you wouldn't have come.
00:35:08I've been to two of your lectures.
00:35:19Why Simone Liu?
00:35:21I like her name.
00:35:27She would study on her knees.
00:35:30On her knees?
00:35:31Yeah, she would read for hours on her knees.
00:35:34She was half insane, yet lucid.
00:35:39She never pretended to escape from her reality.
00:35:46Why play all the games?
00:35:50Come back in time, I get out of the tent.
00:35:56Ultimately, nothing can be hidden.
00:36:01Cha!
00:36:05After waiting so long for her,
00:36:07no beauty could ever compare to the one I imagined.
00:36:21Lin!
00:36:22He's here.
00:36:23Where are you going?
00:36:24Out.
00:36:26Where are you going?
00:36:30I'm going to the toilet.
00:36:32I don't feel good.
00:36:33I'm going out.
00:36:37I'm going to the toilet.
00:37:00You better eat.
00:37:02Come on, eat, eat, eat.
00:37:04Come on, come on, come on.
00:37:05Eat.
00:37:07Come on, come on, come on.
00:37:09Eat.
00:37:14Sit down, eat.
00:37:22Is it good?
00:37:23Is it good?
00:37:25It's very good.
00:37:28You don't cook.
00:37:30You don't eat.
00:37:35Come on.
00:37:46From the cold, humid and smog-filled plains of Beijing,
00:37:51from the time of the Cultural Revolution,
00:37:54Li Qiao arrived in Puerto Rico at the age of six.
00:38:00She does not allow herself to remember the mud-caked roads,
00:38:04the unending rice fields,
00:38:06the taste of boiled potatoes,
00:38:09the lap of her grandmother, a couple of songs.
00:38:13Nor does she allow herself to remember a family broken.
00:38:20This is for you.
00:38:24Thank you.
00:38:28Her father dying from cold and hunger
00:38:31because he had Russian manuals of geometry,
00:38:34an old translation of Madeleine Louvry,
00:38:37and records of Charlie Parker.
00:38:40Some Cultural Revolution.
00:38:45Keep going.
00:38:47Okay.
00:38:50All right.
00:38:52Okay, okay, stop.
00:38:58Okay.
00:39:16What do you think?
00:39:18I have no words.
00:39:23A writer has no words?
00:39:44I crave the luxury of silence.
00:39:48I've lived in noise all my life.
00:39:51From Beijing to Hong Kong,
00:39:54to our seagull, to San Huan.
00:39:59Noise in the kitchen,
00:40:01noise from the traffic,
00:40:03noise from the family.
00:40:08Can't you leave to find your silence?
00:40:13The world of Li Qiao,
00:40:15the planet of Li Qiao,
00:40:18consists of one inhabitant.
00:40:21Me.
00:40:24But it's a planet in the universe
00:40:27on the Chinese Mars.
00:40:34It's a planet where reading is a weapon of choice.
00:40:39Hmm.
00:40:46A man and a woman are transformed
00:40:50when they can hold each other's gaze in silence.
00:40:54From that moment on,
00:40:56you build a story from which you cannot back away.
00:41:01I... I must tell you.
00:41:04I'm a lesbian.
00:41:08And I must warn you.
00:41:14I'm a dinosaur.
00:41:24Oh, I have to go.
00:41:26Hurry.
00:41:38We are on a journey to where no maps exist.
00:41:50He's just coming in.
00:41:52Alfavore of Spain.
00:41:56Hello.
00:41:58Yes.
00:42:03Publication of my books.
00:42:07So you're not gonna accept my story
00:42:10because of the date of the publication of my books?
00:42:14No, no, no.
00:42:16Wait, but I thought this was an anthology.
00:42:18I... No, this is insane.
00:42:20What about Máximo Noreña?
00:42:23No, that's... You gotta be kidding me.
00:42:26You know what? That's fine. That's fine.
00:42:28Because I see what it is, okay?
00:42:30So, obviously, recognition follows some sort of whim
00:42:33or friendships or something like that.
00:42:35That's fine. That's fine. Fuck Spain.
00:42:37Puerto Rico will publish us.
00:42:39Viva Puerto Rico.
00:42:41Sí, viva.
00:42:45Gracias.
00:43:06Okay.
00:43:15So, where would you like to go?
00:43:24Are you deaf?
00:43:30I'm sorry.
00:43:32The publishers of an anthology
00:43:36just decided not to include me, so...
00:43:39I know it's no excuse,
00:43:41but you'd think I have thick skin by now, but...
00:43:49I'm sure they didn't read you.
00:43:53I... I'm sorry.
00:43:55I must have filled your head with so many questions.
00:44:00If it's any consolation, you must have done the same to me.
00:44:08There are no answers.
00:44:17I'm sorry.
00:44:23So, what would you like to do?
00:44:29Take me to your house.
00:44:33Only to promise not to...
00:44:35Breach the Great Wall of China?
00:44:38Only to promise not to...
00:44:40Breach the Great Wall of China?
00:45:08Come on.
00:45:38Come on.
00:46:08Come on.
00:46:38Come on.
00:47:08Come on.
00:47:38Come on.
00:48:08Come on.
00:48:38Come on.
00:49:08Come on.
00:49:38Come on.
00:49:51The battle to find an answer had ended.
00:49:54We went in blind, not seeing the abyss before us.
00:49:57A lesbian had fallen in love with a man,
00:50:00and he had responded.
00:50:02But she wrote the words.
00:50:05In your life
00:50:08I'm losing my vision
00:50:10These conditions got me high
00:50:14Baby, I love the mess that you got me in
00:50:17Cause you're all up in my head
00:50:19I can't get you out
00:50:20To keep me on the edge
00:50:21I don't wanna come down
00:50:23I'm not too proud to beg
00:50:24And I won't give up my ways
00:50:26Hey, hey, hey, hey
00:50:31You run me up, let me fall under
00:50:33Your embrace
00:50:35Hey, hey, hey
00:50:40Hey, take over my body
00:50:43And burn with my love in your flames
00:50:46Hey, my sweet escape
00:50:50A Chinese girl was creating a work of art
00:50:53with materials from a local pharmacy.
00:50:56This work was born from love and rage.
00:51:01Hey, hey, hey
00:51:04Hold me at last
00:51:05I've been so fabulous
00:51:06Take a chance
00:51:07This one, this one, this one, this one.
00:51:08Okay.
00:51:09We're gonna be high,
00:51:10and it's gonna be okay.
00:51:12Cause you're all up in my head
00:51:14I can't get you out
00:51:15To keep me on the edge
00:51:16I don't wanna come down
00:51:17I'm not too proud to beg
00:51:19And I won't give up my ways
00:51:21Hey, hey, hey, hey
00:51:26You run me up, let me fall under
00:51:28Your embrace
00:51:29Hey, hey, hey
00:51:35Hey, take over my body
00:51:38And burn with my love in your flames
00:51:40Hey, my sweet escape
00:51:44Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
00:51:47Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
00:51:50Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
00:51:52Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
00:51:56Love the way you love me
00:51:57Keeps me going for days
00:51:58You touch my body
00:51:59Cause I crave the taste
00:52:01Love the way you love me
00:52:02Keeps me going for days
00:52:04I can't get enough
00:52:05Cause I love the hate
00:52:06I love the way you love me
00:52:07Keeps me going for days
00:52:09I like the touch
00:52:10My body
00:52:11Dice que tú no me se vive
00:52:13Que me vas a romper el corazón
00:52:16Dice que muere tienes
00:52:18Pero yo no la puedo atención
00:52:21Dice que me tengo que cuidar
00:52:23Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:25Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:26Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:27Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:28Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:29Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:30Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:31Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:32Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:33Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:34Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:35Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:36Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:37Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:38Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:39Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:40Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:41Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:42Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:43Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:44Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:45Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:46Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:47Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:48Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:49Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:50Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:51Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:52Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:53Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:54Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:55Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:56Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:57Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:58Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:52:59Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:00Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:01Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:02Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:03Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:04Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:05Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:06Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:07Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:08Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:09Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:10Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:11Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:12Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:13Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:14Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:15Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:16Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:17Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:18Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:19Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:20Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:21Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:22Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:23Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:24Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:25Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:26Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:27Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:28Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:29Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:30Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:31Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:32Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:33Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:34Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:35Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:36Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:37Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:38Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:39Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:40Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:41Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:42Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:43Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:44Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:45Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:46Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:47Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:48Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:49Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:50Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:51Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:52Que el amor no se usa la razón
00:53:54You okay?
00:53:55Hmm?
00:53:56How about now?
00:53:57You okay?
00:53:58Hmm?
00:53:59You okay?
00:54:00You okay?
00:54:01You okay?
00:54:02You okay?
00:54:03You okay?
00:54:04You okay?
00:54:05You okay?
00:54:06You okay?
00:54:07You okay?
00:54:08You okay?
00:54:09You okay?
00:54:10You okay?
00:54:11You okay?
00:54:12You okay?
00:54:13You okay?
00:54:14You okay?
00:54:15You okay?
00:54:16You okay?
00:54:17You okay?
00:54:18You okay?
00:54:19You okay?
00:54:20You okay?
00:54:21You okay?
00:54:23You like it?
00:54:25Well, you might need this too.
00:54:38Thank you!
00:54:39Thank you!
00:54:40Thank you!
00:54:41Thank you!
00:54:47Anything for my little child.
00:54:49Anything for my little child.
00:55:04Diego, Diego.
00:55:06I got a lot to tell you, but so far, so good.
00:55:10Yeah, no, I can't right now, but let me call you back tonight, okay?
00:55:13Okay. God bless you.
00:55:20Wait, wait.
00:55:22I can't even get into my own bookshelves anymore because I put my stuff in there.
00:55:27This is pretty crazy.
00:55:30Bitch! Bitch!
00:55:33This is crazy.
00:55:35Oh, my gosh.
00:55:49They like it.
00:56:19Oh, my God.
00:56:50Wait a second.
00:56:53Wait.
00:57:01Wait. My uncle's here.
00:57:04Okay.
00:57:11So, so, so.
00:57:13This is Wenda, my great-uncle.
00:57:16This is my cousin's bag.
00:57:18This is Zhejia. I mentioned him to you.
00:57:20Please have a seat.
00:57:26I'll make you some tea.
00:57:34This is my uncle's bag.
00:57:36This is my uncle's bag.
00:57:49Do you like Chinese tea?
00:57:51Yes.
00:57:59If you drink Chinese tea every day, you'll live long and be healthy.
00:58:06You'll live 100 years.
00:58:08You wish. I'm sure you will.
00:58:12Hey! Are you crazy?
00:58:16Are you crazy?
00:58:18You're crazy.
00:58:26I'm leaving, uncle.
00:58:28I'm leaving.
00:58:34Go away, you bastard.
00:58:36You're a nuisance.
00:58:41What happened?
00:58:43Please forgive Bai. He's always been like this.
00:58:49Wenda was a notary in China.
00:58:51He studied arts.
00:58:53These are all his paintings.
00:58:55Beautiful talent.
00:58:58Do you want to have a look?
00:59:13This is what we use for calligraphy.
00:59:23This is Zen.
00:59:26I have read the Tao.
00:59:47Tao is the divine way of the universe.
00:59:52Okay.
00:59:54Why are you in Puerto Rico?
00:59:56He came with our group.
00:59:58He's not really my great-uncle.
01:00:00But I love him.
01:00:03He was a cook for our restaurant for many years.
01:00:06But he's different from the others.
01:00:08You see, he has books.
01:00:10He's a painter.
01:00:12No, you're an artist.
01:00:16Do you come to the cinema often?
01:00:18As often as I can.
01:00:21He's the only one I consider family.
01:00:24What about the other guy?
01:00:26Your cousin, Bai?
01:00:30He doesn't come.
01:00:33Something happened?
01:00:36A lot of things happened.
01:00:38But it doesn't matter anymore.
01:00:40You're leaving?
01:00:42I have to go.
01:00:44Wait.
01:00:46Take this.
01:00:48No, no.
01:00:50Goodbye.
01:00:55Nice to meet you. Thank you.
01:00:57Come back.
01:01:04Goodbye.
01:01:07Never love.
01:01:20Goodbye.
01:01:33Why didn't you translate all that?
01:01:37Too complicated.
01:01:50Goodbye.
01:02:20Goodbye.
01:02:32I didn't understand why she needed me to give myself to her.
01:02:36Why she was so insistent on possessing me.
01:02:42Past and future didn't matter.
01:02:46But I could feel the birth of terror.
01:02:49I felt on the edge of the abyss.
01:02:56Are you ever going to let me?
01:03:01Let you what?
01:03:12Let you what?
01:03:14To make love. Completely.
01:03:20Let you what?
01:03:22To make love. Completely.
01:03:40I could not continue to stare at the wall of China and not know why I couldn't enter.
01:03:46Why was I so obsessed with a woman who kept herself from men?
01:03:50I love you, boo.
01:03:54It's natural for me to want to.
01:03:58It's important for me.
01:04:01Yes.
01:04:05So then why not?
01:04:09You do everything else and you seem to like it.
01:04:13There are things that are difficult.
01:04:17Okay.
01:04:19Explain.
01:04:22I can.
01:04:24Maybe it's a Chinese thing.
01:04:26But you trust me.
01:04:28And it's different between us now.
01:04:32I know.
01:04:42If you started this game, you could stop.
01:04:48But I didn't.
01:04:59You prefer women, is that it?
01:05:05That's...
01:05:07That's not very clear anymore.
01:05:11Since I've been with you.
01:05:14Just think about it, Li Qiao.
01:05:18What could happen?
01:05:23Everything.
01:05:36I can't see you for a while.
01:05:38You're not well. I'll let you know when I'm better.
01:05:41I love you.
01:06:04I was driven by the vague hope of finding a way out
01:06:07into another lifetime in another world.
01:06:12I, like the island, am obsessed with salvation and escape.
01:06:19I felt the pain between these four walls accumulate throughout the years.
01:06:24I feel its eternity.
01:06:26When I die, my pain will live on here who knows for how long.
01:06:37I love you.
01:06:56I have more chance of saving myself in hell than in heaven.
01:07:01Come to the cinema paradise and find me in the image-making machine.
01:07:07I love you.
01:07:37Li Qiao.
01:07:45Li Qiao.
01:07:52Hello?
01:08:01Image-making machines.
01:08:04That's it, right?
01:08:10Come on. I'm here. Where are you?
01:08:28Don't let me make anything easy.
01:08:35Don't let me make anything easy.
01:09:00Excuse me.
01:09:04Excuse me.
01:09:19I'm here.
01:09:24Shit, I hate these fucking games.
01:09:31Have you seen the Chinese girl?
01:09:33Yes, Chinese girl.
01:09:35Ah, the girlfriend of Carmencita.
01:09:38Girlfriend?
01:09:40Yes, the Chinese friend of Carmelito.
01:09:42Yes, that one.
01:09:44She was here when she left.
01:09:46Do you know where she went?
01:09:49By the way, do you know when Carmen comes back from California?
01:09:56I now stand looking into the abyss of what she has not told me.
01:10:03Silence.
01:10:05Lies or truth.
01:10:19Oh, God.
01:10:23Damn it.
01:10:33Shit.
01:11:03Shit.
01:11:33Shit.
01:11:53Hot chocolate and cheese.
01:11:57My mother used to give us during hurricanes.
01:12:01I don't dare ask if she had been Carmen Lindo's lover.
01:12:08I hoped life would give us a chance to be reborn.
01:12:31It was forever.
01:12:40But reality checked in.
01:12:46And now...
01:12:49I'm...
01:12:58But reality checked in.
01:13:02Please, say goodbye now.
01:13:13I forgave you.
01:13:17In every way.
01:13:27Mama said I was silly.
01:13:32But I don't care.
01:13:35No, no.
01:13:37I forgive you for everything.
01:13:48Yes.
01:13:51Yes.
01:14:18No!
01:14:20No!
01:14:22No!
01:14:24Look at this!
01:14:26Oh, my God!
01:14:47Oh, my God.
01:15:17Oh, my God.
01:15:47Oh, my God.
01:16:17Oh, my God.
01:16:47Oh!
01:16:49Oh!
01:17:17Oh!
01:17:38Is this how you say goodbye?
01:17:44No.
01:17:47No.
01:18:12What did your cousin buy Dixie?
01:18:18No.
01:18:32He raped me.
01:18:41When?
01:18:44When I was 13.
01:18:46And when I was 14.
01:18:49And when I was 15.
01:18:55He would come to my room after I fall asleep.
01:19:01I didn't know what he was doing.
01:19:03I didn't want to know what he was doing.
01:19:07I knew it was something terrible.
01:19:11I couldn't tell Mother.
01:19:15I tried to convince myself it was something to do with love,
01:19:19like in Hong Kong pictures.
01:19:28When I was 15,
01:19:31I got pregnant.
01:19:34The owner's wife gave me some special herbs from Hong Kong.
01:19:38They locked me up in a room on the rooftop for 10 days.
01:19:46Until between fevers and spasms and hemorrhage,
01:19:55I aborted my baby.
01:19:59I aborted my baby.
01:20:12They sent me to a restaurant in San Hermano.
01:20:18And I didn't see him for years.
01:20:22I was surrounded by rumour and dirt.
01:20:32My mother died,
01:20:35thinking I had disgraced her.
01:20:42Convinced I would never be happy again.
01:20:52Even you can't give me what I took.
01:20:57That's why I'm going.
01:21:01I wanted you to know that I was willing to go to places
01:21:04that I never thought I could.
01:21:09I wanted you to know that I was willing to go to places
01:21:13that I never thought I could.
01:21:16I wanted you to know that I was willing to go to places
01:21:19that I never thought I could.
01:21:26I needed you to know that I was not in you.
01:21:31Was he?
01:21:35Was he there?
01:21:38No!
01:21:41No!
01:21:46No!
01:21:53You don't deserve my problems.
01:21:58Your book dazzled me.
01:22:00And when I saw you, I liked you.
01:22:02You can't imagine how much I enjoyed fantasising with a man.
01:22:06I had only been in love with women before.
01:22:11I never thought we could meet.
01:22:13So when it happened,
01:22:15I wasn't prepared.
01:22:19I was very alone.
01:22:24I wished something different could happen.
01:22:31I wished I could be like everyone else again.
01:22:40I don't know if the love I feel for you is a form of use.
01:22:43That's also why I'm leaving.
01:22:48Please don't try to understand or forgive me.
01:22:57I can't stay. Everything will be worse.
01:23:00Is it Carmencita?
01:23:03What?
01:23:04Carmen Lindo.
01:23:06College professor.
01:23:09She knows you.
01:23:12So you've seen her?
01:23:14I have spoken to her. She just came back.
01:23:18So that's why you're leaving me?
01:23:20No!
01:23:23So it's just a coincidence then?
01:23:25No! Like I told you in the beginning, I was a lesbian.
01:23:29I share a history with her like I share with you.
01:23:32Lee and Lindo. Like a joke.
01:23:35Don't make fun of her.
01:23:37I don't care what you think. She's my teacher and she helped me.
01:23:40Now you know my story.
01:23:41I don't know your whole story.
01:23:44And what you've told me is too late.
01:23:46I don't think you prefer that I didn't come for the first meeting.
01:23:49I wasn't substituting you for her.
01:23:53And why are you running away after what happened last night?
01:23:59Because I don't think I can live with you.
01:24:03Why not?
01:24:06Why not?
01:24:07Because I told you.
01:24:09Bai raped me and I didn't do anything.
01:24:12I didn't protest. I didn't call out.
01:24:16Because I felt I was in love with a dog.
01:24:20And because after I couldn't be with another man, I...
01:24:30Because...
01:24:33Because I...
01:24:35I don't know how to love.
01:24:37I never felt it.
01:24:40Not when I was 6, not when I was 13 and not when I was 15.
01:24:50I will never come and live with you.
01:25:07I will never come and live with you.
01:25:23He's gone.
01:25:25He didn't come back.
01:25:27He's in big trouble with the boss.
01:25:29Why? What happened?
01:25:30He got up to the roof and ran by the door.
01:25:32He can't get up.
01:25:35Big fight. We go up.
01:25:37He's heading back. We follow away.
01:25:40They took her back and ran.
01:25:46They love you.
01:26:05I love you.
01:26:20It's my fault.
01:26:24She disappeared.
01:26:27I'm sorry.
01:26:30But I love her.
01:26:33I love her heart.
01:26:37Her soul.
01:26:39But her heart...
01:26:41She's...
01:26:45You taught her well.
01:26:50She's gifted.
01:26:52Gifted.
01:27:02Gifted.
01:27:14Li Qiao.
01:27:17More talent than me.
01:27:20No.
01:27:23I...
01:27:26I gifted her talent.
01:27:30I gave her this paper.
01:27:34I gave her...
01:27:36I wanted to send her to a great art school.
01:27:43But I couldn't.
01:27:50I'm sorry.
01:28:00Yes.
01:28:06Babe, there's a message.
01:28:10She's trying to erase the name of Bai.
01:28:22She's trying to erase the name of Carmen.
01:28:27This art is a testimony to her silences.
01:28:35This is her attempt to...
01:28:39To battle.
01:28:42To exorcise her pain.
01:28:48You can see her anger in her pen.
01:28:52You can see her anger in her pen.
01:29:07She didn't leave me.
01:29:10She just lost her war.
01:29:21She didn't leave me.
01:29:42Her drawing was her attempt to say what she already knew.
01:29:46Li had given herself knowing she could never be with me.
01:29:50That moment was her final goodbye.
01:29:53She would not come to see me.
01:29:55Not tell me what I now know.
01:29:59One day, I will hear from her.
01:30:02When we mean nothing to each other.
01:30:14Please not here, okay?
01:30:16I didn't come to see her. I need to talk to you.
01:30:19You're Glenda, right?
01:30:21Yeah.
01:30:22Li told me about you.
01:30:24Just a few minutes, okay?
01:30:27I need answers.
01:30:28Go to the park by the lagoon. I'll be there in ten minutes.
01:30:36I was aware of you before you guys started.
01:30:39What do you mean before we started?
01:30:41Well, Li told me everything. We're friends.
01:30:44You know, the thing about the notes and how you met,
01:30:47and how she hid to watch you.
01:30:49Yeah, of course she was watching me.
01:30:51Yeah. She's crazy.
01:30:54She swallowed one of your sad books and stared at your picture for days.
01:30:59When you would come in at the restaurant,
01:31:02I would run upstairs and tell her.
01:31:06Were you two ever...
01:31:08Lovers? No.
01:31:10We were just friends.
01:31:12I knew she followed you.
01:31:15I went with her many times,
01:31:17spying on your reactions so as to confuse you.
01:31:20She has another little friend.
01:31:22The skateboard.
01:31:24Li could not do this alone.
01:31:29You never saw us.
01:31:31It was kind of funny.
01:31:33I kept telling her, either leave him alone or just say hi.
01:31:39You were very patient.
01:31:43And you know the rest of the story.
01:31:45Not everything.
01:31:47Well, all I can say is that Li loves you and was very happy with you.
01:31:57Then why would...
01:31:59Why would she disappear?
01:32:01Because the woman she was with before you came back.
01:32:07Carmen.
01:32:10You mean to tell me that it's that simple?
01:32:14Li just forgot about everything that happened between us in the blink of an eye?
01:32:20If you're strange, she's even stranger.
01:32:22But why Carmen now?
01:32:24Wasn't she a thing of her past?
01:32:26Yeah.
01:32:29Look, they know each other from years ago.
01:32:31When Li started university,
01:32:34Carmen helped her.
01:32:36Even paid her classes.
01:32:39Li has nothing.
01:32:41So you're saying Li owes her?
01:32:44That she feels like she has to show her gratitude?
01:32:47Well, it's not that simple, you know that.
01:32:49Then why?
01:32:51Why would she do this?
01:32:55She needs to escape.
01:32:59She can escape with me.
01:33:03You don't need to escape.
01:33:06No.
01:33:33Good afternoon, colleague.
01:33:35Looks like you two are corralling to coming to Carmencita's, huh?
01:33:39Kind of.
01:33:42She called me 20 times.
01:33:44Drop everything for some visiting Spanish writer.
01:33:48I guess she needed to provide some local fauna.
01:33:51Or at least have read some of his books.
01:33:54But he will not know a fucking thing about us.
01:33:58That puts me in an exquisitely bad humor.
01:34:03Today will be Madrid against the Americas.
01:34:08A revival of the conquest.
01:34:10A chance to rewrite history.
01:34:15Come.
01:34:17You do not want to get to the party too early.
01:34:23Sir.
01:34:25It's been a long time since I smoked.
01:34:32I returned to the vice of writers the same way I left it.
01:34:36Smoking produces an anxiety of low-level vibration
01:34:41that helps me stay in front of that empty page.
01:34:44Writing is waiting.
01:34:47You must dominate that dead time between paragraphs and words.
01:34:52Smoking makes you stronger than the silence.
01:34:55When I stop, I write differently.
01:34:59Cheers.
01:35:01Cheers.
01:35:06How do you know Carmen Lindo?
01:35:08I don't.
01:35:10I was on a panel with her once.
01:35:13Weren't you invited to the party?
01:35:15I wasn't invited.
01:35:17I came to see a woman.
01:35:20That university world of hierarchies suits you even less than me.
01:35:25Who's the chick?
01:35:28Her name is...
01:35:30Lee Chao.
01:35:32Ah.
01:35:34Extraordinary.
01:35:36My student.
01:35:40That's why I came.
01:35:42She's your...
01:35:47Was or is. I don't know. I'm not sure.
01:35:50That's why I have to go.
01:35:52I cannot say no to Carmen.
01:35:55A long time ago,
01:35:57Carmen and I, we had an affair.
01:35:59And we're about to get married.
01:36:04Books united us, and women separated us.
01:36:08I must warn you,
01:36:10Professor Lindo has announced,
01:36:12with very little modesty,
01:36:14that she's been hired by I don't know who.
01:36:17And she's going to Los Angeles.
01:36:26That's my friend. I guess you have...
01:36:29Whoa!
01:36:32Hola.
01:36:34I would like to present a friend.
01:36:37I'm sure you'll want to talk to him.
01:36:39He's the author of Three in One.
01:36:44How do you do?
01:36:48What are you doing here?
01:36:50I came to see you.
01:36:52This is not a proper moment.
01:36:55You gave me no choice.
01:36:58You should go.
01:37:00You caused me a problem.
01:37:02And you don't think you've caused me one.
01:37:04He's a very good friend,
01:37:06and also a very talented writer.
01:37:11I hope he isn't a bother.
01:37:14Of course not.
01:37:16He has spoken to me about you.
01:37:18He was anxious to meet you.
01:37:20Besides, it should be a short talk.
01:37:25Stay as long as you like.
01:37:27As the Ria says,
01:37:29I never give in to the temptation to be difficult.
01:37:34Rightly?
01:37:38I'm happy.
01:37:40I can assure you,
01:37:42there is no bad lad on my side.
01:37:44I wouldn't have thought any less of you
01:37:46if there was, my dear.
01:37:48To pretend.
01:37:50Only pretend to pretend.
01:37:52My dear, can't you go with someone else?
01:37:55Maximo, you haven't made me laugh in 20 years.
01:38:03Ah, here he is.
01:38:05He's wearing his uniform.
01:38:07I bet you he's not wearing any socks.
01:38:09Garcia Pardo, here are two friends.
01:38:11Excellent Puerto Rican writers.
01:38:13Just call us writers, Carmen.
01:38:15My editor tells me, for the size of Puerto Rico,
01:38:18it imports an extraordinary amount of books from Spain.
01:38:22You may not have noticed,
01:38:24but we're just as Spanish-speaking
01:38:26as any other country in Latin America.
01:38:28Yeah, but you are part of the Monster of the North.
01:38:31As Jose Marti called it, Uncle Sam.
01:38:33That doesn't make us less of a nation than Spain,
01:38:36Argentina, or Mexico.
01:38:38In Spain, a writer can be a professional.
01:38:41It's harder to do it here.
01:38:43Madrid and Barcelona are cultural industries
01:38:46where writers can live by writing.
01:38:49We can only dream to write for the world.
01:38:51No, disappointment leads to literature.
01:38:54Disappointment doesn't create leadership,
01:38:57and I like to be read.
01:38:59Hmm.
01:39:03So, nobody really invited you to the island?
01:39:08Well, actually, no.
01:39:11Not a group of fascinated readers?
01:39:14Not a university or a cultural institute
01:39:17from somewhere from here?
01:39:19Spain financed your trip to promote Spanish culture
01:39:22to sell more books, no?
01:39:24And what's wrong with that?
01:39:26They have the mean successfulness
01:39:28writing into simple salesmanship.
01:39:31I perceive a little frustration.
01:39:34Maybe Puerto Rico being such a small island
01:39:38has to do with it.
01:39:40Maybe.
01:39:41Spain has always been provincial.
01:39:43But unlike us, she doesn't realize it.
01:39:45She's incapable of any humility.
01:39:48You and your countrymen are living in a bubble
01:39:51inside your own heads.
01:39:53Don't take your frustration out on Spain.
01:39:56We are not your enemy.
01:39:58A writer is an athlete of defeat.
01:40:01And that is the problem and tragedy
01:40:04with Garcia Pardo.
01:40:06Enough.
01:40:07Garcia Pardo is a guest.
01:40:09This is not the treatment he deserves.
01:40:12And what treatment is that?
01:40:16Come.
01:40:17I have someone else to introduce you.
01:40:22What were you doing?
01:40:29I can't talk right now.
01:40:31So when?
01:40:32Later.
01:40:34Later, later, later, never.
01:40:37Later.
01:40:41What's wrong?
01:40:43I'm scared.
01:40:45Of what?
01:40:46Why?
01:40:49Because I'm alone.
01:40:51You have Carmen and you can be with me.
01:40:56It's the same.
01:40:57That's not true.
01:40:58Let's just, we can fix this.
01:41:00Let's just talk about it.
01:41:02I told you I can't.
01:41:03Not here, not now.
01:41:05And don't think Carmen is a bed of roses
01:41:07and don't think that I don't care about you.
01:41:09I'm trapped.
01:41:11How could you say that?
01:41:13How are you trapped?
01:41:15Because I could lose my only way out.
01:41:21So you really are leaving Puerto Rico.
01:41:27Yeah.
01:41:29Yeah.
01:41:34I really hope that she helps you with your heart to leave.
01:41:39You have to fulfill your talent.
01:41:42Yeah.
01:41:45So this is it.
01:41:52I promise we'll see each other again.
01:41:55Have you met Glenda?
01:41:58No.
01:41:59We work in the same restaurant.
01:42:01Nice to meet you.
01:42:02You're Lee's friend?
01:42:03Mm-hmm.
01:42:04Delighted.
01:42:05Thank you.
01:42:06Carmen is calling you.
01:42:10Lee, wake up.
01:42:11Wait, wait.
01:42:15Come on.
01:42:17Come on.
01:42:24Paying attention to another human
01:42:26is the purest and rarest form of love.
01:42:46Happiness is linked to hope.
01:42:50I hoped Lee would come back.
01:42:53I hoped for happiness.
01:42:56I hoped for the impossible.
01:42:59The anxiety that I felt was only comparable
01:43:02to when I waited for her messages,
01:43:04to when I feared that I had lost someone.
01:43:08But I was wrong.
01:43:11I was wrong.
01:43:13Her messages to when I feared that I had lost someone
01:43:16I hadn't found.
01:43:19This tastes like the final agony.
01:43:23The absurd absence of a body and soul
01:43:25I believed in with blind faith.
01:43:35Brother!
01:43:37Brother!
01:43:39Brother!
01:43:44Ryder!
01:43:49Ryder!
01:43:51Ryder!
01:43:54Ryder!
01:44:01Ryder!
01:44:05Ryder!
01:44:07Ryder!
01:44:10Ryder!
01:44:11Ryder!
01:44:13Ryder!
01:44:24Ryder!
01:44:27Ryder!
01:44:30Ryder!
01:44:32Ryder!
01:44:36Ryder!
01:44:39Ryder!
01:44:43Ryder!
01:45:13Ryder!
01:45:18Ryder, it's your turn!
01:45:27Lee, get in! Come on!
01:45:43Come on!
01:46:13Come on!
01:46:39I've learned to live with minimal needs.
01:46:42Lesbianism is an irony.
01:46:44I've never known the feeling of respect,
01:46:47of being at the same level as another human being
01:46:50as I did with you.
01:46:52I don't know what it means to be free,
01:46:55to escape.
01:46:57I must go far away.
01:46:59This is my attempt to say
01:47:02I'm sorry.
01:47:03I'm sorry.
01:47:12This was the answer to why me.
01:47:15Why I was the one.
01:47:21She was my other half.
01:47:27The impossible half of two bodies
01:47:29who have not learned to recognize themselves in anyone else.
01:47:45The city with all that he had left.
01:47:49The territory to which he belonged.
01:47:52Everything he had.
01:48:00Everything.
01:48:12I could never leave this city that I had walked without shame,
01:48:16using it as a blank page.
01:48:18The agony tied me forever to its streets.
01:48:22I want to write.
01:48:24No matter what.
01:48:29I want to write.
01:48:30No matter what.