Wake (2024)
في محاولة يائسة للحصول على دور رئيسي في إعادة إنتاج لهوليوود، تتعقب ممثلة تكافح بطل الفيلم الأصلي الذي أصبح الآن منعزلاً غامضًا.
Transcript
00:00:00Hey, it's your weekly insight into the world of your favorite actors and actresses.
00:00:24I'm Jodi Halifax, and this is The So-and-So Podcast.
00:00:54Hey, I'm Jodi Halifax, and this is The So-and-So Podcast.
00:01:19Have you ever felt that you did something, an experience you dreamt up, no visible proof,
00:01:44no consequences, but the scar left behind still haunts you?
00:01:51You keep repressing what you thought happened or didn't happen.
00:01:58Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:02:05Does the trauma of the memory hold power no matter what the truth?
00:02:35Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:03:04Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:03:29Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:03:58Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:04:27Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:04:37Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:04:51Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:00Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:10Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:18Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:28Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:38Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:46Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:05:56Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:06:06Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:06:36Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:06:46Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:06:56Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:07:06Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:07:16Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:07:46Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:07:56Let us suppose we're just dreaming and none of what we dreamt is true.
00:08:06Lake, what are you doing?
00:08:36Lake, what are you doing?
00:09:06Miss Abel?
00:09:22Hi.
00:09:24Sorry.
00:09:26I didn't mean to come in like this, but I'm sure your housekeeper already told you.
00:09:30I'm here for the interview.
00:09:34I brought a gift.
00:09:40I told you to leave.
00:09:44Yes, yes, but...
00:09:46All right.
00:09:49What are you doing?
00:09:50Well, if you won't leave, perhaps a police officer will be kind enough to escort you off the property.
00:09:55No, don't call the police. I just need an interview.
00:09:58And I told you Miss Abel is not interested.
00:10:04Okay, well then I would like to hear it from her.
00:10:06If she tells me to leave, then I will.
00:10:10But if you let me stay, I promise to give you a chance to tell your story.
00:10:18Well, there's your answer.
00:10:20So you can take your flowers and leave.
00:10:22Oh, and I don't expect you'll need me to open the gate for you.
00:10:25You jumped in, you can most certainly jump back out.
00:10:32What's your name?
00:10:40Lake Reed.
00:10:43Pleased to meet you.
00:10:49Well, I'm sure you've heard that they're remaking your film, Wake.
00:10:55So what station did you say you work for?
00:10:58Oh, it's an online company?
00:11:00What I'm asking is the name.
00:11:04Tammy.
00:11:06I'm sorry, ma'am.
00:11:08I just want to check if Miss Reed is who she says she is.
00:11:11We can't just let any stranger into the house.
00:11:14Yeah, okay.
00:11:22Luxemedia?
00:11:26Satisfied?
00:11:28Far from it.
00:11:30I hope you couldn't forgive Tabby.
00:11:33She doesn't have a lot of experience with people.
00:11:37I'll try 30 years with you, ma'am.
00:11:42You know, I suddenly feel a little underdressed for the occasion.
00:11:46I don't mind.
00:11:48Oh, I do mind.
00:11:51Tabby, will you show Lake into the living room?
00:11:54You can wait there while I change.
00:12:03Go!
00:12:09Now everybody sing.
00:12:11Ready?
00:12:12Go!
00:12:15Hello?
00:12:36Yeah.
00:12:37Hi, is this Mr. Reed Dumsby?
00:12:39Yeah, what do you want?
00:12:41I'm calling from open health about the past due bill.
00:12:50I'm sorry, say that again?
00:12:52Yeah, I'm calling from open health about the past due bill.
00:12:56I'm afraid we're going to need a bit of a payment.
00:13:02Sir?
00:13:03I'm sorry, I just, I don't have the time.
00:13:07I'm sorry, I just, I don't have the time.
00:13:17No!
00:13:48There's my mini-bar, and I'll meet her there.
00:13:53There's a black-and-brown pink service bell, yeah.
00:14:00Oh, the sound of cat-meow-meow-meow.
00:14:05Oh, how I love that sound.
00:14:09Oh.
00:14:12Yeah.
00:14:14Oh.
00:14:17Yeah.
00:14:20Oh.
00:14:22Yeah.
00:14:25Oh.
00:14:28Yeah.
00:14:31Oh.
00:14:33Oh.
00:15:03Oh.
00:15:08Isn't this Theodora's dagger?
00:15:11This is worth a lot of money.
00:15:14The real one is.
00:15:16That's just a replica.
00:15:18Our prop master made about 50 of them, handed them out to fans and fans alike.
00:15:23It's beautiful.
00:15:24I warn you not to touch it.
00:15:26The blade is beyond sharp.
00:15:30I apologize for what Tabby said earlier.
00:15:33Your flowers are far from deathly.
00:15:35Oh, I'm sure Tabby didn't mean it.
00:15:37It's Tabitha to you, miss.
00:15:39I'm sure Tabitha didn't mean it.
00:15:42Tabby, will you put the flowers in a vase of water, please?
00:15:44Yes, ma'am.
00:15:45I think it'll help brighten up the room.
00:15:49Oh, and bring Link a nice cup of tea.
00:15:52Will do.
00:15:54Please.
00:16:25How long have you been a reporter?
00:16:27I'm not a reporter.
00:16:28I'm a digital journalist.
00:16:30Oh, wow.
00:16:32How long have you been a digital journalist?
00:16:36Six years.
00:16:38You enjoy journalism, interviewing people from all different walks of life?
00:16:44Yeah.
00:16:46Yes, yes, yes.
00:16:48That doesn't sound reassuring.
00:16:51That doesn't sound reassuring.
00:16:54I love what I do.
00:16:56Mm-hmm.
00:16:59I'm surprised from what Tabby told me, I was expecting a little more tenacity.
00:17:10Are you going to ask me any questions, dear?
00:17:17Or should I be the one to start?
00:17:27Um, I guess my first question is, how did you become an actress?
00:17:33I mean, particularly, how did you land the lead role of Theodora in Wake?
00:17:37It's famously known that after seeing your audition, the director cast you right on the spot,
00:17:41giving you a role that would lead you to win an Academy Award.
00:17:44I mean, you beat almost a thousand actresses with, what was it, a three-minute monologue?
00:17:52How did you do it?
00:17:57Wake was a lifetime ago.
00:18:01My memory isn't as good as it used to be.
00:18:05But everything about Wake, I remember clear as day.
00:18:13Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep.
00:18:28What is this?
00:18:30Just a homemade mixture of dried herbs and flowers.
00:18:34Mostly hibiscus with a hint of lavender, among other things.
00:18:42Other things?
00:18:45Ask Tabby for the recipe before you leave.
00:18:48Brewing teas is more her specialty than mine.
00:18:52I just drink them.
00:18:54It's lovely.
00:18:56Give me a sec.
00:18:58Thanks.
00:19:03Hello?
00:19:04Yes, yes, I'm still here.
00:19:09Um, what happened to your hand?
00:19:14I've had this for as long as I can remember.
00:19:17Okay, before this interview goes any further, I think it would be in Miss Abel's best interest to know who you really are.
00:19:24And don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about.
00:19:27I was just on the phone with Luxem Media.
00:19:29You don't work there, do you?
00:19:35My name is really Lake Reed.
00:19:39But I'm not a journalist.
00:19:41See, what did I tell you?
00:19:42No one is really who they say they are.
00:19:44I'm an actress.
00:19:45Oh, jeez.
00:19:46It's an aspiring one.
00:19:48I've done a few commercials and a student film.
00:19:50Hardly counts.
00:19:55Look, I just really wanted to meet you.
00:19:57What for?
00:19:59She wants the lead role in Wake.
00:20:01My agent booked me in audition for tomorrow morning.
00:20:04Okay, no offense, but you could hardly play the role of a journalist.
00:20:07What makes you think you can play a lead?
00:20:09I don't.
00:20:10I just, I just thought that maybe you could, you know, call the casting director and make a few phone calls and...
00:20:18What exactly would I say to the casting director?
00:20:23Oh, well, I'm not sure.
00:20:24I just thought that maybe you could roll a few strings.
00:20:28You climb over the gate, you pester your way into this house, and now you pose as a journalist all for a movie role?
00:20:34I'm afraid I won't be making any phone calls to any casting director.
00:20:41I haven't been an actress for a very long time, and frankly, I don't see why you would want me to, as you say, pull some strings.
00:20:50It's just on the list.
00:20:52I need this role.
00:20:55I can't get the role for you.
00:21:04I can show you how to get it for yourself.
00:21:11I don't know what that means.
00:21:13I'm not offering to make any phone calls.
00:21:16What I am offering is much more valuable.
00:21:20I will teach you the one technique that got me the role of Theodore.
00:21:27Your technique?
00:21:30You said it yourself.
00:21:32I was cast on the spot with just one three-minute monologue.
00:21:36Now, what the world and you don't know is the frame of mind I had to acquire before I even spoke a single word.
00:21:50Of course, you're free to decline my offer.
00:21:59No.
00:22:00Wait, do you really mean it?
00:22:02Oh, dear.
00:22:03I always mean what I say.
00:22:07Should I take that as?
00:22:10Yes, yes, yes.
00:22:12Thank you so much, Miss Abel.
00:22:27In my day, we had a technique developed by Konstantin Stanislavski.
00:22:32It was a method whereby the character could be more accessible to the actor.
00:22:38Get into the character's mind.
00:22:41That way, the audience watching, the director watching, even the cameras rolling, will believe that you are the character.
00:22:52What do you feel when you think about Theodore?
00:22:57Sadness, I guess.
00:23:01I mean, for an example, she kills herself to escape her depression, to escape the pain of her life.
00:23:11I guess that's one interpretation.
00:23:13Some people find it inspiring.
00:23:20How would you access that sadness?
00:23:24Well, I would think about being sad and all the traits of being sad, like frowning and crying.
00:23:33Well, that's your second mistake.
00:23:36No amount of physical traits would add the least bit if you don't properly feel the emotion.
00:23:45You don't act sad.
00:23:47You are sad.
00:23:49In the moment, you allow the sadness to fill your heart until you can no longer feel it beat.
00:23:57Okay, I have to be sad.
00:24:00Got it.
00:24:02In order for you to really feel it, to see as she sees, think the way she thinks, breathe the way she breathes, you have to find the darkest moment in you.
00:24:17My darkest moment?
00:24:20When you felt the most despair, the most fear, the most desperate for everything to be a faint dream.
00:24:31How old are you, dear? 25? 26?
00:24:34I'm 28.
00:24:37Well, in those 28 years, I'm sure you had your share of moments.
00:24:43Surely there was at least one that was dark?
00:24:49I don't think talking about my darkest moments is actually necessary.
00:24:54Oh.
00:24:56Well, I am the only person that Theodora currently inhabits.
00:25:02And I truly believe the only way that you will embody Theodora is if you take yourself to that darkest place that I know is within you.
00:25:14Well, what if I don't have one?
00:25:18Oh, my dear, everyone has a darkest moment.
00:25:23You asked me how I got into acting. What I would like to know is, how did you?
00:25:33I want to feel something else, something that I've been feeling my whole entire life, something different.
00:25:43And in order to do that, I have to pretend to be somebody else.
00:25:49Well, that is your first mistake.
00:25:52When you act, you don't pretend to be someone else.
00:25:56You are someone else.
00:26:03Are you okay, dear?
00:26:06What's the matter?
00:26:09Um...
00:26:12Do you mind if I just use your restroom?
00:26:15Of course.
00:26:18Of course.
00:26:48Okay.
00:27:19Hello?
00:27:23Thank God. I was about to start looking in the obituary for your name.
00:27:26Did you read any of my emails? I guess it doesn't matter now that I got to know you.
00:27:29Yes, I haven't had the chance to look at them.
00:27:32Look, like, we've been together, what, five, six years?
00:27:37But I've gotten you at least over a hundred auditions.
00:27:41And, hey, I'll admit, you commit.
00:27:45You really do. You've never missed a single audition, but...
00:27:50Just say it.
00:27:52You're just not there.
00:27:55Your acting. I mean, every time I send you out, they're always saying the same thing.
00:28:00She's just not there. And, like, I'm not trying to hurt your feelings, but you can't run from the truth.
00:28:06And the truth is, I've got to let you go.
00:28:10It's not just the acting. Are you taking care of yourself? I mean, the fainting.
00:28:14Okay, but that's besides the point.
00:28:16What's the point, Lake?
00:28:18Tell me, because I'm sitting here in my office right now trying to think of reasons I shouldn't let you go, and honestly...
00:28:24Okay, I'm going to get the lead role in Wake.
00:28:27I've already pulled your name from that audition.
00:28:30Then just re-book me.
00:28:32I don't know, I...
00:28:34Just do it, please.
00:28:37Michael, listen. I'm inside her house.
00:28:41What are you talking about?
00:28:44Corin Ebel. I'm inside her house.
00:28:48I don't know... I don't know what kind of prank you're playing.
00:28:51I'm not playing. I'm in this really weird room with all of these strange uniforms.
00:28:58They're probably costumes from her movements or something.
00:29:01What? Oh, my. You really are inside of her house right now.
00:29:06What in the... How did you... Do I even want to know?
00:29:10She invited me.
00:29:13One of the most revered actresses, an Academy Award winner, just invite... Why would she just invite you?
00:29:19I have too much on my mind to be offended by that, but it's a long story, and the short of it is...
00:29:27She's going to help me with my acting.
00:29:32I'm serious, so just re-book me for the audition tomorrow.
00:29:37Michael, please. I'm begging you.
00:29:41We'll give it one more shot.
00:29:45Okay. That's all I need.
00:31:38There we go.
00:31:41Is it recording, T?
00:31:43Yes.
00:31:45Tammy, bring Jodi here a nice cup of tea.
00:31:48Oh, you don't have to.
00:31:50Oh, please. It's a pleasure to see you.
00:31:53Thank you, Tabitha.
00:31:54Oh, you can call me Tammy.
00:31:56How long have you been writing biographies?
00:31:59About seven years.
00:32:02How long have you been writing biographies?
00:32:06About seven years.
00:32:31Hey, kid, is this the Reed house?
00:32:58Is this your parents' home?
00:33:08Could you go get them?
00:33:11Can I help you?
00:33:13Yeah, I got the medical bed you ordered.
00:33:16Yeah, pull up in the driveway. It's supposed to go in the basement.
00:33:25What's going on?
00:33:28Mom's not feeling good.
00:33:32We got her a new bed to make her more comfortable.
00:33:55Then who killed Kakrava?
00:33:58I don't know.
00:33:59Didn't you kill Kakrava?
00:34:00I object, Your Honor.
00:34:02Then ask that the last question be stricken from the records.
00:34:05It is merely an attempt to influence this intelligent, broad-minded, and most intellectual jury.
00:34:16Objection sustained.
00:34:18Thank you, Your Honor.
00:34:20That is all.
00:34:50I'm sorry.
00:34:58I hope I didn't take too long.
00:35:00Are you feeling better, dear?
00:35:02Excuse me?
00:35:03Nerves, was it?
00:35:06Yeah.
00:35:07Yeah, just nerves.
00:35:18For the next technique, would you light the candles for me, dear?
00:35:23Yes, of course.
00:35:24I assume you've prepared yourself for the role.
00:35:28Yeah, I have the script in my bag.
00:35:31You don't know it by heart.
00:35:34Her final monologue, dear. You do know it.
00:35:38Yes, it's right before she kills herself.
00:36:08You see something?
00:36:35You have power for me.
00:36:49In the early hours of the morning, the most peculiar dream came to me.
00:36:55I was in an ocean, all alone, just me.
00:37:01I kicked my legs to keep myself afloat.
00:37:04So cold and alone.
00:37:07I looked as far as I could, but there was no land in sight.
00:37:13The water splashed against the sides of my face.
00:37:18And then my arms and my legs grew heavy with exhaustion.
00:37:25And that's when I began to sink.
00:37:29Terror struck me like lightning.
00:37:33This was it, I thought.
00:37:35My death had come upon me.
00:37:39It wasn't until the fifth time my head went under that I realized I could still breathe.
00:37:45Yes, yes, the water filled my mouth and filled my lungs, but I was still breathing.
00:37:56How was this?
00:38:01How was this?
00:38:03How?
00:38:06How?
00:38:08How is this possible?
00:38:11So I sank, farther and farther, down to the depths of the ocean.
00:38:18So far and so deep, till the sun could no longer reach me.
00:38:26I became this insignificant thing, this speck of life, just floating in the ocean.
00:38:40I wasn't dead, I didn't die.
00:38:43I wasn't living here.
00:38:47I was just there.
00:38:51Wandering in the oceans.
00:38:54Dark spaces.
00:38:57Dark ocean.
00:39:01My dark ocean.
00:39:06And now that I think about it, maybe it wasn't a dream after all.
00:39:21I'm disabled.
00:39:36I mean, Corin, that was amazing.
00:39:40That was more than amazing, that was brilliant.
00:39:43If only I can act with, like, one-tenth of your talent, then...
00:39:49Not one-tenth, my dear, all of it.
00:39:53When you recite this monologue, it will be as if I am speaking the words.
00:40:19Thank you.
00:40:38Thank you.
00:41:08How?
00:41:18Mom! Dad! Everyone! I'm home!
00:41:24Okay, what's he doing?
00:41:50And what's that?
00:41:54What's that?
00:42:24What's that?
00:42:46Look at me.
00:42:49I can already see Theodore's darkness in your eyes.
00:42:54He's beautiful.
00:42:58To become a character, you have to fuse every fiber of its being into you.
00:43:05Like a dual mind.
00:43:11I assume you already know my story.
00:43:17Bits and pieces.
00:43:21It was six months after the release of Wake.
00:43:26The producers were very surprised. It was a success, a sleeper hit.
00:43:31I'd just gotten an Academy Award. I mean, it should have been the highlight of my life.
00:43:36Then the crash happened.
00:43:40Well, my agent was in the passenger seat and he died instantly.
00:43:46I read that a deer came out onto the road in Eastburg to not hit it.
00:43:50That's what I told the police.
00:43:53Before the crash, there was this cloud in my head.
00:44:00I wasn't living, not really.
00:44:05Fame and fortune are very strong and powerful things, but they're just superficial.
00:44:12I don't know what it was. If it was the lights, the camera.
00:44:16This cloud was always in my head.
00:44:23Even when it was quiet.
00:44:26There was no sun.
00:44:29And when it rained, it rained really hard.
00:44:34Close your eyes.
00:44:36I'm going to take you back to my darkest moment.
00:44:41Everything was black.
00:44:44I could hear the sirens in the distance.
00:44:47They were murky, like a dream right before you wake up.
00:44:59There was nothing outside of it, nothing above it, nothing below it, just in my head.
00:45:06With the cloud.
00:45:11I must have lost consciousness because all the sounds disappeared.
00:45:16And when I woke up, I was connected to all these machines.
00:45:25I couldn't move.
00:45:30A doctor and two nurses came in.
00:45:34I could hear my heart pounding in my chest as they got closer.
00:45:40Finally, the doctor broke the news to me.
00:45:44I was paralyzed from the waist down that I would never walk again.
00:45:51I tried to convince myself it was a cruel joke.
00:45:56But it wasn't real.
00:46:00I was dreaming.
00:46:02I kept telling myself, wake up, wake, wake.
00:46:08This isn't real, wake.
00:46:12But I didn't.
00:46:16I was still in the bed.
00:46:20And I couldn't move.
00:46:22My legs were like, like logs.
00:46:37Corinne?
00:46:41Corinne?
00:46:45Tabitha?
00:46:48She was talking about her accident, and then I...
00:46:51All right, just he'll wait in the foyer.
00:46:53Just do it! Go!
00:46:56You're okay.
00:46:58Corinne, I'm right here.
00:47:00It's Tabby. I'm right here. You're okay.
00:47:03You're okay.
00:47:17Here, I'll walk you up.
00:47:33So, how's she doing?
00:47:37There are some signals I'm seeing that mean she's getting a bit worse than my last visit.
00:47:44So, how long do you think she has?
00:47:51She's pretty close.
00:47:58Is there anything we can do for her pain?
00:48:05Well, she's already on the next dose of morphine for her size and body memory.
00:48:12But even that will only do so much.
00:48:17I think what you need to ask us would be something to consider at this point.
00:48:42Hello?
00:48:44Michael?
00:48:46I did it! I called the casting director. I rebooked your audition.
00:48:50I still don't see how you're going to get there.
00:48:52Where did you get that interview?
00:48:54I don't know. It popped up when I Googled her name.
00:48:56Do you know what else I found?
00:48:58What?
00:48:59She has a fear of water.
00:49:01And for her role in Wake, they had to build a giant indoor swimming pool that was, like,
00:49:04up to her chest to mimic the ocean.
00:49:07Okay, about the writer that went missing.
00:49:10The interview says that she never made it.
00:49:13But she was here at Corin's house.
00:49:16Corin? What are you, like, best friends now?
00:49:19Okay, listen.
00:49:21What are you doing?
00:49:23Just listen.
00:49:24Look, like, I have a meeting starting soon.
00:49:27Wait. Just wait.
00:49:30Okay. Okay.
00:49:32Wait. Just wait.
00:49:35Okay. Okay.
00:49:36That's not me. That's Jodi.
00:49:38Who's Jodi?
00:49:39Jodi Halifax, the writer that went missing.
00:49:41Michael, you have to keep up.
00:49:43Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
00:49:47Okay, what I'm trying to say is that
00:49:49she couldn't have gone missing before the interview because she was here at Corin's house.
00:49:52Sorry, like, I gotta go, okay?
00:49:54I'll give you a call later. I'll give you a call, okay?
00:49:57Okay.
00:50:03There's something going on in this house.
00:50:08Corin, she's not like anyone I've ever met before.
00:50:12She gets me. She really gets me.
00:50:15She seems to know my thoughts even before I've said them.
00:50:19We've seen strange things.
00:50:22There was a jar, a glass jar.
00:50:27Maybe I'm hallucinating, but I thought...
00:50:32I don't know what I thought.
00:50:34I thought it was my brother's watch, but that's impossible because I lost it after he died.
00:50:39But there it was.
00:50:41I can't even believe my own eyes anymore.
00:50:44I can't believe it myself.
00:50:46And that's the scariest feeling in the world.
00:50:50I don't know what it is about this place, but I feel...
00:50:57I feel amazing, Jodi. Amazing.
00:51:00It's stuck.
00:51:30It's stuck.
00:51:47What happened?
00:51:51No, I saw...
00:51:53What?
00:51:55Look, it's fine, okay? Don't worry about it.
00:51:58I'm sorry.
00:51:59Just go on in. We don't want to keep Miss Abel waiting.
00:52:07Yeah, I broke something of yours.
00:52:14I'm really sorry. I'll pay for it before I go.
00:52:17No, no need. No need.
00:52:22What did you see in it?
00:52:25Nothing.
00:52:28You say nothing, but your eyes betray you.
00:52:36I'm sorry if I gave you a fright.
00:52:40I'm sorry. Are you sure you're okay?
00:52:43Don't be concerned about my condition.
00:52:46Tell you, having you here, it's been the brightest spot of my day.
00:52:50You're just saying that to make me feel better.
00:52:53Why would I want to do that?
00:52:56Let's say if I get the slightest headache or stomachache or heartache,
00:53:02I'll tell Tabby and we will stop the whole thing.
00:53:11Okay.
00:53:15So the cloud in your head, was it still there after the accident?
00:53:20Even more so. It got larger and larger.
00:53:25It wasn't quite as sharp.
00:53:27It was more faded, but it was still a murmur.
00:53:32It kept reminding me.
00:53:34Remind you of what?
00:53:36That I was trapped.
00:53:38I was still in a prison.
00:53:40A prisoner in my mind and a prisoner in my own body.
00:53:44Have you ever felt anything like that?
00:53:47Maybe not in my body, but in my mind.
00:53:54Well, you know the cloud that you talk about?
00:53:58Yeah, for me it's not really a cloud, it's more of a shadow.
00:54:05Who is casting this shadow?
00:54:07Who?
00:54:09Maybe I should ask, what is casting this shadow?
00:54:12Maybe I should ask, what is casting this shadow?
00:54:16How does it feel?
00:54:22Cold, I suppose.
00:54:25And far away.
00:54:28Very far away.
00:54:30And it comes up from behind me and I kind of feel like a doll.
00:54:37A puppet.
00:54:39And it's playing with my strings.
00:54:42Does it follow you wherever you go?
00:54:48Have you spoken to anyone about this?
00:54:50No, you're the first person I've told.
00:54:54Well, then that will be our little secret.
00:54:58I have a secret of my own.
00:55:01The very first moment I met you, my cloud disappeared.
00:55:06The sun came out, I could feel the warmth.
00:55:11It was like a radiant fire.
00:55:16Perhaps I can return the favor.
00:55:19We can make your shadow go away, too.
00:55:25I wonder, what would you do if your shadow was gone?
00:55:29Would you still be hopping fences and trying to get movie roles?
00:55:33Well, I guess I haven't thought that far.
00:55:37When you were telling me about the accident
00:55:41and waking up in the hospital bed,
00:55:44well, I could see it in my head.
00:55:47It was like I was there.
00:55:49I could feel it in my body, your heart beating in my chest.
00:55:53I don't know how to explain it, but it was like I was you.
00:55:59And that technique, it's working.
00:56:02That was my darkest moment.
00:56:05For you to inhabit Theodora, you need to find yours.
00:56:12Can you remember it?
00:56:14I don't know if I want to.
00:56:17Oh, I will help you.
00:56:20Look into the flame.
00:56:23Let it purge you of everything.
00:57:35I will help you.
00:58:05Mom?
00:58:20Mom?
00:58:24Mom?
00:58:35Mom?
00:59:05Mom?
00:59:35Mom?
01:00:05Mom?
01:00:35Mom?
01:01:05Mom?
01:01:35Mom?
01:02:05Mom?
01:02:35Mom?
01:03:05Mom?
01:03:21What's that?
01:03:23What are...
01:03:25Blake, Blake, come on.
01:03:28Come on.
01:03:32No, stop!
01:03:34No!
01:03:35It's burning.
01:03:36No, stop!
01:03:37It's burning.
01:03:38I'm sorry.
01:03:39No!
01:03:46Blake.
01:03:50Blake.
01:03:52Blake.
01:04:03What happened?
01:04:05You fainted, miss.
01:04:07I fainted?
01:04:10Oh my God, I'm so sorry.
01:04:12I only get like this when I have an audition.
01:04:16I guess this is kind of like when some...
01:04:18You get like what?
01:04:21I have fainting spells.
01:04:24But it's not a big deal.
01:04:26Have you seen a doctor?
01:04:27Well, like I said, it's not a big deal.
01:04:30I only get like this when I'm really stressed.
01:04:37Where's my bag?
01:04:43You went through my stuff.
01:04:45Well, I'm glad I did.
01:04:47Feeling nosy, were you?
01:04:51Corinne?
01:04:52I am so sorry.
01:04:53I just thought that maybe there were some acting notes on there or something that could help me and...
01:04:57Okay, trespassing, fraud, and now theft.
01:05:00Am I missing something?
01:05:01I meant no disrespect, okay?
01:05:03I'm curious as to what your definition of respect is.
01:05:07It won't happen again.
01:05:10Do I have your word?
01:05:13Yes.
01:05:16Then?
01:05:17It's water under the bridge.
01:05:23The moment, right before you fainted,
01:05:26whatever you felt, whatever was in your heart, in your mind,
01:05:30use it.
01:05:32Use all of it as you say Theodore's words.
01:05:37You will be surprised how powerful it can be.
01:05:42Is that right, Tammy?
01:05:54Theodore's words, my words,
01:05:57will give you new life too.
01:06:02Whenever you're ready, perform for me.
01:06:12In the early hours of the morning,
01:06:15the most peculiar dream came to me.
01:06:18I was in an ocean, all alone.
01:06:25It must just be a blackout.
01:06:29It must just be a blackout.
01:06:50Okay.
01:06:52There you go.
01:06:58In the early hours of the morning,
01:07:01the most peculiar dream came to me.
01:07:05I was in an ocean, all alone.
01:07:09Just me.
01:07:11I kicked my legs to keep myself afloat.
01:07:15The water splashed against the sides of my face.
01:07:21I looked as far as I could, but there was no land in sight.
01:07:25No one in sight.
01:07:32So cold and alone, I drifted about.
01:07:37My arms and legs grew heavy with exhaustion.
01:07:45That's when I began to see.
01:07:55I began to see.
01:08:25I began to see.
01:08:47Wait.
01:08:49Take this to your room.
01:09:19Take this to your room.
01:09:49Take this to your room.
01:10:20I'm not alone.
01:10:23I'm not alone.
01:10:49I'm not alone.
01:11:19I'm not alone.
01:11:49I'm not alone.
01:11:52I'm not alone.
01:11:55I'm not alone.
01:11:58I'm not alone.
01:12:01I'm not alone.
01:12:04I'm not alone.
01:12:07I'm not alone.
01:12:10I'm not alone.
01:12:13I'm not alone.
01:12:16I'm not alone.
01:12:19I'm not alone.
01:12:22I'm not alone.
01:12:25I'm not alone.
01:12:28I'm not alone.
01:12:31I'm not alone.
01:12:34I'm not alone.
01:12:47I'm not alone.
01:13:00What's going on?
01:13:04What is all this?
01:13:09It brings balance.
01:13:11Balance to what?
01:13:14Oh, you shall find out very soon.
01:13:19Who are you?
01:13:21Oh, my life was taken from me.
01:13:24The life I should have had.
01:13:27Whereas you lay greed.
01:13:29You have your whole life in front of you.
01:13:33Yet you let yourself stagnate.
01:13:37But you will learn.
01:13:39All things come to balance.
01:13:42And balance comes to all things.
01:13:45Is that what you did to Jodi?
01:13:48Bring her balance?
01:13:50I tried to help her.
01:13:54That was her, wasn't it?
01:13:57Does it really matter?
01:14:00Tell me!
01:14:12Tell me!
01:14:21Tabby tried so hard.
01:14:23For years.
01:14:26Then we found Jo.
01:14:27This is crazy.
01:14:28This is fucking crazy.
01:14:30But she still had a will to live.
01:14:34My mistake was thinking she was near her breaking point.
01:14:39Oh, dear.
01:14:42You are already broken.
01:14:55Now.
01:15:00Tabitha?
01:15:03What are you doing?
01:15:10What are you doing?
01:15:18What are you doing?
01:15:24What are you doing?
01:15:27Tell me!
01:15:40You.
01:15:42You killed your very own mother.
01:15:45No.
01:15:52I've seen your mind.
01:15:56I didn't.
01:15:58Lies will not save you.
01:16:02I can't imagine how painful,
01:16:05how pathetic it would be to live with your past
01:16:10shadowing you every night and every regret.
01:16:19But you haven't been living, have you?
01:16:22No, you've just been existing.
01:16:26No, you've just been existing.
01:16:32That's not you.
01:16:34It's all not you.
01:16:40No, I didn't.
01:16:43I didn't.
01:16:46I just didn't do anything.
01:16:51But I love her so much.
01:16:55The moment you looked away, your shadow was gone.
01:17:01But I am going to help you think.
01:17:04You have been asleep for a very long time.
01:17:08But now,
01:17:12you shall wake!
01:17:20You shall wake!
01:17:50You shall wake!
01:18:20Take this chair.
01:18:36No! No!
01:18:50No!
01:19:20No!
01:19:50No!
01:20:20Faded, I was losing touch.
01:20:24I couldn't stay dependent on you much.
01:20:29I saw your face...
01:20:31Hello?
01:20:32How'd the audition go?
01:20:34I didn't go.
01:20:36What are you...
01:20:38What are you going to do now?
01:20:41I don't know.
01:20:44The options are endless.
01:20:46Lake? Lake?
01:21:17If I die before I awake
01:21:27I'm not leaving my soul for God to take
01:21:36Cause there's nothing to keep me in heaven
01:21:46I want you to have me to hold forever
01:22:06It took a while, I've never felt that much
01:22:12Grey clouds fade away into a warm night
01:22:17I was delusional, this guy is confused
01:22:22When I finally leave
01:22:25Where have you gone?
01:22:31I will find you
01:22:36Where do you go?
01:22:41I'll be there
01:22:46If I die before I awake
01:22:55I'm not leaving my soul for God to take
01:23:06Cause it's not his to keep me in heaven
01:23:14I want you to have me to hold forever
01:23:44If I die before I awake
01:23:52If I die before I awake
01:24:12If I die before I awake
01:24:22If I die before I awake