Explore the journey of the original 'Aashiqui Girl', Anu Aggarwal. From her mysterious absence to her current status, delve into her career, tragic accident, and controversies. Join the conversation with Lehren Retro for the latest candid insights.
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00:00 My entire career graph is 5 years.
00:02 What is 5 years?
00:04 It takes 5 years for an actor to understand someone's name.
00:08 What are 5-6 films?
00:10 Suddenly the PG officer says,
00:12 "So many people come and stand outside your house,
00:15 you will have to leave."
00:16 Now where do I go at night?
00:18 My ego is bigger than the film.
00:21 So I feel, why didn't I get my face?
00:24 I feel, how is this poster looking?
00:26 What is the slogan?
00:27 I loved it.
00:29 "Love makes life live."
00:32 I said, "Wow, what a slogan."
00:33 "Take this money and sign it."
00:36 I said, "Not take the money, sign it.
00:38 I will listen to the script first.
00:39 Where is the script?"
00:40 "The script will be made.
00:42 You sign it."
00:43 I had told my parents that there are 50-50 chances.
00:46 When I left the coma, I was in a coma of 29 years.
00:49 I won't get up in this.
00:51 Hello, I am Rehan Hussain and you are watching Lehren.
00:58 Right now, to talk to us,
01:01 we have an actress of the 90s
01:03 who achieved such a high status
01:06 overnight with her first film
01:10 and everyone was impressed.
01:12 The name of that actress is Anu Agrawal.
01:14 Anu ji, welcome.
01:16 Hello, thank you.
01:19 How are you?
01:20 I am absolutely fine.
01:21 What are you doing these days?
01:22 I am having fun.
01:23 (Laughs)
01:25 Yes.
01:26 Let's talk from the beginning.
01:28 Everyone knows about your first film, Aashiqui.
01:31 But if we start from the beginning,
01:33 from your school days,
01:36 how much was your interest in acting?
01:38 Tell us a little about that.
01:40 Yes.
01:42 I have been a fan of acting since childhood.
01:48 And it was...
01:51 I started acting without much practice.
01:59 Like I knew how to act.
02:01 So I have some knowledge of acting
02:04 from my past life.
02:09 Because in school,
02:11 I mean, from my school days,
02:13 I wanted to act in a crowd of actresses.
02:21 I was chosen from them.
02:23 So I never thought,
02:25 "Wow, I am like this."
02:27 I used to think that it's a normal thing.
02:29 I don't know why.
02:31 Because I had this in me that I know this.
02:33 There is no need to do anything.
02:35 Now,
02:37 I will tell you something related to this.
02:41 When I started acting,
02:43 when I did Aashiqui,
02:45 after that, when I became a star,
02:47 my struggle
02:49 was never about acting.
02:51 My struggle was
02:53 how to make people
02:55 famous
02:57 and become a public figure.
02:59 And I was alone.
03:01 I mean,
03:03 at the age of 20,
03:05 22, 23,
03:07 how to handle the world.
03:09 And because I wanted to live alone.
03:11 I was living alone.
03:13 There was a lot of opposition to that.
03:15 The world didn't accept it.
03:17 So life
03:19 became very difficult.
03:21 But acting,
03:23 I never left.
03:25 People ask me, "Why did you leave?"
03:27 But acting is
03:29 still my love.
03:31 So that's why
03:33 I did Aashiqui.
03:35 But I am just saying.
03:37 But before you got Aashiqui,
03:39 you had become a supermodel.
03:41 You had become internationally famous.
03:43 After that, you got Aashiqui.
03:45 So how did you
03:47 build your supermodel career?
03:49 And after that, you got Aashiqui.
03:51 I don't know.
03:53 I don't remember
03:55 that I was walking on the train
03:57 and I was seen at the station
03:59 and
04:01 I got an offer for modeling.
04:03 So, when things happen,
04:07 they happen.
04:09 So they become
04:11 like a story.
04:13 So the situation becomes like that.
04:15 Yes.
04:17 And
04:19 I was in Paris
04:21 doing modeling.
04:23 The agency was telling me to stay there.
04:25 So I was thinking
04:27 of staying there.
04:29 And I was doing modeling
04:31 in Mumbai.
04:33 But my PG house
04:35 was locked.
04:37 So I thought
04:39 I will come and pay the landlady's rent.
04:41 I don't want this house anymore.
04:43 So I am going to Paris.
04:45 So you were from Delhi.
04:47 After studying in Delhi,
04:49 you came to Mumbai for your career,
04:51 for social service or when you had become a model?
04:53 I came for a holiday
04:55 to meet my friends.
04:57 But I was doing social service.
04:59 So I came here
05:01 for a holiday.
05:03 So if you remember your first meeting with Bhatt,
05:05 who was he?
05:07 Mahesh Bhatt.
05:09 I don't know
05:11 where he saw me.
05:13 I have no idea.
05:15 And I met him
05:17 when I was
05:19 with another friend.
05:21 But
05:23 again
05:25 I would like to say that
05:27 when things don't happen,
05:29 how do they happen?
05:31 It happens
05:33 by snapping your fingers.
05:35 A person plans a lot,
05:37 but it doesn't happen.
05:39 So what was your first reaction
05:41 when Bhatt said
05:43 that you are a rising star
05:45 and I am thinking of making a film
05:47 and making you a heroine.
05:49 So what was your reaction when Bhatt said that?
05:51 No, reaction...
05:53 First of all, I was going to Paris.
05:55 So there
05:57 my life was going on.
05:59 Some decisions were made.
06:01 I had to go there.
06:03 Everything was organized there.
06:05 So that's why
06:07 my first reaction was
06:09 that I am going to Paris.
06:11 And my second reaction was
06:13 that I don't want to work in Hindi films
06:15 as an actor.
06:17 Because what do girls
06:19 act in?
06:21 Their role of heroines
06:23 is just two or three songs
06:25 and a few tear jerking
06:27 scenes and they go away.
06:29 So role...
06:31 I have been getting monologues
06:33 for the last 12 years.
06:35 So I started in 7th standard
06:37 when I did a Greek monologue
06:39 for school.
06:41 And that was a monologue
06:43 of 12 A4 size sheets.
06:45 It was a monologue.
06:47 The boy asks a question
06:49 that what is life?
06:51 A philosophical question.
06:53 And then I answer
06:55 that question in 12 sheets.
06:57 So this is my
06:59 beginning.
07:01 I was 11 years old.
07:03 That's when I did this.
07:05 And then slowly
07:07 I got monologues
07:09 in school and college.
07:11 Then I had Kamla Das, a writer.
07:13 She had
07:15 a very daring
07:17 time in her time.
07:19 So it was her monologue.
07:21 So I did her monologue
07:23 for the play.
07:25 So somehow or the other
07:27 monologues kept coming to me.
07:29 So that's why
07:31 it never happened that
07:33 acting
07:35 is in my
07:37 veins.
07:39 It's in my veins.
07:41 I don't know
07:43 where it comes from.
07:45 It's my birth.
07:47 When Aashiqi was released,
07:49 when you came to know
07:51 that the film is being loved so much
07:53 and fans are going crazy,
07:55 you became a star overnight.
07:57 Did you feel
07:59 that it would be a strange film
08:01 and you wouldn't understand what to do?
08:03 No, it wasn't like that.
08:05 I didn't know what it was.
08:07 What does a hit
08:09 mean?
08:11 I didn't know
08:13 what fans were.
08:15 I didn't know.
08:17 In my family,
08:19 I don't have a distant cousin
08:21 in the industry.
08:23 And our
08:25 family is
08:27 spiritual,
08:29 economist, economics,
08:31 education,
08:33 that's more in all.
08:35 So we never
08:37 watched films much.
08:39 Maybe that's why you were in the social service program.
08:41 Yes, I was in the social service program.
08:43 The line was different.
08:45 I didn't have an idea.
08:47 I was like, "Oh,
08:49 wow, this happened.
08:51 Oh, okay."
08:53 I didn't know what the result would be.
08:55 I didn't know
08:57 what the result would be
08:59 and millions of fans would be made.
09:01 I had no idea.
09:03 But yes,
09:07 whenever you
09:09 do any work,
09:11 when you get the praise,
09:15 your heart beats.
09:17 "Oh, wow, I did a good job."
09:19 People liked it.
09:21 So, you get happiness
09:23 from it.
09:25 So your life must have changed.
09:27 Like before, it was a normal life.
09:29 But after the blockbuster,
09:31 when you got fans,
09:33 you started getting slogans and posters.
09:35 Life became difficult.
09:37 First of all,
09:39 I mean, yes, fans
09:41 are coming.
09:43 It's one thing.
09:45 But living became difficult.
09:49 The normal life I was leading
09:51 was already abnormal.
09:53 I was living alone in P.G.
09:55 And suddenly,
09:57 the P.G. staff said,
09:59 "So many people
10:01 are standing outside your house.
10:03 You will have to leave."
10:05 Now, where should I go at night?
10:07 Where should I find P.G.?
10:09 At that time, agents were not there.
10:11 So, I was looking for an agent.
10:13 I was leaving at night.
10:15 I was carrying a bag.
10:17 And wherever I went,
10:19 I saw a heroine of 'Aashiqui'.
10:21 Now, what should I say?
10:23 "Heroine,
10:25 please don't leave."
10:27 So, it became difficult.
10:31 Life became very difficult.
10:33 But yes,
10:35 I say that by looking positively,
10:37 every challenge in life
10:39 teaches you something.
10:41 I got a lot of learning.
10:43 I think that
10:45 I became very fast.
10:47 I was 22 years old.
10:49 But I already took decisions for myself.
10:51 I used to handle my finances.
10:53 I used to decide
10:55 which picture to take,
10:57 which not to take, decision making.
10:59 Everything.
11:01 I learned a lot from my family
11:03 while living alone.
11:05 But when you live alone,
11:07 you have to handle many things.
11:13 Your personality starts to change.
11:15 When you lie,
11:17 you become a thief.
11:19 You become a different kind of personality.
11:21 You can become negative
11:23 by living alone.
11:25 You can start doing drugs.
11:27 You can start stealing.
11:29 You can become that kind of person.
11:31 And you can also
11:33 take it positively.
11:35 I started to become more spiritual.
11:37 I left films in 1995 and in 1997,
11:41 I started to make films.
11:43 If you remember any experience
11:45 during the shooting,
11:47 like Rahul Rai's first film.
11:49 And today, after 30-32 years,
11:51 when you meet somewhere,
11:53 what do you talk about?
11:55 Where do you meet?
11:57 I don't meet.
11:59 I don't go out.
12:01 I don't go to parties.
12:03 Everything is written.
12:05 I don't go out.
12:07 I go to bed at 10 am.
12:09 I wake up at 4.30 am and
12:11 start doing Namaskar.
12:13 My whole day has changed
12:15 since I started doing yoga.
12:17 My whole lifestyle,
12:21 yoga is my lifestyle.
12:23 Yoga is not just
12:25 asana, pranayama.
12:27 Yoga is a way of thinking.
12:29 And there are many practices
12:33 of that way of thinking.
12:35 When you go deep into yoga,
12:37 you don't know what's going on in the city.
12:39 If we talk about the poster of Aashiq's film,
12:41 neither your face was revealed
12:43 nor Rahul Rai's.
12:45 So, in the beginning,
12:47 didn't you feel that
12:49 you are working as a lead
12:51 and your face is not shown in the poster?
12:53 No, I love the poster.
12:55 I really liked it.
12:57 Not at all.
12:59 More than myself,
13:01 I always have a bigger picture
13:03 than my ego.
13:05 The beauty of the film,
13:07 the artistic things,
13:09 the creativity of the film,
13:11 is more important for me.
13:13 So, I don't feel,
13:15 why isn't my face shown?
13:17 I feel, how is the poster looking?
13:19 What is the background?
13:21 What is the light?
13:23 What is written?
13:25 What is the slogan?
13:27 I loved it.
13:29 Love makes life live.
13:31 I said, wow, what a slogan.
13:33 I didn't know,
13:35 actually,
13:37 I didn't know that
13:39 this kind of a person will come,
13:41 where our face is covered.
13:43 We had shot that scene.
13:45 But I didn't know that he will come in the poster.
13:47 But when I saw that,
13:49 I said, wow,
13:51 what a mystery is being created.
13:53 Because now,
13:55 people don't know who is inside.
13:57 And what he is doing inside,
13:59 I don't know.
14:01 But,
14:03 I thought it was a great poster.
14:05 After two decades,
14:09 when Aashiqui 2 came,
14:11 the same kind of poster was revealed again.
14:13 I was not around.
14:15 I went to Yoga.
14:17 After that, I was not in touch with the film industry.
14:19 After Aashiqui hit,
14:23 did the criteria of choosing films change?
14:25 Did you become a star?
14:27 When films came to you,
14:29 how did you sign?
14:31 By listening to the script?
14:33 At that time,
14:35 I was very surprised.
14:37 People's scripts were not ready.
14:41 When they used to come to me
14:43 to sign,
14:45 they had money ready to give.
14:47 They said, take this money and sign.
14:49 I said,
14:51 not take the money, but sign.
14:53 I will listen to the script first.
14:55 Where is the script?
14:57 Sign it.
14:59 This was the way.
15:01 But, because I am already an actor,
15:03 I want to see
15:05 what my role is.
15:07 What is the story?
15:09 My role and the story.
15:11 You see, everything is important.
15:13 When a story becomes a play,
15:17 not just one person is important,
15:19 every person is important.
15:25 I was asked to show the script.
15:27 No one had the script.
15:29 98% people did not have the script.
15:31 It was over there.
15:33 After that,
15:37 all the directors,
15:39 luckily for me,
15:41 saw me and came to me.
15:43 They said, the script is ready.
15:45 Like Rakesh Roshan, for King Uncle.
15:47 They had the script ready.
15:49 When they came,
15:51 they said, this is Fanny's character.
15:53 I said, wow, what a gone girl.
15:55 Fanny.
15:57 Fanny is a drink.
15:59 I said, her name is Fanny.
16:01 The character was very interesting.
16:03 She was very different from Aashiqui.
16:05 Mani Ratnam
16:07 made the character for me.
16:09 Chandralekha.
16:11 When she came, she was an underworld queen.
16:15 She was a very different character.
16:17 She used to run with boys.
16:19 She was hanging out with the boys.
16:21 She used to chase them.
16:23 There was a lot of movement in the film.
16:27 Dancing, movement.
16:29 She was very different.
16:31 But she made the story for me.
16:33 She made a role for me.
16:35 I don't have any roles.
16:37 I wouldn't have done
16:39 the normal role.
16:41 Ranjeet made a film about you.
16:43 Gajab Tamasa.
16:45 It was a very good film.
16:47 Your pose was also good.
16:49 It was a beautiful film.
16:51 She made a good film.
16:53 But the publicity was not good.
16:55 A product is ready.
16:59 But the publicity,
17:03 marketing,
17:05 it doesn't reach people.
17:07 It was a mistake.
17:09 It was a fantastic film.
17:11 I got Rakesh Dostan on the set.
17:15 For King Uncle.
17:17 Do you think that
17:19 there is no blockbuster film
17:21 like Aashiqui,
17:23 that it was not promoted properly?
17:25 Or it was not presented in front of people?
17:27 No, I don't think so.
17:29 Not at all.
17:31 It is a misunderstanding.
17:33 It is their thinking.
17:35 I think that
17:37 my entire career graph,
17:41 5 years.
17:43 What is 5 years?
17:45 It takes 5 years
17:47 for an actor to understand
17:49 someone's name.
17:51 What are 5-6 films?
17:53 You can see any actress.
17:57 She has done 30-40 films.
17:59 Even Girls War 30.
18:01 And every film of mine
18:05 was noticed.
18:07 In every film,
18:09 I wanted to play a different character.
18:11 Because I was an actor already.
18:13 My focus was
18:15 to play a role.
18:17 I wanted to play a good character.
18:19 Of course.
18:21 A good story,
18:23 good staff,
18:25 good team.
18:27 Very important.
18:29 I am unbelievable.
18:31 I have been doing this for 5 years.
18:33 And then films were released in Cannes.
18:35 Where else?
18:37 This kind of...
18:39 I got a film like Khalnaikar.
18:41 Who was doing women-centric roles?
18:43 Khalnaikar had a different role.
18:45 Right.
18:47 I got nominated for Filmfare Award.
18:49 It was my third year in films.
18:51 In my first year,
18:55 I got dozens of awards for Aashiqui.
18:57 In Filmfare.
18:59 In my third year, I was already nominated
19:01 for a role.
19:03 It is an unbelievable
19:05 graph.
19:07 Your career in Bollywood
19:09 was from 1990 to 1996.
19:11 Do you have any regrets?
19:13 That you are satisfied with the films
19:15 you got and the work you did?
19:17 I just told you.
19:19 I think it is unbelievable.
19:21 I got so much.
19:23 Without thinking,
19:25 without wanting.
19:27 I didn't want to become an actor.
19:29 Girls want to become actors
19:31 in the film industry.
19:33 I didn't want to become one.
19:35 I wanted to do social work.
19:37 When I came to Bombay,
19:39 I went to a blind school in Worli.
19:41 I wanted to work here
19:43 with blind kids.
19:45 They gave me a place to stay.
19:47 That's why I stayed in Bombay.
19:49 I came for a leave.
19:51 But the blind boys
19:53 there were trained
19:55 in counselling.
19:57 I was trained in counselling.
19:59 I did my Masters in Social Work.
20:01 I thought, fantastic!
20:03 I want to do this.
20:05 I was happy in the videos.
20:07 That was my dream.
20:09 The glamour industry
20:11 was out of the question for me.
20:13 I never had a dream.
20:15 I never had a link.
20:17 I didn't know
20:19 what was happening in the industry.
20:21 Who are the people?
20:23 The first time,
20:25 when Mahesh Bhatt came,
20:27 I had come from Paris.
20:29 I had
20:31 a time of 8.30 am.
20:33 I had a time of 8.30 am.
20:35 I had a time of 8.30 am.
20:37 My sister lived in Fiji.
20:39 She had a big bungalow in Bandra.
20:41 I went to her house
20:43 and opened the door.
20:45 She said,
20:47 "Anu ma'am?"
20:49 I said, "Yes."
20:51 She said, "I have come from
20:53 Yash Chopra's house.
20:55 He wants to do a film with you."
20:57 I looked at her face.
20:59 I thought, "Who is Yash Chopra?"
21:01 I called my father.
21:03 I said, "Your friend from Delhi,
21:05 he has a son.
21:07 He wants to make a film with you."
21:09 He said, "Are you crazy?"
21:11 My father said,
21:13 "Yash Chopra is a big film director."
21:15 I said, "Oh, sorry, Papa.
21:17 I am from Paris too. I didn't know."
21:19 I was in this condition.
21:21 This is all I knew about the film industry.
21:23 That same day, Mahesh Bhatt called me.
21:25 I had already met him
21:27 at a friend's place.
21:29 I didn't know him.
21:31 I am telling you one thing.
21:33 I had no idea.
21:35 The controversy about Khalnaika
21:37 was that Subhash Ghai's film Khalnaika
21:39 was being released.
21:41 It was a big mess.
21:43 Was the controversy because
21:45 the two films had the same plot?
21:47 I have no idea.
21:49 I really have no idea
21:51 what the controversy was.
21:53 When I am acting in any film,
21:55 I feel like I am
21:57 acting in a film.
21:59 I have my heart and mind set on it.
22:01 What people are saying,
22:03 what controversies are happening,
22:05 what happened there.
22:07 Because,
22:09 to be true to a role,
22:11 you have to get into it.
22:13 That's why I don't make
22:15 many friends on the film set.
22:17 I don't gossip.
22:19 Not at all.
22:21 I stay distant
22:23 because I find the role important.
22:25 To play the role,
22:27 I have to concentrate on it.
22:29 That's why Khalnaika.
22:33 I don't know how it happened.
22:35 How was the experience
22:37 of working with Jitendra
22:39 and Jaya Pradha in Khalnaika?
22:41 We didn't have many scenes together.
22:43 Because, they had more scenes together.
22:45 Some were with him,
22:47 some with Mehmood.
22:49 It was a very good experience.
22:51 In fact, there was a scene
22:53 where
22:55 there was a breast feeding scene.
22:57 Because,
22:59 this girl is a psycho.
23:01 So, that's what's happening.
23:03 Mehmood comes and sees it.
23:05 Mehmood asks,
23:07 "Was he the gardener?"
23:09 of that flat.
23:11 He says, "I'll tell you."
23:13 I tell him, "You're a mad man.
23:17 You won't tell me anything."
23:19 I slap him.
23:21 It was so difficult to prepare myself.
23:23 Because,
23:25 Mehmood is like my grandfather.
23:27 I had to go away from him.
23:31 I had to go away from my personality.
23:33 I had to say, "I'm doing it."
23:35 "She's a mad girl.
23:37 She's doing it."
23:39 I slapped him so hard.
23:41 He started crying.
23:43 I hugged him.
23:47 I said, "I'm so sorry."
23:49 He said,
23:51 "It's okay."
23:53 "Didi ji."
23:55 He used to call me Didi ji in the film.
23:57 "Didi ji."
23:59 You have always
24:01 broken the rule of women
24:03 in the society.
24:05 You've been alone since Delhi.
24:07 You've faced some problems
24:09 regarding skin color.
24:11 You've moved ahead.
24:13 You believe that
24:15 talent is everything.
24:17 You don't believe in anything else.
24:19 Where did you get
24:21 this perspective?
24:23 I don't know.
24:25 To be honest, I don't know.
24:27 I don't know where I got
24:29 this strength.
24:31 I mean,
24:33 I had so much confidence
24:35 that I could
24:37 move from one house
24:39 to another at night.
24:41 I was roaming alone.
24:43 I never felt
24:45 that no one
24:47 could do anything to me.
24:49 I always felt that
24:51 God has a superpower.
24:53 I always felt that
24:55 my friends,
24:57 like Chandra and Surya,
24:59 are my friends.
25:01 They come here everyday.
25:03 They are my friends.
25:05 My other friends disappear.
25:07 Sometimes they come, sometimes they don't.
25:09 These people come everyday.
25:11 They are my friends.
25:13 So, my connection with nature
25:15 and
25:17 my connection with a higher superpower
25:19 has always been there.
25:21 And it has given me so much strength
25:23 that no matter what happens,
25:25 even in an accident,
25:27 I have the same strength
25:29 that I had inside me.
25:31 Doctors also say that it's a miracle.
25:33 They didn't expect it.
25:35 They said, "Oh, the girl died."
25:37 I had told my parents
25:39 that there are 50-50 chances.
25:41 When I came out of coma,
25:43 I was 29 years old.
25:45 I was in a coma.
25:47 I couldn't get up.
25:49 When I got up,
25:51 they said that
25:53 my condition was totally
25:55 out of body.
25:57 I was in a state of shock.
25:59 I was experiencing
26:01 out-of-body experiences.
26:03 I don't know what was happening.
26:05 I told my parents that there are 50-50 chances.
26:07 The girl will die.
26:09 She will have a gestation period of 3 years.
26:11 Will you tell us what happened?
26:13 After 3 years,
26:23 I went to the hospital
26:25 while doing catwalk.
26:27 The doctors fell from the chair.
26:31 Almost.
26:33 Not literally.
26:35 How did this happen?
26:37 They themselves say that it is a miracle.
26:39 How did it happen?
26:43 What happened?
26:45 Why did it happen?
26:47 It is a nonsense to think about.
26:49 Why?
26:51 Because I got connected to God.
26:53 Vasudev Kutumbakam.
26:55 I felt my inner self.
26:59 My life has moved ahead from there.
27:03 I have also opened a foundation
27:05 for people.
27:07 I still have this.
27:09 I never get this
27:11 hatred,
27:13 jealousy,
27:15 anger
27:17 from anyone.
27:19 I feel that
27:21 everyone is doing
27:23 what they can.
27:25 What can I give to them?
27:27 What can I do for people?
27:29 I feel that
27:31 even in acting,
27:33 I am coming back,
27:35 people ask me what kind of roles
27:37 I will do.
27:39 I said that I will do roles
27:41 that uplift people.
27:43 I have always been like this.
27:45 I will make a girl uplift.
27:47 Did you have this mind
27:53 that you are not doing films,
27:55 so you are attracted to yoga
27:57 and you are planning to leave the industry.
27:59 No, I don't know.
28:01 I never thought
28:03 about it.
28:05 I was in my 20s.
28:07 I was a young girl.
28:09 I was alone.
28:11 I was thinking about
28:13 my life.
28:15 I had to stand in a queue
28:17 to pay a mobile bill
28:19 in an office.
28:21 I used to stand up.
28:23 I don't have any ego issue.
28:25 But when I fell in love,
28:27 I couldn't stand up.
28:29 People used to run and ask for my autograph.
28:31 It was difficult for me.
28:33 I had to face
28:35 everything.
28:37 I had difficulty
28:39 all day long.
28:41 Everyone was my fan.
28:43 You don't know
28:45 who is right and who is wrong.
28:47 How can I make a girl
28:49 walk?
28:51 How can I keep myself safe?
28:53 So many people are after me.
28:55 People used to stand
28:57 in a queue all night.
28:59 I was scared to leave home.
29:01 I was fearless.
29:03 My mother said,
29:05 "You are fearless since childhood."
29:07 You are not scared of anything.
29:09 Suddenly, I was scared.
29:11 What should I do?
29:13 Maybe that's why I left the industry.
29:15 I didn't get
29:17 upliftment in my character.
29:19 I got fans.
29:21 I am grateful.
29:23 But as they say,
29:25 personality has changed.
29:27 I was
29:29 down with people.
29:31 I was already there.
29:33 I could do everything.
29:35 I was already a supermodel.
29:37 I was already traveling
29:39 and earning in dollars and francs.
29:41 It was French francs at that time.
29:43 It was a union.
29:45 And
29:47 whether you are earning
29:49 in
29:51 pounds in London.
29:53 I was already
29:55 earning. I used to classify business.
29:57 My first job
29:59 was abroad.
30:01 I went for my first modeling job
30:03 in economy.
30:05 I didn't try
30:07 to do it.
30:09 I was alone from the beginning.
30:11 Life has given me
30:13 so much.
30:15 There was no reason
30:17 to leave films
30:19 and do this.
30:21 I thought
30:23 I will do yoga.
30:25 We do activities.
30:27 What do we do when we play?
30:29 One play is over.
30:31 We don't know when the next play will come.
30:33 We don't know what role we will play in the next play.
30:35 Which is beautiful.
30:37 It's not like we have become a heroine.
30:39 In every role,
30:41 we will be as glamorous
30:43 and will do the same kind of jattak matak.
30:45 We will cry the same way.
30:47 We do that. What happens most of the time?
30:49 Most of the time,
30:51 the actor
30:53 keeps on
30:55 playing the same character.
30:57 I already
30:59 got the chance
31:01 to change the character
31:03 in every film.
31:05 I changed my voice.
31:07 I changed the way I walk.
31:09 I changed the reactions.
31:11 I changed the way I think. Everything changed.
31:13 The dress changed. Everything changed.
31:15 I had
31:17 achieved so much.
31:19 What could be
31:21 a better achievement than that?
31:23 There were so many directors at that time.
31:25 Mani Kaul, Mani Ratnam,
31:27 Mahesh Bhatt, Rakesh Roshan,
31:29 Sawan Kumar,
31:31 Tak. Take these directors.
31:33 Who were they?
31:35 Who were the directors of this level?
31:37 How many were there at that time?
31:39 I didn't see any other director
31:41 with whom I could work.
31:43 You understand?
31:45 You should have
31:47 seen what you could do.
31:49 You should have a horizon.
31:51 I felt that
31:53 I had never imagined
31:55 that I would be so successful.
31:57 I was so excited.
31:59 What next?
32:01 What is more than this?
32:03 From the beginning,
32:05 I have
32:07 this growth-oriented
32:09 mind.
32:11 I am the most
32:13 famous,
32:15 the richest,
32:17 this is not my dream.
32:19 My dream
32:21 is to grow
32:23 and one day
32:25 I will reach God.
32:27 This is my dream since childhood.
32:29 I had to reach God
32:31 with an accident.
32:33 I was so small, so damaged,
32:35 I was 100%
32:37 decent, I was broken
32:39 into 1000 million pieces.
32:41 So much pain,
32:43 so much disambiguation,
32:47 so much
32:49 memory loss.
32:51 What will a person do?
32:53 What will he do?
32:55 You are not able to understand
32:57 where you are,
32:59 who these people are.
33:01 You close your eyes and reach God,
33:03 but you have to live in this world.
33:05 You have to live in this world.
33:07 I had lost all that.
33:09 I had lost everything.
33:11 And from that
33:13 thing,
33:15 like my mother says,
33:17 you have
33:19 joined yourself together
33:21 and started walking again.
33:23 Otherwise, people die.
33:27 Doctors say that
33:29 9 out of 10 cases like yours
33:31 die in bed only.
33:33 They die in coma.
33:35 7%
33:37 die
33:39 in their homes.
33:41 What happens to them?
33:43 They cannot get up
33:45 from their beds.
33:47 They have to get up.
33:49 Their body is weak.
33:51 They don't know anything.
33:53 They have to learn ABCD like children.
33:55 Your films have made
33:59 many couples.
34:01 People got married
34:03 and started loving each other.
34:05 You have not married yet.
34:07 Oh God!
34:09 Please tell me. I have not found anyone yet.
34:11 I am open.
34:15 If you find someone,
34:17 please tell me.
34:19 No,
34:21 your relations were going on.
34:23 No, that is the answer.
34:25 When you came back
34:27 after the accident,
34:29 your look changed so much
34:31 that people knew the old Anu
34:33 was in front of them.
34:35 You did not make any changes.
34:37 You went with your natural look.
34:39 Today, women do cosmetic surgery
34:41 and other surgeries
34:43 to change their look.
34:45 But you became an inspiration for women
34:47 that I will go with my natural look.
34:49 So, where did
34:51 your strength
34:53 develop from?
34:55 How did you become an inspiration
34:57 for women?
34:59 You are absolutely right.
35:01 We had an interview
35:03 and I told them
35:05 that I will never do plastic surgery
35:07 or botox
35:09 or any other surgery.
35:11 I will never do it.
35:13 I will never do it for girls.
35:15 Because,
35:17 these days,
35:19 girls are getting influenced
35:21 by social media and influencers
35:23 and doing all these things.
35:25 It is so harmful for them.
35:27 I said this and it went viral.
35:29 I want to tell you
35:31 that
35:33 who is the biggest
35:35 in you?
35:37 The biggest
35:39 is your inner soul.
35:41 You call it
35:45 Prabhu from the outside.
35:47 You call it Christ.
35:49 You call it Muhammad.
35:51 But, from the inside,
35:53 we all have
35:55 that superpower inside us.
35:57 And,
35:59 when you
36:01 get to know it,
36:03 when you feel
36:05 so much strength,
36:07 it happens
36:09 on its own.
36:11 You don't need to do it.
36:13 It happens on its own.
36:15 It happens on its own.
36:17 So,
36:19 this is what I want to tell everyone.
36:21 And that is what meditation yoga is.
36:23 What is it?
36:25 It is
36:27 how to
36:29 calm our mind.
36:31 Because, our mind is so agitated,
36:33 confused.
36:35 We are always
36:37 thinking about tomorrow.
36:39 We are living in past
36:41 and future.
36:43 All the time.
36:45 We don't know
36:47 how to enjoy the present.
36:49 We are not taught in school or college.
36:51 We don't know.
36:53 So, when we
36:55 go inside ourselves
36:57 and make
36:59 a connection with our inner self,
37:01 your dreams come true.
37:03 Let me ask you
37:05 a rapid question.
37:07 Mr. Govinda, you were called Hollywood.
37:09 So, what is the reason behind it?
37:11 I don't know. Ask him.
37:15 I have no idea.
37:17 So, is it because of your looks, height,
37:19 or how you look?
37:21 I don't know.
37:23 He used to call me. I didn't.
37:25 I have no idea.
37:27 Ms. Amitabh Bachchan, you are living alone in Mumbai.
37:29 You have so many fans.
37:31 And after Shikki's hit,
37:33 you were surprised
37:35 that you are living alone.
37:37 The biggest thing
37:39 is that
37:41 he was so supportive.
37:49 He used to say
37:51 good things to me.
37:53 When I used to see him,
37:59 I used to feel
38:01 that he is a good guy.
38:03 Just like parents think.
38:05 I used to have
38:07 his point of view.
38:09 How do you live alone?
38:11 And then,
38:17 when Shikki's film was released,
38:19 he asked me
38:21 how is it possible
38:23 to live alone for 3 years?
38:25 I said, thank you for the compliment.
38:29 Because you are saying
38:31 that I have played
38:33 two different roles
38:35 and age groups.
38:37 I am 17, 18, 19 years old in Shikki's film
38:39 and 31 years old in Khalnaika's film.
38:41 I am a girl in a sari.
38:43 I am married,
38:45 I have a kid.
38:47 I never thought about it.
38:53 I said, okay, I don't know.
38:55 Like you are asking
38:59 how do you get this strength.
39:01 So I started
39:03 researching about it.
39:05 I think how to tell
39:07 everyone.
39:09 Now I think
39:11 I don't want to
39:13 become a film actress
39:15 and join a film industry.
39:17 Not at all.
39:19 Today I think
39:21 I should teach my industry people
39:23 what I have learnt.
39:25 Because after all,
39:27 this is my home.
39:29 So, do you plan to return?
39:31 Yes, I am telling you
39:33 that industry is my home ground.
39:35 Film modelling,
39:37 entertainment business.
39:39 This is my home ground.
39:41 I bought my first bread and butter
39:43 with this money.
39:45 This made me independent.
39:47 My dream was to become
39:49 self-dependent.
39:51 This made me independent.
39:53 So I want to pay my homage.
39:55 And okay,
39:57 so much time has passed.
39:59 Okay, whatever.
40:01 But in films,
40:03 of course,
40:05 I am open to acting.
40:07 I am here.
40:09 I was very hesitant
40:11 for interviews.
40:13 I was thinking where I was giving
40:15 interviews for so many years.
40:17 Yes, true.
40:19 It's been 25 years.
40:21 So, do you have a message
40:23 for the viewers or fans
40:25 or for such girls
40:27 who are coming from other parts of the country
40:29 to make a career in Mumbai?
40:31 Any message for them?
40:33 I want to tell
40:35 all the fans
40:37 I am back.
40:39 And you will get to know
40:41 many things from me
40:43 when you will see me
40:45 acting and
40:47 whatever interviews
40:49 or whatever comes along with it.
40:51 Once I get into the public thing.
40:53 So, I will say all the best
40:55 and I love you.
40:57 Thank you, Aluji.
40:59 Thank you.
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