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00:00Hello, in this video, this video is addressed to my twin flame, Shia.
00:07Hi, Shia.
00:08For those watching and thank you for watching, this is going to be some crime against me
00:15and my twin flame, Shia.
00:17Anything that I say in this video may or may not be true, cannot be used against me, and
00:20if you try to, you'll be illegally framing me and you'll be sent to jail and sued for
00:26trying to legally frame me.
00:29And anyone who's watching this wants to help Shia Lissa, not attack Shia Lissa.
00:35So, Shia, I have a lot of photos to show you and some notes.
00:42Um, I have some notes here.
00:55So I'm still demonically possessed and Shia, I do feel better because I got confirmation
01:02from you with the numbers on Instagram that this me turning into someone else is not going
01:14to separate us.
01:21So, first let me read the notes and I have the meal plan that I want to show you.
01:28I'm a little tired because I just got all the cleaning done, besides mopping.
01:32I cleaned the bathroom.
01:35I cleaned, I vacuumed and dusted.
01:41So, I did not go drive the car because I've been warned by child path supporters that
01:49it's probably not the oil in it.
01:54It could be the, in order to get access to the motor oil, you can't really go underneath
02:04the car and the brakes, the fluids, the cords next to the tire where the brakes are is the
02:10brake fluid and when I backed up, backed out of the car, when I backed up, backed out of
02:20the parking lot, the car does have a leak.
02:24I saw it.
02:26But I've turned on the car multiple times these past couple of weeks and nothing leaks.
02:36However, I still don't know what to do about the vehicle in regards to laundry.
02:44So, I got my rent check up at Albertsons, which is east of here.
02:52However, I'm going to have to go north because east is a really bad area.
02:58It smells wicked bad, like I can barely breathe.
03:01It smells like shit and piss, like really bad and all kinds of different odors that
03:06make you want to gag and like, honestly food comes up, the odors are so bad.
03:14Like, when I walk in downtown, in the streets, it doesn't feel like air.
03:20It feels like a thick feeling against, hitting against your body and skin.
03:26Like a thick odor.
03:28Odorous, nasty odorous smell.
03:32So, I have done ablution, A-B-L-U-T-I-O-N, several times today and yesterday and it is working.
03:42So basically, it's not, I don't do it perfectly.
03:49However, you're supposed to start from right to left.
03:52And you, when I run, I go under the water and I, this is also an energy healing too,
03:59Shia, to rub your body because we're abuse victims, S-E-X abuse victims.
04:09We don't really touch ourselves and also because we're demons, we're not really going to be
04:15touching ourselves.
04:18We're not really allowed to touch ourselves because also it can deactivate the A.I.
04:26So you go, Allah is the most gracious, most merciful.
04:29Well, you know how to, you can do it your own way, Shia, but you have to say it three times
04:34and you have to like, rub three times, wash your nose three times, your face, behind your ears,
04:42this, up your, to your elbows and your feet and ankles.
04:51The ablution is actually really powerful.
04:53I did it when I got back from the grocery store.
04:57I did it after I cleaned and it's really easy and I think what was preventing me from doing it
05:05was because I was running the cold water and using the warm water is way better.
05:10So also, I've recited the Quran in the bathtub.
05:15I'm doing one hour versus two because I'm just too tired and I'm getting burnt out.
05:20Reciting the Quran in the bathtub I think is more powerful.
05:25Obviously, I'm not going to do it every single day.
05:28However, so far I've noticed difference.
05:31The rodent, rat, mice, rukya is really working, so I'm going to continue doing that.
05:40In regards to laundry, there's a laundromat north.
05:46That's a better area and a better neighborhood.
05:49That's where I'm going to get the money order for my rent next time if I'm not driving the car yet.
05:56I just paid my car insurance early.
06:02I paid the rent.
06:05I paid the power of Quran.
06:11The security cameras paid.
06:18This security camera saved our life.
06:24We never would have found out about this family member taking over my body.
06:30That wasn't a coincidence.
06:32I got Hannah's herb shot.
06:38I got an order.
06:42I got the Hannah's herb shot order.
06:46I'll show you what I got.
06:49The tired blood tea.
06:54The nerve tea.
06:57The circuit flow for the heart.
07:00This is the free blood tea.
07:05The nerve tea.
07:06The circuit flow for the heart.
07:09This is the free anti-fatigue for adrenals, which is really good for the kidneys.
07:18I'm very happy to get this.
07:20I'm going to go down.
07:22I'm going to make a note of that.
07:24They're going to send it out today or tomorrow.
07:26I'm going to go down every single day to make sure that the package doesn't get stolen because it got stolen the last time.
07:34It's not a coincidence that Hannah's herb shop called me curious about the address that I give.
07:45With the address that I give, I put an underscore between number 1 and 14 because it can be confusing.
07:56It can be confusing.
07:59They might think it's 114th Street, but they're still using confusion around the address.
08:09It's Building 1 on 14th Street, and they're continuing to make that very confusing.
08:18But they called me because they wanted to make sure they were getting the address correct.
08:24I've already received.
08:26That's not why they called.
08:28I already received, and it was a really nice lady that picked up the phone, a young lady.
08:42And I already got packages, and they never fail coming here without address.
08:51Someone stole my package, and that was a year ago.
08:59August 23.
09:02August 5, I bought something from Hannah's herb shop that was delivered.
09:14I'll show you it was delivered.
09:16This is what I bought.
09:20Grief fibropastic and the Soma board.
09:23The Soma board is really good to put your groceries on top of.
09:27I think you had invented it, Shia.
09:34But this was delivered August 5, 2023.
09:40And I got confirmation that it was delivered from Hannah's herb shop, which was the confirmation from the tracking.
09:50Your order has been delivered.
09:59So I have this email.
10:00I think I have to...
10:14A shipment with the tracking number has been delivered, and I never...
10:20They didn't have it down in the security office, and there was a problem with people stealing packages down there for a long time.
10:29But this criminal knew my package was down there and delivered, and somehow I waited.
10:40Somehow I did not go down there on time, and it was purposeful.
10:48So they called to basically also show me that that package was not lost on August 5, 2023.
11:01And I never...
11:03Since that happened, I stopped buying packages for like a whole year.
11:10I've only gotten one thing, which I had to get, which was the printer that I haven't hooked up yet.
11:19So I wanted to share that with you, Shia, that that's most likely evidence that I'm getting my packages stolen.
11:28So I have to be very careful.
11:31I'll call security in the morning as soon as it's...
11:36I'll call the security and say I'm looking out for a package that got stolen the last time.
11:45So I'm drinking elderberry green tea that I just got at Albertsons.
11:54So I went to Albertsons. I got the rent check.
11:57Nothing really...
11:59There wasn't a lot of attacks. There was someone that tried to talk to me in the line.
12:04And I went like this to act like I can't talk because I knew that he was trying to throw a demon at me.
12:19So I got these...
12:24Where is it?
12:27I got these French rolls.
12:29Some of the green elderberry tea. It has 100% vitamin C.
12:33And see, I got these little cupcake liners.
12:37So when I make my biscuits, I can pour them in the cupcake liners so that they don't...
12:45So that the consistency is not like...
12:50So if I poured it in the pan on the tin foil, well...
12:58You have to grease the tin foil, but it just kind of like spreads out and doesn't stay in one place
13:05when you use water versus milk and eggs.
13:10So...
13:12Also, I found out one thing about...
13:23Walmart delivery is they don't have the time to check expiration dates.
13:29And see how these potatoes have spots all over them?
13:34They're not supposed to have spots all over them.
13:36They're not supposed to have spots all over them. I looked it up previous to these potatoes.
13:42And the date says 9-24.
13:46So it's really...
13:48It's really difficult.
13:50I never used to have a problem with so much rotten food.
13:54It's possible that Walmart doesn't do a good job with...
14:01taking expired food off the shelves, because that's 9-24.
14:07It's possible, but I've also found...
14:11I've also been having rancid food that's not expired on the box.
14:17Like the coffee, which was the half-calf coffee.
14:24I brewed it and I had to throw out the whole box.
14:28And the...
14:32It's not like...
14:34It really smelled like really bad.
14:37It smelled like the whole rum.
14:39It was definitely rotten.
14:41So the coffee was rancid. I threw it out.
14:46The other batch of coffee didn't smell good.
14:50So I don't know what happened with the coffee.
14:54I don't know what happened with the coffee.
14:57I had to throw out...
15:00I didn't throw out the second batch, because I'm curious to see.
15:03Maybe it's like some kind of AI weapon that's messing with the coffee.
15:08However, it didn't smell good.
15:10It tasted kind of funny.
15:12But I have these Folgers individual packs.
15:16Like for backups that I had a cup today.
15:19And that tasted pretty fine.
15:24So that's the problem with grocery deliveries.
15:27You will get rotten food, because they don't have time to check dates.
15:32Yeah, I threw out that bread that has holes in it, because I don't want to eat that.
15:49And you're feeling happy, Shiloh Pendulum.
15:51I checked today.
15:53You're getting emotional, physical, spiritual support from these videos.
15:58And I'm getting a lot of support from you.
16:01Because you're watching them.
16:03I don't often say it, because I don't want it to...
16:06As soon as I say it, it'll be taken from me.
16:09That's why I don't mention things.
16:11I don't say that often.
16:15But when I see that, the Pendulum,
16:18that you make me happy,
16:21that I make you happy,
16:23I hug the pillow.
16:24It makes me really happy.
16:26I hug you, Shiloh, the pillow.
16:34So I vacuumed, dusted,
16:37and cleaned the bathroom, the toilet, the bathtub.
16:39I'm very happy about that.
16:42I'm going to probably clean these sheets and blankets.
16:47Probably...
16:51Another thing I'm worried about is that it has to be dried in a matter of time.
16:56So it's possible...
16:59I have to get cash in order to...
17:02If I do the laundry in this building, it's not going to be on this floor.
17:06There's no way I'm going to do laundry on this floor.
17:08And if I do laundry in this building, I'm not going to leave the laundry room.
17:12Because someone could put something inside the laundry.
17:17Poison, anything.
17:19They could put... I mean...
17:22I've literally smelt and seen urine and dog feces in the laundry room.
17:30And now I'm wondering if that was on purpose.
17:37I'm not sure.
17:41But anyways, that's very unsanitary.
17:45I prefer hand-washing my clothes than using the washer and dryer.
17:53It's possible I can use the dryer on another floor.
17:59However, I might just take my suitcase,
18:03go to a laundromat, and walk with my suitcase to a laundromat.
18:09Because when you use a dryer,
18:11it gets to a certain temperature that kills all the germs.
18:14And if I hand-wash everything here,
18:26it's probably not going to be good because I can't dry it.
18:30I'd have to air-dry it.
18:32I'll see what happens.
18:34There's a lot of home-making videos and websites.
18:42Where home-makers...
18:46It's kind of like a lifestyle to wash your clothes and blankets and sheets at home.
18:53So I'm very happy about the order that I got.
18:57I know that these herbal teas and these things are...
19:04The teas and the herbal supplements are going to help me a lot.
19:09And it's actually very true.
19:12These supplements are so gentle.
19:15I sometimes think, like, wow, these supplements aren't working.
19:22But it's not that they're not working.
19:24They're so gentle that it really is like taking food.
19:29You don't get any side effects or symptoms or feel bad with these types of supplements.
19:35You don't get nausea, like nothing.
19:38It's extremely gentle and no side effects from taking these herbal supplements.
19:47Even with some vitamins and minerals that you take, you will get some side effects.
19:55Not with these herbs.
20:00And they're even very easy to swallow.
20:04And that's actually a sign that it's very gentle and easy to take.
20:22So I passed in the lease amendment addendum.
20:28And I signed my name on it.
20:31I just put add.
20:36I signed my name.
20:42And I just said add to addendum.
20:47Add to lease addendum.
20:52So, and then I signed it.
20:55I didn't want to go in there and ask.
20:58And I'm pretty sure that's correct.
21:00It can't really, whether it's correct or not.
21:06That's kind of like a tricky document.
21:09It's very confusing.
21:11And...
21:20It just said, it says to add.
21:26It says, the following persons are to be added or deleted from the lease.
21:32Indicate which.
21:35And then the following persons are to be added or deleted from the household.
21:39So I said, continue to add me on the lease.
21:45So, that's, I filled it out correctly.
21:50So, I was actually really happy that they called.
21:53I was really shocked.
21:55I was worried that, like, I was going to, like...
22:01I sounded nice on the phone.
22:03And I'm pretty sure they were, it was sort of like a confirmation.
22:09Like, yeah, that package was sent and delivered.
22:11And a criminal steward that stole that package.
22:15And that prompted me to take photographs of that email from August 5th, 2023.
22:21When the package was delivered.
22:38And when I came back from the grocery store.
22:42You know that the neighbor's friend that was outside said, don't take my picture.
22:49And I was standing with the chicken and the french fries.
22:53I've been repeatedly running into her.
22:56I haven't even shown you the amount of times I've been running into her.
23:01However, I'm pretty sure.
23:05It's possible there's this neighbor's using an AI mask and using her.
23:11Because she's agreed.
23:13But this is the back of her.
23:15And whether or not it's an AI mask.
23:20It's possible I've run into her several times.
23:25She could have agreed.
23:29But you can, they just kept saying, don't take the photo.
23:33Because they can't recognize her from the back.
23:37However, yeah, you can.
23:40However, yeah, you can.
23:43Because you can.
23:56And then, like, all these little secret coded messages.
24:02Green, Bo, B, Al.
24:06First taking of my body is Al.
24:09Left, pink in the left side.
24:15Green is like the new.
24:18Army green is like the new code for family.
24:21Because of that family tree with the army green colored shirt.
24:25It's just, I'm.
24:33And.
24:39And.
24:52But I have to go to a different grocery store.
24:54Going east is not a good idea.
24:57The odors of the.
25:00It's like a demonic odor.
25:04It's not really a good area.
25:08But there was someone outside preaching the gospel in the corner of the street.
25:11Which was kind of nice.
25:16But when I got back, I immediately did the ablution, the water.
25:19I guess we can call it the water ritual.
25:23Water cleansing ritual.
25:24Water, it's not really cleansing.
25:27I'm getting kind of annoyed with how I'm talking in this video.
25:30But I can't help it.
25:31They're definitely, obviously, attacking you and me.
25:38So.
25:43I have a little bit of foundation on my face.
25:45I kind of need to get a better color.
25:48But it's really hard to find.
25:49And I don't want to spend $20 on foundation.
25:52At CVS.
25:56So it's only like.
25:58Going to the other grocery store.
26:01Will only be.
26:03Not that.
26:05Much longer.
26:06There's only 13 more minutes.
26:15But whether this was an AI mask.
26:18The.
26:19I was walking down the street from Albertsons.
26:21After I got my rent check.
26:23And she was.
26:28Walking by.
26:32But it didn't really look completely like her.
26:36It kind of looks like.
26:40Like two kind of perfect looking healthy looking like.
26:45Too well dressed to like.
26:48AI.
26:49So it could have been her and they use an AI mask on her.
26:51Or it could have been the.
26:53Criminal.
26:54That's attempting to.
26:56Fart me.
26:58But if they want to prove AI.
27:00If people want to prove that AI.
27:03Masks.
27:04Exist all they have to do is.
27:06Watch these cameras.
27:28I think it would be less effort to.
27:30To actually go to the laundromat.
27:33I'm just only concerned.
27:35About.
27:36The wheels on the suitcase.
27:38If they break.
27:40It's not going to be good.
27:41This is an old suitcase.
27:42Like I've had it.
27:44I've been walking around with it.
27:46Up and down the stairs.
27:47At least.
27:48For three years now.
27:49So.
27:50It's not going to be good.
27:51It's not going to be good.
27:52It's not going to be good.
27:53It's not going to be good.
27:54It's not going to be good.
27:55It's not going to be good.
27:56It's not going to be good.
27:58years now.
27:59So.
28:01But I.
28:02Don't see him washing.
28:05Pretty much.
28:07It might not be actually.
28:08Get.
28:09Cleaning up.
28:11So I'll see.
28:12What happens.
28:13To that.
28:21The.
28:22Fans.
28:23Rest.
28:24Name.
28:25night overnight on extremely low volume as usual and it was even on a lower
28:34volume so I could barely barely hear it so it wouldn't work and the hacker
28:38turned my volume down. He's done this a lot many
28:45many many many times over the course of many years
28:50and it's been repeatedly turned down off dozens if not hundreds of times over the
28:58years
29:03but if I keep seeing that neighbor's friend that's that's harassment
29:09especially with all the covert messages all over the
29:14clothing that's harassment
29:20so I
29:27one good news is and Shia
29:32I like I know that you don't care about what has happened to me
29:39obviously you care but there's no way that's gonna prevent us from being
29:43we're way too old and this was obviously a plan to keep making it possible for us
29:50to be together and it's pure murder because I've lost a large part of myself
29:56I remember living in my car jumping living in my car going to not jumping
30:05out my car going to getting out of my car and going into grocery stores many
30:11many times throughout the years of living in my car and I'd have to say a
30:16few words to the cash cash cashiers and sales associates and then my voice
30:22sounded either like I was acting like a man or I acted like
30:28not myself like like a different type of female and like really like mercilessly
30:34annoying it always humiliated me but now I'm starting to realize that it was
30:40synthetic duplicate of a family member that they were not telling me
30:46but I've definitely lost a large part of my identity part of me is actually
30:54permanently gone until this gets erased until this gets removed
31:02erased you couldn't be any more mean forcing
31:06someone out of their own body and forcing them to be them the one who's
31:12doing it to me and stealing my identity away from me
31:17you couldn't be any more mean but thinking about
31:30but I'm very happy Shia
31:37I'm very happy that they're really trying with AI to mess this up but when
31:43I noticed when I got confirmation from the telepathic supporters and you
31:48telepathically it's not always like in words when you
31:53connect with me telepathically but you are you give me confirmation in a way
31:57that I can't explain but the thought of being which I don't
32:01usually say on the internet but the thought of being intimate with you makes me feel
32:04very close to you Shia and we're going to be with each other very soon
32:11and if this if your cousin mutilated your body there's no way that that will
32:17prevent me from being with you it's a deformity it's humiliation it's gross
32:23disgusting and evil criminal but I would do everything to fix it and stop it and
32:33staying away from you or feeling like I can't be close to you and connected with
32:39you would not be the way that I would act and
32:44you know you now that you're aware we're both aware
32:50I can feel obviously better and feel that there's going to be improvement
32:56I wish there has been improvement
33:00however it's it went on for too long without me knowing so it's not going to
33:07be it's not going to be fixed in a few months it's not going to be fixed it's
33:12possible well it has to be fixed within a year or two because we have to have
33:17children there's no way I'm going to have a child with her synthetic DNA in
33:23my body or whatever whatever it is but the lack of information of what's going
33:28on with my body and what has been done to me by this criminal taking over my
33:33body and making me be her that's making it a lot worse
33:44but I I was looking up last night while I was reciting the Quran can you get in
33:52trouble for spying because the cuddle cut open walls and listening to my every
34:00move and responding replying to all kinds of thoughts 24-7 and it's not just
34:13like it's extreme intimidation threat tactic the spying and stalking and
34:17harassment
34:23I can't really go into detail about it on the internet however spying is
34:29spying is a crime spying and stalking is a crime when I was looking that up I
34:36noticed that the celebrity P Diddy is in jail for underground sex trafficking
34:44business and they found a thousand bottles of
34:54baby oil lubricant which is really disgusting beyond disgusting but this is
34:59very good news it shows that things are timed because these people are coming
35:06out like a hundred and twenty people came out and told told on him and told
35:12on him and were sexually assaulted by him or whoever I don't know I'm not
35:19looking into the story too much cuz I'm not I can't go on the internet look up
35:24sites
35:27because the advertisements but the I've heard that I just don't really want to
35:34look into the story to begin with people from 1990s are coming out and telling
35:39the cops the investigators what this criminal has done to people so this is
35:49very good news for Australia it's and it's very good news for
35:56it's just very good news
35:59it shows things are timed there's timing involved
36:07so I called security and and I sent the detective the footage of the recording
36:15security camera recording of the loud slapping hitting banging on the wall
36:23which is in the area where I don't believe it could have been hitting my
36:29wall not the piece of wall there's two walls in the installation
36:34and that was that was the threat because there was voices involved with
36:40that
36:42and there's I'm not going to go into detail
36:47but you think it's evidence that this loud bang on the wall and obviously that
36:52was a threat to you because it was while I was recording these videos
36:59because I timed this and go on these videos in specific time and I hear
37:03noises that are a threat before I make this video like months and months now
37:14but when I was living in my car and before that how I was acting like my
37:21personality like my voice whatever it is a shell though it is a shell of her
37:27because there is inside inside the shell is me because I can I'm moving
37:33around but I see her movements but like it's like it's just interpreting what
37:41her movements would be like it's not like she's actually controlling my body
37:45I was responsible I was repulsive but how I was reacting and sounding I
37:52thought it was possession but this is this is this is killed my self-esteem
37:59it's killed my looks I've and they do everything to make me feel so ugly doing
38:04it witchcraft on my hair to make my hair ugly and making my body really fat even
38:10when I eat very little they can puff out your body with AI like 24-7
38:19but that was humiliation torture and it still is still is going on
38:26but this because of the synthetic duplicate or whatever it's called
38:30so I've been spraying my
38:34so with the peppermint oil you can also peppermint oil mixed with water rodents
38:41hate peppermint and also they use peppermint and temples holy temples for
38:47purification to remove evil and you also spray your chakra area it has a
38:53little sting burning sensation but it's not bad for you because there's a
38:58menstrual period brand of pads menstrual pads sanitary pads where they put
39:05essential oils on the pad and you get kind of a sense men's all sensation when
39:10you put those pads on but it's not bad for you so I know that it's not bad for
39:14you because because of that sanitary pad brand that sells the peppermint
39:19essential oil on the menstrual pads
39:26but I am getting extremely angry looking at the mirror
39:35now I have to show you the photographs and I should show you these real quick
39:45I
39:51didn't have enough magnets so I put a sticker I cut a sticker and put it on to
39:58cut the sticker in a circle and put it and that's blue for Shia and then orange
40:05stripes for this family member changing my looks and making me
40:14dangerously fat
40:17is going to go somewhere most likely prison
40:28but I have to do everything in my power to not have all this blow in these
40:33cravings I would like a food and just it'll just be scarred like just throwing
40:38it down and like I was it just feels like it's not me at all this walking
40:42entity has been doing this to me for a long time to try to kill me so these are
40:47so I I the only pages that I go in order is like I'll highlight what I've had and
40:59this is actually making me have lack of appetite so I have so many options so
41:05jello mandarins wafers I haven't even had any of those yet because I haven't been
41:11hungry and breakfast bagel grits coffee water I kind of have to throw those
41:17bagels out because they are kind of stale oh sure I can make biscuits there
41:25was a sour smell to the bagels they're edible the expiration they didn't
41:32expire yet so I'm not I'm not gonna throw them out but like I told you like
41:39I have to have fresh food like I can't I can't make a mistake I prefer throwing
41:47out food even if it's
41:52not that bad to eat because I can't I can't take any more food poison so
41:59Ovaltine chocolate milk herbal tea grape juice and then I have some lemonade and
42:08then supplements I'm taking my prenatal supplement and then the other
42:13supplements so I have two sections because usually I have I can't just take
42:20them all at once and then those are add-ons biscuits pancakes tortilla with
42:25salsa
42:28vegetable broth
42:32but I am I'm told to put all my food in the closet because someone's gonna heat
42:39up all my food and make all my food rancid I'll I'll I don't think there's
42:47any holes in those cupboards I looked
42:54there's only so much I can do that's that's really unsanitary to put food in
43:00the closet so even though it's a threat I get all
43:06kinds of threats like that and if it comes true and I get I have to throw it
43:11on my food because of all the food getting destroyed from the heat then
43:20but but I highlight and I I'm even using an orange highlighter to remind myself
43:25that this person's gonna go somewhere for put making me a hundred and fifty
43:32pounds hundred fifty five pounds I'm probably 135 pounds right now but I
43:38never used to have this weight problem my entire life I just kept on getting
43:42fatter and fatter my arms kept my arms started getting really really fat 25 26
43:47it's the meals
43:52and try don't buy me my personality my voice how I'm sounding it's really
43:57annoying me you're doing something with AI with my voice to annoy you and attack
44:01you as well as me
44:06so
44:10I haven't actually been that hungry however obviously
44:18it's just like a constant fight no food no food no food if I go sit down food
44:24they'll gross me out though I can't it's
44:31but I'm gonna keep reciting on the keep reciting the cure on do the
44:39ablution the cleaning cleaning with the depth of the vacuum and dusting in the
44:44clean the bathroom has made the energy way better
44:49it's not going to show you by the way you know that wreath on the off at the
44:56rental office store there's eyeballs just on the left side
45:03remember how I told you
45:19there's eyeball there and there
45:25that's the left side and I didn't look on the right side but those eyeballs are
45:32also up here and doesn't that look like security camera
45:40so and remember how I had the security camera in the kitchen
45:46you
45:53and even well I'm gonna talk about this another time I'm not going to show you
45:57all the pictures right now because there's timing involved
46:03I was really happy to finally put an elastic on this so when I go out and
46:11walk in the walk out there all I have to do is put the camera in here and hold
46:19it it's on the elastic and it won't fall I really need to get something for this
46:24I had an elastic on here but it broke or I had something on here a piece of rope
46:29or something string
46:34I really don't like how I'm sounding but I can't help but try
46:39so I wanted to talk to you more about the meal plans
46:45it's very important Shia
46:48I've been also
46:52in that book Mrs. Roars Died for the Sick
47:00I'm on a part with the pregnancy oh I'll show you
47:04so who's to eat and obviously you can follow the diet to Shia
47:11when we are pregnant
47:22oh so I have some more recipe tips that I can share with you
47:28I have some more recipe titles to show you and then when you see start pregnancy
47:34that's I'm gonna I'm writing down all the things to give myself and then all
47:40the things to give myself and you Shia and things to give the child because this
47:47is I haven't really learned how to properly live
47:53like also another good thing is to get some fresh air in the room and like
48:00change the air it's called like changing the air
48:04so now I have I don't know where I left off to what I showed you
48:17I showed you that
48:20I think I showed you that
48:29I think I showed you that yeah I showed you that one
48:35just I don't I don't think I showed you this
48:44and I try so hard to make the handwriting better because I think that
48:48I'm gonna show you and I I really want you to see every word however because of
48:55the possession I can't write as neat as I want to
49:04so I'm on a section of what to eat when you're pregnant what to feed the infant
49:12and
49:15there's just there's a what I didn't know which I just recently learned is
49:20after you have the baby you're not supposed to leave the bed for five days
49:25so and there's a specific diet to eat when you're breastfeeding yeah there's
49:32a specific diet to eat
49:42and this will be good for you to know because you'll be able to remember some
49:47of these things
49:51we'll have it print like printed
49:58did I just show you this page or not
50:12so I have to stop this I'm going to continue doing this I didn't do a marine
50:18technology today yesterday I'm just really burnt out I am going to recite
50:22the Quran now
50:42so I saw the notes I have and I'm going to keep reading that book
51:10so I'm going to stop this video Shara and
51:33so I'm going to talk to you tomorrow Shara
51:37just know that I'm thinking about you Shara I felt very close with you yesterday I
51:40didn't want you to
51:46I know that you're extremely upset Shara however I'm not going to die and
51:54I'm actually really really happy and excited that I get to be myself soon
51:59I really miss myself I liked myself
52:06I liked I liked I really did like myself
52:12so as much as it's like it could kill me feeling this way knowing what's going on
52:18with my body and my brain and whatever all the things that's happening to me
52:23too with the NC walk-in and the criminal trying to take over my body I really
52:30think that now that we know and it's exposed we're going to be able to fix it
52:37and heal it and
52:41I'm going to be able to be myself so I'm going to talk to you tomorrow
52:48Shara just know that I'm thinking about you
52:52I'm playing a video it's how pleasure scores are talking about you
52:58to me and the possession doesn't really allow me to write a lot of it down for
53:03some reason I haven't been able to write in our book so it's possible it's
53:12supposed to be saved for when you get here I have not been able to I've had
53:17too much possession to be able to even think about this and write in it I
53:21physically have not been able to write in it so there's a reason
53:28so I'm going to call I'm going to talk to you tomorrow Shara I love you Shara
53:33thank you everybody for watching thank you so much Shara for watching