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00:00:30When we die, and move on to new lives
00:00:58How will I find you?
00:01:02Will you know it's me when I do?
00:01:07Will we remember how it felt
00:01:11When I held you, still having me figment?
00:01:15Will it drift away
00:01:18A distant memory of yesterday?
00:01:23A new life, when you lie awake at night
00:01:31Are you thinking of me, hoping I'm sleeping sweetly?
00:01:39Are you thinking of how it felt
00:01:43When you held me, so happy that you melt?
00:01:48Will it drift away
00:01:51Dreaming of another day?
00:02:21I totally answered.
00:02:22Oh my God, you answered to say that you weren't going to go to Florida.
00:02:25I mean, that was a given.
00:02:27It was never even on the table.
00:02:29It wasn't an option, so it doesn't even count.
00:02:31That's like nixing the tiramisu.
00:02:32Nobody wants a fucking tiramisu.
00:02:34I do, I love tiramisu.
00:02:35I love tiramisu, baby.
00:02:37Listen, I love this platter.
00:02:39That's a Wi-Fi password.
00:02:40You have no idea the kids got my phone.
00:02:42Nora, sweetie, do you have a bowl, like a real bowl, for the dip?
00:02:46Yeah, sure, this isn't a real bowl.
00:02:47No.
00:02:49What's your Wi-Fi password?
00:02:51Hey, if you get on, can you check something for me?
00:02:53Oh, and maybe something green or red, you know, something the color of the cops.
00:02:57You got it, okay.
00:02:58Nora, Wi-Fi.
00:03:00Home sweet home.
00:03:01Oh, and you know what?
00:03:02Maybe a little bit of jicama as well.
00:03:04You're amazing, fuck Shannon.
00:03:05No, we need jicama.
00:03:06I hate jicama.
00:03:08Babe, you want these?
00:03:10Oh, baby, what are you doing with those?
00:03:11Please throw them out.
00:03:13That's good.
00:03:14Fuck, was that ours?
00:03:16That was.
00:03:19Mommy!
00:03:20Kate, Kate, please, just don't throw up in the pool.
00:03:22I'm not going to throw up in the pool.
00:03:26Daddy, look!
00:03:28Oh, beautiful.
00:03:30We're applying to the science magnets.
00:03:32Oh my gosh, that's great, that's so amazing.
00:03:34You remember Ben in kindergarten?
00:03:35Yeah.
00:03:36He had the rocking chair, every chewable on the market.
00:03:37Right, right.
00:03:38Hey, look, look at this picture.
00:03:39He's even wearing a lab coat.
00:03:41Oh, that's adorable.
00:03:43Guess what?
00:03:44Oh, hey.
00:03:45Mom said you'd give me a bandage.
00:03:46What happened?
00:03:47Max pushed me.
00:03:48Oh, I'm sorry.
00:03:50Where did it, where?
00:03:52On your, I don't even see, does it hurt?
00:03:55Not really.
00:03:56Okay, well, there should be some in the pool house, okay?
00:03:58I don't like princesses, I like dogs.
00:04:00You don't like princesses, but dogs, oh.
00:04:03All right.
00:04:05No!
00:04:24What is it?
00:04:25What happened?
00:04:26She's not breathing.
00:04:27What happened?
00:04:28She's not breathing.
00:04:29She's not breathing.
00:04:30Call 911!
00:04:31Oh, sweetheart, somebody call 911!
00:04:35Oh!
00:04:46Mom!
00:04:47Mom!
00:05:05Follow me
00:05:09Through the trees
00:05:13We'll go walking in the sun
00:05:19Find a place
00:05:23To lay down
00:05:27When you're scared, my
00:05:29My
00:05:34And I miss you lately
00:05:41And darling, don't I know
00:05:48That I loved you completely
00:05:55And it kills me
00:05:57To let you go
00:06:01To let you go
00:06:03To let you go
00:06:28You don't have to wait with me, you know.
00:06:30I know.
00:06:31Crosby said, you know, until we find the right balance, it's better.
00:06:34Half the country is on meds.
00:06:35Michael, you don't see them being driven around by their exes.
00:06:38It's fine.
00:06:39Shelby doesn't mind.
00:06:40Oh, well, that's nice.
00:06:42I know.
00:06:43Such a big heart.
00:06:44Too big.
00:06:45Got two stray cats living on the porch now.
00:06:48Wow.
00:06:49Cats.
00:06:50Yeah.
00:06:51She's really helped me get over, I mean, sorry, not get over, get through everything.
00:06:59Letting go.
00:07:00I'm so glad.
00:07:03Not that it's not okay to not be okay.
00:07:05Thanks.
00:07:08She has a podcast, actually.
00:07:10It's called A Must Listen by Christian Countdown last month.
00:07:14Rolling Holy.
00:07:16I know, it's a cute name.
00:07:18But it's number six on the charts.
00:07:20Oh, gosh.
00:07:21Yeah, I'm gonna have her talk to David this weekend.
00:07:23You know, he's got that show on whatever network it is.
00:07:27But, you know, podcasts are huge right now.
00:07:29I'm sorry.
00:07:31This weekend?
00:07:33Wow.
00:07:34Well...
00:07:35They're doing it?
00:07:36You're going?
00:07:37Well...
00:07:39It is a tradition.
00:07:40Our tradition.
00:07:41And to honor that, Shanna decided to host.
00:07:45Without me.
00:07:46For you.
00:07:48Without you.
00:07:50Look, you know they'd love to see you.
00:07:52Oh, I'm sure.
00:07:53When you're ready.
00:07:54When you're ready.
00:07:55Which, um...
00:07:57Actually...
00:07:59There's something that I've been meaning...
00:08:01Listen, I'm sorry.
00:08:02Do you know if it's time?
00:08:03Uh...
00:08:04I really don't want to cut it short, this session.
00:08:06Right, uh...
00:08:07Listen...
00:08:09Are you sure that this is the right way to be moving on?
00:08:12I mean, you know Lily?
00:08:13I just want to make sure she's helping.
00:08:15And not hurting.
00:08:17Um, I'm gonna head back and use the restroom, if that's okay?
00:08:20Come on, Nora.
00:08:21Thanks for the ride, Michael.
00:08:22I'm so happy you've healed.
00:08:25That's not fair, Nora.
00:08:26We deserve another chance.
00:08:28We both do.
00:08:29You're allergic to cats.
00:08:31Not anymore.
00:08:33Wow.
00:08:35What a blessing.
00:08:37I hope you have fun this weekend, Michael.
00:08:39Letting go.
00:08:40You definitely deserve it.
00:08:42Nora, please don't...
00:08:45What do you mean, plateau?
00:08:47It's repeat exposure, that's how it works.
00:08:49Michael has a new girlfriend.
00:08:50Does he?
00:08:51Mm-hmm.
00:08:52She has her own podcast.
00:08:53It's, like, on some top ten list or something.
00:08:56Oh, please.
00:08:57Anyone can have a podcast.
00:08:58You're making actual change.
00:09:00Besides, you've only been with us for, like, what?
00:09:01Two months.
00:09:02That's nothing.
00:09:03It used to take you two months to pick out an outfit.
00:09:05Oh, my God, really?
00:09:06In high school, Gary.
00:09:08Kids are mean.
00:09:09Not to you.
00:09:10God, she was so cheerful.
00:09:11I mean, like, happy-happy.
00:09:13Was I?
00:09:14Anyway, they're your friends.
00:09:16Not yours.
00:09:17Oh, yeah?
00:09:18You call being the hook-up to my weed-dealer brother a friendship?
00:09:20How is Walt?
00:09:21Oh, my God, VP of sales, Midwest division.
00:09:23But, I mean, pharmaceuticals are huge right now.
00:09:25Anyway, patience.
00:09:26Memory is tricky, yeah?
00:09:28We got lots of loose ends.
00:09:30How will I know when I'm ready?
00:09:32You'll know.
00:09:33We'll know.
00:09:34Okay.
00:09:35Let's start with the bird cam, and let's get our baseline.
00:09:38Okay.
00:09:39Does that feel good?
00:09:40Mm-hmm.
00:09:41Thank you, Gary.
00:09:42All right.
00:09:43Let's get those birds going.
00:09:45Okay, okay.
00:09:47Busy day in the garden today.
00:09:50Oh, no.
00:09:53Her nest.
00:09:54Again?
00:09:55Yeah, it was a hawk this time.
00:09:57They've been circling the day before.
00:09:58There were like three or four eggs in there.
00:10:00That is so sad.
00:10:02Well, you can't use old wood to make a new nest.
00:10:04She's starting again.
00:10:06I know.
00:10:07Are those eggshells?
00:10:09So morbid, right?
00:10:10Talk about not turning the trauma wheel.
00:10:12Well, you know what?
00:10:13Birds aren't exactly known for their brains.
00:10:14I thought they were smart.
00:10:16Are they?
00:10:17I don't know.
00:10:18I mean, they're birds.
00:10:19Yeah, they have tiny heads.
00:10:21At least she won't forget.
00:10:23Memory is the enemy.
00:10:25Okay?
00:10:26Don't be that bird.
00:10:27You're right.
00:10:28You're right.
00:10:29Let's try, Lily.
00:10:30Let's see if it's time.
00:10:31Okay, all right, all right.
00:10:32Gary's gonna come get you hooked up.
00:10:33No, no, no, no.
00:10:35Without the headset.
00:10:37In person.
00:10:38No, we are getting there.
00:10:39Okay?
00:10:40Your startle reflex is nonexistent.
00:10:41I don't even flinch.
00:10:42Which is how we know it's working.
00:10:44Okay, are you going this weekend?
00:10:46I heard Shannon's hosting.
00:10:47No.
00:10:48I mean, maybe.
00:10:49No, I mean, I'm just...
00:10:50I haven't even seen Ben invite me.
00:10:52Have you been sleeping?
00:10:54Okay.
00:10:55Gary, can I...
00:10:56He's right there.
00:10:57Can I get two milligrams of midazolam?
00:10:58Okay, girl.
00:10:59Get the dizzle.
00:11:01Maybe I don't need it.
00:11:02Maybe I should try.
00:11:03It's not that easy.
00:11:04We would need Bob to sign off.
00:11:05We would need releases.
00:11:06To see our friends?
00:11:08Look how far you've come, Lily.
00:11:10You're practically a doctor now.
00:11:11Well...
00:11:12Maybe now they'll stop hitting you up for, like,
00:11:14free yoga or Walt's weed.
00:11:16Right?
00:11:17Right.
00:11:18So, Shannon's hosting, right?
00:11:19She's got the room.
00:11:20Oh, she's got more than room.
00:11:21She has a whole lake house now.
00:11:23Her grandpa finally kicked it, yeah.
00:11:24Oh.
00:11:25The whole house.
00:11:26Really?
00:11:27Like in my sim?
00:11:28Well, it was easy to replicate,
00:11:29and I figured you would go there eventually,
00:11:31so it would be, you know...
00:11:32Familiar.
00:11:33Yeah.
00:11:34How perfect.
00:11:35Well, not yet.
00:11:36I mean, we still gotta build it out.
00:11:37It's early.
00:11:38Okay, well, though, that's not far.
00:11:39Special delivery.
00:11:40We're out of two,
00:11:41so I got you a four.
00:11:44Ooh.
00:11:45Wow.
00:11:46You ate this morning, right?
00:11:47Lily, come on.
00:11:48I'll be your surprise guest.
00:11:49Oh, it would be a surprise.
00:11:50And they would be...
00:11:51So happy to see me.
00:11:52Oh.
00:11:53Okay, let's get you hooked in.
00:11:54Okay.
00:11:55I will check your levels.
00:11:56Oh, I'm not getting hooked up.
00:11:57We're gonna...
00:11:58What are you talking about?
00:11:59No, what...
00:12:00Please, you have to be careful with that.
00:12:01Please, I need you to stop touching.
00:12:02You stop touching!
00:12:03Hey!
00:12:04Time out.
00:12:05Gary, over here.
00:12:06Nora, you don't just show up, okay?
00:12:08That's not how it works.
00:12:09Do you want me to get Bob
00:12:10or somebody from up on four?
00:12:11Oh, fuck Bob.
00:12:12What the fuck does Bob know?
00:12:13He is trained in the five stages of grief.
00:12:15I thought there were seven.
00:12:18You're thinking of seven habits.
00:12:19Oh, such a good book.
00:12:20Yeah, well, he doesn't know grief like I know grief.
00:12:22Okay.
00:12:23So fuck him.
00:12:24There are seven fucking stages to mine.
00:12:25All right, all right.
00:12:26We're gonna put this on,
00:12:27and then we're...
00:12:28Nora, you are wasting time.
00:12:29He is starting over, Lily.
00:12:32Look, we're gonna get a baseline.
00:12:34We're gonna watch the bird cam.
00:12:35Maybe she made a new nest.
00:12:37I don't want a fucking baseline.
00:12:40I don't want a new nest!
00:12:41Hey.
00:12:43Memory is the enemy.
00:13:08Oh.
00:13:24Okay.
00:13:26Hey, babe, did you get ice?
00:13:27I told you to get ice.
00:13:28Yeah, yeah, I got it.
00:13:29I got it right there.
00:13:30Um, got a bag?
00:13:31Put it by the cooler.
00:13:32One bag.
00:13:33Well, the store,
00:13:34they were down to two,
00:13:35and I didn't want to clean them out,
00:13:36I didn't want to clean them out, so.
00:13:37Of ice.
00:13:38Well, it's hot, babe.
00:13:39Exactly.
00:13:41OK, don't worry about it.
00:13:42I'll go to the store, and I'll get some more.
00:13:43No, Tom, it's too late. Come on.
00:13:45Mark is probably already close.
00:13:46OK, you know what, then?
00:13:47I will, I will make some.
00:13:49I'll go into the house, and I will.
00:13:51What, watch water freeze?
00:13:53Is that what you're going to do?
00:13:54You're going to watch water freeze?
00:13:55OK, yes, OK.
00:13:56I love you, I love you, I love you, Shannon.
00:13:59No, he's not staying there.
00:14:01We told some assistant that like a billion times.
00:14:06I didn't say that.
00:14:08No, lemons.
00:14:10Lemons, Jesus, who the hell needs designer fucking lemons?
00:14:14What?
00:14:15Oh, fuck off.
00:14:17How's your mother, David?
00:14:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
00:14:20Very funny.
00:14:22It would have killed him to build a cell tower out here.
00:14:25Hey, man, does this look upside down to you?
00:14:27Dude, uh, wrong person to ask.
00:14:29So it's a wireless weekend, David.
00:14:31Oh, yes, yes, totally, yes, I know.
00:14:34And also, Tom would love help with these chairs.
00:14:36So sit.
00:14:37Come on, build.
00:14:38Come on, I got you, bro.
00:14:39I got you.
00:14:40Hey, thank you.
00:14:41Yep, totally.
00:14:43Just one last call.
00:14:45One last call.
00:14:47Last call.
00:14:47I don't believe you.
00:14:49Yes, I, I, David, yes, remember me?
00:14:51Well, uh, fuck you, and I need to speak to business affairs.
00:15:05I mean, what are they shooting at?
00:15:06I've seen, like, three squirrels.
00:15:08No, two now.
00:15:11Hey, babe?
00:15:12Yeah?
00:15:13That light in the shed, it's out.
00:15:17I thought we fixed that.
00:15:18We?
00:15:20You, you, babe.
00:15:23I love a woman who can't see.
00:15:25I love a woman who can't hear.
00:15:26I love a woman who can't see.
00:15:28I love a woman who can't hear.
00:15:30I love a woman who can't hear.
00:15:33I love a woman who can get things done.
00:15:35When the guy comes to fix the hot tub,
00:15:37he can do the shed, too.
00:15:39Oh, my god, this is amazing!
00:15:43Ah, it's like a late 80s summer house.
00:15:45Minus, you know, the wine cooler is making out with a neighbor
00:15:48and taking a shit in the bushes.
00:15:49What is up?
00:15:50You made it.
00:15:51Oh, my god, I can't believe I haven't been here.
00:15:53Hoarder, you house hoarder.
00:15:55You've totally been here.
00:15:56Have I?
00:15:57Yes, my baby moon, remember?
00:16:00Before Ryder.
00:16:02Oh, god, well, I was tipsy from all of that,
00:16:04so fresh eyes.
00:16:05So sweaty, what are you, walk here
00:16:07all the way from Walnut Creek?
00:16:08I just got confused.
00:16:09I thought it was closer to town.
00:16:10I had to stop at the mini mart for, you know, essentials.
00:16:12The guy didn't want to wait.
00:16:13Hello, hello!
00:16:14Hey, Katie, fist bumps!
00:16:15Oh, no, fist bumps are for four-year-olds, Tom!
00:16:17Give me some hugs!
00:16:19Oh, hi, baby.
00:16:20Want a drink?
00:16:21Can I get you a drink?
00:16:22Yes, please, I would love.
00:16:24Another six-pack?
00:16:25Because one's never enough.
00:16:26Oh, god, my sponsor's here.
00:16:27Spouse, sorry, spouser, ex-spouser.
00:16:29Guess I won't be working the steps this weekend.
00:16:31Which were always so effective.
00:16:32Oh, well, it was kind of hard to work step nine
00:16:33over the sound of you having sex with strangers
00:16:35you met on the internet.
00:16:36Oh, god!
00:16:37Here we go!
00:16:38And wine comes in four packs, not six.
00:16:40I'm not a heathen.
00:16:41Well, once it's pull tab, it's pretty irrelevant, right?
00:16:43I mean, you're basically drinking booze from a juice box.
00:16:45Okay, you come inside with me,
00:16:46and the boys are going to build furniture.
00:16:48Yeah, we're building chairs.
00:16:49Well, Tom, well, you know, gotta sit somewhere.
00:16:52Everything was rotted through when we got here,
00:16:54so I figured while I have you.
00:16:55Oh, my god, totally, David loves building furniture.
00:16:57He goes to a very peaceful place.
00:16:59Someone could open a hardware bag
00:17:00without blasting lug nuts everywhere.
00:17:02Who opens bags with scissors, David?
00:17:04Everyone!
00:17:05No one!
00:17:06Okay, Kate, come on.
00:17:07Oh, I'm coming.
00:17:08Oh, well, it's good to see you, Kate.
00:17:09Oh, god, whatever, eat me.
00:17:11Oh, okay, yeah.
00:17:13Huh?
00:17:14You don't hear that every day.
00:17:15I hear it a lot.
00:17:16Uh-huh.
00:17:17Well, you know what, we'll let them do their thing,
00:17:19and we'll do our thing, huh?
00:17:21We'll have a man weekend, a meekin.
00:17:23How about that?
00:17:24Oh.
00:17:25Oh.
00:17:26Oh.
00:17:26Oh.
00:17:27Oh.
00:17:28Oh.
00:17:29Oh.
00:17:30Is he Dr. Bindel?
00:17:31You can't tell.
00:17:32He's running out of some comb.
00:17:34Consciously uncoupled.
00:17:35No, no, you do, you do.
00:17:37Just.
00:17:39Do you mind?
00:17:41Tiny slices.
00:17:43We did go.
00:17:45It was, well, he's still sleeping in the attic.
00:17:48We're still getting divorced eventually,
00:17:49but at least we can share a fridge space
00:17:51without shitting in each other's yogurt, you know?
00:17:54I mean, it would be far more satisfying
00:17:55to wrap his balls in cheesecloth
00:17:57and have them permanently cast.
00:17:58I'm so sorry.
00:17:58Thinner slices, just.
00:18:02You're gonna, like, tweet the cheese plate?
00:18:05Not anymore.
00:18:06No, we're good.
00:18:07We're good.
00:18:09I just wouldn't say we're thriving.
00:18:11Oh, God, man, who is?
00:18:12Right, hey, I'm just gonna keep working on my novel,
00:18:15playing some fantasy football,
00:18:17a little guitar, binging Wildwood.
00:18:20Bro, that shit is crazy.
00:18:22Those fuckers, they keep eating each other.
00:18:24What the fuck?
00:18:26Yeah.
00:18:28God, it makes you appreciate what you have, you know?
00:18:32Right, right.
00:18:34So you guys, there's a lot of paperwork involved.
00:18:37Divorce, you know?
00:18:38Yeah.
00:18:39Plus, we still have sex every now and again, so.
00:18:42Nice, yeah, we're still checking that box, so, yeah.
00:18:49Anyway, I get it.
00:18:50Oh, do you, though?
00:18:52Tom doesn't seem like a sex with strangers
00:18:54I met on the internet kind of guy.
00:18:55No.
00:18:56No, he's too lazy for that, probably, but.
00:19:01Too nice to waste time.
00:19:04But, you know, after everything happened
00:19:05and I was contagious with misfortune,
00:19:08he was like this sweet, sad, collaterally damaged dog
00:19:12just waiting to be re-homed.
00:19:14Look at that.
00:19:16Oh, God, it's the wiring.
00:19:19That was supposed to come weeks ago.
00:19:20The shed, the hot tub, there's no AC.
00:19:23The weather we've been having.
00:19:24Here's hoping we don't fry.
00:19:27Oh, God, wow.
00:19:29What is this for?
00:19:30Yeah, mine didn't come with that.
00:19:32Jesus, it's heavy.
00:19:33Yeah, okay, well, let's not, you know.
00:19:35Yeah, maybe they didn't include this,
00:19:36so when you assemble it backwards, you gotta smash it.
00:19:41Right, right.
00:19:41Instead of starting over.
00:19:42Well, I'm guessing you got the bench here.
00:19:45Ah.
00:19:46Shit, dude.
00:19:48Yeah, hunters, open the weekend.
00:19:54We'd be wearing something bright.
00:19:55Brighter than those shorts.
00:19:58These are nice, dude.
00:19:59No, you're good, you're good.
00:20:04Hey, would you say you're having more sex now
00:20:09or when you were married?
00:20:10I don't know.
00:20:11I mean, maybe now, but it's a pain in the ass, man.
00:20:14Don't do it.
00:20:16Plus, married dudes live longer.
00:20:17They've done studies.
00:20:19Happily?
00:20:20It doesn't matter, they just do.
00:20:23Anyways, I've seen Shannon at a school board meeting.
00:20:25I would not want to see her in family court.
00:20:27No, you don't.
00:20:28No.
00:20:32Shit, man.
00:20:46I just feel like we're the only ones here.
00:20:48Well, summer's done, it's hunting season,
00:20:51the locals take over.
00:20:52Well, we're kind of locals, right, babe?
00:20:54I mean, we just gotta ease into it, you know?
00:20:57Let go a little.
00:20:59I let go.
00:21:01Yeah, yeah.
00:21:03No, you do.
00:21:05Anyway, Tom and I, after everything happened,
00:21:08we just found a way to escape the city, you know?
00:21:11And I can't believe it's only been.
00:21:13A year.
00:21:14Exactly.
00:21:15Almost to the day.
00:21:17So fucked up.
00:21:18Woo-hoo-hoo!
00:21:23Has anyone talked to her?
00:21:25Barely.
00:21:26Not since that whole celebration of life thing at school.
00:21:31I mean, you know, I tried to stay in touch for a while,
00:21:34but it just.
00:21:35Well, that was very satisfying.
00:21:38Biodegradable, right?
00:21:39With the golf balls?
00:21:41I don't know, I thought they were yours, no.
00:21:44Oops.
00:21:45Oh, no.
00:21:49So, what kind of wildlife do you get on here?
00:21:54Ducks?
00:21:54You mean, what kind of furry wildlife, please?
00:21:57Ducks.
00:21:58They're not wildlife?
00:21:59I mean, they're ducks.
00:22:00I don't know, like squirrels, skunks, right, babe?
00:22:04They're not really woods people, guys.
00:22:06What the fuck, then why are we here?
00:22:08Someone had to host, you know,
00:22:09the whole nature is cleansing thing,
00:22:11and no one else offered, it might as well be me.
00:22:15At least I could put together a cheese plate.
00:22:17No offense to Nora.
00:22:18I think this was Lily's idea.
00:22:19Remember when she was texting everyone about her healer,
00:22:22like drinking chloroform, whatever?
00:22:24Oh, yeah, it's chlorophyll, plant-based.
00:22:26Oh, well, sorry, I'm not a scientist.
00:22:28She is persuasive.
00:22:29Yeah, she's a free spirit, very free spirit.
00:22:34I just never understood Nora's thing with her.
00:22:36High school, years of don't forget.
00:22:39It's guilt.
00:22:40You know, I mean, we all got out, had lives, came back.
00:22:44She's exactly where we left her.
00:22:45Her brother had very good weed.
00:22:50What is she, like a therapist now, or a life coach?
00:22:53That's cool.
00:22:54No, it's always the crazy ones.
00:22:57Speaking of which.
00:22:58Oh my God, is that?
00:23:01Of course it is.
00:23:02I mean, only Lily could convince a fisherman
00:23:03to be her ride, oh my God.
00:23:05Oh my God.
00:23:08Oh my God.
00:23:11Welcome to paradise.
00:23:13I forgot how adorable this place is.
00:23:16I mean, I would have been here every weekend.
00:23:17Well, you know, grandpa was alive until recently.
00:23:20These vibes are so good.
00:23:21Yeah, yeah.
00:23:22Did you sage it?
00:23:23I bet you saged it.
00:23:24I did, I mean, Tom has allergies, so.
00:23:27Okay, Lily, I'll put this in the house, please.
00:23:29Oh, thank you, Tom.
00:23:30Still tall.
00:23:32What is up?
00:23:33Hey.
00:23:35Wow.
00:23:36You look good.
00:23:36So good.
00:23:37Hi, hi, hi, hi, hi, hi, hi, hi.
00:23:40You know, I didn't tip him.
00:23:42You think I should have tipped him?
00:23:43Yeah, probably.
00:23:44Isn't he like a cab on water or whatever?
00:23:46I think he was just a fisherman.
00:23:48Local flavor, I mean, he didn't say much.
00:23:52He's probably psyched to have more
00:23:53than just dead fish on his boat.
00:23:54Well, maybe the no bra thing silenced him.
00:23:58Oh God.
00:23:59Well, he did look stunned.
00:24:02I'm sure.
00:24:03Okay, let's go.
00:24:04Okay.
00:24:05I guess it's just gonna be that kind of weekend.
00:24:07It doesn't have to be, it's just starting.
00:24:10I can't believe this is all yours.
00:24:12Yeah, right?
00:24:14Please.
00:24:16Yeah, look at the hour hand.
00:24:17Woo, look at that.
00:24:18Diamonds?
00:24:20Gothenburg.
00:24:21Woo, vikings!
00:24:23Hey!
00:24:24Vikings!
00:24:26What's up?
00:24:27Wow.
00:24:30How's it doing?
00:24:31What's I get to?
00:24:32What is that?
00:24:33That is Old Norse, my friend.
00:24:35Getting back to my roots.
00:24:36Language of the Vikings.
00:24:38Yeah, except less village sacking.
00:24:40Oh, come on, man.
00:24:41Sack a village.
00:24:42You know what sacking is, right?
00:24:43It's not like a county fair.
00:24:44You know what?
00:24:45I should learn a language.
00:24:46Finally get to Paris and write my novel.
00:24:49Oh God, now you want to go to Paris.
00:24:50Yeah.
00:24:51And hi, I'm Tom.
00:24:52Nice to meet you.
00:24:53Shelby, hi.
00:24:54Thanks for having me.
00:24:55Oh, absolutely.
00:24:56Shelby, sorry.
00:24:58Dave, David, David, whatever works.
00:25:01Hi, Kate.
00:25:02I'm sorry, I didn't know where to park.
00:25:04I had no idea it was so-
00:25:05Oh, the two miles?
00:25:06Yeah, grandpa didn't like visitors parking down here.
00:25:08Sorry.
00:25:09Like saggy old cot.
00:25:10Oh boy.
00:25:11All right, so hey, man,
00:25:13are you playing fantasy football this year?
00:25:14I didn't see your name on it.
00:25:15Yeah, no, no, no, no, no.
00:25:16Fresh start, you know?
00:25:17Shelby, you know?
00:25:19I'm on a path.
00:25:20Hi, I'm Lily.
00:25:22New me.
00:25:22Right.
00:25:23Probably heard a lot.
00:25:24Well, you know, it's all true.
00:25:27Oh my God, you're so tiny.
00:25:28Fresh start.
00:25:29Tiny little boy.
00:25:29That's awesome.
00:25:31All right, so are you guys like, did you come together?
00:25:35Oh God, no, no.
00:25:36No, no, no, no, no.
00:25:37We kind of still live together.
00:25:38Yeah, but we don't drive together.
00:25:40I used to have to go limp in the front seat like a rag doll.
00:25:42She is the worst passenger.
00:25:43Apparently it's safer, so my body just knew what to do.
00:25:45And our therapist said,
00:25:46well, our ex-therapist suggested.
00:25:48That we drive separately.
00:25:49Oh, I hear ya.
00:25:51When Michael drives, I just close my eyes
00:25:53and let Jesus take the wheel.
00:25:55She does, and he does.
00:25:57Oh, it's not really safe to drive in sandals either, so.
00:26:00Hey, Mike, I'm gonna grab these bags for you, okay?
00:26:02No, no, no, no, I'm fine, yeah.
00:26:04No, about the bags, if they drip,
00:26:06it's because, well, it's not all,
00:26:08I mean, some of it's clothes, but some of it's-
00:26:10Yeah.
00:26:11I usually bring my own,
00:26:12that way I know it's been humanely slaughtered.
00:26:14Right, okay.
00:26:15See, this way, it won't get on the rug.
00:26:16It comes out with a little bit of bleach,
00:26:18but I'll just use a little bit of cooler space.
00:26:20Yeah.
00:26:23Oh, gosh, do y'all have any more ice?
00:26:26♪ And I feel, and I feel, and I feel, and I feel, and I feel ♪
00:26:29They were huge, like pterodactyls.
00:26:31They just kept, so.
00:26:33So, what are we doing?
00:26:34Oh, just one emotion, anything that comes to mind.
00:26:37Well, we're in this cycle right now.
00:26:39Saturn's trajectory and its force field
00:26:41is essentially being attacked by all the carbon particles
00:26:44put in the air from homogenized milk.
00:26:46It's affecting the entire animal kingdom,
00:26:49but the dairy lobby is so strong,
00:26:51no one's talking about it.
00:26:52That sounds kind of fake.
00:26:54Shelby does a lot of deep dives.
00:26:55For the podcast, a spring in Guinea Gap
00:26:58leaps into the void.
00:27:01Hey.
00:27:04Oh, no, no, no, no, it's just one emotion per strip.
00:27:06You've got three here.
00:27:07Sometimes I feel three things.
00:27:09Okay, well, just for the purposes of the game,
00:27:11I'm just gonna, yeah?
00:27:12You said you were gonna take the weekend off.
00:27:14We haven't seen each other in months.
00:27:15It's a party game.
00:27:17Yeah, you're right.
00:27:17What about pigeons?
00:27:19We still have pigeons?
00:27:20Ravens, ravens alt.
00:27:22It was ravens, you know,
00:27:23that Noah sent to test the water levels after the flood.
00:27:26How the ravens go, so go we.
00:27:27Do they die, or, I mean, I feel like I didn't read that one.
00:27:30For the Lord will execute judgment by fire
00:27:33and by his sword on all flesh,
00:27:35and those slain by the Lord will be many.
00:27:37Isaiah 66.
00:27:39Shelby, can I get you something to drink?
00:27:40Some wine, tequila?
00:27:42I'll just have water.
00:27:44Swim time, who's coming?
00:27:46Daddy, give me a lift.
00:27:47Okay, no, but wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
00:27:48No, I thought we were gonna-
00:27:49Girl, later, later, come with me.
00:27:51If you want cocktails, I may no longer-
00:27:52No.
00:27:53Yeah, but it's been a big year,
00:27:54and I just wanna make sure-
00:27:56Tap ourselves, sir.
00:27:58Good Lord's water's found by me.
00:28:00♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
00:28:05♪ Come on and follow me ♪
00:28:07♪ No matter where we go, we'll be side by side, ♪
00:28:10♪ And baby, that's for sure ♪
00:28:14♪ So take what you want from me ♪
00:28:17♪ You know what's left of me ♪
00:28:18How is that where Michael lived?
00:28:20I don't know, farthest distance, least familiar?
00:28:25I mean, I used to always fantasize
00:28:27about running away to work in a gas station in Montana.
00:28:30Just for a life of managed expectations.
00:28:33Oh, yeah.
00:28:34I mean, that's a lot of standing up right, but...
00:28:38But maybe that's just what it is now.
00:28:41Fate, you know?
00:28:42For young people.
00:28:43Choose your own Jesus.
00:28:45When I was a kid, it was like parents
00:28:47playing tambourine in a gymnasium.
00:28:49Ooh, creepy ones?
00:28:50No, no, regular.
00:28:54Well, things have changed.
00:28:56People are panicked, fervent, feverish.
00:28:58Don't you think? I do, yeah.
00:29:01Max is really into dinosaurs again,
00:29:02so we're constantly reading about the extinction of a species.
00:29:05Oh. And it's harrowing.
00:29:06I mean, I feel like we are on the cusp of it, you know?
00:29:08Re-extinction.
00:29:10We're all going to be dead and they'll start over.
00:29:13New amoebas.
00:29:14Yep, it's free-floating anxiety.
00:29:18My kids have it, too.
00:29:19Just waiting for the other shoe to drop.
00:29:21Yes, the apocalypse.
00:29:25Forever preserved in a layer of sediment and lava.
00:29:28Oh, on that note...
00:29:30Do you feel that right there?
00:29:32Uh, not yet.
00:29:34Yeah? That's your kidney.
00:29:37Telling you to let go.
00:29:39Here?
00:29:41You know, I usually so focus on my client's needs.
00:29:44It's nice to just, you know, be along for the ride.
00:29:46I roll for Jesus.
00:29:47That's my therapy every Friday night.
00:29:50Yeah, Shelby's on a team.
00:29:51They're pretty good. The Pinto Holy Rollers.
00:29:53Oh, so cute.
00:29:55Hey, do you have, like, a Ph.D. or something?
00:29:57No, no, no. I mean, nobody really does that anymore.
00:30:00It's not cost-effective.
00:30:02Ours is a very targeted program,
00:30:04and it helps people with trauma, depression, phobias.
00:30:08So, therapy?
00:30:09Without the therapist.
00:30:11We put the healing in your hands.
00:30:13Oh, gosh. Is that safe?
00:30:14Oh, absolutely.
00:30:15I mean, you're not covered in spiders.
00:30:17You're not flying a plane.
00:30:18You just think you are.
00:30:20I have this recurring dream
00:30:22where I'm parasailing,
00:30:24wearing a sandwich board, nothing underneath.
00:30:28It's actually very creamy.
00:30:30For a while, I had this one
00:30:33where I was stuffed above the ceiling tiles.
00:30:36You know, the ones with the tiny little holes?
00:30:39And this old woman came through
00:30:42with a giant spackler
00:30:45covered in, like, nut butter,
00:30:46and she just started filling them in,
00:30:50one by one.
00:30:52Anyway, Tom,
00:30:55we tailor each simulation
00:30:58to the client's needs,
00:30:59put it on repeat until they don't need it anymore.
00:31:01You can see the trauma being flushed out of their systems.
00:31:04I was incredibly hairy growing up.
00:31:07Mama would find me in the kitchen
00:31:09trying to burn off all my arm hair.
00:31:11It always grew back.
00:31:12Well, they say a third of us were originally birds.
00:31:16Land dwellers, sky dwellers, water dwellers.
00:31:17We all get eaten up by someone.
00:31:19Anyway, that's when I found the Lord.
00:31:21For every beast of the forest is mine.
00:31:24Psalm 50.
00:31:25Oh, speaking of, here comes Shannon.
00:31:27Are we hungry?
00:31:28Starving.
00:31:29Yeah.
00:31:30Oh, I'd love to put my deer meat in the fridge.
00:31:32I don't think it'll keep out here.
00:31:34Okay, who's on deer meat?
00:31:37I like to put the liver and the heart in the cheese drawer.
00:31:39Otherwise, it'll just freeze right up.
00:31:40It's okay.
00:31:41It's okay.
00:31:42It's okay.
00:31:43It's okay.
00:31:44It's okay.
00:31:45It's okay.
00:31:46It's okay.
00:31:46It's okay.
00:31:47It's okay.
00:31:48It's okay.
00:31:49It's okay.
00:31:50It's okay.
00:31:51It's okay.
00:32:02Oh my God.
00:32:04I didn't even see you there.
00:32:06Fuck, are you okay?
00:32:08You're soaking.
00:32:09I was looking for something and I fell in.
00:32:12Oh, fuck.
00:32:13Okay, Shannon.
00:32:16Here, here, put this on.
00:32:18We didn't even know you were coming.
00:32:19I don't want anyone to make a fuss.
00:32:21Oh, well, do you have clothes?
00:32:22Do you have a bag?
00:32:23I'm not staying.
00:32:24Oh, well, of course you're staying.
00:32:25Don't be ridiculous.
00:32:26I have Nora.
00:32:27When did you?
00:32:28I'm so glad you're here.
00:32:29Oh my God, you're soaking.
00:32:31Yeah, she fell in, apparently.
00:32:32Oh, okay, right, right.
00:32:34Let's get you some, well, I have clothes.
00:32:36She can borrow you.
00:32:37Oh, no clothes?
00:32:37I'm not staying.
00:32:38Oh, of course you're staying.
00:32:39That would be absurd.
00:32:40Michael.
00:32:42Nora.
00:32:43Michael.
00:32:46I thought I'd stop by to say hi.
00:32:48I honestly almost shit myself, like fully shit myself.
00:32:51She looks so lost.
00:32:53Yeah.
00:32:54Naked I come from my mother's womb
00:32:55and naked I shall return there.
00:32:56No.
00:32:57No, no, no, no, not naked, she's just.
00:32:59I'm sorry, why is Nora here?
00:33:01I have no idea.
00:33:02Was it Michael, you think?
00:33:03I told him to, but I know he didn't.
00:33:04Well, it wasn't me.
00:33:05I did.
00:33:06What?
00:33:07What?
00:33:08Yeah, I knew I should have bailed.
00:33:09She said she was ready.
00:33:10I could be home jerking off in my attic.
00:33:13Like Jesus Christ.
00:33:14It's trigger therapy.
00:33:16I'm sorry, you're her therapist now?
00:33:18It's more of a spiritual guide.
00:33:19Oh my God.
00:33:20Well, I'm still working on my hours.
00:33:21This seems advanced for that.
00:33:23Well, it's not like we don't trust you
00:33:24because yoga was cool.
00:33:26Oh my God, just say it, Tom.
00:33:28It's dangerous, it's selfish, and it ruins our weekend,
00:33:30which we deserve because life is hard enough.
00:33:32Her life is a little harder.
00:33:36One of my biggest triggers is flesh,
00:33:38bloody flesh in particular, so I keep it with me.
00:33:41I don't want to be a burden to her.
00:33:43I don't want to be a burden to her.
00:33:45I keep it with me until I can experience it
00:33:48in my life without anxiety.
00:33:50I'm afraid to ask.
00:33:51Lil, we're here to relax.
00:33:53This is-
00:33:54It's not helpful to her.
00:33:55Right, it's not like she's not invited.
00:33:57You're wrong.
00:33:58It's cathartic and it's life-changing.
00:34:00Here's hoping.
00:34:01And if nothing else, at least we'll have
00:34:03some great conversations, fresh air,
00:34:06and home-cooked baby fun.
00:34:09♪♪♪
00:34:24Can I get you something?
00:34:26Nora?
00:34:28Sorry?
00:34:29To drink.
00:34:31Do you want a soda, or-
00:34:32How did you meet Michael?
00:34:34Oh, um,
00:34:36in grief group.
00:34:38I thought he might have mentioned.
00:34:39No, he didn't.
00:34:43You're not really friends with them, huh?
00:34:48Oh, well, I mean, they-
00:34:50they seem nice.
00:34:51It's just, Michael keeps things pretty.
00:34:56He's sad, you know?
00:34:58It's not like he's forgotten, or-
00:35:00Do you have any kids?
00:35:01Not yet, no.
00:35:03But actually-
00:35:04Well, when you do, you'll understand.
00:35:06It's, um, it's just different.
00:35:09I didn't even know if I wanted kids.
00:35:11My parents are-
00:35:14Well, Daddy was a big drinker,
00:35:16and-and my mom,
00:35:18she was a manager at Kraftwurst,
00:35:19so pretty crazy hours.
00:35:22So you carry bloody meat around in bags
00:35:28to make yourself feel better?
00:35:30As a reminder, I guess.
00:35:32Yeah.
00:35:34That we all end up in a cheese drawer.
00:35:38Exactly.
00:35:40♪♪♪♪
00:35:48-♪♪♪♪
00:35:56Hey.
00:35:58Hey.
00:36:00I won't bite, you know?
00:36:01I know.
00:36:03I know, it's just, you know, Nora's here,
00:36:06and Shelby, I'm trying to-
00:36:07Be respectful.
00:36:09Yeah. That's sweet.
00:36:11You know, in-in grief group,
00:36:13really, they-they recommend that you-
00:36:15Don't fuck your wife's friends.
00:36:17Okay.
00:36:19Yeah.
00:36:21That was a difficult time.
00:36:22Yeah.
00:36:24And now it's not?
00:36:25Look, I'm just, um...
00:36:28I'm trying to, uh...
00:36:31You know, I owe it to-
00:36:32Shelby?
00:36:34She's 25.
00:36:36You really think you're her last stop?
00:36:40She gets me, okay?
00:36:42Yeah, she doesn't judge.
00:36:43She will, though.
00:36:45They all do, eventually.
00:36:47But not me.
00:36:51Because I was there.
00:36:53And when you remember that,
00:36:57you'll be back.
00:37:01Excuse me.
00:37:09And he would just sit there with a crossbow.
00:37:12He was focused on these wolves.
00:37:13He was out there trying to get his rabbits.
00:37:15Mm-hmm.
00:37:16God, David, can you go get
00:37:18one of those bug lanterns from the shed?
00:37:21Now? Oh, my God.
00:37:22Before they eat us alive, please.
00:37:25Okay.
00:37:26You're gonna have to crawl around in there.
00:37:27Tom's too tall.
00:37:29All right.
00:37:30Oh, God.
00:37:31Anyway, he was a big believer in personal punishments.
00:37:34Aphra and I, Leviticus, have been around forever.
00:37:37Not really Jesus at his finest, though, is it?
00:37:39Yeah, I bet you never left the coop open again.
00:37:41And you could probably murder a chicken in your sleep.
00:37:44Give them great meals of beef and iron and steel.
00:37:46They will eat like wolves and fight like devils.
00:37:49Shakespeare.
00:37:50I was wondering where you went.
00:37:51I thought you ran off like a little rooster.
00:37:52Shannon, I love the decoration in the house, the interior.
00:37:56I remember it from the one time I was invited.
00:37:59You're so good.
00:38:01Like Nora.
00:38:02I thought she was with you.
00:38:04Maybe I'm upstairs?
00:38:05Should I go with you?
00:38:06I'm sure she's fine.
00:38:07She can't have gone far.
00:38:08Hopefully.
00:38:09Anyway, that's my next project.
00:38:11Clean out the shed, get rid of all the...
00:38:13Axes, crossbows, and shotguns.
00:38:15Exactly.
00:38:28Jesus.
00:38:29Oh!
00:38:30Oh!
00:38:31Hi.
00:38:32Fuck.
00:38:33I'm sorry.
00:38:34I'm sorry.
00:38:35I'm so sorry.
00:38:36It's ok.
00:38:37It's ok, Shannon.
00:38:38No.
00:38:39I apologize.
00:38:40I'm sorry.
00:38:41No.
00:38:42Fuck.
00:38:43It's ok.
00:38:44Fuck.
00:38:45No.
00:38:46No.
00:38:47No, it's ok.
00:38:48No.
00:38:49It's ok.
00:38:50It's ok.
00:38:51I'm sorry.
00:38:52It's ok.
00:38:53It's ok.
00:38:54It's ok.
00:38:55It's ok.
00:38:56It's ok.
00:38:57Fuck!
00:38:58I'm so sorry to scare you.
00:39:00Fuck!
00:39:02Hey, I thought it was Wireless Weekend, sir.
00:39:07Oh.
00:39:09I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
00:39:11It's so dark in here, right?
00:39:13Yeah.
00:39:14Yeah, Michael wanted an axe, so.
00:39:22Oh my God, you'd think he'd have killed it by now.
00:39:27How is that dear heart, Shelby?
00:39:29No, no, no, Shelby doesn't.
00:39:30Oh, I just keep it to remind me that it was a living being.
00:39:33Okay, that's cool.
00:39:35I don't actually hunt it.
00:39:37Well, it's very bloody.
00:39:38I only buy fresh.
00:39:39Oh, that's good, so you're honoring the animal.
00:39:41Oh, like the fish with the eyeball thing.
00:39:44I think it's good to remember how fleeting life is
00:39:46at any moment.
00:39:47We could all be eaten.
00:39:50Anyway, Tom, it is delicious.
00:39:53What is the seasoning?
00:39:54Oh, thanks, that's, well, you know,
00:39:58Shannon doesn't give me compliments anymore.
00:40:00Oh my God.
00:40:01So, just salt.
00:40:02Tom is very good with Tom.
00:40:04That's me, I try to get my tongs in any way I can.
00:40:09So Shannon, how's Maddie, still dancing?
00:40:13Oh yeah, she's good, she's good, third grade,
00:40:15so all, you know, girl dynamic.
00:40:17I can imagine.
00:40:20She has friends?
00:40:21Yeah, she does, nice kids.
00:40:24No pool parties, I hope.
00:40:28No.
00:40:29Babe, let's not.
00:40:30It's okay.
00:40:32I guess it should be sort of unseemly at this point.
00:40:35No one's saying that.
00:40:37Hey, can I get anybody a drink?
00:40:39Yeah, I'd like a vodka soda.
00:40:42Light on the soda.
00:40:44I thought you were sober.
00:40:46Oh, not right now.
00:40:49Is that okay?
00:40:50I just figured after what happened.
00:40:52Well, we're adults.
00:40:53Nora, we can have a weekend.
00:40:54Model parenting was never really your thing anyway,
00:40:56was it?
00:40:57What does that mean?
00:40:58Getting drunk at a four-year-old's birthday party
00:41:00in the park?
00:41:01You said I was fine.
00:41:01You said nobody noticed.
00:41:02It was nine in the morning, Kate.
00:41:04You threw up under the monkey bars,
00:41:05we had to rope them off.
00:41:06I had food poisoning.
00:41:07You had booze in a sippy cup,
00:41:09and yet somehow your kid is still alive.
00:41:12Nora.
00:41:13We think about Hannah all the time, Nora.
00:41:15Do you sleep at night?
00:41:17We haven't forgotten.
00:41:18Obviously, it's different for you and for Michael.
00:41:21How is Maddie's knee?
00:41:22Sorry?
00:41:23I remember she scraped it that day,
00:41:24but I don't know if she actually drew blood.
00:41:26I do remember all the adults were running around
00:41:28looking for her Band-Aid.
00:41:29Babe, let's go for a walk.
00:41:30Come on.
00:41:31Maddie was six.
00:41:32She fell.
00:41:33So we were making sure that she-
00:41:34She had the right fucking Band-Aid.
00:41:35We weren't in the pool, Nora.
00:41:37We weren't watching her.
00:41:39She wasn't our kid.
00:41:40She was with Michael.
00:41:41Oh, boy.
00:41:42Here we go.
00:41:43I'm sorry, but it's true.
00:41:44It is true, but it takes a village, doesn't it?
00:41:46Nora, it's okay to be mad.
00:41:48It's okay to wanna poop your insides out on the floor.
00:41:51That's what Jesus is for.
00:41:53Shelby, it's okay.
00:41:53I got this.
00:41:54Oh, now he's got this.
00:41:55Trust me, honey, multitasking was never his strong suit.
00:41:59Don't do this, Nora.
00:41:59Especially when a woman is involved,
00:42:01he suddenly has the mental capacity of a pizza box.
00:42:03Jesus, Nora, can we just-
00:42:04Hey, Lily, you wanna chime in here,
00:42:06do a little bit of your therapy?
00:42:07No, this is Nora's journey.
00:42:10We don't interfere.
00:42:11Oh, nice.
00:42:12So shit-filled fan, your work here is done?
00:42:14Anytime you wanna start identifying your triggers.
00:42:16Oh, can I go first?
00:42:17Because I don't know if sleeping with my husband counts,
00:42:19but that's always been really triggering for me.
00:42:22God, barely.
00:42:23What do you mean, barely?
00:42:24You slept with David?
00:42:24I'm a sexual person.
00:42:26You know I have different boundaries.
00:42:27You don't have any boundaries.
00:42:28He's not my husband.
00:42:29Well, you were my friend.
00:42:30Oh, was I?
00:42:31Because you disappeared.
00:42:32All of you did.
00:42:33Nobody returned my calls, except David.
00:42:35Yeah, I'm sure he did.
00:42:37And Michael.
00:42:38Oh, did he?
00:42:39Faithful are the wounds of a friend.
00:42:41Profound are the kisses of an enemy.
00:42:42That one's a proverb.
00:42:43Yes, thank you.
00:42:44That's so helpful.
00:42:46We just have to hold on until Jesus calls you home.
00:42:48Shelby.
00:42:50Not that we should be in a rush.
00:42:51Oh, I'm not.
00:42:52But I'll get there.
00:42:58Well, on that note, I think I'll-
00:43:00Yes, please, me too.
00:43:01Oh God, I'm so sorry.
00:43:02I get so dark these days.
00:43:04It's the medication.
00:43:05We're still tinkering with the dosage.
00:43:06It's okay, it's okay.
00:43:08I'm sorry, Katie.
00:43:09No, no, it's fine, it's fine, totally.
00:43:10I think I just-
00:43:11You need a drink.
00:43:12I do need one.
00:43:15Shannon, anyone else?
00:43:16I'll come.
00:43:18Maybe I should have one after all.
00:43:21I'm not sure that I can do this.
00:43:34She's in a lot of pain.
00:43:35Aren't we all?
00:43:37I mean, as a species.
00:43:39You were there too, that day?
00:43:41Yeah, I mean, briefly.
00:43:45It was, it was a lot.
00:43:49It must be really hard for you.
00:43:52It's amazing you all stayed friends.
00:44:01Why is Fred, weren't you rosé?
00:44:04I was vodka tonic.
00:44:05Oh, that's fun.
00:44:07Can I make you one?
00:44:08I should probably just have water.
00:44:09I gotta take my meds.
00:44:10Doesn't really mix well.
00:44:11Oh, duh, of course, been there.
00:44:14Yeah, antipsychotics, mostly.
00:44:16Also, horse tranquilizers in case of emergency.
00:44:19Instant blackout.
00:44:21Oh, wow, really?
00:44:22I mean, I'd take anything.
00:44:23You would.
00:44:25Remember how scared I used to be of needles?
00:44:27Oh my God, yes, the flu shot.
00:44:30Passing out at the drugstore.
00:44:31You took out that entire display case of nasal spray.
00:44:34I did.
00:44:35God, I could be a heroin addict now.
00:44:37I don't even flinch.
00:44:38So is it helping?
00:44:40Here and there.
00:44:41I can't imagine.
00:44:43No, you can't.
00:44:44Remember in New York,
00:44:45we used to buy such cheap bottles of wine
00:44:47that we'd have to break the corks to get them open?
00:44:49Oh, God, we had no standards, like none.
00:44:52Three bucks shorties.
00:44:53Oh, how did we survive?
00:44:55Nothing in our stomachs, mild eating disorders,
00:44:58no hydration.
00:44:59I think I shit in the bathtub once.
00:45:01I'm not totally sure, but.
00:45:02You did.
00:45:03Oh, yeah.
00:45:05Oh, yeah, those are the days.
00:45:09To living above 96th Street.
00:45:12Oh, God, well, that's what I get
00:45:14for buying wine from the mini-mart.
00:45:16Well, salut.
00:45:17Nostrovia.
00:45:20Jocelyn.
00:45:22Bitterness.
00:45:24Envy.
00:45:25Fear.
00:45:26Time's up.
00:45:27Jesus, rage.
00:45:28Rage, okay, yeah.
00:45:29Nice, show.
00:45:31Dave and Katie, you're up.
00:45:32Oh, God, okay.
00:45:34I don't think I can do it.
00:45:36Oh, thank you.
00:45:37You're on your own.
00:45:39We'll talk it over.
00:45:41Okay.
00:45:42Do we have a deal?
00:45:44Do we have a deal?
00:45:45Do we have a deal?
00:45:47Yes.
00:45:48No, they still haven't figured out that black lung thing.
00:45:50Vitamin E or rat feces or whatever, no.
00:45:52Shit.
00:45:53You have kids at home.
00:45:54Oh, busted.
00:45:56You know what's so funny?
00:45:57When you're not a mother anymore,
00:45:58no one cares what you do with your body.
00:45:59It's like you could skydive into work,
00:46:01and they'd be like,
00:46:02well, there are 7 billion people on the planet.
00:46:03I mean, one less won't make a difference.
00:46:05Babe, that's your trauma talking.
00:46:07This is good.
00:46:08It's like when you're not tied to sustaining species anymore,
00:46:11you're just taxing the system, you know?
00:46:13I say once a mother, always a mother.
00:46:14Okay, sorry, can we do this now?
00:46:16I don't really like this.
00:46:17Can we do this now?
00:46:18I don't really like standing while I drink.
00:46:19Yes, begin!
00:46:25You're contributing to the overall health of humanity,
00:46:27putting love into this world
00:46:29to help it hum at a higher frequency.
00:46:31I wish I could believe that.
00:46:32You manifest yourself as kindness in all you do.
00:46:34Oh, that's nice.
00:46:35Psalm 145.
00:46:36Desire!
00:46:37God, yes!
00:46:38Thank you!
00:46:39No, you cannot guess one another's.
00:46:41This is a team thing.
00:46:42Oh.
00:46:43It's really more about God than you,
00:46:45but something to aspire to.
00:46:47Okay, so now why don't we...
00:46:48I'm totally just curious.
00:46:49Why don't we need a quote from Jesus, or whatever,
00:46:51to illustrate the point?
00:46:52I mean, can't we just be good people
00:46:54without needing, like, a magical unicorn to show us how?
00:46:56Unicorns aren't real.
00:46:57They aren't?
00:46:58Well, no offense, but neither is Jesus.
00:47:00I don't need a talking horse or a mystical sheep forever
00:47:02to tell me what to think.
00:47:03I can just kind of guess, right?
00:47:05I mean, if I'm a relatively good person.
00:47:07Are we, though?
00:47:08Are we good people?
00:47:09Disdain!
00:47:12Oh, I give up.
00:47:13You two.
00:47:14Fuck off!
00:47:18It's cold in here, dudes.
00:47:19Is that the fire now?
00:47:20Oh, right.
00:47:21We just need some more wood.
00:47:22I'll go.
00:47:23Oh, no, we, uh...
00:47:24Yeah, no, we don't chop down the trees around here.
00:47:25We buy our wood in bulk.
00:47:27Oh, man.
00:47:28Uh, babe, about that...
00:47:30You didn't buy wood.
00:47:31Look at the forest right out there.
00:47:32It's landscaping.
00:47:33You don't pay a landscaper 20 grand
00:47:35and then just chop it down a few weeks later.
00:47:37Come on.
00:47:38No worries.
00:47:39Yeah, no, I'll go.
00:47:40I'm... I'm a viking.
00:47:41Chopping the neighbors.
00:47:42Yeah.
00:47:43I'll come.
00:47:44No, no, no, no.
00:47:45No, it's fine.
00:47:46I got it.
00:47:47But I want to.
00:47:51I'm all right.
00:47:52Go ahead.
00:47:53See?
00:47:54She's all right.
00:47:55Right, Lily?
00:47:56What?
00:47:57So is decapitating a rabbit.
00:47:58Wolves, not rabbits.
00:47:59Why would you decapitate a rabbit?
00:48:01One less rabbit, I guess.
00:48:03Come on!
00:48:04One last supper for the wolf.
00:48:14Come on.
00:48:36So, are we supposed to just...
00:48:39be chopping down trees, or...
00:48:41I think just wood that's already...
00:48:42Died?
00:48:43Yeah.
00:48:44Waiting to be hauled away?
00:48:45Exactly.
00:48:48A viking, huh?
00:48:50Yeah, well, you know, it's a new me.
00:48:53Fresh start.
00:48:55With old Norse, does that come in handy?
00:48:58Yeah, well, that's, uh...
00:49:00Shelby, you know,
00:49:02she does these, uh, reenactment things on the weekend.
00:49:05It meant a lot to her.
00:49:06Right.
00:49:07Of course.
00:49:11I can't believe we never went camping.
00:49:13We bought that huge tent
00:49:15with that, like, pop-out lounge thing, remember?
00:49:18And we told Hannah that if she did one whole night
00:49:20in her bed, on her own, we'd do it.
00:49:23Yeah.
00:49:24But she kept coming in,
00:49:25asking questions about cheetahs or volcanoes.
00:49:28Or if trees can have babies.
00:49:30At two in the morning.
00:49:31Clockwork.
00:49:32And then we'd all have to cram into her little tiny bed.
00:49:34Littered with stuffed animals.
00:49:36I'm pretty sure that pink little, uh, sloth,
00:49:38or whatever it was,
00:49:40you just touched it,
00:49:41and it would light up and sing for hours.
00:49:43Couldn't turn it off.
00:49:44Had to let it play itself out.
00:49:46We threw it away, right?
00:49:48Yeah, neighbor's trash can.
00:49:50It was the only place far enough
00:49:51where we couldn't hear it, right?
00:49:53I mean, I'm sure they could, but...
00:49:54Right.
00:49:56Well, we did our sleep training follow-through,
00:49:58we read our books,
00:50:00we had our united front,
00:50:02and...
00:50:03never went camping.
00:50:05So glad we stayed on message.
00:50:09She didn't die mad, you know.
00:50:14Whatever thought she had in her little head
00:50:18before, uh...
00:50:19Before the panicked ones?
00:50:20Was of a loving, happy family.
00:50:23If she could carry something with her,
00:50:25it would be that.
00:50:26Does it work that way?
00:50:27You get to choose your screensaver
00:50:28before it all goes black?
00:50:30You do.
00:50:31You have to believe that you do.
00:50:33Well, I guess we'll know when we know.
00:50:37Yeah.
00:50:39That does not look sharp.
00:50:41That axe.
00:50:42You're really gonna have to swing that.
00:50:45Are you saying I can't swing it?
00:50:47Oh, no, no, no.
00:50:48You're shockingly strong
00:50:49for someone with a comp lit degree.
00:50:51Thank you so much.
00:50:53The perfect blend of Faulkner and Force.
00:50:55Well, certainly the utter and heartbreaking
00:50:57stupidity of words that I have.
00:51:00Yeah.
00:51:04Life could have been so different.
00:51:13Can I hold it?
00:51:16Sure.
00:51:18It's heavy.
00:51:19Ooh, it is.
00:51:21I don't know, man.
00:51:24I'm not sure what we could chop down.
00:51:28I'm not sure what we could chop down.
00:51:47I've been stuck here every day
00:51:49With an appetite for confusion
00:51:52I've been waiting to pass the time
00:51:55Fall in love, run and lose it
00:51:58I just want to cry
00:52:02Let me through
00:52:08Michael?
00:52:12Michael?
00:52:16Nora?
00:52:22Okay, Michael.
00:52:25Lily wants to do some kind of
00:52:28moon yoga with everyone, so...
00:52:32Hi, Shelby.
00:52:34Oh, goodness gracious.
00:52:37You scared me.
00:52:41Oh, did you kill something?
00:52:44No.
00:52:46Oh, no, no, no.
00:52:47This is just...
00:52:49Well, yes, probably.
00:52:54Where's Michael?
00:52:56Hmm.
00:52:57Maybe he left?
00:52:59Sorry?
00:53:00You parked up the road, right?
00:53:02We didn't want to block anyone.
00:53:04And Shannon said there wasn't...
00:53:05I'd go get your car.
00:53:06These reunions can get so boring.
00:53:09Probably the best time to leave.
00:53:18His life was ruined, too, you know.
00:53:21He thinks about Hannah every day.
00:53:23I'm sure, but that little part of his brain
00:53:26that feels guilty,
00:53:27that little part closes up shop,
00:53:29and off he goes to work
00:53:31or have drinks with his buddies
00:53:32or have sex with someone like you
00:53:33who doesn't remind him of the life he once had.
00:53:36And he may not be whole,
00:53:38but he's closer than he should be.
00:53:44So he can't be happy again?
00:53:46He's not allowed?
00:53:47No, he can't.
00:53:48She can't, so no.
00:53:49Sorry.
00:53:50He's gonna be a father.
00:53:52He was a father.
00:53:53Again.
00:53:55He tried to tell you.
00:53:58It was important to him that you knew.
00:54:12You're gonna be a great mother.
00:54:14He just won't be around to see it.
00:54:18It's against God's law to take a lie.
00:54:22I guess he should have thought of that
00:54:24before he took Hannah's.
00:54:32If I see Michael, I'll tell him you left.
00:54:36Should have an easy drive along the five.
00:54:48Does anyone else feel sick?
00:54:50Maybe it was the meat trio.
00:54:52Shelby says she left.
00:54:54Shelby puts animal hearts in plastic bags.
00:54:57She's not exactly a food critic.
00:55:00Oh, my God.
00:55:02Oh, my God.
00:55:03I'm so sorry.
00:55:04I don't even...
00:55:05Did she just...
00:55:06Oh, shit.
00:55:07Hey, do you have a towel or...
00:55:08I got a napkin.
00:55:09Tom, hose him.
00:55:10Oh, good.
00:55:11All right, on it, on it.
00:55:12No one's gonna want to do trust falls.
00:55:14Hey, you okay?
00:55:15You want water?
00:55:16No, I'm fine.
00:55:17I'm fine.
00:55:18I just...
00:55:19Oh, shit.
00:55:20What?
00:55:21Your nose, you're bleeding.
00:55:25Oh, God.
00:55:27Oh, my God.
00:55:28Gross!
00:55:29Why is everything so gross?
00:55:32Oh, my God.
00:55:33Oh, my God.
00:55:34Oh, my God.
00:55:35Oh, my God.
00:55:36Oh, my God.
00:55:37Oh, my God.
00:55:38Oh, my God.
00:55:39Oh, my God.
00:55:40Oh, my God.
00:55:41Oh, my God.
00:55:42Oh, my God.
00:55:43Oh, my God.
00:55:46Come on, where is this?
00:55:52You got a body in there?
00:55:55Shit!
00:55:56Oh, God.
00:55:58Kage got sick.
00:55:59Oh, not surprising.
00:56:00Yeah.
00:56:02Hey, is that blood?
00:56:03Well, shit.
00:56:06Oops.
00:56:07Someone else didn't do Wireless Weekend.
00:56:10for emergencies, but, um...
00:56:11Oh. Yeah, we got to get there.
00:56:13Excuse. Come. Watch this, Stephanie.
00:56:15Oh, I used to love this song.
00:56:17Remember that fundraiser the first year at White Oaks?
00:56:20Shannon made that embarrassing speech
00:56:21about parenting, and Kate blacked out.
00:56:23I danced with Michael to this.
00:56:25♪
00:56:31Weird. Is someone in the hot tub?
00:56:33No. It's broken, actually.
00:56:35♪
00:56:40I think we missed it.
00:56:41Oh, what the hell?
00:56:43Gosh, that water looks warm.
00:56:45I'd get in, but I don't know if I'd get out.
00:56:49I'll just... I'll get in.
00:56:52♪
00:57:02Can you see okay?
00:57:03Or do you want me to turn on the light?
00:57:04No, no, no, no, don't touch that!
00:57:06All right, guys. All right.
00:57:09Do you know that voltage just aboves salt water,
00:57:13which is in our bodies,
00:57:15so it takes a shortcut through the human form
00:57:18to get, I don't know, wherever it is it's going?
00:57:21Apparently, it saves time.
00:57:22Who knew?
00:57:23Anyway, I would help you,
00:57:25but I don't have rubber boots on,
00:57:26and I was told that you never touch a downed power line.
00:57:30You know what? I should probably turn this off
00:57:32so that no one makes the same mistake.
00:57:34♪
00:57:37It's a shame.
00:57:39You really were the nicest one in the bunch.
00:57:42But as Lily says,
00:57:44you can't use old wood to make a new nest.
00:57:47Tom!
00:57:49Especially with so many holes around.
00:57:53You out here?
00:57:54He is never where I need him to be.
00:57:56Oh, shit.
00:57:59God, Tom, what are you doing?
00:58:02You know that we are not supposed to be using...
00:58:04I called the electrician weeks ago,
00:58:07and he still hasn't...
00:58:10Tom?
00:58:11Oh, God.
00:58:12Oh, God. Oh, God.
00:58:14Tom?
00:58:15Oh, God! Oh, God!
00:58:16Tom?
00:58:17Oh, God!
00:58:18Hey, hey!
00:58:19Get him to the tank!
00:58:20The tank with the thing the mouse said!
00:58:22Wake up!
00:58:23We got to take him in!
00:58:24What do you mean?
00:58:25It's like a hospital!
00:58:26I don't know!
00:58:27I don't know!
00:58:28Oh, my God!
00:58:29Oh, my God!
00:58:32All right, buddy.
00:58:33Uh, keys, keys!
00:58:34Who's got the keys?
00:58:35Tom has them.
00:58:36They're in that pocket.
00:58:37Right there, right there, right there.
00:58:38Got it.
00:58:39Okay, okay.
00:58:40Kate, you stay here.
00:58:41What the fuck?
00:58:42No!
00:58:43Michael is missing in Shelby,
00:58:44and Nora might come back.
00:58:45No, I don't care.
00:58:46I don't give a shit.
00:58:47I'm not staying here to get eaten
00:58:48by some fucking forest monster!
00:58:49There's no forest monster!
00:58:50Jesus, Kate!
00:58:51Whoa!
00:58:52Oh, shit!
00:58:53Open the door!
00:58:54Open the door!
00:58:55Open the fucking door!
00:58:56Oh!
00:58:57Oh, my God.
00:58:58What's that?
00:58:59Don't you fucking vomit.
00:59:00I'll tell you what.
00:59:01Oh, my God.
00:59:02Oh, my God.
00:59:03Oh, my God.
00:59:04Oh, my God.
00:59:05Don't you fucking vomit.
00:59:06I'll tell you what.
00:59:07Uh, hey, uh, Nora?
00:59:08Uh, we gotta go.
00:59:09Uh, Tom's in, uh,
00:59:10in kind of a bad way.
00:59:11Uh, so...
00:59:12Oh, Jesus Christ.
00:59:13Hey, hon.
00:59:14Do you mind moving
00:59:15the fuck out of the way?
00:59:16We'll be right back, okay?
00:59:17Thanks.
00:59:18Oh, my God!
00:59:19Oh, my God!
00:59:20Oh, my God!
00:59:21Oh, my God!
00:59:22Oh, my God!
00:59:23Oh, my God!
00:59:24Oh, my God!
00:59:25Oh, my God!
00:59:26Oh, my God!
00:59:27Oh, my God!
00:59:28Oh, my God!
00:59:29Oh, my God!
00:59:30Oh, my God!
00:59:31Oh, my God!
00:59:32Oh, my God!
00:59:33Oh, my God!
00:59:34It's not the body, it's Tom!
00:59:36Oh god, I think I shit myself.
00:59:38Hey, go!
00:59:42Oh baby, I'm sorry, I love you, I'll be right back!
00:59:44Oh shit!
00:59:46Where's the body?
00:59:48I left it!
00:59:50Oh my god!
00:59:52Oh my god!
00:59:54Oh my god!
00:59:56Oh my god!
00:59:58Gosh, I um...
01:00:00Well, I ate all of the gummies
01:00:02and I think they were the happy ones because I am jacked!
01:00:04Who wants a drink?
01:00:06I need water!
01:00:08Well, it's not exactly water, okay.
01:00:10No one tried to kill us with an axe.
01:00:12And Tom is unconscious or dead, he's probably dead.
01:00:14That's why I do intermittent fasting.
01:00:16Honestly, it does make a difference.
01:00:18No, Jesus, he was electrocuted in the fucking hot tub!
01:00:20Oh, I thought they fixed that.
01:00:22No, no, the electrician never came.
01:00:24Oh, that's not surprising.
01:00:26We need an ambulance, or a motorboat, the sea pirate that dropped you off.
01:00:28Do you have his number?
01:00:30Oh, what the fuck?
01:00:32Where's my phone?
01:00:34It was charging in the bathroom.
01:00:36Oh, it's in the shed in a garden box by the gnomes.
01:00:38Jesus!
01:00:40Shit.
01:00:42Well, wireless we get, David, we agreed!
01:00:48Get the fuck away!
01:00:50Oh shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!
01:00:52Please help me.
01:00:54Oh my god, Michael!
01:00:56Oh my god!
01:00:58She'll be left.
01:01:00I don't understand.
01:01:02What did you say to her, Lily?
01:01:04Nothing.
01:01:06I was about to be a father.
01:01:12Not with me.
01:01:14Lily!
01:01:16Oh my god, get her out, get her out, get her out!
01:01:18If we have to give her someone, she's pretty high, she might not notice.
01:01:20We're not giving her anyone!
01:01:22Oh my god!
01:01:24What is happening?
01:01:26Get to the kitchen, get to the kitchen, get to the kitchen!
01:01:28Go, go, go, go, go, go, go!
01:01:30Go, go, go, go, go, go!
01:01:32Everything's fine.
01:01:34This is not a big deal.
01:01:40Nora,
01:01:42I want you to take a deep breath, okay?
01:01:44Let's try and find our baseline.
01:01:50You know, sometimes, um,
01:01:52certain phrases can trigger a sense of calm.
01:01:56Ah!
01:01:58Ah!
01:02:00I need a bathroom.
01:02:02Okay, look, I wasn't gonna
01:02:04say anything, because we don't like
01:02:06to interfere, but
01:02:08none of this is real.
01:02:10Um, it's all a sim,
01:02:12a simulation, it's a part of her program.
01:02:14My colon's unwinding.
01:02:16Okay, so clear mind
01:02:18is all about finding a safe space
01:02:20to release aggression in a controlled setting.
01:02:22Revenge fantasies,
01:02:24but with a therapeutic goal.
01:02:26What the fuck?
01:02:28It's like death, but with a safety net, so you're all fine.
01:02:30I don't feel fine.
01:02:32You know, the session is taking longer than usual,
01:02:34and I am having trouble with host
01:02:36mode, and I see you at 8 a.m.
01:02:38I am sort of in somewhat of a new territory
01:02:40of myself.
01:02:42Oh, God.
01:02:44Am I bleeding?
01:02:46I'm bleeding all the time.
01:02:48You know what, I think that if someone took responsibility
01:02:50for what happened, she would really wrap it up,
01:02:52and you were there. And you were there!
01:02:54Yeah, for like 15 minutes. You were flirting with her husband
01:02:56in the pool. Well, we obviously remember things differently.
01:02:58Not differently, perfectly.
01:03:00I asked Nora for a bowl because I wanted to help her with crudités,
01:03:02and she assumed that Michael was in the pool with Hannah,
01:03:04but Michael was in the pool with you,
01:03:06because you cannot stand to go for more than five
01:03:08minutes without feeling desired by somebody else's husband.
01:03:10Oh, yes, please let me fuck your
01:03:12sad, paunchy husbands. Stop it.
01:03:14There were 40 other people at that
01:03:16party. Watching somebody else's kid
01:03:18is not my job.
01:03:20She's right.
01:03:22It was Michael's job. Oh, my God.
01:03:24Has I gone now? She's got a gun!
01:03:26Nora, put down the gun.
01:03:28And your job, and your job,
01:03:30and really, Lily, your job.
01:03:32You're right, Nora. Our
01:03:34village has failed you.
01:03:36You're bleeding.
01:03:38Make it stop.
01:03:40Maybe it's the midazolam. I tripled the dose
01:03:42since you always had such a high tolerance.
01:03:44That's right. This is all so that you can
01:03:46tell the village how you feel,
01:03:48not with your anger, but with your words.
01:03:50Oh, Kate! Kate!
01:03:52I think I'm fine. I just have to rest.
01:03:54Oh, my God, David!
01:03:56Nora, come on. I want you to sit down.
01:03:58It's not a multiplayer game, Lily,
01:04:00so it's not up to you. Well, we've always been
01:04:02a team, remember? We're fucking
01:04:04kinder buddies.
01:04:06Line leader. Super snooper.
01:04:08Yeah.
01:04:10Yes, you've always had my back,
01:04:12even when I shoplifted at Lyman's in eighth grade.
01:04:14You got candy bars. I got community service.
01:04:16I know.
01:04:18Remember junior prom?
01:04:20You got bored and you ditched your date.
01:04:22And you fucked him. And you're welcome.
01:04:26You're right, Lily.
01:04:28When shit goes down, you're always there.
01:04:30Ah, finally!
01:04:46Hahahahahahaha!
01:04:58We're sorry, Nora.
01:05:00We just....
01:05:02Seeing you...
01:05:04It was so hard,
01:05:06but we will never forget.
01:05:08We will never forget.
01:05:10It's too late, Shannon.
01:05:12For Kate,
01:05:14Michael, Tom, for you two.
01:05:17What the fuck?
01:05:18Lily, do something.
01:05:19Oh, she can't.
01:05:20I've disabled host mode.
01:05:22What?
01:05:23It was shockingly easy.
01:05:24Just a tiny button.
01:05:26How do you feel?
01:05:27Powerless?
01:05:28End game, Nora.
01:05:30Right now.
01:05:31Did you know that the average human can only hold their breath
01:05:34for 30, maybe 60 seconds underwater
01:05:37before they start to take it in?
01:05:38Even less for children.
01:05:40We're so fragile.
01:05:41Nora, please.
01:05:42First you hold your breath until it feels like your brain is on fire.
01:05:45Okay.
01:05:46Then you suck in water and your larynx closes.
01:05:49Once you've passed out and your lungs are completely collapsed,
01:05:53only then the body relaxes.
01:05:55You've stopped breathing, but the heart still beats.
01:05:58Seven minutes.
01:06:00It takes seven minutes to be officially dead,
01:06:02which is actually quite long.
01:06:04Sounds awful.
01:06:05Oh, I'm sure it was.
01:06:06But it only takes two minutes to die from a gunshot wound.
01:06:10That's a strategically placed one, and I'm not a good shot,
01:06:13so yours should be slower.
01:06:14Nora!
01:06:15No!
01:06:22Tom's still really, really quiet, but maybe breathing and...
01:06:27I can't tell, but the keys are gone.
01:06:31The tires are flat.
01:06:33I don't know.
01:06:34We'll go to the neighbors and they can drive us out.
01:06:35I don't know if they really are neighbors.
01:06:37I mean, the map isn't really built out.
01:06:39Bullshit, Lily!
01:06:40A grizzled fisherman dropped you off,
01:06:42and I don't care if he's an avatar or a hologram
01:06:44or a Russian teenager in his nana's basement,
01:06:46he's getting us off this fucking lake!
01:06:54Shut up!
01:06:55Jesus, David, I don't even know what's happening.
01:06:56I don't even know what's out there.
01:07:04Fuck!
01:07:07God! No, no, no!
01:07:16Fuck!
01:07:18Oh, God!
01:07:19I know.
01:07:20What about town?
01:07:21Kate went through town.
01:07:22There's got to be a way out.
01:07:23I guess it is possible, but I am really too high for this.
01:07:26Hey!
01:07:27You need to focus, Lily!
01:07:29David, I had so many gummies.
01:07:32Okay.
01:07:35Okay.
01:07:36In the game.
01:07:37In the sim.
01:07:38You're on.
01:07:39Auto-save.
01:07:40Okay, so the only way to regenerate,
01:07:41the only way to begin again...
01:07:42Was to die?
01:07:44I mean, technically, Nora is player one,
01:07:46so it's not game over until...
01:07:48Until she is.
01:07:52All right, we got to do it.
01:07:54No!
01:07:55David, it's...
01:07:57It's a video game.
01:07:58You said it's the only way!
01:07:59Clean slate!
01:08:00Level one!
01:08:01Shh!
01:08:02Maybe Tom's still alive.
01:08:04Maybe Kate's still alive.
01:08:05Huh?
01:08:06Maybe even the Jesus freak.
01:08:07Oh, I don't even know if she's real.
01:08:09What?
01:08:10She might be a real version of a fake version of a real one.
01:08:12She's from the Holy Roll of Renegades.
01:08:14She came with the hot tub and the shooting range.
01:08:16Oh, Jesus Christ.
01:08:18Oh, he's the final boss in that one,
01:08:20and it gets so dark, David,
01:08:22but it is popular with the church kids.
01:08:26Well, I know what we got to do.
01:08:30Go get player one.
01:08:36Oh, no.
01:08:38Maybe Shannon let her out?
01:08:42Hey, Kate.
01:08:44Kate.
01:08:46Hey, hon.
01:08:48She's...
01:08:50She's probably sleeping.
01:08:52Um, she want to help me move her body to the couch or...
01:08:57This is fucked up, man.
01:08:59I need something stronger.
01:09:01Where are you going?
01:09:03I'm taking a break.
01:09:04Well, that's not really an option for you.
01:09:05You're an MPC,
01:09:06and if anybody's going to be taking a break...
01:09:08Be my guest.
01:09:10Well, you need to stay here and stand guard.
01:09:12Stand guard over what?
01:09:14Your dead wife.
01:09:15I'm pretty sure she's sleeping.
01:09:17You know, you really shouldn't be vaping.
01:09:19You heard Shannon.
01:09:20I'm not Tom!
01:09:21Well, apparently there's studies.
01:09:23Look where I got him.
01:09:24Dead in a fucking hot tub.
01:09:26I'm going to smoke some rat shit and find out what I'm going to eat.
01:09:32Oh, God.
01:09:34Hey, Bob.
01:09:36This is Lily from over on the third floor,
01:09:39and I was just wondering if maybe...
01:09:42I don't know.
01:09:43I'm having trouble reaching one of my technicians,
01:09:45and you know we're doing beta testing over at Clear Mind,
01:09:47so, um, well, I was just thinking that maybe
01:09:50you could pop down there and see if the system's still on
01:09:53or needs a reboot.
01:09:54It is urgent.
01:09:56I've been locked out of post mode by one of them.
01:09:58If you could just call me back.
01:09:59Hello?
01:10:15Fucking fuck.
01:10:17Fuck.
01:10:18Caps.
01:10:19Open.
01:10:20Fuck.
01:10:47Fuck.
01:11:01That was Grandpa's.
01:11:02He wouldn't want you touching it.
01:11:04Well, then maybe you should have emptied out the shed.
01:11:17Okay.
01:11:18You don't have to do this, Nora.
01:11:20It's not going to bring Hannah back.
01:11:22You think I don't know that?
01:11:23Okay, well, then let's sit down,
01:11:25and you can tell me everything.
01:11:27We could do, like, the third grade.
01:11:29We could have a pillow circle.
01:11:30Boring.
01:11:31I don't know what Lily's face is telling you.
01:11:33That you can't use old wood to build a new nest.
01:11:36So time for the wood chipper.
01:11:38Oh, my God!
01:11:39Metaphorically, I don't think they really have one on this level.
01:11:42Nora, please, you need help.
01:11:44You need a therapist, a real one.
01:11:46This is therapy.
01:11:47It's what healing looks like.
01:11:48Right, Lily?
01:11:50Oh.
01:11:51That's weird. Where'd she go?
01:11:52I just assumed.
01:11:54I mean, isn't she dead?
01:11:56No, not dead.
01:11:58Not yet.
01:11:59There you are.
01:12:00I tried to get ahold of somebody at the office,
01:12:02but there's nobody there, so we're just going to work.
01:12:04We're just going to bribe this one out.
01:12:06And Bob, he's not going to be back until Tuesday around 9.
01:12:09I killed Michael.
01:12:10Metaphorically.
01:12:11Actually, but I felt calm, serene almost.
01:12:13I got to say, your Q absorption, it is quite impressive.
01:12:16Unbelievable.
01:12:17Isn't it?
01:12:18They say it risks deteriorating human connection.
01:12:21I think the somality is incredible.
01:12:23Like life, only more so.
01:12:27Oh, shit!
01:12:32I'm confused.
01:12:33Does that hurt?
01:12:35It fucking hurts!
01:12:37It's all about controlling your startle reflex.
01:12:40Exposure without the excitement.
01:12:42I feel nothing.
01:12:43There's really nothing.
01:12:44Oh, God!
01:12:45A lot of blood.
01:12:46Really, really bleeding.
01:12:47So vivid, right?
01:12:48You love it, Shannon.
01:12:49The colors really pop.
01:12:50Please, somebody help me!
01:12:52I need an ambulance, please!
01:12:54Oh, I think I'd have to level up for that, and I'm not ready.
01:12:57I need a hospital.
01:13:05Nora, what is this?
01:13:06What are you doing?
01:13:07Oh, I had a memory restore.
01:13:09Post-mortem, I guess.
01:13:11I saw Michael in the pool that day.
01:13:13It was you he was talking to.
01:13:17I was looking at you because I wasn't sure.
01:13:20And that moment I took to figure out if it was my old friend
01:13:26keeping my husband from watching our child
01:13:29because, I don't know, you were bored or it was a challenge
01:13:33or because I was happy and you were sad
01:13:35or whatever it is that really fucked up people feel
01:13:38when they want what you have.
01:13:40And that moment of indecision, of trust, it cost me,
01:13:46well, it cost us,
01:13:51Hannah, everything.
01:13:57Nora, the mind reconfigures.
01:14:01No wonder you felt so guilty.
01:14:03Anyway, I really hope that you get your hours
01:14:05or your certification or whatever.
01:14:07Don't do this.
01:14:08You'll lose everything.
01:14:09You'll lose memories you love, memories you need.
01:14:15Oh, like the one of my body hitting the pavement,
01:14:19of cards piling up at our door.
01:14:21What about memories of who Hannah was, who you were.
01:14:27What does it matter who I was?
01:14:31I'm wiping the slate clean, Lily, for all of us.
01:14:38Ah!
01:14:41Ah!
01:14:42No!
01:14:43No!
01:14:44Ah!
01:14:45Ah!
01:14:46Ah!
01:14:50Ah!
01:14:52No, no!
01:14:53Ah!
01:14:56Ah!
01:15:00Ah!
01:15:07What the fuck, Gary, you can't answer the fucking phone.
01:15:26I was in the bathroom.
01:15:27You seemed fine.
01:15:28Oh, really?
01:15:29Like a triple homicide was a great time to take a piss?
01:15:31Sorry, you know, I was monitoring the cortisol emissions and not the kill rate.
01:15:34Yeah, not the kill rate.
01:15:35Jesus Christ, I know.
01:15:36I'm gonna go check on myself.
01:15:40Oh my God, Nora, so vivid.
01:15:44You did not need to be there.
01:15:45Well, you didn't have to shoot me with a crossbow.
01:15:48Or make me that high.
01:15:49Or that overtly sexual, is that what you think I mean?
01:15:52Did you sleep with Michael?
01:15:53Oh, come on.
01:15:54Well, you seemed pretty comfortable by the barbecue.
01:15:56Uh, girl, that's all your brain.
01:15:58Jesus, where were you even hiding, underneath the stairs?
01:16:01That's not important.
01:16:02Well, you went 30 minutes over.
01:16:03I thought you were never gonna wrap up.
01:16:06I wanted to see if it made a difference to hear from everyone.
01:16:09Yeah, maybe on your co-pay.
01:16:10I don't think your insurance is gonna pay for a double session.
01:16:13What about the memory restore?
01:16:15What do we say about memory?
01:16:16It's the enemy.
01:16:17But it's all good, okay?
01:16:18It is about the heart count, not the head count, and it's just a bunch of 3D ultrasound
01:16:22images gathering in space.
01:16:24For now.
01:16:25Yeah, for now.
01:16:27Girl, you did not kill Tom first.
01:16:30I wanted to kill Michael.
01:16:31Mm-hmm.
01:16:32But I let the girlfriend go.
01:16:33Yes, you did.
01:16:34I almost didn't.
01:16:35I was like, you go.
01:16:36That was, like, next level.
01:16:37I mean, it's literally the next level.
01:16:39And we are gonna get there.
01:16:40Gary, let's hook her up to the BIRD cams and get a baseline before we sign off.
01:16:43Okay.
01:16:44Okay.
01:16:45All right.
01:16:46Okay.
01:16:47Okay, girl.
01:16:48Let's put on those wings.
01:16:49The nest.
01:16:50It's gone.
01:16:51Yeah, it fell.
01:16:52You were in the game, so I didn't want to...
01:16:53But you know what was in there?
01:16:54A hawk with its eyes pecked out.
01:16:55Oh, God.
01:16:56Yeah, I don't know if the other hawk got it.
01:16:57I don't know.
01:16:58I don't know.
01:16:59I don't know.
01:17:00I don't know.
01:17:01I don't know.
01:17:02I don't know.
01:17:03I don't know.
01:17:04I don't know.
01:17:06I don't know if the other hawks got mad at him or the bird was just over his shit, but...
01:17:09Dead hawk.
01:17:10Okay, let's just be glad you're not a bird.
01:17:14So what do you say?
01:17:15Like Tuesday at 3?
01:17:16Oh, I'm not gonna need Tuesday.
01:17:18I'm ready to drop the nest, kill a hawk, and move on.
01:17:21Well, I think you're just exhausted.
01:17:23It was a big day.
01:17:24They're all big days.
01:17:25Gary?
01:17:26Can I get my things?
01:17:27Lily?
01:17:28Yeah.
01:17:29I am so sorry.
01:17:30But thank you.
01:17:32What are you doing?
01:17:35Hey, what are you...
01:17:40Please don't...
01:17:41What are you doing?
01:17:42I'm really sorry, Lily, that you're not gonna get your hours.
01:17:44Are you kidding me?
01:17:46Nora, don't do this.
01:17:48Please don't do this.
01:17:49You know what?
01:17:50This is just like you.
01:17:51This is just like you.
01:17:52Did I get something for me?
01:17:53Something for me?
01:17:54Maybe I want a fresh start.
01:17:55You dragged me down like a fucking anchor.
01:17:58Hey!
01:17:59You're never gonna kill a hawk, Nora.
01:18:01It's just not in your nature.
01:18:03You're just a sad little bird in a borrowed nest,
01:18:05just waiting for the wind to blow.
01:18:13Maybe it's time to make it mine.
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01:20:28What?
01:20:29Oh, my God.
01:20:31Nora, Jesus, I didn't even see you there.
01:20:34Fuck, are you okay?
01:20:37You're here.
01:20:39I was lost, but I found it.
01:20:41Oh, okay.
01:20:42Oh, fuck, okay.
01:20:43Uh, Shannon?
01:20:45Uh, here, come.
01:20:47Hi!
01:20:48Oh!
01:20:50Oh, wow, come, sit.
01:20:52Were you, where did you,
01:20:53we didn't even know you were coming.
01:20:54I didn't want anyone making a fuss.
01:20:55Can I take that?
01:20:56Oh, it's not heavy.
01:20:58Oh, uh, did you bring clothes?
01:21:01I'm not staying.
01:21:02Oh, don't be ridiculous.
01:21:03Of course you're staying.
01:21:04Is Lily here?
01:21:05Uh, Nora.
01:21:07Uh, when did, I didn't, um,
01:21:11I'm so, so glad you're here.
01:21:13Yeah, she was lost, apparently.
01:21:16Can I take that for you?
01:21:18Oh, no, I thought I'd chop some firewood.
01:21:20Mm, oh, we don't cut the trees down around here.
01:21:24No, we buy our wood.
01:21:26In bulk, I heard.
01:21:27But Tom might have forgotten, right?
01:21:29Oh, right, yeah, yeah, sure.
01:21:34Let me get you a drink.
01:21:35Oh, I'm not staying.
01:21:37Of course you are.
01:21:39Don't be absurd.
01:21:40Don't, uh, Michael?
01:21:43Nora?
01:21:46Lily.
01:21:49I thought I'd stop by to say hi.
01:22:10I've been
01:22:16Wallowing in loss
01:22:18For a long time
01:22:21Oh
01:22:24Mm
01:22:27I'm not trying to wallow
01:22:29It just happens that way
01:22:33I've been
01:22:36I'm not trying to wallow
01:22:41It just happens that way
01:22:44Everything around you
01:22:45Breaks and mends
01:22:48Comes and goes
01:22:49Ebbs and flows
01:22:50Starts and ends
01:22:55When the wind blows through the trees
01:22:58You can't imagine
01:22:59What that does to me
01:23:02Mm
01:23:05Their green thrones
01:23:07Strike like lightning
01:23:11Well, I'm done
01:23:16And when anybody laughs
01:23:18It's my man
01:23:19And it's love I hear
01:23:21When anybody cries
01:23:23I feel my life
01:23:24Passed in their tears
01:23:26Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
01:23:29Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
01:23:32Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
01:23:35Oh, oh, oh
01:23:39Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
01:23:42Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
01:23:45Oh, oh, oh
01:23:51plays softly
01:24:02Have you ever taken life in your own hands, held it like a whippoor ball, threw as hard
01:24:21as you could?
01:24:23Watch it hit the wall like a melon, pick it up from the grass because somebody should.
01:24:32But oh, it pains me to see you walking around thinking about the girl in your daydream.
01:24:52Have you ever gone back to the bottom, replay your mistakes like a videotape?