Tell Me Lies - Season 2 Episode 3
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00:00This is Leo. He was studying abroad last year.
00:03Can I get your number?
00:05Fuckin' asshole.
00:07It's Pippa, right?
00:09So, why does the whole football team hate you?
00:11I broke the quarterback's heart.
00:13Pippa! Out of the line!
00:15I found her half-dressed in that room,
00:17and that guy Chris just walks out of the bathroom.
00:19Hey!
00:20He acted like he got caught doing something.
00:22We're gonna get you home.
00:27Oh, do you...
00:30Thank you for helping her.
00:32Do you remember anything?
00:33Nothing with Chris.
00:34I know that's your best friend's little brother.
00:36That does not matter.
00:37I'm really sorry for hurting you so bad.
00:39That probably eroded any sense of dignity you had.
00:41I can't tell Bri who to be friends with, dude.
00:43I break up with her. She's just around. I'm like, friends.
00:45He shared a cigarette with a teacher.
00:47He reached over and took out my earring.
00:49Well, he was definitely flirting with you.
00:51I think I cheated.
00:52I'm done.
00:53I met someone who actually listened,
00:55and I could have gone home with him, but I didn't.
00:57Hey, Professor Banks, could I come by your office later?
01:00This is Steven DeMarco, your new T.A.
01:28I've never been to a joint bachelor-bachelorette party before.
01:31Me neither.
01:33It's kind of cute, though.
01:36Thank you for coming with me.
01:39You don't have to thank me.
01:51Hey.
01:54I love you.
01:57I love you, too.
02:02Hi.
02:03Hi!
02:06Hi!
02:07Hi, Mac. Good to see you.
02:09I love you, too. Congrats.
02:10Thanks. Come on.
02:14Hi.
02:15Hi.
02:16Hey.
02:17Good to see you.
02:18Hey.
02:19Enjoy.
02:20Hey.
02:21Hey.
02:22Hey, Lucy.
02:23Hey.
02:24Hey, Lucy.
02:26Hey.
02:27Max. Good to see you again.
02:29Hey, man. You, too.
02:30All right.
02:32Let's grab a drink.
02:34Hey, I can't believe that you're not having a real bachelor party.
02:37We're supposed to be celebrating your last days of being single.
02:40I'm not single. I'm engaged.
02:42You're not not single until you're married.
02:45Steven.
02:46Yeah.
02:47Please, back me up here.
02:48Nope. I never really got the bachelor party thing.
02:52Like, why would I want to get a lap dance from a stripper?
02:54I can just have sex with my hot fiance.
02:56Lydia ruined you.
02:58Okay.
02:59Yeah, you're no fun.
03:00No, I think I honestly just got it out of my system.
03:03Well, I believe in love and strippers.
03:06Where is Lydia anyways?
03:08Oh, she had a last-minute work thing in New York.
03:10She's going to be at the wedding, though.
03:15Lucy.
03:23Everybody has to take a shot.
03:25Guess we should do shots.
03:26All right.
03:33Hey, Evan was saying that you have a new restaurant?
03:36Yeah, yeah. We soft-launched a couple weeks ago.
03:38Oh, my God. That's awesome, man. Congratulations.
03:41Thanks, man.
03:43Here.
03:45There we go.
03:46Thanks.
03:47All right.
03:48Cheers!
03:49Cheers!
03:54Cheers!
03:57I love you guys so much.
03:59Dude, you're on drugs, and I'm mad you didn't give me it.
04:03Wait, what?
04:04Look at her pupils.
04:05They're bigger than my areolas.
04:08Your areolas are a perfect size.
04:10They're perfect.
04:11I know they're perfect.
04:12I just said that your pupils are bigger.
04:15I don't even know what I'm on.
04:17Did my cousin just put something in my mouth?
04:19No.
04:23What are you doing?
04:24You can't smoke this in here.
04:27What are you doing?
04:29Wait.
04:30It's my party, and I needed one, so...
04:33You're a fiend.
04:34Oh, God.
04:35You ladies had better run.
04:48I'm gonna go smoke outside.
04:51Like a normal person.
04:56That's like a lot.
04:57What are you doing with water?
04:59You look good in suede.
05:00Thanks, man.
05:01Yeah, you too.
05:02Where'd your jacket go?
05:03Can I borrow you?
05:04Can I borrow you for a second?
05:05Yeah.
05:06Yeah.
05:07It takes me so long.
05:13What's up?
05:15Every time I look over, you're, like, talking to him.
05:20I'm talking to everyone.
05:22Yeah, but you don't have to be so nice.
05:26Would you rather me be rude?
05:28No.
05:30Why does this guy still bother you so much?
05:33Look, if he'd been, like, abusive, I'd obviously fucking kill him.
05:37But he's just some random asshole at this point.
05:44He's not a good person.
05:47I don't want him infecting this.
05:49I don't want him infecting any part of my life anymore.
05:52I don't.
05:55You know, it's possible for people to change.
05:57He might not be the same guy he was back then, but even if he is,
06:02it shouldn't matter.
06:05Right?
06:11You are so drunk right now.
06:13No, I'm cold, still, and sober.
06:15Oh, really?
06:16Yeah.
06:20I really wish you would have come with me tonight.
06:23I know.
06:24Yeah, that would require you being seen in public with me,
06:27which obviously isn't an option, so...
06:31You know that's not the reason I didn't come.
06:33I just...
06:35I have no interest in being around those people again.
06:38Yeah, but it's not about them.
06:40It's about me.
06:41It's about me. You'd be doing it for me.
06:44Okay.
06:46We can talk about it when you get home.
06:50Okay.
07:09Lucy.
07:11Hey.
07:15What, did you follow me out here?
07:17No, you seemed upset. I just wanted to make sure it wasn't because of me.
07:22No, it wasn't about you.
07:27I got to hang out with Max a bit. He's awesome.
07:33Yeah. Yeah, he is.
07:36What have you been up to these days? Are you writing?
07:39No.
07:40No, I'm doing sales at a travel agency.
07:44Oh, cool.
07:46Yeah.
07:47You like it?
07:48I love it, yeah.
07:51As long as you're happy.
07:54Hey.
07:55Hey, Pippa.
07:56Hey, I'm going to pretend like I need to talk to Lucy,
07:59but what I really want is for you to fuck off.
08:01Okay, yeah.
08:05Always good to see you.
08:08Hey.
08:14I'm fine.
08:15I didn't say anything.
08:16Yeah, but I knew what you were thinking.
08:19This is so weird.
08:20Pippa, this is so weird seeing him be so nice.
08:22It's not real.
08:23Yeah.
08:24I don't know.
08:26Maybe it is.
08:27Maybe...
08:29Maybe he changed for Lydia.
08:33Lucy.
08:35Steven doesn't change.
08:38Okay.
09:04Okay, so...
09:05If you have any questions,
09:06please don't hesitate to reach out to our fantastic new TA, Steven.
09:10He's one of the few students to get an A in my class without the curve.
09:13No, I had a little help in the curve.
09:25Lucy.
09:27Lucy, hey.
09:28I had no idea you were in this class.
09:29Okay.
09:30I didn't.
09:31I swear, they randomly assigned me.
09:34I'm sorry.
09:35I don't want to make this uncomfortable for you.
09:38It's fine.
09:40Oh, hey.
09:41I saw the paper you turned in.
09:43I noticed just a few small mistakes.
09:46So, I just...
09:47No, I fixed it for you.
10:03Oh.
10:10I'm sorry.
10:11I wasn't...
10:13Is this okay?
10:14Yes, it's okay.
10:16I'm okay.
10:18Let's just...
10:20Wait.
10:22Let's take a breath.
10:25Let's just breathe...
10:28for a moment.
10:31Sorry.
10:33It's just that...
10:35Well, I have office hours beginning in five minutes.
10:39Oh.
10:41Oh, my God.
10:42I'm so sorry.
10:44No, wait.
10:45Wait.
10:46I'm not brushing you off.
10:49I want to talk about this with a clearer head.
10:53Perhaps somewhere other than my office.
10:56Would that be all right?
10:58Yeah.
10:59Yeah.
11:02Here, give me your phone.
11:15I'll message you.
11:17Okay.
11:30You can't talk to anyone else about this, okay?
11:34This has to stay between us.
11:38I know.
11:46Ryan, come on in.
11:48Bree, great work.
11:49Let me know how it all turns out.
11:53I will.
12:05I'm telling you, Diana, it's worse than it's been before.
12:07I think you're being overly sensitive, Mom.
12:10Honey, last night at dinner, he told me to shut up in front of the partners.
12:13It was embarrassing.
12:15He doesn't respect me, Diana.
12:17Of course he respects you.
12:20Why do you always take his side?
12:24Diana?
12:25Are you there?
12:26Yeah, yeah, I'm here.
12:27I'm just...
12:28I'm not sure what you want me to say.
12:30Do you want me to tell you to leave him?
12:32Honey, men like your father don't let people leave them.
12:34They're the only ones who get to do the leaving.
12:36Listen, Mom.
12:37Tad loves you.
12:39He can be harsh, but he takes really good care of you.
12:43He wouldn't do that if he didn't respect you.
12:46Don't let your head spin for no reason when everything is fine.
12:49You need him.
12:51Maybe I don't.
12:53I'm sorry, but you do.
12:56I'm sorry.
13:12Yeah?
13:15Hi.
13:19Hey.
13:22I remember these dorms.
13:24I lived here my sophomore year, too.
13:28What are you doing here?
13:33I wanted to check on you.
13:34Make sure you're okay.
13:36Yeah, I'm good.
13:38Good?
13:41You were pretty rough last night.
13:46Did you want me to thank you or something?
13:48What?
13:50No.
13:52Right.
13:53Well, I'm sure Stephen thought the whole story was hilarious.
13:58Oh, I didn't tell Stephen anything.
14:03Sure.
14:04I wouldn't do that.
14:06Fine, whatever.
14:08It's just a little weird that you're here.
14:11We're not really friends.
14:14Last night was fucked up.
14:16We don't have to be friends for me to make sure you're okay.
14:23What?
14:25I've seen how you are.
14:27You're not the kind of girl who goes and checks on other girls.
14:29You're kind of brutal with other girls.
14:31I mean, look at what you did to Lucy last year.
14:42I'm glad you're okay.
14:53Mmm.
14:59How many sugars are you putting in that?
15:00I need at least three to make it drinkable.
15:02You're the taste buds of an infant.
15:04And you have the taste buds of a man with a small penis.
15:08Bree broke up with me.
15:10Yesterday.
15:11Oh, my God.
15:12What? Why?
15:14Because I cheated on her.
15:17You cheated on Bree?
15:19Yeah.
15:20Oh, no, dude. She's so sweet.
15:22You're not helping, Wrigley.
15:23Yeah, sorry. No, no, no. I just, um...
15:26I just am surprised.
15:28How are you not reacting?
15:29I already told her.
15:30Fuck, dude. I was the one who told her to say something.
15:32I'm so sorry.
15:33Why?
15:34No, no. Stephen was right.
15:37She deserved to know.
15:39My life is just a fucking disaster, man.
15:43Man, I'm so sorry.
15:47Wait a minute. Hold on.
15:48Hold on.
15:50We broke the curse of the freshman girls.
15:52Wrigley.
15:53No, look, I'm just saying.
15:54All I'm saying?
15:56I think this could be the best thing that ever happened to you.
15:58Look, Evan has been tied down all of college.
16:00You've never had fun, dude.
16:02Now we can actually fuck around and do what we're supposed to be doing.
16:05Which is?
16:06Yeah.
16:08Pound a pussy.
16:10You're a monster.
16:11A pussy monster.
16:12Oh, my God.
16:15I really hate you right now.
16:19Hey.
16:20I'm sorry. I gotta ask.
16:22Who was the girl?
16:23The one you cheated with?
16:28I don't know. Just some random girl. I was drunk.
16:32They haven't been there.
16:39I broke up with Evan.
16:42But I don't want to talk about it.
16:46I'm sorry.
16:47It's fine.
16:49Anyways, I was thinking maybe we could go to the movies this weekend.
16:53Wait, wait, wait a minute.
16:55You gotta tell us something.
16:57What happened? What did you say?
16:59I just told him it was over.
17:02Please don't make me talk about it.
17:05I cannot believe he turned out to be such a fucking asshole.
17:09It's always the quiet ones just silently sticking their dicks in everything.
17:12Pippa!
17:13I just said I don't want to talk about it.
17:15It's like you don't listen to me.
17:22Hey, what up?
17:25Hey, Chris.
17:26Hi.
17:29What's up, freshman?
17:30Oh, yeah. I forgot you're my wise elder. Apologies.
17:33Yeah, yeah. Please don't ever misaddress me like that ever again.
17:38And don't forget that it's Lydia's birthday in a couple of days.
17:41Oh.
17:42Okay, well, I'm gonna eat. I am fucking hungover.
17:51That was awkward.
17:52What are you talking about?
17:54You guys were being so weird.
17:57No, we weren't.
18:00Seriously?
18:03No, I don't think so. No.
18:08Okay.
18:12Oh, I gotta go to class.
18:16I will see you guys back at the dorms. Bye.
18:21I actually gotta go, too. Are you okay?
18:25Yeah, I'm good.
18:28Okay.
18:42Bye.
18:49They say it's bad luck to find a girl meditating on a camp's bench.
18:55Apparently.
18:58Can we just talk for a minute and I'll fuck off after if you want?
19:03Jesus.
19:09Um, I called you a couple times.
19:14I know.
19:17Oh, fuck. I, uh...
19:21I was having such a good time with you. I didn't mean to scare you. I'm sorry.
19:25You didn't scare me.
19:27Okay, good.
19:32It seems like you're scared now.
19:36Did you know that guy?
19:39No.
19:43Wow.
19:44I know, it's crazy. I know.
19:47So you attacked a guy you've never met before because he was being slightly rude?
19:53Yeah.
19:57Have you done that before?
20:00Yeah.
20:05Great.
20:07I don't want to lie to you. I have a problem with my anger.
20:11And I don't know what else to call it. It's just something that I've been working on, but sometimes I...
20:18I'm so sorry. I can't do this right now.
20:23Okay, yeah, no, it's okay.
20:25Sorry again, Lucy.
20:32How do you have no homework? I already have a quiz and a paper due.
20:36I'm glad you asked. I have a system.
20:38Monday, Wednesday, Friday classes are straight now.
20:41You filter for Tuesday and Thursday so you can get fucked up and sleep in.
20:44Okay.
20:45And then I look at the syllabuses.
20:47Syllabi?
20:48Actually, both are correct.
20:50Cool.
20:51And then I find the classes that only have a midterm and a final, and voila.
21:03Oh my God, it's our MVP.
21:14Hey.
21:17Hey.
21:18Hi.
21:19Hey.
21:21Hi.
21:22Oh my God, look, she talks back.
21:27Yeah, it's so funny.
21:29Guess what? No one gives a shit about D2 football.
21:32So I really hope that you enjoy this moment while it lasts, because it's the only time in your lives
21:38you'll ever be valued for an idiotic devotion to spandex, capri pants, and concussions.
21:43Fuck you.
21:44Shit.
21:46And fuck you.
21:48Watching them fuck with me like this this whole time and doing nothing makes you an even bigger asshole than they are.
22:04What the fuck?
22:05I don't know.
22:07Honestly, she kind of has a point.
22:15Hey.
22:28Hey.
22:29Hey.
22:40I think I'm gonna take a nap.
22:43Okay.
23:06I might have done something a little crazy.
23:08Can we talk about it later? I'm just really tired.
23:12Yeah.
23:14Sorry.
23:42Okay.
23:53No.
23:56No, no, no, no, no, no.
24:02Hey.
24:03Oh my God, Gordon.
24:04Laura, what's going on? What's wrong?
24:06I have this paper due tomorrow and it's all fucking gone.
24:09What do you mean it's gone?
24:10I don't know. I opened the file and it's not there.
24:13Did you save it?
24:16Oh, I don't know.
24:18Oh, shit.
24:19I'm supposed to be at this a cappella thing in an hour and there's no way I'm gonna be able to finish this.
24:24I'm fucked.
24:25Okay, okay.
24:26Hey, it's okay.
24:27Listen, it's okay.
24:28I can help.
24:29I can write the paper.
24:30What?
24:31No, you can't.
24:32Yeah, I can.
24:33What's the paper on?
24:34The French Revolution.
24:35I've seen Les Mis.
24:36Hey, I'm a faster writer than you.
24:38Not better, just faster.
24:40Are you sure?
24:42Yeah.
24:43Yeah, I am.
24:44I can help.
24:45It's okay.
24:46It's no problem.
24:50My mom called yesterday.
24:52I think she got in my head.
24:55What did she want?
24:57She's complaining about my dad.
24:59Again.
25:00I don't think she realizes how much she needs him.
25:02Like, what would she do without him?
25:04Nothing.
25:05Yeah, she just feels pathetic.
25:10She is.
25:13And you're nothing like her.
25:15It's one of the many reasons I love you.
25:19Thanks.
25:34Fuck.
25:54I'm sorry about earlier.
25:58I didn't know that the team was doing that.
26:00No, I, no.
26:02That's not true.
26:03I did, I did.
26:04I just didn't realize how bad it was.
26:06It was overkill.
26:08And I should have said something, but I didn't.
26:10So I'm sorry.
26:25What are you listening to?
26:27Oh, um, nothing.
26:29Oh.
26:30Yeah, I just wear these so people don't talk to me.
26:32There you go.
26:33Smart.
26:36So, what's new with you?
26:40Same old.
26:41Yeah?
26:42Yeah.
26:44You?
26:47Same.
26:58Alright.
26:59See you around.
27:02See you.
27:30Hi.
27:31Hi.
27:39Glad you came.
27:43I'm not really sure what to say.
27:47Well, I just want you to know that it is very difficult for me not to touch you right now.
27:56I can't stop thinking about you.
27:59Me neither.
28:02I know.
28:05I really want to make you feel good.
28:09But, uh, but if we did this, would you be able to accept the situation?
28:17The fact that I'm married.
28:19I love my wife and I'm not going to leave her.
28:23But we can't do this if it's going to hurt you.
28:26Do you?
28:30Um.
28:33I think so.
28:41Fuck.
28:42What?
28:43Fuck.
28:45I'm terrible.
28:46I'm so sorry.
28:47I don't know what I was thinking.
28:49But this was, this was, um, incredibly fucked up for me.
28:57And it's, it's not fair to you.
29:01Yeah.
29:03Yeah, you're probably right.
29:08Okay.
29:10Okay.
29:19Okay.
29:24Hey.
29:25Want to smoke with me?
29:27Yes.
29:30Look at me.
29:36Okay, I have to ask you.
29:39What made you want to dye your hair blonde?
29:41Um.
29:47I just wanted a fresh start this year.
29:52And I'm dramatic, so blonde felt right.
30:02Why am I so attracted to all these fucked up guys?
30:05Steven, it was not your fault.
30:08Leo headbutted someone in front of me.
30:10I'm sorry, what?
30:11Yeah.
30:12Like, like fully use his head?
30:13Like full, full force forehead action?
30:15Yes.
30:16Like forehead to forehead contact?
30:17Yes, pretty much.
30:19Yes.
30:21That's insanely hot to me.
30:27It wasn't.
30:29It wasn't.
30:30I saw him today and he tried to explain.
30:32He said he had anger issues and he's working on it.
30:38But.
30:41I don't know.
30:42I just feel like there's something wrong with me.
30:44There's nothing wrong with you.
30:46How are we supposed to know if someone's dangerous when we first meet them?
30:52I'm so fucking mad at Chris.
30:54Oh my God, what?
30:55No, no.
30:56That's not talking about me.
31:00Don't.
31:07You know something, though?
31:09Hmm?
31:10Leo owned his shit.
31:13Us guys wouldn't do that.
31:15Steven wouldn't do that.
31:17Yeah, yeah, that's true.
31:19No one has any idea what Steven is heading.
31:22That's its own category of fucked up.
31:27He's like the most dangerous guy we know.
31:37Diana.
31:38Finished.
31:40Oh my God.
31:41I'm not gonna lie, it's really good.
31:43Oh, you're amazing.
31:44What?
31:45You're amazing.
31:46I didn't hear that.
31:47You're amazing.
31:49Seriously, I'd be so fucked without you.
32:03Why is Lucy's ID in your bag?
32:07Oh, um, she dropped it when I bumped into her on campus.
32:12When was that?
32:14I don't know, like a week ago?
32:16It wasn't a big deal.
32:19What did you talk about?
32:21Nothing.
32:22It lasted like a minute.
32:24Well, that's long enough to say something.
32:27Why are you being weird?
32:28I'm not being weird.
32:30I find that confusing considering all the shit you gave me about her last year.
32:33If that was actually nothing, you probably would have told me about it.
32:37She came at me.
32:39On campus.
32:40She wanted to talk, or whatever.
32:42I don't know, I guess she's still not over everything.
32:45But I just told her to fuck off.
32:47It was honestly really sad.
32:49I felt bad for her.
32:51So when I saw that she had dropped her ID, I picked it up.
32:54I completely forgot I had it.
32:57I'm gonna be late for class.
32:59Wait, sorry, sorry.
33:00Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa.
33:01I'm sorry.
33:02I didn't mean to snap like that.
33:04It's fine.
33:05It's fine.
33:06It's not, it's not.
33:09I don't want her harassing you.
33:12That's...
33:13It really wasn't a big deal.
33:18She's fucking with me.
33:21She's in this class I'm TA-ing.
33:23I had no idea.
33:25Now I think she switched into my section on purpose.
33:31Are you serious?
33:33Mm-hmm.
33:34That's genuinely creepy.
33:37I know.
33:38I just don't want her to mess anything up with us.
33:41Hey, hey.
33:43No one is gonna do that.
33:52I have to get to class.
33:54Yeah.
34:03Okay.
34:22What are you doing here?
34:25Uh...
34:27You lost something.
34:28I just wanted to give it back to you.
34:31Okay.
34:32This was in Diana's bag.
34:35Why did Diana have your ID card?
34:39Oh, she, she didn't tell you?
34:41We fucked.
34:43It was amazing.
34:45Just, can you give it back to me?
34:47She said you came to her on campus and tried to talk to her.
34:49Okay.
34:50If that's what she said, then, then fine.
34:52Can you get the fuck out of my room now, please?
34:54What were you talking to her about?
34:56Nothing.
34:57What...
34:58What don't you understand?
34:59I don't, I don't want any part of this.
35:01I don't give a shit about Diana, and I...
35:04I, I don't give a shit about you.
35:08Yes, you do.
35:12I know you do.
35:18I saw your face when you walked into class and you saw me.
35:23And that...
35:25wasn't not giving a shit.
35:31That's exactly what that was.
35:36No.
35:38It wasn't.
35:42Okay, then.
35:44It was hatred.
35:47No, I, I don't...
35:50No, I, I don't...
35:53I don't think it was that either.
35:57I don't think...
36:00you hate me.
36:03At all.
36:08I promise you I do.
36:19This is really fucking embarrassing for you.
36:49Okay.
37:10Hi.
37:11Hey.
37:12Can we, uh, can we talk for a minute?
37:15Yeah.
37:20Yeah.
37:28What do you want?
37:29I, I have to tell you something.
37:31Okay.
37:32Look, we both know that Stephen is capable of some fucked up stuff.
37:35I know you know that.
37:37But I don't think you're aware of how far it goes.
37:40Something happened with him last year and I didn't tell anybody
37:43because I swore to him I wouldn't and...
37:46honestly, I was, I was scared.
37:49What?
37:52Stephen was in the car with Macy when she died.
37:55They were sleeping together that summer before she even got here.
37:58They're from the same town. They were hooking up.
38:00And they were together at a house party during welcome week.
38:04Macy got drunk.
38:06She drove them home and they got in a wreck on the way.
38:08And he was in the car when she died.
38:11He, he saw her die and didn't fucking do anything, didn't call for help.
38:14He just fucking left her there.
38:16And I thought you should know.
38:21Yeah, okay, thanks.
38:26You, you don't, you don't believe me?
38:30I know you're fucking crazy, but this is next level.
38:35Why would I lie?
38:37Is that a serious question?
38:39I am telling you the truth, Diana.
38:41Stephen is, he's dangerous. He's a bad person.
38:44Here's the thing. You've got a pretty good track record of being insane.
38:49I'm not lying, Diana.
38:53Okay.
39:05This is not my problem anymore.
39:12Fuck.
39:21Is there a reason you're dropping the class? I'd advise against it.
39:24I had something personal come up and I can't make it work this semester.
39:27All right, but if you drop this class now, it will show up as an incomplete on your transcript.
39:31The add drop period is ended.
39:33Okay.
39:34All right.
39:41Hey.
39:47Ray?
39:53Hi.
40:11Okay.
40:42Hey.
40:44Hi.
40:46Can I come in?
40:48Yeah, yeah, of course.
40:57So, what's up?
40:59I, uh, I don't, I don't think I gave you enough credit for, for coming to me and
41:06trying to explain things and I, I should have, I should have at least listened.
41:13When you, when you said I was scared, you were right.
41:20I was.
41:23Of me?
41:25Of a lot of things.
41:28But
41:30I, I want to try and understand
41:35and, and hear you out.
41:37If you, only if you still want to talk about it.
41:40Yeah, yeah, I do.
41:43All right.
41:52Um, I get really angry sometimes.
41:56Even if I, I don't want to.
41:59Something will happen and a normal person would be able to talk himself back to sanity.
42:04But sometimes something happens in my head and I, I don't know, I just, I stop thinking.
42:10And then all of a sudden there's a guy lying on the floor with a broken nose
42:14and I'm just standing there looking around the room.
42:18And it's, it's fucking embarrassing.
42:22And it's pathetic.
42:24And I don't want it to keep on happening.
42:30Does that, does that make sense?
42:33Honestly, no.
42:35Fair.
42:36I mean, when you run the best case scenario of headbutting a stranger in a coffee shop
42:42and the results are pretty straightforward, you're, uh,
42:46you're never gonna end up getting what you want.
42:50Yeah.
42:51Didn't, didn't really seem like you had much of a plan there.
42:56No.
42:58Look, I, um, I really want to keep hanging out with you and I get if that's off the table.
43:04But just so you know, I, I would love it.
43:08And that's, that's pretty much, pretty much it.
43:15I've kind of been bullshitting you about some stuff.
43:20Okay.
43:21And I didn't, um, want to get into it because I
43:25didn't want to admit that there was anything wrong with me.
43:28But everything with Steven was really bad last year.
43:34Like a lot worse than I said it was.
43:39And it made me fucking crazy.
43:45And sad.
43:48And got to a point where I didn't even really trust myself anymore.
43:53I'm definitely not anybody else.
43:59And I just don't want anybody in my life to make me feel that way again.
44:10Yeah, I get that.
44:13So if I keep hanging out with you, you're not gonna, like,
44:20be awful to me, are you?
44:24No, I'm not.
44:51I'm house-sitting for a friend while they're on sabbatical in London.
44:57Water the plants.
44:59Feed the cat.
45:01You know.
45:05It's nice.
45:07I like the rugs.
45:09It reminds me of this home that I lived in for a little while in middle school.
45:13They had a rug like this one.
45:15It wasn't as nice.
45:20I'm gonna tell you how I feel.
45:27I'm gonna drive you through the night, down the hills.
45:36I'm gonna tell you something you don't want to hear.
45:45I'm gonna show you where it's dumbed, but have no fear.
45:57There's something inside you.
46:01It's hard to explain.
46:06There's something inside you, boy, yeah.
46:11And you're still the same.
46:13Is this okay?
46:15Yes.
46:17I'm giving you a nightcore to tell you how I feel.
46:26I'm gonna drive you through the night, down the hills.
46:35I'm gonna tell you something you don't want to hear.
46:45I'm gonna show you where it's dumbed, but have no fear.
46:56There's something inside you.
47:01There's hard to explain.
47:06What are you doing?
47:10What do you want me to be doing?
47:15I want you to look at me.
47:20I know you better than anybody, right?
47:25Of course you do.
47:29Let me feel you.
48:00I'd rather tell you how.
48:09Tell you how.
48:14Tell you how.
48:19I'm giving you a nightcore to tell you how I feel.
48:26And how I feel.
48:56I'm giving you a nightcore to tell you how.
49:01Tell you how.