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00:02:40Go on. Karen, get back to your room.
00:02:42Karen.
00:02:46What is going on in here?
00:02:49I brought her in here.
00:02:50I didn't think it was good for her to see that.
00:02:53Yeah.
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00:03:10Just keep breathing.
00:03:12Just keep breathing.
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00:03:21Did you know Carter?
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00:03:32Jane, I'm...
00:03:34I'm ready to get the fuck out of here.
00:03:38What would be your plan if you were released?
00:03:42I'd have to find out where all my shit is.
00:03:48Can I please?
00:03:54Is this just making me take control of my trust again?
00:03:59Like, it's just so she doesn't have to talk to me?
00:04:02Give her time.
00:04:04People can take these things very personally.
00:04:10She believes you're ready to get out.
00:04:18That's surprising.
00:04:20What do you think?
00:04:25I agree.
00:04:32Why do you think I should release you?
00:04:44I don't know.
00:04:47Because you can keep me in here as long as...
00:04:52you want to, but...
00:04:55if it's something that I really want to do,
00:04:59I'm going to figure out a way you can't protect me.
00:05:04Like a Carter.
00:05:11I have some shit that I have to work through.
00:05:16But I don't want to see...
00:05:20I don't want to see stuff like this anymore.
00:05:27Are you pretending that it didn't fuck with me seeing him that way?
00:05:33It did.
00:05:35I didn't want nurses always...
00:05:40watching me.
00:05:42Watching me. No, I don't...
00:05:47I don't belong here.
00:05:50I'm not crazy.
00:05:54I'm just sad.
00:05:57What happens the next time?
00:06:02I don't want to die.
00:06:04Why?
00:06:11I just don't want the life I have sometimes.
00:06:15It's hard carrying that much baggage around all the time.
00:06:20But I want to learn.
00:06:25And I think...
00:06:27I think that's the first step.
00:06:35I'll start the wheels in motion for your release.
00:06:46Don't make me regret this.
00:06:59You scared the shit out of me.
00:07:05Shh.
00:07:08Calm down.
00:07:14I'm gonna miss you.
00:07:17I'm gonna miss you.
00:07:19I'm gonna miss you.
00:07:30You have no idea how amazing it feels to have someone like you in my life again.
00:07:35Because I haven't had it for a really, really long time.
00:07:41Me either.
00:07:44And it's terrifying.
00:07:54I can't lose you too.
00:07:58I'm not going anywhere.
00:08:14My parents...
00:08:21They were all I had.
00:08:25And then one day they were just gone.
00:08:30And nobody...
00:08:33Cared if I was alive...
00:08:37Or dead.
00:08:43And shitty people get to live every day.
00:08:50But my parents...
00:08:52Are gone because some girl had to answer a text message and I wondered every day what it said.
00:09:02What words...
00:09:06And in what order...
00:09:10Took priority...
00:09:12In the universe.
00:09:16What was that important?
00:09:19Because it ruined my life.
00:09:35They loved you.
00:09:39They didn't want to leave you.
00:09:42It must be amazing knowing that...
00:09:47They would still be here with you if they could.
00:09:56You are so incredibly loved.
00:10:12I love you.
00:10:42I love you.
00:11:12I love you.
00:11:42I love you.
00:12:00Hey, you've reached Mattel.
00:12:02Please leave a message.
00:12:04I will be back soon. Thanks.
00:12:12I love you.
00:12:42Hi.
00:12:46I miss you.
00:12:52Yeah.
00:12:54No, no, no. I just woke up. I'm sorry.
00:12:58Oh, it's been happening.
00:13:01Crazy bitch.
00:13:07Oh, my God.
00:13:09Hey, Bennett's finally calling me. Can I call you right back?
00:13:13No, I promise. I'll call you right back.
00:13:18Bye.
00:13:22I love you.
00:13:24I love you.
00:13:26I love you.
00:13:28Bye.
00:13:58I love you.
00:14:28Hey.
00:14:30I already got you started in the corner with some guys.
00:14:33They're a little bit douchey, so put on a brave face.
00:14:37Fuckin' great.
00:14:58I love you.
00:15:00I love you.
00:15:02I love you.
00:15:04I love you.
00:15:06I love you.
00:15:08I love you.
00:15:10I love you.
00:15:12Hey, guys, can I get you something to drink?
00:15:16Look at you.
00:15:18You're fucking gorgeous.
00:15:21Sam, look at these lips.
00:15:23Have you ever seen lips this beautiful?
00:15:25I'm Ray, and I love a Jacket Coke.
00:15:28I can see you on those pretty knees of yours by the end of the night.
00:15:32So funny.
00:15:39Calm down. Sit down. I'll call you.
00:15:43You okay?
00:15:45Yeah.
00:15:47Dean, come with me.
00:15:56If it makes you feel any better,
00:15:58the guy totally deserved it.
00:16:07Did you lose your job?
00:16:11I'm sorry.
00:16:13Hey.
00:16:24Trenton.
00:16:29Dean.
00:16:34So, where'd she go?
00:16:39Wasn't really working out.
00:16:43Before or after you punched a guy for another girl?
00:16:47Figured this way we'd both go down for a salt,
00:16:50then I'd definitely get to see you again.
00:16:59Wanna go get drunk?
00:17:01How long have you been here?
00:17:03About three years now.
00:17:05Cheers.
00:17:08Okay, what brought you here?
00:17:10I came for music.
00:17:12I had to get the fuck out of there.
00:17:16Yeah, is that because Brooklyn was so bad?
00:17:19I just lost some of its pizzazz.
00:17:24Yeah. Where are you from?
00:17:27Nashville.
00:17:29I've always wanted to go there.
00:17:31That's funny. I've always wanted to leave.
00:17:34Care to elaborate?
00:17:39Too many...
00:17:41shitty memories.
00:17:43Yeah, see? Lost its pizzazz.
00:17:47Yeah, every street corner reminded me of something I lost.
00:17:51And what'd you lose?
00:17:53Everything.
00:17:55Dad, my grandparents.
00:17:58I get that.
00:18:00So, any other family?
00:18:02None that I speak to.
00:18:04No.
00:18:06You?
00:18:08I have a sister.
00:18:10She lives in San Francisco, but we don't talk much.
00:18:16That's bizarre.
00:18:18Family that I don't speak to lives right outside the city.
00:18:22On a creek?
00:18:24Yeah.
00:18:26Lives right outside the city.
00:18:28On a creek?
00:18:30Intriguing.
00:18:32I'd say.
00:18:34So, music.
00:18:38You produce, sing, what?
00:18:40A little bit of everything.
00:18:42Right now I do music for the Motion Pictures.
00:18:46Is it your own music?
00:18:48Not really.
00:18:50I'm more of a music supervisor, so I get to
00:18:52take indie bands or songs that nobody's ever heard of
00:18:54and give them exposure.
00:18:56Kind of my way of making other people's dreams come true.
00:19:00You know, paying it forward.
00:19:02And why don't you use your own music?
00:19:06Because it's not ready yet.
00:19:09But, uh, I will.
00:19:12One day.
00:19:14What's your thing?
00:19:16Nashville, what's your deal? What's your thang?
00:19:19I have a thang.
00:19:21Really?
00:19:23Nothing.
00:19:27I like music.
00:19:29Okay.
00:19:30I used to sing a little bit.
00:19:32Used to do a lot of things.
00:19:34Well, that's perfect.
00:19:36Because I'll play you my stuff and you play me yours.
00:19:41That's never going to happen.
00:19:43Yeah, we'll see about that.
00:19:45Why don't you hold your breath?
00:19:48Okay.
00:19:51Okay.
00:20:07Uh, dream place to go?
00:20:10Italy.
00:20:12Birthday?
00:20:14October 28th.
00:20:16Shut the fuck up.
00:20:18What, 1028?
00:20:20Yeah, that would be October 28th.
00:20:22That would be. Uh, creepy.
00:20:24I have a huge connection to that number.
00:20:26What's the connection?
00:20:28It's the name of this song that I've always wanted to finish.
00:20:32I don't get it. The song's name is 1028?
00:20:35Well, it's never officially been named.
00:20:38You know, that must have been the date that I created it.
00:20:41But I never finished it, so yeah, it's still 1028 in my computer.
00:20:46What's it about?
00:20:48I don't really know.
00:20:52I saw this girl in this coffee shop.
00:20:55She just looked sad.
00:20:58She was so stunning.
00:21:00But when I was watching her, you know, people would come up and talk to her and she'd smile.
00:21:05As soon as they walked away, she'd just drop it.
00:21:09It was painful.
00:21:11Forced. And she just looked so sad.
00:21:18And then I heard this beat in my head and a couple phrases and I went home and I created it for her.
00:21:25But she never found inspiration to finish it.
00:21:30Maybe that's not what it was ever supposed to be.
00:21:35Maybe, but, um, there's only like eight lyrics.
00:21:41Maybe that's enough.
00:21:45Maybe.
00:21:48Can we go listen to it?
00:21:51Like right now?
00:21:52Yeah, like now. I want to hear it.
00:22:11I'll be fine. Yeah, I'll be fine.
00:22:15Please don't worry about me.
00:22:18I'm fine. Yeah, I'll be fine.
00:22:21I wish you cared.
00:22:23I'm fine. Yeah, I'll be fine.
00:22:27Don't worry about me.
00:22:29I'm fine. Yeah, I'll be fine.
00:22:33I wish you cared.
00:22:40It's perfect.
00:22:42It is just like that.
00:22:45You can't change anything about it, not even the name.
00:22:48Yeah.
00:22:50Promise.
00:22:52Yeah, I promise.
00:22:57It's really fucking good.
00:23:05Is this your grandma?
00:23:07Yeah. Yeah, that's my babushka.
00:23:10She, um, she was basically my mom.
00:23:13She raised me.
00:23:17Um, what happened with your parents?
00:23:20I know that you said that your dad passed.
00:23:25Yeah, yeah, my old man, he's gone.
00:23:28My mom, she's, uh, all around.
00:23:33Walnut Creek?
00:23:36Well, yeah.
00:23:41But my baba, she was everything to me.
00:23:44I mean, she was my friend, my parent, my mentor, my teacher.
00:23:50She was more like a tutor.
00:23:52She did my homework for me.
00:23:55Yeah, she was beautiful.
00:23:59See how much she loves you.
00:24:04She was amazing.
00:24:10Wait a minute.
00:24:32Wait.
00:24:34Wait a second. Wait.
00:24:36I just don't know that we should go all the way right now.
00:24:39We should do that.
00:24:40Go all the way?
00:24:41Yeah.
00:24:42Is this middle school?
00:24:43No, no.
00:24:44I just, I really like you and I don't want to fuck it up by going all the way.
00:24:52I don't, I just think that, um, I think maybe we should just, you know.
00:24:58Hold hands? Go steady?
00:25:00Yeah, talk and, you know, I could, sure, I could hold you or, you know, we could just make out or whatever.
00:25:07I just don't want to, I just don't want to fuck it up, you know?
00:25:13Yeah.
00:25:14Is that okay? I'm, it's not that I.
00:25:17Oh, shut up.
00:25:19Please don't make me feel any worse.
00:25:21Don't say that.
00:25:23What is all of this?
00:25:27They're just, you know, thoughts, ideas, some songs.
00:25:32One's 1028.
00:25:34Wow, you can cross that one off.
00:25:36Well, yeah, I could, but, you know, I might leave it up now just to remind me of you.
00:25:42You know, a little memento.
00:25:44I can help you with that.
00:25:46Yeah, what you got? Let's see it.
00:25:50I am quite the artist.
00:25:52Okay.
00:25:53If I do say so myself.
00:25:54Oh, I'm excited.
00:25:56We gotta get the hair.
00:25:59A little heart action.
00:26:03So what, what is that exactly?
00:26:06What?
00:26:07I can't.
00:26:08It's all of this.
00:26:09Oh, shit.
00:26:10That's super insulting.
00:26:12Yeah, no, no, no.
00:26:13Wait, wait, hold on, hold on.
00:26:14No, no.
00:26:15It's a little tiny.
00:26:18Oh, yeah, that's.
00:26:19Now I see it.
00:26:20Yeah.
00:26:21I get it, yeah.
00:26:22The proportions seem right.
00:26:24Believe me, I felt down there.
00:26:25Yeah.
00:26:26Yeah.
00:26:27Okay.
00:26:28A little pee pee.
00:26:29A small penis.
00:26:30And then we're holding hands just like.
00:26:31Yeah.
00:26:32It's identical.
00:26:33Yeah, totally.
00:26:34Oh, you are an artiste.
00:26:36Thank you for the drawing.
00:26:42Is that really what you think my thing looks like?
00:26:45Mister, let's just talk, and I have a tiny penis.
00:26:49Oh, shit.
00:27:05Give me a second.
00:27:20I'm sorry.
00:27:30Really sorry.
00:27:35I'm sorry.
00:27:36Come on.
00:27:40Yeah, it's been really fucking tough.
00:27:44If you could just cut me slack this one time, I really fucking appreciate it.
00:27:51I really am sorry.
00:27:53I'm sorry.
00:28:03I'm sorry.
00:28:05What happened?
00:28:09I lost my job, for starters.
00:28:15Well, fuck them.
00:28:17You've got money.
00:28:18You don't need work.
00:28:21Yeah.
00:28:22Yeah, you're right.
00:28:24That's exactly what I need.
00:28:27Just a lot of free time and just me and my thoughts, you know?
00:28:33It's a great idea.
00:28:34I like that.
00:28:35I didn't really think that one all the way through.
00:28:37Yeah, I don't think so.
00:28:41Have you talked to your sister?
00:28:43She won't answer.
00:28:52I thought she called you back the other day.
00:29:07You should write to her.
00:29:08That way you know you get to say what you want to say.
00:29:18Yeah.
00:29:20I don't really know what to say.
00:29:22Yeah, you fucking do.
00:29:27Yeah, I guess I do.
00:29:41Stop.
00:29:49Mm-mm-mm.
00:29:55Oh, fuck.
00:30:19Fuck.
00:30:49No!
00:31:02Dad?
00:31:05Dad?
00:31:12I can't lose you, Dad.
00:31:20I'm so sorry.
00:31:21I will never forgive you.
00:31:23You want to kill yourself?
00:31:24I'm not going to stand by and watch my wife get genetic disease.
00:31:27Ain't nobody cared if I was alive.
00:31:29No, no, no, no.
00:31:30Forget it.
00:31:33Please, Dad!
00:31:50No!
00:31:52No!
00:31:53No!
00:31:54No!
00:32:19I'm sorry.
00:32:42So what's something you've always wanted to do?
00:32:47Travel.
00:32:49It's a big one for me.
00:32:52Where do you want to go?
00:32:55Everywhere.
00:32:57I've never been anywhere.
00:33:03What are you doing?
00:33:04Up.
00:33:05Let's go.
00:33:06What?
00:33:07Come on.
00:33:08Where are we going?
00:33:09We're going on an adventure.
00:33:10It's everywhere.
00:33:19We're going on an adventure.
00:33:20It's everywhere.
00:33:21We're going on an adventure.
00:33:22We're going on an adventure.
00:33:23We're going on an adventure.
00:33:24We're going on an adventure.
00:33:25We're going on an adventure.
00:33:26We're going on an adventure.
00:33:27We're going on an adventure.
00:33:28We're going on an adventure.
00:33:29We're going on an adventure.
00:33:30We're going on an adventure.
00:33:31We're going on an adventure.
00:33:32We're going on an adventure.
00:33:33We're going on an adventure.
00:33:34We're going on an adventure.
00:33:35We're going on an adventure.
00:33:36We're going on an adventure.
00:33:37We're going on an adventure.
00:33:38We're going on an adventure.
00:33:39We're going on an adventure.
00:33:40We're going on an adventure.
00:33:41We're going on an adventure.
00:33:42We're going on an adventure.
00:33:43We're going on an adventure.
00:33:50You and I.
00:34:01I'm always wondering what's going on in the head of yours.
00:34:06You really want to know, what I was thinking?
00:34:09Yeah, I do.
00:34:12It's scary
00:34:15Like you as much as I do right now.
00:34:18Because there is a chance you won't like me back.
00:34:22Yeah, well...
00:34:24I've been in love with you since the moment I saw you.
00:34:28You don't know me.
00:34:31I'm not easy to be with.
00:34:34I'm moody and mean.
00:34:40And I have gotten so, so good at fucking things up.
00:34:47Well, you don't know me either.
00:34:49I'm a resilient motherfucker.
00:34:54Hey, let's play a game.
00:34:57Now, it's called the honesty game.
00:34:59And we've got to tell each other the most fucked up, shameful things that we've ever done in our lives.
00:35:06You know, shit that we'd normally try to hide from each other.
00:35:09I'm good, actually, I think.
00:35:10Oh, come on, hear me out. It's fun.
00:35:13Look, look, we just cut through the bullshit.
00:35:16Right? And if we're still standing at the end, we give this a try.
00:35:22I mean, like a real fucking try.
00:35:28Proceed.
00:35:30Now, see...
00:35:35What happened to your parents?
00:35:36That's so funny. I was actually just thinking that you should probably go first, because it's your fucking game.
00:35:41Ooh, touché.
00:35:45Why?
00:35:49Don't you speak to your mother?
00:35:51Ooh, good one.
00:35:55So my parents, they were married happily for 19 years.
00:36:00And then when I was 11, my dad got lung cancer.
00:36:04He died.
00:36:11My mom kind of got lost after that.
00:36:14She was just sad all the time.
00:36:17And then she met Dan.
00:36:20Dan called himself Dan the motherfucking man.
00:36:25There wasn't a lot of things that Dan liked.
00:36:27He didn't like kids, but he did like hidden women.
00:36:32When I started to stand up to him, that's when they left.
00:36:37And I moved in with my grandma.
00:36:39So my mom literally chose abuse over me.
00:36:43Now she's trying to reach out again.
00:36:46I don't got nothing to say to her.
00:36:49So...
00:36:51I lost both my parents the day my dad died.
00:36:57I'm sorry.
00:36:59It's okay.
00:37:10Both my parents are dead.
00:37:14Mom died of a heroin overdose when I was 5.
00:37:20I don't know if it was intentional or not.
00:37:23My dad did.
00:37:24But apparently he didn't think that was useful information
00:37:29to tell me before he took his own life 10 years ago.
00:37:37Is that what you were afraid to tell me?
00:37:40No.
00:37:42Said I'm just like him.
00:37:46So you tried to kill yourself?
00:37:49Yep.
00:37:51Why?
00:37:56I don't know.
00:38:02I was going through a breakup with my ex.
00:38:04That was messy.
00:38:09But I had wanted to do it for a really long time before that.
00:38:14Why do you think you were so unhappy?
00:38:24I used to say it was because I'm an artist.
00:38:30And I had to stay in these deep, dark places to create my art.
00:38:37But I don't make art anymore, so...
00:38:43I think that might have been bullshit too.
00:38:48Maybe it really does just come down to my mom and dad.
00:38:53Finding my dad that way didn't help.
00:38:58You found your dad?
00:39:03Shotgun to the head.
00:39:07I was right upstairs.
00:39:10So he knew I'd find him.
00:39:16I was barefoot when I came running in.
00:39:21I'll never forget that feeling under my feet.
00:39:29Wow, I'm really sorry, Dean.
00:39:37It's funny, it's like...
00:39:41Once it's a thought in your head, it's always there.
00:39:48Like an alcoholic is always gonna want a drink.
00:39:54And a girl with bulimia is always gonna think about running off to the bathroom after a steak dinner.
00:40:02But with sadness, it just has its way of creeping in.
00:40:08Even over the smallest things.
00:40:12Bad day?
00:40:14Kill yourself.
00:40:17Heartbroken?
00:40:19Kill yourself.
00:40:22Parking ticket?
00:40:24Kill yourself.
00:40:29Fuck.
00:40:32I have so many parking tickets.
00:40:41Did they, um...
00:40:43They hold you in the hospital?
00:40:45After?
00:40:48Yeah.
00:40:50Life's definitely been interesting ever since.
00:40:53I'll get at that.
00:40:55But...
00:40:57To be honest, I'm...
00:41:01Still pretty fucking embarrassed.
00:41:08Look, when you fail...
00:41:13You have to look the people in the face that you hurt.
00:41:20And I don't know what to say.
00:41:25You just gotta tell them.
00:41:27Straight up.
00:41:30You just told me.
00:41:33There's nothing to be embarrassed about.
00:41:36Some people just...
00:41:38Just feel more deeply than others.
00:41:44Did I win?
00:41:47Yeah.
00:41:48One point for me. Two points.
00:41:50Yeah, you won the game.
00:41:51Yeah, congratulations, champ.
00:41:57Yeah.
00:42:07This is why I wanted that night to be different.
00:42:11I'm sure that's what a lot of guys want from you, but...
00:42:15But I want you.
00:42:18Every single part of you.
00:42:36Be the good in me
00:42:40Be the good in me
00:42:45Be the good in me
00:42:50Be the good in me
00:42:55Be the good in me
00:43:01Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:43:05Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:43:11Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:43:15Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:43:21You fail every reason
00:43:25Just like I taught you to
00:43:31Brought the world in call
00:43:37To my home
00:43:42And I turn to you
00:43:48Who are those sexy women? Who are the sexy women?
00:43:51Brandon!
00:43:53Oh, my God.
00:43:54Hi, baby.
00:43:55Oh, my God.
00:43:57I missed you.
00:43:58I missed you.
00:44:04You love my friend?
00:44:05Yeah, I really do.
00:44:09And you're aware of where I was just released from?
00:44:13I am.
00:44:14Okay.
00:44:16And they've explained that Taryn was a resident of this fine establishment as well?
00:44:21Yes, indeed, they have.
00:44:23So you understand that if you hurt her, we will fucking kill you.
00:44:27Holy shit.
00:44:29Fully aware.
00:44:33Put your arms around me. I haven't felt a man in months!
00:44:38That's good.
00:45:08Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:45:15Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:45:21Ooh-ooh-ooh
00:45:31Ooh, thank you.
00:45:33Sorry, you're just using me for my cooking.
00:45:35I'm a cunnilingus.
00:45:37I need your money. Don't forget that.
00:45:39It's been real nice not paying for anything.
00:45:41Wow.
00:45:42You know I love you.
00:45:44Nope, don't believe me.
00:45:46You don't believe me?
00:45:47Nope.
00:45:48Okay.
00:45:50Excuse me, everyone here.
00:45:52I would like you all to know how much I love this beautiful man.
00:45:56Well endowed.
00:45:58Monster in the street!
00:46:05Hope for me was broken, busted
00:46:11No voice or choice could be trusted
00:46:17Hope for me was a lie
00:46:21Just another reason to cry
00:46:28Lost, I must confess
00:46:34Making up space at best
00:46:42No guiding light through the darkness inside
00:46:48And longing to lay it to rest
00:46:55But everything looks so different
00:46:59When you step out of the dark
00:47:05You showed me rock bottom could be
00:47:08A beautiful place to start
00:47:29I'm sorry.
00:47:37It's certainly your fault.
00:47:53Hi.
00:47:55Jesus fucking Christ.
00:48:02I'm glad you found God in these dark times.
00:48:10I was going to write you back, but I ended up on a plane.
00:48:21I go through day after day with this crippling fear.
00:48:30I just keep up the status quo because that's what I'm supposed to do.
00:48:36I'm supposed to be the together one.
00:48:42But I'm not together.
00:48:50I want a baby so bad.
00:48:54It's all I want.
00:48:58But I have this thought of postpartum.
00:49:09What if I fuck up?
00:49:12What if I'm not a good mom?
00:49:16I'm not a good sister.
00:49:18How the fuck am I going to be a good mom?
00:49:20And that is not true.
00:49:21I failed you, Dean.
00:49:23That is not true.
00:49:26When I was laying on that bathroom floor, all I could think about was you.
00:49:32I kept praying.
00:49:34If somehow I made it, I could fix this.
00:49:41All I felt in those last moments were regret.
00:49:45And it was terrifying.
00:49:51I can't go through it again.
00:49:59I'm so scared.
00:50:02It will kill me if you die.
00:50:08I'm not going through it.
00:50:19I know that I can't even picture her face anymore.
00:50:28I try.
00:50:29I recall details, but...
00:50:35what I have really are the things that you've told me.
00:50:40And now every time I picture his face...
00:50:47it's how I found them that night.
00:50:54Sometimes it feels like they didn't even exist.
00:51:01I see her every time I look at you.
00:51:07You look exactly like her.
00:51:14I miss them too.
00:51:18But I miss you more.
00:51:23What if I moved?
00:51:26What if I moved to San Francisco?
00:51:31What about your life here?
00:51:36I would go if you... if you would love me.
00:51:56Jackson, stop.
00:52:11Jackson!
00:52:14Please stop!
00:52:19I know what that must have done to you.
00:52:23Finding me like that.
00:52:26You are the most gentle, kind man I know.
00:52:34And I know that that must have destroyed you.
00:52:40Sorry.
00:52:41I know why you're here.
00:52:43You want closure and forgiveness, and I can't give that to you.
00:52:47I can't.
00:52:48I know that you have no reason to believe me.
00:52:54But I've changed.
00:52:57I have.
00:53:00I have friends, and I'm...
00:53:05a family.
00:53:06I'm moving to be with my sister, and...
00:53:11I'm in a healthy relationship for the first time in my life.
00:53:14I haven't fucked something up.
00:53:16I...
00:53:18I'm better.
00:53:20I'm doing better.
00:53:22How many times did we go on this roller coaster?
00:53:25You would sell me on how you were getting better,
00:53:28how you were going to change,
00:53:31and you would give me hope that things were going to be different,
00:53:34and then you would throw everything you had at me!
00:53:39I tried.
00:53:41I tried.
00:53:42Even when you stopped trying, I tried for you.
00:53:46I did.
00:53:49So I hope it is different.
00:53:52I hope it is different.
00:53:55Because if it's not, then let them go.
00:53:58Because after you, you're never the same.
00:54:03Ever.
00:54:12Ever.
00:54:30Baby?
00:54:33What the fuck are you doing here?
00:54:37You okay?
00:54:39What's going on?
00:54:42Dean?
00:54:48What are you doing here?
00:54:50I told you I'd come over. I'm doing work.
00:54:54You okay?
00:54:56Get the fuck out of my house.
00:54:58Excuse me?
00:54:59Get the fuck out of my fucking house.
00:55:01Babe, what's going on?
00:55:02Get the fuck out of my house!
00:55:04Why are you...
00:55:05Why are you here?
00:55:07Babe, calm down.
00:55:09What the fuck is going on? What's the matter?
00:55:12Get out of here!
00:55:13What is going on?
00:55:14Get out of my house!
00:55:15Why?
00:55:16Because I don't want you here!
00:55:18What the fuck happened?
00:55:19I don't want you here!
00:55:20Who said you could be in here?
00:55:22Babe, it's okay.
00:55:23Don't touch me!
00:55:24Calm down.
00:55:25Get out of my house!
00:55:26Babe.
00:55:27I don't want you in my fucking house!
00:55:29I heard you.
00:55:30What is going on?
00:55:31Then why are you standing here?
00:55:33Why? Do you get off on it?
00:55:35Babe, explain yourself.
00:55:36What do you want?
00:55:37Do you want me to fucking cut myself in front of you?
00:55:39Is this what you're into?
00:55:40Baby, no.
00:55:41You fucking sick fuck!
00:55:42No one wants you here!
00:55:44No one!
00:55:46Go!
00:55:47Go!
00:55:50Fuck you.
00:55:51Go!
00:55:56What? Do you get off on this?
00:55:57Get the fuck out of my house!
00:56:01No one wants you around, you hear me?
00:56:03Not even your own fucking mama.
00:56:08This was just a fuck.
00:56:10Get out of my house.
00:56:14Hey!
00:56:16If you're gonna do it, fucking do it like you fucking mean it!
00:56:20Do it like you mean it!
00:56:23Go!
00:56:24I know you.
00:56:25I fucking know you.
00:56:27You want to self-destruct?
00:56:28You don't want me around?
00:56:30Just say the word.
00:56:31Dean, you just say the fucking word.
00:56:34Go.
00:56:39Go.
00:56:50Shut the door, bitch!
00:56:52Shut the fucking door!
00:56:57Get out!
00:57:04Get out!
00:57:06Get out!
00:57:07Get out!
00:57:08Get out!
00:57:09Get out!
00:57:34No.
00:57:35No.
00:57:36No.
00:57:37No.
00:57:38No.
00:57:39No.
00:57:40No.
00:57:41No.
00:57:42No.
00:57:43No.
00:57:44No.
00:57:45No.
00:57:46No.
00:57:47No.
00:57:48No.
00:57:49No.
00:57:50No.
00:57:51No.
00:57:52No.
00:57:53No.
00:57:54No.
00:57:55No.
00:57:56No.
00:57:57No.
00:57:58No.
00:57:59No.
00:58:00No.
00:58:01No.
00:58:02No.
00:58:10I need help.
00:58:15I don't want to...
00:58:17I don't want to fuck things up.
00:58:20I always do.
00:58:24Here you go.
00:58:27Thanks.
00:58:28Did I wake anyone else up?
00:58:32Just me.
00:58:37What happened?
00:58:44Are you sober?
00:58:46Yeah.
00:58:49I have three years.
00:58:52That's a much lower number than I would have expected.
00:58:59Why did you choose to come here tonight, Dean?
00:59:02Hmm.
00:59:05That's a good question.
00:59:09All this time,
00:59:12I thought that they both killed themselves.
00:59:22Then I found this.
00:59:32You never know the proper way to talk about her, and it's not fair to you both.
00:59:40She was trying to quit, but she couldn't.
00:59:44She was the one who was good at this.
00:59:48She was meant to be a mother.
00:59:52Sorry it wasn't better.
00:59:54I'd trade places with her if I could.
00:59:57I wish I was strong enough to carry on, but I hope you'll continue.
01:00:03I love you. I love you both.
01:00:09Do you know how long I looked for that?
01:00:14Every jacket,
01:00:18every drawer,
01:00:20every place that we used to go, even places that didn't make sense.
01:00:27I couldn't accept that anyone say goodbye.
01:00:34Would you rather have not found it?
01:00:38No, I'd, um...
01:00:43rather have a mother here,
01:00:48rather have a father alive telling me this shit.
01:00:55What I don't want
01:01:00is writing on the back of a picture that means nothing.
01:01:08No closure, no explanation, nothing.
01:01:14I know it hurts,
01:01:18but this is what you've always wanted.
01:01:20That's what I've always wanted?
01:01:23Is that what I've always wanted?
01:01:27No.
01:01:28Actually, what I wanted was parents,
01:01:33or to feel normal.
01:01:35Do you know what I would give to feel normal?
01:01:39What I don't want is a bunch of writing
01:01:42on the back of the only fucking memento I have of my mom.
01:01:47The only way that I remember what she even looks like.
01:01:51Because he's too big of a coward to tell me.
01:01:56He couldn't just tell me that to my face and then do it.
01:02:01Dean, you are so strong.
01:02:03Why are you so convincing?
01:02:05Dean, you are so strong.
01:02:07Why are you so convinced?
01:02:09I am strong!
01:02:11You don't know me!
01:02:13I know that you're just the product of your surroundings,
01:02:18that none of your issues are actually your own,
01:02:21that you'd actually be fine.
01:02:24If you could just let go and forgive yourself,
01:02:29you could not have saved him, Dean.
01:02:33You sit in your fancy fucking house
01:02:36with your pretty life and your pretty things.
01:02:39You know nothing about what it's like to feel like this!
01:02:43Do you think that you're the only person who knows loss?
01:02:47Huh?
01:02:48My son died at 15.
01:02:51He took his own life with pills from my medicine cabinet.
01:02:55I gave him the weapon to end his life.
01:02:59I'm the only one to blame,
01:03:01and I didn't fucking see it.
01:03:04It's my fucking job, and I didn't see it in my own son.
01:03:08So don't you dare tell me that I don't know what it's like.
01:03:13I drank myself to death for years
01:03:16before I could muster a day without him to smoke.
01:03:20I lost a husband, myself, my family.
01:03:26Why did you do it?
01:03:30Why does it matter?
01:03:33We'll never be able to ask them why.
01:03:37They're gone.
01:03:40I love my little boy more than life itself,
01:03:44and every single day I breathe on this planet without him hurts.
01:03:50I feel it in every single breath.
01:03:53I feel it in every single breath.
01:03:56But I refuse to give up, because that is what survivors do.
01:04:01They fight, and they save everyone they can along the way.
01:04:07So what are you, Dean?
01:04:11I don't know.
01:04:15Yes, you do.
01:04:16No, I don't.
01:04:17Yes, you do.
01:04:18I don't know.
01:04:19Yes, you do.
01:04:20I don't know.
01:04:23I don't know.
01:04:47I know what I'm supposed to say.
01:04:48I know what I'm supposed to say.
01:04:49I'm sorry, but it doesn't feel like it means enough.
01:04:52I fucked up so bad.
01:04:56I can't forgive myself for what I said about your mom,
01:05:02and it wasn't true, obviously.
01:05:10I'm so sorry.
01:05:13I'm so sorry.
01:05:21Okay.
01:05:27I know.
01:05:32You know, my mom...
01:05:39She's dying.
01:05:41And...
01:05:45I'm not ready to forgive her.
01:05:50But I'm running out of time.
01:05:53I don't know what to do.
01:05:57Once they're gone, there will be a million things that you want to say.
01:06:05So many times I pick up the phone, and I don't even know who to call
01:06:08when there's good news and there's bad news, and I would hate that to happen to you.
01:06:15You have a fucking chance.
01:06:19I would kill for them.
01:06:28I'm sorry.
01:06:32Oh, God, I don't want to masturbate.
01:06:37I was trying to shield her from the depravity.
01:06:49I, uh...
01:06:51I'm moving to San Francisco.
01:06:56And...
01:06:58And...
01:07:02I...
01:07:04I know you guys have your lives here, and I can't expect you to just leave them, but I...
01:07:10I really wish you would.
01:07:14Because I think that we could...
01:07:18I think we could all be really happy there together.
01:07:23Hey.
01:07:25Wherever you go, I go.
01:07:30You sure?
01:07:32I'm sure.
01:07:43Maybe we can go to Walnut Creek.
01:07:46Hey, now.
01:07:48Hey, now.
01:07:50Is this, like, a Sister Wives, or...
01:07:54It's, like, more like Three's Company.
01:07:56Oh, Jesus.
01:07:58I gotta smoke.
01:08:02San Francisco.
01:08:05Yeah.
01:08:07Have you ever been?
01:08:12Does Taryn know?
01:08:16I called her 30 times.
01:08:20And?
01:08:22And?
01:08:24And?
01:08:26And?
01:08:28And?
01:08:31And I plan to ask her as well.
01:08:39How are we gonna afford it?
01:08:43Let me worry about that.
01:08:46Awesome. Okay.
01:08:49Now you're gonna use that money.
01:08:52Oh, my God.
01:08:54The money.
01:08:56Money.
01:08:58You know why I have that money?
01:08:59Because you're fucking rich.
01:09:01Because I'm a rich bitch.
01:09:05Yeah, no, I was actually super fucking poor growing up.
01:09:09Me and Bennett shared a room for most of our lives.
01:09:13But my dad took out a giant life insurance policy.
01:09:19And then three days from the day that the suicide clause expired,
01:09:25he took his own life.
01:09:29So rather than talking to me or getting help or, you know,
01:09:34doing bad things, he waited to do it.
01:09:41So I don't want his fucking blood money.
01:09:45But I would use it if it meant that I got to be with you
01:09:51and that we got to be happy and all of us could be together.
01:09:58You and I both pretend we don't need anybody,
01:10:04but it is complete bullshit.
01:10:08Because I need you.
01:10:14And I am not afraid to tell you that.
01:10:16I really need you.
01:10:19And I think that you need me too.
01:10:27Put your arms up.
01:10:31Oh my goodness.
01:10:33You're soaring.
01:10:34I'm flying.
01:10:35I'm jacking this, did you get that?
01:10:37Oh, yes, you got it.
01:10:38Oh shit, see, oh god damn.
01:10:40What if I fuck it up?
01:10:43Well, then I'll fuck it up first.
01:10:47You will.
01:10:48You will fuck it up.
01:10:50And so will I, for sure.
01:10:53You're going to look super good.
01:11:16Reid, what the fuck is going on?
01:11:24How'd you do it?
01:11:26How'd you do it?
01:11:45I looked around that room today.
01:11:48All I saw were people that loved her.
01:11:52They're all so convinced that no one cares.
01:11:57But every face in that room was crushed.
01:12:02Suicide destroys everyone's life who surrounds it.
01:12:06Not yours.
01:12:08No, you're gone.
01:12:11Someone in that room, they had to find her that way.
01:12:16It's just a vicious fucking cycle,
01:12:18and every time we do it,
01:12:20it's more and more acceptable to the people around us,
01:12:23but it's not.
01:12:25It's not okay.
01:12:31How do we fix it?
01:12:40Live.
01:12:43We suffer.
01:12:47And we work.
01:12:49Shitty fucking jobs.
01:12:53And live average, normal lives.
01:13:01And we get old.
01:13:03And fat.
01:13:05We go through menopause.
01:13:09At least we're alive.
01:13:12And we're together.
01:13:15At least we didn't give up.
01:13:19It's a much scarier choice
01:13:24to choose to live.
01:13:28Giving up is easy.
01:13:37Sounds fucking terrible.
01:13:41I'm game.
01:13:50I have daydreams.
01:13:54About marriage.
01:13:56Babies.
01:13:58The future.
01:14:02All these things that I...
01:14:06I never thought I'd live long enough to see.
01:14:13You as a mother.
01:14:16You as a mother.
01:14:21I would love to see that.
01:14:32I wanted you...
01:14:35to know that you saved my life.
01:14:39I didn't realize how much I wanted someone to do that
01:14:44for me to care about me enough to help me
01:14:49as much as I hated you for doing it.
01:14:52I didn't make it easy.
01:14:57I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you.
01:15:04Genuinely happy.
01:15:08Obviously.
01:15:11Not all day, not every day, you know?
01:15:14Life's not perfect.
01:15:16But...
01:15:19it's getting there.
01:15:22God, if you'd told me that my life would look like this
01:15:26a year ago, I would've...
01:15:29I would've told you you do need to be sober.
01:15:34I'm just so...
01:15:38in love.
01:15:42My life.
01:15:46It's the only word that keeps coming to my mind.
01:15:51Love.
01:15:54Grateful.
01:15:57I'm really...
01:16:00I'm really...
01:16:03really grateful that I failed that night.
01:16:07I wouldn't have had any of this if it wasn't for that night.
01:16:13I'm really grateful to be alive.
01:16:22So thank you.
01:16:27Can I hug you?
01:16:30Of course.
01:16:33Come here.
01:16:56Come here.
01:17:05You ready?
01:17:07Are you ready?
01:17:26Come here.
01:17:32I love you.
01:17:46It's okay.
01:17:49It's okay.
01:17:56It's okay.
01:18:00I've never actually been here before.
01:18:03Yeah, my, uh, my whole family came here on a trip once.
01:18:07My dad had never been to San Francisco before, and, um,
01:18:10yeah, we brought him.
01:18:12Every time I think of my picture, I'm right here.
01:18:16All my family, really, especially today.
01:18:27Oh, Jesus.
01:18:30You are it for me.
01:18:35This was my grandmother's ring.
01:18:37She wore it for 72 years.
01:18:40It's yours if you'll have me.
01:18:45Will you marry me?
01:18:47Yes.
01:18:48Yes?
01:18:51She said yes.
01:18:54She said yes!
01:19:21I love you.
01:19:25I love you.
01:19:29I love you.
01:19:33I love you.
01:19:37I just don't want to leave you sometimes.
01:19:41I'm always with you.
01:19:45Yes, I'm free.
01:19:49No!
01:19:53I'm not crazy.
01:19:54I'm just sad.
01:19:55It will be homey if you die.
01:19:57I think it will be, too.
01:19:59No!
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01:21:03Genuinely happy, obviously.
01:21:07Not all day, not every day, you know.
01:21:12It's getting there.
01:21:15God, you told me that my life would look like this.
01:21:18A year ago, I would have told you you do need to be sober.
01:21:25I'm just so in love.
01:21:31My life.
01:21:34It's the only word that keeps coming to my mind.
01:21:37Love, love, love.
01:21:41Grateful.
01:21:45I'm really, really grateful that I failed that night.
01:21:52Wouldn't have had any of this if it wasn't for that night.
01:21:55Soda!
01:21:59I'm really grateful to be alive.
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