Monolog z lisiej jamy 1998

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00:30Why isn't she here?
00:34Maybe you can tell me, my golden...
00:37What did I say? Golden?
00:38My silver calf, my burning bush,
00:41to whom am I talking,
00:42like the proverb goes,
00:43to the control image,
00:44to whom am I talking?
00:46And since when,
00:47according to the devils,
00:48logic is the strong side of reality,
00:50which rules the wheel of fortune?
00:52There are no more consonants,
00:54just a single voice.
00:57Beep, beep, beep.
01:05Not to mention,
01:07that I see this world
01:09as the whole nation does.
01:14Beep, beep.
01:28Beep, beep.
01:29Good morning, ladies and gentlemen.
01:30Winter is still not visible.
01:31Tomorrow it will be warm again,
01:32from 3 degrees in the South,
01:34to 7 degrees in the South.
01:35In addition,
01:36in the eastern regions,
01:37it will be rainy
01:38and the wind will grow stronger.
01:39In the mountains,
01:40it will blow at a speed
01:41of up to 110 km per hour.
01:44At the beginning,
01:45I will try to achieve
01:46the best possible results.
01:48In two hours,
01:49Russian opera and ballet stars
01:50will perform at the National Theatre
01:51in Warsaw.
01:52Poland will play with England,
01:53Bulgaria, Sweden
01:54and Luxembourg
01:56The glass of a broken bottle
01:58was drunk by a leper
01:59by the poet Bernard M.
02:01As a result,
02:02Polish literature
02:03suffered another painful loss.
02:07At the present historical stage,
02:11my nation is taken
02:13for granted
02:16by its leper lepers.
02:20Taking care of its leper lepers,
02:25my nation proves once again
02:29that it has not lost
02:30its historical instinct.
02:35What do the latest reports say?
02:44Here you are.
02:48I quote.
02:50The emirate of Gorzów cut
02:52two leper lepers
02:53with a knife.
02:57The owner of the estate
02:58in Warsaw
03:00shot the leper leper
03:04in her garden.
03:08A soldier serving
03:09in the Polish Peacekeeping Forces
03:11was shot
03:12because his comrade's bayonet
03:13accidentally cut
03:14the leper leper.
03:16I quote.
03:20If here,
03:23on the floor,
03:24yes,
03:27on this very floor,
03:31if here,
03:32all my compatriots
03:36who have suffered death
03:37in the last days
03:41as a result
03:42of cutting
03:43a leper leper
03:47I would not be able
03:48to leave this place.
03:55Agraha.
03:57Petersburg.
04:00How would she reach me?
04:05How would she reach
04:06the bloodied lepers?
04:10Would she be able
04:12to spread
04:15her milky wings
04:16of care?
04:24From time to time
04:25I felt
04:26a strong urge
04:29to throw myself at her.
04:33To throw myself
04:34on the PCB.
04:42Agraha.
04:57I also felt the urge
04:58to do it coldly,
05:00with an icy premeditation.
05:05Why should I wait
05:07for the black
05:09in Warsaw?
05:15Why should I wait?
05:19Why should I
05:20wait again?
05:28After all,
05:29I've been waiting
05:30all my life.
05:35Agraha.
05:37Agraha.
05:44Seven floors
05:45higher
05:49there is a flat
05:53which I used to
05:57occupy with my wife
05:59and my unsuccessful son.
06:12In the mid-eighties
06:18when my noble wife
06:20passed away
06:23and when my unsuccessful son
06:25also passed away
06:29the house was empty.
06:33The wind was blowing
06:34through the rooms.
06:37In the mid-nineties
06:42when I pulled
06:43Graha Petersburg
06:44out of the attic
06:46when I pulled
06:47Graha Petersburg
06:48out of the attic
06:56alone
06:58for some time
07:00I didn't look
07:02out of my hole.
07:08But quickly
07:12quickly
07:13guided by the instinct
07:14of self-preservation
07:17I came back here.
07:21Here is my hospital
07:23my sanatorium
07:25and my ambulatory.
07:29This is my birthplace
07:33my reanimation
07:37my regular ward.
07:41Here I landed
07:43in the many days
07:45of terrible abuse
07:48which I allowed
07:49on myself.
07:53Here
07:54I came to myself.
07:59Here I came back
08:02to the world.
08:14And maybe something happened.
08:19Maybe
08:20the electric discharge
08:22hit her
08:23urinary tract.
08:26Maybe the tick bit her.
08:29Maybe the deadly tick
08:32ate into her
08:33urinary tract.
08:44You are wrong
08:46Santa Luna.
08:51My unmistakable
08:52control image
08:55is not my obsession.
08:57The most ordinary
08:58in the world
08:59I know my own.
09:01Every day
09:02as a result of the violation
09:04of the urinary tract
09:07a dozen
09:09to a dozen
09:11of my relatives
09:14the green map of Poland
09:15darkens
09:16from the clear
09:17blood of the urinary tract.
09:21I will not hide
09:23I was
09:24an employee
09:25of the health service.
09:30Paraphrasing
09:31a certain classic
09:34I could say
09:35I was
09:37one of many
09:38regional doctors.
09:42I chose
09:43medicine.
09:46Although I was attracted
09:47to literature.
09:50The choice, of course,
09:51is inaccurate.
09:53Although it does not mean
09:54that if I
09:55had not chosen medicine
09:57I would have chosen
09:58beautiful literature
10:00it would be better.
10:03In literature
10:06without a doubt
10:07I would also
10:08not achieve anything.
10:12I chose medicine
10:15although with medicine
10:17I never had
10:18anything in common.
10:21What could I have
10:22in common with medicine?
10:27If I have nothing
10:28in common
10:29with myself.
10:42The end
11:03The corpse
11:04rises up
11:05like a mist
11:06between the Oder and the Bug
11:08from the Carpathians to the Baltics.
11:10And my nation
11:11stands
11:13motionless
11:15in front of your screen
11:17like an eternal
11:18TV set.
11:34Graha Petersburg
11:35always comes
11:37at the time of goodnight.
11:41At least in this regard
11:42we managed
11:43to raise
11:44our relationship.
11:48And today
11:50she is not here.
11:52And today she is not here!
11:56And today she is not here!
12:03I was waiting.
12:10I was waiting for the newspaper
12:11for the weather forecast.
12:15I was waiting
12:18for Gomułka to lose
12:19the power.
12:21I was waiting
12:22for Gierek to lose
12:23the power.
12:24I was waiting
12:25for Jaruzelski
12:26to lose the power.
12:28I was waiting
12:29for the moustached
12:30head of state
12:32to take over.
12:34And I was waiting
12:35for the moustached
12:36head of state
12:37to lose the power.
12:40I was waiting for the train to pass me by.
12:44And I was waiting for the first glass to hit my head.
12:51I was waiting for the sausage.
12:54And when the sausage was on the menu, I was waiting for the menu on the sausage.
13:00I was waiting for the Monday theatre,
13:03for the Wednesday match, for the Thursday Cobra.
13:06I was waiting for the passport.
13:11And what?
13:15And now I have to wait until I go crazy?
13:19Until I lose my mind?
13:22I have to wait?
13:25I have to wait calmly until I lose my mind?
13:30Ha, ha, ha.
13:33Ho, ho, ho.
13:36I can't wait for you.
13:42As soon as I get in here,
13:45I'll throw myself at it like a hungry animal.
13:50The next day.
14:01Sir, why isn't she here?
14:06Listen to me and do something
14:09so that the Countess of Petersburg comes and brings me some snacks.
14:15Huh?
14:18Uh-huh.
14:30To the health of the speaker on duty.
14:33To the health of the speaker on duty.
14:45I also have a moment of satiety
14:48when another glass of bitter stomach is poured over me.
14:56Or when a plate of delicious chocolate is chopped into small pieces.
15:06Or even when one smiles with his full dog.
15:10Giving a smile.
15:14I have a moment of satiety.
15:26And I would like to bite her
15:30oral tendon.
15:56Countess.
16:01Countess!
16:25I have a moment of satiety.
16:39And about the fact, for example,
16:43that we regained our independence, me
16:48and my nation, we found out on TV.
16:55The so-called TV
16:59gave a message
17:04about regaining independence.
17:08And on Polish lands like mushrooms after the rain,
17:14social agencies
17:19confirmed the fact
17:22that the TV is not lying this time.
17:25In any case, the uprising
17:29on the lands of Polish social agencies
17:33was a visible and tangible proof for me
17:38that my country has freed itself from the Moscow yoke.
17:44I did not notice any other proofs of independence
17:49other than the emergence of a brothel.
18:03And I learned about the Petersburg riots
18:08through the agency.
18:14I'm listening, agency.
18:17On the other side, a determined female voice speaks.
18:22Hello.
18:24The man says, uncertainly.
18:26I'm listening, agency.
18:28A determined female voice becomes even more determined.
18:32Hello, agency.
18:34A man, a voice breaking for a thousand elementary reasons,
18:40makes another desperate attempt to establish a dialogue.
18:46I'm listening, agency.
18:49What can I do for you?
18:52The voice softens and becomes even more friendly.
18:58I'm listening, agency.
19:01What can I do for you?
19:06Our agency provides ladies with all types of beauty.
19:16A man, when he hears such an answer,
19:19usually remains silent.
19:21And he remains offended.
19:23What right do you think
19:26to suggest that I'm interested in paid love?
19:32After all, I am.
19:34A man's offense increases.
19:38When asking for an offer,
19:42I could have meant some noble offer.
19:47For example, an offer of publishing novelties.
19:52Or an offer of TV cultural programs.
20:00After a while, however, the man's offense passes.
20:06The man surrenders and agrees
20:10that his evil intentions have been recognized.
20:18Can I give you some specifics?
20:23Of course, sir.
20:25At the moment, you have a 23-year-old blonde,
20:30a 3-year-old bust,
20:33a 25-year-old brunette,
20:36a 4-year-old bust,
20:39a 27-year-old bust,
20:42a 18-year-old bust,
20:46and a 30-year-old bust.
20:50But she's Lithuanian.
20:53When it comes to me,
20:55after listening to this type of Lithuanian,
20:59I always asked a ritual question.
21:02Are you ladies speaking Russian?
21:06After asking this very question,
21:10there was an explosion of true internationalist euphoria.
21:17Of course, sir.
21:21I am very glad that you have no prejudices.
21:25There are ladies speaking Russian,
21:30native Russians,
21:32very, very elegant, very, very elegant.
21:38And then, on a memorable Saturday evening,
21:44it was the same.
21:47Events followed one another
21:51in an unchanging,
21:54basically dormant rhythm.
22:00I was still living seven floors above
22:05in the apartment that my dear wife left
22:10with my unsuccessful son.
22:14After half an hour,
22:17a very nice person appeared.
22:22How do you call me in Russian?
22:28You know...
22:30What?
22:31This.
22:32This?
22:33Yes.
22:34What is it?
22:35How do you call it?
22:38This?
22:39Yes.
22:40You don't know?
22:41No.
22:42No?
22:43No.
22:44No.
22:45No.
22:46No.
22:47No.
22:48No.
22:49No.
22:50Do you speak Polish?
22:54Where are you from?
22:55St. Petersburg.
22:57But I speak Polish.
22:59I want to improve my Polish.
23:01All right, all right.
23:03Okay, okay.
23:10That's right.
23:15I am a Russophile.
23:18I was a Russophile
23:20even when my nation
23:23was under the Moscow yoke.
23:28My favorite writer
23:31was Fyodor Dostoevsky.
23:40But my Russophilia
23:43has lost its fantasmagorical character.
23:52Only now it can be embodied
23:55from time to time
23:57when different flowers come here
24:02for two days
24:10in my original
24:14Fyodor Mikhailovich.
24:33Stop! Stop! Stop!
24:39One more time.
24:40Come on, come on.
24:42One more time.
25:00There was no perversion.
25:04There was no regret
25:07of worthy sexual and literary excesses.
25:14There was no dancing
25:16to the tune of immortal stanzas
25:19by Vladimir Mayakovsky.
25:23There was no striptease
25:25with a poem by Pushkin.
25:29There was no obscuring
25:31of erogenic gifts
25:33with a novel by Ivan Bunin.
25:55Those were beautiful hours
25:59when it was impossible to discuss
26:03Russian classics with them
26:08because they didn't even know
26:11the names of Russian classics.
26:17I've come to terms with it.
26:23Apparently, in Poland
26:28there is a less educated
26:32erotic working class.
26:37It's bad.
26:40It's bad.
26:44It's bad.
26:46Because it's bad.
26:48But they read it.
26:52And this one? Nothing.
26:58And this one?
27:01A very nice person.
27:05Nothing.
27:07Do you know Russian?
27:08Come on, professor.
27:09Can you?
27:10No.
27:12Do you know Russian letters?
27:15No.
27:16No.
27:17Read.
27:19I'm reading.
27:20No.
27:23Do you want to read?
27:25Where are you from?
27:27From St. Petersburg.
27:29From St. Petersburg.
27:31But my grandfather was Polish.
27:33Your grandfather was Polish.
27:39All of them had a Polish grandfather.
27:42All of them,
27:44well-known and active in Poland,
27:47had a Polish grandfather.
27:57But St. Petersburg.
28:00In this history, St. Petersburg
28:02was a new element.
28:04A striking one.
28:07And quite original.
28:12While all of them,
28:13with terrifyingly totalitarian consent,
28:16maintained that they had a Polish grandfather,
28:20all of them with identical determination
28:23maintained that they came from Vilnius
28:27or from Lviv,
28:31came from Perm,
28:33Ukhta and Arkhangelsk
28:37and swore that they came from Vilnius
28:41or from Lviv.
28:48An unsearchable way
28:51to irritate the archetypal government
28:54of my nation.
28:56Her white clothes
28:59cover only her slender figure
29:01up to her breast,
29:03revealing her shoulders
29:06and her wavy neck.
29:08Such a Lithuanian
29:11can only walk in the morning.
29:13Such a Lithuanian
29:15has never been seen by a man.
29:19Yes.
29:24She's a Lithuanian,
29:26even a rusted Lithuanian
29:28or a Ukrainian.
29:31So what?
29:32She has a neglected sense of national identity.
29:39And here you have,
29:41and here you have
29:43such a surprise.
29:45Not Lviv,
29:47not Vilnius,
29:52but Petersburg.
29:58In what month
30:00did the Decembrists' uprising break out?
30:02Don't drink.
30:03If you're from Petersburg,
30:05you'll be a vodka.
30:07Who was the last president?
30:09Come on.
30:10How old are you going to be?
30:11Come on, come on.
30:12I speak Russian.
30:13If you can speak it,
30:14then come on and drink.
30:15The thirsty Grosz
30:17decided to sneak
30:19into the apartment of Petersburg.
30:21What did she count on?
30:27Good question,
30:29King of the Teletourneys.
30:31A very good question.
30:34The ruler of the riddles.
30:37What did she count on?
30:39A very good question.
30:42A very good question,
30:43Mr. Lisie.
30:45As a reward,
30:46Mr. Lisie,
30:48you can drink with me.
30:52In your hands.
30:57What did she count on?
30:59She counted on love,
31:01without words, sir.
31:04She counted on the fact that
31:07only the Russian body
31:10was interesting to me.
31:11Russian skin, Russian hair, Russian legs,
31:13Russian smell.
31:15I don't know.
31:16Torka, learn a language
31:18so that you can study better
31:20and then fuck yourself.
31:22Beautiful, sir.
31:25Basically,
31:26beautiful and sensible Rakhuma.
31:30So much so that I'm disappointed.
31:34Unfortunately, the time has passed.
31:40Graho-Petersburg.
31:42I started talking to her for fun.
31:45What is the most important thing
31:47for Mrs. Graho-Petersburg in life?
31:50And after an hour,
31:51say goodbye to Masquerade.
31:53Farewell, Graha.
31:55Farewell forever.
31:58But where is she?
32:01Where is she?
32:03Forever.
32:05Forever.
32:15I'll be back here in a month.
32:19I'll be back
32:21after a minor altercation.
32:25I'll go to the bar,
32:28to the guesthouse.
32:31I'll sit down,
32:34look.
32:36At the table,
32:38sits
32:42Graha-Petersburg.
32:45I'll be back.
33:01It's interesting that a woman
33:03with whom a man
33:05has a romance
33:07usually cries.
33:10Graha-Petersburg was crying.
33:15Graha-Petersburg
33:37He looked at me so strangely.
33:41But I thought to myself,
33:45a consumer is a consumer.
33:48Look, a consumer, what do I care?
34:00Then he came more and more often.
34:04I even got used to him.
34:11Then he started to say he loved me.
34:16It was unbelievable, Graha.
34:20It was unbelievable.
34:23She lost her job at the agency
34:26because in an absolutely childish way
34:31she let herself be approached
34:34by a truly
34:36exceptionally calculated inspector.
34:40What do I care?
34:42What do I care?
34:45Graha-Petersburg whispered.
34:49Tears flowed down her cheeks.
34:53It was getting darker and darker in the bar.
34:57And I felt an incessant need
35:02to touch her hand
35:05lying on the laminate counter.
35:11And I touched her hand
35:15and immediately we fell into
35:18a deep and throbbing addiction.
35:31I didn't believe him at all.
35:34I didn't believe a single word he said.
35:39Well, I did believe him a little.
35:43Then he started to tell me
35:47that he was breaking certain rules.
35:51Well, he was persuading me
35:55that in the name of certain rules
35:59I should reject him.
36:03You know what?
36:07Well, you know.
36:12I didn't believe him when he told the truth.
36:16He was persuading her for so long
36:19that she eventually gave in.
36:21Unlucky.
36:23She rejected him.
36:25And you know what?
36:27The alleged consumer then took out the receipts
36:30and with inhuman scrupulosity
36:33he took out the receipts
36:36after the point of departure.
37:03And so we met.
37:06After the most
37:09cancerous lectures
37:12we met
37:15in dilapidated bedchambers
37:19in Versailles
37:22in the middle of the night
37:26in the middle of the night
37:31in Versailles
37:34on the carpets
37:37and on the tiles of PCV.
37:45Our urinary tracts
37:49got entangled
37:53and didn't consider anything.
37:58So we repented
38:01and got rid of the remnants
38:04of our spirituality.
38:10And our spirituality
38:13even though it was ashamed of us
38:17was completely powerless.
38:27And then
38:29it came to us
38:32mysteriously
38:35because not only did we love our skin
38:39and our genitals
38:42as if they were made for each other
38:45but her dream
38:48right next to me
38:51had over me
38:54had over me
38:57power.
39:24Let's talk about love.
39:27So much has been written about it,
39:30so much has been said about it.
39:33Do you think it's worth
39:36taking heroic effort
39:39to overcome one's own weaknesses?
39:42Well, we tried
39:45to overcome our own weaknesses
39:48but we couldn't.
39:52But we tried to overcome them.
39:56Everything for free.
39:59Everything for nothing.
40:02All attempts were in vain.
40:08We couldn't do it.
40:11We were powerless.
40:14We were in the clutches of our body.
40:22We were in a state of
40:24passive form of inter-person communication.
40:27Yes, we were immersed in the world of reading.
40:30We were chasing a great idea of humanity.
40:32Do you hear me?
40:34Walking.
40:36We couldn't walk.
40:38We dreamed all summer about going for a walk.
40:41We couldn't.
40:43We couldn't go for a walk.
40:46Today I understand what it's all about.
40:49Today I understand the whole truth.
40:52Predatory animals do not walk.
40:56They throw themselves at each other.
41:00They devour each other.
41:04The anatomy of our limbs was not created for walking.
41:11The anatomy of our limbs was created for interlocking.
41:17The anatomy of our limbs was created for escape.
41:25To escape from yourself.
41:33Hey, hey, father Adam!
41:41No!
41:43I won't feel sorry for you
41:47if you stay here today.
41:53No, no.
41:54You won't.
41:55You won't.
41:57I'll burn you a little bit.
42:01I'll hide in the forest by myself.
42:06No.
42:07No.
42:11I'll hide in the forest by myself.
42:24Like any couple of occasional lovers,
42:28we have changed all the emotional states of humanity
42:32in a few months.
42:39Now I pay her pocket money
42:44and she lives in my apartment, seven floors above.
42:48Graha!
42:52I live there.
42:54I run a business at a high level.
42:58She visits me every day at midnight.
43:07Wait a minute.
43:11Sir, why isn't she here yet?
43:18Why isn't Graha Petersburg here yet?
43:25Good sir,
43:28who will listen to a short message in a moment.
43:34Good sir,
43:37I don't call your name for nothing,
43:41but before you listen to a short message,
43:46the most important message,
43:50listen to me.
43:53Listen to me
43:56and make sure that Graha Petersburg comes
44:04and brings me snacks.
44:11And make sure that she comes before the weather forecast.
44:19Do you understand?
44:24Good evening, sir.
44:26The head of the highest control body died in a car accident.
44:30The body's plate was broken and hit by a car.
44:35No.
44:37I don't have delirious predictions.
44:41It never seemed to me that, for example,
44:44a TV set, a TV set,
44:47connected to me by a cable,
44:50stands at the table and gives economic news.
44:59Well, what a trivial simplification.
45:02Pure demagogy.
45:05Let's take the very basic problem of Kocioquik.
45:11Sometimes smaller, sometimes bigger.
45:14Existence, as you know, is torture.
45:19Sometimes smaller, sometimes bigger.
45:21Kac, overcoming the torture of existence,
45:26passes in chess.
45:29That is, it softens the torture of existence.
45:33Ergo,
45:36who wants to make progress in life
45:40and experience constant self-improvement,
45:44is guilty of having a permanent hangover.
45:48You paid attention to this kind of paradox.
45:52You didn't pay attention.
45:57But there's nothing to be ashamed of.
46:02Nobody in the West
46:07or in the East paid attention to it.
46:16And the kinds of Kac, variations, typologies...
46:21Kac, like Kac. Sometimes smaller, sometimes bigger.
46:24Don't expose your spiritual poverty,
46:28because the classics will hear.
46:31I'll give you a few first examples.
46:35Do you want to hear them?
46:38Kac Głodomorek.
46:41Kac Jebaka.
46:44Kac Lękliwiec.
46:47Kac Ludojad.
46:50Kac Śniegi Kilimanjaro.
46:53Kac Modlitenny.
46:56Kac Tytan Pracy.
46:59Kac Zbyteczna Obuwie.
47:02Because you're dividing 928 meters from the nearest land.
47:07Kac Żop Prac.
47:10Kac Cieszy Małym.
47:13Kac Nowe Życie.
47:16Kac Śpioszek Wieczny.
47:19Kac Myś Dziura.
47:22Kac Jasnisza Jana.
47:33And alcoholism in itself.
47:36When do you become an alcoholic?
47:39The heaviest minds of the century
47:42are not able to define in this matter
47:45the boundaries between the imaginable
47:48and the unimaginable.
47:51And alcoholism in itself
47:54is not able to define
47:57the boundaries between the unimaginable
48:01and the unimaginable.
48:04And I know.
48:24Who is an alcoholic?
48:27Kac Start.
48:58That this cup, with all certainty,
49:03resembles a small bottle.
49:06A miniature half-liter bottle,
49:09a beer can.
49:12Oh!
49:14You can clearly feel it with your tongue.
49:17It has a little cap, a cap,
49:20a neck,
49:24a surface, small labels.
49:28And when you play with your tongue,
49:31you read the name written on the label.
49:39It means that you are
49:46Gorszka Gołębkowa.
49:52Gorszka Gołębkowa.
49:58Unfortunately, the time has passed.
50:21Graha.
50:36Graha.
50:39Graha, come.
50:41Graha.
50:43Do you hear?
50:46Music enters my soul
50:49and my body.
50:52My subconscious listens to Schubert.
50:55The pastilles of Esperanto
50:58that beat under my skin
51:01forget about God's world.
51:04They listen to Schubert.
51:07The burning brain immerses itself in his symphonies.
51:10A high level of sugar,
51:13rheumatic pains
51:16and barely breathing pulses
51:19listen to the piano trio
51:22of Bedour, Op. 99.
51:27Graha.
51:28Do you hear?
51:30Graha.
51:31Do you hear?
51:32Graha.
51:40Do you hear?
51:43Graha.
51:47Do you hear?
51:53I've been waiting all my life.
52:13Graha.
52:16Graha.
52:19Graha.
52:22Graha.
52:25Graha.
52:28Graha.
52:31Graha.
52:34Graha.
52:37Graha.
52:41Graha.
52:44Graha.
52:49Graha.
52:54Graha.
52:57Graha.
53:05Graha.
53:38You
54:08You