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00:00Hello, in this video, this video is addressed to my twin flame, Shia. Hi, Shia.
00:05If you're just watching, I thank you for watching.
00:08This is, uh, going to be some crime against me and my twin flame.
00:13So, Shia, I, uh, I am still, uh, possessed.
00:21The torture's lessening a little bit.
00:24I don't want to say it and, uh, get janked,
00:29but the fact that I'm getting more sleep is proof because I slept until 12.37.
00:36When I looked at the clock, I saw 1.37, so I, uh, ran around, um, made the bed.
00:49I had already brushed my teeth earlier, um, because I woke up at 6 o'clock
00:55because there was a strange noise coming from outside and it's like,
01:00kind of like this, like, burnt hair smell.
01:04It wasn't, there was no fire, but it, it smelled, it got in here and it really made me feel sick.
01:14So I boiled the water, I started spraying the air with essential oils and water mixture.
01:22I started spraying my dis, homemade disinfectant, uh, but, but it seems to be fine now.
01:32Uh, my hair, my hair looks okay.
01:37I don't think it's, uh, pot, humanly possible to be this bad at doing, doing your hair.
01:43There has to be some kind of, uh, there has to be some kind of serious, uh, etheric implant with me doing my hair.
01:55I think my, my hands do get heavy and weak, so I feel like, that they, like, tell me I'm lazy with doing my hair,
02:02but it's, I don't think it's laziness.
02:06Um, it's just, it's very demonic, I think, that I always have, kind of, mostly, not always, but if I don't straighten my hair.
02:17So, I'm going to tell you some, I, things that I'm going to do for cleansing this week, but just not complete cleansing.
02:28And, this morning I had 800 milligrams of vitamin C, V8 juice, detox tea, then I just had a granola bar because I was starting to get hungry,
02:39now I have a cup of coffee.
02:43So, uh, I, I still have to do this, uh, exit that they turned on when I, like, kind of threw it and, like, probably leaned on it.
02:57Leaned on it accidentally.
03:00So, I have some notes here to tell you, and this is very, very good news.
03:08I was starting to get tortured this morning, so I had to lay on my back, the usual position where I get less tortured.
03:17If I, I'm not allowed to lay on my stomach and on my sides, I have to only be able to lay on my sides if I'm not being tortured, because it's extreme.
03:29So, I got inspired to look up the Hannah Kroger books, and in this book, it talks about magnetotherapy.
03:45And, I only flipped through these, I've actually never read any of the Hannah Kroger books from front to back.
03:51And, some of the facts are actually a little bit boring, because, uh, however, this is magnetotherapy, and basically, I have, like, barely done this.
04:12So, say this is for constipation, see the arrows going this way?
04:16So, half moon circles, you'd make these half moon circles with your hands going over your stomach, like this, in a circle motion.
04:28It would be kind of like Reiki, where you don't completely touch your body.
04:32However, you can touch your body.
04:34I, uh, I ended up brushing the back of my thighs.
04:39And, when I touch the back of my thighs, I've always thought my back of my thighs were extremely ugly.
04:45I wonder if it will show the texture of it, my leg, in the back of my legs.
04:52Uh, it makes me want to puke when I brush the back of my leg.
04:58So, there's, like, a bumpy feeling, like, reverse, like, hairs, like, acne.
05:07Um.
05:18It's all bumpy.
05:20I can't, I don't think you're going to be able to see, see what it looks like.
05:28They say the skin in the back of my thighs have always been a place where I'm not allowed to touch my legs.
05:35Um, there's an incredible amount of, there's a weird texture in the back of my thighs.
05:43I don't really think you can tell by this photo.
05:46There's a really weird, uncomfortable, ugly, gross feeling in the back of my thighs.
05:52It's all bumpy, like, zits that never go away.
05:55However, it's not from shaving, because they're always there.
05:59So, there's something wrong with the back of my thighs, and I brushed it this way for, like, ten minutes.
06:04But what I did was, I brushed the right hand on my left leg, the left hand on my right leg.
06:11So, what I just learned about this.
06:15Because I am, because of the brain injury, some of this, uh, facts, I, like, I can't completely, uh, hard to.
06:28She was very balanced brain. She had very balanced right and left brain.
06:32But she, she, both the Krogers were, uh, could get, were a little bit more intelligent, I think.
06:44The magnet, magnetotherapy is the laying on of hands.
06:48And I just found out today that, uh, we can, we actually have magnets built in our body through our hands.
06:58It's because it says, remember, your right hand is positive.
07:07So, you stroke the left side.
07:10And your, your right hand is positive.
07:14This is the sentence that you read.
07:19Your right hand is positive, so you stroke the left side.
07:21Your left hand is negative, so you stroke the right side.
07:25So, I did that from the back of my legs.
07:28I feel, I feel like I'm going to puke if I touch the back of my legs.
07:33I think they stored something in the back of my legs, something very evil.
07:38And when I went to lay down, I put Prop 2 pillows up on the sides of my arms so that I could easily, uh, reach over with my arm to this side.
07:52I held my right hand on my left side and my left hand on my right side.
07:59And that creates the battery.
08:06So, it's like we're charging our battery.
08:09And the demons flipped out and I instantly fell asleep because I wanted to stop.
08:14So, this is definitely something I'm going to be writing down on my sheets and doing.
08:21So, I have to go to the bathroom real quick.
08:24Uh, Magneto, charge the battery.
08:28Basically, it's charging the battery.
08:31Hold on, I'll be right back.
08:53So, I have to go to the bathroom real quick.
09:24I notice when I'm walking, I don't really usually look, I don't really look like myself the way I used to look when I walk.
09:34And I'm thinking, no, they're just using AI to make me look like somebody else.
09:38So, I finally started to realize it's the brain injury that's making me, my body look funny when I walk, but not myself.
09:49Not completely the way, it's the brain injury and the way I move.
09:57So, charging the battery, placing your right hand, which is positive, on the left side of your body, which is negative.
10:08And then the left hand, which is negative, placed somewhere on the right side.
10:12The left hand, which is negative, placed somewhere on the right side.
10:16And literally, it will charge, it charged my body.
10:29And I'm constantly feeling guilty living here.
10:32I had nightmares all morning.
10:34You're making a mistake, Alyssa, living here, because you're going to die here if you don't leave.
10:38There's so many neighbors that want to kill you here, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
10:46You have to leave.
10:48You have to leave all day long.
10:51Bullets are going to be blasting through the walls all day long.
10:56All day long.
10:59So...
11:05But I have, we are following the Marian Instruction, Shaya.
11:10And something might, something again might really happen to me, Dad.
11:16I don't know.
11:18I mean, there's just so much a person can take.
11:20If I have another extreme injury, it's going to be very, very sad that God would allow that to put me through that.
11:30However, I'm not in control, in charge of this situation completely.
11:35The Lumerians do have, I have possession, but the Lumerians are possessing me more.
11:45So...
11:46So...
11:49I think...
11:51So I'll show you this email from Hannah's Herb Shop.
12:04Your liver might be the answer.
12:07I don't really actually get if there's any, like, symbolism.
12:12However, let me just make you read that.
12:23It's very possible that I was somehow inspired to do that apple juice cleanse.
12:33I don't...
12:35See, I haven't really been allowed to do much cleanses or...
12:43It's not like a lack of being able to.
12:49There's been possession involved.
12:52So that apple juice cleanse is possible.
12:57So that apple juice cleanse...
13:00It's possible that there was some good AI used, because I was pretty...
13:15I was very...
13:18Um...
13:23I was really happy to make that Amazon grocery list with all the cleansing things.
13:30I don't normally...
13:33I haven't been normally doing any cleanses.
13:37And it was a painful cleanse, but it really was worth it.
13:41I have this on my refrigerator.
13:44And...
13:48So...
13:51The liver is definitely a problem for me.
13:55Especially if you have a bacterial...
13:58So the liver does the detox, organ detox.
14:02It cleanses out all of the toxins.
14:05So imagine if your body is full of bacteria, your liver is obviously in danger.
14:10So I'm going to be doing more things for the liver.
14:15Luckily, I got my nail toe clipper.
14:21And nail...
14:24Nail grinder.
14:26And they take...
14:28Security takes photographs when they hand it to the package.
14:31It's mandatory to take their license.
14:34So I'm going to be able to buy things from...
14:38I'm going to be able to ship things to me now.
14:41Because I have that.
14:43And I'm going to go...
14:45I'm going to definitely get the liver supplement by Hannah's Herb Shop.
14:50I'm definitely going to get Circuflow.
14:53Because I recently read in the...
14:59I recently just...
15:01I just like look through and see things that I like.
15:04I just like look through and see things that I like.
15:08From this...
15:10Articularosis.
15:14And Herbal Cholation.
15:19This Circuflow was originally named the Lord's Formula.
15:24She received the remedy.
15:26She said she has received the remedy from the Lord.
15:31From the Lord.
15:33And this is all about the arteries.
15:35And...
15:37It's very possible that I had a clot that created the stroke.
15:43So...
15:46I'm definitely going to get Circuflow.
15:49I'm definitely going to get the liver supplement.
15:51And I'm definitely going to get some loose leaf herbal blends that Hannah created.
15:57Next in a couple weeks.
16:00And...
16:02I think...
16:06And I think he's giving us a suggestion.
16:10We're in lethal conditions with our liver, Shaya.
16:14And I think about all the anger we've had.
16:17And also AI anger.
16:20But the anger about what has happened to us our whole life.
16:23So it's very, very serious that we cleanse our liver.
16:27And I'll talk to you a little bit about the liver.
16:33I'll show you...
16:35Let me show you the nail grinder.
16:39Your bife.
16:41Kind of reminds me of your last name.
16:45Our last name, Shaya.
16:48So this is the...
16:52Oh, it already has a battery in it.
16:55This is it.
16:58And then you...
17:00Oh, that's good.
17:02It comes with an extra one.
17:05And then this...
17:10Well, I think I'm going to have to review how to use it.
17:18But it has different speed settings.
17:21And this, I'm going to use this.
17:23It has a timer.
17:24It has different speed settings.
17:26And this, I'm going to use this.
17:28It has a light.
17:30I'm going to use this for the toenail.
17:35And to get rid of the rough skin all over my toe.
17:39Because I heard it's actually an energetic, spiritual hygiene issue.
17:45Not just a physical hygiene issue.
17:47When you have rough skin that collects on your feet.
17:51And it's gotten worse over the course of...
18:01I don't know.
18:03Over the course of 10 years, the rough skin has gotten worse.
18:06And I never have the strength to manually scrub my foot skin.
18:13So...
18:20So...
18:34I just accidentally...
18:36Just accidentally went down the wrong pipe.
18:42So...
18:44I recited the Quran last night.
18:46And then I did that.
18:48I made sure that I did...
18:50Allah is the most gracious and most merciful.
18:52With olive oil in the bathtub.
18:55And...
18:58It's making me so, like, exhausted.
19:03And it makes me sleep extra.
19:06So it's extremely important that we do that.
19:08And...
19:11It took me a long time to be able to say...
19:14We do things.
19:16But I am...
19:18Some of these things that are working so much for me.
19:21There's no way that you wouldn't do it.
19:23So I'm not saying...
19:25I'm not telling you what to do.
19:27There's no way you wouldn't do that.
19:29Because it's literally killing all the AI on our body.
19:34So right hand strokes.
19:36So we literally have a healing tool built in our body.
19:41With the left and the right being...
19:44I never knew...
19:46Well, I read that before in Hannah's book.
19:48But...
19:50I've read so many things in Hannah's book that it just...
19:52It doesn't, like...
19:54I don't, like...
19:56I can't, like, figure it out completely.
19:58And, like, it doesn't really make sense.
20:00But now, like, reading that, like, it makes so much sense.
20:03That we can use this now.
20:04And place it on our body on the left side.
20:06Among the other things.
20:08That you do with the magnet of the hands.
20:11But it really didn't occur to me that literally...
20:14The right hand is positive and the left hand is negative.
20:17I read that in the book before.
20:19They use so much AI.
20:21And they have to be really bored to do this to me.
20:25So the right hand is positive.
20:28The left hand is negative.
20:30Telling me what to do.
20:32The left hand is negative.
20:34Telepathic supporters...
20:37Oh, told me last night.
20:39In regards to the blanket...
20:41That was thrown out.
20:44Um...
20:46The very next day.
20:48Um...
20:50It was forgotten.
20:53At the hotel.
20:55No.
20:57Throw out the blanket.
20:59Throw this out in the trash.
21:00Throw this out in the trash.
21:03So...
21:06In regards to...
21:15So I showed you this.
21:22I think it was...
21:31Shhhh...
21:35What?
21:38But it was really easy to do the apple juice cleanse.
21:41It's possible that someone used good AI to get me to do it.
21:45And I don't mind that.
21:48Like lumarians do that to me all the time.
21:51So...
21:53We have some help.
21:56And I'm going...
21:57I'm going to get a mini fridge.
22:02I'm going to get a mini fridge to put in the hallway.
22:06Because...
22:09Um...
22:11I can't eat like this anymore.
22:13It's becoming really disgusting.
22:15And I...
22:17I need to heal.
22:19It's not really working.
22:21Not using a fridge and freezer.
22:24It's not actually really healthy either.
22:28Hear the noise?
22:31All that noise you've heard in the last 300-400 videos.
22:36It's never on this side. Barely ever.
22:38And I'll be able to detect if it's on this side.
22:40Always on this side.
22:42It's not always the kitchen.
22:44You don't have to be that loud.
22:47You don't have to be that loud.
22:49It's going to be... It can be used in the court of law.
22:52The level of noise.
22:55The level of the noise.
23:01It's noise pollution. It's noise harassment.
23:05So I smelled that burnt dust smell in the morning.
23:08It really freaked me out.
23:10And...
23:13It gave me a rash.
23:15I got itchy.
23:17I boiled vinegar.
23:19And I looked outside at the other neighbors.
23:21They had their windows wide open.
23:22They never shut them.
23:24They never...
23:26The smell didn't even bother them.
23:28So I'm extremely sensitive.
23:31Even just extremely sensitive right now with things.
23:37I took 800 milligrams of vitamin C.
23:41In Hannah's book, this one doctor recommends
23:461,000 milligrams of vitamin C per hour.
23:50Like all day long.
23:53Every hour.
23:55And that will kill bacteria.
23:59For the onset of bacterial infections.
24:01So vitamin C is very important.
24:08I really do think that some of my soul is missing in my spirit.
24:13Because with Hannah's work,
24:15it really makes me upset that I can't connect with her work completely.
24:19And it's almost like my own self is better than me in that lifetime.
24:24Because I'm not like as good with my health in this lifetime.
24:29But there's such serious possession.
24:31I really think that when I get my soul back,
24:35this is going to be like my connection with all of the...
24:40Hannah's herb shop is going to be...
24:43Make a lot more sense.
24:45Even though she does a lot of metaphysical stuff.
24:46And I connect with a lot of her metaphysical stuff.
24:49And with the herbs.
24:53However, there's been a lot of possession making me feel like
24:59I'm just like this unhealthy, sick, ghetto person.
25:02And like I can never be Hannah in my past life.
25:10So...
25:12And I have to show you...
25:15She never talks a lot about her life.
25:22With...
25:24She really doesn't talk about her family members in these books.
25:28It's not the type of books where you would talk about your family members.
25:32But I think...
25:34I think Hannah and Rudolph were...
25:36There was demonic interference.
25:38Because...
25:40You had a stroke.
25:41And...
25:43You had a stroke.
25:45And she goes in one of the books...
25:47My husband had a stroke.
25:49And so I gave him a teaspoon of mustard seeds to make him flush.
25:56And I'm thinking to myself...
25:58That sounds so stupid.
26:01You gave him a teaspoon of mustard seeds?
26:06Like...
26:08That sounds so stupid.
26:09Like...
26:11Obviously you would do a lot more.
26:13And the fact that it's your husband...
26:15You're just going to write down that you gave him a teaspoon of mustard seeds?
26:19I really was annoyed with Hannah.
26:25I'm thinking it was possession.
26:27Because even with the way I act with you in these videos...
26:30And how this whole thing happened...
26:33Where...
26:35Like...
26:36All this interference where...
26:37I wasn't allowed to talk to you.
26:39And I wasn't allowed to explain things.
26:41And things were like...
26:43Not completely clear.
26:45There was a lot of miscommunication.
26:50But this is...
26:58This is my story to the subject of freeing myself.
27:03I'll just show it to you.
27:08And this is another thing where she wrote something about her family.
27:13The one time she does.
27:15And then she adds something to it at the end.
27:18To make it like...
27:20Kind of like an attack against her family.
27:23So I'm not going to show...
27:25Explain that to you.
27:27I'm not going to show that to you.
27:29Because it's like...
27:31It really annoys me.
27:33She had to have some demonic possession.
27:35And interference.
27:37Of the way...
27:39She barely talked about her family in these books.
27:42I actually...
27:44It's not the kind of books where you would...
27:46Talk about your family.
27:48However...
27:51The little things that she does.
27:53The very little things that she does say.
28:07Okay.
28:24So I'll...
28:26So basically it talks about how you were an engineer.
28:30And...
28:32Hannah was house cleaning.
28:35But then she finally...
28:37Went to that little health food store.
28:40And I really do like health food stores.
28:43I would just like...
28:48I would just visit...
28:50I would just enjoy visiting all the different health food stores.
28:53Because they're like little vortexes.
28:55With all the really...
28:58High vibration products.
29:01So...
29:05But it says how...
29:07The nights of terror.
29:09The bombing.
29:10The hopelessness.
29:11The uncertainty of my husband's return.
29:13From the captivity in Russia.
29:15So she had four children.
29:17When you got held captive in Russia.
29:21And Hannah and...
29:23Rudolf were German in our lifetime.
29:26And...
29:28I think that we lived in Turkey though.
29:30And that's where we met.
29:32But...
29:34She...
29:41You might want to know about...
29:45What her family member...
29:48Had done for her.
29:50In regards to the advice.
29:52You would take a piece of paper.
29:54Write down your problems.
29:56At night time.
29:58And the next day you burn it.
30:00You burn the piece of paper.
30:01And...
30:03Why does it work?
30:05Because...
30:07It turns into a different dimension.
30:09When you write down the problems.
30:11And then you burn it.
30:13You pull it out of your body.
30:16But the last paragraph.
30:18Really annoyed me.
30:20The way she...
30:22It just was bad timing.
30:24The way she wrote that.
30:26Because there are little things that she talks about you with.
30:28And then...
30:29I'm not going to explain it in this video.
30:31But...
30:33That was the advice.
30:35And...
30:38You were in the mines.
30:41You had to do mining.
30:43You were forced to do mining.
30:45And you had a lot of problems with your lungs.
30:47So you had a long decline.
30:50And...
30:53So...
30:55We have to be very careful about our health in this lifetime.
30:57Shaya.
30:59Because...
31:01Both of us have had serious health issues.
31:04And...
31:06I didn't...
31:08We have to be careful, Shaya.
31:10I didn't say issues like that.
31:12So...
31:13And...
31:25And one thing that really...
31:27I've been really wanting to be with you, Shaya.
31:29Because...
31:31They forced me to talk out loud involuntarily all day long.
31:33It's so exhausting.
31:35I have a problem with putting the tape on my mouth.
31:37Because it starts sweating.
31:39And then the moisture on my lips, I cannot tolerate.
31:40It's very uncomfortable to put glue on your lips all day long.
31:42It's very uncomfortable.
31:44It's not actually possible,
31:46because I have to constantly take it off
31:48and take a drink of water.
31:50And then if I start dehydrating it,
31:52I can't do that in the summertime.
31:58So...
32:00The talking invol...
32:02I know when I have, like...
32:04When I went to...
32:06Go visit, like, my mom.
32:08The involuntary...
32:10Talking would stop.
32:12Because they don't...
32:14They would stop doing that in front of my mom.
32:17It would completely go away.
32:21So...
32:25I know that so much is going to change when we're together.
32:29And...
32:31Don't worry, Shaya.
32:33I understand that...
32:35They're not...
32:37They're lying to me.
32:38I know the truth about...
32:40Completely about what's going on with you.
32:42And because I am so blind about the situation...
32:50I know...
32:52I know that you're in extreme danger, and...
32:54You probably wouldn't be alive if you contacted me
32:57or tried to be with me.
33:00This has to be the way it has to be.
33:02It's not saying and tricking.
33:04I think someone was trying to piss you off.
33:07What...
33:09A Revolve viewer.
33:11Trying to pretend to be the Lemurians.
33:16So when I brush the back of my legs, I feel like puking.
33:19So try to find areas in your body and brush them.
33:22And if you feel like puking, focus on that area, Shaya.
33:30The pendulum says you're not scared about...
33:33Me in regards to living a long life.
33:38You're very confident that I'm going to live a long life.
33:43And...
33:45I remember watching videos on brain injury, which I don't...
33:50I'm not researching anything about brain injury.
33:53I'm not researching anything about criminal activity,
33:56like crime investigations.
33:58Because it's just making me too sick.
34:00But there was one point where I was spending several days
34:03looking up brain injury and people with brain injury,
34:07and one person went into a coma,
34:10got hit in the back of the head,
34:13and bursted like an aneurysm, like a blood...
34:17flooded the brain.
34:21This person was in a coma for one to two years.
34:24And he came out of the coma after one or two years,
34:28and then he's paralyzed, weighs down, but he's alive.
34:32He's been alive for 15 years.
34:35So I'm 40 years old.
34:39So 40, 65.
34:42I'll be 65 in 15 years.
34:45And I think...
34:48I'm going to be 65 in 15 years.
34:51And I think...
34:54because of all the things we're going to do
34:57with the energy vortexes and everything,
35:00I think I could probably make it longer than 15 years.
35:05At least 70.
35:07Because...
35:09Because if someone can be in a vegetative state
35:13and be in a coma and live 15 years after that,
35:17I didn't get in a coma,
35:19and I didn't get in a vegetative state.
35:21So...
35:23And this happened to his brain,
35:27not just paralyzed from the body.
35:30It happened to his brain, and he's still alive.
35:33So it is possible, and I forgot.
35:36But I just kept Googling it.
35:38I kept Googling it,
35:40and I wonder if it's rigged,
35:42because every time I Google different ways of saying...
35:46finding out how long do people live after a stroke,
35:49it just says 5 to 10 years, 5 to 10 years,
35:52on the first part of the Google page.
35:55Over and over and over,
35:57and I can't get past that.
36:00So...
36:04I take that back that I might not live long.
36:07I've just been getting scared,
36:09because I really felt like I was going to die
36:11after the apple juice cleanse.
36:13I felt like I was going to die a couple days ago
36:15when it took me four hours cleaning.
36:16So...
36:18Our organs, they're invisible, Shaya.
36:20We don't give them a lot of attention
36:22because they're invisible,
36:24but we have to give our organs extra attention, Shaya.
36:29I could...
36:31So we'll live...
36:33I'm pretty sure we'll live pretty long.
36:41The pendulum says we both have a lot of sadness
36:44and grief and despair,
36:46especially what we've just recently learned.
36:52It's amazing the change that have occurred
36:56with trying to keep me thinking
36:59that they are not bad
37:02and they have to be respected
37:04because they're my parents.
37:06I think partly because
37:09how you're receiving help from some family members right now,
37:12I kind of have to respect my parents,
37:15and I don't have to,
37:17especially with what I just learned.
37:20But I do want to tell you,
37:22it really was out of character,
37:24and I had no...
37:26absolutely, 100% no clue.
37:28And...
37:30he...
37:32he...
37:34he was...
37:36he acted like a father.
37:38And my stepmom was never a mother to me.
37:42My mom's...
37:44second husband was never a father, by the way.
37:48But...
37:50you're feeling...
37:52well...
37:54you're feeling, like,
37:56extreme anger, like, beyond anger.
37:58I have had a stroke, something's wrong with me,
38:00I'm not reacting appropriately,
38:02and this is on video.
38:04I'm not, like, expressing myself completely
38:06the way I should on a video because
38:08I can't let this be used against me,
38:10the things that I say.
38:12And how I act.
38:14Because if I start, like,
38:16saying too much,
38:18but there's going to be justice involved,
38:20and it's not just that
38:22that's what we're going to receive justice from.
38:24But this was...
38:26this is breaking a lot of spells,
38:28discovering this,
38:30and I've had a bad life, looking back.
38:32I've had a bad life.
38:34I've been very terrified of people,
38:36and I've had
38:38real extreme health issues,
38:40and...
38:42I don't want to go too far to that,
38:44but...
38:46this, uh...
38:48what happened to my life, like,
38:50is just so evil.
38:52And...
38:54what happened to you,
38:56you're feeling murderously angry,
38:58and other people are too.
39:00If people have to learn about this,
39:02this is, like,
39:04very offensive to people
39:06if they have to learn about this.
39:08Um...
39:10Luckily, it could be worse.
39:12My family did not, like,
39:14force me to do anything, like,
39:16uh, INCST.
39:18My...
39:20It could be worse.
39:22A lot of families are INCST,
39:24and they're forced at a young age.
39:26And, like, it's, uh...
39:28something that
39:30they can never, like,
39:32stop or defend.
39:35They weren't like that.
39:37So, luckily...
39:39luckily, nothing was seen.
39:40I hope to God that, like,
39:42they didn't, like,
39:44force me to, like,
39:46see it, and somehow
39:48I'll eventually see things.
39:50I hope to God that doesn't happen.
39:52But it could be worse.
39:54Um...
39:56It definitely was, uh,
39:58hatred, anger.
40:00Uh, let's say it goes
40:02in the trash bin.
40:04But we have personal power, Shia,
40:06and...
40:07being able to learn about
40:09some of these, uh,
40:11extremely awful things
40:13while you're with me, Shia,
40:15and listening, and...
40:17also...
40:19uh...
40:21healing from
40:23is going to help us.
40:25It's helping me a lot, Shia.
40:28But I don't owe people anything
40:30in this, especially in this...
40:32in what I've been through.
40:34I don't owe people anything.
40:35And a lot of...
40:37in regards to my parents,
40:39they helped a lot to...
40:41well, not a lot.
40:43They helped to hurt,
40:45and I was barely surviving
40:47because of them.
40:49So...
40:51but they, like, kind of, like...
40:53I was forced to, like,
40:55ask them for a little help,
40:57like living with my mom a lot.
40:59And...
41:01uh...
41:03my dad really...
41:05he wasn't around too much,
41:07and it didn't help too much.
41:10Um...
41:12not like...
41:14he...
41:16and...
41:18I'm not going to keep telling them.
41:20They both contributed a little bit
41:22to keeping me alive.
41:24Like, the whole reason why...
41:26remember I was visiting my mom
41:28because my leg, I could barely walk,
41:30and I had to get out of the car
41:32and, like, stop car camping
41:33instead of driving
41:35all around 24-7.
41:38So...
41:40but they helped to hurt,
41:42and...
41:44the...
41:46murder is murder.
41:48I don't have to respect people
41:50that tried to kill me and torture me
41:52my whole life.
41:53I don't have to.
41:55There's a lot of spells
41:57and things that they did
41:59to try to just make it like,
42:01no, Alyssa can get tortured
42:03and I respect everybody doing it
42:05to her.
42:07I don't owe them anything.
42:09I don't owe them.
42:16And...
42:18I finished this last notebook.
42:20I definitely didn't tell you everything.
42:22I'm going to have to go through
42:24some of these notebooks
42:26and find all the things
42:28I didn't tell you.
42:30But I will never understand
42:31why we have to be together.
42:33That's all.
42:35I'll never understand it.
42:37However, you're in a prison.
42:39You are in, like,
42:41some form of captivity
42:43that's worse than mine.
42:45Worse than my situation.
42:49And...
42:51I'm just kind of constantly told
42:53with mind control,
42:55oh, it's just like Illuminati.
42:57It's interference.
42:59And a lot of times
43:01I'm saying,
43:03he doesn't, you know,
43:05he doesn't need to be with you.
43:07Like, it's not like
43:09he has to be with you.
43:11Like, kind of like making things up.
43:13Like, just using it against me.
43:15The fact that you can't be with me.
43:17And...
43:19I know it's not true.
43:21Shaya, don't worry.
43:23Don't get angry, Shaya.
43:25Because they're trying to get you angry
43:27with me thinking this.
43:29But, you know, you have proof now.
43:31You have proof that they're lying to me
43:33when I'm telling you.
43:35Because if I imagined you
43:37sitting in a grocery store
43:39for five hours, like,
43:41trying to boycott the situation.
43:43Being like, no, you have to come meet me.
43:45That would make me wicked sad.
43:47And I got really sad thinking that.
43:49Like,
43:51if I made you feel that way,
43:53which you're not making me feel that way.
43:55I'm being lied to.
43:57There's a lot of silence
43:59about the situation.
44:01In regards to you.
44:03And why you can't be with me.
44:05There's a lot of silence,
44:07and there's a lot of lies.
44:09So it...
44:11But you should never completely understand
44:13why we're not together either.
44:15Because we are getting too old.
44:18However,
44:20it's not our choice.
44:24But...
44:26Did the spirit guys tell me
44:28to say that to you?
44:29Or did it backfire?
44:31Now you have proof
44:33now that they're tricking me
44:35into thinking that
44:37we could be together, but
44:39we're not.
44:43You got...
44:45Obviously you're gonna get mad
44:47that I said that,
44:49and you're gonna get hurt.
44:51But they're lying to piss you off.
45:00Yeah, you've been set up for death
45:02probably with my life.
45:04I've been set up for death
45:06with your life.
45:08You've been set up for death death.
45:10Illegal.
45:12Illegal.
45:13Illegally.
45:15There's no way
45:17what you've gone through
45:19would allow and give people
45:21the ability
45:23to be able to take you off
45:25to K-I-L-L-U.
45:27It's not possible.
45:29It's not legal.
45:31You're in a worse situation than me
45:33and I can't completely understand it
45:35because
45:38I can't completely understand it.
45:42They're not letting me.
45:44I have a third eye shut down
45:46and I can only
45:49see things
45:51when it's put there.
45:57But I went to go
45:59get my package
46:01and I saw a shirt
46:03with
46:06I'm not gonna say that.
46:11But there's
46:13I'm getting signed, Shia.
46:16The bladder pain
46:18has gone away
46:20so it was just a very mild
46:25bladder pain.
46:30I get
46:31one thing I get, Shia,
46:32is a buzzing.
46:34I gotta set the timer
46:36so that I know
46:38and I notice, Shia,
46:39that you check.
46:41It makes me very happy.
46:47I know that you do.
46:49I know that you do, Shia.
46:54One thing that the hacker
46:57program was ladybugs
46:59and every time I saw
47:00a ladybug on a windowsill
47:02or a ladybug outside
47:04ladybugs are so pathetic
47:06and slow
47:08and so the hacker programmed it
47:10that's you.
47:12That's you, the little ladybug
47:15and people just want to
47:16kind of kill it
47:17and shoo it away.
47:19So that was a constant
47:20and that was a
47:22S-U-I-C-D-A-L
47:24program because
47:26ladybugs, you know,
47:27when you see it
47:28they're kind of supposed
47:29to get happy
47:30like they're little
47:32lucky charms
47:34but that definitely
47:35stopped
47:37very quickly.
47:42There's one thing
47:43that I get that's been
47:44kept from me telling you.
47:47They've been keeping me
47:48from telling you this
47:51and I know you've done
47:52a little bit of research
47:53on brain injury
47:55to make sure that
47:57and you have some ideas
47:58of what we can do.
48:00There's a buzzing, vibrating,
48:01shaking feeling in my brain
48:03that occurs
48:05several times a month.
48:07The spasticity has lessened.
48:09The spasticity has definitely
48:10lessened
48:13and that is a part
48:14of recovery
48:16and it took
48:17two and a half years
48:18I think
48:20to the spasticity
48:21lessen so
48:22this was an extreme stroke
48:24if it took two and a half years
48:25for the spasticity
48:26to stop.
48:28But the buzzing, vibrating,
48:29shaking feeling
48:30goes on.
48:31It's like a tremor
48:32in my brain.
48:33It actually also happens
48:34in the
48:35heart,
48:37chest, lung area
48:38as well.
48:40It's a buzzing, vibrating,
48:41shaking feeling.
48:42It's like a tremor.
48:43It's called a brain tremor
48:45cerebellar
48:48tremor
48:50which occurs after injury
48:52stroke tremors.
48:53They're called stroke tremors.
48:55So
48:57it's a little scary.
49:05And
49:06it's really not my fault
49:07that I don't know
49:08what's going on
49:09with you
49:10and like
49:11they kind of like
49:12glamorize you
49:13to act like
49:14well it's like
49:15such a mystery
49:16and like oh
49:17it's like
49:18really important
49:19like
49:20it's really important
49:21like he's like
49:22more important than Alyssa
49:23because of the whole
49:24public news
49:25around it
49:27with
49:29it's very
49:35I don't know
49:36they're putting words
49:37but Shia
49:40I don't really know
49:41what's going on
49:42and
49:45it's not my fault
49:46that I don't know
49:47what's going on.
49:54And
50:14I told you Shia
50:17my parents haven't been
50:18that great
50:19to me.
50:20They haven't treated me
50:21that great.
50:22They kept a lot away
50:23from me.
50:24They weren't
50:25they never really
50:26taught me things.
50:27They didn't really
50:28teach me how to live
50:29how to be a human being.
50:31So they didn't really
50:32treat me like a human being.
50:34And
50:35I never really
50:36respected them completely.
50:37I didn't have high
50:38respects for them.
50:39So I just
50:40need you to know that.
50:54But every time
50:55the tremors happen
50:57the V2K
50:58goes off
50:59now it's just
51:00an AI weapon.
51:01They're lying about
51:02my stroke symptoms
51:03which can be
51:04very dangerous
51:05because if I don't know
51:06what's going on
51:07with my body
51:10that's like
51:11very dangerous.
51:24Um
51:26I'd really like to
51:30I'd really like to
51:31go to Ikea
51:32and get some
51:34like
51:35decorations.
51:37I might like
51:38maybe spend
51:39$50 next month
51:40at Ikea.
51:43I've noticed
51:44like
51:45I looked at some
51:46of the things I got you
51:47and I actually didn't
51:48get you as much
51:49as I thought I got you.
51:51However
51:52I'm not gonna
51:54I'm not gonna keep
51:55buying hygiene products.
51:56I have to look at
51:57the expiration date
51:58on the hygiene products.
52:00But even if the
52:01expiration date expired
52:02it's possible
52:03we could still
52:04return them
52:05with the sticker on.
52:08But
52:09I think
52:10we should both focus
52:11on getting
52:12things from
52:13Hannah's Herb Shop
52:14Shia.
52:15And
52:17you can write
52:18a little comment
52:20when you go to
52:22get the
52:23herbs shipped to you.
52:25Check out from the
52:26online
52:27write
52:28thank you.
52:29And then
52:30they'll probably check
52:33and see who it is
52:34and write thank you.
52:36I think that
52:38that would be meaningful
52:39Shia
52:40if you did that.
52:45And you might not
52:46be able to
52:47because
52:49you might not be able to
52:50do that.
52:52Is there any photos
52:53that I have to show you?
52:57So
52:58Shia is kinda like
52:59bumpy.
53:01The back of my thighs
53:02are like bumpy.
53:03It's like a real gross
53:04feeling when I touch
53:05back there.
53:06Makes me wanna hurl.
53:07They did something
53:08back there.
53:09Could it be the
53:10rape that dropped down
53:11dropped down
53:12in my thighs?
53:13I don't know.
53:14But my whole entire
53:15life I was never
53:16allowed to touch
53:17my back of my legs
53:18and my whole entire
53:19body.
53:20I get too
53:21grossed out
53:22and like sick
53:23and
53:24I wasn't
53:25I've been so
53:26harassed and assaulted
53:27I'm not even
53:28allowed to touch
53:29my own body.
53:30This energy brushing
53:31in the bathtub is
53:32first in 38 years
53:33of touching myself.
53:34It's not a lie.
53:36Like that's literally
53:37true.
53:38And I only have like
53:3910 to 20 seconds
53:40to clean myself
53:41with a sponge.
53:42And that's been
53:43going on my whole life.
53:50So...
53:52I wonder if my stomach
53:53is getting better.
53:56Uh, I would say
53:57there's definitely
53:58a decrease.
53:59But this is
54:00not supposed to
54:01look like that.
54:04That's ugly.
54:05That's really ugly.
54:07This is not natural.
54:11Um...
54:13So...
54:15I...
54:17This is
54:18This is...
54:19I... I...
54:20It could be fat though.
54:22When I was going
54:23shopping at Walmart
54:25I was getting those
54:26little pastry cakes
54:27and eating one
54:28every day.
54:31And I was
54:32overeating from
54:33the torture too.
54:35There's a...
54:36I think partially
54:37the overweight
54:38these past 7 years
54:39is because of that.
54:41I've never had a
54:42really true weight problem.
54:45So I had some
54:46apricots with
54:47hot water
54:48and that was
54:49really good.
54:50I kind of
54:51put boiling water
54:52in the microwave
54:53the apricots.
54:54You can't put
54:55apricots without
54:56water in the microwave.
54:57They'll start
54:58uh...
54:59smoking
55:00and starting
55:01on fire.
55:02It didn't start
55:03on fire but it
55:04smoked a little.
55:05But I tried to
55:06heat them up
55:07without water.
55:08I'm not gonna
55:09show you any
55:10of these
55:11advertisements.
55:13I haven't really
55:14taken nude
55:15photographs.
55:16So
55:17the ones I want
55:18to show you.
55:19I had some
55:20tuna fish with
55:21those french rolls.
55:23I'm being very
55:24careful
55:26because I
55:27toasted the bread
55:28but the tuna fish
55:29wasn't
55:31heated so I
55:32didn't want to put
55:33the
55:35tuna fish on
55:36the french roll
55:37because the french
55:38roll is heated.
55:39This is what I do
55:40when I hand wash
55:41my clothes
55:42to dry them.
55:43I'm gonna have
55:44to start doing that
55:46I think I'm running
55:47out of shirts.
55:48I have one shirt
55:49left.
55:53And with regards
55:54to my spine
55:55I'm going to
55:56start
55:57lying down
55:58flat without
55:59propping my
56:00pillows up
56:01because when I
56:02prop my pillows
56:03up I'm curling
56:04my spine
56:05and I'm gonna
56:06start...
56:07I can't really
56:08see the TV.
56:09I did watch
56:10some
56:12nature videos
56:13last night.
56:15I scalded
56:16my hands
56:18from laundry
56:20washing the laundry.
56:21See how my skin
56:22is like
56:24white and that's red?
56:26I scalded my hands
56:27from hand washing
56:28laundry.
56:30This could be
56:31paralysis.
56:32I can't feel
56:33how hot something is
56:35and this can also
56:36be proof as to
56:38how I got food
56:39poisoned for a year
56:40and a half.
56:41If I couldn't
56:42like if I lost
56:43a little bit
56:45and obviously
56:47obviously I was
56:48getting sick off the food
56:49and everything was
56:50like slimy and like
56:51gross and I
56:52trashed a lot
56:53but if I
56:54if I can't
56:55completely tell
56:57like I knew it was
56:58hot.
56:59I knew that it was
57:00hot but I didn't think
57:01it was going to
57:02scald my hands
57:05and that was
57:06happening with the
57:07sink, the bathroom
57:08sink.
57:09I kept scalding
57:10my hands.
57:12Luckily
57:14that the one
57:15good thing about
57:16washing my hands
57:17in the bathtub
57:18is I only put
57:19I can put the cold
57:20on really quick.
57:22There's a little
57:23piece of
57:26glass, broken
57:27red glass
57:28in front of my door.
57:29I don't know if
57:30that was
57:31anything.
57:32Some kind of a sign.
57:42Here's my
57:43clothes being washed
57:44in the bathtub.
57:47Basically I put
57:48hot water
57:49with the laundry
57:50detergent, let it
57:51soak and sit
57:52and then I rinse it.
57:54I fill it with
57:55cold water again.
57:57This was chowder
57:59with
58:02the french rolls
58:03with olive oil.
58:04I was also
58:06eating too much
58:07olive oil.
58:08I was putting too
58:09much olive oil
58:10and everything.
58:12So I'm going to
58:13stop this video
58:14because
58:15this did not
58:16I didn't put
58:17this time
58:18correctly.
58:20So I'm going to
58:21stop this video
58:22and I needed to
58:23talk about you
58:24Shia but
58:25I ran out of
58:26time and
58:28please Shia
58:29don't think that
58:30I'm like
58:32ignoring you in
58:33these videos and
58:34not talking about
58:35you enough.
58:36There's a lot of
58:37interference.
58:38I get real
58:39panic attacks
58:40and my body
58:41gets really
58:42attacked with
58:43AI weapons every
58:44time I try to
58:45talk about you
58:46and mention you.
58:47So you have to
58:48understand some of
58:49that.
58:50I get severely sick
58:51when I talk about
58:52you.
58:53They make me
58:54severely sick in
58:55extreme pain
58:56like torturous
58:57pain.
58:58So my
58:59like lack of
59:00like expressing
59:01myself to you
59:02about you
59:03it's not because
59:04I don't want to.
59:05It's because
59:06I'm getting
59:07severely tortured
59:08every time I do
59:09and
59:10it looks like
59:11I'm like
59:12I don't
59:13so I'm going to
59:14talk to you
59:15tomorrow.
59:16I will
59:17I
59:19I'll talk to
59:20you tomorrow.
59:21I love you
59:22Shia.
59:23Thank you everybody
59:24for watching.
59:25Thank you so much
59:26Shia for watching.