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00:00Hello, in this video, this video is addressed to my twin flame, Shaya. Hi, Shaya, for watching, I thank you for watching.
00:07Uh, this is not going to be a lot about, uh, the crime, Shaya, because I'm not feeling well.
00:16The apple juice cleanse definitely worked, and I'm extremely exhausted today.
00:20I've been just laying around all day. I haven't done anything besides laying around.
00:28Um, and...
00:44They're going to definitely try to control this conversation, Shaya, to attack you, to try to humiliate and attack us.
00:50So that's why I'm going to change the subject completely, and not talk about anything, um, that has to do with, uh, the crime.
00:59So, I, there's no way I could have done the cleanse.
01:07There's no way I could have done the cleanse, Shaya, on day two because of how I feel.
01:15And I developed a little bit of a UTI, bladder infection.
01:22What I think is, I should have been drinking more water while I was drinking the apple juice, and I said it to myself the whole time.
01:33Uh, you know, I should be drinking more water, I should be drinking more water.
01:39But when I was going to the bathroom, all the water from the juice was going out of my bowels and not through my urine.
01:51However, I drank quite a few bottles. I was extremely thirsty in the evening, and I drank quite a few bottles of water.
02:00So, I, uh, I definitely feel like it's going to help.
02:09I got scared, though, with the bladder infection this morning. I was in pain, had trouble urinating.
02:15When you have a stroke, you have to be extremely careful with UTIs and urine infections.
02:21If you have a stroke, like within seven days of having a stroke, if you develop a urine infection, you have a 500% increase of developing another stroke.
02:37I'm starting to get really worried about all of the dead in my brain.
02:45Uh, I'm starting to think that I'm not doing everything that I can.
02:50In regards to the bladder infection, it's very mild. It's almost kind of going away already.
02:57So, the apple juice could have overreacted my bladder also, because I was worrying about all of the sugar from the juice.
03:10Uh, technically, I would be too sensitive to cleanse that like that.
03:15However, because it was only one day, it just was a little bit of torture because of the symptoms I was getting.
03:26But you can tell a little bit that I look better. I have no makeup on.
03:31Yeah, I'm drinking out of the mug now. I'm just going to... I was worried about washing cups in the bathtub.
03:40I didn't want to wash dishes in the bathroom.
03:44However, I can just spray a little disinfectant on the cup, wash it with dish soap, rinse it in the bathtub.
03:52It's just a cup, and I'm not going to put like anything else in it.
03:57Yeah, I'm going to get paper cups possibly this week or next week because luckily I still have $40 in the bank account.
04:07I have $40 cash, so I have $80. It's July 22nd. That hasn't happened in a while.
04:18So, in regards to urine, also the kidneys could have reacted from the apple juice.
04:25The liver could have too because think about all the bacteria that's in my body.
04:31But the kidneys, we have kidney problems, Shai, because of the adrenochrome stuff that's been going on our entire life.
04:38So, UTIs can damage kidneys, so we have to be careful about our kidneys.
04:45I've been playing kidney ruckus today, and it's very obvious we have demons all over our body.
04:53In my kidney, I literally felt like something hit me, like hit my kidney like a demon.
05:03So, I am throwing out food way more than usual because if something tastes off, even if it's not expired or rotten,
05:20I'm automatically thinking that it's the food poison, that it's because of all the food poison I've had for a year and a half,
05:29I'm still throwing out food way more than I used to for either being grossed out because of the taste.
05:40If it tastes just a little bit off and it's not even has to do with being rotten, I'll throw it out.
05:46The tuna fish had a weird texture, so I threw it out.
05:53So, it's definitely becoming a problem in an eating disorder, what's happened to me,
06:00and it's not a good time to have an eating disorder after having food poison, being food poisoned for so long.
06:06But when you have a urine infection, repeated urine infection, I read in that book, that stroke book,
06:16it increases your chance of death, it increases your chance of more neurological issues, increases decline in neurological states,
06:25poor outcomes of dying quicker.
06:32So, God's going to have to do something because you can't lose that much of your brain and live a long life.
06:41God's going to have to do something.
06:44There's no way I could lose that much part of my brain and live until I'm 80 or 70. There's no way.
06:53So, I stayed in bed sleeping until about 11.20. I was getting tortured, but not severely to the point where I had to get out of bed.
07:02The torture is decreasing, but it's still happening.
07:07Obviously, I feel like I am improving a little bit just because it's lessening. I think it's lessening for you too, Shia.
07:16So, I tried to immediately get up and eat tuna fish with crackers because I was not in the mood for oatmeal.
07:43Oatmeal is not easy to eat, but the tuna tasted funny, so I just had a few crackers throughout the tuna, and then I had a couple of granola bars.
07:54I had a couple of granola bars, but they were only like the 100-calorie granola bars, so I had two.
07:59And then I had the tuna crackers throughout the tuna.
08:01Throughout the tuna, then I had noodles. I just had noodles with soy sauce and onion powder.
08:11And I might have to run to the bathroom because I'm starting to have more bowel movements.
08:17And it's coming out like a green muddy color, which is a very good sign because that's what it said in Hannah's book when you do the liver cleanse.
08:27Because I took the olive oil last night, and even though I feel very, very weak, I had some neurological issues that were occurring last night and today.
08:48And my bladder is in pain. A little in pain, not like a lot.
08:57I believe I definitely was supposed to do that apple juice cleanse.
09:02Apple juice fruit cleanse.
09:10I'm actually not in the mood to make a video.
09:14I want to talk to you, Shia, but I'm not feeling well.
09:21I can't watch videos right now. I'm just listening to Karen Raquez.
09:30You're probably feeling really sick about what I said to you and I told you.
09:37I already feel like I'm going to get in trouble for making these videos.
09:42I don't know much about the law and what you can and cannot say.
09:47Obviously, someone could try to SUE me and frame me for saying I'm lying when I'm not.
09:55Someone could frame me. I'm sure that happens.
09:58I still have a lot of full body possession because I can't really be myself completely, but Shia...
10:07I'm sure because I'm talking at a video, it actually makes me have less anxiety.
10:14I don't know. I don't know.
10:16I don't know. I don't know.
10:18I don't know. I don't know.
10:20I don't know. I don't know.
10:22I'm sure because I'm talking at a video, it actually makes me have less expression.
10:29I'm talking to a camera. Obviously, I'm talking to you, Shia, but technically I'm talking to a camera.
10:36I'm not acting completely myself just because of that.
10:41So...
10:47I'm worried about the refrigeration. I really need to start eating fresh foods. It's really important that I do.
10:56So, most likely, next month I might get a small mini-frigerator.
11:04However, it can't be that small because I'll run out of food and I'm trying not to go out a lot to stay alive.
11:20However, this is getting out of control. I can't really just live off of pantry food.
11:27I don't think it's really going to help.
11:33It's not going to help me get better.
11:36And I think I might have to go to the bathroom. Hold on.
12:03Okay.
12:28It's kind of like diarrhea but not.
12:30It's definitely like a cleanse type of bowel movement.
12:36It's like a really weird, off, weird, off.
12:40It's like a cleansing. It's like you're cleansing smell and off color.
12:46It's not typical diarrhea.
12:48So...
13:00But in regards to...
13:30I'm trying to figure out if I should tell you something.
13:50In regards to what happened, I remember he was really angry that weekend.
13:57When I went to Six Flags with my brother and my dad, he was really angry.
14:03You could hear it in his voice.
14:05Not like fighting angry.
14:09He kept it to himself.
14:12My mom was really angry at me and really made it obvious.
14:17Some people are just angry and they just cover it up.
14:23Like why they're angry and things.
14:30So...
14:38I...
14:39I...
14:44And people want people to do dirty things.
14:48Dirty things happen to people and they want to do dirty things to other people.
14:57And my mom, she always tried to get my brother to do something.
15:05And he wouldn't because he's not as sick as them.
15:10Because my mom was I.N.C.E.S.ed with one of her B.R.O.T.H.E.R.S.
15:23And not the one that you saw.
15:27So she was always trying.
15:31She wanted to pass on the pain and the filth doing that to me.
15:37And so did...
15:44So did my other parent.
15:47So I don't want to talk about that.
15:51However, you have to know for sure, they really were my parents.
15:56They really were my parents.
15:59And my parents came from middle class homes.
16:05My dad got beat to shit by his dad and whipped.
16:11However, they had a nice home and their parents were very traditional and not like ghetto.
16:19My mom came from a middle class home.
16:22Very English proper, very...
16:29I'm not...
16:31They're not really like...
16:34In order...
16:36They're not extremely ghetto.
16:38A lot of the ghetto families are really I.N.C.E.S.T.
16:47There's the hummingbird again.
16:50The hummingbird really likes to fly up in front of my window.
16:54I've been seeing the hummingbird every day.
16:57So...
17:03So my parents...
17:06They did do that kind of abuse to me.
17:10An assault.
17:12It was to kill and angry.
17:16Out of anger, out of killing.
17:17It was not out of...
17:22I.N.C.E.S.T.
17:30But your life is ruined when you do those types of things.
17:34And...
17:47And...
18:01She knows the pain that...
18:04She knows the pain and shame and embarrassment.
18:07And that it cost people because it happened to her.
18:13I'm sure...
18:15and I'm not sure if it happened to her.
18:19I didn't mean it to say it in that way,
18:21but she knows that she wanted to pass on the pain
18:26and the evil, and you're a fool to do that
18:31because it ruins your own life.
18:32It doesn't just ruin the person that you do it to.
18:38So I'm having a lot of silence.
18:42I can't watch videos.
18:44I'm too dizzy to watch video videos right now.
18:49I have to be really careful
18:50because I think because I told you about this,
18:53they're really trying to kill me.
19:04So...
19:14But I was always a very, very scared, timid,
19:21terribly afraid of people my entire life.
19:24So this abuse didn't just start in middle school.
19:27It started when I was a baby, a toddler,
19:31and however else, whatever else.
19:45Oh, I already read this.
19:48I actually didn't write too much notes, Shia.
20:04People have to pay their dues, 12,000 square,
20:06people have to pay their dues
20:08when they do crime to people, that's it.
20:10If they get away with it for a few, like in this lifetime,
20:15they won't in the next lifetime.
20:18They won't when they go to hell.
20:28So I got really queasy and sick last night.
20:40I had diarrhea for two hours last night.
20:58But that, having that diarrhea for two hours yesterday
21:01really cleansed me out.
21:06But it was really exhausting
21:09and it's not like it was yesterday.
21:15But when you do an act like that,
21:18you're saying you cut them off, you don't like them,
21:20you hate them and they have to,
21:22like it motivates people to wanna like kill them.
21:25If you do an act like that
21:27and you just want the filth to go away and die,
21:30like they just wanted the filth to just go away and die.
21:35And I'm not acting appropriately.
21:38You do not know,
21:40I'm not acting appropriately about what I found out,
21:44specifically because this is a video
21:47that's on public for one.
21:48And also,
21:54I forget what I was gonna say.
21:56But when you make that decision,
22:03you say I wanna ruin your life
22:06and I don't want you to be alive.
22:27And it's really funny how they're all getting up against me,
22:29all these criminals.
22:31It's like this little love club.
22:33Oh, well, we all do it together.
22:36We all do this crime to elicit together.
22:38So we're normalizing it and it's accepted in society
22:43because it was, it takes it off
22:44from so many different people, this crime.
22:47So it's just like, it's a part of life.
22:51This is what people do.
22:52And this is normal.
22:54No, it's not normal.
22:56Me and you are still under some form
22:58of being held hostage from each other.
23:02So, and we're not able to complete,
23:06there's a lot of people in Troubleshire
23:07we're not the only ones this is happening to.
23:09And a lot of people are gonna go down in the future.
23:15Because there's been a lot of control on this planet.
23:22So you're very, very angry.
23:23I'm like kind of past anger.
23:30I don't even like,
23:32I have like a little bit of a lifeless feeling to me.
23:36Like where I just have to rest.
23:37Like there's nothing else I can do.
23:39I can't really feel emotions.
23:41But thinking about you makes me so happy.
23:44And I hug my pillow.
23:47I hug my pillow.
23:50I threw out one of the pillows because it really bothered me.
23:52It was really like,
23:55I hug the pillow, my favorite pillow.
23:58This is you Shia.
24:00And it's kind of interesting how that blanket became you.
24:04And that blanket was stolen from me and they threw it out.
24:11After that, that thing happened to me, my pink blanket.
24:16I don't think that that's,
24:17unfortunately I don't think that's a coincidence.
24:20But I've been thinking about you and thinking about,
24:25I've been getting a couple street theater
24:29things to make people know that they feel better.