• 5 months ago
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00:00I can tell you the answer then I won't learn but if you're stuck I can just let
00:15me just oh how dare you better maybe he is the star player on the Robie team and
00:25he's friends with a bunch of loud gross year 11 through exactly like the guys
00:29who bullied you last year but like Nick he's different he's nice I had something
00:36I wanted to ask you do you want to join the rugby team oh yeah I saw you run in
00:41PE and you're like really fast so I thought you might be interested I don't
00:47really know how to play that's fine I can teach you
00:53that was perfect it's literally just another silly
00:57crop it's not a crush I don't just fall for any guy who's nice to me
01:07he told you to stop he seemed kind of like something was up while we were
01:12getting changed so I wanted to check everything was okay sorry you have
01:18nothing to be sorry about sorry I'm going this way so yeah I'm that way
01:25okay bye bye
01:48I
02:09he's straight Charlie like you only need to glance him to see that he's a massive
02:14heterosexual no offense being accepted the authority and working out who is in
02:18game this is Nellie oh my god she's so cute I wish I had a dog my parents don't
02:28like animals you should come on my house and meet her a free on Saturday yeah I
02:35think so I know he's straight he told me so you need to get over him
02:43well what's up
02:48do you want to come around my house
02:52hey hey
02:57hey hey you go ahead um is it bad no no you look it looks great
03:09you are good at sports like you run so shut up oh my god what it's snowing
03:24I wish you didn't have to go I wish I didn't either
03:39do you want to go to Harry's party with me okay you left sorry I felt like I was
03:54in the way and your year 11 friends are kind of intimidating I don't know if I
04:01want to hang out those guys anymore I'd rather hang out with you anyway I
04:07pushed him into a wall and told him to go away I'm so proud
04:11oh should we go somewhere quieter then okay so you don't have a crush on him
04:20or at the moment I didn't say that
04:27what's it like then
04:31you're just gonna assume there are she
04:37would you go out with someone who wasn't a girl
04:44I don't know maybe
04:50would you kiss someone who wasn't a girl I don't know
04:59would you kiss me
05:07I'm sorry for not texting I I just wanted to talk in person just just come
05:13in you're getting soaked
05:19it was a stupid thing to do and I don't want you to feel awkward about it
05:24because it was all my fault I shouldn't have kissed you see if maybe there's a
05:28chance we can still be friends Charlie I don't want to lose you because I did
05:30something stupid Charlie
05:37I'm just so sorry I ran away last night I was just freaking out because I I was
05:51confused and surprised and like honestly I'm having a proper full-on gay crisis
06:02and it's not that I didn't want to you know kiss you I just I was just so
06:13confused I just think I need some time to figure this out
06:21you
06:28it was nice to be able to ditch my friends for once all they want to do at
06:32lunch is just sit on the field and chuck stuff for people my friends are nothing
06:36like you is it okay if we like keep this a secret
06:42yeah it's fine Nick did I forget something
06:51we're friends as in friends or friends as in friends? Darcy! I promise we're totally platonic good
06:58friends bye
07:05so it's kind of my birthday on Saturday is it yeah me and my friends are going
07:12bowling and I was gonna ask if you want to come but I know you don't really know
07:16so you don't have to yes you definitely choose it oh yeah how you have strong
07:22rugby arms I thought you liked my arms shut up
07:26thanks for giving me barely any time to get you a present you don't have to give me a
07:30present no I ain't gonna I'm serious I should have met you when I was younger
07:38I wish I'd known then what I know now I don't know what I am
07:46you don't have to figure out right now I didn't just wake up one day like oh look
07:51guess I'm gay now I genuinely didn't have time to go out and buy you something
07:57sorry it's a bit handmade that was just one of my favorite days ever I told her
08:05we're together what I told her we're going out
08:15you're amazing I really like you you like me wasn't that obvious do you like
08:23me yes obviously
08:29Oh
08:31I'm gonna kiss you so bye right now okay you don't have to I want to Wow
08:39see I make good choices
08:44you and Charlie you two are together yeah I'm so happy for you I mean I'm
08:55happy for you too but you didn't have to witness all the months of intense
08:58pining I'm so sorry it's fine no Harry was being a complete idiot and some of
09:09the others were being really unfriendly and we should have just left what
09:13happened I kind of got into a fight with Harry he didn't have to do that I don't
09:22even want to be friends with those people I'm tired of all of them
09:38I mean the fight with Harry was my fault it wasn't it was I've been making your
09:43life really difficult so I was thinking maybe it would be better if if we just
09:56Charlie seems like a lovely boy when did you meet him a couple months ago it's
10:02very different your other friends isn't it you see much more yourself around him
10:05do I you do
10:13why is he avoiding you I think maybe he's finding it hard having to lie to
10:19people about us he's not angry about me being the closet or anything like he
10:25knows I'm not ready to come out
10:30look I've known Charlie since we were 11 and he's always had a tendency to
10:36believe that him just existing is annoying for other people and he would
10:42literally never tell you this but he probably wants to be something more than
10:46secret guy you kiss sometimes on the down low and if you can't give him more
10:49than that then it's always gonna make him feel a little bit crap about himself
10:56you should talk to him I don't want to break up
11:02I know people have hurt you and you feel like I'd be better off without you but I
11:07need you to know that my life is way better because I met you you don't have
11:12to say that I do and I'll keep on saying it until you believe me I don't care
11:17about getting into fights or pissing off my mates or anything like that it's all
11:22worth it to be with you I mean you are the kindest most thoughtful and caring
11:28and amazing person in the whole world and if you really want to break up then
11:33I would respect your decision but I want us to be together
11:37you're my favorite person I need you to believe me
11:40Nick I believe you I never thought this would happen to me
11:49we need her
11:54I like Charlie's free in a romantic way not just a friend way now we're gonna
12:00tell people
12:03I came out to my mom last night oh my god how did it go really well she's
12:14completely fine with it
12:22want a well-done kiss yeah kissing at school is a terrible idea you know you
12:33don't have to do this if you don't want to I want to otherwise I'll barely see
12:37each other this time and I've missed rugby have you now yeah I love running
12:43around and falling over oh just let me win Charlie yes I'm sorry
12:50really yeah we're in my room oh no this is war
12:58hi hi I got you a present what why because we've been going out for two
13:10months
13:18Charlie
13:24hi hi
13:34you're being so much trouble with your mom I'm here to cheer you up after your
13:38terrible exam
13:47and how did you know this is my favorite chocolate bar
13:52you mentioned it ages ago so thank you
13:59John's on to eat I'll have some when I go I'd have a cup of tea though you're
14:07such an old man hey
14:22and that's why we shouldn't kiss at school oh kissing so fun you getting out
14:27it because we get caught kissing isn't hot I want to tell people it's hard to
14:32find the right time we're out by the time we're on the
14:35Paris trip we can kiss on the Eiffel Tower I mean I should have always known
14:40you don't have to be gay really I'm bi actually and so what I'm by actually if
14:49you're gonna be gay at least admit you're gay
14:54so this is exactly why I didn't want to tell you Charlie this is not your fault
15:01I don't care what David thinks anyway I mean it was never gonna go perfectly
15:06with everyone I'm sorry I'll text you later okay yeah I seriously don't blame
15:13me for fighting him I know you and Charlie are really good mates
15:20still couldn't come out to any of them it's fine there's no deadline I know but
15:25it's just annoying when people think we're like best bros what about your
15:32history coursework I haven't helped you with that at all it's fine it's done you
15:37are amazing
15:41I'm free I'm not grounded anymore look after him or you die
15:46Tori okay I have never initiated a kiss oh really so what about the changing room
15:56that didn't count or the English room you kiss me first or what about the
16:03fine you win
16:07I can't believe people think you're straight just take the adorable pictures
16:17okay doesn't want to talk to you Harry piss off you told Harry to piss off I
16:27enjoyed that Nick so lucky to have you Charlie
16:30I'd fight them you'd fight I'd fight anyone who's mean to you it could be fun being a
16:37secret again yeah when we went to the beach I told you I was gonna come out
16:45I've just been finding it so hard obviously I want you to come out when and how you
16:52want to
16:55and if that takes a long time that's completely okay
17:01I suppose I'm sort of jealous of you and Darcy you're out and you can hold hands
17:07and kiss and I wanted to share a bed with you
17:13I really want that I'm sure we'll get to do it one day
17:18I can't wait
17:21Oh
17:25now you have to sleep in my bed
17:29you two coming up you're being gay good job did I do that do you think anyone
17:37will notice yeah I think everyone will notice I'm so sorry I don't even know
17:42how to do that to me it's fine I really enjoyed it oh my god
17:55hey Nick is that hickey from you then what if it was you jealous
18:03you speak French my dad's French and basically he speaks to me in French so
18:08maybe we shouldn't be hanging out right now more people might think it was you
18:12who you do know it it was me right yeah I think I remember you being there yeah
18:18yeah good but do you like the fact that I speak French
18:24you wanna oh my god you're so green you don't actually don't look like you're
18:29cringing you look like you're blushing wonderful to meet one of Nick's friends
18:34me too
18:43I was asked if you even think about giving me the hickey I wasn't thinking
18:48it was so what are you doing recharging
19:00I hate you why you like me I really don't who gave you the hickey me
19:08we're dating
19:14so we're gonna go to prom and we're gonna be the cutest couple there and
19:17everyone will see
19:19oh
19:36I don't have to hide my amazing boyfriend anymore I'm not getting
19:39bullied everything's perfect
19:43how about we promise to tell each other we've got stuff going on
19:51deal
19:57I need to go home soon
20:02my mom will get annoyed if I'm late
20:08takes a lot for Nick to stand up to David like that he wants care for Charlie
20:12very deeply I see what you're doing ah my plans been foiled can we leave I
20:24thought this is what you wanted I'm not worried about people seeing us together
20:28why should they have to see we've been so obsessed with the idea of coming out
20:33it's like we've forgotten why we wanted to do it in the first place it's not for
20:38them I know I've been stressed about coming out but only I realized how
20:43stressed out you've been about it do you want to stop and get something to eat
20:47you can walk to the shop I'll eat later I had a really late breakfast you can
20:53though you never told me about the bullying what that was like we didn't
21:04need to talk about that everything's fine now is everything fine I'm still
21:10forking breakfast so you didn't eat that much breakfast
21:13yeah I did I know you like everything to be fine and happy and perfect all the
21:20time but you don't have to be perfect with me I'm hungry not really
21:27okay well then I'll pack you a croissant so if you're hungry later I'll have a
21:31snack you're the best
21:35you sent me a telegram after you told me about your eating thing Charlie I don't
21:43I don't feel very well I think it surprised me how homophobic people are I
21:50thought things are better nowadays people would just call me disgusting to
21:57my face and it went on for so long that I think I started to believe what they
22:03were saying I know I don't eat like normal people some days I'm fine but
22:10other days I feel like I need to control it I used to do it a lot last year and
22:18everything at school was really bad maybe you really hate myself so much
22:23that I I used to I used to cut myself sometimes I don't want to feel like that
22:33anymore
22:36please don't do that now
22:40you you are the best she looks so good
22:49you promised to tell me if it ever gets that bad I still want to know if you're
22:56feeling like that if you're having a bad day or if there's anything that I can do
23:01to make things less stressful cheering you up I just don't want to annoy you or
23:06burden you I don't want you to think I'm some fragile broken mess helping you to fix
23:11me and I wouldn't I'm your boyfriend Charlie I really care about you but I've
23:18done so many things that was scary in the past few months because you were
23:23there holding my hand and I want to be that for you to John please promise me
23:33okay I'll see you tomorrow bye
23:41I love your hair so much I love your eyes