• 5 months ago
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00:00:00The girl was beautiful, rich, beautiful, and her fate did not end, but she did not know what the world was beautiful, because the fate of love was strange for her.
00:00:22Like a mother, the girl wandered among the thorns, she also loved the moon and the shining stars, and she was still looking for her happiness among the trees, which had their secret fate.
00:00:51Oh, dear girl, listen to me, your happiness is near, it is called love.
00:01:09Love is the magic of life, love is the gift of youth.
00:01:23So why look for it among the stars, when happiness is in us, but you have to wake up not from a dream.
00:01:37In the heart of the silence of the moon, the ship of spring and May, in the smoke of the car, our paradise.
00:02:07Today is Thursday, November 25.
00:02:27On this occasion, I would like to give an expression, yes, because I don't know when it will happen again, and Thursday and November 25, it is a very important date for me, painful, I would like to give an expression of truth.
00:02:49I turn to you, Nellie, wherever you are now, I'm sorry that you can no longer participate in the history of our relationship, in the knowledge I have today about our relationship.
00:03:12And yet you could be sitting here in front of me now, right? Listening to our favorite Aria from Lechar, and I would look at you instead of telling this gloomy story in vain.
00:03:28The fact that you have done me such a great harm, may you be forgiven.
00:03:37And how am I now to go through this whole difficult, tangled period of our history alone, to bring everything logically to an end, bound in one short flash?
00:03:59My task is all the more complicated, that it cannot be a praise, not even a relation, not even a peaceful life.
00:04:14Of course, I am not able to bring the history of our relationship without some distortions, without subconscious differences, to which we are always capable when we remember our loved ones.
00:04:27My love also began on Thursday. It was not yet love for you, Nellie.
00:04:35On that Thursday, I received a letter from the office, from Lepen Zborn, calling me, as a soldier and a National Socialist, to get married.
00:04:47It is difficult to call this letter a call, or even a reminder. The office, the office, gently, like a father reminding his son, who, having been assigned more extensive tasks, simply forgot about his simple biological mission to the nation.
00:05:07No, that day I did not love anyone in particular, but, holding the envelope in my hand, I felt as if the whole of my chest, to the point of pain, was bursting with love.
00:05:27After all, her care was important at that time. I knew for sure that she would be a young, strong, healthy girl, like thousands of others. I knew that she would feel what I felt, that with all humility and dedication she would give birth to me and raise my sons.
00:05:47Expecting something more, some special charms, some surprises, seemed to me, at that time, to be an egotism. Was it important who I would give my love to?
00:06:01Of course, the regulations provided for certain norms in this matter, but they were negative norms. So, without worrying about the future name and surname of my wife, I bathed myself with the feeling of love, which I had created so hastily and violently for life.
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00:09:59At the beginning of our acquaintance,
00:10:00Von Arnim seemed cynical to me.
00:10:01Immoral.
00:10:02Overwhelmed with brutality.
00:10:03At the age of twenty,
00:10:04I was basically a scout,
00:10:05brought up on the principles of ethics
00:10:06of Amicis Molnar,
00:10:07Karol Maja.
00:10:08Naive in intentions,
00:10:09helpless in the content of the canon
00:10:10of my previous thinking,
00:10:11profanity.
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00:14:22Thank you.
00:14:23Now I certainly love Nellie Dodder.
00:14:24Her image in the blue dress.
00:14:26Her joyful, no shame in admiration of her own body.
00:14:30Off Потом, Arnim was in my memory as the evil spider.
00:14:43I wrote this letter five or six times, feeling the tingling of my fingers with a dry throat,
00:14:57on the brink of rebellion, hope and self-dissatisfaction, because maybe I really am selfish.
00:15:12Anneli, I will write to you openly and politely.
00:15:18Maybe you didn't expect this, but it shouldn't surprise you.
00:15:23I want you to be my wife.
00:15:25I turn to you, a healthy and wise woman, I, a strong and healthy man.
00:15:30Let's have children together.
00:15:33Let's raise them to be honest people.
00:15:35I realize that I urge you to abandon your scientific career.
00:15:40I invite you to the barracks near the camp, where your delicate ears will often hear whispers.
00:15:48Your blue eyes will not avoid the sight of faces stained with drugs,
00:15:54curses of birth and obvious crime.
00:15:57I will cover this dirty world with colorful curtains,
00:16:01but its yellow light will sometimes seep into your room.
00:16:05I accuse you of being a man.
00:16:09As a result of this proud accusation, we must ask you to take my place,
00:16:14to consider my proposal in your little heart,
00:16:18and then present it to the professor.
00:16:20What he says, even in my absence, should be sacred for both of us.
00:16:27Answer me quickly, only yes or no.
00:16:30I don't want your excuses, because I know you will do it for important reasons.
00:16:35And then only for me and for yourself.
00:16:52She answered with one word.
00:16:57Yes.
00:16:59The silent mouth of the soul sings, love me.
00:17:08The silent mouth of the soul sings, love me.
00:17:17Everything around us is full of love.
00:17:25Everything tells me that you love me so.
00:17:37People did very strange things with the word freedom.
00:17:42And the more they plunged into delusions,
00:17:46the more they could count on the monuments of their glory.
00:17:51In the name of this freedom, yes, they were imprisoned, gillotined,
00:17:55they took vows, all nations.
00:17:59It was only national socialism that put an end to this poetic delusion.
00:18:05Whoever wants to rule must limit freedom.
00:18:10He must persecute and imprison.
00:18:14Real humanism is about realizing this necessity.
00:18:20The one who knows that he must imprison, will imprison on purpose,
00:18:26taking care of the logic of imprisonment and its deeply hidden beauty.
00:18:32Concentration camps were supposed to raise prisoners above all.
00:18:36The camp where I was a commander served a different purpose,
00:18:42because the individuals staying here were never to return to our society.
00:18:50If the roads of freedom opened in front of them,
00:18:54usually leading abroad,
00:18:57families and friends from America or England could buy them for a fairly high sum.
00:19:04Odilo Zak.
00:19:06Let him serve as a typical example among a few of my Freemasons.
00:19:14Of course, I do not believe in this vulgar version of the Black Masses,
00:19:18but I am not so naive as not to know
00:19:21what crimes the gentlemen and their comilitons are ready for.
00:19:29Baron von Holstein graduated from an elite boarding school.
00:19:35First he fell into the school of Canaanism, and then Pederasty and Sodomy.
00:19:40This shameful incident led him to skepticism and even nihilism.
00:19:45His statements about the system and state personalities were so scandalous
00:19:52that the news of the creation of a special asylum for the refugees
00:19:56was accepted by the family of the Baron with relief and joy.
00:20:08Rybakov.
00:20:11After a long interrogation, he turned out to be an outstanding spy.
00:20:18The brain of the whole gang.
00:20:20He was the prisoner with whom I spoke most often.
00:20:24I must admit that I did it out of vanity.
00:20:28I was glad to have a clear discussion with this undoubtedly intelligent representative of a foreign nation.
00:20:37And finally, the family of the Grachus, Jews, former bank owners.
00:20:43I assumed that the rest of the story would justify
00:20:46my particular, personal involvement
00:20:51that I feel in relation to these scornful scoundrels.
00:20:55The most severe restrictions could not bring them out of balance.
00:21:01Aware of their appearance, of their brilliant culture,
00:21:06how many of our children had to give up further education
00:21:09so that Astrid could speak three languages?
00:21:13With each of their gestures, with each sought-out phrase,
00:21:16they led a relentless and vicious fight against the theory of race.
00:21:39Take care of her.
00:21:40With pleasure.
00:21:44This stench, this stench.
00:21:47Take me to the fresh air.
00:22:14Who are you really?
00:22:19An architect or a watchman?
00:22:22Nellie, you'll see, everything will be fine.
00:22:25You'll love me for sure.
00:22:32You'll never hurt me?
00:22:35Nellie, I pity you.
00:22:38I have a dozen of armed men here,
00:22:41a dozen of dogs,
00:22:44barbed wire under tension.
00:22:48Tell me, who would dare to touch you?
00:22:55You.
00:23:01I'm sorry.
00:23:04I'm sorry.
00:23:15I like it here.
00:23:19And you too.
00:23:25My dears,
00:23:29when I got married to the faithful companion of my life here,
00:23:35thank you, Trudy,
00:23:38my father gave a speech
00:23:41according to the ancient prehistoric canon,
00:23:45just like his grandfathers compared marriage
00:23:49to a ship on a stormy sea
00:23:52which, bypassing rocks and obstacles,
00:23:55heads to the quiet abode of old age.
00:24:02Today I have to show myself noble.
00:24:06Yes, I rebel against tradition.
00:24:12What a shame.
00:24:14What an incredible happiness.
00:24:18But tell me,
00:24:20would this metaphor of an undefined sea
00:24:24and an aged sailor be beautiful
00:24:28if he belongs to us,
00:24:30and he will belong to us,
00:24:32a thousand seas?
00:24:34What is a marriage
00:24:36contained in such a moment,
00:24:39an eighteenth-century frigate
00:24:41which, under full sails,
00:24:43rushes to the harbour?
00:24:46And who would dare today
00:24:49to dream of rest?
00:24:52And what kind of harbour
00:24:55would we, the victors,
00:24:58seek shelter in?
00:25:01We, in times of great shortness of breath,
00:25:04we who for the first time
00:25:07effectively
00:25:09save the world.
00:25:12So forgive me,
00:25:14noble old men,
00:25:16for the abjection I have committed here.
00:25:19I am proud that,
00:25:21speaking to my son
00:25:24and his beautiful wife,
00:25:27I cannot,
00:25:28I have no right
00:25:30to point out to them
00:25:31the peaceful goals
00:25:33of a moderate vision of happiness.
00:25:36Everything,
00:25:38or nothing,
00:25:39or you will take over the whole world
00:25:41and make it yours.
00:25:44Or this world
00:25:47will ravage our homeland,
00:25:50and together with it, your flocks.
00:25:53Therefore,
00:25:54I do not call you to resistance
00:25:57against the elements,
00:25:59but to attack.
00:26:01You yourselves are to be the elements.
00:26:04Let them call you
00:26:06invaders.
00:26:08Bravo, bravo, bravo.
00:26:11Wait, wait,
00:26:13a few more words
00:26:16to you,
00:26:18Droganelli.
00:26:20You know well
00:26:23where you are.
00:26:26You know
00:26:27what these dark barracks hide.
00:26:31God,
00:26:33if he called you to this place,
00:26:37it seems he wants you
00:26:40to finally
00:26:42part with the values of mercy.
00:26:46These are higher values,
00:26:49the values of courage,
00:26:51humility
00:26:52towards the governments of the state.
00:26:55Who knows if you should not care for them
00:26:58even before the values of marital love
00:27:02and fidelity.
00:27:05Love
00:27:07is born alone
00:27:09when the spouses stand
00:27:11before each other
00:27:13with their eyes wide open.
00:27:17Therefore,
00:27:18just as I
00:27:20and your common mother
00:27:24will always
00:27:26look with tenderness and confidence
00:27:30at your relationship
00:27:33as long as you remain faithful
00:27:36to the superior goals.
00:28:04Thank you.
00:28:15Champagne.
00:28:17Champagne, champagne.
00:28:19Champagne.
00:28:20Thank you.
00:28:21Thank you.
00:28:32One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten.
00:28:40Ten.
00:28:41Ten.
00:28:50Ten.
00:28:51Ten.
00:28:52Ten.
00:28:53Ten.
00:28:54Ten.
00:28:55Ten.
00:28:56Ten.
00:28:57Ten.
00:28:58Ten.
00:29:07You think they won't eavesdrop?
00:29:12What are you talking about?
00:29:15I'll be shouting for sure.
00:29:19Help me.
00:29:23You think my parents will eavesdrop on this?
00:29:26They say it happens.
00:29:30Don't scream.
00:29:31I'm scared.
00:29:35I scream a lot.
00:29:38Get out!
00:29:50I want to scream.
00:29:53I want to scream.
00:29:54Don't.
00:29:58Yes.
00:30:01It's painful.
00:30:06But that first night I couldn't make Nelly my wife.
00:30:14What did I expect?
00:30:19Maybe many hours of shameless silence.
00:30:26Silence.
00:30:28Not taking off my clothes.
00:30:32Slowly recovering.
00:30:36And painful tension.
00:30:42Maybe.
00:30:43Maybe.
00:30:48Anyway, not that kind of tenacity.
00:30:54I thought it was at least...
00:30:58...ugly.
00:31:05I was always more used to facts than to motives.
00:31:13So I reach for the document.
00:31:17Although none of the others had the hardest time sharing public knowledge.
00:31:24We wrote the diary from Nelly to Przemian.
00:31:26One day, me.
00:31:28The other, her.
00:31:31Nelly's notes may be more intimate.
00:31:34But without the tone, without the controversy...
00:31:39...our story would be less understandable.
00:31:44I will omit many details.
00:31:47I will leave only what is important for the main story.
00:33:04That's all.
00:33:06I never wanted to work so much.
00:33:09To stay in the current environment and lifestyle.
00:33:13Lunch is punctually at 1 p.m.
00:33:16It's a great mystery how and when...
00:33:20...architect Nelly Doder learned to cook so well.
00:33:24We eat three meals a day.
00:33:26Modest, but exquisite.
00:33:29Today, great mushroom soup from Erzac.
00:33:31Potatoes in mustard egg sauce.
00:33:34For dessert, a pudding with my mum's porridge.
00:34:02LANGUAGE
00:34:13My tooth hurt all day.
00:34:16I complained to my king, and he...
00:34:19...went straight to the dentist.
00:34:22I said I was afraid.
00:34:24He's a socialist. He's afraid of dentists.
00:34:28I said I was a woman too.
00:34:31I was right.
00:34:33I forced my king to treat me in bed.
00:34:38In the morning, I woke up healthy and happy.
00:34:41The king was drunk and sleepless.
00:34:44But I didn't care.
00:34:47Because of that, I'm selfish.
00:35:01LANGUAGE
00:35:18What are you doing?
00:35:21You shouldn't publish such articles.
00:35:24It's against the interests of the people.
00:35:26LANGUAGE
00:35:29So we're left with barracks.
00:35:32LANGUAGE
00:35:39The Yugoslav war lasted nine days.
00:35:43We managed to eat nine meals,
00:35:46take nine walks,
00:35:48sleep nine times, and wake up.
00:35:51And 250,000 soldiers
00:35:54throw their weapons at our feet.
00:36:04We have the whole of Europe at our feet.
00:36:12But why does it frighten me?
00:36:15I have to be honest.
00:36:17I feel more and more lost.
00:36:23It hurts me, for example,
00:36:26that if I died now,
00:36:31it wouldn't make anyone happy.
00:36:38I see more and more clearly
00:36:41that I have to work hard on myself.
00:36:43The success of our weapon
00:36:47influenced my family
00:36:52and my friends,
00:36:55my precious penitentiaries.
00:36:59In a few cases,
00:37:01there was even a transaction.
00:37:05Nelly was a little sick.
00:37:08Because I was busy
00:37:10I spent many hours alone
00:37:14reading a letter.
00:37:18I was away on business for three days.
00:37:22During my absence,
00:37:25the barracks of the Gracchus were set on fire.
00:37:28For one night,
00:37:30the tenants found themselves under the bare sky.
00:37:33Nelly, with a good heart
00:37:36or a naivety worthy of punishment,
00:37:38brought to our apartment
00:37:41this little Jew, Astrid Gracchus.
00:37:44Nelly,
00:37:46where is your confident sense of aesthetics?
00:37:51I'm glad
00:37:53that you agreed to burn the traces
00:37:56of this disgusting guest.
00:38:08THE VAGINALIS
00:38:13We call such a scourge
00:38:16vaginalis.
00:38:19It doesn't happen often.
00:38:22Anyway,
00:38:24I can't take care of it now.
00:38:28We were terrified.
00:38:32We couldn't leave each other.
00:38:35As for the other matter,
00:38:38you're not pregnant yet.
00:38:41You seemed to be.
00:38:44Is everything all right with me?
00:38:47You see,
00:38:49now it's a nervous period, a war.
00:38:53It doesn't allow men to spend
00:38:56more time on matters of love, of marriage.
00:38:59Doctor, I ask for honesty.
00:39:02I'm not an old-fashioned person
00:39:04and I can accept any fact.
00:39:06Children?
00:39:09I'll write you a prescription.
00:39:22Here you are.
00:39:24Thank you.
00:39:26I'd advise you to go on holiday.
00:39:29Mountains, forests,
00:39:31it's good for...
00:39:33for...
00:39:35I understand.
00:39:38My son and his wife were in the mountains
00:39:41two years ago.
00:39:43In Berchtesgaden.
00:39:45It's close to our chief's residence.
00:39:48Nine months later,
00:39:50my daughter-in-law gave birth
00:39:52to a healthy grandson.
00:39:54I'll give you the address.
00:39:58Yes.
00:40:00Please call me.
00:40:03This coffee is excellent.
00:40:06I haven't had it for a long time.
00:40:08Thank you.
00:40:10It's really excellent.
00:40:12The coffee is also excellent.
00:40:14You know, it doesn't feel artificial at all.
00:40:17Can I ask for a little more?
00:40:19Thank you.
00:40:23I see you serve marriage.
00:40:26I think so.
00:40:28You have round eyes.
00:40:30It's from lack of sleep.
00:40:31Giselle.
00:40:33Nelly, I heard you were at Dr. Gebhard's.
00:40:35Did something happen?
00:40:37No, everything's fine.
00:40:39Thank God.
00:40:41Children, my dear, children.
00:40:43That's the most important thing.
00:40:45I raised four sons myself.
00:40:47I know how important it is for a woman.
00:40:49Nonsense.
00:40:51It's not the most important thing at all.
00:40:54If it required this idea,
00:40:57I would give my own child to death.
00:40:59Giselle.
00:41:01What, maybe you'll say I'm wrong?
00:41:04Mrs. Giselle,
00:41:06I don't think such things can be considered theoretically.
00:41:09In any case, there is some misunderstanding.
00:41:12You will get married, you will have a child.
00:41:15Then maybe you'll change your mind.
00:41:17I don't know if you've heard about the Mother's Houses.
00:41:21Yes.
00:41:23I think there is a better place for a woman
00:41:26than the old-fashioned marriage beds.
00:41:29Do you want to offend us, Mrs. Giselle?
00:41:32No.
00:41:34I know you can have very bold views,
00:41:36but they cannot discriminate
00:41:38the merits and customs of others.
00:41:41And you,
00:41:44what do you think about it?
00:41:48Don't you think there should be
00:41:51every young and healthy woman there?
00:41:56Please, ma'am.
00:41:57Would you like some more pancakes?
00:41:59No, thank you.
00:42:01I'll tell you about it.
00:42:03I'll give you the prescription.
00:42:05She is completely dishonest.
00:42:10In this readiness to legal prostitution,
00:42:14there is some kind of revenge in life,
00:42:17in the queue of fate.
00:42:20Did she count on someone?
00:42:24Did someone leave or maybe die?
00:42:28I would like to help her,
00:42:31but in the face of the obvious hostility she has towards me,
00:42:35it is completely impossible.
00:42:41This afternoon,
00:42:43one of the penitentiaries left us.
00:42:46This time, the unexpected punishment
00:42:49came straight from heaven.
00:42:52It's true that Willy Mundig was old,
00:42:54but nothing foretold a sudden death.
00:42:58The corpses also did not arouse admiration in me.
00:43:02Some grayish in color and wrinkled.
00:43:07I told them to be immediately taken to the prosecutor's office
00:43:11to carry out the section.
00:43:25Check and mat,
00:43:28Mr. Commandant.
00:43:45What's wrong with you?
00:43:48I do not know.
00:43:50I'm sick of it.
00:43:51Then I'll go to the bathroom.
00:43:53You're pregnant.
00:43:55I'm going to the town of pickled cucumbers.
00:44:13I feel that no one needs me.
00:44:16I feel that no one needs me.
00:44:18I feel that no one needs me.
00:44:23It turned out that going on vacation did not give any fruit,
00:44:27and the nausea was the result of the heat.
00:44:31It's enough for my husband to stop talking to me.
00:44:37And here's the second disaster.
00:44:39Epidemic in the camp, collective poisoning and fresh food.
00:44:45I am a national socialist.
00:44:49I don't like Jews and I'm afraid of them, but
00:44:52Astrid is just a poor and helpless child.
00:44:56Do we have the right to be so harsh?
00:45:00No, I don't understand that.
00:45:05The fact that I visited Astrid
00:45:08will certainly increase the anger of my husband
00:45:11and my unhappy situation.
00:45:18But doesn't he understand that I'm sitting in this hell all alone?
00:45:42Here you are, Nelly.
00:45:44This is where we sort all the things you see.
00:45:48How beautiful.
00:45:50A very nice jacket.
00:45:52Separately, you see children's clothes, women's clothes,
00:45:56summer clothes, men's clothes,
00:46:00winter clothes.
00:46:02You see, it's not such a hard job.
00:46:05It just has a little free time and can help us.
00:46:08And we assign better things to those in need.
00:46:13You had a great idea.
00:46:15At least you won't be bored at home.
00:46:20Please throw it away immediately.
00:46:23Where did you get this?
00:46:25From the main office of the administration of the economy.
00:46:30Nelly, throw it away.
00:46:32Throw it away, please!
00:46:34No!
00:46:37Did you want me to have a child?
00:46:40Get up!
00:46:41Get up!
00:46:43Get up!
00:46:45I have to give birth to a girl
00:46:48so that you can wear a bohemian dress
00:46:51and her father will kill her!
00:46:53Kill her!
00:46:55I won't!
00:46:57Go and kill her!
00:46:59No!
00:47:01No!
00:47:11No!
00:47:42What happened?
00:47:51Did you get drunk because of Gisela?
00:47:54Because she went to her mother's house?
00:47:57Shut up.
00:48:00I'm not drunk.
00:48:02I'm not drunk.
00:48:04I'm not drunk.
00:48:06I'm not drunk.
00:48:08I'm not drunk.
00:48:09I'm not drunk.
00:48:13How do you feel about me?
00:48:16You should go there too.
00:48:18Maybe someone else would suit you better.
00:48:20What did you say?
00:48:21Suit me?
00:48:23You heard me.
00:48:24How can you?
00:48:25I can.
00:48:26I can do everything.
00:48:28I forbid you
00:48:30to see this little Jew.
00:48:32Clear?
00:48:36I'll tell you too.
00:48:39I was examined by various doctors.
00:48:42They didn't say that it was impossible to give birth to a child.
00:48:46Why can't you get pregnant?
00:48:48You're just infertile.
00:48:49If you're looking for a woman to give birth to
00:48:52and she knows about it
00:48:54and feels it all the time
00:48:55then maybe she won't meet your expectations.
00:48:57That's the truth!
00:49:10I think that when the war is over
00:49:14we should get a divorce.
00:49:19We have nothing in common anymore.
00:49:40And one more thing.
00:49:44If, as you say, I'm infertile
00:49:48then you shouldn't be surprised by my tendency towards another child.
00:49:52Even if a Jew gave birth to her
00:49:54Astrid is just a beautiful
00:49:56and wise girl.
00:49:59Nothing is to blame for the crime that others have committed.
00:50:03I'm not a Jew.
00:50:05I'm not a Jew.
00:50:07I'm not a Jew.
00:50:09I'm not a Jew.
00:50:15I didn't know what to do that night.
00:50:17But let no one accuse me of sadism.
00:50:20I received the news
00:50:22of the greatest defeat of our brave troops in the war in the East.
00:50:28I needed a victim for the humiliation of national pride.
00:50:31For loneliness.
00:50:33For a healthy and so foreign Senneli.
00:50:36Anyway, I was also cold and wet.
00:50:38I needed a common suffering.
00:50:40A mystical redemption of all those
00:50:43who are resting on faraway empty steppes.
00:50:47This is what this many-hour absurd appearance of appeal ordered me to do.
00:51:08So...
00:51:39We stopped writing our diary.
00:51:44But the diary of the fate of national socialism
00:51:49was still being written.
00:51:52With more and more gloomy and horrible events.
00:51:56A terrible cry of mothers ran through the whole country.
00:52:00I felt a piercing pain after every news from the front.
00:52:04An increasing hatred of the enemy,
00:52:07but at the same time a need for vigilance
00:52:10against all signs of defeatism or resignation in their own ranks.
00:52:17I didn't have enough time
00:52:19to recover from the news of the death of one of my friends,
00:52:23and I had to take part in the trial for traitors
00:52:28who dared to accuse the whole country of a personal defeat.
00:52:32The night didn't allow me to rest.
00:52:36I got up, I ran,
00:52:38I checked the guards,
00:52:40because sometimes I was hallucinating.
00:52:45Explosions, bombs, rumblings of cannons
00:52:48seemed to come right here,
00:52:50right here, right under my throat.
00:52:56No, there was no mention of fear.
00:53:00I eliminated this feeling already in my early childhood.
00:53:06Such ominous news from the front for the first time
00:53:11undermined my unwavering faith in the success of our great plan.
00:53:18I suffered not as a soldier, but as an ideologue.
00:53:23I believed that we would win,
00:53:26but I also began to realize
00:53:28that victory would no longer be such a triumph
00:53:34that the visions and dreams of Achim von Arnim
00:53:39and also mine, my personal ones, would come to fruition.
00:53:45And so, not in our generation
00:53:48will we be the conquerors and creators of a new world.
00:53:53In our generation, we will still compromise.
00:53:59But who will swear to me
00:54:01that the future generations will not support their beliefs and ideas?
00:54:06Who?
00:54:16I say this, and I go down to you, Nellie.
00:54:23I go down to the very bottom of the Hades,
00:54:26because now you will appear
00:54:28and all the signs will reveal our last act.
00:54:34So, first there was the shooting of Rybakow.
00:54:38I have already spoken about my personal relationship to this man.
00:54:43When I received the order to execute the sentence,
00:54:46I must admit that I was pleasantly surprised myself.
00:54:49This does not mean that I would condemn the decision for a moment.
00:54:53No.
00:54:55She rather amazed me.
00:54:58Well,
00:55:00it does not happen to everyone
00:55:03to shoot their partner in the chest.
00:55:20Please do not do this.
00:55:23In return, I promise not to raise any screams.
00:55:28Agreed.
00:55:30Goodbye, Mr. Rybakow.
00:55:35Rather, goodbye.
00:55:42I remember
00:55:44when one of my superiors,
00:55:48when we discussed the plans
00:55:51to liquidate certain groups of our enemies,
00:55:54said at some point, looking out the window,
00:55:58wouldn't you like to be something
00:56:01as shabby and senseless
00:56:06as this snow?
00:56:08Because only then can one be so pure.
00:56:16But I was only to speak about Nelia.
00:56:19For weeks, as I say,
00:56:21months of strict marital separation
00:56:24during which we limited ourselves
00:56:27only to the sentence pertaining to the cold testimony of our subordinates.
00:56:32We limited ourselves only to the sentence pertaining to the cold testimony of our subordinates,
00:56:38to joint visits,
00:56:40with decency, but rather with an external compulsion.
00:56:45These months had something destructive in them.
00:56:53Nelia said that it was only a matter of a few months
00:56:57until the end of the war.
00:57:00Meanwhile, the war was still going on.
00:57:03A year had passed,
00:57:05and there was no sign of the end of the divorce.
00:57:14As a man in an exposed position,
00:57:18I had every right to receive it, even during the war.
00:57:23An idealist, a nationalist, a socialist without children
00:57:26like a tailor without a model.
00:57:31But we were...
00:57:34We were, with Nelia, bound by something,
00:57:38something mysterious,
00:57:41something indefinite.
00:57:45Love? No.
00:57:47In the current state of affairs,
00:57:51there could be no talk of love.
00:57:54Attachment? No.
00:57:57Attachment? No.
00:57:59It was too short a period
00:58:02in which mutual thought could transform itself
00:58:05into a testimony of mutual necessity.
00:58:11Curiosity? Yes, I think that's it.
00:58:16Where will it go with this feminine sentimentality,
00:58:21with this smuggling of sweets for a Jewish girl,
00:58:26with this increasingly terrified and delusional gaze?
00:58:30That's the subject of my nightly thoughts.
00:58:33And she was probably wondering what he wants from me,
00:58:37what he wants, this man,
00:58:39with an open heart and a cool mind.
00:58:43A delusional circle,
00:58:45a delusional circle from which we couldn't get out.
00:58:52Yes.
00:58:57But there was a certain event
00:59:00that ordered me to move my personal affairs to the next level.
00:59:10Well, finally.
00:59:14I'm very happy to see you again.
00:59:17But if I disturb you in anything, please let me know.
00:59:20There are seven years of happiness playing in the cinema next door.
00:59:24Is it a comedy?
00:59:26Comedy?
00:59:30No, you don't disturb me.
00:59:34Please.
00:59:36Maybe we'll get down to business right away.
00:59:39You won't believe it.
00:59:41I came here almost privately.
00:59:43I just missed this camp.
00:59:46You?
00:59:48Have you been here before?
00:59:50No, no, that's why I missed it.
00:59:52You know, when an object or a place is studied on the basis of papers
00:59:56and when these studies are in-depth,
00:59:59a longing for a living image is born.
01:00:02You studied our problems.
01:00:04Can I know someone's instructions?
01:00:07Well, it's not that simple, you know.
01:00:10Not all my works result from someone's direct instructions.
01:00:14Lack of instructions doesn't always mean a lack of competence.
01:00:17I don't know if I'm speaking quite clearly.
01:00:20Quite clearly.
01:00:22My admiration for you grows as I learn more about
01:00:26the whole problem of your camp.
01:00:31Your rationalism,
01:00:33the lack of too many scruples,
01:00:37the precision of execution.
01:00:39When this war ends,
01:00:42and I think it will end wisely,
01:00:45this camp will be able to serve as a model
01:00:48of humanitarian social re-education.
01:00:50Of course, without side goals.
01:00:52I dream about it.
01:00:54I'm glad.
01:00:56I'm glad that our conversation is going so well.
01:01:03You know, I came here
01:01:07to persuade you,
01:01:11I mean, to signal that it's high time...
01:01:16Time?
01:01:17Time for what?
01:01:19To start working on documentation,
01:01:23balancing experiences.
01:01:25I don't understand. Are you going to do something?
01:01:27Yes, you see, this camp in its current form
01:01:32has already fulfilled its task.
01:01:34We are proud of it.
01:01:36I'm sorry, but I think you've gone mad.
01:01:41I fully understand your feelings.
01:01:45I believe, however, that you are a rationalist.
01:01:47I am a national socialist.
01:01:52Yes, of course.
01:01:54I only emphasized your temperament.
01:02:00I'm listening.
01:02:03We are starting a wide-ranging action
01:02:06of direct contact with representatives
01:02:08of international Jewish organizations.
01:02:11The action will be economically
01:02:13extremely extensive.
01:02:15You know, these experiments
01:02:17with the recruitment of individuals
01:02:19lose all sense.
01:02:21I don't want to say
01:02:23that in the past
01:02:25they didn't bring us invaluable benefits.
01:02:29Believe me, my friend,
01:02:31that orders of history
01:02:34are not always orders of the heart.
01:02:37I have been postponing the case
01:02:40of your camp for a very long time.
01:02:42Unfortunately, we are officials.
01:02:45However, the case is not lost
01:02:47on the sharpness.
01:02:50They are even collecting it.
01:02:52The fact is that none of the current penitentiaries
01:02:55presents any value to us.
01:03:01And the family of the Grachus?
01:03:03The last friends of the Grachus
01:03:05are already in our hands.
01:03:07Or rather, they were in our hands.
01:03:10Now they are in the hands of God.
01:03:13And the Illozaks?
01:03:15And the Alci?
01:03:17And the Masons?
01:03:19Masonry.
01:03:21Masonry was an illusion.
01:03:23Did you sell at least one Mason abroad?
01:03:26No.
01:03:27Well, you see,
01:03:29we can only trade with the Jews.
01:03:31And not in smaller portions
01:03:33like hundreds of thousands
01:03:35or even millions.
01:03:37But the Jews wanted such interests.
01:03:40It is not enough to imprison their brothers
01:03:42in such cultural conditions
01:03:44as the ones you have created.
01:03:46And if I'm not mistaken,
01:03:48this...
01:03:50this...
01:03:52this...
01:03:54If I'm not mistaken,
01:03:56this camp is the number
01:03:58of 76 penitentiaries, right?
01:04:01You have perfect information.
01:04:03Well, this number
01:04:05with the current state of the railway
01:04:07is not even worth transporting.
01:04:10So what do you want?
01:04:13What I want?
01:04:19Dear colleague,
01:04:21please believe me
01:04:23that for a moment
01:04:25I would not want to be treated
01:04:27as your counterpart.
01:04:29I do not want to demand anything
01:04:31or dictate anything.
01:04:33We stand together
01:04:35against a certain problem
01:04:37and the situation requires
01:04:39that we solve it.
01:04:41Do you accept such a platform?
01:04:46You want...
01:04:49to eliminate the penitentiaries, right?
01:04:53This is your platform.
01:04:55I don't think you're a child.
01:04:58You don't look like a teenager either.
01:05:02How do you imagine
01:05:04and in this small city
01:05:06the non-liquidation of 76 people?
01:05:09I don't have the right devices.
01:05:12And besides,
01:05:14these difficulties are not worth
01:05:16the final argument.
01:05:18Besides, I have some resources
01:05:21with which we can
01:05:23solve this matter quietly.
01:05:27A diesel car
01:05:30allows to eliminate
01:05:32passengers during transport
01:05:34without too much trouble.
01:05:37And then
01:05:39it is enough to open
01:05:41a tight door
01:05:44with a prepared bottom
01:05:46at the front
01:05:48and a prepared bottom
01:05:50at the back.
01:05:58Did you make a decision?
01:06:01Yes, I did.
01:06:04Here you are.
01:06:19Yes, I think that's enough.
01:06:24However,
01:06:26as far as I understand
01:06:28your intentions,
01:06:30I would like to make this decision
01:06:32with enthusiasm,
01:06:34with an internal conviction
01:06:36of my righteousness
01:06:38and without offence
01:06:40to its teacher.
01:06:42Again, even.
01:07:18I don't know
01:07:20what to do.
01:07:22I don't know
01:07:24what to do.
01:07:26I don't know
01:07:28what to do.
01:07:30I don't know
01:07:32what to do.
01:07:34I don't know
01:07:36what to do.
01:07:38I don't know
01:07:40what to do.
01:07:42I don't know
01:07:44what to do.
01:07:46I don't know
01:07:48what to do.
01:07:50I don't know
01:07:52what to do.
01:07:54I don't know
01:07:56what to do.
01:07:58I don't know
01:08:00what to do.
01:08:02I don't know
01:08:04what to do.
01:08:06I don't know
01:08:08what to do.
01:08:10I don't know
01:08:12what to do.
01:08:14I don't know
01:08:16what to do.
01:08:18I don't know
01:08:20what to do.
01:08:22I don't know
01:08:24what to do.
01:08:26♪
01:08:43What is your name?
01:08:44Astrid.
01:08:45Astrid.
01:08:46I knew you Astrid.
01:08:48I did not know that you were so nice.
01:08:51It was Thursday, the 25th of November.
01:09:21It was 5 a.m. when I went to the woods, to this remote place,
01:09:26to watch over the digging and wait for the arrival of Mark Diesel's car,
01:09:33with its terrible load.
01:09:37The day before, when this gloomy vehicle with a special service entered the camp,
01:09:45I felt a strange anxiety.
01:09:50When I got up long before dawn, I did not wake Nellie up,
01:09:55hoping that my wife would wake up after everyone.
01:10:01It was hard for me.
01:10:03I felt in this early departure like someone who leaves forever.
01:10:13And what did you do, Nellie? You did not betray yourself?
01:10:18Lying all night by my side, who were you thinking about?
01:10:22Whom did you sympathize with, little, plump Jew?
01:10:25Yes, do not deny me.
01:10:27You did not want to participate in my pain of many years of work
01:10:32and beautiful hope for the future.
01:10:35Yes, you wanted to intervene, but how?
01:10:38The only intervention could have been tearing something out of me.
01:10:41But no, no, no, you were already my enemy.
01:10:47Now I see how far I was careless and stupid.
01:10:52I wanted a child from you.
01:10:54Meanwhile, you wanted to escape from the greed of a little woman's happiness.
01:11:01No, demand that from your experience I conjure anything more than your personal curse.
01:11:08The nation has grown over you.
01:11:10The severity of the idea with which we draw our power has grown over you.
01:11:15You acted on the orders of a cold historical logic,
01:11:20which pushes everyone who is a little spirit of shame and superficial
01:11:25in the direction of selling deceit and vanity.
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