Jana Kramer Got Triggered on Set of 'Gaslit By My Husband,' Gets Emotional About Past Domestic Violence

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00:00 shooting this movie, was it triggering for you?

00:02 Because I think you said that your therapist was like,

00:04 "Maybe you shouldn't do this," right?

00:05 She was...

00:07 So I walked in very concerned because

00:09 I thought I dealt with everything.

00:11 Yeah, right.

00:12 And I was like, "Well, I don't even know.

00:13 Can I even bring back that emotion?

00:15 Do I want to bring back that emotion?"

00:18 And she had said, "You're not doing this for yourself."

00:21 And I was like, "Well, okay."

00:22 She's like, "You're doing this for everyone that needs to see this movie."

00:24 And that clicked inside of me like, "Okay, you're right.

00:27 Like, I'm going to tell this story."

00:29 But it was hard.

00:30 I mean, we had a moment on set where we had to cut

00:33 because it got too...

00:35 I had a complete panic attack

00:37 because Austin was on top of me.

00:38 I couldn't breathe.

00:39 And that just triggered me.

00:40 But right back to my abuse situation.

00:43 Were you able to kind of turn it off when you went home?

00:46 Or did it kind of stay with you for a while?

00:49 So I did have to call my therapist

00:51 because there was a few times where I was like,

00:52 I was triggered waking up feeling my arms bruised again

00:55 because, you know,

00:56 Austin didn't mean to bruise me or hurt me,

00:58 but I'm like, when we're in the scene, I'm like, "Go for it."

01:00 You know what I mean?

01:01 But waking up and it's like, there was moments going,

01:03 "Wait, why do I have bruise marks on my arms?"

01:05 And it's like, "No, no, no, no.

01:06 Like, this is...

01:07 That's the past.

01:08 This is... You're playing this part."

01:09 And...

01:10 But I did have to kind of remind myself

01:12 what was...

01:13 where I was at in reality.

01:15 I think you said that, like, for so long

01:17 that you dealt with a lot of shame

01:18 after you were in your domestic violence relationship.

01:21 How do you feel about it now, looking at it?

01:24 Um...

01:25 Sorry.

01:26 No, no, I don't want you to...

01:27 No, no, no.

01:28 No, I think it's just, um...

01:29 You shouldn't.

01:31 Um...

01:33 There's so much strength in it

01:35 that the shame piece always makes me...

01:38 It's...

01:39 I feel...

01:40 This is gonna sound weird,

01:41 but, like, I feel sad for the girls trapped in that.

01:44 Yeah.

01:45 I feel sad for the version of myself that I was,

01:48 that I would accept someone to put their hands on me,

01:51 or that's...

01:53 And I wouldn't say it's so much shame anymore.

01:55 I just feel sad.

01:56 Like, I still, like, you know,

01:58 there'll be some women that reach out to me on DMs,

02:00 and I'm like, you know, "He didn't mean to..."

02:02 I'm like, "It doesn't matter

02:03 if he meant to put his hands on you.

02:04 Like, he should never put his hands on you."

02:06 You know, and it's like...

02:07 But I can only say so much,

02:09 and it's like, until you believe that you deserve better

02:12 and that you don't deserve that,

02:14 you know, that's why you just have to...

02:16 That's why I love that Lifetime

02:17 is doing the Stop Violence Against Women,

02:19 is opening conversations,

02:20 is that, you know, to give them voices to know,

02:23 "Wait, no, that's not all right."

02:25 And so, yeah, I mean, now I...

02:28 That's why I want to continue to do things like this.

02:31 You know, Morgan and I are talking,

02:32 "How can we further this on?

02:33 Is there a foundation we can open to help women?"

02:36 And so it's to keep that conversation

02:38 and to be able to shed light on what is wrong

02:41 versus what's right.

02:42 - Yeah, but think of how many people that you are helping,

02:44 even with not even with this,

02:45 but even with your podcast, just talking about it.

02:47 - Yeah. - Because so many people,

02:48 like you said, probably feel that shame

02:50 and don't want to be open and honest about it.

02:52 And now that they can relate to you

02:54 and you're their safe space as well.

02:56 - Well, I think the hard part

02:57 with the gaslighting part of it is

02:59 we're made to feel like it's our fault.

03:00 - Yeah, right. - We're made to feel crazy.

03:02 And I think that's what I love about this movie

03:04 is it truly takes and walks you through

03:07 how just you literally think you're going crazy.

03:11 And I'm like...

03:12 - Domestic violence can shatter lives.

03:14 It affects millions of people, including myself.

03:17 You deserve to live a life free

03:19 from shame, fear, and abuse.

03:22 If you or someone you know needs help,

03:24 please call the National Domestic Violence Hotline

03:28 at 800-799-SAFE.

03:31 Please join me and Lifetime

03:33 in overcoming domestic violence.

03:35 To access resources, visit mylifetime.com/stopviolenceagainstwomen.

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