Rosie Yates is now 13 and is starting to display increasingly challenging, emotional and physical behaviour. Veering wil | dG1fbnpEQk1NT0E3czg
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00:00 Seems to be late, late.
00:03 No, I did drink in moderation.
00:06 Then I went on for another two hours.
00:10 But let me fill up that little glass of yours and you can tell me about your day.
00:17 What's this? Did you do the whole cost benefit thing?
00:20 No, I just started it but it's just silly.
00:22 You wanted a chat. Why not now? Where did you put it?
00:28 Oh, yeah, you know, just the obvious. I'm 38, hardly in my prime.
00:34 Actually hate being pregnant. Hemorrhoids. Settle back at work.
00:40 And let's be honest, looking after just Rosie and Ben isn't easy.
00:44 What about the pros?
00:46 Um, I didn't put any.
00:52 I found it hard to...
00:57 It's hard to explain. It's like, you know, when you're younger and daydream about what family you might have.
01:04 So, you know, I was the girly swot. Claire always got away with murder.
01:09 Or when we found out Ben was going to be a boy, if it would be like you and Soph.
01:13 You know, dorky older brother, iffy outdoor sister everyone liked.
01:18 Yeah, but in none of my dreams was there a girl who...
01:24 Yeah, who was like Rosie.
01:29 No one ever dreams of a child like Rosie.
01:38 You know, and I...
01:45 I love Rosie.
01:49 I know you do.
01:53 But why do I have to be defined by her?
01:59 You know, for a long time I felt cheated by her because she wasn't the girl that I dreamt about.
02:10 You know, she'd taken her place and then as she got older and I accepted her more,
02:17 you know, what if it wasn't that she'd taken her place, what if she just pushed in the queue and then...
02:25 If we started again, then if I had a normal girl, then I wouldn't have to...
02:35 I wouldn't have to resent Rosie anymore because I'd have the family that I'd always wanted and I'd have...
02:42 I'd have Rosie as well, yeah.
02:47 It's not after all these years, you know, haven't I earned that?
02:55 I just want to make you happy, you know.
03:00 What if, what if it meant going back to how it was before?
03:07 I used to think you'd walk in and, you know, tell me that you were leaving us.
03:16 And I wanted you to do...
03:20 I can be better.
03:23 We survived, Rosie. We can survive a normal.
03:29 Listen, hey, if you wanted, we could try.
03:36 Maybe, maybe.
03:45 Not now though.
03:48 Don't you get back to work?
03:51 I'd better kiss you.
03:53 That'd be really quick.
03:55 Just give me a minute.
03:58 No, stop.
04:00 Hmm.
04:01 Hmm.
04:02 [silence]