1h 15min | Drama | Video | 2007
Based on a true story. Two beautiful Russian women endure terrible hardships in their native land, and come to the United States in search of opportunity and hope. It doesn't take them long to discover that life as an immigrant can be just as terrifying as the life they left behind. Still, they will do whatever it takes to survive... will they find new hope in each other?
Directors: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
Writers: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
Stars: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
Based on a true story. Two beautiful Russian women endure terrible hardships in their native land, and come to the United States in search of opportunity and hope. It doesn't take them long to discover that life as an immigrant can be just as terrifying as the life they left behind. Still, they will do whatever it takes to survive... will they find new hope in each other?
Directors: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
Writers: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
Stars: Elena Carnicki, Lika Levskaya
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00:00:30Leave Russia, sinning, lost, and graceless.
00:00:56Leave your land, pray, for good and all.
00:00:59I'll cleanse your hands from blood that stains you,
00:01:02and from your heart draw back black shame.
00:01:06The hurts of failure, wrongs that pain you,
00:01:08I'll veil with yet another name.
00:01:10I'll cleanse your hands from blood that stains you,
00:01:19and from your heart draw back black shame.
00:01:41Somebody puts a beauty crown on your head,
00:01:44and suddenly you think that all of your dreams have come true.
00:01:49I love you all!
00:02:10When the Soviet Union collapsed, so did my family.
00:02:18My parents lost their jobs, their savings, even their sanity.
00:02:26They spent all the money I could give them on vodka.
00:02:31Then they sold everything we owned.
00:02:34They begged on the streets.
00:02:37They just stopped caring.
00:03:06And it broke my heart.
00:03:36And it broke my heart.
00:04:07O Lord, have mercy!
00:04:10Save our souls!
00:04:13O Lord, have mercy!
00:04:16O Lord, have mercy!
00:04:23O Lord, have mercy!
00:04:34I knew I was lucky.
00:04:37My parents loved me madly.
00:04:42They gave me a great education, taught me piano, painting, all kind of sports.
00:04:51They created a world for me, where nothing could go wrong.
00:05:21In Russia, despite my education, men would only hire me with just one thing in mind.
00:05:51My parents drank away our house and all of my money.
00:06:06Jobs were impossible to find.
00:06:09I had no home, no skills to offer, except my body.
00:06:15So I sold that whenever I could.
00:06:19I saw no way through this unending darkness.
00:06:49Ah!
00:06:51Ah!
00:07:19Ah!
00:07:44Ah!
00:08:08I was 18 and, of course, a virgin.
00:08:12I met a man, and he introduced me to the most intimate relationship a woman may experience.
00:08:24Over and over and over again.
00:08:54O Lord, have mercy!
00:09:25To live without hope is not living.
00:09:31I had to get out of Russia.
00:09:33I put a net in a bridal magazine.
00:09:36Hundreds of men from all over the world responded.
00:09:42Some flew to see me, but marriage was not what they had in mind.
00:09:49My desperation was showing.
00:09:52When you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.
00:09:55So I decided to marry the first guy who could take me out of Russia.
00:10:23Since I was a little girl, I was fascinated by Marilyn Monroe.
00:10:28I used to dream about living her glamorous lifestyle.
00:10:35I got accepted by a well-respected acting school in Los Angeles
00:10:40and decided to go to Hollywood to become a famous actress.
00:10:49God, how naive!
00:11:16Should this life sometime deceive you, don't be sad or mad at it.
00:11:21On a gloomy day, submit, trust.
00:11:25Fair day will come. Why grieve you?
00:11:28Heart lives in the future.
00:11:30So what if gloom pervade the present?
00:11:32All is fleeting. All will go.
00:11:35What is gone will then be pleasant.
00:12:06This was my first taste of Hollywood glamour.
00:12:10I can't remember reaching that Marilyn ever slept here.
00:12:36When I met my future husband, I was a person without a state, without choices,
00:12:42at the mercy of anyone who would help me survive.
00:13:06He had me smuggled across the Mexican border.
00:13:10And why?
00:13:12To scare me into keeping my mouth shut.
00:13:15It worked. I was scared to death.
00:13:36Greg was 25 years older than me.
00:13:39And all he wanted was a young, pretty and silent wife.
00:13:44A sex slave.
00:13:48If I complained, he'd leave me alone and broke.
00:14:36Amazingly, no one offered me a major part in a movie.
00:14:41I ran out of money.
00:14:44I started to look for jobs.
00:14:47Waitress, maid, pizza delivery.
00:14:51Any jobs.
00:14:53But you need a work permit to get a job.
00:14:57And you need a job to get a job.
00:15:00But you need a work permit to get a job.
00:15:04And you need a job to get a work permit.
00:15:08A vicious circle.
00:15:30A vicious circle.
00:15:52Hunger may move someone to do bad things.
00:15:58And it became so painful to me
00:16:02that all I could think about was food.
00:16:27And now...
00:16:41Hello, Mom.
00:16:46How are you?
00:16:49I'm fine, too.
00:16:52I'm fine.
00:16:55I have money, yes.
00:17:01Yes, I'm auditioning.
00:17:04It will work out, of course.
00:17:11How's Angel?
00:17:17Yes, I love you, too.
00:17:20Okay, I have to go. Bye.
00:17:51For dreaded sadness that nothing cheers.
00:17:55For new darkness that nothing keeps at bay.
00:18:01What's to come? More such torment?
00:18:04No, it's enough.
00:18:07It's time to rest.
00:18:09Let go.
00:18:11And to forget the sounds of lament.
00:18:14A heart is full and can stand it no more.
00:18:20With fear and joy
00:18:26let it tremble.
00:18:32Alleluia.
00:18:37Blessing and hope for us.
00:18:44Alleluia.
00:18:48Resurrect us, O Lord,
00:18:52and save us, O my God.
00:18:56Alleluia.
00:19:00Blessed is the husband. Alleluia.
00:19:06Blessed is the husband. Alleluia.
00:19:11Blessed is the husband. Alleluia.
00:19:16Blessed is the husband. Alleluia.
00:19:26I ran out of choices.
00:19:29So I tried to do what Marilyn Monroe did.
00:19:35The path of the righteous and the path of the unfaithful will perish.
00:19:46Alleluia.
00:19:51Alleluia.
00:20:04Alleluia.
00:20:23I was helpless.
00:20:25No papers, no money.
00:20:28I didn't speak any English.
00:20:31Greg disconnected the phone,
00:20:33took all of my documents and my clothes.
00:20:36I was his wife and his prisoner.
00:20:40I cried and cried.
00:20:43He told me I was crazy, crazy, crazy.
00:20:48He got a doctor to put me on six different antipsychotic medications.
00:20:52Turned me into a zombie.
00:21:04I didn't want to die.
00:21:07I didn't want to die.
00:21:10I didn't want to die.
00:21:13I didn't want to die.
00:21:16I didn't want to die.
00:21:19I didn't want to die.
00:21:22I didn't want to die.
00:21:25I didn't want to die.
00:21:28I didn't want to die.
00:21:31I didn't want to die.
00:21:34I didn't want to die.
00:21:37I didn't want to die.
00:21:40I didn't want to die.
00:21:43I didn't want to die.
00:21:46I didn't want to die.
00:21:49I didn't want to die.
00:21:52I didn't want to die.
00:21:55I didn't want to die.
00:21:58But one day, in a single moment of clarity, I ran.
00:22:09I ran as far as I could, taking only my English dictionary and a few books.
00:22:14Gregg did everything that was possible to deport me.
00:22:18I knew I could never be safe in America again.
00:22:22He called INS, and reported me as an illegal immigrant.
00:22:25He called INS and reported me as an illegal immigrant.
00:22:29I woke up three days later feeling extremely sick.
00:23:00I guess it wasn't my time to go yet.
00:23:24There was one job that didn't require a work permit.
00:23:29And it gave me the opportunity to become an actress.
00:24:24I became an actress, a director.
00:24:28I wrote my own scenes.
00:24:31Part therapist, part fantasist.
00:24:35Men paid a thousand dollars an hour for my company.
00:24:39Some flew halfway across the world to do it.
00:24:43On this stage nobody applauded.
00:24:46But I was definitely the star.
00:24:49And I'd be lying if I said I never enjoyed it.
00:24:54It's as big as an ocean.
00:24:59Oh yes, take me there.
00:25:04Far from the time that's running out.
00:25:07Oh yes, take me there.
00:25:11On your island, far from the time that's running out.
00:25:15Yes, please take me there.
00:25:19On a boat, in such beautiful countries.
00:25:24That you can smell it.
00:25:30Take me there.
00:25:35Far from the time that's running out.
00:25:38Oh yes, take me there.
00:25:42On your island, far from the time that's running out.
00:25:46Yes, please take me there.
00:25:51On a boat, in such beautiful countries.
00:25:55That you can smell it.
00:26:01Take me there.
00:26:10Only once did I feel dirty and disrespected.
00:26:18But no matter what you see, I still believe I had a pure soul.
00:26:30Le soleil embrassait ta peau
00:26:35Il faisait toujours plus chaud
00:26:39Toujours plus chaud
00:26:41On voyait s'enfuir au loin le monde
00:26:45On était comme des oiseaux
00:26:49Oh oui, emmène-moi sur ton île
00:26:55Loin du temps qui défile
00:26:58Montre-moi les odeurs
00:27:10J'aimerais encore une fois vivre comme auparavant
00:27:14Sentir auprès de toi l'odeur du port et le chant du vent
00:27:19C'est aussi grand qu'un océan
00:27:24Oh oui, emmène-moi sur ton île
00:27:29Loin du temps qui défile
00:27:33Montre-moi les odeurs du port et le chant du vent
00:27:39Emmène-moi
00:27:42Loin du temps qui s'écoule
00:27:45Oh oui, emmène-moi sur ton île
00:27:51Loin du temps qui défile
00:27:54Oui, s'il te plaît, emmène-moi
00:28:09Où suis-je?
00:28:12J'ai perdu moi-même dans la douleur et la solitude
00:28:16Et j'étais à nouveau dans une situation que j'espérais ne se répéter jamais
00:28:30J'ai appris à m'éloigner du monde
00:28:35J'ai appris à m'éloigner du monde
00:28:39Avec this simple and wise existence
00:28:41I learned to look at the sky and pray
00:28:45And in the evening to walk a good distance
00:28:48Walking unneeded worries away
00:28:50When ravines rustle and burdock roam
00:28:53and yellow buried rowan trees are in their glory
00:28:56I put together lighthearted poems about life
00:28:59etically ephemeral transitions
00:29:03Would ever have a night, night
00:29:09My mother came to visit me from Russia, I missed her so much, it was the happiest moment
00:29:36I had in America.
00:29:44I wanted to show her the best of Los Angeles and the better half of my double life.
00:30:09I found shelter and a temporary peace of mind working in a Chinese restaurant.
00:30:20Surviving but feeling content.
00:30:26So what is next for me?
00:30:48Still around, old dear?
00:31:03How are you keeping?
00:31:04I, too, am around.
00:31:06Hello to you.
00:31:07May that magic twilight ever be streaming over your cottage as it used to do.
00:31:14You'll write how sad you are and anxious for my sake, though you won't tell them so.
00:31:19And then in your old-fashioned jacket out onto the high road off you go, that you often
00:31:24see in the blue shadows ever one dream giving you no rest.
00:31:29Don't go eating your heart out with worry, it's just crazy nonsense and a lie.
00:31:34I may drink hard, but I promise, mother, I shall see you first before I die.
00:31:39I love you as always, and I'm yearning in my thoughts for just one thing alone, soon
00:31:44to ease my heartache by returning to our humble, low-roofed country home.
00:31:49I'll return when decked in white the branches in our orchard are with spring aglow, but
00:31:54no longer wake me up at sunrise as you used to do eight years ago.
00:31:58Don't teach me to pray, please, mother, there's no going back, try as you might.
00:32:03You alone give me support and comfort, you alone glow with a magic light.
00:32:07So forget your cares, please, don't be anxious, and for my sake, dear, don't worry so.
00:32:16Locked in depressions, hopeless, captive, in haste of clamorous processions, I heard
00:32:21your voice, soft, and dreamt of your beloved expressions.
00:32:25Detained in darkness, isolation, my days would slowly drag and strife with lack of faith,
00:32:32lack of tears, and life.
00:33:02I love you as always, and I'm yearning in my thoughts for just one thing alone, soon
00:33:09to ease my heartache by returning to our humble, low-roofed country home.
00:33:14I'll return when decked in white the branches in our orchard are with spring aglow, but
00:33:20no longer wake me up at sunrise as you used to do eight years ago.
00:33:25Don't teach me to pray, please, mother, there's no going back, try as you might.
00:33:30I love you as always, and I'm yearning in my thoughts for just one thing alone, soon
00:33:37to ease my heartache by returning to our humble, low-roofed country home.
00:34:00I love you as always, and I'm yearning in my thoughts for just one thing alone, soon
00:34:07to ease my heartache by returning to our humble, low-roofed country home.
00:34:13Hello? It's Angela. You know, I've decided I'm not working anymore. I quit. Yes, that's
00:34:33my decision. Sorry about that. Bye.
00:34:43We're heavy drinkers here, and women of loose morals. How unhappy all of us are in our crowd.
00:34:52Flowers and birds all over the walls are languishing for lack of a cloud.
00:35:03There's a little puff of smoke, a rope of smoke, over your black pipe. She's wearing
00:35:10a tight skirt in the hope of appearing a svelte and elegant type. The windows have
00:35:16been forever nailed shut. What's it like outside? Is it raining? Snowing? Your eyes are not
00:35:23just cautious, but cat eyes, cautious both coming and going.
00:35:29Oh, how my heart is languishing. Could I be waiting for my death now? And that girl over
00:35:43there who's dancing? No doubt about it. She'll end in hell.
00:35:49This guy John found me sleeping in a parking lot near a gas station. He gave me a place
00:35:58to live in exchange for sex on demand. He made money selling drugs to his friends and
00:36:04was on drugs himself. I drank heavily to numb my pain, but I could not numb how degraded
00:36:11I felt.
00:36:18I believe in God and a kindness of strangers, but that faith was surely being tested now.
00:36:26Once I made the reckless mistake of flirting with John's friend, Nick. John made me suffer
00:36:33for it. He threatened to slice my face.
00:36:49The windows have been forever nailed shut. What's it like outside? Is it raining? Snowing?
00:36:59Your eyes are not just cautious, but cat eyes, cautious both coming and going. Oh, how my
00:37:07heart is languishing. Could I be waiting for my death now? And that girl over there who's
00:37:15dancing? No doubt about it. She'll end in hell.
00:37:45He punched me methodically. I blacked out and came back again with the same hate and
00:37:59anger as when I was raped.
00:39:15When the cops came, my English failed me. John did all the talking. When they took me
00:39:40away, I felt more free than ever before.
00:39:58I was scared, alone. On the advice of my public defender, who had 30 other cases, I plead
00:40:06guilty to an attempted murder. I was not even offered a translator. I endured cavity searches,
00:40:19almost daily assaults, humiliation that will stay with me forever.
00:40:27The Russians say mankind is in love with suffering, but I was sick of it. I took up martial arts
00:40:34initially to defend myself, but it made me stronger in surprising ways, gave me confidence
00:40:40and the courage to change. I began to study criminal justice and psychology, becoming
00:40:49a jailhouse scholar.
00:41:04Marriage is a very meaningful word, and it is meaningful because it marks an end of looking
00:41:17for that special person that we've dreamed about. Marriage also speaks to us about the
00:41:22fulfillment that we have found and the love that we've given to each other.
00:41:34And finally, to both of you this evening, I would encourage you to consider that one
00:41:39person wrote concerning love, and they said, I think our love was meant to be. The special
00:41:44sharing that we know could not be as it is today if we had not met exactly as we did.
00:41:49If our lives had not touched when they did, I might have lived today loving one less person,
00:41:54but not just any person, a very beautiful one. It is certainly my privilege at this
00:41:59moment to be able to present you and to be able to pronounce you husband and wife.
00:42:05You, sir, may kiss your bride.
00:42:13With my escort savings, I began once again to pursue the kind of life that would make
00:42:19my parents proud. Somehow, I held on to old-fashioned family ideals and believed that, like my parents,
00:42:29I would marry once for life. But my student visa was about to expire, and my immigration
00:42:36lawyer advised me to consider a different kind of marriage.
00:42:49I had a very complicated case and was told by many lawyers to give up and go back to
00:43:05Russia. But that wasn't in my plans any time soon.
00:43:20This was the last lawyer I visited of many and was my last hope.
00:43:28Ten thousand dollars was the answer to all of my problems.
00:43:49I slept as far as I could go, and now I was mugging people to make my way.
00:44:19I wasn't proud of how I did it, but I found a way to come up with the necessary amount
00:44:24of money to cover my lawyer's fee.
00:44:49I had to sell my family jewelry to get the money I needed to open my own business and
00:45:12pursue the life that would bring peace to my heart.
00:45:42I graduated from prison with a degree in survival, but also, incredibly, in psychotherapy.
00:45:54I sold my soul to slick immigration lawyers. Those bastards pluck immigrants off the trees
00:46:01like fruit and squeeze the juice out of them. But I managed to get my papers.
00:46:12When it comes down to it, what do we care that everything finally turns into dust, over
00:46:29how many abysses I sang in despair, or in how many mirrors I lived as I must?
00:46:35So I'm not a dream, not a comfort, not good, and least of all, am I a blessing.
00:46:44But you'll recall more often than you should, I'm not sure of course, I'm only guessing,
00:46:49the rumble of lines which are quieting down, and in the eye concealing on its floor,
00:46:55that rusted little thorny crown, in its uneasy silence, and more.
00:47:06I didn't really have the proper education to be a therapist, but I brought something
00:47:10different to my patients. I could understand their pain, because I've been there.
00:47:17I worked with drug addicts, severely mentally ill, thieves, and children with autism.
00:47:23And I loved it. For a while.
00:47:26You're gonna try to come at me on some...
00:47:28Listen to me! Shut the fuck up! You're going to jail, and you're going to jail, and you're going to jail.
00:47:34Oh, okay, you don't have to. Hello? It's America, you guys.
00:47:39Hi, it's America. It's America. We can say whatever we want, and you can't put me in jail.
00:47:45Where are you from? How do you even know that?
00:47:47That's the worst thing about this, when the doctors think they're better than you.
00:47:50Go back to your country.
00:47:51I'll show you how it's like.
00:48:04But I made almost no money, and could barely support myself.
00:48:26And my patients wore me out.
00:48:28Once again, I imagined something different.
00:48:31Something more.
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00:50:57So chic.
00:50:59So tall.
00:51:01So like a rose.
00:51:04Why float up, a specter, from the bottom of the years,
00:51:07and your dim, trembling profile, grasped by memory,
00:51:11behind the glass of coaches, reappears?
00:51:15The arguments were fierce.
00:51:17Some called you bird.
00:51:19Some angel.
00:51:21A poet likened you, quite aptly, to a straw.
00:51:25From out your gorge-dark eyes, through thick black lashes strangely,
00:51:29a tender light poured, meant alike for all.
00:52:25Flowers are like our hopes.
00:52:29In the beginning, they are fresh and beautiful.
00:52:33And in the end, you do whatever it takes to keep them alive.
00:52:55I always knew they would find me.
00:52:58Fear.
00:52:59Panic.
00:53:00Now what?
00:53:02Illusion of security vanish in a split second.
00:53:06Run.
00:53:07Again.
00:53:08Run.
00:53:09Now.
00:53:24Now.
00:53:40What a dramatic change.
00:53:42This wasn't my vision of success.
00:53:44But I made money, and I had a job.
00:53:55I felt beautiful again.
00:53:57I loved to dance.
00:53:59I could make it all show.
00:54:01I could make it all show.
00:54:22There was a guy who came to see me dance every day.
00:54:25He was kind to me.
00:54:27And I felt he could show me a better life.
00:54:57When in my arms your slender form I take.
00:55:23When in my arms your slender form I take.
00:55:26Perhaps a shade too boldly, and words of love impetuous, warm, pour out to you, in silence,
00:55:34coldly, from my unshaked-for rash embrace, you free yourself, and for an instant, a smile
00:55:41appears upon your face, at once mistrustful, wan, and distant.
00:55:46Too promptly has your memory stored, of all my errant ways, the rumor, I speak, and you
00:55:52are out of humor.
00:55:53I plead my cause, and you are bored.
00:55:56Oh, how I curse the sweet diversions, and pleasures of my wicked youth, love's nightly
00:56:02meetings and excursions, to some dark garden nook or path, the verses born to stimulate
00:56:09and stir the blood, the fond caresses, bestowed too soon by trusting lasses.
00:56:26Love's nightly meetings and excursions, to some dark garden nook or path, the verses
00:56:33born to stimulate and stir the blood, the fond caresses, bestowed too soon by trusting
00:56:40lasses.
00:56:56Finally, happiness, an island of stability.
00:57:07I love him.
00:57:08I want to be his wife.
00:57:11I want to have a family so much.
00:57:15We're going to have a boy.
00:57:18Will he ever leave his wife for me?
00:57:26I never was afraid of anything.
00:57:51There were only a few things that really scared me, and my worst nightmare came true.
00:58:02My mother died, and my whole world collapsed.
00:58:07Life lost its meaning to me.
00:58:21I raise my glass to ravaged home, my bitter life, and lonely days with you.
00:58:32I drink to you, to lying lips' betrayal, to deathly frigid eyes, to that the world
00:58:41is cruel and crude, to that we weren't saved by God.
00:58:52So, he never loved me.
00:59:01I heard him on the phone telling his wife that I'm due in a month, and then he'll take
00:59:06my child and deport me.
00:59:10Shock, betrayal, I always knew it was too good to be true.
00:59:21So, he never loved me.
00:59:51Time heals any pain.
01:00:01Slowly, my pain from losing my mom started to go away.
01:00:06I was very vulnerable when I met this Russian guy.
01:00:11He seemed very caring and loving, but I was so wrong.
01:00:52My new boyfriend took some pictures of me.
01:01:04He said it would help him not to miss me so much.
01:01:10I had no clue what was really on his mind.
01:01:20Slavery still exists in our days, even in highly developed countries.
01:01:30So, I was sold to human trafficking.
01:02:21The loss of true feelings and words renders us actors gone deaf or painters gone blind.
01:02:29It's the same loss when women find time has made them no longer gorgeous.
01:02:34But do not try to keep or protect that which was given to you from heaven.
01:02:38We know we're supposed to be like leaven.
01:02:40We're condemned to squander, not to collect.
01:02:43So, walk alone and heal the blind, that in the difficult hour of doubt, you may see your
01:02:48disciples mock and gloat and note the indifference of the crowd.
01:03:19Trust and betrayal walk hand in hand.
01:03:25Wake up, people!
01:03:28Why are your hearts forever closed for love that you so desperately seek?
01:03:33I had nothing to lose anymore and nothing to live for.
01:03:38I am I, and I'm not that, and I will stand up for who I am.
01:03:48I am I, and I'm not that, and I will stand up for who I am.
01:04:18I am I, and I'm not that, and I will stand up for who I am.
01:04:48Listen, if stars are lit, it means there's someone who needs it.
01:04:59It means someone wants them to be, that someone deems those specks of spit magnificent and overwrought.
01:05:07In the swirls of afternoon dust, he bursts in on God, afraid he might be already late.
01:05:13In tears, he kisses God's sinewy hand and begs Him to guarantee that there will definitely be a star.
01:05:20He swears he won't be able to stand that starless ordeal.
01:05:24Later, he wanders around, worried, but outwardly calm.
01:05:28And to everyone else he says, now it's all right, you're no longer afraid, are you?
01:05:33Listen, if stars are lit, it means there is someone who needs it.
01:05:38It means it is essential that every evening at least one star should ascend over the crest of that building.
01:06:08If stars are lit, it means there is someone who needs it.
01:06:38Once again, I found myself on a romantic walk thanks to my boyfriend, not knowing this one would end differently.
01:07:08I found myself on a romantic walk thanks to my boyfriend, not knowing this one would end differently.
01:07:39Pain.
01:07:41Thousand thoughts at once flash back on life.
01:07:45Was it worth it?
01:07:48I want peace and love.
01:07:50America or not.
01:07:52What's the outcome?
01:07:54Search and never give up.
01:07:57Life is a repetition continuum of unlearned lessons.
01:08:01It never ends.
01:08:03Life is a repetition continuum of unlearned lessons.
01:08:07It never ends.
01:08:09It never ends.
01:08:31Leave Russia, sinning, lost and graceless.
01:08:35Leave your land to pray for good and all.
01:08:38I'll cleanse your hands from blood that stains you,
01:08:41and from your heart draw back black shame.
01:08:44The hurts of failure, wrongs that pain you,
01:08:47I'll veil with yet another name.
01:09:09I'll cleanse your hands from blood that stains you,
01:09:13and from your heart draw back black shame.
01:09:17The hurts of failure, wrongs that pain you,
01:09:21I'll veil with yet another name.
01:09:25The hurts of failure, wrongs that pain you,
01:09:29I'll veil with yet another name.
01:09:33The hurts of failure, wrongs that pain you,
01:09:37I'll veil with yet another name.
01:09:46I like it that you're burning, not for me.
01:09:50I like it that it's not for you I'm burning.
01:09:54That the heavy sphere of planet Earth will,
01:09:57underneath our feet, no more be turning.
01:10:00I like it that I can be unabashed and humorous,
01:10:04and not to play with words,
01:10:06and not to redden with a smothering wave
01:10:09when, with my sleeves, I'm lightly touching yours.
01:10:13I like it that, before my very eyes,
01:10:15you calmly hug another.
01:10:18It is well that, for me, also kissing someone else,
01:10:22you will not threaten me with flames of hell.
01:10:25That this, my tender name, not day nor night,
01:10:29you will recall again, my tender love.
01:10:34That never in the silence of the church
01:10:36they will sing Hallelujah, us above.
01:10:39With this, my heart, and this, my hand,
01:10:42I thank you that, although you don't know it,
01:10:45you love me thus.
01:10:47And for my peaceful nights,
01:10:49and for rare meetings in the hour of sunset,
01:10:52that we aren't walking underneath the moon,
01:10:54that sun is not above our heads this morning,
01:10:58that you, alas, are not burning for me,
01:11:01and that, alas, it's not for you I'm burning.
01:11:58But you know she's gone, even though
01:12:25you know she's right by your side.
01:12:33Where are you gonna stay?
01:12:36It doesn't matter.
01:12:38When are you gonna love?
01:12:41It never mattered, cause you walked past me years ago,
01:12:46when you decided to hate yourself.
01:12:53Have you ever reached the point of thinking you're dead?
01:13:03Cause you took the life that you lived to put in her grave.
01:13:14And the time you spent thinking time well spent well is gone.
01:13:23But you can't get her out of your mind,
01:13:28so you follow along.
01:13:35Where are you gonna stay?
01:13:38It doesn't matter.
01:13:40When are you gonna love?
01:13:43It never mattered, cause you walked past me years ago,
01:13:48when you decided to hate yourself.
01:13:55And where are you gonna stay?
01:13:59It doesn't matter.
01:14:01When are you gonna love?
01:14:04It never mattered, cause you walked past me years ago,
01:14:09when you decided to hate yourself.
01:14:16Yourself.